Aphantasia - I have it!

[@s.l.wymansrockinwriting6633]

Interesting. I personally hear and see when I write

[@writeonshell]

That's so cool. Like I said in the video, I really can't imagine what it must be like to be able to see things in your head. And yeah, it's definitely exhausting sometimes. It's so weird to think that some people don't have that constant noise/dialogue/second guessing/worry running as a constant noise in the background.

[@s.l.wymansrockinwriting6633]

I don't have that noise in my head constantly but often enough that I do understand how it can ramp up anxiety

[@s.l.wymansrockinwriting6633]

Also, it sounds exhausting.

[@markmuller7962]

The constant noise and voice in your head reminds me of my ADHD, the vast majority of people live with the peace of mind so don't get distracted or exhausted so much like an ADHD person

[@writeonshell]

It's so funny you say that because I've seen more and more lately that make me wonder whether I have undiagnosed ADHD. I've suspected I'm on the autism spectrum for a long time with good reason and familial diagnoses but I've started to realise that I don't actually have object permanence even though I would've laughed at anyone who suggested I don't a decade ago. After all, I'm not silly - I know things exist when they're out of my sight. And yet... kitchen equipment goes unused, meat in freezer is non-existent unless I think hard about it being there, I've literally brought the same shirt twice, and although I know logically everyone I love exists when they're not nearby, I don't really consider the passage of time so don't really reach out as often as I could/should. There's a few other things as well, but unfortunately when I've brought it up with doctors they're just "well you're a grown woman, what does it matter if you do have it" so it will likely be a maybe for the rest of my life. The one advantage is I can look up tips and tricks that might help without meditation and try to apply them to see if it does make things easier.

[@markmuller7962]

@@writeonshell Yes the passage of time is a big issue along with everything you said about organization and habits. I wonder from what country you're from because... I'm sorry but your doctor is incompetent. ADHD is a serious disorder that can be enormously debilitating and devastating and of course the severity is relative from person to person, situation to situation, I mean in certain African countries they literally chain people with mental illnesses to trees, they chain them to trees but that doesn't mean the it's not gonna affect you even if you are "privileged" with a solid family, a well structured education/career and what not, it's gonna affect you anyways and you should at least have the choice to get your diagnosis and your medications. Change your doctor as soon as you can