An interview with my schizophrenic brother

Complete story: oceanpark.com/blog/2009/08/no...
The above link takes you to chapter 3 in my blog about the saga of my brother in and out of the judicial system and in and out of being incarcerated.

[@josephfernandez5368]

i miss my uncle, he was sick...the older I get the more I think the mental ill are sane, and it is us who are sick...God bless anyone struggling

[@BussdownOEM]

What happened to him?

[@dennisallard120]

UPDATE August 27, 2021: The five years have gone by in a flash due to my own personal life issues. During this time, Tony has cycled in and out of being incarcerated two or three times. One incident was at a half-way house where he became paranoid about the manager and left on bad terms, violating his terms of probation. He is currently back in, after he took a joy ride in a mini-cooper he saw idling and double parked in Westwood. He drove it around West LA and Hollywood then parked it at a 7/11 and turned it off not realizing he did not have the electronic key to turn it back on. He asked the 7/11 operators to all the police which they did not do. So he slept a while in the car then in the morning flagged down some police. This was during 2020. He is still awaiting a court hearing and is currently at Norwalk Metropolitan Hospital being "restored to competency to stand trial". I'll post another update here sometime before the end of 2021.

[@jhoodied4861]

He's a genius.

[@ZeRo46240]

This guy isn't going about the interview "all wrong". He's obviously an extremely supportive brother. Put yourself in his situation and you'd probably lose your cool in seconds. I commend this guy for the love and effort put forth.

[@DennisAllard]

Thank you @ZeRo46240 . I have been trying to help my brother for over 32 years now.

[@lacykatewilkinson6955]

I hope you enjoy lunch with your brother. My brother stopped taking the viscous meds and couldn't bear the tortuous audio visual hallucinations. He is no longer with us, I'd give anything to go to lunch with my brother. Your brother is very smart and a strong soul. Respect him

[@dennisallard120]

Thank you for your thoughts Lacy Kate Wilkinson. This video was made long ago but yet, I did take my brother to lunch afterwards. In the weeks following he became very delusional and ended up vandalizing some property. He has been incarcerated twice since then and is now in a psychiatric hospital. He is very coherent (on meds) and stable but a bit manic. He may be released back to freedom in a few weeks or months. I'll post an update soon to a blog I wrote about his situation (see: goo.gl/dPyTBN).

[@jimibarker2744]

Lacy Kate Wilkinson sorry sweet

[@MrLorincombs]

Lacy Kate Wilkinson sorry for your loss, my father took the same path, much love

[@nathandunlap6256]

it brings tears to my eyes you can see the pain of this terrible disorder all over this poor mans face:(

[@patsyzaruba3396]

As an adjunct professor, I want to thank you for your time in posting this interview. I teach Gen Psy and this video is education for my students to experience mental health in the family.

[@calliethompson3672]

This is my mom..so much like my mom...thank you so much for video taping this. I've been through the mental health system and trying to convince people that she needs help when she doesn't think so. Its impossible to get her help until something happens. Your a great brother. I had to let my mom go.

[@double_uoglobe]

This is a perfect example of the expansive delusions that schizophrenics perceive. This is the sad consequence of the plasticity of human consciousness. Clearly he’s very intelligent, he’s just frozen in intense paranoia

[@dennisallard120]

You have summarized his state of mind very well. Thank you.

[@double_uoglobe]

@@dennisallard120 Any update on your brother's condition ?

[@AlaskaEndtimeWarrior]

Thank you for posting this interview. I work with individuals with developmental disabilities in Alaska. We deeply care for our clients. This interview reminded me of one male about the same age. We take care of him, guide him, make sure he eats well, ensure that he takes his meds, and, most importantly, is safe at night.

[@chrisroberts707]

This is legitimately scary to me.

[@brucerazor5202]

I pray your long journey finds your solution. Mental illness is no different than cancer or any other disease

[@1bigreddog1]

My brother-in-law is very similar in talking and evading questions. He’s never had an official diagnosis or taken any meds. He swears there is nothing wrong, that everyone else has it wrong about him. The CIA are everywhere and he is the Target! So far as we know, he’s not a danger to himself or others. We hope it stays that way in his best interests and for others sakes as well!

[@janethefriend-awakened33]

my brother goes on and off his meds. at first his delusions were entertaining, but now they have become nothing but a source of chaos for everyone.

[@tinagerhardt2376]

He has a rainbow behind his head

[@dennisallard120]

He was sitting next to a window where I had hung a prism and sunlight would reflect through the prism.

