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[@rachloia6993]

I used to say the same thing about being silenced, but my therapist has calmly reminded me that sometimes I feed my own dramatic flare when I constantly speak of my negativity. After 8 years, I’m starting to realize she’s absolutely right. We have to fight those negative thoughts or they will consume us. It’s hard, my mom projected her negative thoughts a lot and my dad was the opposite. Both ended up in bad places mentally, thus affecting my mental health. Sometimes it’s not about silencing or speaking out, sometimes it’s about processing everything and choosing to try and reprocess your thinking. It’s hard and will take time. Sending you love and prayers

[@luzdunlevy5201]

Rachloia I think your Wright however just a different stance thogh I really appreciate your pointI love her she’s great amazing and honestly people need to understand that if this is her safe place to process those feelings but idk I think your right

[@luzdunlevy5201]

Rachoila no I totally know I was just saying that we love her just we’re not people that have like idk like we don’t know her personally I have mental health issues but it’s not because of her because of my self and I think that’s her point about Flynn I think we’re both right espocally you when it’s parents that gets very toxic and everything you’re saying is so valid I’m not trying to say it’s her safe place and maybe she should process it throgh this however you would proably no more I’m just trying to bring new stuff into a conversation about mental health

[@TdScar]

@@rachloia6993 I agree about it affecting her son! I think people using it is gross but I know it’s fucked me up having my mom do the same thing. Now it’s not the only thing she’s done that has harmed me but it’s certainly one of them

[@pinkisaha2618]

@@TdScar hopefully you are in a better place 🌈✨

[@TdScar]

@@pinkisaha2618 thank you! Yes I am! Actually putting distance from my mom and speaking very little to her has helped me tremendously. All her negative self talk and thoughts about herself she HEAVILY projected on me when I got older. It got to the point I wanted to end my life because of it. She had a very traumatic upbringing and bullied herself so she bullied me too. And I’m sure when I was a baby that’s something she never thought she would do. But she did. I’m moving across the country in the fall to put more distance between us. I know it’ll really help me work out the trauma she’s caused me

[@ElizabethRodriguez-wu9ym]

I don’t think anyone is trying to silence feelings or expressing feelings or teaching children to express feelings. I think the thing is we can see Colleen is going through alot and the way she is handling it (constantly talking negatively about herself or stuff) is not helpful for her or for anyone learning how to deal with feelings

[@plushloki]

I'm going to pass on some advice that my mom has given to me. If you wouldn't say it to your best friend, then you shouldn't say it to yourself. Don't be a bully to yourself. Yes, you can have negative emotions and express them and analyze them, but you need to remind yourself all of the reasons why that's not fully true, just like what you would do for your best friend. Treat yourself like you're your best friend.

[@xxmiamxx]

Omg I love that!!! This exactly what I was thinking 😁

[@ashrapieters2521]

I love this. Thank you for sharing 💖

[@filmzen281]

This x a million! I really think she misinterpreted what we all were trying to say.

[@MooMushroom]

Omg so true!!

[@eloiselancsweert]

This is really beautifully said !

[@katchtree]

Does anyone else feel like Flynn gained a whole vocabulary overnight!? He is speaking so much and so clearly!💜

[@tali.galaxy]

I can't believe he pronounced "Leprechaun" and "spinach"!!! I was shocked!

[@zoekathena2193]

It's because his parents repeat everything he mumbles, in the correct pronunciation and grammar. They're really good with that I always notice it.

[@abanter]

I still like how he says, "water." blarLarLarlar

[@mairaguerrero8472]

YEs lol

[@jiinxified]

I think they feed him dictionaries :D

[@azucena315]

Saying, "I feel sad when I look in the mirror because all I can see are so-called flaws" is different from saying, "I'm disgusting; I'm repulsive." The former is a statement about one's internal experience, which is healthy--NAME IT TO TAME IT! But the latter one is all judgement; it's top-down thinking that doesn't express one's lived experience, but instead casts aspersions on one's physical features.

[@tali.galaxy]

Exactly this. People are not trying to silence her but trying to make her see this difference. The second one is damaging to her AND to the viewers watching her.

[@catfri1995]

THIS!!!!

[@skye8260]

I really think that a lot of people missed the point that Colleen was trying to say. She explained being bullied and yelled at for saying anything nice about herself. Which is her trauma. Trauma is not that you can unlearn in a second. Like she said towards the end, it’s going to take years of therapy to unlearn it and be at a point where she can be positive about herself. This is her channel and she should be able to say how she feels about herself in the moment because this is essentially just a video diary for her. I feel like self-love and acceptance is a personal journey and just because saying nice things to yourself worked for you, does not mean it will work for her. Let’s continue to support Colleen in her journey towards unlearning this trauma but also, let’s not take the role of a therapist in this. Instead, we should be her supportive friends, who are there for her and appreciate and love her!

[@valarya]

I've been trying to state this in a comment for the past 10 mins. You stated it so eloquently. YES! Exactly!!! It's so sad that her self-esteem levels are so incredibly low due to past-trauma that she sees all the help/love/support in these comments as people wanting to silence her. I hope she gets some help and frees herself from her own shit self-esteem soon.

[@mariahp.1200]

Being open about your feelings and being verbally abusive to yourself are two very different things. No one was trying to silence you, we were trying to encourage you to take the steps you need too in order to start seeing and speaking about yourself differently! It was very heartbreaking to hear the words you chose to speak about yourself. I would encourage you to get the help you need in order to reverse the damage other people have done to you and how you see yourself 💛

[@bree4328]

wrong because you don’t see colleeens world. You don’t know what she went through do you relaize that she has been through trauma in the real world not youtube so stop

[@mariahp.1200]

@@bree4328 I believe you may have misunderstood me because I absolutely acknowledge her trauma and it's evident in how she talks to herself that there is trauma there and I encouraged her to seek the help she needs to heal and overcome that trauma 💛 all love to you!

[@bree4328]

@@mariahp.1200 Ohhh okay! Thank you. I see now! Sorry for the misunderstanding!!

[@keilayshagamesalt5702]

But the problem is she lived her life around society the internet. That probably really brought her self esteem down and when she was younger she might have been around people that just mentally made her think some things. I grow up the same way I let other people get the best of me and I feel like expressing my feelings by talking bad about myself just makes me a better person for people behind a screen I don’t even know. It just this generation has a lot of hatred to people and it really brings you down and as you grow up you just feel like you can’t express your emotions. And it just sucks but that’s the way it is and it’s a hard habit to break.

[@avivapeltin]

There's a big difference between being honest about your emotions and insecurities vs. completely hating on yourself! I don't think anyone was saying that you shouldn't be honest out loud about your emotions and insecurities. Sending love, Colleen!

[@maeve6363]

But if those are her feeling she has every right to express them. Don’t try and control and define what her feelings are. If you don’t like the content then click off. Your not helping anyone

[@katrose8385]

@@IamMinnie90 It's called victimizing yourself and she will do it until she's blue in the face...

[@katrose8385]

@@maeve6363 Expressing your feelings is different than self abuse.

[@maeve6363]

@@katrose8385 even if you had any right to judge Colleen for the way she treats herself she has apologised for any upset she may have caused and the negative influence she may UNINTENTIONALLY have had, she has clarified it’s something she is working on and explained that it is a trauma response engrained deep within her so for you to express anything other than support and acceptance for what she is going through is unacceptable and you should stop watching her videos. The fact people are trying to villainise her for her mental health issues and her response to the things she has seen written about and directed towards her and how they are disregarding and refusing to listen to the fact that what they are saying makes her feel silenced is disgusting

[@katrose8385]

​@@maeve6363 Bruh if you're a public figure who puts ur life on the internet you give people every right to judge u... No one is trying to make her into a villain for her mental health issues, they want her to take responsibility/accountability for her mental health issues + the harm she has already done by posting months worth of inappropriate and toxic videos.

[@LS-ki6vs]

I will say.. my mother talked negatively about herself all the time and it realllllyyyy shaped how I speak to myself. As much as I understand your argument about Flynn. It truly does affect self image to hear your parents in that way.

[@michelletraceyy]

THIS!

