My Meth Monster story

[@southphillylilly]

I spent three years doing math every day. I never injected or smoked it, but it was still an addiction. The only way I got cleaned was to leave where I lived and moved 1200 miles away. I didn't search it out, I broke all contact with the people that I used with in my old city, and I never looked back It was a hell of a first month. I had headaches and all I could do was sleep, and when I wasn't sleeping, all I could do was nervously walk around. I took lots of supplements and amino acids and rebuilt my body through all of that sleep. A few times I thought about going back to visit, but I know I cannot do that because all of those people are still there using and I know I would be high within an hour of landing there. My only option, is to stay away 🙏 It's been 1221 days that I've been clean May God bless all of us and keep a strong

[@Craigsoubliere]

Congrats on the 1221 days that’s incredible.

[@JCarey-uv3bb]

15yrs clean for me. I’m living in the house I grew up in and right back in the old neighborhood. I never think about doing it but I don’t associate with the people either.

[@JudBurkett-pp2mi]

I've thought about that..stay in some other place o over about 1500 miles away

[@bonure]

wow thats alot of math

[@randylal]

Congratulations just question how did you use it ? Eat it ??

[@vanessathatcher8748]

My brother is addicted to meth. He is 36. I tried to talk to him today. He cried. Said he would try to change his life and not use again. Called me a few hours ago, thanked me for being his sister.. he was so high. Please pray for him.

[@Craigsoubliere]

I’m sorry 😢

[@auralplex]

I thought you were a dude and were saying he thought you were his sister, till I read your name. I was like damn, that’s rough. Hope he gets better.

[@tctime]

I hope your brother is still alive, and I hope he is clean .

[@alovemarvel]

I don't get it...

[@bendmc88]

I'm a almost 2 years sober off meth. You need to try and get him into treatment. It's very unlikely he will do it on his own. Lots of places will cover it even with just the state offered insurance. You can find places that will sponsor him by calling around too. Depending on the state, it can be a lot easier to get in one than you would think.

[@PatCrawford-jm9rm]

Takes a lot of courage to tell that story. Appreciate your honesty!

[@Craigsoubliere]

Thanks man

[@clintgross4422]

Thanks for sharing. The shame that you carry from situations it caused really hit me because I don't raise my head anymore to make eye contact with anyone. I've isolated myself in my apt and have cut almost all ties with anyone. I sat here a type 2 diabetic still shooting .I need a total hip replacement but my orthopedic Dr will not touch me till I'm clean. I don't blame him, but like you said it's sick and I know it but it's like it's my only friend and I created that. I'm sitting hear neglecting health issues that can eventually kill me , I know it but continue to basically kill myself but slowly wtf is wrong with me. But the shame and humiliation of my ppl knowing this too is too much man. So I isolate and plunge the guilt away for a little while . The sad part is my 63 yr old mother is right beside me . I know she's an adult but I'll never live that part down I'll always know that it's my fault . She will kill herself trying to be here for her son. It's all so fucking sick man. I'm watching a car crash but for whatever reason I don't hit the brakes. I'll never forgive myself for any of it . But thanks for sharing man cause I hadn't realized how much the shame and guilt affects me till today. Don't look back bro and be safe.

[@BDD627]

I WAS A CRACK ADDICT FOR 26 YRS....I WILL BE SOBER 3 YRS ON JAN 01, 2024.. I DID IT COLD TURKEY... ✌

[@Craigsoubliere]

Congrats

[@ColonelSanders-xo9hp]

You type like ur still high af

[@RajaMCool]

I feel like meth addiction attaches itself to someone’s soul or occupies an empty void. It’s so strong and never truly let’s you go.

[@Craigsoubliere]

You’re right it’s a very strong addiction I’m so grateful I was able to break free.

[@danielwelker1286]

Great video Thanks for sharing. Decided to stay with weed 10 years ago. Gave up drinking and all narcotics. Don't even use aspirin. Getting high on adrenaline and endorphins from Excersize. I will be 65 next week ❤

[@K1forMVP]

Meth makes you hyper sexual. I tried it a few times in my early 20s and had similar experiences and that’s why I hated the drug because all I could think about was women when I’m on it. My drug of choice was pain pills, hard as hell to get off of but it’s the best thing I’ve ever done. It’s the physical addiction that’s the hardest to get over with pain pills. Congratulations on your sobriety, as u know now chasing a drug is no way to live life. I related with so many things u said, you definitely attract like minds when you’re using no matter where u go you’re always bringing your problems with u.