[@miceskin]

"I can't afford meds!" *Puts wad of twenties he was holding two minutes ago back in his pocket. lol

[@Barracuda487]

LOL

[@gizmo3714]

Dude meds are like 60 dollars a pill that whole stack would be a month of meds

[@bio-plasmictoad5311]

He simply won't want to spend money on them, I don't blame him.

[@flipper9038]

@Chad Cook Tell that to a diabetic or someone with high blood pressure.

[@flipper9038]

@Chad Cook This isnt about schizophrenia right now.

[@dennisallard120]

OLD UPDATE: My brother Tony is being released from Atascadero State Hospital on Monday July, 2015. So, the saga will continue. I will update this story with a new chapter and my brother Tony has agreed to do another interview now that he is stable, is taking his meds, and has regained his freedom in society.

[@1bigreddog1]

Dennis Allard there’s a rainbow on the wall behind Tony!

[@elizabethmeyer7447]

I am 3 years late, but pray your brother is doing well🙏❤

[@BrendenNichols]

I hope everything is okay with you and your brother since the interview hasn't been posted. I'm curious to get an update on his overall condition and mental state.

[@mamabear3887]

My question is very specific and I so need an answer. For those who know this diagnosis personally.... What is the foundation or cornerstone of this diagnosis? Do you believe his speech and thought is disorganised? Does your brother have a self care deficit and if so in what way? Can he prepare food and feed self on daily basis? Think ahead for food and hygiene? I have no one else to ask.

[@iwackadoodleyourmarbles9220]

I am grateful I stumbled upon this video!

[@rabiaadam]

Hi, hope your brother is doing well. My brother is also schizophrenic with lack of insight. None of the meds really work on him. And in my part of the world there are no proper medical care for mental patients . He is only 18 . We are hoping against hope 😑

[@rabiaadam]

Kat 77 thanks a lot.😑

[@mstenorsaxplayer]

Schizophrenia is tough...im glad u both r comfortable enough to talk about it. It takea guts.

[@Afronadian]

Hey Dennis, watched your video. I think this was an educational experience (hopefully) for people who haven't interacted with schizophrenic people. I think people who have harsh comments on this page either haven't worked or known many people with this disorder so not many can really appreciate what your going through. Stay strong, and I hope things continue to improve, know that there are some people out there who care. :)

[@flip4x]

My mother is bipolar and schizophrenic. And it did made me realize she had a hard work paying jobs while taking great care of me and my younger sister. But put it out like this. I know some ppl that has the same or similar mental condition like she had. Perhaps she's a very smart woman and I have never thought millions of years in my life that she got a degree at criminal Justice in wilkesboro. 🤗

[@germinationwide4life]

"there's a lot of mason's going around...". LOL!

[@jinglebells3323]

The mind digs into itself Consciousness is such a misunderstood thing

[@DMTInfinity]

Indubitably.

[@iwackadoodleyourmarbles9220]

A truly awesome comment!

[@jellydee123]

A mirror facing a mirror.

[@DMTInfinity]

@@jellydee123 Equals A Visual Representation Of Infinity.

[@lovestardustxxgemxx9655]

He's actually spot on with some of his information

[@dennisallard120]

Lovestardust, I hope you can be open minded to the idea that my brother's beliefs about the Masons and the Illuminati and his antisemitic attitude are all the result of his thinking being affected by his mental breakdown.

[@scakes77]

My brother was schizophrenic, he died about 10 years ago. I belive for him, drug use triggerd his psychotic episodes. After his illegal drug use he was never the same. Was your brother ever on drugs( if you don't mind me asking) ?

[@americana1234]

Diana Dudley That would be an important study. I wonder also.

[@jjii7426]

M'y bro schizo he abuse all the type of drugs before thé disease (alcohol_weed_benzo_parkinson meds)

[@BlackWolf11]

This is actually really interesting.

[@twinboost]

He is spot on on a number of things.

[@thomasnever2552]

Write it down as an endless stream of free flowing consciousness woven into a Möbius string pattern and you got a modern novel worthy of the Pulitzer.

[@double_uoglobe]

Thomas Never is that finnegans wake

[@winehousted90]

How is he doing now ???? I’d really like to know

[@e3ovuziotica]

I feel schizophrenia is like being emotionally excrutiatingly sensitive of everything and having real troubles in discerning between things. Mixed up. But their sensitivity is a gift to themselves and the world if one learns (with help when needed) to heal oneself (without medication) as schizophrenics are natural rebels towards authrorities as they sense the dishonesty in current established authorities who are insensitive to them and also describe medication that hinders their ability to heal themselves.

