Amanda Palmer - Runs In The Family [OFFICIAL VIDEO]

[@white-star-line]

She captures manic depression like no one else

[@owen-bz6pj]

What about Jimi Hendrix?

[@chillpill3069]

Arielle Shea Have you heard of Emilie Autumn?!

[@raulalonsocalvaromero8836]

listen Steven Wilson

[@thegirlwholovesavril1735]

An Unoriginal Being I was thinking the same! xD

[@bobblefish]

Emilie Autumn uses her disorder to excuse herself from being abusive to others. She romanticizes it all while saying that mental illness shouldn't be romanticized. She acts superior and pulls a ridiculous British accent. I liked her before her book, and even after, but by the time FLAG came out, I lost all respect. I also realized that my love of her was a really unhealthy way of dealing with my own illnesses. I became much healthier after I came to my senses. Amanda Palmer is real. She's beautiful. She says it like it is without trying to play it up.

[@DarthSceptor]

"If wellness is this, what in hell's name is sickness?" That's my favorite part of this whole song. O_O

[@bobblefish]

It hits me hard, yeah. Perfection.

[@suckdickman6316]

Same, one of my fav songlyrics ever

[@ladysquids]

yess

[@nabriakinney]

@@bobblefish u

[@knowallparanormal528]

Personally I like “I cannot run from my family”

[@bloodbuddy7]

'Don't tell my family, they'd say I was crazy, but they would say anything if they thought it would shut me up.' Yes, pretty much sums it up.

[@iarinaioana]

Jesus... this lyric.

[@woofwoof1345]

It's psychological study, no clinical psychologist/psychiatrist is unfamiliar with this familial pathology. The fucked up thing is none of them really do much about it, anymore, they cash the check....black sheep is the scapegoat, usually the child who rightfully calls out parental abuse/etc... and their first instinct is to get the kid labeled as "crazy" , essentially, so it'll be easier to invalidate whatever they say/protect their own ass. So twisted and sad.

[@madamewoselle]

@@woofwoof1345 Living that nightmare now

[@jesipohl6717]

@@madamewoselle i was diagnosed ODD "oppositional defiance disorder" for refusing medication between the ages of 6 and 12 yo, speed basically, my file says I called Ritalin "the zombie drug". I finally figured out I had to fake that I was still taking it till I was about 14 and revealed to everyone how dumb they are. My file also states, in the period I was taking nothing, that I was better after coming back from the nurse ... yeah, my anxiety had resolved after getting away with skipping the meds again. in truth my parents couldn't raise someone who asked questions and needed reasons to do things so they forced me any way they could. And when I refused, that was considered pathological too. I recommend madintheuk or madinamerica as online resources for this kind of interest we all have.

[@christinelavallee57]

I know this song is about the struggle of dealing with your family, but because of that, it really helped me learn to deal with mine. The line, "I can never run from my family, they're inside of me" really freed me in a sense. I don't know, I just love Amanda for this :)

[@angel-gu8co]

Christine Lavallee the song is more about hereditary mental illness, hence the references to family

[@brendaholiday555]

She heals.

[@afgusti4269]

@@angel-gu8co we know, but it's a good thing people still find reason to relate with this song

[@EmbodimentOfOz]

*[its also lowkey about STD’s and or being a prostitute]*

[@sairachiodini]

Absolutely, same

[@flowersforbambi]

the emotion and desperation in this really resonates with how bad my anxiety can get.

[@rhagedorn]

Amanda is the most free-spirited human being on the planet without a doubt.

[@elysabethpoodle6234]

Until she decided to ignore the boycott and sanctions placed on Israel and was asked not to play there but unlike most other musicians who do respect this she played. Free Spirit? Say that to the thousands of Palestinian children killed while she was happy to make profit from their killers.

[@bobbytables464]

Because no Israeli kids have ever been killed and the entire population of each country is culpable for the actions of their respective armed forces. Don't be an idiot.

[@rhagedorn]

+Elysabeth Poodle Fair enough, I didn't know about that. I'm no fan of the Zionists myself.

[@rhagedorn]

+Sam M. Come on, the U.S. backed Israeli military is light years beyond the Palestinians and who's the one's doing the invading?