[@Craigsoubliere]

Thanks life is so much better not chasing after drugs.

[@Soultraveler0020]

That was a hell of a testimony. Thanks for sharing. That was very inspirational. I hope you stay strong. You probably could get a job at one of these rehab centers. Please stay strong, you've come a long ways. You make me feel good seeing how you turned your life around. You are a beacon of light for many.

[@justine2520]

Honesty is a beautiful thing ❤️.

[@wiinguyen3683]

God bless all recovering addicts!! Thank you for sharing your story. It gives me hope in my recovery.

[@Craigsoubliere]

One day at a time my friend. Keep focused.

[@JCarey-uv3bb]

The secret is you gotta want to quit and you can’t hang out with the people.

[@bendmc88]

I got on meth for a few years. Started the same way. Was in an abusive relationship and my ex was using heavily. It completely ruined my life. Ended up living in my car, never sleeping, and in a meth psychosis. Between that, and the abuse from my ex, It culminated into an incident that landed me in LA county jail for a year. All bad. That all happened in about 2-1/2-3 years. Horrible drug. Im almost 2 years sober now.

[@Craigsoubliere]

Glad to hear you beat the Meth monster and got out of that horrible cycle.

[@nativaconcepcion3991]

Truly n genuinely wish u the best dude🙏🏽❤️

[@fido9745]

Dude. Thank you for talking about the health consequences of your use. Specific conditions of specific organs. That checks my cravings quite a bit. And that’s on top off all the drama and, least to say, tragedy in the outcome. You’re guidances are blessings, man.

[@C.J.Yarborough]

I’m blown away of your humility brother. Also, props on seeing the journey through to where you are today. Very inspirational.

[@Craigsoubliere]

Thanks brother

[@sharimosqueda3990]

Thank you brother

[@thomasworden382]

Amazing story and testimony to how you’ve changed your life by stopping the drugs and having recovery. God bless you brother!

[@perpetualmotion357]

Thanks for sharing your story. My demon is opiates that I've been fighting for over 20 years.

[@jescagvil]

Thanks for sharing your story, this life is a hard one to navigate no matter who you are. I have never been addicted to any drugs but you can see how easily addiction can be.

[@Craigsoubliere]

So true thanks for watching

[@danielblackwell7712]

Thanks for the story. I'm currently battling a meth addiction, been 5 years. It's relentless. I'm trying to stop but keep going back. When your dealer ran out and you could no longer get it, did you have a bad withdrawal. I went through meth withdrawal once a few years back. The worst most depressing week of my life. Words cant even describe it. Thankfully since then I've never become dependant or a daily user again. But still in the throes of it. I cant believe believe you were going to the gym working out on it, haha fk that's dangerous man. I've never done physical activity on it, too scared lol

[@michaelsalvucci4260]

i tell everyone who will listen (since anyone i know now is a user like me unfortunately) coming down off meth is all psychological. un-aliving yourself seems like a logical answer. your mind plays tricks on you. you have to keep telling yourself “these thoughts aren’t real, it’s just the drugs. these thoughts aren’t real just get thru today”

[@danielblackwell7712]

@@michaelsalvucci4260 yes you're right it is all psychological but honestly to God I've never experienced depression like it before surprised I didn't kill myself. I always struggled with the comedowns and the depression from it thats what kept me hooked on it. I've been off it for 18 days by the grace of god. One day at a time.

[@Walrus286]

It comes with time. Think about how long you’ve done the drug, and give yourself that amount of time without it

[@danielwelker1286]

Try to just Walk and hike. Helps to keep the demons away. It's been 10 years clean now 🎉❤❤

[@ddcmr9]

Dude no excuses, just quit I did after 20 years

[@stevehernandez1637]

Sharing your testimony is another way of healing brother

[@patrickdowness7152]

This touched me bro i struggled with meth for about 6 months great story. Miss ya man.

[@Craigsoubliere]

Miss you brother hope your well.

[@patrickdowness7152]

@@Craigsoubliere You to my man. Good as i can be.

[@Enochulate88]

It's not crack, why did you use it?

[@KarenSoukup]

Thank you sharing and your honesty.God bless

[@joelshasteen]

First off you look like you're 35 yrs old. I appreciate your honesty. Very inspirational!

[@Craigsoubliere]

Thank you,your too kind.