[@TdScar]

Yes! Me too! And we should normalize talking about feelings but we shouldn’t normalize straight up attacking yourself every day

[@deathbym0nkeys]

YEP!! same here.

[@carm2296]

Me too. 💯💯

[@chloe_3787]

I am the opposite. My mom never talked down about herself when I was young and therefore I didn’t know how to talk down about myself. Kids can’t imitate what they don’t hear. At 18, I’m still very confident. I really never say self depreciating things about my appearance and I’m not afraid to say I’m smarter than some of my male peers. My mom has a ton to do with that!

[@julianawhit]

When people were bringing up your son, I think they were coming from a parental or protective feeling many viewers have for you. I took it more as if you heard your son say he hated himself, it would be devastating and heartbreaking. We aren’t using your son against you, but showing you how saddening it is to hear you say these things.

[@kandy1643]

I hope that’s what they meant

[@BelieveInYourself129]

depends on the comments you look at.

[@mel0023]

I saw it from this perspective too.

[@Ariplaygames]

@@BelieveInYourself129 read hundreds and they were all 100% from a good perspective. Its sad she cant see it but its just the truth.

[@annabelswan7352]

I saw a lot of comments on this video saying that is not what they meant. But Colleen took it a different way. So please stop saying these things overall is what she meant because she took it a different way and everyone needs to respect that she is working on herself behind the camera and we don't need to tell her to fix herself. She already knows

[@andrearoca27]

I don’t think anyone wants to shame or silence you, I don’t even think people are uncomfortable at all, and even tho expressing how you feel is good, the way you are expressing those feelings is harmful! To you and those around you, there are many ways you cound express how you feel without completely bashing yourself in the process, and I say all this out of love not out of judgement, we can see that your self depreciation is a deeply learned behaviour and it’s hard to unlearn, but it is possible!! 💕

[@marlenaflacks2089]

so well worded. i hope she sees this comment so she knows that we love her and however she expresses herself is okay but she should know she isn’t alone. 💗

[@bree4328]

Some people do but she is going through a trauma experience. It’s not what you see. Because you only see comments. You do see in colleeens world.

[@Nyctolust]

no, people are uncomfortable, because it is unsettling and triggering for many of us to watch someone verbally abuse themselves and gaslight their own fans with "EVERYONE in the whole wide world hates it when I do blah blah blah". no one wants to shame or silence her but she is legitimately tipping into a dangerous point *and* making her fans feel worthless and ignored.

[@bree4328]

@@Nyctolust then leave. If you don’t like it LEAVE

[@bree4328]

because she is a grown woman she doesn’t have to listen to you that’s all

[@sidthenid615]

Completely bashing yourself and openly talking about your feelings are two different things. If you had sat down explaining why getting bangs was a difficult thing to do and how your past continues to effect how you view yourself, people would have been extremely supportive. Watching you say all those rude things about yourself was not expressing your feelings and it was hard to watch. People are not trying to silence how you feel, we care about you and don't like seeing you verbally abuse yourself. I love watching you be open about your feelings because that is so important to share. Please continue to be open with us and please don't put so much power into peoples negativity. We love you, we want to see you love yourself 💛

[@angelicaobando5278]

FACTS

[@crystalmodkins6826]

Facts

[@avivapeltin]

yepppp!

[@ecb3828]

Thank you!!! 🙏🙏🙏

[@simentalantoinette]

exactly, well said! i’m glad people are clarifying this because i feel frustrated she’s not understanding the difference. (-:

[@candidavis1061]

This is not the message we were sending you. No one is saying for you not to open up about your feelings. You hammering for days upon days about your hair and not liking it is not you expressing your feelings. It is self bullying. There are many times where you talk about your feelings and we all have crying sessions together that is healthy. This is a different situation and I really hope you see the love in people trying to bring it to your attention. I know it hurts to hear because you don't want to see yourself as a person that would harm herself and maybe your not ready to make that connection. The bottom line is we aren't professionals but the past few videos sat off allot of alarms for your viewers. I hope you can just sit with what has been expressed by people that care and maybe rewatch your videos, but watch them as if you were your own mom listening to their daughter. I'm sorry that the communication from us to you is hurting you or making you feel invalidated because I promise you none of us would care to comment if we didn't care how you are feeling. I hope your feeling better about all this.

[@tamitorelli3731]

🙌

[@musicwithmscarandola]

🙌🏼

[@annamann3608]

I don’t think anyone is trying to silence you. I think they are trying to help you see that you can be critical of yourself but still love yourself. You aren’t displaying self love and putting too much pressure on things that truly don’t matter in the long run. The goal isn’t to silence you but let others know that something small you don’t like about yourself doesn’t define your self worth.

[@anitab3798]

But what you said is invalidating to her feelings... I don’t think that was your intent because it sounds like you want the best for her. But when you say “putting too much pressure on things that truly don’t matter in the long run” that is you telling someone else what can and does matter to them. It also seems to imply she isn’t already aware that something like a hair cut isn’t an ever lasting outcome. A “bad” haircut could mean very little to person A and then could be a big deal to person B - neither person is right nor wrong because it is how that person feels. You may think person B is overrating, and that is your opinion, but to say person B shouldn’t feel that way or to shame person B for feeling that way is, in my opinion, wrong, hurtful, and a form of invalidating their feelings. People also have different ways of processing things and sometimes they need to make a huge deal about something they don’t like because in that moment that’s how big those feelings seem and then in a day or two (what whatever amount of time) they have fully processed and come to the conclusion of either yes that was/is a big or no it isn’t a big deal (anymore). I am in full support of self love and positive self talk, and I am also supportive of people expressing how they feel and creating a safe place for that. I hope none of this came across as aggressive, I was just trying to share another perspective and my opinions 🤗

[@OnePersonOneOpinion]

I wonder if youtube comments have an algorithm too, bc i only see wonderful comments but she's seeing negative stuff :(

[@mejustchillin6495]

This is what she’s talking about. U just don’t understand

[@jimenaloyola1709]

see not everyone thinks like u tho, although cutting bangs might seem something small to u or other ppl, it doesn’t mean it’s small for colleen or other people. And also when u say ‘for things that truly don’t matter in the long run’ ur being kind of ignorant towards her feelings. U can’t expect her to think like that because again, not everyone had that mindset. Please i know she may talk bad about herself sometimes but that’s better than her bottleing her feelings inside. So i suggest y’all stop telling her to stop talking bad about herself because sometimes that’s how people cope with themselves. instead we should just show her she is beautiful and loved💛💛

[@thomasswift8995]

Yh but heres the thAng DO NOT give parenting advice to parents cuz EACH parent has thier way of parenting and if u dont like her parenting then DEAL WITH IT and however u wanna parent ur kids parent them like that

[@dreannalebrun]

It’s not about silencing yourself and your feelings, it’s about having a balance between expressing your negative thoughts about yourself AND expressing kind thoughts about yourself. But I know it’s hard for you because of the trauma and fear that’s been ingrained in you. Just know that you are beautiful, amazing, and the best mom ever. We are all rooting for you! 💜

[@georgiapepper5797]

No one is trying to silence you. You speaking out about how you feel is important, I do the same and I have to talk about my feelings to get them out. But there’s a massive difference between talking about your feelings and putting yourself down to the point where it’s a form of self harm. I’ve also been through a stage of doing this through not wanting other people to say it first but I made myself worse because the more you say it to yourself, the more you’ll believe it. No one is trying to silence you, we see how amazing you are, what an amazing mum you are, just everything about you, you’re so beautiful and have no need to speak so badly of yourself. So I guess people just see these things too and don’t like that you speak like that about yourself when we can see that it’s so far from the truth!! - sending love from the UK, also you definitely need cheese on your beans on toast next time 😉x

[@rhondabontrager552]

OKAY, can we talk about the FACT that the editing on colleen's SNEEZES is pure comedy gold, and they should get an oscar for the editing

[@celinechuuti3478]

I actually find it kinda annoying lol. One is fun but not 1000000

[@josieschlichting1937]

@@celinechuuti3478 it’s a body function and she makes it entertaining would you rather have her shoot snot out of her nose editing??

