An Agoraphobic Teacher Reacts to CORPSE - 🌧️ 𝘢𝘨𝘰𝘳𝘢𝘱𝘩𝘰𝘣𝘪𝘤 🌧️

[@FakeKaiki]

The fact that he doesn't show his face and he has a cool voice is what gets people initially interested in him, but it's his personality that Makes people stay. He's a national treasure

[@TeacherEddieHistory]

Agreed

[@Werewolf914]

True I watched his narrations for awhile because his voice was cool and fit the horror narration, but after he started playing Among Us and talking about his personal stuff I was like not only is he relatable but his humor and personality is great too, Corpse is definitely one of my favorite people on KZbin he's a Legend.

[@nothankyou6840]

he really is

[@nob0ddy390]

agreed, when he first started making among us videos, I remember people hating on him just because they thought that he only gained popularity because of his voice. but that was seriously not the case, because if it was, he would've been way popular when only doing creepypastas. it's his personality that made people stick around after searching up "corpse husband voice" on youtube

[@shinygrowlithe3882]

Corpse has a face? I've never once wondered what it looks like. Love his voice and his personality

[@barrymcloughlin1406]

FYI: Corpse and Boyinaband know each other. They did a video on Dave's channel

[@angel__king]

Oh yeah the one where corpse pulled a knife XD

[@cassie8906]

The MIT morality test video is great! And the "oopsie time" where they talk about Flags. HAHA!! Love them both!

[@iulia.bianca.b]

Yeah, they are pretty close friends. Even though they live thousands of miles apart. Dave is one of the very few people that Corpse chose to meet in person, and that means a whole lot, coming from Corpse.

[@ArgentLeftovers]

"Corpse...why do you have a knife??"

[@arthurzackaryabrin]

I love that video so much XDD

[@Gwynn_Oda]

Hey, just to give you a heads up about Corpse. When he mentions "illness and welfare robbed my adolescence," he was also meaning a lot of other issues medically. Corpse's body is pretty messed up health wise, but I'm glad that he is still alive and kicking. He's a great guy

[@kuroganekaze]

In that way he kinda reminds me of IronMouse. A Vtuber with a, quite frankly, beyond fucked up health situation, who still manages to be an absolute ball of sunshine and with a great singing voice.

[@spamachuchan8824]

Memory serves me correctly one of his main concerns at least nowadays is going out and being recognized or noticed. People have this image in their head of what Corpse looks like, to them and he doesn't want that to go away. He also doesn't feel like his real looks live up to the expectation people have. So he wants to stay faceless. Then there's the privacy issue, people are getting crazier and more emboldened as time goes on. I for one don't care or want to know what Corpse looks like. I'd be happier seeing a VTube version of him, but that is a creators choice to make.

[@tnc7399]

@@spamachuchan8824 actually on in interview with Anthony Padilla, at one point he was so fed up and would take a self and drop his phone, let fate take it. And it never sent.

[@LyrikalMaestro]

I have grown tired of the populous heavily dissing Corpse if I could get away with it every moniker that bashes him/calls him a sell out/ lost enigma no one needs or anything in the bounds of negative sickening ill intent I would casterate them all into a bodybag. Like leave the damn man be and accept it for holy all religions sake -.- This world is impeccably a roiling hot basket case of nimrodic contradicting idiots not being able to stop for a split second before flapping their tongue out of purely low iq stupidity. My real honest view of the world and why I choose to be a drifter only leading my family when the time is right while investing my life to my significant other and my friends I consider family, everyone else can off each other I couldn't care less, so I guess I have a bit of each social phobia since I have not a damn pube of faith in humanity.

[@mlskksl]

@@tnc7399 he actually never did it he just thought about it

[@cassied.6731]

Something I really appreciate about corpse is that he's always been super open about the fact that he has some pretty awful anxiety and depression and mental health issues in general, and that he has to deal with chronic medical issues. He doesn't share tons of details for the sake of his own privacy, but he does his best to be open and it's really nice. He's super genuine in a way that a lot of people aren't, and being able to see and tell that he's anxious is nice for me because it kinda just gives my brain permission to be anxious without getting anxious about the fact that I can't control my own anxiety, just manage it at best. Like, this whole ray of sunshine is also a whole mess and is still amazing and sweet and imperfect and kind, and that means that I can be a whole mess and imperfect and still also be okay.

[@TeacherEddieHistory]

I understand every part of it and I’m gonna look into him more

[@cassied.6731]

@@TeacherEddieHistory All his music slaps, but he definitely covers a wide range of music so whatever song you choose to listen to next is going to sound really different. His among us streams and videos are a ton of fun, and they're the videos I usually put on if I'm bored or anxious. He's also got some nice horror narration content, though I don't know that content as well.

[@siegpasta]

@@cassied.6731 You are gushing over this guy over here xDD. I mean I can't blame you, cau's girls love guys who are mysterious and he's like shrouded in mystery. Then that deep voice he's got is honestly the deepest natural voice I've heard a guy speak. It's gotta be pretty sexy in your eyes x'D lolol but ya kinda cool guy like, I like his spooky narrations . also miss them wish he made more

[@tnc7399]

@@TeacherEddieHistory Anthony Padilla has interviewed him and faceless KZbinrs with him in it, it is pretty well made. He has also interviewed people with agoraphobia I think.

[@TaterTotXDXD]

@@TeacherEddieHistory I think that CORPSE really shares himself with the internet and probably doesn't get to be truly himself in real life anymore because of the fame. I love him so much. No one better ever leak his face.

[@hazeyharmonies8844]

Ed: "I don't fear things, unless they're bees. I'm afraid of bees." Me: "THANK YOU!!" * has a phobia of bees *

[@mickandmidnight]

im also scared of bees but its mostly the sound when they fly... if that makes sense

[@hazeyharmonies8844]

@@mickandmidnight That makes complete sense. I hear one and it's like "F*ck this sh*t I'm out."

[@charlesm.2604]

@@mickandmidnight Same, sometimes when I enter a room and i hear the "Bzzz" I just go 180 u-turn and it's only when I realize it's just some inoffensive fly that I come back. The worst is when you scroll chilling with some music in the ears and you don't see but hear the sound. The reaction time would compete against the Logitech G502 latency lmao

[@cypriusgray1173]

Watch Anthony Padilla's A Day with Corpse Husband. You and him have a lot in common.

[@axelmok4_channel391]

I second this

[@isaacmonteith5391]

Corpse doesn't show his face so when he talks about afraid they would find him thats what he means. Its even worse because of his voice so if he goes out he's very recognizable. He grew up with really bad GERD which made him not able to go to school further then the 8th grade I think. So he spent most days with his single mother who he didn't get along with so thats illness and welfare robbed his adolescence also. It's crazy.

[@plum2584]

I think the leaving school part was his choice. Like, he dropped out and ran away. I think, that's what I've heard.

[@johickey3158]

sharing deep personal stuff with strangers is so fucking brave, if you get any shit for this im gonna kick off

[@TeacherEddieHistory]

And I appreciate you! People here will always have a safe space here and I’m setting up a discord for us to be able to talk and vent and have each other backs. I’m glad you got mine ♥️

[@johickey3158]

@@TeacherEddieHistory no worries

[@notreallysurehonestly]

@@TeacherEddieHistory I’m thinking of joining your discord cause I just learned about it I don’t like sharing and feel like I’m being selfish when I tell people my problems but I’ll try to talk in it, thank you so much

[@landonsmith6705]

"I'm not afraid of things, except for bees, I am afraid of bees." This is why this man has such an addictive personality.