[@leronictronic3435]

the best mindset to be given is you arent alone the last thing an addict wants to feel is they are going through this by themselves such a powerful strong video thank you for sharing

[@ron1836]

I am. I have never even done anyone wrong. I still work... Fuck I GIVE to others.. but everyone, even family has wrote me off. Btw... Is this dude maybe making this shit up for views? Seems kinda vague

[@dqreps]

I sympathize with your story bro. I was in jail a while back for a similar thing. A made-up DV threatening charge. Only the charge against me was a felony. For threatening, allegedly. No physical abuse. I ended up being in jail for five freaking weeks because my bail was 5 grand. They finally dropped it down to 1500 and I was able to bail out. Tested a drug or two in my time too. Glad to see you're doing well now.

[@Craigsoubliere]

Thanks hope your doing well.

[@Renee1207]

Thank you for sharing your story

[@Craigsoubliere]

Thanks Renee

[@Vince-mj1lv]

just moved myself from maine to melbourne funny enough this popped up on my timeline, lightly annoying how much your story lines up with my life haha, love this video gunna save it to remind myself of the dumb shit i have potental to do, appreciate how real you are in this video though hope ur life is going well still!

[@Craigsoubliere]

Yes, learn from the dumb shit I did. Life is great now when you live it on life’s terms.

[@MoneyMike2002]

Such a crazy story brother. You're a true hero for making it through all that and living to tell the story. Quite frankly your story could be a very cool and educational movie especially if some movie writers add some extra spice to the story as they always do in Hollywood haha.

[@billk122]

I appreciate your honesty. Do you have a very unique gift to share and it is highly unusual for someone to be as articulate as you describing your addiction. Thank you.

[@Craigsoubliere]

Thank you Bill for those kind words.

[@celebratecrypto3693]

I’m sober 3 years this time on suboxone it’s a total game changer cold Turkey sobriety just kept me relapsing constantly. I was on heroin to fentanyl to meth to crack iv user I did it all. I used to work in fort pierce and live in port st Lucy and Jupiter but also Cincinnati so I am right here with you dude I’m in my 30s now

[@Craigsoubliere]

I’m not a fan of suboxone it was a crutch for me and I’m glad I got away from that drug as well. I’m going to do a video on my experiences with it soon. Congrats on staying sober.

[@aphysique]

@@Craigsoubliere I live in Melbourning....close to you guys, I'm On Subutex.... not really happy wit this medication, foooken my teeth up....etc

[@jamisonatanasoff3890]

Thanks for sharing this I have been clean for 16 months

[@Craigsoubliere]

Awesome stuff brother proud of you.

[@seth4035]

Thanks for sharing your story, man, I’m really fuckin glad you made it out the other side. I tried meth once and planned on never using again after that (you know how that shit goes), but here I am two years later I’m still smoking it off and on and my life’s at an all time low. The grip ice had on me after a few bowls is actually insane, especially considering my DOC are opiates and benzos. Completely insane. Like I don’t even LIKE this shit yet I keep doing it.

[@danielblackwell7712]

I think it's probably the most addictive substance on this planet so I wouldn't be too hard on yourself for still using it. It's a real demon my man. Good luck.

[@idonteatcheetos]

Do you ever see literal visions in your mind that tell you to do more ice and other weird shit like that? I experienced that once and it was scary as hell

[@tammywallace5611]

I know exactly what you mean when you say you don't even like it!!

[@timstort8223]

Ben clean off H an M for 8 years, never imagined the type of life I have now back then, G-d is great and recovery WORKS, it’s up to you on work it!!!

[@lisicarunes8720]

Thank you so much for being so brave and candid

[@Craigsoubliere]

Thanks for watching

[@LauraBlair-ut5ns]

I truly believe believe that meth is an entity unto it's self.It is a being and nobody can tell me different.

[@mauricamcginnis4063]

Don't ever let another person tell you what you think and experience.You know it's true . Good enough ...!!!!!!

[@alyssalopez223]

I'm glad u are doing better now ❤

[@empoweringawareness2073]

I wanna say I'm so proud of you. I too was a victim of meth an I can definitely agree that it's no joke. I'm glad that you were able to ecsape it an still be here in the land of the living. Congratulations man just continue taking it one day at a time.