[@demarchitrio]

Ikr

[@kieram.6186]

Flynn’s personality is RADIATING, I love it. He seems like one comical little man! 🥺❤️

[@beccaadams0417]

I think people were trying to help you, not silence you. It's like you have created this toxic relationship in your head with your fan base, and sometimes, people are just sharing their outsiders perspective. Were not ALL the enemy.

[@chrissymarie2892]

I know that's what we understood on our side of the conversation. Colleen had read the comments and saw them in a different way then the people that wrote the comments did. Either they worded the comments incorrectly, or everybody just thought of saying things that sounded spot on in their head but not for Colleen. We need to make sure we let Colleen express herself the way she needs to let all of her stress out. The commenters are just giving her a hard time. The people I know were giving her the hardest time, as she said in the vlog, were the people who were saying her son's future mental health depends on what she says to herself when her son isn't in the room. Everyone just needs to let Colleen be Colleen and fix things by herself, no matter how long it takes to do so. She is her own person.

[@rc8330]

@@chrissymarie2892 But she isn't "fixing things by herself." Even she has brought this up in past vlogs. She essentially uses her vlogs and videos as therapy sessions, which isn't beneficial to anyone. Doing therapy through a camera where you unload and then get mad at the response and comments, is toxic. Then there is the fan-celebrity dynamic that can also make things icky. I hope soon she finds a good therapist that she can feel comfortable with and is equipped to deal with all the overly critical ways she feels about herself. We all need to work on ourselves and there are beneficial and harmful ways to go about that.

[@JocieMaMacie]

R C 100%!!! There’s a huge difference between being vulnerable with your audience VS then emotionally dumping onto them on the daily. As I’ve seen this progress over the years I’m starting to see how unhealthy this is for both sides.

[@chrissymarie2892]

@@rc8330 True, yet people are expressing their feelings in unnecessary ways.

[@amelialaird2281]

EXACTLY! omg you have worded this frickin perfectly 👏

[@jan2351]

I remember my mom always trashing herself when I was growing up, especially regarding her weight. It really affected me and I started the same negative self talk. When I had a girl of my own I knew I had to shut that down completely. It's not that I don't think it, but I feel I would be setting a terrible example if it was normalized. Of course she can express herself but I want her to accept that her physical appearance will change a bunch throughout her life, but that has nothing to do with her value! She introduced me to Miranda 7 yrs ago but unfortunately, she's no longer allowed to watch Colleen.

[@lucyswinson2512]

I experienced the same thing with my mom. It’s so important to recognize the difference between healthily expressing feelings and just spewing negativity and self hatred and the way that can affect your kids. It really does change the way you think and I have picked up the same habits as my mom and it’s damaging.

[@laurashleys]

I've learned the same unfortunately. Good for you for breaking the cycle!

[@ashleapichardo2834]

Same, I am breaking that cycle with my kids and only talk positive body talk with my kids. I also encourage them to express thier feelings. I don't get what she means here.

[@savannahjames6594]

Same! My mom and my grandma both complain about their weight and hair all the time, and I've found myself doing this same thing and putting way to much focus on physical attributes and believing that they impact my worth. People dont realize the impact they have on their kids just through small words or actions. From what I can tell people aren't trying to use Flynn to silence colleen, but instead trying to put it into perspective for her

[@lavinia4568]

I hope she read your comment

[@graceedgington]

Trauma and negative self-talk is a very real and deep rooted issue that can't just be unlearnt and reversed in a second. That takes years to unpick so expecting Colleen to all of a sudden change how she thinks about herself isn't going to happen overnight. I feel like some people are trying to genuinely help her and others are trying to tear her down (or some peoples comments are coming across in that way). We need to be careful because you can see that Colleen is trying to work on the way she speaks about herself and I don't want people making it harder for her than it already is.

[@kenlie9213]

Yes I feel that she is very sensitive right now and when she was talking about ppl silencing her and the Flynn stuff she was getting emotional. I can see where ppl were coming from with the Flynn talking negatively about himself and whatever but I don’t think it was right to put little Flynn into this and the comments made her feel like a bad mom ( which she isn’t she is the best mom and would never want to teach Flynn to talk bad about himself) but yes it will take a while for her to learn, grow, and be confident again

[@sybil3947]

Yeah, it's hard, trauma takes a while to unlearn. People are just pointing out that she has a son, and many of us know the trauma parents unwittingly inflict on their children. She shouldn't let it affect him. That said, the way her community is pointing it out probably isn't gentle enough or is triggering her somehow. I hope she can get the help she needs and stop freaking out about her comments. If our goal is to help her it might not be working.. then again narcissists can't really take any form of criticism, so it's pointless to criticize them....

[@graceedgington]

@@sarahmarie3317 I understand what you're saying about talking to her family and friends about it but I think that Colleen shares these things to help other people and to make others feel less alone. I've never thought 'Oh she's so negative it's so annoying' when she's speaking about how she feels. If anything it makes me sad that she feels that way and I don't know about you but, I personally would never tear someone down for having negative feelings towards themselves and expressing them, I'd want to build them up and make them feel better and change how they feel about themselves. But that might just be me personally, I don't know.

[@mixie2811]

The problem isn’t you saying “I feel” there is nothing wrong in saying how you feel. the problem is you saying “I am”.

[@BelieveInYourself129]

thats sooo hard to change. we cant expect her to edit her self talk for us

[@jasminehall7643]

That IS how she feels though. She feels that she is the "negative" things she expresses. So no there isn't a difference.

[@springboard1994]

@@jasminehall7643 No, listen closely. She said she PRETENDS to feel all those negative things so people wont come for her as cocky. That makes it manipulation (or fishing for compliments) not feelings.

[@emmavinzent4452]

Exactly!!

[@kz689]

@@springboard1994 lol it isn't legitimately "pretending" it's a defense mechanism that develops that people use (it isn't a thought out process, the way she's been trying to explain it is just the easiest way to explain the reason something like it develops. You have a fear that people are going to hurt you so you try to hurt yourself so when they do you either hurt less or you can tell yourself "see, I knew blah blah blah" people who experience it aren't actually sitting there planning it to manipulate anyone

[@emmab.1328]

Expressing how you feel and belittling yourself are 2 very different things

[@christinak1759]

I would hope that mentioning Flynn in regards to your mental health was in no way saying that he shouldnt be able to express his feelings or that he was being used against you. Its common in CBT to ask what would you say to a loved one that felt that way all the time.

[@reusslunar]

I feel like the people who were upset that colleen was talking negatively about herself were just concerned about her, but personally, I think it's really brave of colleen to talk about her insecurities in her vlogs. It makes people feel that it's okay to have insecurities because we are all human beings with flaws and imperfections. Yes, it may have some negative impact on others but in life, you can't be positive every time. It is just impossible. Sometimes you have to face the truth and talk about or go through negative things in order to learn and try to become a better version of yourself. Because how can you change for the better when you will always put up this facade that you're okay and you don't deal with problems or insecurities? I think Colleen talking about the things she doesn't like about herself makes her a real human being. It also tells us it is okay to be vulnerable, that you don't have to wear this mask just to please other people. It tells being sad or not okay, is normal. And let's all admit it, we have a thing or two that we wish to change about ourselves because of how we want other people to see us.

[@jasminehall7643]

I agree. However I would argue that the positivity that comes from leading by example that you should be able to express yourself and all of your experiences and feelimg are valid enough to share FAR outweighs any negative impact. And tbh I think those who are taking it negatively either don't understand what it's like to feel this way, or don't understand the value that in treating your feelings as though they are valuable and valid enough to be heard.

[@yacvideoify]

It is brave to be vulnerable about her insecurities.

[@Clarisa3944]

I don’t think that expressing how you feel is what you were doing. It is always more “I’m a disgusting person” “ I’m hideous” “I’m the worst” etc. My mom did that to herself when I was growing up and I ended up speaking to myself the same way. It’s taught. And while no one should Bring Flynn into anything I think that’s what they meant. I’m just sorry. I wish I could hug you and tell you all of those abusers in your past and present were wrong. So wrong. Start by looking in the mirror every morning and telling yourself that you’re beautiful and smart and have such a sweet kind heart.

