Artist life in Berlin and going to therapy

[@laleelal-ii]

It is called "Dienstag" in German, the low after festivals/ parties and in Berlin after drugs. It is the most talked topic in the techno scene, you are not alone ;) I have the feeling I wasted 6 years chasing parties and festivals until I realized it is mentally too damaging for me. Also especially in Berlin the parties and festivals destroy the lives of many people.

[@bluemoontata9106]

i can totally relate to what you said about how important festival-aftercare is. because you are so right! festivals, parties and dancing with your friends is fun and sometimes it can almost feel overwhelming. i went to the hurricane festival this summer, and i definitely had a really good time with my friends there. it was so good, i almost didn’t want it to end. but when i got back home and everything was over and i was all alone and exhausted, i had a mental breakdown and cried for a whole day. something that helped me a lot was talking about this experience with a friend i trust a lot, taking care of my body and taking a step back with going out and drinking for a while, instead focusing on peaceful and meaningful activities. :)

[@hannah_muehi]

Thank you for sharing!!!

[@Lena-fv3wr]

I can totally understand you, i also lived in pberg at the beginning. It was nice at first, but in the long run it was sooo exhausting for me. I needed more peace and silence. Now I've moved further out and i feel so much better!!!🦋 sending much love xx

[@hannah_muehi]

Where do you live now? :)

[@Lena-fv3wr]

Köpenick, right by the water. So relaxing and you only need 15 minutes and you're back in the centre xx

[@ulrikeklein1787]

I was living there for seven years and always felt the same. I loved it but with so much going on it felt like the city is telling me what to do and I’m not able to set the direction anymore. It’s weird. I moved to Frankfurt and do miss some parts of Berlin but feels also more calm and relaxed.

[@mgdln.m]

Aftercare!!!!! So so important and I love your thoughts on it 🙏

[@fleur3199]

I love the calmness of your vlogs and I appreciate that you talk about the difficulties.. it is very difficult to share all this when you're going through it at the same time but it maybe helps some people who experience the same and it is nice in a way to not only see the perfect part - although I wished your life would only be built from this - but this way people understand that they're only seeing a part of this. Good to hear that you've found a therapist now..I wish you all the best ✨

[@hannah_muehi]

Thank you so much!

[@linzieloo1]

Thank you so much again for yet another compliment! And for massaging my ego which is all you reply to

[@sarahschulz8275]

I live in Berlin too and I totally get the FOMO thing. But I was able to turn the FOMO into JOMO "The Joy of missing out" :) wish you the best

[@nevsalem7365]

I wanna tell u thank u so much for being confident in your own petite body .. watching woman like u inspired me to love my small chest and i am no longer considering getting implants 💜💜

[@hannah_muehi]

Awww that makes me so happy!!!

[@LarissaWalkingWithJesus]

Oh I felt exactly the same!! I just visited Berlin for 3 weeks and I love this city so much, but I also felt this need to constantly be doing something and to be going out and meeting people etc. It was so hard to take time out for myself and to recover. I found it both amazing and exhausting to be in Berlin and I resonate with that "love-hate relationship" that you mentioned. It's mainly love for me but I would not want to live there more longterm for now... I prefer more chill nature places.

[@namenlos6748]

You judge feelings calling them „wired“. Feelings are neutral, we are just used to devide them in pleasant and unpleasant. The more we want a feeling to disappear and wipe them away, the More they come back because they want to be seen. We tend to run away from „unplasent“ feelings and hide in a cafe or distract with seeing friends. What the feelings need is to invite it e.g. the loneliness for a Cup of tea and to listen what the feeling has to tell. When the feeling geht attention and is heard it is able to leave.

[@hannah_muehi]

Beautifully said

[@namenlos6748]

@@hannah_muehi ❤

[@AlexCio]

Love your vlog style! Great you published some new ones :)

[@hkqtt]

Is KZbin your job? Haven’t seen you do anything work wise

[@linzieloo1]

She wont answer you only if you compliment her, I started of with her video I’m Paris and from there find her very egotistical and narcissistic and pretty sure others are beginning to see through her to

[@krazat]

@@linzieloo1 yeah.i think so too. she seems so fake and over-dramatic

[@franciwrites]

there is definitely a lot of uncertainty in the air. I agree with you totally. I also see what you mean about life in Berlin (fellow Berliner here) being exciting but also demanding. The issue for me personally is that I wonder if by moving away to a smaller city or even a town I would not maybe lose my community. In Berlin I feel like I can openly talk about depression (fellow struggling human here) and witchcraft and spirituality and and and... without fearing judgement for the most part. Berlin isn't perfect, but here for the first time in my life I don't feel part of the minority and that is still important to me. ALTHOUGH, yes... the speed of this city is definitely taking a toll on my mental health.