[@elysabethpoodle6234]

No its more about a mass displacement of human being from their homes and a continual encroachment on Palestinian land. You only have to look up the many UN demands that have been ignored by Israel to see just how much land has been stolen in last last ten years alone to see who is the driving force behind the conflict. While your looking it up also find out just how many bombs have been dropped on the Gaza Strip alone or see who actually has the soldiers set up at check points and what goes on at these check points. Where do you get your facts? "They manage not to kill 3x more civilians than they kill combatants". You cant be talking about Israel. Do you know the stats on how many Palestinian deaths as to how many deaths in Israel? I know its easier to just watch your mainstream racist TV and vomit what you hear but you should really do some serious research rather than just be told what to think. "What is the purpose of Palestine"? I mean that says it all doesnt it. And no its not big enough to coexist because the Palestinians have been forced off just about all their land now with the use of American backed weapons. Anyway you obviously have your spoon fed opinion and nothing I can say will change that so rather than sitting here throwing insult at each other for the next month, Ill just leave you with your opinions. They do say ignorance is bliss. Enjoy.

[@jbfan266]

this song deserves all the fucking awards. been a while since i heard this kind of lyrical and instrumental masterpiece

[@WriteMakesRight]

This song has pretty much taken control over my life since I discovered it last night. There's just something about it that gets my blood pumping. Maybe it's the cleverness of her lyrics, or the way she sings it so fast and relentlessly that it seems like someone is shouting at you in a panic, or it's her face, revealing that this isn't some gimmicky song but indeed something ripped from her own personal journals. I don't know, this song is incredible and I've had it on repeat for about an hour.

[@hos1898]

hope ur alr das

[@jesipohl6717]

in any repressive society, family are the first line of stormtroopers enforcing repression.

[@tronf9622]

Most underrated song of all time.

[@shelby8101]

I just recently found Amanda Palmer, and I feel like I wasted my whole life...

[@adarmarch3160]

+Shelby Tolar Same!

[@NaiXian178]

+Shelby Tolar yep, same.

[@MushyBaps]

+Shelby Tolar same.. today was the day!

[@shelby8101]

+Little Firefly awesome!

[@packratchopper]

+Shelby Tolar I discovered her by accident 1 month ago during a time of emotional upheaval. Since I have seen everything by her and about her I can find. She should be worshiped

[@MrsBatty]

came across this after a breakdown, this song hit me so hard.... I've listened to it on repeat since. The line "don't get too close to me you might knocked me up" had my emotions soaring that's how my family treats anyone who gets near me. certain mental disorders run in my family but everyone acts like they don't and in the past I've completely lost my self control and I'm treated like I'm crazy... this song just really touched some emotions I don't normally broadcast. Glad my friend told me about her bc I'm really liking the music

[@christiannunez6421]

Miss Batty I know this is an old comment, but I hope you’re doing well AND IM SO GLAD U FOUND AFP

[@InsoIence]

Hey, hope you're out there, happier. Take care of yourself.

[@Dez.Grixis]

As the eldest daughter and black sheep whose always been "mature for my age" this song has been something like a core piece of me for over a decade. While we are living through our trauma we latch onto certain things that can explain how we feel or what we're going through better than we can. Amanda Palmer was always my musical escape and it's crazy how the same piece of music can adapt as your life evolves.

[@pee3573]

"Just don't tell my family, they'll never forgive me. They'll say that I'm crazy" Why does this lyric hit me like this

[@jesipohl6717]

because we deserve to be listened to and not silenced by the people who pretend to love us.

[@KrissLucia]

Amanda Palmer is an inspiration to me. I've had clinical depression for over teen years now, it doesn't go away and it always hurts. Sometimes medication works, sometimes it doesn't. But so many of Amanda's songs sound like she also struggles with mental illness, and the feelings that are associated with having to take medication, or not taking them, and just singing about how fucking terrible the world way in her own way... And that inspires me. Because so many times I think, the more knowledge I have, the harder it is to be happy... but if I can do with my thoughts what she does with her's, and manage to help somebody or change somebody's life through her art, maybe I'd be okay?

[@Danaomiree]

The best people in life are generally those who have faced the worst life has to offer up to them. The wisdom you gain is priceless. I would not change any of my past because it has made me a much stronger person and I can use what I have learned to help others. You can bring change to the world in any way you wish to present it, but I will admit music is a great emotional medium. If you ever need someone to talk to send me a message.

[@KrissLucia]

Kosta Young Darling, no. And unless you're an actual doctor or a scientist in the field, I don't recommend telling others what disorders they do or do not have, or what disorders do or don't exist. Discouraging people from getting the mental help that they need can potentially kill then, but in the very least, make them feel radically terrible when there is help readily available to make them to stabilize. It's a shame to do that, even if I know you are trying to help. I spent over eight years having severe depression and self harming every day because I didn't want to ever go see a doctor because of things that people like you say. If I could go back, I'd tell myself to go see a doctor sooner. I couldn't believe the differences, and now I'm a strong advocate for seeing a doctor and letting them diagnose and treat you instead of self diagnosing and self treating or neglecting. It is something I am eternally grateful for, and any depression I have on medication is nowhere as near as bad as when I'm not on medication. Only you know, with the extra benefits of it also working most the time where I can actually feel good and normal when before medication, I hadn't felt happy in literally eight years. I recognize that you're trying to help me, and that you care about me, but please, if you care a lot, do not tell others to not take their medicine or to not see doctors. Please. PLEASE.

