John, Sam & Dean | Sense of home [14x13]

○ spoilers up to 14x13
○ song information in the end of the video
So papa John, huh?
2019 vidding year started for me with the Winchester's family reunion. Gotta say at first I will deny present Mary till I die. I just can't deal with her, I don't like her character, how she acts, and just the whole thing with her coming back is too weird for me. I will live with only s1-5 Mary in my head.
As for the video,it was pretty tricky for me (do I always say so?) 1) this is such a complicated story and there are so many layers to it that it's really hard to combine somewhat full picture of this family 2) I guess the reason why I've started make less "voiceover videos" because I'm bad at them. I just don't know how people make them in big quanity, but head starts to explode when I try to build the storyline of the video. I think where should I start, how it should ended, which quote should lead to the next one ect ect and it's just a giant mess. 3) again it's so damn hard to combine in one video stories of these three people. Like John has his troubles, Sam has his own very difficult relatinoship with John and with hunter's life and other things, Dean, this precious human being, also has this I love you all so much, but you hurt me so much thing, so yeah... tricky it's one word for it.
I guess this video woud be like dozens very much alike ones, because 300th episode will probably inspire lots of people to use pretty similar scenes, but that's okay. I just needed to make something.
The thing is, a bit like Dean, I have daddy issues. I think Dean and John's relationship was one of the reasons why I was so connected to the show. So when papa Winchester makes a visit I can't miss it.
Anyway. I talk to much of course, and nowadays it doesn't seem popular to write such huge descriptions to the videos, but I love talking about creating process, the thoughts behind the video and all this stuff, so maybe some of you would not die of boredom reading it.
I know I maybe terrible at replying comments (though I read them all of course), but now I finally installed a youtube app, so I hope I'll be better.
I also want to thank you all for watching and commenting my videos. After such a long break I thought I would get easily forgotten, but you write very very flattering comments and not only to the last video, but even to the older ones. I maybe can't express my gratitude properly, but it does mean a lot for me and I'm very grateful for all your feedback.
As always hope you enjoy the video!

[@lightsallfading]

Stunning. In every way, this was perfection - I loved the slow, simple beauty of it. I will never understand why the show started writing John as a bad father after JDM became famous, it was a huge disservice to a character that loved his children and did his best to raise them as well as he knew how - for them to have had a normal life given the horrors they knew and were destined to be exposed to would have made no sense. I'm going off track - I loved this, you did a beautiful job. In fact, I think I'll watch it again

[@banannabean1]

You always put so much heart into these videos and do a remarkable job of capturing the essence of the show. I know you said you find these videos hard to make, but you do a phenomenal job! I'm always so excited when I see a new one from you.

[@Alina0405video]

thank you so so much for your words and more than that thank you for sticking around for so long! It means a lot for me! I'm very very flattered!

[@sharonc.8801]

The correlation between the song and the video (aka sam and deans relationship) was absolutely flawless and the way you began and ended the video was just perfect. I actually hadn’t watched a fan vid in a while but like always yours caught my eye . I really liked the part in 1:18-1:27 where it shows sam and john fighting but you cant actually hear what they’re saying you only hear sam explain the reasoning behind his actions . That part actually gave me chills and was just beautifully done by you. I also loved the beginning where dean assures sam that the monsters wont ever get his dad when in the end the very monster he was trying to kill for so long is what killed him and all of it done to protect his sons . He had alot of flaws but just like sam and dean are each other’s weakness Johns sons were his . I especially liked the line where the song says”and your father has made you all that you’ve become ““ and how you paralleled it with sam,dean, and john hugging one last time .There are of course a million other things i loved about your vid but it would take to long to list them all theres just one last thing I’d like to mention. I cannot believe i didn’t know you had dad issues . I too have them and its also a huge reason why I relate so much to the show. Looking back at all your work I somehow admire it even more and see how much of yourself you put into these vids . You are amazing and I’m glad that even though it was difficult to make this vid you still pushed through it . 😊😊😊

