Antonio Cipriano - "Requiem" (Dear Evan Hansen; Benj Pasek & Justin Paul)

PRONOUN SHOWDOWN
December 2, 2018 - Live at Feinstein's/54 Below
Lyric Changes by Kimberly Jenna Simon and Abby DePhillips
Musical Direction & Arrangement by Benjamin Rauhala
Produced and Conceived by Abby DePhillips & Kimberly Jenna Simon
Pronoun Showdown is a concert series at Feinstein’s/54 Below that explores what happens when you flip the pronouns in well-known songs!
Filmed & Edited by FAMOUS IN NY - famousinny.com

[@shofisstar]

Hearing this from connors perspective it’s really sad because that’s the way he thought of himself: not worth fighting for, not worthy of his family’s love, not worth crying over even after he’s gone

[@meatymaggot]

Yeah man, I always knows my eyes are gonna get teary when it's in Conners view. Even if it's not entirely in the musical.

[@Victoria-_]

It had me SOBBING

[@makenahopp1630]

Imagine a duet where both connor and zoe sing requiem from their perspectives

[@TehTeh911]

Saaaame

[@elven-magic-rules2356]

I need this now

[@dianadamore1476]

Can this happen

[@tatepetter]

Petition for this to happen in the movie someday

[@makenahopp1630]

@@tatepetter oh my jesus yes

[@gabblanke6678]

I wish there was a Connor perspective song in DEH that would just be another moment the show would make me cry and I’m there for it

[@yogurtyearner]

Hopefully they'll add one in the movie. Musical movies often add new songs. Just hopefully it's a good song and is sung by a decent singer. All too often movie musicals have pretty bad singers.

[@carissaperez8924]

I think they originally had a Connor perspective song but cut it. I could be wrong though

[@yogurtyearner]

@@carissaperez8924 I believe the closest is Little Bit of Light, showing more insight into Connor's past. Aside from that there isn't any song for Connor. Much less a solo song that we so desperately need him to have.

[@wickedbitch1334]

The dear Evan Hansen book shows Connors perspective as well as Evan's, and man I bawled like a baby

[@pineapple__kidd5720]

In the book they have parts in Connors perspective and it’s really fucking depressing

[@kieramcj8784]

this version makes me desperately wish for an argument-style angry duet

[@marinarasauce5701]

YESYESYES

[@eikesvendsen5816]

My School made one😅😂

[@chaystudent7501]

@@eikesvendsen5816 Where's the video, we evidently need this.

[@yogurl5366]

CONNER'S REQUIEM LOOK IT UP. It's hella good

[@chaystudent7501]

@@yogurl5366 the one by Benjamin Callins I assume you mean.

[@girlonabookshelf4922]

I love Connor’s perspective with this flipped narrative. Telling his sister that he understands why she’s apprehensive and doesn’t want to mourn him that he knows he’s done wrong by her and it’s kind of his way of apologising to her and it’s really sweet and sad 💙😢

[@miaalondras.1610]

The climax build up at 2:30 and after with the “I AM NOT THE MONSTER... that you knew” that right there chills literal chills

[@virgillefort256]

this is somehow more heartbreaking from connor’s perspective.

[@ainsleyking7372]

Hello there Fander

[@xochitl8071]

Yes (taken by your pfp ) its is an *infinetesimal* amout of non broken hearts with this version

[@virgillefort256]

@@ainsleyking7372 hello fellow fander!

[@virgillefort256]

@@xochitl8071 haha

[@virgillefort256]

all of my comments on this account are getting attention tf

[@its_haturday]

We deserved a Connor solo 💔

[@ConnorHgn]

Agreed

[@mysterysunfurled]

TOTALLY ANOTHER REASON I'LL NEVER FULLY LIKE DEH

[@beckemmen9702]

@@mysterysunfurled what are the other reasons?