[@dennisallard120]

e3ovuziotica My brother becomes completely unable to function when off his meds. I agree he is excrutiatingly sensitive of the ills of society, but that alone does not get anywhere near explaining his thought processes and behavior.

[@e3ovuziotica]

Dennis, I would have to agree here just because when the situation is acute (uncontrollable) so meds can be useful on critical situations. Their long term effects (side-effects, changing brain chemistry all the time by changing the meds. I would think the amount matters a lot too. Fewer the better) are not good at all and alternative information about this would be wise to research. It is a lot of work. Waning off the drugs is difficult and surely dangerous when not done properly. Being in nature is good, somewhere where there are no other people and machines. Animals too. All the best, my original comment was a bit too emotional as each situation and individual is different (and delicate).

[@Adotp-]

Can you post any other videos of your brother? I find him fascinating. Read all your blogs as well hope he's doing well.

[@dennisallard120]

I do not yet have other videos of my brother Tony. When he is released from Atascadero State Hospital hopefully some time this year, I will ask if he wants to make some more videos. He is very stable now so will hopefully be back to freedom soon (and stay on his meds, which he says he will although he has a history of going off of them).

[@herewegokids7]

"Was that a yes or a no? " LOL

[@andrewharman8712]

God bless you sir

[@jinglebells3323]

This is the most accurate description of a skitsophrenic Their is a confusion here a severly outdated method of classification i think

[@1luving]

I work on the psychiatric unit of a nursing facility, and the majority of the residents have a schizophrenia diagnosis. I am very curious as to why medication refusal is so common with this population. Most of the residents who become well enough to return to the community eventually end up back at the nursing home because they stopped taking their meds. We even have issues with some long term residents. I am really curious as to why that is so common.

[@Kyle-ik6rn]

As someone who is a Paranoid Schizophrenic. I could tell you there are many reasons people stop taking there medications. For me the longest i have gone with out taking my medication since i finally accepted that I am a schizophrenic is barley 10 days and that was because I ran out of pills. As of lately I have been wanting to stop taking my medication because the medication has side effects i have been on many type of anti psychotics and they all have side effects mainly for me is I sleep 12 to 16 hours a day and I forget alot of things and at times I dont feel like im really me anymore. when i recently went 10 days with out my medication I felt free agian free to think how i want to and free to be me agian. I know there are many other reasons people don't take there med's such as Paranoia and lack of understanding about there illness. I recently watched a documentary on recovering with out medication and it is possible to recover with out medication. So it's something I am looking in to. I hope this helps understand.

[@1luving]

kyle Woods Thank you so much for sharing your personal story. Many of the people I work with also complain about the side effects. While medications do work to a degree, I truly feel that there has to be something better. I wish you the best on your journey to wellness!

[@justinmccabe7613]

I got prescribed Abilify, it made me so uncomfortable like the boundaries of my skin dissolved into bugs or something... It made me feel 5x more fucked up than without them. It was for OCD and it just made my addictions worse. Also though as someone who is developing signs of schizophrenia, and after looking at this guy (so sample size of 2), it seems like I share a common feeling of victimization with this guy, like nothing is his responsibility (paying for lunch/meds, respecting his brother), and I deceive my self a lot which it seems like this guy does too. I could totally see his issue being that he is so grandiose in order to deny his inner truth to people. As for medication it would make sense that they could deny it because they know deep down they don't really need it, they just don't want to take responsibility for that truth so they become a victim. I.e. "i'm too messed up I'll never survive out there waahhh pick me up mommy". I don't know what other schizophrenics are like so maybe just ignore this.

[@1luving]

Justin McCabe No, thank you for sharing your story! I would never ignore a comment from someone with first hand experience. The more insight the better. I wish you the best :-)

[@abijahdixon2771]

I don't have SZ but I don't like how many of the side effects make me feel. I go from normal with some mania or depression, to being tired and hungry all the time. Also, some of the side effects can really do harm to your body. Also the medication I was taken could have killed me, maybe not but it warned against people with certain medical history to not take that medication. I didn't even know that till I got my perscription and read the side effects. It also took a couple days to get my diabetic diet fixed, by that time the stuff they gave me seemed like crap compared to what I was eating before that..Sometimes people do need to be on medication, sometimes not, some people should be on it all the time. I think doctors and staff need to listen to the patients more. Tho I do understand to a point, it can be hard to get people to open up or behave at times. I went in last time because of so much stress in my life, and when I came out I decided it was better than being in the hospital. I got a restraing order on my ex on my own, with some help, no one in the hospital would help me get away from my ext and even got on my case about it without hearing my side of the story. Someday I'd like to help those in the pych ward when I am ready to deal with people...