[@JohnThyScotsman]

I'm not scared of bees. Just cautious. Wasps I AM scared of. Never been stung by either a bee or a wasp before though. So I don't know whether or not I am allergic to either of them. I'm just cautious, not scared 😆

[@theyluvjxrdxn]

I'm 13 almost 14 but I am going through depression, and one of the worst parts for me is people telling me I'm faking it.

[@TeacherEddieHistory]

I care about you! You always have a safe space here and I’m setting up a discord for us to be able to talk and vent and have each other backs.

[@theyluvjxrdxn]

@@TeacherEddieHistory thanks. Your amazing! Best teacher ever

[@skylerhinman6600]

aye man don't listen to them people who its fake are not worth your time depression is no joke and its hard you need to find friends or a adult that you can lean on and talk to back in highschool in my freshmen year I was stressed and so scared I was getting so beat down that I started drinking excessively and smoking i was addicting and everyone told me i was faking it only worsened my depression and my want to die and i was ready to die by overdose it wasn't till sophomore year i met my best friend and my girlfriend who are still with me today even 2 years after highschool there the reasons why i was able to stop and get through my depression and stresses don't worry man you got a long way to get and i hope you find a good person out there you can lean on and take your time to heal i know its hard but i just want you to know that i care about you and so does a lot of other people never give up and keep walking cuz there's a light on the other side of the tunnel when you are finally able to see it with your newly washed eyes that were dirty before.

[@mickmalestein971]

Don't worry, Flappy.. No judgment here,, we got you 😊

[@theyluvjxrdxn]

@@mickmalestein971 thanks man 😊

[@turkeyman1123]

It's such a blessing that those of us with anxiety and/or depression have great artists like Corpse to help us express some of that deep, dark, bottled up shit we can't always share. Thanks for sharing your perspective on it, I'm sure many can sympathize if not empathize with alot of what you have to say, myself included.

[@mechanomics2649]

I wish I felt the same way.

[@lassesj200]

I hope Corpse somehow sees this reaction. I dunno, there's something about this that he might really love to see and hear about. You seem like such a nice dude. Seriously, great video man

[@TeacherEddieHistory]

Thank you

[@lassesj200]

@@TeacherEddieHistory No problem man. I struggle with stuff myself, so i always find comfort in reactions like these. Perspective and knowledge on stuff i don't entirely know about is always intriguing to me. Keep doing what you're doing. Really enjoying it!

[@xenodraakia4516]

#corpsereaction share it on his socials. I'm sure if enough people do it we can at least convince him it's worth watching.

[@RichardJohansson]

He said in an interview that even though he never shows his face, when he does go out he's so terrified that someone could recognize his voice that he hardly speaks.

[@angel__king]

I just finished school In January and I wish I had teachers like you. 90% of my teachers didn’t care and one of my senior year teachers literally called me a dumbass in front of the entire class

[@chasingdreamsSFM]

As a fellow agoraphobic person, I just love Corpse so much he just hits to the deepest feelings to your soul no matter what. Even if he says he doesn't want/mean to be a big like whole huge role model? But yet he is to numberless amounts of people man, he's a hero and so much more even if he doesn't realize it

[@karartistry]

Corpse Husband / Corpse is genuinely such a sweetheart and it's nice to see your reaction to not only him but his lyrics, some people do these reactions and don't quite understand it on a deeper level. I don't have agoraphobia but I'm most definitely more comfortable inside and I struggle talking to people. I suffer with OCD so I completely understand when you said about the crossing the street, it's intrusive and invasive but to anyone else it makes no sense. (TRIGGER WARNING for people with OCD - mentions of intrusive thoughts and rituals) "Kara, why are you spinning on the spot?" "oh, I accidentally turned in a circle when I was looking at the products on the shelves, so I have to go the opposite way to make sure a family member doesn't die." It doesn't make sense, it's irrational, but my mind tells me I have to do it otherwise something bad will happen. Thank you for being so open, I've been binging your Dave videos (he's also a massive sweetheart and he's helped me through a lot of depressive states) and I was hoping you'd react to Corpse too. You're awesome ☺️

[@keithkent366]

I have agoraphobia, too. It's not very fun, but this is a very good song especially if you know what it's like

[@PeterWijgers]

It is also a very good song for people who have similar problems, just from different problems, as a lot of the things are relatable. And... it's a great song for those who have no idea what it's like especially, as it explains a lot of what it's like.

[@tiargo]

I quit my last therapy because my therapist told me the same things like just fokus on the positive aspects, you're beautiful, only repeat it to yourself and all your problems will go away, but deep inside I felt that it didn't work, because I'm in restistance to the feelings of "I'm not good enough" "I don't deserve to be loved" and so on. And then I remembered what Teal Swan (yes, I really love that woman^^) in a video said: "Pain - the only way out is in." She was abused in her childhood, so she knows what she is talking about. But for me it's really hard to allow myself to feel the pain, because I'm often too afraid of these emotions, even if I know it's the next step for me. And thank you for creating a place were people with anxietys, depressions, panic attacks and so on can connect. I think it is really helpful to experience that there are many other people out there they go through the same things and so they feeling a little bit less alone.

[@TeacherEddieHistory]

I’m working on a discord for us, a safe space for us to continue conversations and a judgement free zone for all

[@SilverFlame819]

So many therapists are fucking idiots... Good lord.

[@jester1894]

I may not have agoraphobia specifically, but I’m autistic with an anxiety disorder and claustrophobia. I do horribly in public, whether I end up having a panic attack, a meltdown, or sensory overload. I cannot be in crowds. I have fainted from being stuck in a crowd before. This song resonates with me on levels unknown. Your reaction and the way you talk about this topic makes me extremely happy and I feel very safe with you :D thank you for being here! I’m looking forward to the discord :D

[@shaggmiester3196]

When I was in the military, I had my first true, full-blown panic attack while standing in formation, because nobody would shut the fuck up, and whatever snapped in my head has stuck, and refuses to set right (like a popped out arm socket). I /can/ do crowds, but I /can’t/ do the din associated with it. Even if it’s just me and my wife in our house alone, say my Danes start playing, we’ve got a tv playing in the background, and a cabinet closes too loud, boom, I’m in the fuckin fetal position telling myself “what the hell are you doing? You’re fine! Yeah, a little overloaded, get over it, and for gods sake, don’t let anyone see you! You don’t deserve the label of broken”.

[@bleedingastral6618]

When this man said "who am I to have fans" I just sat there pause the video and said an inspirational and inspiring person that's who

[@killroy8146]

I'm diagnosed with anxiety & agoraphobia and missed nearly all of highschool becoming sick over the fear. It still affects my work today. (I don't fear the people or the setting either. I love people.) I hope you find something to help you soon Eddie. Agoraphobia is vicious.

[@TeacherEddieHistory]

Having a community like this helps. I care and want People to always have a safe space here and I’m setting up a discord for us to be able to talk and vent and have each other backs.

[@daniell.5347]

I don't think it was agoraphobia, because it eventually went away, but, when I was in highschool I would get so anxious over going to public school I'd get sick and throw up a bunch. I would go to the nurse and go home and once I got home I'd be fine. I still to this day (Because of my schizophrenia) get anxious in public but for different reasons. I tend to feel like people read my mind and that people are out to get me. I guess in some way I can understand how you guys feel!