[@ncfredman1221]

Hey buddy, do you know who Jessa Reed is by chance? She's a stand up comedian/ podcast host , coming from a very similar background as the one you just described in this video, just thought I would share If your interested, her podcast (s) have played a massive roll in my healing/recovery!! My entire perspective and outlook on "life" has changed since discovering those podcasts! And no I do not know her personally nor have we ever met lol. Just thought I'd share cuz I see that same divine healing power within your speech and presentation as well! The sharing of your experiences thus far alone is going to help a lot of people!! "God speaks thru the trials and tribulations of man!" See ya at the top! One is called "Soberish" and the newer one is called "Awakening O.D. " if interested

[@Craigsoubliere]

Thanks for your kind words, I checked out Jess’s Reed she is very funny and I love her Meth story. Happy New Years

[@-K3M0SABI-]

Good for you Brother. God Bless 🙏

[@kellyannmanning4614]

Thank you for your share. It has helped me understand what has happened to some people I care about.

[@Craigsoubliere]

Thank you for watching

[@NastoKing]

Thanks alot for sharing your story dude

[@Craigsoubliere]

Thanks for watching

[@marytague6268]

Loved it, dude! 😘. Keep going! Everyone needs their story about drugs told & heard,🙏

[@moseseba2117]

Yess you can’t change the past but learn from them

[@Craigsoubliere]

💯

[@tamasschrottner9723]

i feel you brother man.... Respect.

[@beyondtruthandlie]

You get my respect brother! Thats all i want to say to you!🤛🏽

[@Craigsoubliere]

Much appreciated

[@daltonvoss7693]

Respect to you my dude, I hope the best for your future

[@TheLegendaryBalkan]

Watched the whole thing. Awesome story and happy you're doing better Craig!

[@Craigsoubliere]

Thank you

[@randomstuff5338]

What i find annoying is that some people that do something let's say st upid then do something good think they need some kind of congratulation where as people that do good all the time get no congratulations

[@Craigsoubliere]

I agree

[@dabadabadoo4501]

Gangster respect for This helping thw 20 year old version of yoin

[@derya3990]

Bravo great ownership and reflection bravo

[@CouchRocker777]

Hey b8g man thanks for the video and sharing your testimony. Are you still clean? I hope so.

[@Craigsoubliere]

Yes 💪💪

[@sweetcell8767]

When I think of all the whacked out dudes and fucked up junkies from my time of doing drugs and booze I always wonder how many of them made it through? How many have been as lucky as me to be sober?

[@Craigsoubliere]

The sad part is not many make it out alive.

[@daltonvoss7693]

i was Addicted for 3 years, Then Jail time woke me up, Been drug free for 13 years.

[@Craigsoubliere]

That’s awesome to hear

[@steinstrmsten9849]

Thank you for sharing 🙏🏼❤️

[@Craigsoubliere]

Thank you for watching

[@WilliamHernandez-h7u]

Already used it a couple of times I booty bump it I love it but I'm scared that on the very end I may come addicted to it I'm saying this because it feels really good when I use it

[@dan0214]

good job brother👍🏻

[@evil_musclemuscled3814]

Let's hear about that gear in detail. Is it still getting you with negative affects

[@Craigsoubliere]

I plan on doing a video talking about that. I have no negative affects from It yet.

[@bonezhomez_408]

that first intro smile tho lol

[@strongheadn1754]

Yo bro, props from Croatia, i am fellow armwresler

[@Craigsoubliere]

Thanks brother

[@jrambo7495]

Been there,done that, and I have the hoodie to prove it!!

[@selfmastery8885]

Man I am going through it bro. I just recently took some of my parents pain pills.......idk what to do anymore

[@Craigsoubliere]

What are you going through brother?

[@selfmastery8885]

@@Craigsoubliere I have to confess to my parents what I did . You spoke on it with the oxycodone video I saw. After I go through the detox and feel better my dumbass keeps going back to it. The hardest thing is, I have to manage the medicine for my parents and it makes it so hard to not do it when I have to touch and see it daily

[@TrustNonebutOne.]

​@@selfmastery8885I really hope you are doing alright. I kno it's a year later but im sending u light.

[@choysum9030]

Did the meth do any damage to your teeth?

[@Craigsoubliere]

No I didn’t smoke it that’s usually where the teeth damage comes from.

[@thekravech2751]

Oh, what a story, damn

[@gone54518]

Did you go through the targeted individual phenomena where addicts feel like people are following them? Great story btw, thanks for sharing

[@Craigsoubliere]

I was super paranoid when I was using.