[@Ellie_S]

E x a c t l y

[@misscrackwood]

For as long as I can remember, I've heard my mom talking negative things about herself, her body mainly, even though, she is absolutely gorgeous. She eats well, she exercices, she's healthy, but somehow, whatever she does, she's never happy with how she looks. Thankfully, my dad doesn't care at all about his looks (I would say he could care a tiny little more haha) so I think I kinda found a balance for myself. I don't necessarily am satisfied with the way I am, but I made peace with not being 100% in love with everything about me, because I realize nobody is! But how I wish my mom saw herself the way we see her, and same for Colleen, and you +CandM ^^

[@maggysday]

My mum was the same and I ended up growing up with those thoughts in my head too.

[@jasminehall7643]

That is how she feels though. She thinks she is those things at times. And she says as much every now and then. You don't get to decide how someome feels? The most kind thing you can do is believe someone when they express how they feel, negative or not, and meet them where they are at as opposed to where you want them to be or where you think they should be. Also I feel the need to add that my mother also has those same self-worth issues and is and always has been an AMAZING mother who never made me feel anything but loved and valuable. I have terrible self-worth but I by no means blame her for it, I understand where these issues came from in my personal experiences and it wasn't because I heard her do the same.

[@Clarisa3944]

I’m sorry to all that have grown up with this self hatred side. You’re all wonderful and beautiful and I’m sending you all my love.

[@saigevirdi9943]

I commented this on yesterdays video but I think it's worth mentioning again, I really think that a lot of people missed the point that Colleen was trying to say. She explained being bullied and yelled at for saying anything nice about herself. Which is her trauma. Trauma is not that you can unlearn in a second. Like she said towards the end, it’s going to take years of therapy to unlearn it and be at a point where she can be positive about herself. This is her channel and she should be able to say how she feels about herself in the moment because this is essentially just a video diary for her. I feel like self-love and acceptance is a personal journey and just because saying nice things to yourself worked for you, does not mean it will work for her. Let’s continue to support Colleen in her journey towards unlearning this trauma but also, let’s not take the role of a therapist in this. Instead, we should be her supportive friends, who are there for her and appreciate and love her!

[@Yuyuyaraa]

I agree but the reason why people were mentioning something was because, you could tell the negative affirmations she keeps constantly tell her self is taking a toll on her. The comments were trying to bring that to her attention and have her express positive affirmations even though she might not feel them but just to say them because the more you say something the more it becomes a reality. She keeps saying negative things so that is now her reality and making people like us view her like that when those things had never crossed our minds in the first place

[@lilyp8716]

@SaskiaSims just shut up with that.

[@jujulayne]

Yes! Thank you! We need to love and support her. I hated seeing everyone blame her for the way she feels and shame her for how she “may be making others feel.” You can tell she is having a hard time with all of it. Support her and love her. Don’t tear her down or shame her for her feelings.

[@puckjee5423]

You are so right!!! We should be there for her and not tear her down. She is an amazing mother and it is really healthy to talk about feelings. If you are not able to appreciate her for who she is, what are you doing here anyway..

[@liliphdr]

@@katharinepoole8018 nobody said youtube is her therapy, I think she mentioned in some vlogs that she does go to a therapist, obvs right now on like zoom or something.

[@manonrivoira9030]

Colleen just wants to express her feelings in the most honest way and she souldn’t be ashamed for that ! We are all humans, we all have weaknesses, she doesn’t have to be perfect all the time, super confident on everything about her. She is a really sweet person and always tries to make this world better 💜. It’s her channel and she can choose to express herself however she wants to and we should be here for it, she doesn’t force anyone to watch her vlogs ! WE LOVE YOU COLLEEN AND DON’T LISTEN TO RANDOM PEOPLE WHO SAY THINGS THEY DON’T KNOW ❤️ (Huge love from France 🇫🇷)

[@TdScar]

I’m not good at positive self talk but the last 6 months I’ve really been working on not seeing myself in such a negative light and not believing the mean things people close to me have said about me. And it’s HARD. It’s by no means an easy task. But girl let me tell you, even though it’s hard, it’s really rewarding and it’s made my mental health a lot better and I think people just care about you and want to encourage you to say nice things about yourself instead of basically attacking yourself in every video. It’s important to express feelings and say we’re having a sad day or not feeling great about ourselves but it’s not something we should normalize to basically attack ourselves every day. That’s not good for anyone

[@maggysday]

Completely agree! 👍

[@Crosafe18]

Colleen we love when you express your feelings and our real with us. But the way you talk about yourself is more than just expressing your feelings, you are attacking yourself. So many people look forward to your videos everyday including myself. We think of you as an amazing person and mother. It would be like hearing your best friend or your parent best themselves down 24/7. I think everyone is just trying to help you and maybe it’s came across in a way it wasn’t supposed to. We love you and your videos. It’s the highlight of our days. We just want you to see yourself like we see you instead of literally talking to yourself like you are nothing

[@samh1520]

No one said that you shouldn’t talk about your feelings.. but you completely degrade yourself on multiple occasions, it’s very different. We love your emotions and how you express your feelings but calling yourself names is not the same thing

[@Josefinedacke]

I totally agree with this!! I’ve realised that a big part of my issues with my body is what I’ve learnt and seem my nom say/do. Of course she’s allowed to express her emotions, but talking so badly about her looks is so damaging... 😥

[@keilayshagamesalt5702]

As you grow up sometimes that becomes a habit. Sometimes you grow up around the wrong people. They just ruin what you think about yourself and the things just get stuck in your head. Sometimes you just wanna express yourself and when people say something you feel like you can’t.

[@haileyardis3789]

I agree with you

[@raelynnburgin2283]

That is so true

[@purpleelle9735]

How do you manage not to squeeze Flynn every 5 seconds!?! That little dance he did with the banana melted me! He’s so cute!

[@Annatje121]

That was literally the cutest thing ever😭😭

[@wildthing4250]

I literally almost cried when he was reacting to receiving the gold and she was explaining the leprechaun trap, it was so cute!!!

[@catastrophenoise]

i think it is important to share your feelings, but not in such a negative way (like almost talking nasty about yourself). you can say you dont feel well because.... but saying you feel disgusting etc.. is not the way to go about it.. for me. there is a middle way. I dont think you are just sharing your feelings, i think you talk about yourself as you were a piece of sh... which you are not. i love you and watching you for many many years.

[@minanowroozi9741]

I totally agree with the intent here but I think talking about things she “can” or “can’t” say is probably not the most helpful thing. When Colleen talked about “being silenced” I’m guessing this is the kind of wording that she got that idea from. Given that she’s experienced trauma and is in therapy, and of course knows herself better than any of us knows her, I think what’s going to be helpful is encouragement and positive suggestions and not comments that give her the impression that she can’t be honest about her feelings. Because while I’m sure negative self-talk is not great for her mental health, her feeling like she has to put up an extra filter on what she shares about herself is probably not great either. Hope you see where I’m coming from but if not no worries, this is just my opinion.

[@catastrophenoise]

@@minanowroozi9741 i feel if you continue to talk about yourself in such a bad wording, one day you make yourself believe your own words and then it becomes a dangerous thing. As i said it's not about being silenced or not being able to be honest, it's about the wordings you use for such a beautiful human being that she is. i don't think encouragement helps much in that state, there can be 100s of people saying you look beautiful, if you dont think that about yourself you don't believe it. i know it's a progress and what i wrote up there, was another way to "help".

[@azucena315]

Absolutely

[@minanowroozi9741]

@@catastrophenoise Makes sense to me, and perhaps her therapist is telling her the exact same thing. I was just suggesting we be cautious with our words to make sure we are considerate of what she’s going through, since some previous comments have been upsetting to her and we don’t have the full story. And I hear you, encouragement might not help much either. :( Hopefully she is getting the best support possible through therapy!

[@lauren3757]

People aren't using your son against you. You see I was raised with a mother that was really insecure and hated herself. I grew up thinking the same about myself because my role model did.