[@killroy8146]

@@daniell.5347 Thats exactly what happened to me, like literally exact. If I couldn't throw up, I'd find a reason too. As I grew up I realized that I would think my day out in my head, and if I had previous experience being miserable somewhere, it would impact my next visit regardless. It's like I convinced myself before I was even at school that everything would turn out bad or go bad.

[@killroy8146]

I think mainly i cared so much what people thought about me, I'd manifest their most likely thoughts in my head. But when you've lived a pessimistic lifestyle due to having horrible luck streaks, you wouldn't ever think people thought good things.

[@charlesm.2604]

My therapists were thinking about agoraphobia but it turned out I have PTSD and got diagnosed with sociopathy so that's where their diagnosis messed up. Usually they take long before diagnosing someone with an anti social personality disorder because it can be false positive due to how many illness can cause depression or social conflicts. :/

[@calebgearheart7278]

Hey Eddie. I’ve been binging your content a few days now and I’ve been enjoying it quite a lot. I just want to let you know that while I can’t fully understand your situation, I can fully admire what you’re trying to create. You seem like a genuine dude and, as a teenager myself, I feel that you could really help make a comfortable community to help those of my age who struggle with these things. I wish all the best to you, my dude.

[@TeacherEddieHistory]

Thank you! Yep my goal is to create a community to do what society won’t, I’ll have a discord set up this week as well to continue the conversations

[@chiaweijie194]

@@TeacherEddieHistoryim 14 . i also dont know what u been through but i just found u today and yes You are too good of a person you care about others and you make content not for the reason of getting money or fame You make content to help those who are struggling I normally dont comment or read comment but theres no way im not saying anything when you say you dont deserve stuff Dont ever say you dont deserve stuff you have a good heart and we need more people like you Just remember that you help possibly thousands of people struggling with problems which is a good thing :l for once i actually wanna try to acheive ma dream (animator) cause normally i would just think its hard to live a living through drawings and it also need a whole but tons of patience and even if you put all of your effort on a animation people may not even like it. :) So yea good luck to all of us

[@RezulyAlt]

This entire song is really relatable to me on a sad note. “Illness and welfare robbed my adolescence.” Is one of the lines I can’t ever get out of my head. I have multiple physical diagnosis’ alongside social anxiety, anxiety disorder, clinical depression, and I have agoraphobia. Everyone thinks I’m faking all of it, it’s why I don’t talk about it anymore and I just stay inside. They don’t understand how hard it is, as said in the video, to go outside or even cross the street.

[@Richard-Freeman]

How to find a good therapist 101: I'm a realist and I hate fluff. So this isn't "don't worry, it'll be ok" kind of advice... It can suck. A lot. Also, this advice is best for those with insurance OR using state benefits programs. New York has incredible Medicaid if you make under $17k/yr. Find out what programs your state has. #1 It can be difficult, depressing, frustrating and hope destroying. Let yourself feel those things and keep trying anyway. #2 Set up 3 appointments with 3 different therapists. Go to all 3 unless you really click with one. #3 Treat the appointments like interviews. Your purpose is solely to discover if you click with the therapist. Open up to your comfort level and get a feel for them based on how they interact with you. TRUST YOUR GUT! #4 Those 3 didn't pan out, try another 3 and repeat. It could take several trys. Sometimes you'll get lucky, sometimes you'll get frustrated. So, where do you find these therapists? If you're comfortable asking friends if they can recommend an office or individual therapist, start there. If you have insurance, go to your insurance company's Find a Doctor page. Then find one of the many Doctors Ratings websites and check for reviews (yes, just like on amazon). If you don't have insurance, qualify for state programs or have a lot of money, find a therapy office that has sliding scale pricing based on income. If an office doesn't have that, ask them if they know of one that does. If you are in NY, I can suggest Best Self Behavioral Health. You're going to be making a lot of phone calls. Accept from the get go that this can be really big pain in the butt and the process will be easier to cope with. Realistic expectations can really cut down on stress. Unless you're currently in a deep depression, in which case your perceptions are pretty skewed due to your brain chemistry being out of whack at the moment. That said, once you find the right one, it can really help you make major changes in your life. Very specific suggestion from my personal experience: Do you perpetually feel like you need to fix yourself and are an exceptional self loather have low self worth? Find somone who knows about Radical Acceptance. It's a targeted form of CBT (Cognitive Behavioral Therapy). It changed my life. Completely. I can't tell you how many therapists I've been to over the years to finally find that one. If you do the steps above, you will have a much better chance of finding one in a reasonable amount of time (3-6 months, as opposed to years). Hope this helps. I'm exhausted so let me know if anything is unclear. Oh, one more thing. Subscribe to HealthyGamerGG on KZbin and Twitch. Listen to some streams. You may well get some good insights from Dr. K.

[@kingiuli9260]

Could you please also watch "Jaiden & Boyinaband - Empty" at some point? That song really hit me hard...

[@TeacherEddieHistory]

Yea

[@kingiuli9260]

@@TeacherEddieHistoryThank you! I'm looking forward to it.

[@kasiachm]

Fantastic! I'm glad you've opened up about your mental health to show people that they are not alone. CORPSE is also being vulnerable to us through his music and this song in particular and it's comforting to know other people face similar struggles. I gues this reaction comes at the right time to your channel :) CORPSE has agoraphobia with anxiety and the social component, as you rightly noticed. He deeply hates the way he looks and has self esteem-issues and that, cobined with the fact that people have certain expectations of how he should look like based on how attractive his voice sounds and sexualising him makes him want to keep his identity private and causes even more anxiety. He mentioned that he'd rather not dissapoint milions of people at once. You are one of the only reactors who picked up on the meaning of 'house arrest' line and why he likes it when it rains. And I guess it's easier for you because of your own experience. CORPSE used to wear face mask if he was outside even before the pandemic, so staying inside a lot and needing to wear a face mask when outside actually suited him a lot. However, he also blew up at that time and with his voice being so distinct, he is even more paranoid about leaving his house. I think you would really enjoy watching Anthony Padilla interviewing CORPSE. He talks about his mental health and music mostly, I think you will find a lot of it relatable. If you could react to it, that would be fantastic. Also, it would be great if you could react to more of CORPSE's music. My favourite is Never Satisfied, but all of his music is realy good. Lastly, it would be could if you could react to Boyinaband and CORPSE collab video called I took the MIT Morality test w/ corpse. SInce you like both artists and it talks about morality, it may be interesting to you and your audience:)

[@TeacherEddieHistory]

I appreciate you! I want people to always have a safe space here and I’m setting up a discord for us to be able to talk and vent and have each other backs.

[@dizzysic66]

Yeah, dude.. I've got GERD and a bunch of other disorders. Vocal corrosion is legit.. deepened my voice but also gave me more range. Being an agorophobe, this song hit home when i first gave it a listen.