[@lalaaddas6363]

It's clear you love him, I hope your well😉

[@orangeOHJAY]

LSD can actually induce states somewhat similar to schizophrenia, in my experience.

[@orangeOHJAY]

No, I'm not schizophrenic. However, LSD induces states of temporary psychosis which is a symptom of schizophrenia. Obviously I will never completely understand what it's like, but again someone who's tried large doses of LSD probably has experienced a state somewhat similar to it.

[@Swurveitup]

In my first and only trip, I took 4 tabs of LSD, and smoked some pot roughly 2 hours into the trip. After I smoked, the trip (which was already to the extreme) took a turn for the worst. I experienced some things (delusions, and hallucinations) that have changed me forever, definitely for the worst. I even momentarily depersonalized while gazing into the abyss of my own mind while staring in awe at my bathroom mirror. I heard a man in his 40s laughing, I saw a woman in the CIA standing outside of my window whistling in a tune that was sending me secret messages and rewiring my brain as a mind experiment being performed by a part of the intelligence community so secretive they're not even classed as part of the U.S. Government. I have been hearing footsteps behind me everytime i go outside, and the lady in the CIA consistently comes to my window to whistle the tunes that are sending me deeper into the abyss. My family is working for them (unknowingly), they are being manipulated and controlled, they blackout and spy on me at all times of the day. I know these are delusions and not real at this point in time, but there are times when I'm not so sure. Then there are the times when im 100% positive. For the past few weeks I've been trapped in a hell that is inexplicable, and I think it was more than likely induced by LSD, and heavy marijuanas use prior to that. I've not seen a doctor or told anyone, out of fear my last feeling of sanity will be stripped from me when they institutionalize me.

[@orangeOHJAY]

Yup. That shit happens. Time will help.

[@americana1234]

Swurveitup no, they probably will just tell you take an aspirin and more sleep.. (and maybe some clonipin?)

[@AbneyParkFan]

Was he born this way? or did he suffer a brain injury? I hope he gets the help he needs. My sister works in a mental hospital, I hear stories about these people.

[@albill66]

My brother has paranoid schizophrenia and he is extremely intelligent. He can make anything sound believable, like when your brother was mentioning Charlie Chaplin being a mason... (for a second I was thinking - was Charlie really a mason?!) my brother is almost 30. Someone asked earlier if you think your brother's illness has decreased or increased over time. Would love to hear what you have to say. Thank you and god bless

[@JungleJargon]

"I take the fifth." - LOL!

[@imjustin8404]

I dont know. I like him.

[@RobynR000]

He's right about the respridol medicine not working. He seems smart but very paranoid. I hope he is better now.

[@dennisallard120]

I realized this morning after a phone call with my brother that I have not updated the column where I write about his situation (goo.gl/dPyTBN) in nearly four years. Hence I should add a chapter that explains how my brother was convicted and incarcerated for keying a car and, subsequently, making threatening phone calls using a phone in the psychiatric hospital where he was being held while being "restored to competency to stand trial" for the vandalism case. I will add that chapter in the near future. For now... Briefly, my brother has been incarcerated now for almost four years after being convicted on charges of vandalism and criminal threats. He has never harmed a soul but he's a big guy and can be intimidating. He is in a special ward in the prison(s) where he is housed and receives meds and counseling. I communicate with him by phone from time to time so can gauge his state of mind. For many months he will be very stable, coherent, and seem able to discuss his own condition. Yet, at times over the past few years, he will digress and seem unable to perceive his situation. He was due to be released last week but was instead transferred up to Atascadero State Hospital (ASH). He called me this morning. From the phone conversation, I realize that he is currently somewhat manic and has very limited perception of his own condition. He was at ASH once before during a previous incarceration and when released back to liberty at that time, was very perceptive and insightful about his state of mind. I hold out some hope that that could happen again, but it's rough. I don't know where he'll end up if a way cannot be found to keep him taking his meds. He has two strikes. A future third felony strike (on simple vandalism charges) would send him up back prison for much of the rest of his life..

[@JustMeDG]

My Heart is with you!!! There are no words!

[@lesterclaypool1]

Dennis Allard I hope that your brother continues outpatient with Atascadero when he's released. It's his best chance as far as a hospital and staff go.

