CRAYON STUDIOS ( Final video for 2nd year coursework. ) Group Members [M2] : Ajaliya Gurung Krisha Joshi Sumedh Shakya Shelina Shrestha Diya Rani Rajkarnikar
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@erislin64933 жыл бұрын
you know it’s getting bad again when you’re watching these type of videos again
@skyysugden39123 жыл бұрын
This is exactly what I thought as soon as I played this video
@SuuEva3 жыл бұрын
Me too
@Tracey.Marie19813 жыл бұрын
Same
@skitz51263 жыл бұрын
...ye..
@Elle-uk5fy3 жыл бұрын
Im just starting
@xivie12393 жыл бұрын
I hate the fact that I'm thinking about food 24/7 it's really affecting my study and hobby and makes me starve then binge :(
@jangh24873 жыл бұрын
please eat so you can focus more give yourself one or two weeks break:((
@mairabutt11553 жыл бұрын
This is the same case with, like i cannot relate more, the more i restrict, the worse it gets, and then i get ashamed even by thinking about food
@stannctorbeasquare28093 жыл бұрын
Same
@tanvinag84643 жыл бұрын
@@stannctorbeasquare2809 yeah l too have the same issue. BTW you don't have to worry. I Stan nct.
@teddyblushmovies3 жыл бұрын
Ikr. And if I eat more than I usually eat then I’ll just faint we’ll mine is different
@ishwari82203 жыл бұрын
I love this! Not everyone with an eating disorder is stick thin, thank you.
@theeloquenteccentric83213 жыл бұрын
if you are overweight being anorexic will only help, not hurt you. Its only when you breach the healthy weight and go too deep into starving yourself that it can become a problem. Edit: Its incredible how obnoxiously obsessive and offensive people can get over something so minuscule as a totally logical statement albeit unconventional. What I was trying to get across with my comment was that an anorexic mentally- when you are in state of excess weight- would help you lose weight as long as you don't go too deep. A healthy person can refrain from eating for prolonged periods of time without much health risk as long as they keep hydrated and have body fat for fuel. I personally(and people I know) can go weeks without eating and experience health and mental benefits from it. The body is designed for prolonged caloric deficits and is optimized for running on body fat/ketones when in a fasted state. Fact is, when you are overweight being in a caloric deficit until you reach a normal BMI shouldn't be something a healthy person could die from non the less worry about. Quite the opposite it can prolong their life and help their mood. Do you honestly think that we are designed to eat 2000 calories every day? How exactly do you think bears sleep an entire winter without eating and still live to tell the tale every spring? How come certain aboriginal tribes only eat on rare occasions once or twice a week and still live fairly long? How come it fasting is proven by scientists the preferred state of the body? You tell me.
@lexi16783 жыл бұрын
Whimsical Wacko If you’re overweight it can be good to go on a diet, but it’s never good to starve yourself.
@icloveshs3 жыл бұрын
@@theeloquenteccentric8321 please educate yourself. This is so incorrect. Anorexia is a horrible disorder that takes over your brain,body and life. It doesn't matter if your overweight, healthy, or underweight.. it's bad for your health. As someone who stopped eating breakfast and lunch for a year to try to lose weight because I was over weight this is extremely rude to say!
@Brighe-20073 жыл бұрын
@@icloveshs exactly!
@els_3663 жыл бұрын
@@theeloquenteccentric8321 anorexia does not help ANYONE. No matter your weight, it isn't simply a diet. They eat in amounts that wouldn't even provide suitable nutrition to a BABY because they've been told stuff like what you just said, and because of their "perfect" role models in the media. You don't just become anorexic, lose weight and then go back to eating a healthy amount. It stays with you for an extreme amount of time, haunting you and infecting your mind, taunting you. It is a lethal mental illness and you shouldn't be saying that it's fine for an overweight person to starve themselves. You should be ashamed, people have lost their lives to this and you're acting like its healthy
@hidinginthecommentsss3 жыл бұрын
I was able to watch this while having dinner without it bothering me too much and I'm kinda proud of myself✨
@angelhellokitti3 жыл бұрын
Omg you don’t understand seeing this comment is actually so helpful I’m doing better but seeing all the other comments was kinda triggering but urs makes me feel better like maybe I should keep going too..
@whocares78043 жыл бұрын
Im proud of you,keep going😄💞
@inesclaesson52573 жыл бұрын
Good Job my love 💗💗💗💗
@ss.888xx3 жыл бұрын
So proud of you!! 🥺❤️
@miraemilia60843 жыл бұрын
Congratulatiooons! That's so amazing
@robynmari42873 жыл бұрын
seeing an asian girl, who isn’t stick thin made me feel heard. knowing that there are others out there like me, makes me feel less alone
@summerisstaying67624 жыл бұрын
i love how realistic this short movie is, like relatable for me :(((( i couldn't stop myself from crying,,, and i hope peace finds us all someday
@kyrakylie91293 жыл бұрын
Me too....
@Jessica-mw6ip3 жыл бұрын
How do you feel
@sweatingfrommyeyes7673 жыл бұрын
Hey if you want we can talk i have Instagram im_emmiy
@helenculbreath29113 жыл бұрын
Me too I have a twin who compares herself to me I had an accident in a wheel chair now my twin I’m a 138 lbs what do you weigh what do you weigh she won’t shut up I have no peace at all sorry I’m just scared of what’s happening my actions this last week sorry
@daynasafranek7807 Жыл бұрын
Yes. Me too. We deserve that.
@moonraye49423 жыл бұрын
God when she was putting the thinspo quotes on her wall... my eyes are sweating...
