how my past eating disorder still affects me | dropping out of college? | running?

[@elizabethwallace189]

Amber, I want to truly thank you for all you do in talking about eating disorders and your journey. You have given me the drive to fight through this. I have been dealing with this for 8 years, and there are still hard days, but it will get better. I know you will be amazing in the field of philosophy. I am cheering for you! 💕

[@amberschulz525]

awww i'm sending you so much love and strength💜

[@edwards92]

Philosopher Amber- The changes during this stage of life come at you fast and furious, but you’ve got such an incredible capacity to see your situation from many angles. I have no doubt of your ultimate success in whatever you choose to do.

[@elliottbuechlein3312]

putting struggles like this on the internet can be really really hard but im glad that you are as open and honest about everything that comes with it! you help out so many others like me who have these same struggles and don't know who to look to for help.

[@maria5428]

Philosopher Amber, you are so strong! I love that you changed your major and enjoy the classes you take now! So inspirational, wow🎉

[@sophiehearp2326]

PHILOSOPHER AMBER!! i am so glad you posted a new video and i love your content so much! 🫶🫶

[@autumn.breann]

Hey Amber! Thank you for sharing this! Just letting you know, in your healing, you will have setbacks. For me, I have severe anxiety from my childhood trauma and my learning disability and I am healing from it with great progress. But, I have recently been dealing with anxiety attacks everyday last month. And I learned that it is okay to get a setback because I can grow more in it. I believe that my Father Above will heal me of my anxiety and my issues with my stomach. And He will restore your life too! Thank you for sharing this!

[@amberschulz525]

💜💜💜

[@anniekayfitness]

Philosopher Amber lol thank you for sharing this! Your vulnerability will help many others! XO

[@aniduffee5093]

Okayyyy, so Philosopher Amber, you are amazing, you are strong, you are freaking AMBER SCHULZ! You inspire me to be the best me I can be, give me reminders that I always need, and always bring light to things I need to work on but don't realize it. Thank you for being transparent and real and raw. We need more people in this world like you who bring your circumstances to the surface, lay out the good and bad in your life, but then still go back to the mindset of "living life on a runners high".

[@MusclesandBooks]

Those last five minutes...THAT'S what undergrad is really about - figuring out what you want to do. I LOVED seeing that spark in your eye when you started talking about philosophy class. Philosopher Amber!

[@dleeuss1997]

I think it's extremely helpful as someone who struggles with a mental illness, or even a chronic illness, to practice a certain degree of acceptance and understand some days are going to be difficult, and you're going to need to have compassion for when you need to rest more than usual or withdraw from usual engagements to focus on rejuvenating yourself. Living with OCD for myself has been extremely exhausting sometimes but I have also reaped lessons from my recovery journey that I would never want to give up in favor of not having to struggle. Through struggle comes purpose and wisdom. Recovery is possible Amber, I wish you the best.

[@user-qq6gy7kc6l]

Amber, the fact that you are such an interesting and unique person that you can be so deep and meaningful with us and then go into a story with such a dramatic flare that it makes me laugh out loud is such a special gift. And I've loved being able to watch your videos about life and running as I am going through high school, competitive running, setbacks and mental issues myself is something I am so grateful to you for. Because you have been able to continue through your struggles and somedays just your fun personality where I feel like I'm talking with my best friend while watching your videos has given me hope. And I'm just so grateful that you continue to tell us about your success and failure in a way that is so awesome.

[@amberschulz525]

this is probably the sweetest comment i have ever read. thank u from the bottom of my heart for this💜 so thankful to have you here and i am sending you SO MUCH LOVE

[@oliviadoane5758]

Philosopher amber. This video was so awesome! Thanks for being so honest abt your story, it’s so helpful to so many!

[@sophiabergman9611]

Amber thank you so much for being open and honest!! College can be such a hard transition, and being in ed recovery while starting college makes things 10 times harder, I've totally been there. Recognizing when you're struggling and still moving forward in recovery is huge and you're doing fantastic! Reaching out and sharing your journey is amazing and I hope you know how big of an impact you're making with your channel. Keep doing what you're doing!!