[@BasaBoi]

Dennis Allard Dealing with the same thing with my little brother. I understand your hoping that a linear mind is within your brother somewhere. I hope the best for your brother and yourself. God bless you both.

[@heinzhutson1578]

I met this guy on Ventura ....He is actually very intelligent

[@trevorjameson3213]

Yes, he is. Maybe he's right about what he is saying?

[@dennisallard120]

He is very very bright. But even that intelligence cannot overcome the imagined realities.

[@michaelblankenau6598]

He picks up on the b.s. mannerisms of his brother and is probably a few steps ahead of him .

[@dennisallard120]

Please read other comments here by people who understand how I am trying to help my brother.

[@dooalot]

New fave saying- I dont care to remember. and Lets go have lunch.

[@HoosierIUSB]

Hi Dennis, my name is Ed Francell, "recovered" bipolar patient (28 meds, many hospitalizations). We have a group that posts on Facebook called "Treatment before Tragedy" which is advocating for HR 3717. Would be honored if you join us :-)

[@umaxen01]

The brother is an AO. What you're doing is treating your brother as if he is "normal". They are NOT normal. Your questioning and implicating behavior does NOTHING to help them relax. The best thing for you to do? Become a "YES MAN", make sure he takes his meds and bring him food. It will help him relax.

[@rajeevdogra1608]

delusional perception is first rank symptom in schizophrenia other are hallucination & thought alienation.i liked this vedio

[@drinkinganddiying9068]

Did you show him this vid later when he was back on his meds? If so what was his reaction?

[@dennisallard120]

Tony has seen the video and is fine with it being public. When he gets out of Atascadero State Hospital (June or July 2015) he plans to respond to questions and comments himself. He is unable to do that now since Internet access is not available to patients who are incarcerated at ASH. He also would like to do a follow up interview which will also be done sometime in the summer of 2015.

[@Catfishrah]

Dennis Allard I wasn't bringing to question your character for posting this (unlike the many other children before me). I am more interested in what his reaction to it was when he was in his right mind later. I'm glad you posted this- it showed me what an unmedicated scizophrenic is actually like.

[@abijahdixon2771]

Dennis Allard Can you do written questions and answers for him?

[@dennisallard120]

Yes. It is hard to do that via this so-called "social media" crap (FaceBook, G+, KZbin). Please contact me directly at [e-mail].

[@steveflorez4926]

I stopped taking remeron abilify and ativan and I feel great

[@BrittMoiseBRITT]

I am sorry to see or read tell your brother has been incarcerated. as one woman said my heart also goes out to you. i to suffer with a brother who suffers more from the brain disorder schizophrenia. please forgive me in the fact that I quickly judged your interaction with your brother as being rude and not very understanding or empathetic. I apologize for this because for further looking into this and reading your update I realize you are frustrated and trying to protect him and wake him up into reality. I remember those days. now sometimes I lose his reality with him my brother as if it's real and we live in harmony that's more than before. I realize I can do this now because he is not violent or dangerous to himself or others as he was before The Amazing drugs clozaril. but changed my brother's life like night and day. my brother has knocked me tooth out, threatened to kill me and hated me when he became symptom Matic of schizophrenia. it was painful to see and it was also scary for me. it was quite scary for him for us to see him and wonder if he might not end up n jail or prison I think God yes not so far and I do not think he will as I used to worry. we can live together now in harmony for the last 10 years. change is due to clozaril it gave him his personality and life back. So many people don't know about this pharmaceutical drug or how to get this pharmaceutical drugs without someone advocating for them. it helps a massive amount of people who suffer from schizophrenia. my heart truly goes out to you and I pray for you and your brother. as I'm sure you sound like a caring man and I apologize for my quick judgement and I actually flag you listening to your video. I am so sorry please forgive me my only suggestion is to write the judge a few times to try and enlighten him and assume he knows nothing of the disorder schizophrenia. I get him some background and any Dr for friends for references. judges do not understand this tragic physical neurological brain disorder.. Good lucky and again I am sorry for my quick judgement I was totally wrong

[@DisturbeD802]

That is really sad

[@youngchocolate4274]

I see you ma boy flexxin with that stack

[@DMTInfinity]

*

[@browneyes4188]

My brother has this and he stays on his medication but I think it should be upped. He makes me angry and some days it is hard to be compassionate. He is also a little slow so convincing him not to be paranoid is almost impossible.

[@rigoauebreturns]

What a lovely guy!

[@RaferJeffersonIII]

The sentences make sense and then spiral in every direction, what I'm saying is you can see intelligence there in the storytelling, but it goes nowhere. I hope your bro gets better man, I wish you both all the best.