@angelicassubs84533 жыл бұрын
I used to write them on my body
@BENDOVER-hr1pn3 жыл бұрын
Cheri Amor bdjsjdjd me
@magdafigueroa57293 жыл бұрын
Same, used to have them as a wallpaper
@marianaoliveira69703 жыл бұрын
i used to do the EXACT same thing
@ellaheap42963 жыл бұрын
Yeah, I felt so called out
@britneycallanan48244 жыл бұрын
This deserves more attention
@amazingp-y3j3 жыл бұрын
my brain: aight, here's what you're gonna do. you're gonna watch this video and trigger yourself and I'm not gonna tell you that you got triggered till you relapse
@Yellow-og3hd3 жыл бұрын
Please dont, you are the best person. Even tho we dont know eachother in real life. You are still amazing 💞
@sweatingfrommyeyes7673 жыл бұрын
Hey if you want we can talk i have Instagram im_emmiy ok
@yomama16383 жыл бұрын
Same though lol
@sidereaper28102 жыл бұрын
Even if you relapse, you got better before, meaning you can get better again
@christmasvibezheadquarters59823 жыл бұрын
okay, but the real question is: how tf does youtube know to put this on my recommended-
@maddyhawk12523 жыл бұрын
SAME
@christmasvibezheadquarters59823 жыл бұрын
@@maddyhawk1252 it gives me the *creeps*
@Milly.slays.3 жыл бұрын
KZbin and Google know everything always listening
@yomama16383 жыл бұрын
Same though
@idioting3 жыл бұрын
because you watch alot of these videos, it's categorised
@densedom48493 жыл бұрын
When her friend offered some of that cake that hurt because I feel so uncomfortable and scared eating infront of people or eating a full meal with people around I dont even eat Christmas breakfast anymore and my family forces food on me in the morning it angers me where I want to yell no and leave I only feel ok eating with my dad or brother
@sweatingfrommyeyes7673 жыл бұрын
Hey if you want we can talk i have Instagram im_emmiy okay
@kessingtonosifoosayimwense34933 жыл бұрын
@@sweatingfrommyeyes767 can we talk?
@mhm778873 жыл бұрын
Is this how many cases of eating disorders start? At first I just went on a healthy diet, eating okay, just healthy, low calorie foods. Then I started eating less. Then counting calories obsessively. Then eating became stressful. I don't have anorexia, not yet, but I might have some form of ED. And I don't want to stop, I will though.
@transmogrifying3 жыл бұрын
You don't need to be stick thin to have anorexia. I think that's where society has a lot to catch up on. People assume that you're only anorexic when you're stick thin and your body's barely able to keep you alive. I'm at what most would consider healthy weight and I'm anorexic.
@mhm778873 жыл бұрын
@@transmogrifying hey, is this suppose to be an information comment, or...? I never mentioned needing to be stick thin. I'm not stick thin and I have undereaten, shown signs of ED, I don't want anorexia though. I agree with your point though, just a bit confused. I hope you recover ❤️
@transmogrifying3 жыл бұрын
@@mhm77887 i guess it's more toward you saying "you don't have anorexia, at least not yet" i'm just trying to let people know that it's possible to be anorexic without being underweight. Anorexia's more about what you said, undereating, and i hope you get better too😄
@peptheforeversuperiorbeing30003 жыл бұрын
I'm basically beginning to starve myself and I know I need to stop but I just can't. My brain convinces me that I have to eat tiny amounts on the occasions that I do eat, I'm also trying to stop counting calories but I simply can't.
@bimbobotox3 жыл бұрын
well it's a definitely a disordered mindset...
@meganleblanc34733 жыл бұрын
It just goes to show how serious an eating disorder can be and the damages it can do
@malakmokhtari6484 жыл бұрын
Starve binge purge repeat
@ytcomments8063 жыл бұрын
@Bianca Moleya bby you are beautiful, we are here for you
@annalia63293 жыл бұрын
Bianca Moleya yes
@queenie09213 жыл бұрын
😔
@sargunkour11893 жыл бұрын
this is me for past 7 months....i went from 77 to 48
@annalia63293 жыл бұрын
Sargun Kour woah..did u just starve? Or like workout and stuff
@sunshinehobi.-.90874 жыл бұрын
its so sad that nobody is given attention to this piece of art. this video is basiclly telling my story except that i made myself throw up and harm myself as a punichment so i dont do it again.
@sweatingfrommyeyes7673 жыл бұрын
Hey if you want we can talk i have Instagram im_emmiy
@maddypalumbo52933 жыл бұрын
You're not the only one. Stay safe
@sabining143 жыл бұрын
If you need help also text me if you want ig: @_jeonsabinna_
@maddypalumbo52933 жыл бұрын
@@sabining14 aww ur all so sweet!
@river39163 жыл бұрын
hey are you ok?
@autismvampyre3 жыл бұрын
i love this portrayal of an eating disorder, i relate to it a lot more than other films. in movies people with eating disorders are always thin and then they become severely underweight and whenever they purge it looks a lot less disgusting than it is. this is way more realistic, good job
@Natalie-xf8cx3 жыл бұрын
I agree!! There may be a lot of suffering from anorexia but I do think bulimia is a much more hidden issue to be mentioned
@shannonanniebrennan3 жыл бұрын
hey, i’m here to tell you there is hope :) only 6 months ago i was in the depths of anorexia, it ruined everything, relationships, happiness, social life, just about anything you can think of my eating disorder ruined. but i made the right choice and reached out for help, and i’m now steady and happy in recovery:) my birthday is in 8 days and i’m going to eat cake and just enjoy life because i’m not letting calories control me anymore and neither should you. i promise you, there is a light at the end of this tunnel and i know you’ve heard that a million times and you don’t believe it but neither did i and now i’m here. i love you take care of yourself
@andrea-ic1uf3 жыл бұрын
you restrict for so long. when you do get the food you want, you eat until everything is gone and starve for days then binge then starve. it's a cycle.
@kaylinnn1393 жыл бұрын
fr its annoying because everytime i do that i gain like 5 pounds back
@devina2053 жыл бұрын
😓😔😭how can I end it.....