[@KelseyNicole7]

I grew up the same way. And my mom grew up that way because of my grandma. It can easily become a horrible pattern. I hope she sees the comments explaining that :(

[@kz689]

there were people saying we should all call CPS and the police on her so there are absolutely people using Flynn against her and it's disgusting. It might be a small portion of people but if one person said something like that about my kids or family I'd be angry too

[@lauren3757]

@@KelseyNicole7 I hope you've found happiness with yourself, I have and its the best feeling I wanted to be a good example for my kids

[@lauren3757]

@@kz689 wow that's abit ridiculous isn't it! I knew some people would be just plain nasty, but mostly everyone is coming from a good place

[@brittannb1194]

Period. Same here. It's damaging. Colleen thinks everything is an attack. Monkey see monkey do. Flynn looks up to you and he learns by watching you. Shitting on yourself will only put ideas in his head. Lead by example.

[@savannahthompson9100]

Colleen looks beautiful no matter what she does. I love her

[@katiemaige4275]

Amen 🙏🏼

[@Lackadaisical_2]

Wise words

[@harrypotter-so3wo]

Yes

[@harrypotter-so3wo]

Yes

[@crr4928]

I definitely agree!

[@nicolemh]

The moment you forget Flynn calls candy Doodoo and you think his parents are telling him he’s eating leprechaun poop was hysterical.

[@samiamisme]

🤣🤣🤣 i didn't catch that. I thought she meant his poop, like maybe it was part of the Leprechaun lore. 😆😍 hilariois, thanks for clearing that up. I could see me explaining to my futue grandkids..."now kids you may not catch the Leprechaun, but you'll know he visited because he left treasures and his poop for you"😆😆😆

[@Westielover2012]

that is completely what I thought lol

[@jadeedgington1282]

So sorry Colleen, we all just want you happy and healthy but share your feelings too girl! The bangs are cute as heck but it’s okay if you feel differently!

[@chloe_3787]

No one was “silencing” her. What!? It’s not the talking about negatives feelings that is the problem. It’s the twisting the situation and comments to confirm her own thoughts that is the problem. I can’t listen to her victimize herself over and over. Idk. This situation just seems weird.

[@WiseOne.]

Exactly!

[@AudreyII-]

Agree.

[@espressojesso]

100%

[@parisdennis1672]

Agreed. She wants us to be complicit with her behavior

[@jessniiclee]

💯💯💯💯

[@bwayslimess4124]

Let me comment something that I just put on the other video. As someone who has struggled with self-love, let me let you in on a little secret. Instead of saying “I look like sh*t today” say “wow I look so good today”. Even if you don’t mean it and you say it sarcastically. Slowly your mind will change to accept that and slowly you will learn to love yourself more. Edit: I would like to say for the record, I am all for expressing your emotions. Please people express your emotions cause bottling it up is not good or healthy. I’m saying making a change to the way you talk about yourself, especially in terms of negative jokes about yourself. For example, when I trip over instead of saying “why am I so clumsy omg” I trade it with “I’m just so talented at walking don’t even try and tell me otherwise”. It may sound strange but that will trick your brain into a confidence boost over time

[@wooosh8712]

or use bridge statements like "im open to the idea i dont look as bad as i think" etc

[@lorelaimarr7890]

I saw yours last video! Haha

[@Yuyuyaraa]

I mentioned the same exact thing in my comment. The more you say something, the more it becomes a reality. Thats why positive affirmations are crucial because they will become your reality, like you said, even if it’s just sarcastically or you don’t really feel it within you. I think her saying such negative things about herself does take a toll on her so it’s not about telling her not to express her feelings or ‘silence her’, it’s about bringing this to her attention and how important it is for her to change her mindset

[@TheBrownCuty]

@SaskiaSims why are you writing this on multiple comments when she specifically requested people to leave her son out of it?

[@OnePersonOneOpinion]

!!! your brain believes everything you tell it

[@JourneyWithCP]

Colleen, I hear you when you say you dont like people bringing Flynn into this conversation and you dont like people making a correlation between how you talk to yourself and his own self esteem. However, in a video last month you said that your mothers self talk to herself about her looks was something that you heard all of the time and said it was a direct reason you dont have positive thoughts about yourself. People listen to what you say and make connections.

[@nightowl_]

This makes so much sense. Children carry parents mannerisms constantly and sometimes those actions we see when we are younger can be harmful to us when we are older. I hope she seeks better professional help.

[@aarguellez1803]

I understand what u r saying but the point is she is a mother and as a mother stated not to talk about her son/possible kids in that manner so no matter if u disagree u should respect it

[@parisdennis1672]

Colleen, it’s not that you can’t talk about your feelings. It’s when you throw it into normal conversations as if being insecure is a personality trait and not something people can struggle with and are trying to overcome. Also, choosing not to be self deprecating doesn’t mean you have to constantly talk positive about yourself. You can not comment on yourself at all if you choose. Or just be neutral. Once again not that you have to withhold your feelings, but you could for example do makeup without evaluating whether or not you are good at makeup. Just do it for the fun of it! Just an example.

[@japhyh3160]

Yes! It’s so hard to unlearn but so so important. I noticed in the carnival video she immediately jumped to saying her own drawings were terrible. Little things like that builds up and can subconsciously damage your self worth. Neutrality is a great place to be. Self expression and deprecation are two very different things. Also, self deprecating humor can be funny and not that deep but balance is key.

[@madelinefarrell2176]

It's sad that she's completely missing the point. No one is trying to silence you, but watching someone verbally abuse themself repeatedly is difficult to watch. It's sad. Trauma runs deep, man

[@jjjjj4787]

This! 100% 👏🏻

[@dino9607]

Yeah! I love Colleen and her family and I enjoy watching them but all this constant negative talk can be so exhausting and it’s not that she can’t speak about her experiences but it’s mainly self abuse and I can’t stand watching someone I care about speak so negatively about themselves.

[@chloe_3787]

@@abbyolivia yes yes yes! She wants so badly to confirm that her inner thoughts are how everyone else sees it (that’s not true) that she completely manipulated the situation! I’ve never quite seen this side of Colleen before. I am really not a fan.

[@simentalantoinette]

@@chloe_3787 yes its interesting to see this side of her and i agree that its a bit odd and unfavorable.

[@simentalantoinette]

@@abbyolivia exactly what i was thinking! she’s making it fit her dialogue!

[@miamoehre]

Colleen's fans: We're worried about you, because you talk extremely bad about yourself. Colleen: Don't silence me, this is how I feel and that should be expressed openly and honest. Sweetie, no one was mentioning your son to hurt you, it was an example to make you understand how heartbreaking your self-hatred is for us.

[@kaythlin1006]

Ikrrr

[@Hi-sj4xg]

Ofc not! The comment prob didn’t realize what they were doing

[@mackenziecleaves1383]

It is so important to express your feelings even if they are negative about yourself. I think something to try would be to continue to express these feelings while you're in the moment but always follow it up with something positive about yourself. And something positive doesn't need to be "I'm such a beautiful person", it can simply be "I am working on viewing myself in a more positive light." That in itself is a positive self affirmation. Even if you don’t believe it. It’s about training your brain especially in the moments you’re feeling so down. But your trauma responses will take time, and this won't happen right away. (I'm also not a therapist so I'm not one to give mental health advice..this is rather a suggestion that has helped me haha) You’re amazing and one of the most inspirational mothers I’ve ever come across online. Flynn is a wonderful person.

[@juliakranenbomfim]

I have a tip that you could try if you want of course, when you're alone just try saying "I am beautiful". Try doing it everyday (daily affirmations) just by yourself because I know that it is more intimidating saying it to someone else. Just start doing it alone and with time it might help you with your sense of self worth. Love you ❤️

[@jasminehall7643]

THIS is how to respond in a helpful, kind, considerate, and VALIDATING way. People are really making it about themselves and I'm not sure they know what it's like to have no self-esteem. You're a wonderful person and this was framed so thoughtfully.

[@juliakranenbomfim]

@@jasminehall7643 thank you! I was just trying to leave a nice comment because scrolling through here I saw how many people are being rude and mean. Like people you're not helping at all.