[@druid_zephyrus]

As a person, currently, having anxiety issues and on/off attacks, I think it is absolute bullshit that people cannot comprehend what, "I can't do that" means. I fully understand being, initially, confused about something atypical, but after the first puzzlement and the person who "can't" responding as such: the *ONLY* response should be, "wait, is this a thing-thing, like _actually_ can't do this task? No judgement, but if it is a thing-thing, you can tell me and I got you, fam." And then if they request assistance you offer it and if they do not, you move on assuming the task will not be completed as initially interpreted. Any person claiming to be a "good friend" and whom cannot act in the above manner, is a liar. You shouldnt even need to be a good friend or even acquainted with a person to act this way. Yes there may be a percentage of jerks who will take advantage of your heart on your sleeve, but for the one or two people who _NEED_ to be validated, being validated, it will be worth it. Edit: Also, if you mean, "I don't _want_ to do that task" please do not say "I can't", as "I can't" means incapable; not unwilling. Thesauruses are a person's best friend. Edit2: I cannot hear (edit3: or apparently type) that one song about the family of sharp toothed, finned animals, and my actual good friends know this. On one occasion, they went and just changed the song the moment they saw me begin to grab/scratch my arm and twist my hair in anxiety. These are good peoples; surround yourselves with them and them alone.

[@jackmanleblanc2518]

I actually am really curious though obviously you are not obligated to answer me at all. What is it about that song specifically that you just can't stand? I've never heard of it before myself, but I've never heard of a song causing that kind of physical reaction in a person before.

[@druid_zephyrus]

@@jackmanleblanc2518 I used to be a stay at home father. Their mother and I are no longer together and that was the last song I was teaching them.

[@James-nr2hi]

I think you would like an artist called NF. He mostly talks about his mental health. I'd recommend checking out the songs "Mansion" "Why" "Therapy session" And "how could you leave us." Because they give you an idea of who he is and what he does.

[@JohnThyScotsman]

This song actually helped me figure out about my slight agoraphobia. I can't be in crowds without someone there. I can't be in unfamiliar places without someone there. I can usually go into stores alone but I hate being around others if I'm not from the area. I live in a small town and I can usually go out and about without anyone with me. I do sometimes drive to the city alone and do shopping. I can only have a few people around me at a time before I start getting nervous. It was worse when I was little. I always thought the world was out to get me. I always thought I'd get kidnapped. Never happened but that's probably because I was basically glued to my mom and dad the whole time. Like I said, it is better now but I've still got it.

[@ChromaticCluck]

If you feel like you have no motivation at all coming out of school anyone that is even a tiny bit put together and successful is admirable. I fear searching for a job even though I should be fine with good grades and im also doing university but I dread doing interviews more than anything. And on top of that I procrastinate which means I dont even have the motivation to just start my own thing.

[@TeacherEddieHistory]

Check out my Dadvice channel, I just did a video on interview skills - kzbin.info/www/bejne/Y2KqqGeCjZychc0

[@sackless1]

I can understand the intimidation and expectations and what they entail, I come from an immigrant family and they were always hard on me about stuff. One thing I wish I was aware of early on was that it's ok to fail and it's ok to give up if you're not feeling what you're doing. I've given up on many things and never fell backwards. Stay driven and do what you're passionate about and it will work out.

[@chasingclouds9176]

I haven't started college yet. But I'm in that same fucking position. The other problem is that I live in such a small town, so my physical location jobs are incredibly limited. And the places I've worked at here have lead to me being at some of my lowest points mentally. And the online ones I've applied to have mostly been scams, or they haven't contacted me back. I'm so stuck with what to do. This shit is fucking difficult.

[@Ethangelion1.11]

the reason people like you is your a real dude there are so many fake people in this world who pretend there better then everyone people who say they got you but when you need them there no where to be seen. you're genuine a more authentic person.

[@waynesbutler5599]

So I'm 17 but for most of my life I've felt like I'm not good enough or I have to hide how I'm really feeling wearing a fake smile everyday to school, at home, in public with friends depression is real and serious still to this day I feel like I can't do anything right I have a job interview in a couple of hours and I feel like I'm a failure like why am I even doing this they'll never hire me just stuff like that it weighs me down till the point where I lock myself in my room and cry alone where people can't see because I'm supposed to be strong for my family but its so hard when your left feeling helpless and there's no one you feel like will understand. This community is honestly a blessing i can't thank you guys enough for allowing me to hear so many personal things that you guys are dealing with I just want to say your not alone stay strong and stay safe ❤

[@jensbruning5691]

wow, you are such a real person man, I just have such respect for you, 100%. I've been through similar things, just more disease etc. So many people struggle with things and think they're alone about things, but no one is.

[@MichaelS537]

I feel like Corpse found an outlet with his videos and gaming that his voice (a product of GERD) helped him break into. I hope he continues to make videos and play games with the friends he made during 2020 and grows. He is such an amazing person, just like you Eddie.

[@EmotionallyExhaustedPuppy]

I don't usually have an issue going out, in general, but large groups of people are a guaranteed panic attack without medication. It feels like drowning, and for years I tried to tell myself I was being silly. "I need to stop being so dramatic." "I'm at a school play to see my daughter, so why can't I stop shaking and feeling like I'm in immediate danger?" "Why am I acting like such a baby?" I didn't even recognize them as panic attacks until a friend saw me go through one and called it out. I was doubled over, hyperventilating, crying my eyes out, and still trying to apologize for acting so stupid, and she said, "You are being stupid. Why would you think a panic attack is something you need to apologize for?" 🤯 I had gone through this countless times around countless people and it was always, "Ugh, why are you so extra? This is why you don't get invited to things, because you just bring everyone down." I still think you should watch Boyinaband's video on Prince EA, and not just the diss track part. He does a great job of highlighting the misinformation he spreads under the guise of being "inspirational." He even addresses the remote video you mentioned. There are so many people who see mental illness the way Prince EA does, and he adds to this sense of, "If you're not normal, it must be some kind of personal or moral failing," instead of recognizing that the only "personal failing" is your personal brain chemicals failing to function within accepted normal parameters. When I told my mom I was diagnosed with MDD, she said, "Why didn't you tell me you were feeling sad? I would have come over to get you outside! You just need some sunshine!" When my daughter was diagnosed with ADHD, she accused me of trying to medicate her personality away because I didn't want to deal with her "just being a kid." Funny enough, she had a doctor put me on Zoloft at 12 because "she's just too emotional, probably because she's fat," and then told me that if anyone at school found out I was on an anti-depressant, I would lose the few friends I had because "no one wants to be around someone that's a burden." Hypocrisy is literally mother's milk to me. 😅

[@TeacherEddieHistory]

Yea I got the Prince video on my list

[@BitterBloodyBun]

just wanted to say in relation to what you said about wanting to provide a community where you will always be there to listen and make sure everyone doesnt feel alone.. in turn, it also applies to you. just like how you want to listen to what each and every one of us has to say no matter what it is and make sure we dont feel alone, we will also be there in turn for you to listen to what you have to say, no matter what it is, and we want to make sure you dont feel alone. we care about you, and even through struggling with your past and mistakes youve made along the way and mental health disorders, you are an inspiration regardless. because you pushed through. because you shared your struggles. because you care so much and want to make sure we know it and want to help in any way you can. because youve turned your history into exactly that. youve grown, youve improved, youve learned, and youve become a better you, even if you dont see it. i think youd appreciate that being a historian and all. we all grow and change and we arent even the same person we used to be a year ago, or even a month ago. i know im not. despite agoraphobia, despite your greatest fear being youre scared you wont know the answer to something, despite your rough upbringing, despite depression, despite anxiety, you pulled through, and you showed everyone willing to watch that its not only just okay to talk about how you feel, but its important, for so many reasons, and that you can live another day, that you can get through this, and that we can too. just you talking about these topics, especially with the stigma around mental health, ESPECIALLY for guys and mental health, is so empowering. id write more but my banged up finger is complaining a little, but i just wanted you to know that, no matter how much you doubt yourself, me or even several others saying it doesnt make you believe it, but the truth is that you are an inspiration, whether you believe it or see it or you dont. thank you for sharing this kind of stuff with us and being who you are.