[@butterfly-yi3ed]

I also struggle with depression and don't feel so good. I find myself dissatisfied with many things if not all things in my life right now. I feel like I should start making changes, but I can't really get started. I am alone a lot, because I have problems to meet with friends or get out to do something. It is holiday time and it is really hard for me to relax.

[@sophiaros9282]

Thank you so much for this video. I love how real you talk and how we can get a look of how you live you life at the moment. I feel you so much. I need a better daily routine for me and Berlin is sometimes so exhausting. I also live in Prenzlauerberg and I feel like it's cool to have everything near to me, but also exhausting on so many levels. I would love to see a day routine and I love to see what you currently reading and listen to. I really enjoy every video of you. What helps you to stay productive or active over the day?

[@hannah_muehi]

Routines are so so hard to implement though :D :D

[@dani.vanderkamp]

Thank you so much for sharing about your mental health journey! ❤ I totally feel you on feeling low after really nice events😢 I often think it has to do with serotonin being depleted, but then the question remains what is best to do in those situations.. also still figuring that out. And I also experienced the same with always being fine on my own and loving to spend time alone, but when my anxiety got worse I also started kinda distrusting myself while being alone… but great to hear that you found little moments of alone time that you are able to enjoy❤

[@suesmith3276]

often the come down from drugs create a real come down.

[@Олечка-е5д]

The pandemic hit me hard. I moved to my beloved in Germany, I studied the language for a year. And when I was finally ready to go somewhere to study, work, etc., covid began, and I found myself in a deep pit of fears, feeling unnecessary in a foreign country, lost. Now I'm better, I'm 25, but I still have a fear of living in Germany and low self-esteem. I believe I can handle it.

[@hannah_muehi]

YOU CAN DO IT!!!

[@Олечка-е5д]

@@hannah_muehi thank you ❤️

[@thehoney0000]

i adore the summer heat :D finally someone with the same love for these days full of energy and sunlight

[@hannah_muehi]

I know right? 🙈

[@loki515]

what a privileged lifestyle

[@linzieloo1]

Yes and then she’s having a crisis of finding a new therapist

[@linzieloo1]

And she has a big ego only responds to compliments

[@sarak.1454]

wow. mit geht es momentan genau so und ich versuche herauszufinden, was mein weg ist, ob ich weniger feiern gehen sollte.

[@linzieloo1]

Do you actually work for a living or how do you finance your lifestyle

[@loki515]

she is content creator and artist i guess

[@linzieloo1]

Definitely not an artist

[@Maddy0701]

So you're jaleous that you can't afford such a lifestyle, well...

[@n.a.3952]

Does anyone know how the Café after 9:57 is called? It looks lovely!

[@hannah_muehi]

it is called cafe frank

[@n.a.3952]

@@hannah_muehi oh vielen Dank für die Antwort 😊

[@emmaste3578]

Ganz viel Liebe an dich liebe, wundervolle Hannah 💛

[@mansoor3159]

Hey!! Hannah your vlogs are too too awesome and I really love your vlogs so so much you inspired me so so much and I wish you reach 50K Subscribers very very soon!✨☺️😭💖

[@hannah_muehi]

Thank you so much

[@Sara-sw3rf]

I agree!!! 😄

[@borokaagnesszekeres3323]

🙂Therapies are usually very good, they also help a person's soul a lot

[@rikardosalampesi3677]

I LOVE YOU.......................NAMASTE HANNAH..................................

[@lottevree]

I completely get what you feel after a party or just a good time with friends. I always experience this sudden feeling of a dip because I’m alone again, but because I have experienced it multiple times I know, in this moment after a high in my life, that this feeling will be gone after a few days/ a week. I try to remind myself of that and try to not force myself to ignore the feeling but experience it although it’s hard.