[@Danaomiree]

KrissLucia Well said. Glad doctors helped you more than they did me!

[@lauriepants713]

Kevin Wallick It is all a crapshoot. The meds never helped me but some things did...gardening, keeping journals, walking, yoga, reading, music, reaching out to people(so fucking hard) and just saying every day....you are alive and that is the most precious thing. Keep it that way, day to day. The AA creed is helpful...just for today.

[@aftersunset63]

i really appreciate this comment, i have only been to a therapist twice and the last time i tried reaching out to some in the area i'm at (middle of nowhere college town), the only one that contacted me back told me i was a "liability" due to self-harming..that was about a year ago and i'm so apprehensive about seeking help. i've never been diagnosed but i know that there's something going on with me. songs like these are calming for me, and i love that artists are willing to share this part of themselves. what do you have to say about situations like this? i feel as though i have to jump over hoops just to get a contact, and then i have to keep jumping over them..it almost seems more worth it to just live with it. do you have problems getting a therapist? it takes so much bravery and persistence...some of the things people with mental illnesses have a hard time keeping strong...

[@skellbo]

I don't care what anyone says, the artistry of this song and video is just amazing. It shines light on issues that so many of us face but nobody seems to talk about. Amanda Palmer is a beautiful artist in every way possible. Love you AFP!

[@PhoenixProdLLC]

My autism is so obvious when it comes to this song, because it's maybe 1 out of 100,000's I can play repeatedly, back to back, for hours. There's a perfection in this song that is both wonderful and aberrant.

[@eleftheria8911]

same!!!!!

[@hammy1470]

this is absolutely mind blowing ! Amazing those lyrics! "I can't hide from my family, they're hiding inside of me,"

[@eeveebeeveeboo]

As someone who actually deals with Manic Depression and extreme social anxiety, I can give this song so much props.

[@ark01000]

I think she’s describing a lot of illnesses not just mental or it can be interpreted that way. I struggle with mental health but I have invisible pain all the time. Both could be inherited. Or I hurt my head or changes in my brain due to my childhood. All I can agree on is I love this song.

[@jesipohl6717]

she's describing how families traumatise people into illness. mental health adversity is not a symptom of individual illness, it's a symptom of societal illness. most diagnoses are just different expressions of trauma, if our species was truly so stricken we would never have evolved in the first place. the simpler solution is that norms in our society erase and damage certain kinds of people.

[@continualdeletion9024]

I interpreted this song to be about people who have illness and a family that has it as well. It hits at home for me because (although it's not a real illness) alcoholic tendencys run in my family. My grandfather has a drinking problem and so did his father. That is why my father doesn't drink. He doesn't want to end up like my grandfather.

[@seaturtlepoppy7679]

Addiction is considered a disease - at least more widely now 🙂

[@suumcuique4530]

yeah my father was a junkie all his life, heroin and later alcohol. i always wondered, because people say "be yourself", but what if being your self is poison and death? or maybe this is not myself, but the thing trauma and society turned you into and you are sick because you did not find out the nature of your life ... humans are complicated, that's why so many loose themselves in drugs, Ikea furniture, work, video games, pornography etc. ... it takes currage to face the world

[@Francis-l5e]

Family is the illness !

[@ВероничкаКотенко]

Я вдячна усім богам за те що натрапила на цю пісню. Кращого ще не чула.. це шедевр, який буде в мене на повторі ще довго ❤

[@NikkiM11]

i adore everything about this woman.

[@charlieaic2052]

So...I have in emotional turmoil crawled under a grand piano and written secret genie wishes on the frame with a pencil, so this video and song and relatable to me. I like almost all of her stuff.

[@petitponay4525]

I have a lot of disabilities and illness and I kin this song bc I my whole family is Ill. I like to listen to this on repeat on bad pain days or PoTs flare ups

[@petitponay4525]

I actually have rickets, that makes me relate to this song even more

[@jordynm103]

yo i hope it gets better i cant relate but ik it must suck

[@GeorgeFloydsSobriety]

Real disabilities or Twitter bio disabilities?

[@petitponay4525]

@@GeorgeFloydsSobriety real??? huh what the fuck is a Twitter bio disability

[@CreateAndEvolve_]

I’m here from the Cruel Intentions tv series. What a gem .