[@TrustNonebutOne.]

It's not a phenomenon, it actually happens... & not just to people who have used, but many others who have never even experienced it. Great question tho, I was actually wondering the same. There is def a "rogue force" that will play god in many ways, making shit happen to u. Whether sending in informants to entrap u, or spreading ur personal info around, in name smearing campaigns to negatively effect ur life. So much can happen to a person's life, NOT of their own doing, with the fact that those rogue groups claim they are pushing u to a rock bottom in order to help you. However, it is only "helpful" to who they choose to help. Most of the times, it is only meant to impact u in harmful ways that can be used as plausible deniability for ur usage. A lot just can't understand what's happening in their life & may only use more. Yet no one can just come out & be honest about what they're doing to u. Also bcuz of how badly u are judged. BUT BELIEVE THIS, IT IS VERY REAL! & Even when u get clean they send random to u to get u hooked again. Esp if ur of a certain minority. They have other "uses" for u... like experimentation or information gathering, etc.; although a lot know about it, they will never tell u, & also get compensated for being involved! Even ur own family. The "affects" can be deadly & many times they are meant to be! What this guy did right here: (exposing his past so openly) is ome of the biggest ways to combat the abuses they so often cause others. Since it is a spiritual attack against u as well, it very much helps when u are honest & good, within ur soul. Those are the people stalked, harassed, criticized no matter what & even set up by preplanned situations, indefinitely! It seems to never stop... bcuz you are 'chosen,' & sum of them know it! They're nothing but devil's in human form. 💯

[@cyruspowers7355]

"I moved to florida, alone." You see that was your first mistake.

[@Craigsoubliere]

😂

[@micclay]

How did you sleep?

[@Craigsoubliere]

I didn’t sleep much back in those days.

[@MajorDrinkins]

Meth weding sounds wild man, not gonna lie :D Looking at you now though I couldn't tell you had such horrible addiction. Respect for pulling through that nightmare!

[@Craigsoubliere]

Yeah it was wild the whole time was. Thank you for your kind words.

[@nathanial82]

Now the volcano god monsters gotcha!

[@Craigsoubliere]

No I don’t believe in him anymore 😂

[@marekmusil3179]

Why you sharing this? Very brave to share this brother. Better to dont even try drugs if possible. Its terrible to hear.

[@TrustNonebutOne.]

There is a spiritual freedom in sharing ur trials with others... it's the potential to help someone else struggling. Also u gain a bit of that freedom by sharing openly & honestly. The shame doesnt hold power over you which can continue to negatively impact ur life, if left as secrets! It has power over u that can be tapped into by the wrong ones who can & will, use that energy or circumstances over u... it hinders ur life moving forward. ✊🏽 Kudos to this guy, he spoke his truth & I can clearly tell that a part of him knows this, just by how clearly he owned up to his part of the chaos & how he makes sure not to dwell too much on the specific details of that crazy time, & doesn't glorify nor excuse his experiences. I am very sure that so much more happened he couldve said, yet he just stuck with the basics... ofc for the common cave folks of today. DRUGS BAD, DON'T DO! 💯

[@ttttiiimmy10bit]

4:05 you snorted ice and didn't have any idea about what to expect ?

[@Craigsoubliere]

At the time I never heard of ice before.

[@ponaliramos9773]

One hit or line and ill be so paranoid anxious and panicking that i cant even talk to anyone or do anything. Im so glad i never liked that sht.

[@sirtoneyd3138]

Same way it does me... living hell.

[@mikimarkos4696]

You look great! Stay strong! God bless you!

[@nikbalagot7644]

Does God help those that poison themselves?

[@Craigsoubliere]

If your talking about the god of the Bible, I don’t believe in that nonsense anymore.

[@christisking7778]

​@@Craigsoubliere You won't be saying that when you give your account. Every knee will bow, and every tounge will confess that Jesus is Lord.

[@Anoonymuss1]

​@@christisking7778 I know you think you're saving people and all but it really is obnoxious and condescending to be pushing religion on someone

[@christisking7778]

@@Anoonymuss1 not at all. But everyone knows

[@nothingmatters298]

god bless

[@theboogeyman9813]

That's methed up.

[@Craigsoubliere]

😅

[@theboogeyman9813]

I know it's embarrassing. I used to do opiates for a couple years. I feel the same way about it now.

[@MacyLuv]

I love you, Lake. Hope you come home. ❤