@palingsamne59103 жыл бұрын
Exactly
@autumnspring51163 жыл бұрын
Yuppideyupp
@sweatingfrommyeyes7673 жыл бұрын
Hey if you want we can talk i have Instagram im_emmiy okay.
@Samsotired3 жыл бұрын
You know your not ok when you start wacthing these for motivation 😀
@peachytears45294 жыл бұрын
Nobody: The anorexics watching this to motivate themselves***
@jupiter52874 жыл бұрын
MEEEEEEEEEE
@magdajenickova16734 жыл бұрын
I-
@reginaradne76384 жыл бұрын
:'(
@oliviatutko85644 жыл бұрын
gamingwithjaz i’m so sorry that you’re having to deal with that bub.. i’m sending you love and hoping that you can feel better about yourself soon
@johanthoelen54524 жыл бұрын
Don’t expose me like that hahaha :((((
@antoniskoinakis3614 жыл бұрын
I was anorexic ... Jumped on being bulimic , this really touched me
@longestname8174 жыл бұрын
I’m so sorry :( I’m anorexic too
@antoniskoinakis3614 жыл бұрын
@@longestname817 Just try to do something about it without putting yourself on a difficult position . Avoid thoughts and some unnecessary things that depress you . Find activities to kill your time. Eventually if you find a new schedule your life will be better even if you don t recover from your ed ... I am still bulimic but i found some things that i can do after 2years that can help me stop thinking about food and not binge eating even for 2to 3months.
@ABABABABABABABABABABBBBBB4 жыл бұрын
PsyQo Banes set a goal to become a 1000lbs freak like the hulk
@longestname8174 жыл бұрын
Albin what
@longestname8174 жыл бұрын
Albin are you saying I should be anorexic?
@karenbaird74023 жыл бұрын
Having an eating disorder IS LIKE Trying to fight a terminal illness and die at the same time I want to get well for my parents but the disease Progress's
@kaylinnn1393 жыл бұрын
reverse for me i want to loose weight for my parents but i wanna get better for me
@mintandfruits2 жыл бұрын
Part of me wants my health and old life back, but the other part wants to lose weight, control, do whatever shit I want, and stay with this “friend.”
@MamaToFive3 жыл бұрын
My daughter is about to graduate from RIT (Rochester Institute of Technology) with a Bachelor's in the Fine Arts. She just had to do her final film, which was finished not long ago. It was mental health-related, too. I can so appreciate these small independent films and the filmmakers behind them! I am so proud to watch these films, knowing how much blood, sweat, and tears have gone into making them. Good work! ~A Proud RIT Parent :)
@embestrid2 жыл бұрын
that is amazing!! i hope the project turned out well. agreed, these small independent films can be the most beautiful 🤍
@jadelynnray4 жыл бұрын
beautiful acting and the music adds so much,,, i love it!
@alexnovahickman316 Жыл бұрын
perfect representation of the binge-restrict cycle. everyone expects someone with ana to not binge, but very few times is that the case, and people with ana do purge, but it's part of their long-lasting restrict cycle unlike bulimia. this vid is honestly one of the most accurate representations of eds ive ever seen. good job.
@pearlnightwalker45683 жыл бұрын
I’m so happy that people are finally able to address the problem of binge-eating after forcing a diet on yourself, and the fact that people with an ED aren’t always like- stick figures.
@ily9da3 жыл бұрын
it’s never ‘enough’
@_e_16573 жыл бұрын
Who’s that guy on your pfp
@ily9da3 жыл бұрын
@@_e_1657 he’s yoongi from bts!
@sabining143 жыл бұрын
I swear armys are everywhere i love it❤💜
@reenamishra89693 жыл бұрын
I never looked thin even when I starved for years, ate 1 piece of bread a day, drank a gallon of water to stay full, exercised for hours without eating. People loved how pale I was "porcelain skin". 45 kgs 5'5" my friends kept calling me chubby, I kept starving myself. I was never thin enough, until I crashed, I nearly died of severe anemia, prone to brain haemorrhage. It took me 3 years to be back to normal. My request to everyone going through this.. Please do not listen to anyone, prioritise yourself, have opinion of yourself through your eyes. My best friend was the one who fatshamed me, she'll never get it. And I don't care.
@alexandraf51193 жыл бұрын
This appears on my recommendations right on the day I failed with my recovery... It's always "I'm almost there" it's always just a little bit more, and just like that years have gone by
@yourlocalcatboy15222 жыл бұрын
imagine having the courage to put the thinspo on the wall like that...
@easybakeoven153 жыл бұрын
I struggle with self image a lot. While I very thankfully do not have an eating disorder, I wish I could push myself to be better. Work out. Eat healthier. And yet I don’t have the energy to do it. An eating disorder is not the “pretty” mental disorder. It’s more than that. Much more. In media and in movies it’s portrayed as forcing yourself not to eat. It shows purging on food as eating a lot, running into the bathroom, and running out and being “pretty” and “slim” again. This shows the cold, hard truth of an eating disorder. It wraps around your mind and changes the way you view yourself and everything around you. It shows the dark side, or really what an eating disorder truly is. I hope any of you struggling with a disorder to get better, and I know it’s hard but you CAN heal. You are NEVER “too far gone”. You can heal and get better and I promise it’s not over yet. You have purpose. You are beautiful and amazing just the way you are. I love you, and hope you’re okay.
@raxinneorongan9663 жыл бұрын
I cried while watching this. This the whole representation of my life during quarantine... Im obsess to loose weight that I got into this rabbit hole (binge-eating and throwing up) I wish I could cure this. It really affects my mental health 😟😞
@annewithane78763 жыл бұрын
Binge on things take up space in your stomach without a lot of calories, like raw veggies. Don't purge, it doesn't work and it destroys your teeth
@someoneswig12633 жыл бұрын
@@annewithane7876 is it also a disorder when you do the same but without purging
@annewithane78763 жыл бұрын
@@someoneswig1263 binge? Yeah, binging is disordered. But it isn't as bad as binging and purging
@veronicawarszawska69553 жыл бұрын
Definitely seek help. I would talk to someone about it. You can work on it. It's up to you to make yourself better.