[@amberschulz525]

awww thank you🥹🫶🏼

[@julietonon07]

philosopher amber- this video helped me so much i’m in senior runner in college and i’ve been dealing with my first big injury which has been so hard for me to be away from the team and not being able to do what i love but hearing you go through a similar situation made me feel less alone!

[@caras4359]

As someone who graduated and ran in college like 8 years ago now, it was SO hard for me to open up to other peers because we were ALL changing, feeling lost...anything I felt someone was feeling too and we just couldn't help each other haha. But going to campus counseling helped so much. I had a really challenging sophomore year and I didn't finish my XC season. I'm glad I stuck through it and my mom telling me to get all my assignments done to just have a passing grade. My junior and senior years were awesome and my XC seasons were great too. I have a career now, I still run here and there and my path to getting to where I am now was SO unpredictable looking back. So glad you found philosophy! Good luck and sounds like you have a super supportive coach to help you recover and get back to competing soon.

[@quinn6636]

As a former competitive distance runner and freshman NCAA athlete who has struggled with an ED for years, your discussion of body insecurity really resonated with me. My goal when I was deep in my ED was also to have abs, as I had a coach in high school who encouraged that "skinnier is faster." This is something that I still continue to struggle with and is my biggest insecurity. I often forget that my body is the least interesting thing about me, and that people will like me just as much whether I have abs or not. You continue to be a role model for me and motivate me to heal my relationship with food and my body. I know you will be a great philosopher!!

[@tamzinmarshall]

PHILOSOPHER AMBER! The joy in your voice and eyes when you talk about philosophy just made my day ❤

[@joegaidosh7682]

Hey philosopher, Amber, been following you for little bit over five years please for all our sake stay connected for at least five more years I am fascinated with what you will be at that time high school is babysitting. College is a larger step but nowhere near life 😎you got so much to look forward to.😍

[@EllaXu-wz7dh]

Philosopher Amber!! You are literally my inspiration in how positive you are despite everything in life :)

[@annasoph8967]

Screaming and crying over how amazing you look with bangs

[@amberschulz525]

OMG SCREAMING ABD CRYING OVER HOW SWEET U ARE

[@RunnerBoi]

I think people genuinely underestimate the adaptation struggles of college for those who can't sympathize/relate to it. That combined with an eating disorder/the pressure of running on a D1 team is something that sounds terrifying to balance on top of that. Glad to hear you're taking a much more intuitive approach though. "You learn a lot more out of class than you do in class" is something you'll find to be true down the line haha. Best of luck on your recovery endeavors, yo'.

[@justingeorg3725]

Philosophy. You’re very strong amber🤙

[@acaineko]

hello Amber! i'm glad you're back on youtube, i missed a lot your vlogs and all. but, i'm happy you took this time off to focus more on yourself and took care of yourself. congrats on finding a subject you like! sending lots of support for the future

[@amberschulz525]

Thank you so much!!

[@isabelasilva2356]

Philosopher Amber, first of all I am so proud of you for sharing this. Secondly, i had a realization on the first part of this video that literally our ed’s are just in our head and it’s nothing to do with our body, it’s just a bad coping mechanism for not feeling loved or like you fit in. the major reason for my ed has always been my legs, i think they are huge and i’ve always wanted a tight gap, but abs… i don’t think about them much, actually sometimes i would rather not have them cuz i feel masculine. while you are probably the opposite. so it’s like crazy to think our ed’s make us always want what we don’t have, like it’s always missing something, and we are never enough. it’s so stupid and so sad

[@amberschulz525]

it's so true! Eds are in our head which is comforting in knowing that what it tells us, actually isn't true!

[@wlmservicesgroupinc.93]

Philosopher Amber. You are a amazing young woman sharing your story. I am sure your parents are so proud of you.

