Sufjan Stevens, "Death With Dignity" (Official Audio)

[@Bombasticboogaloo]

That "I forgive you mother" part hits me SO hard.

[@myth9292]

Strong David Wood, DUDE SAME

[@paradiseinretrograde7687]

Hits like a fucking bus

[@weishen2407]

That's Randall

[@leeahburrr]

That shit hurts

[@angelofdeath275]

it tore me apart.

[@李依純-u4i]

I just lost my mom, who had been struggling with her depression for more than ten years. I loved her but I was afraid of being around her. Most of the time, I felt tired and helpless. I listened to this song very often when she was alive, imaging one day she would be happy and be like a “mother” again, or sometimes wondered how this would end, but never did I think that she would choose to commit suicide. However, she doesn’t need to feel the pain anymore. This song perfectly captures my emotion and heals me. Mom, I miss you.

[@brenromanenghi4075]

I wanna huge you 🥺❤️

[@arsenilazarevich8779]

Shit, man, sorry for you loss :(

[@dulcepalma5423]

I’m sorry for your lost, may she Rest In Peace. Sending love and healing your way🤍

[@iraiflauzino9779]

I'm sorry for your loss mate.

[@Shablos]

❤❤ hugz

[@urmom-pn6pc]

Honestly , it doesn't matter if you were brought here because of a show or movie , or if you're here just 'cause you like Sufjan's music. Any reason is a good reason , this song is beautiful.

[@jamall7003]

this needs more likes and comments I came from a game but I wouldn't be here if I didnt genuinely enjoy this music. one of those games actually got me hooked into an Artist named Daughter who I never knew about prior to playing it.

[@carloambrosio6726]

I come from a videogame, like a big part of the people in the comments

[@judyelkadi]

@@jamall7003 life is strange right?? bcz same

[@jamall7003]

@@judyelkadi ye 😌

[@p.boscardin]

i came here bcz of you

[@eatyourkimchi]

I listened to this album on loop for my four hour flight, and still haven't heard enough of it. Oh man.

[@BackupWish]

Flying back to Korea? 😺 Have a safe trip. Or landing. Or taxi ride home.

[@pascalmatisse6918]

OH MY GOD EATYOURKIMCHI LISTENS TO SUFJAN STEVENS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[@fedoragoodwater7342]

***** so many fanboys.

[@hfc1177]

Eat Your Kimchi Talk about worlds colliding. I just discovered you guys and have been watching your old videos while at the same time obsessing over this album. Laughed watching your ranch dressing ramen video before dinner and then went to his concert last night in NYC after dinner and shed a few tears.

[@neon471]

Eat Your Kimchi small world, i've been subbed to you guys for a couple of years now and had no idea you liked sufjan stevens! glad you liked the album, love you guys!

[@G.e.m.m.i.e]

I lost my grandfather recently, and this song really helps me deal with the grief of losing him. It reminds me of all the good times we shared, but also helps me to accept the fact that he's gone. I miss him so much. The sweetest soul.

[@chuanyeewu]

Tear up every time I hear “every road leads to an end”

[@eddfelix1705]

"Goodbye, Captain Spirit!" "See you around, Superwolf!"

[@filippo.diberardino2863]

where is that from

[@eddfelix1705]

@@filippo.diberardino2863 From one of the episode's endings when you decide to tell Chris the truth..

[@Sunmoonstar07]

@@filippo.diberardino2863 it’s from life is strange

[@Sunmoonstar07]

😭😭😭

[@MariusBoss11458]

@@eddfelix1705 Aka Best Ending. Aka Wakanda Forever!

[@youarethecoffin]

"I forgive you mother. I can hear you and I love to be near you, but every road leads to an end..." this really hit for me

[@thecatoverlord8589]

Thank you Captain Spirit for introducing me this beautiful song and album...

[@Lucifronz]

Surprised I didn't realize it was Sufjan until I looked it up. I keep doing that lately, though. Missed the Bloc Party song in LiS2, as well, even though I recognized the style as something familiar.

[@lucilegonn442]

[@Vybzz0]

​@Lucifronz this is literally the reason I'm here right now. I missed it when I played captain spirit

[@ParanoidParkProject]

Heard it on captain spirit and immidiately thought: Yeah, that actually makes sense.