[@mysterysunfurled]

@@beckemmen9702 oh man I could write a whole essay on this, but I'm lazy so, let's just say I'm not fond of the plot and the main character (yes, I dislike evan)

[@beckemmen9702]

@@mysterysunfurled fair enough- i can see where you're coming from i guess

[@lexiv8194]

The little voice break on “dark” at 3:16 hurts me

[@alexramos2183]

Lexi V it hurts all of us

[@brookedowd7747]

hearing this song from connor murphy’s perspective!!! amazing!!!

[@kezziahvalentino2450]

Brooke D you mean Evan’s version of Connor? Because we don’t really know if he’s really a nice guy behind hos asshole demeanour.

[@pofols]

yes yes yes

[@rubyhunt7108]

@@kezziahvalentino2450 i think it's connor connor. But both Evan's Connor and the original Connor would feel bad. In the novel it goes a little more into depth, but it's almost like he refused to think of the bad memories and only listened to the good memories, like when she kept hi, train for his swim meets ect.

[@hannahwatterson2941]

EVER SINCE DEAR EVAN HANSEN CAME OUT I HAVE SAID THAT FOR FOREVER SHOULD HAVE BEEN A DUET BETWEEN EVAN AND CONNOR AND I'VE SAID THAT CONNOR NEEDED A REPRISED VERSION OF WAVING THROUGH A WINDOW OR REQUIEM… THANK YOU ANTONIO FOR MAKING ONE OF THESE DREAMS COME TRUE!!!!!!!

[@brennanbeach6984]

I don’t understand why this isn’t like a reprise for the original.

[@esmealisia5711]

It's Connors perspective

[@gavinwingfield4534]

Esme Alisia obviously

[@ameliahaynes-standeven5284]

Famous in NY has a series called "Pronoun Showdown" where they reverse the roles of the songs, usually with the person singing it being the person it's originally about, e.g. Alexander singing "Burn" from his perspective, Kathy singing "If I Didn't Believe in You" from her perspective, the princesses in Into the Woods singing "Agony", etc. This rendition is part of that series.

[@malunafinol7930]

I think maybe because the ghost of connor never speaks or really appears in the show

[@catalinadog157]

@@malunafinol7930 Because this song's from the book

[@oaklander2991]

It’s like Conner is saying “I don’t deserve your love, don’t mourn me. I don’t cry much, but...😭😭😭.

[@Ashleyqueen]

I dont ever comment on videos, but this needed saying. His voice and endless emotion are so wonderfully overwhelming. This is yet more proof of how beautiful music is!

[@judahcatherine]

👏LET👏ANTONIO👏PLAY👏EVAN👏ALREADY👏WE’RE👏ALL👏WAITING👏

[@melloheya]

Judah Neese Yeah but they did just announce the new Evan and he’s pretty amazing

[@glynsbackhanspring]

You mean connor

[@jtlanglas9607]

Glynnis The Menace yea I agree he’d totally be an amazing Connor... maybe not so much Evan

[@judahcatherine]

JT Langlas wait have you guys not seen his versions of Words Fail or For Forever cause they had me SHOOK

[@jtlanglas9607]

Judah Neese ummmm nOOOO I kinda need that in my life now tho

[@itsjohnny4267]

What an artist! He chose when to use straight tone and vibrato to convey crying and immense emotion in the perfect parts of the song

[@estel-randir]

This is the song of every time teenage me attempted suicide, every night I wanted to die. This is perfection. Oh my heart.

[@kat_lynn_b3315]

I'm glad you're still here.

[@Megulator2]

From someone else who has also been there, I hear you. We're both still here, but man did this bring me to tear. Stay strong.

[@kayla101010100]

You mean so much on this earth. So glad you're still here.

[@maddyburton3272]

The universe gives it's toughest battles to it's strongest soldiers xx

[@ilinzrh]

I'm super glad you're still here!