[@gweisa899]

Thank you for sharing your setback in life mine were PTSD has child because being in a Orphange in China for 3 years before being adopted to the US. As I overcome through this an my adopted mother death as 8th grader and my dad getting remarried. May me struggle mentally. Also, having a learning disability that affected my learning in school. There were times that I wanted to give up. I did not think I make through grade school. I took a Post grad year. Now I will be graduating with undergraduate degrees with BA and AA in May 2023. I was not the same person as I started college. I grew a bunch during my 4 years in school. In college in a state that is 6 hour flight where my home is. And my family move another state across the country after HS. Amber you have over came so much. I am happy you have recognize these setback to be stronger and finding who you are in life.

[@oliviag2099]

You are so strong and I am so proud of you and will always look up to you

[@rachelmuir8525]

Philosopher Amber you are a ray of sunshine and we are SO lucky to have you bringing us amazingly authentic, kind hearted content. Stay you and take each day as it comes! Much love to you and your beautiful roomie Sonia :) xx

[@amberschulz525]

AW THANK UUUUUUUUUUU

[@melissagarcin2222]

Philosopher Amber! This reminds me so much of the college transition as an athlete, being away from home, mental health (in my case undiagnosed anxiety/depression/major confidence issues), all of it. The growth you are experiencing in college is so beautiful and will only continue! Enjoy the ride and keep being you!

[@gweisa899]

Also, wanted share I had sprain my ankle bad in a running meet and could not run for a month. I understand what is like feeling a burden. The most important part is recovery to able to run well.

[@Delenaaa_17]

Philosopher Amberrrrrrrrrrr! 👏👏👏👏👏 You're amazing, the best you out there, and we all love you! As a former runner with ED Ana I can say it gets better. But it takes time and you honoring and holding the space for it in a healthy way is so strong and powerful of you. I can say by taking my own time I have come back as a strong and powerful endurance runner and that time that seemed to never end healing from Ana just was SO worth it. And philosophy is beautiful. Absolutely such immense knowledge on a scale that is on another level. It suits you, you are going to love the wild ride it will take you on. This is only the beginning. Love you, dear. Stay the course, we're rooting for you! ⭐⭐⭐⭐

[@Jmwimmer]

Girl! I'm also a collegiate runner/sprinter. Shin splints should not get to that point, especially if you are diligent about recovery... I am not suggesting you should do this or that, but I encourage you to look into PAES (popliteal artery entrapment syndrome) and compartment syndrome. I had extremely painful shins/lower leg pain. I also couldn't walk or run without dealing with this pain... I mention this just cause if the pain comes back worse over time, it might be smart to look into it. Love ya girl!! Feel better 🥰

[@amberschulz525]

i’m working with doctors🫶🏼

[@jaydenpizza10]

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[@sonyagraske376]

PHILOSOPHY AMBER... YOU LOOK GREAT, SOUND GREAT, STAY POSITIVE... PEACE OUT FROM N.C. ❤

[@gittn2436]

Let's go Philsopher Amber!!! You got this, we're praying for you 🙏 I had (and still have) a stress fracture in my fifth metatarsal and it happened during the peak of my training for a turkey trot 5k to run a PR, I can relate so much to going to a race and crying, because you can't run it's so different being on the sidelines, but we'll make it. Thanks so much for sharing, it means so much to so many people!

[@elirunz]

You don't break, you just flex 💪🏻 philosopher Amber

[@naamanovak6206]

ILY and you’re amazing and strong and I believe in you😍

[@ЭмилияАзизова-ы6с]

This video helps me so much, thank you to being honest and for this video, stay strong Philosopher Amber ly soooooo much

[@emilyhanley8735]

Philosopher Amber 😭 LOVE YOU AMBER

[@ejsinstability]

Philosopher Amber is gonna be teaching the world new and valuable things👏❤

[@tfordruns]

Philosopher amber! Love you gal !

[@wxmatt19]

The more we shine a light on our most hidden areas of life and we make ourselves vulnerable, the less power these dark areas have. The Enemy will use whatever,he can to destroy us mentally, physically, and emotionally; especially insecurities. You'll find the more you open up and share there are many other people struggling with the same things. Good friends bear each other's burdens and walk together through life. The hardest battles are against yourself.