[@godlyequipped8325]

The nostalgia 🥹

[@terrancesellington]

"This is us" and "life is strange" will always be link to this beatiful song

[@murrderrrx]

I love this

[@Vercettislugger]

This song was in Life is Strange?

[@terrancesellington]

@Vercettislugger yes, life is strange the adventures of captian spirit

[@hashiragamers9321]

BRO YES THIS IS US AND LIFE IS STRANGE FOR REALLLLL

[@jamesrice4705]

I remembered this album came out 3 days ago, and have listened to it at least 50 times since then. I've learned it word for word. The universe has some sort of cruel irony to it though; because, last night my mother told me that she has skin cancer. She's dealt with it for months and I never knew. I know the desire to have been closer to her so well now. I was not a good son. I can't listen to this album anymore. Not yet. It tears me apart, but...I just want to ask anyone reading this-- love your parents. Give them the concern they give you or didn't give you. Don't let the time apart be a regret. I'm so scared to lose my mother. I'm not looking for condolences, but this is a thing we will all face eventually. Make your time worthwhile. Thanks for reading.

[@danielablasquez9465]

Thank you for sharing...I send you and your mother one big hug. Everthing is going to be ok (:

[@cpark1]

+James Rice I was so freaked out to read what you just wrote, because I swear on my life, the exact same thing happened to me recently. Originally my mom had told me that the hair that she had lost as a result from chemo for her skin cancer, was because of lice. Only a couple weeks ago, she finally told me the truth, and it truly is scary that people so dear to us, can parish so quickly. Thanks James, and thanks everyone.

[@MrLerpDerp]

+James Rice Get better, friend.

[@marcosj1986]

+James Rice I lost my mom to glioblastoma multiforme in September of 2015. She was the perfect woman and I went through my own personal tragedy when it happened. Not even a year ago, I would have never suspected she was ill, and just like that, when she was diagnosed the doctor said that she would only have nine months to live. She fought so hard and only lived for seven. This album has certainly helped me through my ordeal.

[@nicoh_no6823]

James Rice I hope your journey is past that horrible era in your life. wish you luck in the future my friend

[@chrismarchand3570]

I once walked into a coffee shop while this began to play over the loudspeakers. I was standing there, waiting to get my coffee, just losing it, crying. It still makes me cry today. It's transcendent. It communicates something that goes deeper than mere words and mere sung and performed notes. It's proof that art is a miracle.

[@LieutenantButtonMasher]

I've never experienced loss, and yet I can feel Sufjan's loss. This is what songs are supposed to do, to make people feel.

[@aziara369]

Or maybe we all have. Perhaps not a physical loss, or in whatever bodily there is. Maybe it's a loss of friendship, or a loss of spark of something that used to shine bright. And someway somehow, in Sufjan's realm, he was able to encapsulate the sense of loss, and someway somehow, as part of the realm, we relate to one another- in varied ways of losing something/someone. In whatever circumstance, Sufjan just makes it a little less difficult. Just a little less 🤍

[@strangewayfaringstranger]

You will.

[@gloprez7960]

the women who has raised me since I was 3 died 1 year ago and even though she wasn't my real mom I have always looked up to her as one and now I will never stop looking up to her because if I'm sad and I miss her I will look up at the sky and know she's their helping me, smiling at me, laughing with me because I know she's their with me through it all, I love u mom forever and always

[@Boopbeep233]

glo prez oh so sweet!

[@alvintambrin7289]

glo prez God bless you❤️

[@vivil7917]

hug hug, she will always be there for you!

[@pugthug1556]

She is watching you everyday!!! She loves you glo prez! - unknown

[@fuppster]

She loves you much, she stares down upon you everyday. God said to love everyone, so do that to prove to her you’ll be with her someday 😊

[@violet5114]

The first song on carrie and lowell album and i thought i couldn't continue listening to the entire album because the emotions were too heavy, realizing that my parents are getting old and they might leave me soon and i haven't achieved anything that could make them proud or make them not worry about me being alone. That line, "Every road leads to an end..." We just got to accept that so might as well make the best memories with them while they're still alive and healthy.

[@manuelfernandezmesas3365]

I´m going to fake happines and self-confidence even if I don´t feel them. That will be my gift before she leaves. Love, I don´t have to pretend, thanks God.