[@predawnmonkey2392]

been listening to amanda palmer since I was eight so that is 4 years amazing music more young people should listen to real music like this.

[@aislinnkerr5618]

PredawnMonkey23 Hehe,nice one,you're 12 and listening to AFP.(I'm not asking this in a mean way,but do you get the meanings of some of her songs?Just curious.) but you know,different music affects different people in different ways. Sure,Amanda is a lot more talented than a lot of people making music,but that can't change what people enjoy. Though I agree that more people should be exposed to this kind of music,or more kinds of music in general,from a younger age,rather than just hearing whatever random crap the radio spews out.

[@clacks5605]

PredrawnMonkey23 you’ve been listening to her for 10 years now if you kept listening all this time wow

[@destiny5321]

The "Most of the time I can't even tell what I'm running from, run from here pity, run from responsibility, run from the country " always speaks to me I have literally traveled the world have had experiences most people don't get to have and I still felt empty

[@maszugsh9009]

I have been listening to music, but here we have a song. This has something that music doesn't have. I hope in the depth of my soul of souls that the song never dies. Music is a muse, but the song has a soul all its own.

[@janfrancis1161]

This is a song that for most of the people it means nothing and for others it means everything. It was recommended to me by a female friend of mine who I love very much and that it changed my way of thinking in many ways. She is bipolar. RUNS IN THE FAMILY is an uncomfortable and harsh song that saved her life. It is incredible that small details, like a song, have that effect on us... but they do.

[@jesipohl6717]

sanity was invented to make us feel less crazy, but it's had the opposite effect. mental health adversity is an idicator of societal malady more than individual. we need to stop encouraging people to identify with diagnoses, this leads to self-stigma, or at least reappropriate and depathologise these terms which mark us as subserviant to the system.

[@LapisGarter]

Well, I still have my health At least that's what they tell me If wellness is this, what in hell's name is sickness?

[@danmartin4552]

Yeah I love that line. It is such a great play on words with a good flow and build up.

[@LightYagamiI]

Appears like we share taste in music, from Regina Spektor to Amanda Palmer :P

[@pigwarts]

Light Yagami Haha, me and you like Regina Spektor, Amanda Palmer, AND Death Note.

[@LightYagamiI]

Pigwarts5Ever Marry me.

[@pigwarts]

Light Yagami When and where? All I need to know.

[@j.a.temple8167]

Lyrics: My friend has problems with Winter and Autumn. They give him prescriptions, they shine bright lights on him. They say it's genetic, they say he can't help it, they say you can catch it - but sometimes you're born with it. My friend despite he gets shakes in the night and they say that there's no way that they could have caught it in time takes his toll on him. It is traditional. It is inherited. Predispositional Day I've been wondering what is inside of me, who can I blame for it? I say it runs in the family This family that carries me to such great lengths to open my legs up to anyone who'll have me. It runs in the family, I come by it honestly, do what you want who knows it might fill me up Me up Me up Me up Me up Me up Me up Fill me up Me up Me up Me up Me up Me up Me up My friend's depressed she's a wreck, she's a mess. They've done all sorts of tests & they guess it has something to do with her grandmother's grandfather's grandmother, civil war soldiers who badly infected her. My friend has maladies, rickets, and allergies that she dates back to the 17th century. Somehow she manages in her misery. Strips in the city and shows all her best tricks with Me? Well, I'm well well I mean I'm in hell well I still have my health at least that's what they tell me. If wellness is this what in hells name is sickness? But business is business and business runs in the family. We tend to bruise easily. Bad in the blood. I'm telling you cause I just want you to know me - know me and my family. We're wonderful folks, but don't get to close to me cause you might knock me up Me up Me up Me up Me up Me up Me up Knock me up Me up Me up Me up Me up Me up Me up Mary have mercy now look what I've done but don't blame me because I can't help where I come from. Running is something that we've always done well and mostly I can't even tell what I'm running from. Run from their pity, from responsibility. Run from the country and run from the city. I can run from the law, I can run from myself. I can run from my life, I can run into debt. I can run from it all, I can run 'til I'm gone. I can run for the office and run from the cause. I can run using every last ounce of energy. I cannot, I cannot, I cannot run from my family. They're hiding inside of me. Corpses on ice. Come in if you'd like but just don't tell my family. They'd never forgive me. They'd say that I'm crazy. But they would say anything if it would shut me up Shut me up Shut me up Me up Me up Me up Me up Me up Shut me up Me up Me up Me up Me up Me up Me up Me up

[@survivinglife4684]

J.A.Temple, They were already in the description. 😜

[@AdaptiveApeHybrid]

​@@survivinglife4684 shut up

[@laurasaurabaws]

These lyrics make so much sense to me

[@18skeltor]

This is a good song. I love the line "I cannot run from my family, they're hiding inside me" Very emotional way of describing our less fortunate genetics, and it helps that I can completely relate. Also, I'd another good song, if you're interested, is Leif Erikson by Interpol. Or, any songs by Interpol.

