One of my best friends since middle school was widowed at 27. I was the photographer for their wedding and had known her husband since our freshman year of college. I was there for the birth of their first (of two) daughters. It rocked everyone around us. It’s been 5 years this fall and still doesn’t even feel real sometimes. But we don’t avoid saying his name or talking about him, as we want to keep his memory alive and honor him even if it’s uncomfortable. You’re a strong woman, Eden. Thank goodness you have the support system you have and your family has stepped in so much. John would be so proud of you for everything you’ve done to continue living after he passed.