[@aprilmaecelario5853]

😥

[@lamestudiosinc418]

As someone who has experience in this realm, they are incredibly proud of you. Looking back, I thought the same about my dad. Then I scrolled through my dad's facebook and realized he was proud of every stupid, insignificant little thing I did. Your parents love you.

[@Marilyn7935]

I’m also … Violet Grey ; the Vegan Animal Rights Activist. 🌱💚💫

[@arnaudmarchand3263]

This is a beautiful part of the internet.

[@jerryloh5594]

Ikr

[@wayansuardyana]

youtube broh

[@nannanya579]

yeah

[@tachanz3764]

"Mom was so pretty. I miss her smile."

[@oki_pogi9376]

TacHanz no im gonna cry...

[@dano21mtynl]

Me too.

[@BianaBee]

don't make me cry

[@Jay2chill63]

RIP your mom Idk you or your mom but I can tell that she was a great mom dude be safe.

[@zxz4410]

@@Jay2chill63 its from awsome adventures of captin spirit that a line

[@sidviiicious]

i just lost my mom in november and have always loved this song, but i’m just now able to listen to it again. i can’t say i’m not sobbing, but this song really puts the feeling into word. into sound

[@hayleyb467]

Sorry for the loss of your mom. Sending you lots of love from Texas ♡

[@MrFranciss]

May her soul rest in peace. It's been two years that my father left us and I still see him in my dreams.

[@sandraleroy5619]

Trying The song us superbe

[@SezenSever]

i too lost my father back in november of 2017. we had a patchy and difficult relationship between us just like sufjan and his mother. but it doesnt stop me from weeping to this album on repeat at 1 am in the morning when this song hits at all the different levels of grief. i really haven't found anything even remotely similiar to this album that catches the essence of losing a parent and the grief that comes after. it has been 3 years now but i return to this over and over again and it washes me over with the same emotions just as the first time. and for your mom i'm so sorry as i'm sorry for myself. i know exactly how you feel and it's a dumb thing to say but i will always share this song with you in the month of november.

[@jwattfaqir]

May her memory be a blessing

[@majeeeddd]

"This is Us" Brought me here, Legendary pilot

[@tesd.]

I saw the episode and IMMEDIATELY knew the music was from Sufjan Stevens. His style is so very unique in Call Me By Your Name... I love it!

[@cozyjuni]

This song all makes sense for the pilot now. Im so sad 😭

[@enbabagebrhiwet8962]

Me too

[@nataliakawczynska3983]

best of the best

[@soupeater7417]

Dammit this episode hasn't been shown on TV where I live yet

[@nikkiland]

It feels so good to release some pent up pain that's been buried in my subconscious by crying to this

[@LaciaisXHype]

Omg nikkiland never knew you would listen to something about this but I support your content

[@aiyanacroom]

the life of strange games literally have the best soundtrack i’ve ever heard

[@jamall7003]

you aren't wrong there. they got good taste in music shit lol. this is my number 2 spot of games in the franchise right behind LIS 1 and before LIS 2

[@josephvictory9536]

If anybody wants, these are the song meanings I have gathered from others and my self. While not perfect I feel this captures the essence of this incredibly delicate and well worded work of art. Interpretation is in brackets Lyrics: Spirit of my silence I can hear you But I’m afraid to be near you And I don’t know where to begin And I don’t know where to begin (He does not know how to confront death, he feels the spirit of silence as the call to be aware of death, to become at peace with it and consequently himself)Somewhere in the desert there’s a forest And an acre before us But I don’t know where to begin But I don’t know where to begin (Most likely refers to his despondent state but his belief that there is somewhere he can find peace in spirit to think of his mother happily and without personal sadness) Again I’ve lost my strength completely, oh be near me, Tired old mare with the wind in your hair (straightforward meaning. He is deeply depressed and wants his mum back)Amethyst and flowers on the table, is it real or a fable? Well I suppose a friend is a friend And we all know how this will end (He does not know if his memories are positively biased as there is some truth and lies to it. He is questioning his despondence. But it does not matter much because a friend is a friend regardless and he has to come to terms.) Chimney swift that finds me, be my keeper Silhouette of the cedar What is that song you sing for the dead? What is that song you sing for the dead? (refers to the funeral process, coffin, cremation and song. Possibly he prefers to cremate 'chimney swift'. Cedar is a very rot resistant wood and bugs do not eat it, so it is a good but fairly expensive coffin wood. It also is a very spiritual wood in many traditions for sending off the dead. It could mean he spared no expense with her coffin.) I see the signal searchlight strike me in the window of my room Well I got nothing to prove Well I got nothing to prove (after the funeral process, he reflects on himself in the most intimate of ways, as if he is before god and cannot lie to himself and so must confront any feelings he has in full honesty)I forgive you, mother, I can hear you And I long to be near you But every road leads to an end Yes every road leads to an end (straightforward, he forgives her for the trespasses he hints at earlier in the passage. He still loves her but has come to accept the fact of her death) Your apparition passes through me in the willows: Five red hens-you’ll never see us again You’ll never see us again (this line kills me; it is him truly accepting death, that it cannot be fought. Willows are very spiritual trees, they are flexible and symbolize recovery, bonding from support and moving with the flow of life. Also willows are hunched trees, nicked weeping willows for their resemblance to persons hunched in grief. Five red hens could refer to family. They will not ever see her again, it is reversed to change the perspective to one of mutual loss)