[@Vlatkasify]

Ronan RiemanJohns Thank you for recommending them :) They remind me somehow of She Wants Revenge.

[@18skeltor]

Vlatkasify I do like She Wants Revenge! Or at least, the song that made them a one hit wonder... Very sexy and dark!

[@amymay4799]

I have Borderline personality disorder stemmed from a traumatic childhood and I can relate to this so much

[@xyobug]

I listen to this repeatedly while doing my homework.

[@pandas1232]

The Ramen Otaku I do the same thing 🙌

[@julielyngarrett6260]

this is such a good representation of generational trauma. if wellness is this what in hells name is sickness hits so hard

[@pmbluemoon]

My family didn't want me to know where I came from so they kept it a secret until i was 45, now I know about the whole thing and this sums it up beyond belief. Thank you Amanda 💓

[@Casey5693]

My ADHD and autistic self is dealing with crap from my ableist dad right now. I feel this song so much.

[@Vlatkasify]

And running is something that we've always done Well and mostly I can't even tell what I'm running from

[@LadyRavenbryt]

I would love to see Emilie Autumn, and Amanda Palmer sing together. I imagine it would be incredible to have these two women on stage together.

[@saralazzari9231]

This song makes me think about EA. i agree

[@veerchasm1]

Is there anyone that can combine blunt honesty, introspection and art in such a musical way as Amanda???

[@angelaandel622]

I just dont, and probably never will, understand who dislikes her songs. Solor or otherwise... I love it so much!!

[@spirit3651]

I can NOT get enough !!!! Everything Amanda F. Palmer has done is sheer genius !!!

[@JiggleRat]

14 years still goated

[@theRealCrazyOne]

OK. I'm writing this play about my insane family with all of its mental illness. Every time I close my eyes this is the opening act...*sigh* LOVE Amanda Palmer!

[@Aynne88]

You wrote my story 😪💔 the trauma is unbearable I'm so sorry for the reasons you wrote this I know them to..You're beautiful and I validate you Amanda. Thank you for your bravery ❤

[@GeorgeFloydsSobriety]

You don't validate her. She doesn't need your validation. No wonder your dad left.

[@Aynne88]

Oh honey lol. Missed that mark by a country mile. I see your thing is trolling forums like the incel you are. Your words don't matter to healthy well adjusted adults. Poor thing. Rejection makes a bitter man.

[@bloodSCARSandMCR]

I haven't listened to this song in 5 years and I still know all the lyrics!

[@djh8521]

Love this Human! Amanda please don't change. Be you, no money on this (what ever this is) is worth your soul! No drugs,, you are way to beautiful, they will try to drug you and change you!!!

[@haleyeven]

incase anyone wants to learn this song section by section! 0:00-0:12 0:12-0:22 0:22-0:26 0:26-0:48 0:48-0:58 0:58-1:08 1:08-1:17 1:17-1:39 1:39-1:49 1:49-2:03 2:03-2:48 sorry if any are wrong! it kind took a while to get all if the timestamps

[@sinfire6189]

God, she's so freakin pretty! And I love her voice! It's so refreshing to finally have someone who doesn't use auto tune!!

[@talithabyrne1295]

I have Borderline Personality Disorder, and this song just says so many of the things I think and feel it's not funny.

[@andreajung7244]

Same here ...

[@inertiiajoy8302]

+Talitha Byrne It's not meant to be a piss take. Either you know that and don't care or this is the first time you've met AFP.

[@talithabyrne1295]

I'm not taking the piss. I have been diagnosed since I was eighteen, and on the meds to prove it. A vast majority of mental health conditions are genetically inherited. "It runs in the family." I also tend to suffer with the promiscuity she discusses, which is another symptom of my condition. And Bipolar actually. Borderline personality disorder is having P.T.S.D, anxiety and depression all at once. It's Bipolar on steroids. It is not a joke.

[@talithabyrne1295]

What I am saying,is that it's nice that someone gets it.