[@TeacherEddieHistory]

And I care about you! You always have a safe space here and I’m setting up a discord for us to be able to talk and vent and have each other backs.

[@Librael-prod]

I just saw your reaction video on boyinaband - dont stay in shcool, after that i watched this, and i subscribed, i TOTALY FEEL EVERY WORD THAT CORPSE AND YOU ARE SAYNG, I FEEL IT TO MY BONES, that makes me feel that im not alone, but lots of people just dont understand what anxiety means and how it feels, they just judge, and that hurts even more

[@TeacherEddieHistory]

I appreciate you

[@Nilithyana]

I went to a psychiatrist 10 years ago and was disillusioned with him like you were with yours. The only good thing I got out of those few sessions I went to was my official diagnosis (social anxiety disorder, depression, agoraphobia) and medication. Unfortunately I'm no longer on medication. It gets worse if you get no help at all. So I do urge those in need of help to get it. Also, I wish we could end mental heath stigma. One of my favorite quotes is from Joker: "The worst part about having a mental illness is people except you to behave as if you don't."

[@engjack6669]

you know what I hate the most is when people tell me to "just be happy" when they have never understood how hard the feeling of being lonely really is or to have suicidal thoughts because you're lonely then blaming your self because your social anxiety makes it hard to make friends. Social anxiety is another thing that I have to deal with and then people say "just go outside, puff out your chest and stand up straight." This shit is difficult and if someone really felt what you're going through they wouldn't say that stuff anymore because they know that its not that easy.

[@SilverFlame819]

I love that you love that line, that's one of Corpses favorite lines he's ever written, because of how many people resonate hard with it. ❤

[@LuckyPon3]

It makes me so happy that he's so caring. I struggle with constant anxiety and depression. Probably since I was 11 or 12 I'd guess. I'm always doubting all this sadness I have until I just wanna cry but I just can't. I've noticed that I've started being able to cry when someone else starts crying. Even worse, I can't stop myself from crying. I won't care about that particular subject or even understand what's going on, but something in my brain associates seeing people cry with being okay to finally cry, which is a relief at times as sometimes I just have this pressure under my eyes like I'm going to cry even though I can't. But with how he relates to videos, and is okay enough to cry, it allows me to cry too. So I dunno if Modern or (Eddie I'm guessing?) Will ever see this, but thank you for that, my eyes don't feel so fit to burst for the first time in a while. Another thing that may be a bit off from the last thing is that I work in fast food, so I go to work in my work clothes, with my shirt being a Tee with the logos and stuff on it and also I can't drive. So when I have to walk to work, I'm so embarrassed about the shirt I'm wearing cause fast food is such a terribly conceived job to have, that I was wearing a hoodie everyday I had to walk cause I didn't want the shirt to be seen. But today, I finally forced myself to tie the hoodie around my waist and wear the shirt the whole way. Man I probably would have exploded if I didn't put on some reddit podcasts. Big achievement for me today. Anyways, sorry for the rant, and thanks for reading, I appreciate it.

[@ladybritt9366]

I suffer from agoraphobia, panic disorder, anxiety, night terrors, dissociation, and depression. I can't go out in public places alone anymore, I hate myself that I can't work because my fiancé and I are trying to save money and move out. I can't stand closed spaces, crowds, being alone for too long, and just ppl in general. I have to take my fiancé everywhere with me, and doctor's offices end up getting used to seeing him that they know us by name. But when we go to a new place the secretary or nurse will try to ask or tell us that he can't go back with me. After one point I was so frustrated that I said (loudly by accident) that I have a panic disorder I can't be alone. They were embarrassed and had to apologize to me. So then on if someone asks, my fiancé tells them the answer. Also had an issue with seating on a plane where my fiancé and I were separated and I was scared and we had to sort that issue out so I have to talk to the flight staff beforehand about that.

[@jazzy3345]

So, I was recently diagnosed with extreme anxiety. And I was recently given a better position at work, and I am going to have my first day by myself after only 8 hours of training. And it's getting closer to Armageddon, and my anxiety shot through the roof. I tried telling my manager how I was feeling without breaking down, and all she said was "Oh, you'll be fine." Telling me to breathe and that I'll be fine, just makes me feel worse. Does that make sense?

[@TeacherEddieHistory]

Inspired by Boyinaband Check out my new discord community: discord.gg/eddie

[@Starskrim6]

Keep doing them vids, it's great to listen to honest person talking about real problems! :)

[@dragonwoar1619]

@Korbin Ayden its free???

[@seanmcdonald4155]

What has helped me most with my agoraphobia was my father more then any meds i could take. i am still scared of being outside but with a little encouragement form my father. I started taking baby steps over the course of 3 years i can manage it. im still scared but ive learned to talk to my self into taking those steps and managing the fear a little bit at a time. i still don't like driving over 50miles even to get stuff i really need but hopefully with more exposure i can do a little more each day.

[@splishysplash8977]

I feel depressed but I don't act like it around people and I wonder do I have depression and if I don't act like it no one will ask are you ok and I just say yes or whatever. But, again I feel depressed but don't act like it so people just think oh he is the same kid (I have ADHD so I'm active) I act hyper always laughing having fun again I feel depressed sometimes when I'm alone. Edit: The song you are reacting to in this video is also a song that I relate myself to when listening to it. It makes me feel like something is wrong with me and that I should just hideaway. It makes me think so many things that my brain can't process and I just crack and start to think about negative thoughts.

[@samarter7863]

I have such a deep hatred for people who use abuse as a competition, and it’s nice to see the call out to those people. Personally I went through a lot of verbal and emotional abuse, and yes I understand that the other types of abuse is worse but you can’t invalidate my struggle just because you went through a different struggle. It’s something completely. Even the same kind of abuse are completely different and people respond to that abuse differently. No matter the level of “severity”. It took years for me to understand that I was being abused because in my head it was constantly “people have been through worse” and “he’s not hitting me”. Now my favourite thing to remind myself when I fall into crippling self doubt is “just because someone’s been stabbed doesn’t mean my broke arm no longer hurts.”

[@GMurfGaming]

"Your brain is Ike Turner and your Tina" - Best fuckin way to describe depression that I've ever heard.. Subbing for sure 👍

[@ezekielaimar7385]

As someone who was clinically depressed , working out and getting in shape saved my life. It was difficult and it felt like I had to drag myself thru mud using only my arms , but it helped me. And I haven’t looked back since. I was 20 years old 5’10 and 250 pounds .. now I’m 24 5’11 and 190 pounds .. please force yourself to exercise if you feel useless.. that’s what I did and I 180 no scoped my depression in the face 💯💪🏽

[@VolatileSupernova]

As a fellow man with agoraphobia who has panic attacks and anxiety I feel this so much. Sometimes I will wake up ready to head out and take the day and and some days you just can't leave your house. COVID has been a double edged sword for me because as comfortable as it's been for almost a year of me not having to leave my house, now I find it hard to even leave for groceries once a month where I used to go to work 5 days a week. Everyone I knows says the same thing "Maybe you should see someone, like a therapist" or "maybe you need anti-depressants" which both make sense but both involve TALKING TO PEOPLE I DON'T KNOW and that's the part that makes it so impossible it's ridiculous.