[@Alina0405video]

Really? Daddy issues high five! Yeah to be honest vidding this "has made you all that you've become" and put there this "I'm so proud of you" was so emotional for me,because I was (and is) also so influenced by my dad and I also would like him to approve me as a person,so yeah.. This theme of supernatural always was very close to my heart. Thank you so much for everything you've said! The things that you've mentioned and liked about the video, uh, it's just warmed my heart. I'm also very happy you've liked how I've decided to show Sam and John's fight, because for me there's been this thin line between when all these voiceovers become a mess and when you don't hear enough of this fight, so yeah I'm very happy you like it. Thanks one more time for watching and leaving such a nice comment!

[@Charikful]

Oh my, I'll never stop being astonished by all the work and heart, and soul you put into your videos! All the emotions of seeing these characters you've loved for so many years, finally getting such an emotional and perfect moment of reconciliation and vulnerability, seeing these men become kids again in the last episode, such a sweet send-off for John, all of it just pours out of this video and onto my wounded by the last few weeks of the show heart. Thank you so much for making me relive it, your talent truly has no bounds!✨

[@Alina0405video]

oh my, I was not prepared for such comments, thank you so very much, I'm really glad you've enjoyed the video !

[@MiaWinchester794]

YES YES YES!!! I'm so happy you made a video about the episode

[@Barbieqtx3]

I cry every time I watch this.. I just can't get over how beautiful it is.

[@Alina0405video]

aw thank you for watching! This episode was pretty emotional

[@BlackieSwan]

Thank you for blessing my day with this amazing video! 💙

[@Alina0405video]

thank you for watching and commenting on my videos! I'm always happy to see you in a comment section :) (is it weird to say? hope not)

[@drarpitashahvakil2514]

I don't know how i missed this one.. Fabulous job done😮 with the writing too

[@spngirl55]

It's very nice to have you back with a beautiful video 😊 It's truly beautiful and heartwarming

[@Alina0405video]

Thank you so so much, it's very nice of you ☺

[@junejohn4023]

This is absolutely beautiful, it captures the love between the brothers and their dad, and captures why I love this show so much. Thank you.

[@Alina0405video]

Thank YOU!

[@alanak.7539]

You've done it again. Got me right in the feels and I can't even be mad at you. 😂😭 Also, I love that you took the time to explain the thought process that went into creating it. Maybe it's not a common practice, but I think it adds another level of special to hear where you're coming from and get to connect in that way. It just makes it more personal, I don't know. Anyway, love the video, and I'm so happy I found your channel, because the way you can cram the heart and soul of SPN into a couple minutes if vid. is just magic.

[@Alina0405video]

aw thank you so much! Your comment is very flattering! And I very appreaciate you've taken time to read the discription!

[@mlynn8410]

This is so unbelievably beautiful.

[@Alina0405video]

Thank you so much!

[@lil0twilight]

i didn't want to cry and then john said he's proud of them and how could i not cry after that

[@Alina0405video]

It's not possible, just let it be my friend

[@MetroGirlzStation]

What a beautiful video! The song makes it all the more heartbreaking but it's your stunning editing that always gets me. You know how to perfectly match the scenes and put it all together in the most beautiful way. Thanks for this! I love it! :)

[@Alina0405video]

gosh, thank you so much for your kind words!

[@Alina0405video]

gosh, thank you so much for your kind words!

[@MaddieBullock]

OH MY GOSH YOU’RE BACK! I’M GONNA CRY! 😭😭😭😭

[@Alina0405video]

haha you don't know that! you may not! (you probably will)

[@MaddieBullock]

Alina0405video I did! And now I’m watching it again! 😭

[@Alina0405video]

it's a very supernatural's fan thing to do right? find something that makes you cry and then do it a 100 times

[@MaddieBullock]

Alina0405video oh most definitely! I do it a lot too actually. I really hope you’re back with these videos, they’re so beautiful!