[@notarealchannel9629]

I'm still undiagnosed, and I had my hospital trip two years ago. They first told me that I had Major Depressive Disorder, then I was told I had Borderline and PTSD, then I was told I had Bipolar and PTSD, then I was told I have Mood Disorder-NOS and PTSD. They're sticking with that for the moment, while they continue to medicate, and switch up the meds, and medicate more. There are tons of drug and alcohol problems in my family and nobody believes in mental health issues, so they just think I'm crazy, and that they're normal. I have to agree that it's nice to have someone who gets that; you feel a little less "crazy".

[@TheAlpineShepherdBoy]

10 years later and I still love this song ... It will never get old.

[@viennekemper188]

as someone with a few mental problems and a variety of physical shit going on, this song stand me right in the heart holy shit

[@jesipohl6717]

would you have those mental problems in any society or just this one. if the answer is "no" are they actually your problems? crip politics is the future of the mental health movement.

[@amdete8254]

@@jesipohl6717 Girliepop what the fuck are you talking about? Were you high?

[@spiritedrenee9895]

I know a lot of people are talking about the mental health issues that this song talks about, but it feels like they're forgetting about the other family members. Lines like, "to open my legs up to anyone that will have me," and the older family member who has depression and makes due by showing her breast to people probably making money (business) by doing sexual acts. The singer doesn't want to end up like them, "Don't get close to me because you might Knock me up!" But she can't deny the kind of people that she was born into, "Don't blame me because I can't help where I come from!" She tried to run away and still feels like she belongs no where. It's inside of her and will follow her everywhere. Anyway that's my take on this. It seems to be an unpopular interpretation of the song. I just wanted to put my two sences in if I can add anything to the conversation then good.

[@seaturtlepoppy7679]

I agree. But I think a lot of people read it as “promiscuity” being a symptom of BPD/BPD - nice … Boderline Personality Disorder and Bi Polar Disorder, damn it.

[@afgusti4269]

@@seaturtlepoppy7679 yeah, could be. But promiscuity, when not done because you actually enjoy having sex, can have various reason. A common cause is CSA and even simply emotional neglect in children, especially women. As we grow up we are told that as women the fastest, easiest way to gain affection is by opening our legs. So we may end up searching for the love we were not given to us as kids in sex. It's a pretty complex issue with a lot of layers

[@seaturtlepoppy7679]

@@afgusti4269 - I think my response was in context of this song but I know that is also another reason. My mother was an SA survivor (multiple times over) … when I was 15, everyone was convinced I was sleeping with an older friend. No one believed I was a virgin. So I became the slut everyone kept accusing me of being. You’re right - everyone has a reason.

[@afgusti4269]

@@seaturtlepoppy7679 I'm sorry that happened to you. I hope you are getting better, and don't worry about the comment, i just wanted to add more reasons a person could do that. I know i did it because i craved the affection i thought I would find there and had not received anywhere else

[@seaturtlepoppy7679]

@@afgusti4269 - no worries - Just because the comment wasn’t new information for me doesn’t mean someone else won’t have a lightbulb moment because of it 🙂 It’s good to be that self aware 💙

[@yvettenel589]

When you are misunderstood and not everyone gets it then wow congrats you won at life! Freaking love Amanda as a person and this song. The bravery to say what everyone denies, then have a tongue in cheek stance about it , that pain and humor means you defeated the final boss of trauma. Absolute masterpiece!

[@fuckallcherries]

I would give this a million likes, if only I could...

[@moonlightineedsleep6342]

14 Fucking years and it's still a masterpiece

[@Evanescencegirl23]

What an raw, earnest and beautiful song. (I'm kinda reminded of Emilie Autumn)

[@LunaLiddell]

This video shows exactly what I'm like in my "manic" phases (for lack of a better term) and it's sort of scaring me, but then it also makes me feel good, like I belong.

[@maplefoxxo]

I legit really didn't like this song, but now I can't stop listening to it. Now I know the lyrics, and it's really deep.. I love this...

[@tashabelaya6273]

Не ожидала увидеть такой клип и возраст песни!) голос певицы в данной композиции очень нравится ❤

[@Unnecessarilylongexplanations]

I'm sure it means something different, but this song really helps me vent my frustration with trying to get a diagnosis and get treatment, especially when I was younger. Doctors would just say 'idk" because my family didn't want me to be diagnosed with anything, they wanted me to be "normal", not be the problem child, they just want me to live a "normal" life, aka grow up, get married, have kids, die. It's very frustrating.

[@keltynruddock9812]

I just found out today that Neil Gaiman and Amanda Palmer are together. Like married together. This has made my universe so much better.

[@marybarker6586]

Are there any other songs with this level quick lyricism and mania? Seriously I need more of this

[@danadoodles4560]

^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

[@ThyHerald]

I’m like two years late, but Girl Anachronism by The Dresden Dolls maybe

[@vanillawafer7289]

her other song girl anarchism is perfect!