[@brianawilson4166]

Colleen I love how open you are about your feelings. You being open about the importance of feeling your feelings has empowered me. And the first nine minutes👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾

[@katem3]

ok but why is your beans on toast not COVERED HEAD TO TOE IN CHEESE?????? that is sacrilegious ha x

[@claudias2310]

Omg ikr! As a Brit it is literally the only way to eat it😂

[@KubPlaz]

ok... um... no that's gross and i'm british

[@niamhkelli]

Ikrrr

[@ellencor9636]

I live in Ireland and its the best thing ever

[@jessiemcfarlane1505]

@@KubPlaz the cheese sounds rank tbh...

[@anniesmith111]

I’m from Scotland and beans on toast is what what my whole family eats if there is nothing else 😂😂

[@krazykoalas9113]

SAME!!! we always have beans 😅

[@natnat8198]

I’ve never even heard of beans and toast

[@krazykoalas9113]

@@natnat8198 what?!

[@theylovemags2187]

@@natnat8198 me either

[@claudias2310]

Yessss there’s always a can in the back of the cupboard!😂

[@cherylcorbett5829]

Omg Flynn is so stinking cute! I love how he goes “yeah?” He’s talking so much already it’s adorable.

[@Amazing.Anxiety]

Colleen, I know it is so hard because you get so much criticism but the only person who can make you happy is you. If you can’t say positive things about yourself because you are afraid of others opinions, you are still putting the weight of your happiness in their basket. I know it takes time to heal especially when you have been surrounded by those who put that mentality in your head, but I want you to know, being your own biggest cheerleader will help so so much! I think positive affirmations will really help you break this cycle of self sabotage and even help with your skin picking. Saying them in the mirror every morning (it’s awkward for sure) but it actually reworks those anxious thoughts and habits. I’m sending all the love and best wishes and you are so strong for addressing this. It’s not an easy thing to fix your brain but it is possible. Ps. I love the bangs 😂

[@noabrown3653]

did anyone else think it was so funny when the bean toast montage was just silent all of the sudden lmao

[@graciepalmer665]

yes haha i was thinking the same thing... maybe they just forgot to put music on lol

[@Abby-wk4oq]

Lol I thought that was just my phone😂

[@gloria5060]

I turned up the volume because I though I accidentally like made the vole go down or something or I like lost my Bluetooth connection.

[@shieldsister6965]

You have completely missed the whole point. No one is trying to silence you, at all. Yeah anytime someone mentions your son, you get super defensive, and almost immediately start crying which is normal for you, but maybe just try and read what they’re actually saying. People watching your videos shouldn’t think that if they cut their hair could be detrimental. My mom used to talk poorly about herself all the time about her weight and it still breaks my heart to this day. You’re not sharing your feelings you’re just being awful to yourself. Maybe find a comfortable middle.

[@morgankioski4796]

YES! No one is trying to silence her, but it is SO harmful to use harmful language for days and days on end. We don’t want her to not talk about how she’s feeling, but adding such a self deprecating attitude onto it is not good for her.

[@vicgab2903]

flynn’s little voice and the way he talks is the cutest thing ever! i love this family so much!!!🤍

[@polinapark21]

✨telling✨ yourself ✨you✨ are ✨beatiful ✨makes ✨you ✨more beatiful ✨PERIOD ✨

[@sierrachantell]

AB-SO-LUTELY ❤️

[@luzdunlevy5201]

With a t sis

[@lisgraves966]

Completely agree with what you said about teaching flynn to be open about emotions! You're the best mom ❤️❤️

[@andnichole]

I can’t wait until the day that Colleen doesn’t care what people think about her, whether she’s happy or sad, I just can’t wait until she feels strong enough to have none of other peoples judgments or opinions bother her. Also, I totally hear that she wants her son to feel emotions but get the emotion out so they can work through it, but what I think most people meant was if Flynn hears enough how much she hates her looks, he’s going to see that and can possibly start to think those things about himself. I have a daughter and work every day to not put myself down in front of her and I truly think that that is what people generally meant by bringing Flynn into it... not to use him to shame her!.

[@lila3240]

I agree, that is definitely 100% what people meant. I don't think anyone was using her son against her at all. I think when her sons name was brought up, she just immediately got defensive and couldnt see what people were really trying to say.

[@katrose8385]

@@lila3240 Which is ridiculous considering she brought him into this by uploading his entire life on the internet

[@catrees8374]

Me, a Brit, could not click quick enough🤩🏴󠁧󠁢󠁷󠁬󠁳󠁿🇬🇧

[@andyinspace_]

Me, as a person who eats beans on toast on a daily basis, wholeheartedly did the same. 😄🇬🇧

[@lemonade_011]

Where’s tha cheese tho 🤔plus melted hmm.

[@amywilson2292]

Same!!! 🇬🇧🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿

[@lolabear904]

Same. I'm a brit so I clicked

[@avamae6488]

🏴󠁧󠁢󠁷󠁬󠁳󠁿🏴󠁧󠁢󠁷󠁬󠁳󠁿🏴󠁧󠁢󠁷󠁬󠁳󠁿🏴󠁧󠁢󠁷󠁬󠁳󠁿

[@martinaraee]

It makes me sad that she’s missing the point and she’s twisting the comments to fit her dialogue 🥺

[@jeanie_c]

It's not only her twisting it, it's some comments coming across that way.

[@taratheadora]

It’s her perspective. I don’t think she’s ready to see it a different way.

[@HelloChii]

but that's what she usually does, why is it a surprise here.

[@cindylopez1613]

I agree

[@jessykalance]

i agree

[@alexnino7111]

No one is trying to silence you, Colleen. But kids will speak about themselves how their parents speak of themselves. They need a demonstration or a model of good self talk and if Flynn never hears it, he won't know how to apply it.

[@papoolkid]

Oh my lord Colleen you’re still just not getting it... we are not using Flynn against you. And we are not telling you to not talk about your feelings. There’s a difference between bashing yourself constantly and talking about your feelings.

[@bertiehardison2689]

Like many other, I think you are the greatest mom ever. Flynn is so fortunate to have such a loving and caring mom. Erik is pretty awesome too!

[@timekajones9846]

I have a young son too and agree people can’t use your son as a tool to make you feel bad. I want my son to be able to express his bad feelings and emotions too so I make sure I show normal emotions to show him it’s okay and how to deal with all emotions. but I would be concerned if he wanted to do something with his own hair or body but cared more about what everyone else thought rather than what made him happy. I’m hoping this is what people meant when they were saying those things about Flynn ❤️❤️ you’re a great mama.

[@mckred5364]

Colleen, this world sucks. People can’t do anything right without everyone going at them. Especially KZbinrs. You could always go back and forth, but you are a amazing mom. Trust me. It’s so rude that people are blaming you above things. We can always work on ourselves, but you need to do what you want to do. You raise Flynn by the logic’s you believe in. And that’s ok. You don’t have to be perfect in anyway, especially when you need to express things. It’s human. It’s ok. You are amazing Colleen.

[@sloth1137]

Wow that so cool

[@Amycakes-ls5rx]

Well said I feel the same way she’s amazing no one should ever have to explain why they have said what they said they are the own human being don’t ever let anyone tell you how you should act or talk

[@nicolastefanska8621]

Colleens family does so much fun things for all the holidays and I love it 🥰

[@hlady9050]

Flynn’s pronunciation is getting so good 🥺

[@happyhearts56g36]

As soon as Flynn took the bite of banana and started humming and wiggling melted my heart. 💕❤️💕🥰

[@gailsimburger9715]

You’re a wonderful mom! Love watching your traditions for special occasions. How is it possible that Flynn gets more adorable all the time?!

[@theinfluenceatl]

I pray anyone that sees this is successful in life

[@niamhkelli]

✌️✌️✌️❤️❤️

[@blakelikefish8850]

Ty

[@naimaalam4619]

:^

[@meganjadei2173]

You too❤️

[@auroravacaa]

Claim

[@allyepizzalato4860]

I’ve never related to someone like I relate to Flynn eating his banana. He’s such a relatable little fella

[@lynzierobertson1807]

I love watching all of your family. Watching Colleen & Erik being parent absolutely melts my heart 🥰 Flynn is just the sweetest little boy. Colleen I actually love your bangs but I absolutely know what you’re talking about. Take care & stay safe lots of love from Scotland 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿 xxx

[@maryjanexo]

I’m very self deprecative and I’ve always been complimented as being very “self aware.” I totally related with you when you said “I say it about myself before someone else can say it about me.” When you have been torn down so much, especially by multiple different people about the same insecurities, it’s really hard not to believe some of those things. I am trying to be less self deprecative, but it’s a process that involves a lot of healing, and healing is linear. Also, I wanted to add, I think ya’ll forget that Colleen has ADHD, so, long tangents about things you may deem unimportant or superficial are very common for people with ADHD. I have ADHD and personally will go off on tangents when I get agitated or excited about completely arbitrary things and annoy my friends and family. I don’t even think Colleen realized she was talking about her bangs for that long.