[@Wefoundwaldo92]

Does medication completely fix him? After not being able to answer the question straight, he finally admitted to not taking his pills when he was locked up. He clearly needs supervision and needs to have his tongue thoroughly checked for hiding pills so he doesn't spit them out like he admitted. Is there anyway you guys can perhaps mix the drugs in pudding or ice cream? We did that with my grandmother who suffered from dementia.

[@michaelblankenau6598]

Yea... Medicate someone without their knowledge . Are you aware of the side effects these drugs can cause ? Many people who suffer from schizophrenia stop taking these " meds ". Perhaps they have good reasons .

[@dennisallard120]

Chandler, no medication does not "completely fix him". According to my brother, even when he is on meds, he still has some delusions and paranoia, although at a much reduced level. There is no known cure of his condition. Also, one one of the reasons my brother Tony does not like meds is that, as he puts it, it dulls his thinking. And,, drugs like Haldol cause him to have tremors in his hands. Not fun being afflicted by whatever it is that happened to my brother 35 years ago now. Tony is currently incarcerated for somewhat minor offense involving taking a car that was not his for a joy ride. Due to his repeat offenses, ,he ends up being arrested and staying a jail or a mental institution frequently. I talk with him quite a bit by phone, every week or two. On meds his is completely coherent and cogent and does not go into raves like he does when off meds. The next time he is release back to society I still hope he will consider doing a follow up to this interview of 2009, kind of a 12 years later thing.

[@wireboar7321]

@@dennisallard120 very much looking forward to it man

[@umaxen01]

Yepp, this will happen if they refuse to take their meds. At least he's in a place where he is forced to take his meds. Someone like him should have always been on a monthly shot. I'd talk to the court to get him either monthly shots or long term implanted medication.

[@dennisallard120]

In the past my ability to "talk to the court" as you suggest has been nearly non-existant. You can't just go to a judge and talk to the judge. You have to go to the DA or the Public Defender and that only during a trial. I will try to contact his parole officer when he gets out though.

[@johnt.wolfbanger5731]

Resperdal is good shit. We give it to my son and it stops his meltdowns very quickly. He is not schizophrenic, but has OCD with some very strong obsessive delusions. Also on the autism spectrum, as am I. I am 65, he is 18. Can't physically handle him anymore.

[@umaxen01]

Why don't you ask your brother's Psychiatrist about the monthly injection he can get? He won't have to worry about meds for a whole month...

[@dennisallard120]

He normally does not give permission for me to speak with his psychiatrists. However, since he has just been transferred to ASH and a recent phone call with him tells me he is decompensating, I am going to make an effort to communicate with them (as I have sometimes been able to do in the past). As for injections, I believe that requires a court order. In any case, he has seen over 50 different psychiatrists over the years. I assume that most of them are competent. Personally, I think that when someone such as my brother gets to the state he is in, there should be legal means to require them to receive medication. That is harsh but I have been driven to that belief by the events involving my brother over the past 25 years.

[@B60IN3]

Why post this? How is this going help him?

[@dennisallard120]

That question comes up and has been addressed. First, as hundreds of comment here attest to, there is a need to have a more open discussion of the issue of mental illness. My brother is OK with this being public and if you wish to write to him at Atascadero State Hospital, I will forward his address to you with my brother's permission. He has stated that he would like to correspond with anyone interested.

[@MrYovillehacker]

Dennis Allard This is actually cool, I get to see different perspective, get to listen to him and how he respond and his subconscious.

[@iamtherealrenedescartes]

Dennis Allard How is he doing now? Also, when did this develop and how has the disease progressed over the course of time? Would you say better or worse?

[@cmp2nite2]

this man is on to something meds can be shit. However abilify is the best one. So hes on to something. Abilify is way better than the other meds. Its unreal. It hits on dopamine and serotonin receptors. And its a partial agonist. So its supposed to combat negative symptoms. More so than other ones. I also think it has alpha 1 antagonist properties to help regulate mood. The other meds can offer something different though.........everyones unique.