[@jtfoxdragon7263]

ive always wanted to understand more about stuff like this cuz normally people or teachers dont teach this to you and its like what if my friend was going through this i wouldnt be able to understand him or him but this video helps me understand more thank you

[@TeacherEddieHistory]

I’m glad it helped

[@Dj_Gj]

I can relate to you and corpse, becsuse i feel that same pain amd anxiety. For me, i try to hide that pain with a false care-free attitude and an over reliance on sarcasm to hide the pain and anxieties. But recently, that isn’t exactly working. Ive been trying different things, and holding on to hope.

[@l_Scythe_l]

I get paranoid at times when I go outside to go run, I just think that every person in a car was staring at me with a a discussed and judged face. I always keep an ear out, or an earbud out when I'm listening to music while I go out and run. I just think that someone or something is looking or following me. Shit's crazy! I get anxious and hesitant to join a socialized area, hell to even join a party in game. I just love when it starts raining, I just look outside and listen to some lo fi, or calm music in my room. I feel safe. LOVE THE CONTENT!!

[@secretaryofoffense7118]

I got agoraphobia in 2013, developed from not addressing ptsd for 20 years, man its the fear of the panic attacks themselves. Ive deadass passed out from it, tunnel vision, thinking im literally gonna die from it. Got put on addictive drugs that made it ten times worse. God i love open spaces, love conversation, love public speaking. I lose my absolute shit when i cant see the exit of a building or im in traffic. The moment i realize i cant escape, it hits like a bus.

[@Lynn-nuna]

19:30 I feel that SO much! I'm a-social with anxiety, never felt comfortable with people and lock-downs was such a blessing for me! I JUMPED on the opportunity to go on Zoom classes and having the time of my life while people in my class are DYING to go back to "normal".

[@stefanieappis5163]

You were so correct about the depression. You can smile and on the outside attempt to function normally but inside your brain is constantly belittling you and everything you do. "You're stupid, ugly, worthless, a waste, burden, You are nothing" on repeat 24/7 along with it telling you to just end it. Having to fight that and still try to go to work and smile and people wonder why you are so tired. Heck I am tired trying to keep living and fighting everyday

[@TeacherEddieHistory]

I’d always think everyone around me was talking about me and my mind would fill in the conversation with dark stuff

[@michealthekaminoshinagami54]

Found this really cool work around to the mirror issue a few years ago. If you actively trick your brain that that's not you.

[@crystallight808]

Corpse has a disorder where there is this like acid in his throat which makes his voice deeper throughout his entire life and it hurts to talk he explained that in one of his videos

[@aceuuu3934]

man going outside to me feels like a damn chore most people enjoy it i go outside and my brain just goes fucking crazy

[@melomaniacwallflower]

I absolutely love this song (All of CORPSE's songs tbh 😂) I can relate a lot, I don't know if i'm agoraphobic but I do have social anxiety. I'm not exactly scared to go outside, I'm more terrified of seeing people I know. I will literally hide behind anything I possibly can, my mom was worried bc she thought this one girl was a bully (she wasn't) but I just didn't want to be noticed. Idk why i'm so scared of people I actually know finding me in public 🤷🏽‍♀️ I guess I don't want them to know about my "after school" life, I don't want them to judge me and then not be friends with me. I don't like losing friends.

[@minwellitsanicknamebegrate2531]

That happened to me when I Saw a class mate my old school after I was put into foster care I was afraid of being seen by people I knew and having to talk to them I’m still afraid of running into people I know I have to prepare myself when I interact with people otherwise I just.... it feels like my heart is going to burst and I’m going to cry .. I have social anxiety on top of being antisocial , the more time I have to prepare for a situation the better I feel sometimes I will have a store trip planed but not go because I just can’t go I can’t make myself leave I have to take days to mentally prepare myself I hate having to suddenly go anywhere. Even now I’m afraid of running into my birth parents or a relative or anyone I know,

[@ellenhill6842]

I have social anxiety. I actually liked it when most people stayed home! I could go shopping without having a panic attack. What makes it worse is that I lost my left eye to cancer last year, so if anyone approaches me from that side I can't see them coming.

[@missyrivas8623]

I feel like it's when I try an go out or go out, it switches on a ferris wheel of TV screens that project every insecurity, every embarrassing moment, intrusive thoughts, etc that spins and spins till I'm where I gotta be

[@calvinerickson3838]

hey If you want to listen to more corpse and also let out some anger you have to listen to never satisfied It is my favorite song by him.

[@minwellitsanicknamebegrate2531]

Yes I wonder what he would think of it it’s pretty deep when you listen to it after this one .

[@trickstersenses]

I feel that on a deep level. I’m 22 years old old, diagnosed with autism, adhd, anxiety, depression, ptsd and trichotillomania. I find it so hard to even be around people sometimes, I can’t look at them in the eyes, my legs start shaking, I start rambling, I become a whole mess. Then I get violent thoughts because I just feel like I’m so fvcked up and just fumbling through life.... it’s why I’m always talking to myself having full blown conversations with myself in my bedroom, it’s where I feel at my safest mentally. It’s absolutely exhausting and draining 🥴 people look at me like I’m a nutter over it and I get snide comments and remarks thrown at me, I can’t even get out of bed most of the time, to the point where I can’t shower for days almost a whole week on end, I feel disgusting for it but it just feels like I’m a snail just slowly trying to navigate through my own mental madness.. (Sorry for rambling 😔)

[@KamonTB]

Just recently started watching your content, 100% right agoraphobia hits everyone a little different. Mine puts me in flight or fight any time I’m outside and triggers my anxiety when I know I need to walk out the door, because I know I’m going to have to restrain my fighting instinct any time anyone gets too close or says something that annoys me. You deal with yours amazingly and we all got this, we can all learn to live with our agoraphobia and anxiety, just need the right friends and family to support us.

[@JadedArtworks]

This is refreshing because other reactions to the song that I’ve seen are from people who don’t have a agoraphobia and don’t know what it is and I immediately get so fucking pissed the moment they all fucking say “oh yeah I don’t like people too” “I’m a little agoraphobic too” but they don’t know what the fuck it means so they’re minimizing the struggle to a casual dislike of that one coworker at your job

[@l_Scythe_l]

Whenever I go and present to more than 6 people, especially people I don't know. My chest starts hurting, I start getting butterflies in my stomach, and I run out of breathe like there's a limited amount of air in the place

[@usagirocks]

Me watching the pink and blue frame move on all his videos like a dazed fish

[@DramaLlamaFishing]

Anxiety, depression, agoraphobia, isolophobia, etc.

[@ManonLcz]

I've been told so many times by people that social anxiety and depression (as well as my sleep disorder) are a choice and that I just don't want to get better be functional etc when it's something we have no control over. Yeah imma celebrate when I get to be awake during the day because it's so rare to me for my sleep disorder to not make me shut down I'm not asking you to understand just not to be a dick about it "it's really not that hard everyone does it" yeah well I don't and everyone dealing with anxiety related disorder are doing so much more in their day to day life to just do small things that are trivial to the rest of the population and no one but us can understand it. Much love to everyone experiencing this kind of disorders don't let people ignorance bring you down 🤍

[@chasitybecker1189]

Thank u for this..I heard corpes story about his voice, his agoraphobia, his anxiety and fibromiligia and see why my daughter relates so much to him..she suffers from almost the same things and games like him and she's literally so happy that I like his music bc it opened up our convo

[@douglaseppinger6320]

I feel that part about anxiety making you feel like death, it started about 4 years ago I crushed my leg and couldn't walk for a long time and now I can walk but after all this time I don't know how to even be human anymore so i just don't go out at all now because I also have nobody to help me through it, and I don't know how to meet a new person anymore, I need so much help but don't even know where to start

[@Grey_301]

I suffer from agoraphobia also and I very much enjoyed this! It was very relatable, thank you.