@canyouactuallydont49973 жыл бұрын
For anybody reading this, please remember that you are loved, and that your body deserves nourishment. I don't know what it's like to struggle with this illness, but please please please remember to take care of yourself. You don't need to obsess over calories. They will not kill you, they will not make you fat. You are beautiful in your natural state, and your body deserves your love. You deserve to be more than skin and bones. Skinny is not beautiful, It is unhealthy , so please, for your future self, get help.
@mollie-maiellmer66072 жыл бұрын
stop being insensitive and educate yourself. the fact you don’t even know what it’s like to have anorexia and still consider giving this shitty advice is triggering and disgusting.
@canyouactuallydont49972 жыл бұрын
@@mollie-maiellmer6607 I'm really sorry this made you so angry. I have struggled with eating disorders before, just not anorexia. I'm not sure how this is insensitive or triggering in and of itself, especially when the video itself is about anorexia. It would be nice if you could explain to me why what I said was disgusting instead of just tearing me a new one. Clearly I wrote this with good intentions, so I don't see why you had to be so mean about it.
@vanessarodriguez69173 жыл бұрын
i like the small detail of her wearing the white dress that she couldn’t fit into when she meets her friend
@WittyDiablo3 жыл бұрын
I remember skipping breakfast and lunch and I only ate dinner never all of it, though even my parents noticed, I knew it hurt them for some reason i just snapped out of it and started binge eating but after that and having a kidney stone i've had trouble gaining weight not that i'm super skinny but i used to gain weight so much easier, I don't know if what I had could even be considered as anorexia but i can assure starving yourself is never good.
@siennavereb92133 жыл бұрын
You know it’s bad when you watch these types of videos again and you can relate
@neekiegiri97223 жыл бұрын
It's really nice to see nepalese raising awareness on ed I'm really surprised that was a really awesome work Nepali sisters keep on going ❤
@livviebaby72273 жыл бұрын
im so glad i dont have an eating disorder, that looks really sad :(
@_e_16573 жыл бұрын
Your name and pfp is so cursed!😆
@archangelashley3 жыл бұрын
we clearly see it, kim..
@atlaxxedits5643 жыл бұрын
my binge eatin ass starts working out, skipping meals, and drinking water so i could drown in it when i relaise what i am doing
@nickyrocha3 жыл бұрын
Is that a eating disorder? I though everyone did this
@crow.-.66933 жыл бұрын
Watching this when you have anorexia binge eating type hits hard because all of this, is what I go through. The starving and/or purging, then bingeing, the guilt for bingeing, and then purging and/or starving. It's a cycle I can't stop and I kinda don't want to stop
@goldf1sh6343 жыл бұрын
It’s amazing how you put less well known signs of an ED. Like covering up skin (where she’s trying on dresses)
@alienc0mplex2073 жыл бұрын
Me being 13 and already seeing a psychologist because of an eating disorder-
@mijnjasjuuuhhhh89753 жыл бұрын
ok sis
@Noel_Wood3 жыл бұрын
Mijnjasjuuuhhhh why’d you say “ok sis”
@peptheforeversuperiorbeing30003 жыл бұрын
yeah I've been there.
@Ash._1473 жыл бұрын
@Annie Strawbsie hey! I’m 14 and currently struggling with a ED and been in treatment for about 5 weeks now! We definitely can get through this together!!!!.
@Bella-md3rx3 жыл бұрын
same
@trainwithme34623 жыл бұрын
guys i understand some of you are making these comments to try to make it easier for you. please don’t normalize not eating enough this could actually kill y’all. start eating. if you feel like you can’t and it’s too hard because of the voices in ur head seek help i’m begging y’all.
@sma11bean3 жыл бұрын
im trying im really trying, its so fucking hard tho.
@trainwithme34623 жыл бұрын
@@sma11bean i know it hard. i’m proud that you are trying tho.. if you ever need to just rant or even just talk my instagram is @maya_onfire
@trainwithme34623 жыл бұрын
i know it’s hard*
@sma11bean3 жыл бұрын
@@trainwithme3462 yeah, idrk if i wanna talk ab it bc yeah, thank you tho
@sma11bean3 жыл бұрын
imma follow you anyways tho lol
@gravyona_213 жыл бұрын
I’ve recently tried to get better. I’m eating more than 1000 calories now ( a forbidden number when I was starving myself. ) I could go days eating only upwards of 500 cals. It hurt to stand, I was so dizzy I felt like I was going to pass out and never wake up. I danced until my legs shook, I don’t think my body could take how much deficit I was in. Yet, I miss those days. I miss feeling light and boney, and whenever I felt dizzy, I felt like I was getting somewhere. I think I’m relapsing please don’t like this comment
@100xfun53 жыл бұрын
Please don't.
@user-hb3qv1eh5e3 жыл бұрын
I PROMISE you, i felt the exact same way, i didnt want to be better, but trust me, the feeling of hapiness after recovery is INCREDIBLE
@beetle16603 жыл бұрын
You got this, I believe in you.
@audriam.38783 жыл бұрын
How was your day today?
@heatherstone56533 жыл бұрын
same i love it
@suzie8473 жыл бұрын
I'm tryna recover n ryt now I ate noodles 4bananas, 1apple, I chocolate, fried peanuts n chickpea 😌n I'm proud of myself
@Alyssa5013 жыл бұрын
This is so real, thank you for creating this. Shining light on the reality of what someone goes through with an eating disorder. I’ve been dieting since I was 12, developed bulimia at 20 and still struggling at 25.