[@Alina0405video]

@@MaddieBullock well yeah I'm in a vidding mood lately, so we'll see :) I would say my main problem is time, I vid pretty slow, so when it seems like a big break for viewers, for me it's like "oh my god, I've just uploaded a video and already uploading another one! Daamn"

[@Sylwinka1991]

So good to see you again, Alina!❤ I'm glad that you showed up for celebration of milestone 300th episode. "Lebanon" itself make me emotional when I watched it on Friday but seeing these all beautiful vids about 300th episode make me love that even bigger. You showed the most important scenes with John, Sam and Dean from all 300 episodes of Supernatural, that was beautiful, emotional and amazing journey. I'm so glad that Sam and Dean had a chance to talk to their father, to that he could see how amazing mens they became.❤

[@Alina0405video]

Sylwia, thank you so much! It was great to have this little reunion indeed. Boys always had this unfinished sense with John and now they finally got their goodbye, it was beautiful

[@xGreenEyedMystery]

💜 Beautiful, heartfelt video!

[@slyfer2812]

You are fantastic since day 1 I’ve found your channel. Thank you

[@Alina0405video]

YOU're fantastic! seriosuly, you're a phenominal vidder, I'm very flattered you've liked the video

[@amberdreams_0]

Bawling now... The essence of SPN, our boys and their effed up lives. Love it.

[@Alina0405video]

Thank you!

[@Theorchero]

Man you do such a good job. It's just a musical documentary. You have talent, for sure.

[@Alina0405video]

Thank you very very much!

[@Thirillia]

THIS! It gave me so much feels. You captured the family dynamic so perfectly and I’m just so amazed every time you upload something. You just know how to deliver a message of the show through your videos.

[@Alina0405video]

thank you so much, that's a huge compliment!

[@gracewilliams2904]

Such a beautiful edit! The song lyrics match their storyline so well. I love all the scenes chosen. This is amazing 😭

[@Alina0405video]

Thank you so much! The song is really great and pretty emotional

[@xIchinii]

loved the voices in the begginning with the sound only. made it look like a storytale then the singgin started and so my feelings really loved, as always how u just focous on the expressions, the small details, like u know the perfection of the acting on their expressions or actions. then the "storytale" continued, really loved the conversation with john and sam, all the composition of it 4:10 - bye

[@Alina0405video]

thank you so much my friend! it was pretty emotional episode huh? and yeah 'your father has made you all that you've become" and this goodbye scene was my death

[@xIchinii]

@@Alina0405video amen, and in the end was sam who said goodbye u know? yeah it was the classic feelings. all over again. so emotional..

[@ollowain3004]

Again an amazing video, thank you for your hard work

[@lwphinney]

and now i'm crying all over again. thank you so much for your beautiful videos.

[@Alina0405video]

thank you for watching!

[@lmrourkeable]

Exceptional, well thought out and poignant video! Kudos!

[@Alina0405video]

Thank you so much!

[@dieulinh007]

I always love to read the thoughts of creators, so thanks for the long video description

[@Alina0405video]

aww thank you so much for reading it !

[@stevenhernandez9061]

Damn man, this is deep. The boys have been through so much crap and they honestly deserve a happy apple pie life. They made history and it'll never be forgotten, they will be at the top of the record books. I hope that they go out with a bang and live happy and free of everything, and if they don't then I hope they go out blaze of glory style, juss like they always wanted to. Sam and Dean Winchester are Heroes, Legends, and the best Goddam Hunters ever!!! And good job alina, once again you have made an excellent vid. Your talent is appreciated by all of us

[@Alina0405video]

Thank YOU for watching and commenting! Sorry for the late reply, but I really do appreciate the support. And yeah this episode with John kind of makes you look back at their journey, and man, what a ride. So many obstacles, so many laughs, so many losses, so much of everything, epic story.