[@anayaah75]

so trueeee !!!

[@luxwitch6839]

Hi ❤ Ich wollte mal nachfragen wie mit dem Französisch lernen läuft?? Grüße

[@soniaelena.]

Going through the struggle of finding a therapist right now, and was very surprised but how hard it is. Makes me feel a little "hopeless". On top of the many reasons why people need therapy, feeling like you are so far from finally getting help certainly doesn't help :( On a more positive note, what is the place you went with Jade? it looks soooo dreamy

[@hannah_muehi]

it is called cafe frank

[@victoriaromanchik1322]

Hannah, you are so so cool girl.

[@teresateresa2862]

Hey! Wie heißt deine Therapeutin? Bin auch extrem auf der Suche😢 Danke, dass du das mal hier in der Öffentlichkeit angesprochen hast. Die Situation ist nicht zum Aushalten, dass es keine Therapeuten gibt, wenn man sie sehr dringend braucht. Ja, was könnte man konkrete verändern an der Situation? Ich möchte da eigentlich gerne aktiv werden.

[@hannah_muehi]

Ich möchte meine Therapeultin nicht mit der Öffentlichkeit teilen, aber ich drücle dir die Daumen dass du ganz bald jemand findest. I know - ich weiß auch nicht wirklich was man da machen kann. Vl können wir gemeinsam brainstormen

[@teresateresa2862]

@@hannah_muehi Ja, Brainstorming fände ich gut. So kann die Situation doch nicht bleiben. Musste mich jetzt Verschulden, damit ich eine Traumatherapie bekomme. Danke dir.

[@krazat]

@@teresateresa2862 Selber Therapeut werden? Oder nicht in Therapie gehen? Mehr fällt mir leider nicht ein, um die Situation zu entlasten. (Auch wenn das eher unrealistische/unschöne Vorschläge sind)

[@paulomatos9677]

Tu est vraiment magnifique ❤️ ❤️ ❤️

[@ezzora2566]

Keep going love ur vlogs

[@philippawood5047]

Tu es trop mignonne en francais :) I related to a lot of what you said about managing the low after something so fun, it can really be a mindfuck if you have the deep blues because we already struggle to see the line of what is normal. :/

[@Cotigreen316]

I love watching your videos you are so cool, thank you 😊💕

[@hannah_muehi]

thank youuuu

[@شهد-و7د9ك]

هل بإمكانك إضافة الترجمة العربية رجاءً ؟!

[@gloriamqu3795]

Such lovely real videos. Big hug from London, where I feel the same about fomo! I think one other thing about big cities is that you can find people with all sorts of interests, but it can feel very lonely for a long time until you find and build a community of like-minded people. Not sure if it’s like this for you too but maybe worth talking about it in some videos if it’s the case. Xx

[@hannah_muehi]

Such a good topic! Thanks

[@fabiennescharer]

good vibes, true words, amazing curls - really like that open video

[@marie-leonieweidner]

Guck dir gerne mal eine Predigt von der @arche gemeinde Hamburg an :) ❤️🌻 es gibt jmd der dir all deine Last nehmen möchte

[@Athena-dy9xv]

Thank you for another soul-soothing beautiful vlog 💖 looooove your curly hair!

[@huntsman145]

First world problems scene 89 take 45

[@naturaphil6199]

I absolutlely feel what you said about feeling down after a party or another nice event. I always feel sad and alone after I have met a friend or even my parents. It feels like in such situations I feel how time is passing and everything ends.. and that makes me sad. I don´t have any solution for that... :-)

[@clariulloa4944]

Hello jesus Christ died for your sins he call you to REPENT and be born again jhon 3:3

[@punjabseth260]

nice

[@anidavtyan280]

You are very beautiful Hannah! Thanks for sharing your story. Keep believing and trusting in yourself. Warm greetings from Armenia!

[@hannah_muehi]

greetings back

[@Q-Ball.]

That’s a cool hat

[@hannah_muehi]

Haha thanks 🙏🏼

[@linzieloo1]

Why do you only answer compliments?

[@suesmith3276]

for a toddler, maybe

[@suesmith3276]

@@linzieloo1 because she is self absorbed

[@DeeEfSea]

Your hair thinning is most likely due to a long term vegan diet