[@jesipohl6717]

urgency is not mania.

[@brannwen]

Been playing this song on repeat for the past couple days. Never gets old, no matter how many times I do.

[@rnr14dors]

Me? Well, I'm well. Well, I mean I'm in hell. Well, I still have my health (At least that's what they tell me) If wellness is this, what in hell's name is sickness? But business is business!!!

[@sefster1228]

And business runs in the family!!!

[@leafybeef1089]

We tend to bruise easily,

[@orkydorky2125]

Bad in the blood,

[@etoace6800]

I'm telling you cuz, I just want you to know me

[@clacks5605]

know me and my family

[@jt9191]

OMG what an absolutly amazing woman......I have been coming back to this song for years....Amanda is brilliant!

[@MarcelSmith420]

Wow, she's like really amazing! Am I the only one who found her accidentally through spotify?

[@_whitney_6067]

me!!

[@keliu7953]

me too

[@eleftheria8911]

Me too!!!

[@lisarae7823]

This song guts me in the best of ways. Sometimes it is a fortunate thing. Other times it just hurts beautifully. I love Amanda Palmer.

[@lyssamuseau7004]

I still love this song going into 2020 with this

[@javelin_ramen]

This song makes me think of daytime not sure why and don’t know how to explain it but it makes me think of day

[@rebeccaquin6198]

How does she breathe while singing this song!?

[@xyobug]

Jason Tones She actually answered that online somewhere. She sings separate sentences and layers the samples. Pretty cool huh? She used the same technique for Shores of California and lots of others! ^^

[@ahousefellonme]

There are live versions of her performing this song. No samples, no layering, no nothing. She takes tiny breaths where she can and huge lungfuls when she can.

[@bobblefish]

Live, she cuts a few words in key places. "and they say that there's no way that they could have caught it *breathe* time takes it toll on him"

[@ahousefellonme]

It's just more obvious when performed live. Production and all. Have you seen the live version? It's unreal.

[@ahousefellonme]

@Lani Franz Exactly -- much more pronounced and the breaths seem longer to me -- yet still SO IMPRESSIVE!

[@amandajohnson4845]

I hide it pretty well but this sums me up on the inside everyday.

[@Mitchorizo86]

I love her. The emotion in the music gives me chills.

[@stadbab]

all the people in the comments with bipolar disorder/manic depression: i feel you

[@selinselin8654]

I listen to this suddenly while I do my homework. He talks about issues that many of us face, but nobody seems to talk.

[@chorispierrot9646]

I find it strange that everyone associates this with mental illness only. I do as well, but a associate it with physical illness and HIV as well. Very powerful song, Amanda Nation 👏

[@vassia.pi.billie]

OK.........THIS IS AMAZING..................... WOW THIS FEELING THE SONG GIVES ME...I want to dance and cry ...Love her... (I listen to it like for ever)

[@TheExperimentalHomestead]

To be honest, after reading the comments, I feel people are analyzing this song two different ways. Half of the comments believe its about people suffering from mental or physical illnesses because of predispositions and the other half believe this song is ridducling those people who blame anything for their illness. I find the debate interesting and what's more Interesting is that both sides are equally touched by the message they are hearing. This is exactly the magic that amanda palmer produces. She makes people feel. Personally, the message I recieved from this song is that she is ridducling, not necessarily those suffering from illness, but 21st century capitalists. They make you believe you're helpless and something is wrong with you just to create a new drug fix that can help you be normal. They tell you it's not your fault you're not normal, it runs in the family. They are just making money off you. (Yes I do realize some physical/ mental illnesses are a real thing. I'm not insensitive)

[@victoriamartindelcampo7827]

You speak with a wisdom improper of your age.

[@lauragate5298]

To have to add that you're not insensitive made me LOL.

[@inirafitzpatrick8941]

I see what you mean, so many things that were concidered sickness, aren’t now, but we’ve also calcified outher things as sickness since then. What I find interesting about this distinction is that the diagnosis were more cut and dry, and gradually became the access of anything is disorder, even though people are just different enough for a lot of things to be defined as access, but that’s just what I’ve noticed, could be wrong

[@inirafitzpatrick8941]

* excess* not access

[@eps3154]

Mm.. dat Foucault connection

[@MrSimeonk]

This song is in my DNA

[@JulieVaughn]

This song and video is just so amazing and depressing and beautiful and ugly and dramatic and so many other adjectives that I can't even think of them right now but seriously this woman is so fucking talented and beautiful and unique and I adore and admire her for being exactly who she is and making no bones about it. I can't think of any other musical discovery I've made in recent years that equals her talent.