@chloe_hi54334 жыл бұрын
I was confused for a sec I thought she weighed 70lbs pounds I was like wat but yeah kg
@304b3 жыл бұрын
We love how America measures temp and fricken weight differently from everyone else🤣🙈👏
@chloe_hi54333 жыл бұрын
Ostrumux AJ lol ikr 😂
@ri-eq4on3 жыл бұрын
In India it's kg lol
@chloe_hi54333 жыл бұрын
chiyo audio yeah
@icemacchiato2 жыл бұрын
i used to watch so many of these as a 8 year old, years later i have an ed. that aged well
@lilym91213 жыл бұрын
I dont understand i eat like 1,500 a day an input you can live off of and I still gain like 2 pounds, its just easier to starve myself
@buffalosaucemakesmytoescur41713 жыл бұрын
please don’t starve yourself. I’ve been through it. Weight gain is not a bad thing. Please I’m begging you to please try eating more. I know me saying eat doesn’t help at all, but consider recovery please. 1/5 people with anorexia die, it’s very dangerous. Please do not starve yourself. If you need to talk ever lmk
@asavelayoung73153 жыл бұрын
Skip breakfast
@grass67403 жыл бұрын
Don't do that. Your body is probably in calorie deficit. Please realize your body is doing autocanninalism right now. Your body is eating itself if you starve yourself. At some point if this continues you won't even be able to shower without risk of a heart attack. Please GO GET HELP. Life isn't a scale it's an experience.
@user-kx5se6ee6x3 жыл бұрын
@@asavelayoung7315 nonono!!!!!! Breakfast is the most important meal, as it's basically the fuel for your body, it's what keeps your body going NEVER skip breakfast
@user-kx5se6ee6x3 жыл бұрын
There's no point in starving yourself, because eating less food slows down your metabolism, which means you'd gain weight faster. Instead, eat more, but smartly, don't eat too much fat and oil and increase foods like vegetables, eggs and rice in your meals (or search up on google meal recipe that don't contain lots of fat). Doctors say that starving yourself is not important, what's important is excersize and eating smartly. Don't do this to yourself! It's not good for you, you'll be so fraile that you cant even bend down properly.
@katherinebutterfly62143 жыл бұрын
You know it’s hard. I’m a dancer, have been for 9 years now, I’m always comparing myself to the others. And at 12 you don’t rlly realize that your skipping meals or eating less. You realize your wait: 120lbs, I hate it, I’m not proud. You realize your size/proportions: waist 25, thighs 20. You realize the small things, the little details. You only think abt how everyone is 30 lbs less than you. And it’s hard when ppl ask why you don’t eat lunch, or breakfast. Or why you feel disgusting after eating a snack. Idk know if I have a problem, and idk why I’m so scared, but I am. I’m rlly scared rn, and idk why but I just am.😖 Edit: ok thx for the love, but I’m not 120lbs anymore, I’m around 116-117 (it changes throughout the day) idk why but I’m just adding that in. Also my waist, and thighs have almost gone down an inch kk.🥰🥰
@celestialcrisis4733 жыл бұрын
I know it’s hard but please eat what you can, you are perfect the way you are Dont think otherwise you can do this, you may not take the words of a stranger but I’m sure you’ve got this
@eupoo.10823 жыл бұрын
You're twelve? Ok, 120 for a twelve year old is a HEALTHY WEIGHT. If everyone your age is 30 lb less than you, they must be freaking dwarves otherwise they're underweight. Alright? 120 is the weight of a happy, healthy kid and I beg you don't feel bad about yourself. When I was 12 I was 120 lbs, and I was fine. I was perfectly fine. Please don't hate yourself, don't be scared. Everything will get better. Make sure you eat, you need food to grow and for your brain to develop properly. Just make sure you get sun and enough exercise. You don't need to be skinny. You need to be healthy. Do you understand? Don't worry. Everything will get better.
@katherinebutterfly62143 жыл бұрын
Eunice Yang -_- thx, it’s weird but when I eat, I feel like I did something wrong, and when I’m hungry I feel beautiful, and in control. But I’ll try, um ya thx it’s just hard sometimes🥰🥰✨✨✨✨✨
@eupoo.10823 жыл бұрын
@@katherinebutterfly6214 no problem. just know that you are beautiful no matter what and you don't need to be skinny. :))))
@katherinebutterfly62143 жыл бұрын
Eunice Yang -_- thx sm, It’s just kinda weird, idk thxxxxx xxxx 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰✨✨✨✨✨✨✨
@Legitcheeto6 ай бұрын
The worst thing about an eating disorder is when you start you can’t go back. It usually starts with someone telling you you need to eat less, that you should lose weight, or something like that. Then you decide to eat less one day. But it’s never just “one day.” Because soon you realize you don’t remember a day where you aren’t thinking about how to eat less. “Eating less” turns into only eating one meal a day, only eating one meal a day turns into starving yourself. Then you start to see the numbers on the scale slowly going down. It’s become an addiction. Sometimes it crosses your mind to try and eat something but then you think to yourself “If I look like this while not eating then how much will I weigh when if I go back to normal” and if you do eat a full meal you feel horrible. But you don’t just feel horrible, you also feel extremely happy to finally stop the constant hunger. But now a normal dinner with your family doesn’t feel the same and you still have that horrible feeling every time you put the fork to your lips. Every time the lunch bell rings it feels like a burden to open your lunch pail and actually eat something. Then you remember that this all started from “one day” that you tried to “eat less”. Once you start you can’t go back.
@quinnmelvin68443 жыл бұрын
Ok but the dresses arent gonna fit if you have 16 sweaters on underneath.