[@hailey2057]

its funny how everyone gets something different out of a song. i always saw the "amethyst and flowers" part as him asking himself if its really true, is she really dead? but saying "a friend is a friend" was like saying his delusions of her being alive were fine if they helped. and now, since reading this, i see it both that way and the way you put it.

[@xaftershock3380]

The song I s about the death with dignity act that was passed this year. Allowing my a thermally I’ll patient to end their life of their terms. That’s what the song is about. It’s not my view, it’s facts from the people who created it. It’s also a big part of Captain Spirit, and that’s what happened to the main characters mom.

[@felipeeira]

@@xaftershock3380 yes that also makes sense! Maybe his mother choosed to die that way, and that is why he says he forgives her?

[@felipeeira]

Damn now im thinking the whole song is about his mom coming to terms with death in her deathbed

[@torigen5303]

Thank you!😀

[@wkduffy]

Oh God, I've got to call my mom.

[@dillonsnyder1172]

Your mother is a gift, cherish her.

[@jamescollins9981]

*Listen to 'Peacock Affect - I Wrote This In The Dark'*

[@naomiz5099]

I just approached mine and she was passive-agressive for reasons I can't understand :(

[@tymar1985]

Coming up in February of 2018, my mother will be deceased for 7 years. She passed on Valentine's Day of 2011. The thought of her is unbearable at times. I miss her.

[@wayansuardyana]

youre so sweet like rambut nenek

[@denneyandthejets7833]

if you've never cried to this song we can't be friends

[@jamall7003]

what if I really love the song but never cried?

[@itsnicerachelwerehaving-6785]

I would but I’m dead inside

[@brandondenney2788]

@@jamall7003 we can still be friends

[@baddiesthatgotthephatty1195]

my third time crying to it today

[@C4DC]

I feel emotional listening to this but I’ve held my tears in for so long that I don’t think I can get them out anymore 🙁

[@user-mu4uw2kp7b]

This song gets me pretty emotional. One because the lyrics are for some reason extremely relatable, and two because the melody is just really calming that it makes me think. A lot.

[@TDItaly98]

This is the song that speaks to all. This is the guitar that sounds like our souls. This is the piano that echoes in our minds. This is the melody that makes you smile and cry at the same time. This is a promise. This is a prayer. This... This, is us.

[@mrturtle6372]

nice poen

[@timegoesby421]

Beautiful 💙🙏

[@dzamija922]

maaaaaan shut the fuck up fore I take your BITCH again

[@IcatusGames]

I have lost my grandfather my father, my best friend and my childhood pet, all tragically, and in a matter of 18 months. Im devastated and feel like I cant breathe. This song has been the only brief peace ive found in recent time. Thank you, it really is beautiful.

[@jenerplanta]

Be strong, my dude. I've never felt that dread before but it always gets better even though you can't see ir

[@ms.cartoonist9576]

Just know, there's always someone there for you. Anywhere and everywhere. Have someone to rely on and be your comfort. I really do hope the best for you. And I hope you find love with many people as life goes on :)

[@DaniBee2900]

i'm so fucking sorry....it feels like it all comes in at once. i lost my mom in may, now my childhood cat, my first baby has heart failure. life is cruel

[@maxonite]

Spotify shuffled this song in a playlist for me 5 mins before midnight while i was relaxing in the tub thinking bout life... so this is my 2020 song now... 👍 happy new year, everybody

[@inside9787]

Its been a great year so far

[@chinmay2910]

@@inside9787 one of the best

[@anishabose3001]

2020 vibes!