[@stevenhernandez9061]

@@Alina0405video Yeah I know, I mean they've been at it for 14 years now, that's a very long time. We basically grew up with them in a way, watching them do what they do all these years. I can honestly say that I will truly miss this show alot

[@Alina0405video]

@@stevenhernandez9061 I've started to watch the show somewhere in the middle of season 7, but still it's been many years and I'm so used to SPN being there, you know? Well I guess we all are. I can't say I'm a big fan of last seasons, so I had some process of slowly letting the show go, but I think it's gonna take some time anyway

[@stevenhernandez9061]

@@Alina0405video Yeah I know what you mean. I myself have been watching this show since season 1 and it has been one hell of a ride, not only for us but for the actors and the rest of the SPN crew. I mean if you think about it seeing a show for 14 years and some change now is crazy because not many shows can say they've made it that far

[@Alina0405video]

@@stevenhernandez9061 Yeah, for actors this must be also wild (if not even more). Like you're doing this project for 15 which takes such a huge part of your life and now they will need to say goodbye to it.

[@Felisia97]

i just became a stan of you, wow the feelings you put into your videos are just wow

[@Alina0405video]

Thank you so much! It's very kind of you!

[@noorzafiahtaufik858]

Just so you know, i enjoy reading the description.. luckily i was watching this video at my workplace, so no tears..😅

[@Alina0405video]

haha thank you so much, both for watching and reading my long description! :)

[@Gentlesideoffury]

HELLO! I'm sorry I haven't visited your videos in so long! It seems my subscription came before the bell function, but I'll be watching again starting now. This is a lovely video! And it's going in my faves!

[@Alina0405video]

no worries at all! Thank you for watching them at all!

[@TheJessy34]

How much i've missed you. I wish I could watch it but i cant since i have to catch up but make sure once i will do it, im gonna come back :)

[@Alina0405video]

aww my dear friend! I've missed you to!! and how I miss your epic beautiful spn vids, you can't imagine. Do you enjoy s14 (if you've watched any episodes)? *I'm asking because I'm in a desperate need of your videos*

[@TheJessy34]

​@@Alina0405video I hope everything is fine with you hun :) Thank you my dear, I miss vidding and honestly idk when i will be back with another SPN video, Im sorry. Also I'm so happy to see you here with another vid and hope many more to come. Nope, I didnt watched S14 yet, I need to watch the second half of s13 first, I'm so behind. Take Care, Hugs

[@micheliewelly]

I love supernatural and the characters along with the fact that this is absolutely amazing and wonderful your videos changed me and sam and dean reminds me of me and my brother and sister along with my family thanks for helping me improve my relationship with them and I love that they’re are always there for each other and im so happy that it got renewed for another season I cannot wait to see whats in store for them next along with their newest people like maggie and jack who I still trust and I think he not gonna be evil like his dad Lucifer

[@Alina0405video]

yeah, spn is all about family :) I'm the only child myself, but supernatural has changed my view on family and friends and yeah.. it's a great influence

[@micheliewelly]

Alina0405video me too I love this show a lot and you took the words right out of my mouth and I cannot wait for more

[@MunsterFlesh]

another beautiful video about my favorite boys from you! and to celebrate the 300th! love it. got me in tears...as always.

[@Alina0405video]

yeah this episode was very emotional indeed

[@marietheres836]

I love this song so much. I'm always thinking about spn while hearing it. It fits so perfect to the series and this edit is perfect, too. I can't stop watching it over and over again. Thank you so much.

[@Alina0405video]

Thank YOU for watching! And the song is really amazing, I love it very much

[@LaNa-xv6rp]

Beautiful! I was so excited to see a new SPN video from you. Thank you!

[@Alina0405video]

Thank YOU for taking time to watch and comment!

[@SwingCasterFilms]

You are one of the greatest ever. Keep being so graceful!! I read the description and it makes me happy knowing you're doing what you love and really trying to show your passion.

[@Alina0405video]

Thank you so so much!

[@kissmrule]

so love this video it so cool and sweet

[@Urkasiasmu8]

Perfect.

[@Alina0405video]

Thank you!