[@marim.5077]

PHILOSOPHER AMBER!!

[@tayssir9206]

I WAS WORRIED YOU FINALLY POSTED

[@gracewessel8890]

🎉 PHILOSOPHER AMBER!!! 🎉

[@gelseyamaryllis]

Philosopher Amber! LOVE your videos so so much, especially when you just sit down and talk to us--like THANK you so much for just opening up and sharing your stories--your challenges, life stuff and how you are overcoming them; like truly, it means so so much to us! I always learn so much from you and you are truly such an inspiration to me. And I just love that you are majoring in philosophy--like why didn't I think of that? haha Sending so much love and healing to you!

[@amberschulz525]

AWWWWW this was so incredibly sweet. made my heart and soul smile! sending you love

[@scottholland2558]

One person you may want to reach out to us Allie Ostrander. . . she has a very similar story, especially, with regards to doing lots of cross-training and lower volume runs! Further, she has struggled with an eating disorder as well! FYI, 18:02 when you feel like it wasn’t a great race for you bodes well for the future racing!! Regardless of whether or not you ever succeed in D1 running or not you are more than a runner! Look at how much you are influencing others that follow you! Congratulations to you and know that you are worthy!

[@paladinfx3083]

Philosopher Amber good to see you back on the vlog camera. Best of luck with everything! :)

[@kaylab3468]

I really appreciate you sharing this. Almost my whole freshman year I was dealing with 2 severe concussions, so I was out of cheerleading and then I wasn't enjoying any of my classes. Because I hated school and couldn't do the one thing I loved the most which was cheer, I literally cried all the time, got into bad study and health habits, and had to get put on depression and anxiety medications. I am now a sophomore in college. I have not been enjoying my classes once again and I ended up getting a shoulder injury that I'm currently trying to recover from, and it is like my whole freshman year over again. Just about a week and a half ago I made the sudden choice to change my major from biology/pre-med to health science and wellness/pre-Athletic training. Although those sound kind of similar, the class requirements are very different, and I am actually looking forward to my classes next semester. Although I am still out of cheer right now for my shoulder, I feel so much better now that I found something I actually want to study and that I am excited about. I totally understand the struggle with not liking school and dealing with sport injuries and I hope it is as comforting to you as it is to me that you are not alone in those struggles. We will both get through this and come out stronger.

[@toddlove9423]

Hang in there, philosopher Amber!

[@madeline6232]

PHILOSOPHER AMBER‼️

[@thatrunningirl]

I'm a lot older than you at 36 but I have the same identity struggles. I've run for 18 years and only really in the past year have I given myself the permission to not run sometimes and reduce my mileage. I've run 29 marathons and sometimes in the past it has definitely felt like I am running because I HAVE to run. Interestingly though, when you tell yourself you don't HAVE to run, you actually do want to run! Keep up being authentic and sharing your story and always listen to your heart. You'll figure it all out I'm sure :)

[@stina4172]

Philosopher Amber, It's so good too hear your story. Thanks for sharing it with us🥺💖

[@divitdean2359]

Philosopher Amber !!!!!!!!!!!!!

[@annaschusser9661]

this was amazing! and you look amazing

[@aaronjenkins6048]

Philosopher Amber! I had a similar moment in my anthropology class, it's like a light switch flipped in my brain. It's awesome you found a subject you like!

[@veronika.p9468]

Philosopher amber!!! Love uuuu sm

[@smilesandhearts15]

Hi Amber thank you for sharing your struggles especially as someone with an eating disorder myself it comforting to know that I am not alone. And I hope you get to race these indoor and outdoor track seasons

[@johnnyyymaldonado556]

Philosopher Amber!!!! It's great that you're feeling better. Just keep on rolling :D

[@stefbaracaldo7457]

Thanks for keeping it real, it’s so encouraging

[@madsbaird7830]

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[@eafj90]

Philosopher Amber with the life lessons 👍🏼

[@conniekshi]

Philosopher amber :)) thank you so much for being so real ❤️

[@amberschulz525]

Always!