[@Michelle-gv9og]

I feel like if Connor was the one singing "Requiem" in the original it would be even more emotional 'cause we all know that they weren't the closest siblings and his version is like an apology "I know I wasn't the best brother so please don't cry over me"

[@trailingstardust2333]

this song is the reason that pronoun showdown is my favorite

[@reinellbleuladera2972]

The change of perspective gave me more chills!!!! Amazinggg

[@isabellapedersen6032]

Man requiem always makes me emotional but from Conners perspective I am fully crying

[@tzinacantli]

Why would you play this game of pretend? Remembering through a secondhand sorrow? Such a great son and wonderful friend Oh, don't the tears just pour You could curl up and hide in your room There in your bed, still sobbing tomorrow You could give in to all of the gloom But tell me, tell me what for Why should you have a heavy heart? Why should you start to break in pieces? Why should you go and fall apart for me? Why would you play the grieving girl and lie Saying that you miss me And that your world has gone dark without my light you should sing no requiem tonight I was the flood that swallowed you whole Refusing the love you endlessly gave me I was a fire out of control, a flame that couldn't be tamed Why should you have a heavy heart? Why should you say you'll keep me with you? Why should you go and fall apart for me? Why should you play the grieving girl and lie Saying that you miss me and that your world has gone dark without my light? You should sing no requiem Tonight 'Cause when the villains fall, the kingdoms never weep No one lights a candle to remember No, no one mourns at all When they lay them down to sleep So, I won't tell you that you didn't have it right I won't tell you that it wasn't black and white After all I put you through I won't say it wasn't true That I was not the monster That you knew 'Cause why would you play the grieving girl and lie Saying that you miss me And that your world has gone dark You should sing no requiem You should sing no requiem tonight Oh, oh, oh Oh, oh

[@jamieyoung1255]

Thank you so muuchhh

[@StarAWings]

The part where he sings about the villains falling and no one lights a candle and being the monster they knew... It's heart breaking. It's like he is screaming how he does not deserve their love and sadness... the way he sings it... like he is blaming himself. That he is not worthy of their love.

[@sintupperware1522]

BYE I LOVE THIS SHOW SO MUCH

[@disneyfan6268]

Ok no. This is just so sad! Shows how Connor saw himself. It’s so sad. I always feel/felt bad for Connor. And just in general ppl who see themselves like this. Who kill themselves it so devastated that ppl go through stuff like this. This show is so amazing in that aspect. It shines light on the struggles kids go through. And it’s truly beautiful. I love this show so much.

[@ChaunceyS]

This is what it sounds like when my depression starts taking over my thoughts. I never really realized it until hearing it coming from someone else, how incredibly heart breaking it sounds.

[@charlotterose6669]

Literally

[@kuhnuckles1]

I didn’t think my heart could be more broken from this show. But just switch the pronouns around and I’m in pieces 😭

[@qlachlan05]

0:45-0:56 heart? broken tears? flowing emotion? sadness hotel? trivago

[@emma-tw6gi]

ONE WORD: *V I B R A T O* 😍👌

[@Somniatica]

I was in opera choir with this guy. I'm living the dream y'all. One of my friends/accuaintences is famous.

[@sedonajones]

Honestly I never cry when seeing creative pieces like this, but I did lose a tear or two because I think this resonates with a little part of everyone. Please take the 4 minutes out of you day to listen to this❤️

[@twizzlers52]

The version we didn't know was needed. Hopefully they add something like this in the movie or have an official cover/duet

[@archer_grayson_5634]

This changes the entire atmosphere of the song and it’s beautiful

[@starproductions4437]

That broken "That you knew" made me cry

[@carlyjordyn3035]

chills.

[@charit3499]

this perspective breaks my heart.... i can't...

[@zoe-maychamberlain994]

oh gosh why am i crying so much

[@Aleckey1000]

Chills and Tears. I’m just sobbing in my room. I love this so much.

[@MableJoiNunez]

i was in a toxic relationship and a little after i ended it he passed away and this is really hitting that spot wow.