[@TtGg74]

Just so perfect...thank you for this video and all the emotion and love that it brought to my heart

[@Alina0405video]

thank you for watching! glad you've enjoyed!

[@TheJessy34]

INCREDIBLE!!!!

[@Alina0405video]

aw thank you, friend!

[@busra88]

youre the first channel where i watched spn fan videos you are also my favorite. i discovered your channel in 2014 (the name of the video was "sam and dean - somebody to die for" still my favorite) and it was like yesterday, time flies so fast and now there is a final season for spn. it's really sad but i will never forget this channel, these beautiful videos. i swear, every time, i cry when i watch these beautiful videos. you put so much heart and soul into these videos and you're just amazing. I just wanted you to know all these. Thanks for everything.

[@Alina0405video]

oh my god, I don't even know what to say, thank you so so much for your words! Time flies indeed, I can't believe I've been vidding for so long and moreover I can't believe that there are people who're with me since 2014! 5 years damn. I really appreciate it, thank you so much for all your kind words! I'm very touched and flattered

[@busra88]

@@Alina0405video 5 years.. yes and this is exactly what spnfamily fandom supposed to do. I also thanks for your answering. Please always keep doing your beautiful videos and don't forget your channel will be always remembered.

[@Alina0405video]

@@busra88 Thank you once again! It truly means a lot

[@Barbieqtx3]

You will forever be my favorite video maker, especially when it comes to SPN vids. This is so touching and beautiful. A while back I asked what program you used for editing, I have sony vegas pro now but I'm wondering where you get your clips from.

[@Alina0405video]

You're way too kind, thank you so much! Huh clips is the tricky question. You see I download them with torrent files, but it's illegal in many countries you gotta check on that. I know some of the people have DVD's and they use it somehow. I think the best thing is to ask a few video editors, google the information and then try something which will suit you.

[@Alina0405video]

hey, I've just remembered a couple moments which might help you in the future. If you'll be looking for the episodes, try to search with word "WEB" in title, it means the video won't have a watermark in the corner and if you want to have voices without music in the background you need to find episodes with 6ch sound, it means the music and voices will be on separate tracks. Hope it helps.

[@funoneghf]

Finally!! I love this. Every second of it! I’ve missed your edits so much Alina!! Perfect song choice.

[@Alina0405video]

Aww thank you so much! It's very kind of you!

[@emailbecky]

What a beautiful video! Kudos.

[@Alina0405video]

Thank you so much!

[@funoneghf]

So good. You’re one of my favorite viddders. I always love the music you pick. Also I like reading about your process. I always read your descriptions.

[@BeatrizGF1]

We miss you! :) When I saw the notification I freaked out! I love your videos, and like always this one is amazing! Made me cry and remind me why I love the show so much! So, thank you! You did a great work!

[@Alina0405video]

Gosh, thank you so so much for your kind words, it really warms my heart, it's so nice of you! Thank you so much for watching and commenting!

[@mrMadHatterreviews]

Always great to see another video from you :) It was as emotionally devastating as always

[@Alina0405video]

Thank you! I try my best hehe :)

[@Kboss66]

Get out of here about being bad at voiceover videos. Your video about Sam & Dean (1-5) is literally the best supernatural video in existence and no one could ever convince me otherwise. This one is brilliant too.

[@Alina0405video]

you don't even know how happy you've made me. This s1-5 video is a favourite of mine, not even like favourite, but it's the dearest for me, so I'm really happy you like it, thank you so much for your words!

[@FATE522]

The Winchester Family. Such a bittersweet Supernatural fashion to give us the John of the past that was the hardened shell and not the present one wherever he is

[@Alina0405video]

I think it's been a diffcult task to decide how John should be while making such an appearance (I mean being not in his time). Because there's so much between all of them and at the same time so much time has passed.. I think it was pretty good version of John all thing considered and at least boys got their goodbyes.