[@SezenSever]

you did yourself a bad there buddy. yikes.

[@boystupid1279]

happy 2020

[@TheAcdc77]

I cried my fucking eyes out. Such a beautiful song. I want to be buried to this.

[@EMDEEW]

***** , once you turn 13 you will too one day, my bold friend.

[@EMDEEW]

***** You mean irony? Because that would make me take my words back, brother. Sarcasm is a bit strange in this context. Anyway, all the best to you.

[@Gyork_]

Jessie Maness Funny that you mention it I had some chronical diarrhea yesterday while my roomate was playing this song and I asked him to please stop it because I felt I was gonna die sitting in the toilet, ironically I didn´t knew the song was called death with Dignity, beautiful song though, main reason why I am here now but bad timming.

[@WE-qc5fx]

Jessie Maness This is the happiest song on the album LOL

[@tbdworks]

Pythagoras Theorem LOL

[@pepsiman9688]

I listened to this song for the first time a couple hours ago and it broke me. My father passed away 3 years ago, and even though he’s talking about her mother in the track, I can’t stop thinking about my dad. Accepting death and grief has been the most difficult thing I have experienced in my life.

[@rizkisaputra19]

same, my dad died 3 years ago and im in still on a state not really believing he is really died, sometimes it always got me thinking here and there then cry a bit but hey, its a part of life, people come and go

[@mlpcoomjar4183]

Just remember, accepting death and grief doesn't mean you can't cry about it. It's alright if you still cry over it

[@Kyydon]

I love his style. It’s so distinct, you could pick his songs out from anywhere-it’s magical, I can’t even think of a word to describe the feeling

[@mcortezwriter]

My 8 year old daughter won't let me play this album. I practically wore out the CD from playing it all last summer in the car, and eventually admitted to her that it was about the death of Sufjan's mom. Now if she hears even one bar of the opening arpeggios from the other side of the house, she screams, "MAMA! I TOLD YOU NOT TO PLAY THAT! IT'S! TOO!! SAD!!!"

[@mcortezwriter]

+Marisol Cortez ETA: She just saw Sufjan's name in an open tab in my browser and said, "MAMA. NO. I'm going to close that." And then she closed it.

[@drastia2246]

@@mcortezwriter that is sad and cute :)

[@DarrenT777]

Took such a simple guitar arpeggio and made this very beautiful deep song with it that's amazing

[@JoeArant]

Sufjan Stevens brought me here.

[@wayansuardyana]

really, he must be tired

[@Geistzor]

Same Bro. Same. Sufjan is a legend.

[@TheRisskee]

HAHAHAHAHAHA! Thank you, good sir. In the plethora of "such and such show brought me here", this is pleasantly refreshing. 😎👍

[@artemimartin600]

Sufjan is the best 👍

[@guimochet]

you guys hold hands?

[@biuhih667]

Listening to even the first few seconds of this song will put me in instant bliss. It makes me remember all those magical morning times I'd walk with my mother, give her little flowers to put in her hat, and watch the soft sky change colors. The sun wouldn't be out yet itd still be softly lit, we could walk with the fading moon and the rising sun. Beautiful times, walk with your loved ones.

[@stefaniechrissi3743]

Beautiful words, beautiful heart. I wish all the best for you.

[@chamoddasanayaka9412]

Lyrics 👇 Spirit of my silence I can hear you, but I'm afraid to be near you And I don't know where to begin And I don't know where to begin Somewhere in the desert there's a forest, and an acre before us But I don't know where to begin But I don't know where to begin Again I lost my strength completely, oh be near me tired old mare With the wind in your hair Amethyst and flowers on the table, is it real or a fable? Well I suppose a friend is a friend And we all know how this will end Chimney swift that finds me be my keeper, silhouette of the cedar What is that song you sing for the dead What is that song you sing for the dead I see the signal searchlight strike me, in the window of my room Well I got nothing to prove Well I got nothing to prove I forgive you mother I can hear you, and I long to be near you But every road leads to an end Yes every road leads to an end Your apparition passes through me, in the willows and five red hens You'll never see us again You'll never see us again

[@atticuslikesbees]

Thank you 🌱

[@Thisworldisagoner]

I used to listen to this album non-stop when I was doing my masters. Especially when I would go on a grocery run to some huge store and put on my headphones and then its just me and Sufjan's hauntingly beautiful lyrics. Its been three years and I don't listen to this album as often but when I do I feel so much happier. Maybe because I loved those years of my life and how these beautiful songs were there to accompany me through them.