[@thewittywongs3643]

Philosopher Amber Keep up the awesome work

[@Ecudubhawk2016]

Don’t give up we support you

[@aeriastand]

Philosopher amber ! Omg I can relate to so many things in that video that’s crazy! I mean the abs is definitely a thing with eating disorder , I’ve felt the same way for so much times! even thought I feel like it’s easier for boys to get abs it’s still a thing! Anyways happy to know it’s getting better! Keep the grind 💪

[@Faith-hd6bn]

Philosopher Amber 🏃🏾‍♀️

[@thewingitrunner]

Philosopher Amber lol. Stay string and keep plugging away. It's another chapter in your book of life. Take your time with getting back race fit and you are still young with loads of running years to come. 👍🏿💪🏿

[@amberschulz525]

thank you!

[@alexischapdelaine9476]

Philosopher Amber that i like the sound of that you are doing great i agree it makes all the diffrence when you have close friends like your room mate to hlep you out and have ypur back its so important i agree with that highly great vlog love the honesty and how you find the postive vibes to push forward and ride the waves

[@TheFloridaBikeVlogger]

i feel ur struggle, I have a eating disorder and thank you for the vlog camera upload.

[@steveilg6134]

Philosopher Amber! 👊🏽🙏🏾

[@madisonvalentine7771]

Philosopher, Amber!!! You got this. 🫶🏽

[@brendagrez934]

my fav philosopher 🫶🏻🫶🏻 ur so cool

[@amberschulz525]

i love you

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[@adriw569]

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[@bootsncatsndawgs]

Philosophy is such a good subject

[@chipsy3691]

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[@sarahdore7884]

Girl!! Your stomach is gorgeous! You look toned and amazing! Philosopher Amber 💜 🦆

[@lindseydaly3966]

FAV KZbinR EVER, CANT WAIT FOR THE NEXT VLOG

[@amberschulz525]

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[@AnneliseCB]

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[@Ecudubhawk2016]

We support ya!

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[@lilleyelizabeth9333]

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[@danperlmutter]

Keep the faith. Don't give up.

[@annabagley4500]

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[@shadowspirit3012]

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[@kaitlyn.444]

Hi Philosopher Amber Your hair looks so good!

[@erinimmonen8554]

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[@nycopperwarrior9734]

What's sup Capitan!!! Quiting is not apart of your being...joy wouldn't feel so good if it wasn't for pain(50 cent) take care of yourself. Hope to see ya again once I touch back down in Orlando ....

[@lindseydaly3966]

YOU ARE SUCH A QUEEN

[@amberschulz525]

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[@StellaWright01]

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[@theemrtaco]

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[@franziskah7868]

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[@ezrigellys7983]

I just want to say WOW. I am so proud of how far you have come. Like your story has made such an impact on my life. You have told me that I can't pretty much do whatever I want. And hearing that from another fellow runner, it clicked in my mind that I am strong enough to do what I want with my life, so thank you. You are absolutely amazing. In your " running across the Grand canyon" video, I had a question, and the question is what was the name of the trail that you took with your friends. Please let me know because now that I saw you do it, I really want to do it, so if I could have the name for that, it would be greatly appreciated. Last time, you are amazing just the way you are, and please don't change for anybody but yourself. I love you and thank you.🫶

[@amberschulz525]

YOU ABSOLUTELY CAN DO ANYTHINGGGGGG!!! so i'm not exactly sure what trail we took but you can find it by googling 22 mile hike rim to rim of the Grand Canyon!! it should be pretty easy to find:) let me know when you do it!

[@lilleyelizabeth9333]

Such an inspiration. ❤

[@alancrisp5458]

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[@SteffenieKup]

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[@llss101]

“we are on a rock FloAtinG around the WoRLd… FLoatINg around the SUn” philosopher amber 2022

[@amberschulz525]

my brain is very big