[@FATE522]

@@Alina0405video but John didn't get his goodbyes and that's what's hard. Because the only way we see a present John is him fighting something he needs Sam and Dean's help to hunt. But it'd be interesting to know if in someway he helped them in every season after he died.

[@Alina0405video]

aah yeah got your point. Well.. guess they couldn't make all in once. Have you enjoyed the episode in general?

[@FATE522]

@@Alina0405video oh I loved it. I just know Supernatural prefers bittersweet endings over happy resolutions. ;) But out of the milestone episodes the 200th remains my favorite. The 300th would be my next favorite and then the 100th. This 14th season is handling the main storyline and monster of the week formula really well though.

[@Alina0405video]

I agree with you, even musicals isn't my thing and I can't say I like when writes try to sort of include fans in the show, still 200th episode has really nice feeling. And yeah I think after previous seasons s14 seems most close to the balance of basic hunting episodes and sam&dean moments

[@fereshtebagheroskooei3929]

My heart

[@lorek33perandfriends47]

Ok, first of all, who gave you the right to make me feel things!? This was incredible! I know you really only do Sam and Dean stuff but if you take song recs there’s a good song called “Jonas and Ezekiel” that I thought would fit Destiel or TFW really well. (Even if you don’t use it, please give it a listen it’s great 👍 ).

[@eeveemaster8902]

Guess who's back Back again With there supernatural edits Read more

[@Barbieqtx3]

Hey Alina! As always, amazing video! I have been wanting to make fan videos myself and I was just wondering where you normally get your clips from. I read that it can be good to get clips from dvds but I wanted to make a video about a show’s season that isn’t on dvd yet! Where do you typically go to access clips for the still-airing seasons of shows that you’re vidding? I would appreciate any help you can give me ❤️ Also, Alina are you still using Sony Vegas Pro for your videos? If so, what version? If not, what are you using instead? Sorry for all the questions! Your videos have inspired me for years and I want to be able to vid as well as you do 🥰

[@Alina0405video]

Hello! Thank you!And no worries, you can ask anything, it's not a problem :) so about clips it's kind of difficult, because well, I use download them through torrent files, but it's illegal in a lot of countries, so if you want to try that way you need to check information if it's okay in your country or not. And yes, I still use sony vegas 13 version now, but I was using 10 version for a long long time and honestly there's no difference (I just changed it because I changed my PC) I probably didn't help much, sorry. If you have any other questions also you can write me on [e-mail]. Or in the comments :) Anyway I wish you luck in vidding!

[@Jeshupulin]

Desde Perú I love U Video ♥ :3 Thank's

[@goodgriefcharliebeef]

No dislikes...I see that Crowley isn't active on KZbin today

[@Alina0405video]

If not Crowley, then Lucifer or somebody else, they'll come,just wait for it :)

[@lilahkane2815]

Your fan video has been highlighted as the SPECIAL Fan Video of the Week in an article on The Winchester Family Business website. We thought it was great! You can check it out and share it here: www.thewinchesterfamilybusiness.com/articles/articles-40/5-episode-related/21490-fan-video-of-the-week-14-13-lebanon-300th-special-edition

[@justcallmemichelle]

1) This was absolutely amazing 💙 2) I certainly COULD NEVER forget you and your videos and I have missed them so much!! I remember back in 2013, when I stumbled across spn, I started to watch a few vidder's religiously and you were one of them 💙 kzbin.info/www/bejne/rXesq4mca9aKoK8

[@justcallmemichelle]

by the way, I was the one who suggested the song "broken crown" for your Sam video waaaay back in the day :) ( kzbin.info/www/bejne/mmWoeGeCmN-Cetk ) I just changed my channel name ;)

[@Alina0405video]

oh my god, oh my god,Michelle , thank you so much! I can't believe you've been with me for such a long time! That "brother" video has been made ages ago haha, thank you so so much for sticking around for all this time, it really means a lot! and oh my, it was you? I was wondering where this person disappeared haha anyway, thanks again, girl, I'm very flattered

[@justcallmemichelle]

@@Alina0405video :) 💙