[@cleanhippy]

The interviewer being the brother doesnt really understand his brother, and is stuck within his own ideas about how a person should respond and behave. The fact is he is irritating this man. This man is perfectly fine and appears to be of no threat to anyone, and clearly understands his constitutional rights to answer questions he wants and elude questions he doesn't. He's not under any obligation to this man and his responses are all within his rights. You cant force someone to take medication, it's fucked up. ya he's a little quirky, but think about this he's not pestering you, he's not trying to force you to take medication, I have no doubt that you don't understand what the medication is or what it actually does to him. Nobody is forcing you to take meds. Getting off powerful medications like these is difficult. all the while people trying to force you to act/behave a certain way. You can't expect someone to be normal. There are major adjustment periods inbetween getting on, adjusting to, and getting off of meds. And once you've been experienced the level of malnutrition this man has from being in jail for so long. there becomes almost no hope that anyone will ever help you to regenerate. You are a fucking asshole for treating this man the way. You could have taken a different approach to helping your brother. imo you're just a crazy as you think he is. This is a good man, who's being and been violated by an unjust system, that will never allow him to recover. you dont fucking know what goes on behind those bars. and this is outrageous. I dont care what "vandalistic" charges this man has. He's acting out because no-one is paying him any kind of decency.

[@dennisallard120]

cleanhippy suggests that I do not "really understand" my brother. Yeah, right. I am one of the only people who has stuck by my brother for over 30 years since he had his break down. When off his meds he has threatened the lives of people and done enormous amounts of property damage, in addition to being nearly impossible to be around. Please read the blog associated with this post which includea excerpts of my brother's own writing and extensive summaries of what he and those close to him have been through all caused by his mental condition. The medicines he has taken off and on over the years have been the only thing that has enabled him to function in society. He is currently iincarcerated at Atascadero State Mental hospital on parole after having served four years on a second strike felony conviction of vandalism and criminal threats. He is now stable, on meds, and says he plans to continue taking the meds once he is released which may happen later this year.

[@bryia7742]

Dennis Allard You shouldn't have to explain yourself to people who don't even know you personally smh. There's a lot of negative comments on here but you handle them well. Keep up the good work with standing by your brother world needs more of ya.

[@justonefyx]

8:30 That part of the video should be clipped and memed.

[@umaxen01]

I'm on your brothers side. If he gets the meds he needs, he'll be even more normal than you are...

[@dennisallard120]

Man you are clueless. Read some of the 1200 comments here, many by people who know what they are talking about. We (me and my brother's friends) have tried to help him for nearly 25 years. I have written six chapters in a blog about his situation and what we've tried to do to help out. See the URL posted above with this video (goo.gl/ExZQKm), read those blog posts, including writing by my own brother (goo.gl/Ev0RAA) and then you might understand better what we've tried and how little change there is that he will ever be "normal".

[@vittoriacongiu2252]

What if what he is blabbering is actually really happening? What if outside influences are causing his so called schizo rages?????????????? He is "suffering"

[@dennisallard120]

It's not really happening. But he cannot be aware of that. So it is tragic.

[@dxj8625]

Just one internet junkies' opinion, and obviously I don't know your experience, your brother's experience, and\or anything going in in your family, so please don't take this as some kind of attack. I'm just a random guy on the outside looking in on this one video. Dude, that was awfully direct. Borderline confrontational at times. I think it might benefit both yourself and your brother to don kids' gloves next time.

[@dxj8625]

I just read more of the comments in this thread, and I guess I have to retract what I said. You're being an amazing brother. I didn't realize when I made my post that this video was something the two of you were doing so that he could see how he is when he's off his meds. My heart is out to the both of you. I'd rather face cancer than losing my mind.

[@usslongbeachcg9]

this guys pretty funny!

[@13thREVOLUZION]

OK FORGET YOU JUST WATCHED THIS, you just finished downloading this new movie. you start to watch this movie, it is set in a parallel universe to our own around about the same time we live in. It is based largely on a guy that is trying to live and survive with the struggles of modern society but is also torn between his ideological beliefs and the world he born to. This is a world of deceit, post world war two the Zionists and the Freemasons had set about a 'new world order.' this wasn't about world domination it wasnt about controlling the hearts and minds of people world wide. It split the world into factions those 'who arent' , 'those who arent but know' , and those who 'are.' The Zionist and Freemasons had created a form of duel communication known as the game, where they spoke in two languages one of the verbal and one of the body. the guy is sitting there talking to his brother who he suspects of being a mason who is sent to spy on him. the masons label people' who aren't but know' about 'the game' as schizophrenic which the people 'who aren't' believe they have a mental illness when really they know about the biggest cover up in human history. 'THE GAME ,AND THE DUAL LANGUAGE'. now with that characters scenario in mind compare his reality to yours and imagine trying to have a conversation and him thinking you were a freemason.

[@dennisallard120]

The point to this video was exactly to show that it is futile to have a rationale conversation with my brother when he is off his meds.