[@taylordavis86]

THIS

[@fionascheibel977]

Yep. Toxic positivity is a giant issue in life unfortunately. Emotions are complex and we don't need to label them as good or bad. They are just feelings and we can feel and express them all.

[@plnkblue]

@SaskiaSims Hey, maybe stop using her son as an ultimatum to make her feel even worse??

[@whitykitty2651]

thats NOT AT ALL what people were talking about, but sure, accept her strawman/gaslighting/manipulation .. lol :/

[@lilyp8716]

@SaskiaSims just go away and stop interacting with this channel since you clearly don't have anything kind and constructive to say

[@TheBlissfullyDandy]

@@katharinepoole8018 I've read a ton of comments from you over the past few videos. Maybe just stop watching her if she makes you this upset?

[@summerwillows4655]

@SaskiaSims people are not perfect. Of course unlearning negative self-talk is important and for many will take time to master, but let's not pretend you have all your ducks in row ...consideriing you spend your time spreading negativity...I'd say you are not fit to be a parent or comment on another's parenting.

[@monicaramos8066]

Flynn is beyond blessed to have you as a mom Colleen! You're an amazing mom from what I can see in your videos. Love you and I look forward every day to seeing your videos, they help me get through medical school.

[@fellowcommentscroller.8748]

Do you guys remember when Flynn knew sign language 😭💖 Edit: I lowkey started learning sign language because of this 😂

[@summerdelsanto6447]

Yup when he used sign language for a couple words♥️

[@nicolehaines5565]

I respectfully disagree with what you're saying, here. I don't think anyone is attempting to use your son against you or silence you. I feel that you're, in a way, twisting the comments. I think that your viewers are concerned about how harshly you bash on yourself. There is a distinct difference between openly belittling yourself and negative self talk, and being open about your insecurities. I think its ABSOLUTELY acceptable to open up about what you feel your flaws are. It is healthy, even. But please don't call yourself names and basically bully yourself. And regarding the Flynn comment: Put yourself in the hypothetical shoes of someone else. Imagine if Flynn was calling himself those things or belittling himself. How would it make you feel if you saw that? No one is trying to "use Flynn's potential mental health to silence" you. In the same token that your audience watches you speak so harshly to your psyche, imagine you, in turn, watching your son in that aspect. It hurts our hearts in the same way that it would hurt yours if you were witnessing Flynn be so down on himself. It is not coming from a place of manipulation or malice, it is coming from a place of genuine concern. And any therapist or counselor you seek guidance from would tell you the same thing.

[@azacar6110]

I completely agree with what your saying and you said it perfectly !!

[@bcblossom]

I think you worded this perfectly!

[@simentalantoinette]

i absolutely agree with you

[@skye8260]

I really think that a lot of people missed the point that Colleen was trying to say. She explained being bullied and yelled at for saying anything nice about herself. Which is her trauma. Trauma is not that you can unlearn in a second. Like she said towards the end, it’s going to take years of therapy to unlearn it and be at a point where she can be positive about herself. This is her channel and she should be able to say how she feels about herself in the moment because this is essentially just a video diary for her. I feel like self-love and acceptance is a personal journey and just because saying nice things to yourself worked for you, does not mean it will work for her. Let’s continue to support Colleen in her journey towards unlearning this trauma but also, let’s not take the role of a therapist in this. Instead, we should be her supportive friends, who are there for her and appreciate and love her!

[@aidanevans7971]

@@skye8260 this i don’t think these people understand she can’t stop this quick trauma is not forgotten in a day it is learned to be accepted and overcome over a lifetime

[@carousel15drummond92]

Anxiety and depression works that way one minute your up next your down and it not like self harming as some one commented it’s called no self confidence in your self that’s what depression and anxiety does and millions are like that easier said than done to say don’t take yourself down, it is very hard to live with a mental health condition you won’t ever understand where she is coming from unless you have it I totally understand xx

[@avamae6488]

I am SHOCKED that colleen loves beans on toast

[@user2cool4you3]

I’ve never even heard of it before haha

[@jay8s8]

Same

[@itskitykatgaming4424]

I love beans on toast it is the best

[@natnat8198]

@@user2cool4you3 same

[@asmrfancompilations8569]

I need to try it

[@koalakisser9769]

Colleen, you brought up very valid points that I hadn’t thought of. I think that your fans truly care about you and just want you to be nicer to yourself. That is my perspective on it. You are so nice and caring to others, I just wish you would treat yourself the same.

[@his2721]

I finally got to see my cousins and grandparents and aunts and uncles after a year and it was so much fun😁

[@kateabbott5423]

GUYS Colleen is hanging on by a thread rn. I think we all should start thinking about how you would feel if someone in our lives told us what she hears all the time, and maybe not give our opinions on how us, random people think SHE should feel. It’s her own thoughts and we should let her feel her feelings without restricting her. ❤️

[@Sweetenedmlk]

THIS!!! Oh my goodness, I’m so glad I’m not the only person who is feeling this way. Everyone’s so quick to jump on here and give their opinions. And they’re harsh too! One person referred to the people supporting “this behaviour” (???) as “cult” ish Like are you actually kidding me?? People can be so poo sometimes. I just hope she doesn’t take any of it to heart too much. We only know as much as she shows us/shares. Behind the scenes, no one really knows what someone else is dealing with, yet they’re so quick to jump on and comment. It’s disgusting.

[@nettag655]

@@Sweetenedmlk yeah I saw the cultish comment and the comments to cancel her. There is one thing to cancel people who have committed crimes and are truly evil, but to cancel someone or claim that someone who is transparent about their mental health is a cult leader!? I don’t get it. I understand it’s hard to watch, but where is the compassion? The uplifting comments? Also all these comments about the kids who look up to her and it’s going to rub off on them- she has no responsibility in that. Those parents should be able to talk through hard things with their kids and that includes what they may happen to see on the internet. rambling but this is so infuriating.

[@nettag655]

@@katharinepoole8018 I am only going to respond to you once, because you have trolled almost all the comments. Calling someone a cult leader, and cancel her and whatever bs has been spewed is comical to call as “helping”. There are many people here , not enough, but many who have constructively made their point in a polite and respectful way. Figure your own issues out before you start attacking someone you barely know on the Internet.

[@krupalibhavsar4639]

Omg yes thank youuuu women have to go through the mossstttt

[@hannahmarie2686]

this!!!!!!

[@joliewimberly7664]

🎶threeee little birdsss🎶 🎵sat on ma windoww🎵 🎧and they told me I don’t need to woooorryyy🎧 🎤UHHHUUUUU🎤

[@hilariecalijo4643]

Flynn is so beyond darling. So sweet and adorable and so smart

[@ewan_clegg06]

beans on toast is fit, u can’t tell any brit otherwise also you can’t eat beans with ketchup, it’s just like illegal

[@khadijahbibi9959]

Who eats beans on toast with ketchup 😂😂🤣🤣

[@dimitrisspyrtzis8568]

I’ve also never seen anyone have it with brown sauce lol

[@chloe2664]

@@khadijahbibi9959 like ru okay

[@khadijahbibi9959]

@@LegolasThranduilion I know right 😂😂

[@user-mw2ne6oh7n]

I put lots of cheese on mine

[@shannanigansisme]

I am frustrated by the vitriol she's showing toward people who are trying to help her. I believe that the majority of people who brought up negative self-talk and Flynn were just trying to get through to Colleen and to help her. Most commenters are filled with compassion, but she tends to focus on the negative. No one will probably see this, but I thank you for trying to reach someone, to help them. You tried. I need a break from this, which is perfectly fine. My one view won't make or break anything. But I will miss watching while making dinner. I'm sure I'll be back. Thanks!