@yomama16383 жыл бұрын
Fr though she's already so pretty idk why she would wanna change
@jasminegrigule57383 жыл бұрын
@@yomama1638 its a mental illness u think ull get prettier if u losse some more and more and more and its sooo hard
@patriciapat21063 жыл бұрын
I WAS LOOKING FOR A COMMENT LIKE THIS. THATS WHAT I THOUGHT
@karinapineda62453 жыл бұрын
Since everybody is saying theyre story i will tell mine: So im 12 and ive always been rlly skinny which was hard for me to gain weight but i was eating perfect and i was healthy since corona virus came back i was eating alot i love eating but at some point my own step mother said that i got a fat stomach and when her mother came over and visited she said i got fatter cheeks, since i was getting clothes out that didn't fit me and my stepmother was just surprised because she said im getting fat and i have been having those clothes for years and i told her well i have been having those clothes for years and my stepmom isn't i dontwant to sound rude but she isn't "fit" either she has been working out and stuff so i decided why not i have a perfect body just not a flat stomach and i got insecure about it looking the mirror all the time just starring of my stomach so i didn't decide to go on a diet but i saw a youtuber who said her secrets to having a flat stomach and eating everything she wanted i watched it and she said that she eats smaller meals so i only ate 3 meals per day max and i would try to eat smaller have a smaller plate of food every time i did and i started getting headacks and was tired cold my hair started falling out when i brushed it and i was hoping since eating smaller meals i would get a flat stomach and exercising well all of that i searched it up and i was getting almost all the symptoms of me being anorexic and i almost started crying and a few days later i started eating more and i don't get headache's anymore as much and my hairs isn't falling anymore but im still very insecure about my stomach i feel like im falling back in the track of getting a eating disorder today i ate chicken rice and veggies but my body wanted more food and i did but im still hungry and still want to eat but it pases away i still don't consider having a disorder im scared of considering that i had a eating disorder im not sure if i did also My dad started realizing that i was eating less. Dont ever let someones appearance about you ever get to you you are beautiful idc if ur chubby skinny anything you are unique nobody has the perfect body and if u think u do girl what are you doing here go have fun be yourself we are all unique in our own ways.
@kayzbuilds45483 жыл бұрын
omg Awnn your amazing and it’s crazy how much confidence a person can loose just by one person saying something rude, people need to learn to stfu and keep it to there self ! And btw I hope you get better girl, any updates of what is happening? I’m here to listen
@kittymckinlay19282 жыл бұрын
omg! u r sooo right! Im 13, i dont hv an ED but I do know some1 who has one, and guys its so hard to deal with one but thank you for sharing ur stories! Also we live in a society where every1 says being fat is bad and being skinny is good. But ppl r so much more than their how they look like. We have goals and can reach potential. Everyone is amazing and special in their own way. Thank u for sharing ur story, for ppl struggling with an ED just know that u r strong and although its so hard to keep in mind, remember that you are so much more than wat u look like
@matildalamb14503 жыл бұрын
i have anorexia but no one will ever understand because i’m not as skinny as the typical standard for anorexia. my friends always ask why i don’t eat at school yet i stay so “healthy” little do they know
@whathappensin_vegas3 жыл бұрын
Omg this is actually one of the most relatable things I’ve ever seen, but I hope ur doing okay now since ur comment was from 4 months ago
@matildalamb14503 жыл бұрын
@@whathappensin_vegas Thank youuuu I am doing better because I’ve been spending less time at school due to lockdown but it’s still pretty bad at school also I’m sorry you relate to that because beauty standards and things are so toxic :(
@misswiddershins2 жыл бұрын
Lived this for 35 years. Very good short, actually.... brilliant.
@siobhanharney12153 жыл бұрын
So accurate, makes me so sad, I wouldn't let my worst enemy go through it
@arjungautam36444 жыл бұрын
Wow nice diya.. Natural acting.. 😊 😊 😊 good luck
@tymorris47084 жыл бұрын
Everyday struggle
@notflorette48333 жыл бұрын
for everybody out there struggling: you can and deserve to recover! after 5 years of being sick and miserable, I've been in recovery for about 2 years now and it's the best decision I ever made! I still can't say I'm fully recovered, but I'm at a normal weight now, eating normal sizes of food and treating my body gently. life is so better now. you can do this. p.s. you don't need to have an eating disorder or to restrict to be thin, alright? having an ED means you're miserable and sad and sick, not that you'll get thin faster or discipline yourself better.
@aasisvlogs80444 жыл бұрын
Content and her act dope 👌
@kaaastid10672 жыл бұрын
Good short film! To all of you who are suffering: It's possible to get better. I'm waiting for you on the other side. Keep going!
@meow-fb1vd3 жыл бұрын
The best and realistic Short Film I have ever seen..good job.
@xoxolilyartfilms2 жыл бұрын
This video is so deeply impactful--it deserves so many more views and so much more attention!!
@x_Grym_133 жыл бұрын
This was actually really well done. You often see these mini-movies misrepresenting things but this is pretty much spot on. Thank you.
@loulou10583 жыл бұрын
One of the bests i've seen, it really shows the truth about eating disorders
@emklee44 жыл бұрын
Love this video. Been watching it for weeks now. Such an accurate representation of eating disorders. Do you have Instagram?? 💞 Love this. Keep up the good work 👏🏼
@diarani67944 жыл бұрын
Yes I do!
@emklee44 жыл бұрын
@@diarani6794 hey, sorry for the super late reply- but do you mind sharing it? I'd love to follow you on there!! You're super talented and to this day this is one of my favorite videos!
@Emma-yh2vu3 жыл бұрын
i teared up so hard.. I know how she feels...I was in that same condition two years ago... my mom got worried about me not eating... it was so hard.. all for the sake to look pretty... now I don't really care anymore... I've learned to love myself... and I started to mix it.. eating both healthy and junky...i pray for people who are going through eating disorders ..I hope they make a break through ...and love themselves just the way they are ❤❤❤
@leonorvarela19233 жыл бұрын
you know for a fact its getting worse when you're watching these to pass time and to trigger yourself
@alishatamang37213 жыл бұрын
Love the way you've portrayed this. Incredible! So proud of you❤
@simp4anything2d3 жыл бұрын
for everyone just know that even if you think you're all alone going through this, you're not, a lot of people care about you, even if it's just strangers on the internet ❤️ don't ever give up and I'm so proud of you for everything ❤️❤️
@sukybasasavage12292 жыл бұрын
Thank you for this i am a bit bigger than her been struggling for 17 yrs and because of that I've been told I don't have a problem this hit me in the heart I don' really binge its just regular meals at this point
@treb.16553 жыл бұрын
This is an amazing short!! Very accurate and realistic I could feel the pain of the binge and the immediate feeling to get it out of your body and start the cycle again 😖
@yevavandemoortele74413 жыл бұрын
Not me every time i stand up getting dizzy
@kathrynking4853 жыл бұрын
and that's on ✨low iron levels✨
@q-tiptingz71973 жыл бұрын
Just a reminder, for anyone who reads this. Anorexia, bulimia, bpd, binge eating, etc are all eating disorders, not weight disorders.