[@13thREVOLUZION]

was just trying to give other people a different way of understanding his thought process. iv been around alot of schizophrenic people who are unwell or off meds and your right it is futile to have rational conversations with them but its amazing to see them become well, they are almost like different people. i also admire your patients with him. we need more people in this world like you who are tolerant and accepting to people with mental illness's.

[@bnlang898]

The brother filming this is going about it all wrong

[@dennisallard120]

Brian Lang: I am the brother. You don't get it. The point to this interview was to make a recording that my brother could later view to gain an appreciation of his own behavior when off meds as well as to document what it is like to try to converse with a sibling (or friend) who has bipolar or schizophrenic thinking. BTW, of all his friends I am the one who has, over the years, done the most in an attempt to help my brother. It has not been easy although for the past four years he has been incarcerated (see:

[@TheRosemontag]

Dennis Allard Hey Dennis I'm curious about schizophrenic thinking. So I see that you're telling your brother about his real life, helping to jog his memory of whats real right? I can see you're patient with him.

[@13thREVOLUZION]

Dennis Allard I wish i could film you, and then force you to take his meds for 3 months and then film you again and see how different you feel. At least he is being himself despite the paranoid delusion that you are a Freemason sending him signals though body language, you probably associate him with those anti capitalistic and communistic beliefs or thoughts he has as delusions when they are very real thoughts and feelings to him possibly. On the other hand i do see your perspective as i have bipolar 1 (thats with that occasional manic symptoms for the dummies) and some traits of schizo-effective disorder (which is symptoms which are close to schizophrenia but not as extreme) ; when im unwell im almost exactly like that and at the drop of a hat ill put my fists through the wall. It gets scary though when im like that because i cant make sense of whats going on you feel like im being persecuted, followed, watched, people can hear your thoughts etc. makes horror films look like the tali tubes. its your worst night mare come true and your frightened, intimidated and scared and the feelings thoughts dont stop/; you cant sleep because your so paranoid till the point you loose touch with all reality. and then you will either end up killing yourself if your not already dead or heavily sedated in a psychiatric hospital.

[@tanyastevens9553]

13thREVOLUZION well said. Way to speak up for someone in need and to understand others.

[@rachelautumn]

make more videos!

[@star.light.ls.]

Is this guy pretending? Ugh. That's what it looks like to me.

[@gizmo3714]

No he is not

[@Audrianna11]

What gives you the impression he is faking? I’m not asking In an argumentative way I am honestly quite curious what gave you the impression it is an act??

[@frankierichardson1203]

This is disgusting. How could you video your brother like this. Truly repulsive.

[@dennisallard120]

If you read through the many comments below you will see many who have relatives with similar condition and who appreciate the care and help I have given to my brother over many years. This video was done spontaneously and was the idea of my brother himself as a form of video therapy.

[@frankierichardson1203]

@@dennisallard120 thanks for your reply. I did not understand the context of this video at first. Many thanks

[@justinmccabe7613]

Is it just me or does schizophrenia seem like the ultimate self-denial and victim complex?

[@MFKR696]

No. Schizophrenia is the loss of ability to determine reality from fiction. Just read up on it. It's not like the info isn't readily available.

[@justinmccabe7613]

INF1D3L010 do you have it?

[@MFKR696]

Justin McCabe I do not. I've taken courses on this shit, though.

[@justinmccabe7613]

***** oh ok

[@justinmccabe7613]

INF1D3L010 Yeah but whats the cause of the delusion? Clearly it must come from inside and be manifested in related behaviours, no? A reason to say no to reality if you don't like how it is? No I don't know much about the research on the subject, I'm just extrapolating from what I've seen and from personal experience.

[@MT-oj5ru]

His face is normal. He was once normal until poisoned by psychiatrists. Using chemicals, psychiatrists can make anyone schizophrenic and they’re doing it all the time.

[@DennisAllard]

His condition existed for a long time before he took meds and meds are the only thing that have enabled him to lead anything approaching a normal life. ALL of his friends and relatives would tell you that.

[@iwackadoodleyourmarbles9220]

Your comment sounds like a scientology chant to me.....

[@dennisallard120]

Yes, scientologists have no clue what science is. They are like hypnotized sheep.

[@EddieG1888]

@@iwackadoodleyourmarbles9220 I was just about to say the exact same thing. The irony of a cult that decries psychiatric care and medication, when their founder was screaming for it, and abusing prescription meds his whole adult life. www.spaink.net/cos/LRH-bio/psych.gif