[@hannnahbear16]

yessssss!

[@tali.galaxy]

I feel the same way. Although now I see two replies to you which are nasty and bad-faith so I wonder if that's what she's seeing? Regardless, I'm just trying to have a light time when I watch and the battle that is erupting over this is getting draining so I'm also going to take a break despite having watched since Dec 2019

[@chloe_3787]

I agree 100%. She’s twisting comments (real people’s words, thoughts, and ideas) in order try to confirm to herself that what she thinks is true. I’ve never noticed this side of her. Maybe it’s never come out before, but I’ve been around for a long time. The part where she was mad about the Flynn thing really put me off. Sure seemed to me that *she’s* using Flynn to get people to stop saying the truth...weird.

[@aidanevans7971]

@@abbyolivia she’s not being manipulating she is tired of people telling her she is doing something wrong as a parent

[@aidanevans7971]

@@chloe_3787 she’s not twisting comments words i saw the comments they were questioning her parenting. she isn’t using her son everyone has their journey on self discovery and dealing with trauma. stop telling her how to deal with trauma

[@emeliebteistee]

Past couple vlogs I've just been watching all of this "unfold" and trying to figure out what I think about it and I've come to the conclusion that I don't mind. I watch your videos because I enjoy them and I support you. That means supporting you no matter if you feel bad about yourself or if you're absolutely thriving. I understand the reason all of this came about, but whatever it is, YOUR FEELINGS ARE VALID!

[@lilygrace1438]

You are the sweetest kindest most caring amazing human ever. You are the best mom ever to the sweetest toddler ever with the biggest personality. Erik is so supportive encouraging and loving. I’m having a tough time at school right now but you make it better and make me so happy I’m so proud of you and all you have accomplished. You are so beautiful inside and out. I love your hair so much and I always supported bangleen. You have gotten me through my toughest times and have made me the happiest I have ever been. 💜🌻💕🌵🚗🐢💛

[@kellie999]

Being able to identify why you’re having emotions and learning healthy ways to cope with them is the goal. Review if your thoughts are catastrophic, spiraling, etc. Colleen’s vlogs are like a journal and processing her thoughts out loud. When you truly have ADHD and trauma (I do as well) those thoughts never get cured and go away. But you learn how to control them.

[@chocolateemint]

I'm so obsessed with the matching outfits with Flynn! 🥺

[@meltheconehead]

Flynn’s banana dance was the cutest thing I’ve seen all day

[@TheMulle999]

Just gotta say, you and Erik are such incredible parents. Flynn is amazing.

[@sandraGh222]

Flynn has such a good life, so many fun things and crafts always going on. Even in quarantine you and Erik and Kory make sure he has fun and that's so amazing.

[@chittah]

I think part of the issue is also the comments cannot replace a full conversation with a friend or therapist. viewers can't know the whole back story and we see only the part that's shown online. I think the main thing, is you do you. If you don't like the bangs, that's fine! If you like them, that's great! But, either way ... Hopefully comments from others dont have so much weight that they cause you to start being so hard on yourself that it's getting in the way of your mental health. But, if it is, that's a totally valid experience. Whatever the journey is to improved mental health, there will be lots of ups and downs. IGiven the state of the world right now and everything going on, it's understandable to be having a hard time.

[@BelieveInYourself129]

Perfectly said. And you didnt try to therapize her or tell her how she should feel. Need more people like you in the comment section honestly

[@8754rmY]

I understand Colleen saying that people are trying to silence her. The comments on the day she posted her bangs video were literally filled with people saying they were SICK of Colleen saying negative stuff and that she NEEDS to stop and overall judging her and pretended like they know her personally. NOW a lot of new comments have appeared that are not like that but that doesn't change the fact that most comments were like that when she first posted it. She is not "manipulating" the story, you guys are just gaslighting her

[@bowandarroz]

this!!!!

[@jenniferjones1593]

I have never clicked on a video quicker! Beans on toast was my CHILDHOOD every other day. It was one of the first things I learnt to make by myself when I was like 6. I haven’t had it in ages and ugh the nostalgia is unreal.

[@aooooot]

I know that no one can tell you how to FEEL, but I hope the overwhelming response to your self deprecation helps you realize that there *are* many people who are here to boost you up. No one should shrink to please weak minded people. The HUGE response from women proves we are here for each other. They can’t silent us all.

[@BelieveInYourself129]

I feel like it just made her more insecure and added to her plate. I feel sorry that her "fans" are letting her down by not letting her be her authentic self. I am sure she feels she will need to filter everything now which is unfortunate. It doesnt make the thoughts go away, it just makes them hidden and more internalized if anything. I feel really sorry.

[@ama.mensss]

I’m from UK and baked beans with toast is a delicacy. Glad you could try it. Love your videos

[@Badassiric]

You’re voice always shakes while you’re defending yourself, but by God, may it shatter the ceilings! ❤️❤️ I love you Colleen, you’re such a strong and amazing mother... truly.

[@reesespieces5849]

She is so brave to talk about her feelings to the world she’s amazing

[@me-6007]

5:56 she sounded like she was gunna cry 😭 I felt so bad and I didn’t even say anything like that and I am disappointed and disgusted that someone would say that

[@cstump2005]

So.. I was one of the people that said Flynn would pick up on it. I hadn’t even considered what she said in today’s video. Of course it’s important that people be able to express themselves. I truly hadn’t thought about the fact that *of course* he’ll have those feelings regardless, because he’s human. I obviously regret saying any of it

[@whitykitty2651]

she purposefully misinterpretted it. Its called a strawman argument and it was gaslighty and manipulative

[@me-6007]

@@whitykitty2651 no she is right you are wrong

[@shpup]

@@whitykitty2651 stop copy pasting this comment under a bunch of comments of people being supportive. go outside and touch grass.

[@lxncexzs]

@@cstump2005 you’re absolutely right but colleen really doesn’t want flynn to get involved in this type of things...like the issue she had, some dragged her son into the issue and she really got mad at that.

[@lacychambers4947]

Teaching your kids that feelings are normal and ok is the best thing you can do!!! You are an amazing Mom!

[@joke8383]

When Colleen said “Don’t use my son to do that” and “that’s icky” the power behind her voice is the power of a mama bear. Like a tiger that will physically try to put you in the hospital. I know it’s good to let her know to set a good example but people shouldn’t mess with mothers and bring their children into it. And I know if KZbin regulations weren’t up “it’s icky” would be replaced with some foul language. And she has a right to do that. She is a good mother so if you bring her son into something that doesn’t concern him, your icky. Hopefully you’ll become more confident in yourself, I know it can take awhile but hopefully you’ll get there because from the comments that I have read there are more people to support you than to put you down.

[@Kate_izzy_paf]

I know you’re trying to be nice but do realize when talking about mental health it is important to go deeper then just the bare level sadness also it’s not that easy to just “not dwell on it” that’s not quite how mental health and or trauma works. Anyway this was in no way shape or from trying to be mean just trying to say a different view point and educate

[@joke8383]

@@Kate_izzy_paf thank you for clarifying my flaw. I’m fortunate to not have experienced any mental health issues before and am not very educated. As an outsider things you can do to help. Although I do believe no one should put her son into these matters I believe it’s important to try to say something positive about yourself, I’m not sure if that’s good advice but hopefully it’s not too bad. 😊

[@bree4328]

I totally agree with the first part! but what colleen went through was trauma so that doesn’t just go away but as you heard being positive about herself is scary so i just wanted to clarify, but I MOST DEF agree with the first paragraph!! 💖

[@bree4328]

@@katharinepoole8018 IF U DONT LIKE IT LEAVE

[@TheBrownCuty]

@@katharinepoole8018 I just want you to know what you're doing is horrible. Someone expresses that they have mental health issues and you think the best think to do is leave multiple negative comments about her character and mothering. I'm reporting all your comments I see. Attacking someone will NEVER help them. You are sad and I hope you find peace in your life so you can find something better to do with your time. When I click on your name it says you've left 95 comments on her page and you obviously don't like her. Sir or madam, please seek help.