[@gabneedsacookie]

I feel the same way. When I started listening I'm like "this is weird" but after the first minute my jaw just...dropped. I don't know how she did it, but she found the words I've never spoken.

[@lakeeffectmusicable]

I have no idea what is going on here.......but I....kinda like it?

[@aftersunset63]

the song i believe is about experiencing a panic attack and the string of thoughts associated with it, that's my take on it. i do know that she wrote this around the same time she wrote Girl Anachronism, which is also about panic attacks.

[@seanpaulcurran]

Why did I not know about this ! what world have I been living in ?. I used to be a dresden dolls fan, then they disbanded - then I fell away from Amanda as a solo and now years later here I am and god damn this song is amazing.

[@yaelandrea]

esto fue hermoso completamente, el video y la cancion comunicando la misma desesperacion....

[@dinosaur_is_rex]

My mother showed me this song saying she relates to it a lot and I can see it CPS took me away from her for abuse but I can see why she relates to it :+

[@stargirlwonders3035]

It's 3am and I just found out about Amanda! Where have I been!

[@claytonthomas9479]

Love you and this so much. Your Ted talk I found inspiring as a southern amputee queer working in San Francisco at the time. Now back in Nashville. Thank You

[@JEWLES4EVER]

I just really fucking love this song. I wish this was on the radio in my area

[@qwertyz15]

I love how I can never tell what their songs are about by the title, I never know what to expect so I always have to be open-minded before hitting play.

[@P1AN0L0V3R]

I added this song to my "Heartattack in the shower" playlist

[@Rattlsnke]

My friend has problems with winter and autumn They give him prescriptions, they shine bright lights on him They say it's genetic, they say he can't help it, they say you can catch it But sometimes you're born with it [Verse 2] My friend has blight, he gets shakes in the night And they say there is no way that they could have caught it in Time takes its toll on him, it is traditional, it is inherited Predisposition [Pre-Chorus 1] All day I've been wondering what is inside of me Who can I blame for it? [Chorus 1] I say it runs in the family This family that carries me to such great lengths To open my legs up to anyone who'll have me It runs in the family, I come by it honestly Do what you want 'cause, who knows, it might Fill me up, me up, me up, me up, me up, me up, me up, me up Fill me up, me up, me up, me up, me up, me up, me up, me up [Verse 3] My friend's depressed, she's a wreck, she's a mess They've done all sorts of tests and they guess it has something to do With her grandmother's grandfather's grandmother Civil war soldiers who badly infected her [Verse 4] My friend has maladies, rickets, and allergies That she dates back to the 17th century Somehow she manages, in her misery Strips in the city and shares all her best tricks with [Bridge 1] Me? Well, I'm well Well, I mean I'm in hell Well, I still have my health (At least that's what they tell me) [Pre-Chorus 2] If wellness is this, what in hell's name is sickness? But business is business! [Chorus 2] And business runs in the family We tend to bruise easily bad in the blood I'm telling you 'cause I just want you to know me Know me and my family, we're wonderful folks But don't get too close to me 'cause you might Knock me up, me up, me up, me up, me up, me up, me up, me up Knock me up, me up, me up, me up, me up, me up, me up, me up [Bridge 2] Run from their pity, from responsibility Run from the country and run from the city I can run from the law, I can run from myself, I can run for my life, I can run into debt, I can run from it all, I can run 'till I'm gone, I can run for the Office, and run from the cause I can run using every last ounce of energy I cannot, I cannot [Chorus 3] I cannot run from my family They're hiding inside me, corpses on ice Come in if you'd like but just don't tell my family They'd never forgive me, they say that I'm crazy But they would say anything if it would Shut me up Shut me up Shut me up, me up, me up, me up, me up, me up, me up, me up

[@Juliette_Thandi]

This song, all this time after is what makes me feel sane in knowing how many others relate

[@Nixcharon]

1:07 (PERSONAL TIMESTAMP)

[@waffler69]

I just cant stop playing this, I love it

[@driftedaway3217]

*AGGRESSIVELY TRIES TO SING ALL OF THE LYRICS*

[@cackleskeletons8308]

been listening to.this since I was 8 which was around when it came.out. I'm 16 now and still can't get bored of it.

[@creepo7462]

I have found an absolute gem-

[@poluki]

yes, yes you have.

[@ilovefluffysheep]

i loved it how she filmed it herself, that way we have exactly what she wants..... and that's just perfect

[@isaedra4242]

My god this song is brilliant how does it have so little views