[@levidodson1610]

I've been pulverized emotionally

[@royalcryptid9983]

Okay so for context purposes: in the DEH book we find out Connor had actually never threatened to kill Zoe. He also didn't understand why she had said that. Though not an antagonist, he still recognized he was a jerk to her, and felt guilty about it. Yes, he was unstable because of his BPD, but Connor wasn't a violent person (he only ever harmed himself), he couldn't actually lay a hand on his sister. We also find out Zoe did in fact miss Connor a lot (and has also cried for him), and she tells Evan precisely that. So with that said, here's my reinterpretation of Connor's Requiem (Reprise): // Why do you play this game of pretend? Remembering through a secondhand sorrow? One lousy son and second-rate friend Oh, don't the tears just pour I see you curl up and hide your room There in your bed, still sobbing tomorrow You hate giving in to all of the gloom So tell me, tell me what for? Why should you have a heavy heart? When you go around and say I'm guilty Why should you go and fall apart for me? Why did you say that I was bad then cried Saying that you miss me And that your world has gone dark without my light? ...You will sing no requiem tonight You tried to reach out, I pushed you away Left all my broken pieces behind you Everything wasted, nothing to say So you will sing no requiem They hear my voice, and feel me near Within his words, they finally found me And now that they know that I am still here You will sing no requiem Tonight 'Cause when the villain falls, the kingdom never weeps No one lights a candle to remember Right? No one mourns at all When they lay them down to sleep So, can't blame you though you didn't have it right No, it wasn't always black and white But after all I put you through... Then maybe it was true That I am just a monster That you knew Oh, you shouldn't play the grieving girl and lie Saying that you miss me And that your world has gone dark You will sing no requiem tonight \\

[@ezgigulec987]

I come back to this daily

[@rubyhunt7108]

There should be something like this in the movie, like a song between all the murphy's or atleast Zoe and Connor.

[@irrationallyodd6199]

now that it's closer i really hope there is!

[@viviankelly2023]

This made me cry

[@emilyquigley9293]

2:35-2:46 is EVERYTHINGGG

[@brennenreynolds1701]

I was not expecting the feels this chucked at me....i need this recorded professionally and on a CD asap

[@Biofernie55]

He did the reverse of Mallory's version ohhhhh

[@eggnog7618]

this still gets me

[@marl4883]

To all who need it, know that you will be found, and that help is always one step away. It does get better. I know it feels like it won’t, but I promise it will eventually

[@Webtoons_Pal_094]

MY HEART 😭😭😭😭😭😭

[@sarahvella4713]

I don't think y'all understand how much I am in love with Antonio's voice!!!

[@fart2351]

Actual things I said while watching this whY IS IT *SO GOOD?* WHY IS IT SO *HRRGEJEHEBEH* WE DESERVED A CONNOR SOLO AND THIS SHOULDVE BEEN IT

[@iffanf9178]

imagine being this young and already have a mature voice

[@catherinew7797]

Imagine Connor singing this before he took his life... (That was sad, I'm sorry)

[@iwannabeyahtzee8056]

I'm crying omg!

[@regina5135]

Ehm...be the next connor murphy? Such an intense and perfect emotion from Connor's perspective💙

[@ingridmichelli7461]

This just gave me chills right over my whole body, the song itself already has its own emotion but the change of perspective associated with his incredible impersonation was simply brilliant omg

[@jasmynjohnson4346]

THIS MANS VOICE IS HEAVENLY

[@alenalaw6941]

Holy heck I’m going to cry 🥺

[@Isabel03]

Omg imagine if this was a requiem reprise in the actual musical??? that would’ve been soooooo gooood

[@alisahall8348]

HE IS BACK AGAIN WITH ANOTHER SHOW STOPPING PERFORMANCE

[@ryangarner7721]

absolutely touching. Wow. Really touching. Thanks

[@kaitlynmiller1071]

I absolutely love this cover!!!! Its better then the original to me! His vibrato melts my heart, and he has such control; It's a breath of fresh air to listen to him sing! I don't think I've ever wanted to sing a duet with a human more than I do with Antonio!!! When he is crazy famous, I get to tell all my friends that I so called it.

[@alexcalvin2624]

The second video I ever see of him, and the second time I've cried tonight.