[@Greekstrr]

The fact that you're willing to help others to this extent is what ppl look for in other ppl. Thats personally why I think ppl look up to u, cuz unlike others u r addressing things that need to be addressed or helping others that need help. Most ppl don't do that, its a shame the bystander effect is a thing and hopefully over time it won't be and we will have more ppl like u who cares for others to the extent u do.

[@s0me0ne62]

I love this song. I don't have agoraphobia but I've been chronically ill since I was 16 and certain parts of the song hit me very hard. Thank you so much for making this reaction video, I learned a lot of things I had no idea about before.

[@matthewholmes9291]

I will say this, i don't suffer from anxiety or anything of that sort. Yet, for years have struggled with contemplating suicide, as well as simply struggled with any concept of self-worth. I relate heavily to the idea of feeling inadequate so that is what drives you. I have always thought and it never has left me, that if I just vanished it wouldn't matter, even when my family and friends, everyone who cares for me tells me that it is not the case. I've never fully been able to shake that feeling and thought, it is always in the back of my mind. And it hurts me knowing the pain others go through probably why I desire to be counsel and be an aid for people who struggle. I can't say I have gone through what others have, I have been very lucky in life and blessed in so many ways. Yet, no matter how good things get. I have never been able to shed that anchor or this feeling that others would be happier if I just was never around. So, Thanks for being the open person you are. Your a hard worker and I'd say a channel am happy to have found. Hope live always gets better for you!

[@jai_lynne_blu2354]

Listening to you talk about depression and anxiety like this was refreshing for me. I personally struggle with really bad social anxiety coupled with dysthymia or persistent depressive disorder. I went through a really bad patch a few years back where I could barely even leave my room let alone my house. Once I started to get better I noticed that my anxiety had actually worsened because of it and I hate having to go places alone. I will always experience a lesser level of anxiety if I have someone familiar with me. What sucks is that i'm a rather extroverted person but my anxiety keeps me away from people. Its really nice to hear a blunt point of view from some one who has similar struggles to me. I'm tired of people always talking about these issues like they aren't as debilitating as they can be.

[@Marus1203]

"Take a deep breath" I love getting told that. I have asthma and an overall weak respiratory system. If I get a panic or anxiety attack it turns into an asthma attack as well. Having an asthma attack. "JUST TAKE A DEEP BREATH" Bitch if I could take a deep breath I wouldn't be gasping and about to pass the fuck out! I get those people are trying to help but it DOESN'T help. It just makes it worse. But sometimes when something like that happens it freaks them out because they want to help but don't know what to do to do so.

[@Rueian]

I feel like a terrible person for being resentful/jealous towards people who suffer through these things but still find their success. You can list all the things you've done with your life in spite of your problems and you feel inadequate. I look to my empty list and feel worse. I don't want to make people feel bad for their success, or that they should feel worse about having their life issues still. I just want to feel like I've accomplished something other than just making it another day.

[@LuckyPon3]

Don't worry, you'll achieve your goals eventually, just keep working at them. When they say that the first step is the hardest, that's the god damn truth. Once you know you can achieve one of your goals, all your other goals are just pushing a little bit further.

[@Rueian]

@@LuckyPon3 at my age you start giving up with such a long pattern of failure.

[@LuckyPon3]

@@Rueian You're never too old to achieve your goals. Take that Chinese man who graduated from Highschool in his 70's for example

[@TheMadamHatter]

I've always had pretty bad anxiety and hate open spaces, but more so I hate not having my back against the wall. In school I could NOT pay attention in class unless I was allowed to sit in a desk against the wall. I get intensely anxious when people are behind me

[@callmeluna8903]

Im 16 abt to be 17 and I have major depression, anxiety, PTSD, and paranoia...and everyday I think of how much I annoy people and feel like closing myself in but I know if I do that ill end up killing myself...I try to surround myself around others but I just constantly feel like they hate me...and I get really self-conscious

[@5siggi]

So sorry you are going through all that! My granddaughter is 18 and has been suffering with all that too. She tried to kill herself once but thank God I talked her into calling the suicide hotline until I could get to her house and help her. She said it actually helped her. She's been in and out of hospitals a few times. More people care about you than you think and I'm one of them. You are not alone!

[@needtoread_2382]

I'm 18 and have major depression and generalized anxiety, I also have some trauma. I have had the same struggles, and it's really hard because I never could connect easy with others my age. I found that doing things to keep busy and writing out my feelings helps. Never just ignore the feelings, try to acknowledge and work past them. Make a list of people you can get ahold of to call if you're a danger to yourself, and remember that the thoughts tjat people hate you are irrational in nature. Doing 54321 sensory counting helps ground yourself when having bad anxiety, 5 things you see, 4 things you hear, 3 things you feel, 2 things you smell, one thing you taste. I still have a hard time, still feel suicidal at times, but I have accepted my struggles as a part of me. I know its hard, but keep going. Someone cares for you and you are never alone in your struggles.

[@justsomenerd284]

All my teachers and parents tell me and my friends that the teen years we're in rn (i'm 15) are the worst years of my life, but for like 8 months straight its been the best time of my life so far. Madly in love with someone who also appreciates me a lot, know myself pretty well, amazing friends, good grades, good homelife, good financial situation, I know what I want, not necessarily my specific job but I know i wanna go nature course and get a stay-at-home job and I know my biggest goal, a life with the one i love and a dog in a cozy cottage in southern Finland. Everything just works right now and I am so goddamn happy and I do my best supporting my friends like today when my friend was overwhelmed by all the shcool work and crying I did my best trying to talk and inspirate but it didnt work so I got the nice teacher and she managed to get her going with the work, and my friend was happy for the rest of today. I couldn't work or focus a lot that lesson cause I couldnt stop thinking about my friend, knowing she can do it, not knowing if i could do more, if I did the right thing but I think i did.

[@brittanym1376]

Your case is the Tardis 😍 I love Doctor Who. I adore Corpse too hes very brave to even put himself out there.

[@TeacherEddieHistory]

Yes I love Dr Who, 10th doctor 4 life

[@brittanym1376]

@@TeacherEddieHistory I love 9! 💞💞

[@ghostyash9148]

I lovingly refer to the 6th as Skittles

[@Doctordier]

I feel like I was one of those sensitive creative types, that got depressed as a kid. It got worse after my dad committed suicide. 5 years of therapy and I felt better, but it only took one year without to have a huge setback. Fear of the future along with Covid made things so much worse, but I asked for help recently. I hope the nightmares and self-loathing get better, because constantly blaming yourself for everything that happened is so exhausting. Sometimes I catch myself thinking that it's my fate to end up like my old man.

[@comicgoth666]

Typically physicist/psychologist are pretty good, but many get into it for the wrong reasons and are incredibly ableist and think all it takes is a deep breath and "just think happy thoughts" and don't get it. Similarly with some doctors. (I'm mentally and physically disabled. Have been since I can remember. Including agoraphobia)

[@blackfyredragon7917]

I wish I found one good psychologist in my life. Been to 4 and one literally told me “Sucks to be you, but you must think why don’t you want to be better?”... I just stood up and left. That was the last time I was at any sort of therapy... Really, people should think better about the kind of job the want to do...