@BeeLiss-bs2cd4 ай бұрын
bpd??? its a personality disorder
@aj56503 жыл бұрын
This is an excellent piece of cinematic work, as well as a realistic and poignant depiction. Thank you.
@alisa6170Ай бұрын
Why do I find films like these to be so comforting
@6eue5823 жыл бұрын
It's like watching my daily life, it brokes my heart how hard i try but i can't get over it
@juliafiction3 жыл бұрын
It starts with you wanting to be healthier You start making healthier food choices and begin to exercise Everything is so great and you feel stronger Suddenly you feel like you could get way better results if you cut back on food a little bit and exercised for a bit longer You start achieving the little goals you set but you are never satisfied At some point you will be eating 200 calories a day and it would feel like a lot You start exercising for way longer, like 7 hours a day Once you start with the intense exercising it will stick with you for a long time Your longest exercising time will become your minimum and you would feel so guilty if you don't at least reach that minimum ~ That is how it was for me, I wish I had never fallen into that deep hole Eating disorders are really really terrible
@Asril242 жыл бұрын
I hope you're doing well now. I was very much the same this summer, only I actually ate 1000+kcal (easily 1300+ because of fruit season) and didn't exercise that long. But it was not enough (food) and too much (fatigue). I broke, my mind and body broke and fell into a binge. I don't think I'll ever have the relationship with food as I had a year ago
@rachel37233 жыл бұрын
You know its bad when you come back to these videos
@someoneswig12633 жыл бұрын
How can you guys throw up? I hate the feeling of throwing up.
@dino_and_zeplynn2 ай бұрын
it’s nice they didn’t put a super skinny actor to represent that not all people with eating disorders are stick thin
@neplopchannel84544 жыл бұрын
Ramro lagyo!!!Acting pane natural cha there is no over acting!!! Best of luck for upcoming video’s!!! Future actress😍😍😍
@skaio.52792 жыл бұрын
The problem is (besides other things) when you are obsessing w being underweight BUT YOU ARE ALWAYS AT A HEALTHY WEIGHT so you don't feel "sick enough" to say you are sick. "EDs are mental illnesses, not body types"!
@hueningkaiisntabedstopslee24293 жыл бұрын
My family used to call me too thin. Whenever my cousins had friends over they'd literally call me a "stick" and even my own mom was like "Looks like the wind is gonna blow you away any day now." So I let them all get to me and I ate A LOT without ever exercising and I gained weight, but not too much weight (or so I thought). I was pretty happy with the results. Until people started called me fat and ugly. Even my best friend off-handedly remarked one day "Why are you getting so fat? It doesn't suit you at all." And as people said this stuff I myself started noticing things in me that I never noticed before. Like how big my stomach was getting or how chubby my cheeks were or how fat my legs looked. So I tried to stop eating at all and exercise, but I couldn't commit and my parents forcefully fed me. I know that it was for my own good, but at that time, I used to think it was to torment me and that they didn't understand. See, they were those type of people who thought "Teenagers are children. They can't have depression." I did stop eating everything eventually but that didn't fix the image I had in mind of my body. So as was expected I developed social anxiety and a really low self-esteem. I shut up saying anything at school thinking "Anything I'd say would be useless and stupid. My other friends are better. Let them talk." I deleted all my social media accounts. Everyday, I'd find a new flaw in my appearance and cry for hours over it. I used to think that God had created me just so others could think better of themselves when they saw me. I went over the top to make sure my crush never ever saw me. In fact I started hiding from boys in general thinking that if they saw me, they'd make fun of me. I haven't told anyone about this. Now, I'm trying to overcome this all all by myself. I'm trying to appreciate my body as it is and for each flaw I find in my body, I find a good thing too. I'm trying to get my mind off my looks (anime and KZbin's playing a huge part in this) and trying to get myself back on a normal diet. I wish no one ever goes through what I went through and am currently going through. Wish me luck too :)
@ardendelehanty98713 жыл бұрын
To everyone who is struggling: I know that I have no idea how you feel but I love you and think you are beautiful, no matter how you look. There is always someone that can help you get better, you just have to look a little harder sometimes. To everyone doing better: Keep it up, I'm so proud of you, I love you and think you're beautiful :) To everyone: The people who truly love you will help you and stay with you through everything. If you don't have those people, remember that with time, they will come. Stay safe and stay strong.
@mysterysadieru8723 жыл бұрын
Thank you for this video. I truly need this right now as im struggling to loose some weight. Keep the inspiration and motivation coming. Thank you
@Jewwie173 жыл бұрын
My dad has a eating disorder like this ..... But he's getting better... I'm proud of him
@user-zc5cw5fe8r3 жыл бұрын
I hope he’s a lot better. Please be there for him 🤍
@aasthaupadhya17693 жыл бұрын
You know it's returning when you start watching these again
@MJ-qy9pl3 жыл бұрын
This is a great video I used to watch this as an eating disorder trigger but now I use it to encourage me that recovery is worth it♡
@leviswife24823 жыл бұрын
i’m not sure why but lately i’ve been working on losing weight and i keep watching these videos and they make me want to lose even more weight
@canyouactuallydont49973 жыл бұрын
NO. You need to STAY HEALTHY. Skinny does NOT mean healthy. Your body deserves nourishment.