[@mariposaphilemore3207]

Omg im in tears that was amazing

[@alexcascis6604]

Connor perspective is me every time I though about suicide

[@kat_lynn_b3315]

I'm glad you're still here

[@ameliatropman9729]

Same. If I had listened to this song then I probably would have been singing it crying every night......... It makes me so greatfull I survived

[@Olivia-rc2ro]

@@ameliatropman9729 I'm so proud of you for that. All the best ❤

[@JRBanitt]

WOAH THESE NEW LYRICS OMG

[@layoverbear]

i knew this was going to break my heart but i didn’t know i would be weeping at the end

[@greeneryabove]

Why did this make me sob

[@user-lw8db6in5b]

Wow... this made me cry. I love creative pieces like this!

[@LKeithG]

Starting about a year ago, I began gobbling up everything that I could find on KZbin that featured Antonio. He is such an amazing voice and a unique style. I can't wait for more.

[@laineys.7285]

I needed this. I’m balling rn. This guy is so talented.

[@rae2488]

This is so beautiful! I love seeing it from his perspective and it would be cool if it was in the show.

[@emmamajewski692]

Seriously crying, you are such an angle and so amazing

[@jarc492]

Acute angle

[@nindyaisah3936]

angle

[@emmamajewski692]

Nindy Aisah you know what I meant 😂

[@emmamajewski692]

J Fly yep exactly 🤷🏻‍♀️😂

[@marylickona6322]

OH NO THIS ONE HURTS TOO WHY IS HIS VOICE SO BEAUTIFUL

[@StarAWings]

I love this song... I cannot stop listening to it. It's just amazing. I hope to see the show live someday (I live in the netherlands) but I know all the songs and i think this would have been an amazing addition.

[@jacki8705]

i'm going to cry

[@shi4084]

Ok but I need an animatic of this RIGHT BLOODY NOW!!

[@foxesandclouds8030]

was not ready to hear this from connors perspective and omfg i love it so much this is beautiful and i'm crying

[@KenRuan]

Amazing role reversal - what pipes ♡

[@travisgrant5608]

Antonio makes MICHIGAN PROUD! The dude can sing! 👍😌

[@KrakenwithaKam]

cosmic voyager is he really from Michigan?

[@travisgrant5608]

@@KrakenwithaKam ... Yes!

[@KrakenwithaKam]

cosmic voyager that’s awesome!!

[@travisgrant5608]

@@KrakenwithaKam ... hope his dreams are fulfilled ... and he makes it big on Broadway ... he really is so talented ... but, show biz is such a hard business to brake into even if you have the talent ... a lot of rejection and disappointments ... you have to be so strong and never stop believing in yourself ... I wish (as many here do) him all the very best that life can bring ...

[@nicholasl5143]

Antonio nailed it yet again another song! He's really good!

[@Hnnhjkjm]

This perspective actually made me tear up. Really well done!

[@plusle78]

I think the next time the show is revised this should be added as a reprise

[@microwave5024]

How is this a lot sadder than the original?

[@mirandakeigher819]

Full body chills

[@nickdachemusic]

This is one of the most creative and beautifully exicuted covers ive ever seen. I have literal chills

[@fairycars]

oh my goddddd this is so good! please i love him!

[@gracehayes1223]

Okay sobbing

[@marian4211]

His voice is so powerful, it's perfect

[@elvirie3430]

Oh god, this guy is FANTASTIC

[@mitchellsporing9223]

I am totally blown away by this reversal of perspectives!!! great work!!!

[@joakimwiklund9166]

commenting solely to get more attention to the video. this must be seen by more people. people -need- this.

[@abbyj4108]

How this doesn’t have more views is beyond me

[@montsevega2455]

I've watched this in repeat for daaays now, amazing

[@mila.smiles6772]

Petition to put a reprise of Requiem from Connor's pov in the musical

[@lydiaunklesbay2238]

CHILLS

[@ericalabarre7817]

This was incredible.. And then the second verse just took me by storm. This is fantastic- voice and perspective and all. I'm so amazed right now the chills haven't gone away yet.

[@nicolefrasca9270]

okay, I am opening weeping after watching this! this cover was incredible

[@kerrielise4755]

this was in my recommended and I clicked on it obviously. but omg how have I never heard of this guy and HES INCREDIBLE!!

[@micavega]

WOW. Love that he sang it from Connor’s perspective. This is AMAZING 😍😍