[@xskytsox]

Psychiatrists and counselors are a dime a dozen. If the first one you go to is a moron, find another one. Getting one that's good and connects with you is the most important thing.

[@pleasehelp2446]

Hey Eddie i suffer from PTSD from when i was an EMT working 911 calls. It causes me paranoia because I was held at gunpoint multiple times for trying to save the "wrong person" in the "wrong neighborhood".

[@pennyx1oo306]

Anthony Padilla has made two videos with Corpse if you want to check those out. Maybe a reaction or just to check it out. Corpse talks more about his life and struggles.

[@unbeatable2121]

Whenever I'm in a place with more than like 3 people or I know there are people around and may be looking at me, I break out into a cold sweat. My anxiety spikes and it almost hurts to talk. If I'm with someone I know its not that bad but I can still feel it. I just wanna live normally without my brain sabotaging me everytime I go somewhere.

[@Azurko]

I cannot stand to be in a crowded space. To have unknown people within constant touching distance of me drives me into panic attacks. To go into a store around Christmas is my literal idea of Hell. My wife didn't seem to understand how bad it could get until our first Christmas married and she forced me to go into the mall with her. Kept telling her I can't go in, it's a bad idea, etc. After the 3rd store, I quite literally ran out of the mall (leaving her not knowing where I was) and got to the car shaking and throwing up. She called my mom in a panic and mom told her to go out to the car, she'd find me there. When she finally got me to talk, the best way I could describe crowds was "think of movies where a character develops telepathy, the shear overwhelming noise pushing deep into their brain to the point of collapse." I know I'm not hearing their actual thoughts, but my brain is convincing itself that it can and everyone is having something negative to say about me (I'm both a very tall, 6'4", and fat guy, around 600lb at my absolute heaviest). What's weird in my head is that if, for example, I was to invite Eddie out for a beer at a crowded bar, I could do that easily. Mostly because I'd be focused on the people I'm with and wouldn't pay attention to anyone else there.

[@simsblood1611]

I literally always use fake names online because I don’t want people knowing who I really am. It terrifies me to be recognized in public and when I am I freeze up and try to run. Then of course I’m never enough for people. I always feel like everyone is trying to fix me. I also have Dissociative Identity Disorder and that makes literally everything worse because one day I’ll be at home cuddle in my bed happy then I come to and find myself at the mall and it terrifies the fucka outta me

[@pandakingpin9521]

i heavily relate to this song and it's honestly really refreshing to see/hear others that have agoraphobia too. im 22 and i have a fair bit of mental health problems i have been dealing with since i was seven. My agoraphobia manifested when i was 13, even after all these years working on it and my anxiety but i still get scared at times to just go sit on my porch or at times to even open my front door. i remember one time were i stayed in my house for over two months, never leaving it once and my brothers literally had to drag me to my doctors to get medication. So believe me i know how it feels man. also there is things you can do with a therapist/ counselor but each one i met was a idiot too. i finally just said fuck it and decided to work on it myself the best i can. P.s to anyone that reads this, i hope you have a fantastic day and stay safe! and sorry for any spelling mistakes and crappy wording lol

[@Baccadragon64]

One thing I have always had a problem with is feeling like I am inadequate. I have always felt like I don't deserve anything I have. And honestly some nights have cried myself to sleep because I feel I don't deserve anything. But I want to get rid of that feeling and don't know how

[@TeacherEddieHistory]

I feel you

[@EpitomyofShyness]

Subscribed. Listening to you talk about your issues and how they relate to the lyrics of Corpse's Agoraphobic brought me to tears. So just, thank you for being honest. I wish you weren't suffering but you're right, its a relief to know I'm not alone.

[@garyvincent7397]

haha this is great, as somone with agoraphobia and social anxiety on top of autism, your message and corpses together really hit hard and it was great, I either got really luck or really unlucky because 99% of my friends also share most of my issues and understand it all (the unluck part being were supporting each other but were all ready to collapse at any moment). i do however find sarcasm to be a great coping method wich helps me a lot, turns out being bored and trapped a lot of the time gives you time to think of new innovative forms of sass.

[@buttloadofmilk8435]

I’m only at the beginning of this video. This is the first vid on this channel I’ve seen. I just wanted to say, I already love this channel. I suffer from extreme social anxiety and social dysphoria. I’m very glad there’s been a supportive community created here.

[@TotallyNotRaven342]

I never realized that I was struggling with agoraphobia all my life. I would miss multiple days of school each year because I'd get so sick from fear. I mean even now when I'm outside it always looks like I'm afraid and I feel like I'm always teetering on a panic attack.

[@TheEthicalOutlaw]

Bro i swear the more i watch you, the more parallels i see in my life, which is why i became so driven to your channel. Im also Agoraphobic as well as my father, i was diagnosed a long time ago. I love people so much but cant be around them without getting delusional thoughts or panic attacks. So i find myself forced to stay home where im comfortable because of this and many others things as well. And it sucks so bad. This is just another reason why id love to one on one with you sometime. Love you brother! Stay up!

[@Anxietyqueen528.]

I’m 21- I have severe anxiety and agoraphobia. I feel you so hard on not being able to breathe- I actually black out from it on a daily basis. I’ve been blacking out and hitting the ground from it since I was 14 and it’s so hard having to explain why what seems so small to others makes me and my body K.O. I usually just don’t go anywhere anymore- I keep to me and my parents. My friend’s didn’t stick around to deal with my medical bs anyways because I can’t drive and do everything they can. I feel you and Corpse. It sucks.

[@followfornothing]

My agoraphobia is so bad when I leave the house I literally have to wear sunglasses and headphones. I just don't want to hear the world I don't want to hear the laughter if anything I just want to create the soundtrack to the chaos that surrounds me and when I see people looking at me I do everything I can to just keep walking. Half the time I don't even feel comfortable in my own skin. There's days where I sit around and stare at my hand and I don't believe that this is me. I'm literally a hermit I go to work and I come home I stay cooped up in my apartment. Like you said I'm not afraid of people or anything like that but as soon as I go outside it's like I can't even bring myself to want to go outside it takes a lot for me to actually walk out that door. And when I finally find the strength to walk out that door and close it and get ready to lock it I have to make sure that whatever song it is that I'm going to walk to listening to it when I do go outside is playing because like I said I don't want to hear the noise of the world. I don't want to be a part of this world when it involves me having to leave the comfort and safety of my own home.

[@xenodraakia4516]

Honestly, I didnt think I could feel such a connection with a song. I love your reaction and the way you speak out about subjects like education. Honestly you would be a fantastic politician, IF they weren't the way they were now. It's people like you with compassion and empathy and understanding of the common issues most people overlook that NEEDS to be creating a better generation of laws and regulations for the ones too ignorant to notice.

[@Aleeanxiousme]

Randomly found you this morning and subscribed! Fellow agoraphobic with a cast of several other anxiety disorders here Haven't left my house in 6 months. This song choked me up and hearing your experiences with being in open spaces too. I had to learn no one in my life can or will ever understand or relate. They aren't meant to- our brains are just too different. But it's cool (in a morbidly humorous sense) to hear you talk so openly about something a lot of people see as dramatic or attention seeking. I often just say this to those who don understand.. would anyone purposely lock themselves inside and away from their loved ones? Would they choose to miss out on every life experiences? Would they decide to watch the world continue while they sat stalled where they are....sometimes forever? Who would choose that??