@itshyeonjindae3 жыл бұрын
You that feeling...that feeling when you think you're making progress, but then you look at your body and all you wanna do is cry. You wanna lose weight so bad, but it feels as if it won't happen....then you think "wth, being skinny won't make me happy", but at the same time you're not happy with how you look now....yea I can relate
@abigailarnold84573 жыл бұрын
Wow, really good! I read a book about this eating disorder and this movie really puts it together. A+ job
@xoxo52763 жыл бұрын
I don’t manage to throw up ?? How u guys do it ?
@lukeyaseen57553 жыл бұрын
yk, like, I’ve eaten 300kcals all day even tho I’ve tried to fast so I go for a run, burning at least 300kcals and all the other things with it. Which is actually more efficient, talking from a medical perspective. Besides the obvious, like damaging your throat (if heavy vomiting or, bulimic malbehavioural habits are done for years your risk of developing esophagus cancer is enormous. And trust me, as a nurse i won’t recommend risking that) or lowering your heart rate (blood pressure is only second) to the point of fainting (nice to know: what triggers that explicit reflex of throwing up is caused by a nerve that goes from your brain along your spine, especially along the wall of the esophagus. It’s the nervus vagus which also lowers your heart rate and can cause an asystole of the heart. Your heart just stops in the worst case.) this kind of purging will cause ulcers in your stomach and a shift in your electrolytes. yk, all these little things like magnesium or calium or calcium, natrium, Vit.B6, Vit.B12, etc. your body needs for function. Your heart needs that (otherwise it’ll become arrythmic), your muscles need that (one word: cramps) your intestines need that (bowel movement) and every freaking cell needs that to function. To burn the fat you want to get rid of. If the tiniest things in your body are malnourished you’ve got yourself a long term problem in case you still won’t stop. So, do me a favour, or NO- Do yourself a favour: Stop vomiting. Think about your future. I’ve been there. I’ve gotten from anorexia to bulimia and my way back out of bulimia. You wanna be pretty and loved and happy? Stop shoving your finger down your throat. Go for a walk. Try jogging. Do some crunches or sit ups or whatsoever to cope with your intake if you have to. But don’t get yourself to throw up. I know we are strangers to each other and hell, who would even listen to me, but I really care about you guys and I don’t want you harm because you did not think it through for a second.
@xoxo52763 жыл бұрын
Luke Yaseen Ohh my god, your message hits me hard :( Thank you so much, you don’t know how much it means to me. I know I shouldn’t try to throw up but sometimes I’m feeling way too guilty and it seems like the only solution is to vomit. Anyway, you’re good person, thank you again. Have a great life ✨
@lukeyaseen57553 жыл бұрын
@@xoxo5276 You’re very welcome and your comment brightened my entire day. I’m glad I could help. If you ever need to talk, I’m here to listen. I hope you start to feel less guilty and have a great life too. ❤️
@whatintarnation12303 жыл бұрын
i hate this, constant headaches and feeling tired... counting calories and watching my stomach shrink each day but knowing all it wants is food, feeling the pain of hunger makes me feel skinny tho, and i will do anything to be skinny, even if it kills me.
@sma11bean3 жыл бұрын
Same. I even exercised til i almsot passed out today(like literally) so i'd burn the calories i got while eating dessert w my family, fun times
@sma11bean3 жыл бұрын
@@whatintarnation1230 y.yeah okay, sorry idk what to sat to that
@sma11bean3 жыл бұрын
@@whatintarnation1230 oh, and if it comes to the point where you stop eating and have lots of weight loss, please talk to someone before its too late heh
@tunatatar36123 жыл бұрын
@@whatintarnation1230 You are just fine the way you are, and it seriously makes me so sad to see how many girls think otherwise. You have to admit that this is not ok, this is not healthy. I don't even know you but whoever you are, I care enough to beg you to stop. You might just ignore my comment and go on with your day, but please, this is not ok! Please please please talk to someone about this, someone other than your friends and family. Because it is not ok that they support you having bulimia. Confidence is a different thing than appearance and it has nothing to do with weight. I recommend you watch ''I Feel Pretty'' on Netflix. You are more beautiful when you tell yourself that, not when you force yourself into an eating disorder. Please talk to someone about this, read some articles, some books. It genuinely hurts to see someone else like this, and to know that no matter what I say in this comment, I might not be able fully help. Take care
@hailey78443 жыл бұрын
for anyone who sees this who is currently struggling with an eating disorder or is recovering you are so strong and brave please remember that you are beautiful and so is your body you will fight this i promise you will i understand and see you it will all be okay right now just focus on yourself and remember that all of this isn’t worth it you’re hurting yourself you are beautiful and don’t deserve to go through the pain you are going through please seek help i’m always here to talk
@girllovefilms83383 жыл бұрын
Timely educational. Thanks for sharing
@badzt3 жыл бұрын
i seen a woman at a n/a camp vomiting her food. its a anti-drug camp. she was checking the ingredients on the soda the night before. i heard her in the toilet when i was showering, and i came out and i seen it come out her mouth. i used to struggle with bulimia and im trying so hard not to relapse, it annoys me how she just does it knowing people are in there.
@cattygirl66633 жыл бұрын
a very important thing to realize is that if you limit the foods you should be eating you'll wind up bingeing on the ones you shouldn't. don't be afraid to eat a lot of healthy foods even if they aren't as appealing, over time the body will adjust to wanting what it really needs. you've just got to work through it.
@roronoazoro-vy7cl3 жыл бұрын
it's so sad how i relate to this so much.. i cried a lot while watching this film because this basically represents how my daily life is.. it's tiring and i hope we all recover from this. :(
@JustMe-jj9of3 жыл бұрын
I don't have eating disorders but I'm educating myself so that if any of my dear ones are suffering from this I can atleast understand them a little bit and support them Hope all those who are suffering can overcome this, You can do this ✊✊