[@shuoyan7129]

Everytime I listen this song,the tears just can not help to come out.something deep in my heart are hurting beating feeling.

[@Domqquq]

I am truly grateful for having a great mother who made me grow.

[@janelane187]

This album really is pulling me out of my depression. I am forever grateful Sufjan.

[@sayan_tan]

Sufjan, you're a mega person. Carrie and Lowell is the pinnacle of nostalgia, of a innocent and lost world. You had a great step dad, a great mother. This album art makes me emotional, just an old picture. Memories of a less complicated world. God bless you brother. I wish I will be able to die with dignity too.

[@sterrell6601]

Healing my soul and my own trauma with my alcoholic and abusive mother with this. Love you forever, Sufjan.

[@vanessaassenav]

I just buried my dog, and this song came to me in the way music comes at times like these to heal us. Thank you sufjan stevens

[@keialine]

Spirit of my silence I can hear you, but I'm afraid to be near you And I don't know where to begin And I don't know where to begin Somewhere in the desert there's a forest, and an acre before us But I don't know where to begin But I don't know where to begin Again I lost my strength completely, or be near me tired old mare With the wind in your hair Amethyst and flowers on the table, is it real or a fable? Well I suppose a friend is a friend And we all know how this will end Chimney swift that finds me be my keeper, silhouette on the seater What is that song you sing for the dead What is that song you sing for the dead I see the signal searchlight strike me, in the window of my room Well I got nothing to prove Well I got nothing to prove I forgive you mother I can hear you, and I long to be near you But every road leads to an end Yes every road leads to an end Your aberration passes through me, in the willows and five red hens You'll never see us again You'll never see us again

[@martinkalin537]

"silhouette on the cedar" is the lyric

[@ajc94]

I think it's apparition rather than aberration haha

[@mattmurphy6]

"forest, and a maker before us".?

[@thecharlieramirez]

*Oh, be near me tired old mare

[@Colin-kh6kp]

Martin Kalin it’s actually silhouette OF the cedar, just sayin.

[@melmarin-x6i]

Carrie and Lowell almost saved my life in dark times. She left us at that videostore. I was always suffering because of my irresponsible mom, just like Sufjan. This song was never my best until recently, when my mom, who lived far away was diagnosed with Alzheimer's at 60. As an only child, I had to take her in and become the mom she never was to me... A few years have passed and I listen to this while her body is still "alive". Definitely a road that leads to an end in all senses. No way to get closure, I can only make myself feel better about it. Wrenching.

[@Akiren88]

Does this make anyone else think of their childhood? The song is so light hearted. Making you not have a worry in the world. The the song stops and you can’t help but need another listen to escape...

[@falgunichauhan7840]

I just miss my dad so much. I wish I could hear his voice right now. This song makes me cry every single time. How beautiful. How raw. makes my heart sink.

[@PamelaRubyRussell]

My mother committed suicide at age 45. I was only 22. I understand! I am 75 now and I still miss her... she is "forever young" for me... a little strange I suppose. I have forgiven my mother, but it took me decades to get to that place, because of my misplaced sense of guilt that was attached to it, that I had failed to save her life. My comprehension of becoming an elder woman has always been a little askew... but finally I am beginning to find my own way at this austere place/time in my life. Beautiful piece of music. We all have an end date. Maybe it is okay that people choose their final day. I hope to be around for as long as I can... I seek joy and peace. I don't know if there is "anything" else... My eyes well up with tears still when I remember some things about her. I was the one that my mother would call every time she attempted suicide, and finally I moved away, and begged her to try to get help. It had to be her decision, I thought... it was a time when there was very little help available... now there is the National Prevention of Suicide Org... The former senator Harry Reid began it. It is a wonderful organization. There is an international part of it as well. Take care. You are not alone. (sprc.org/news/senator-harry-reid-a-lifetime-of-service-to-suicide-prevention/#:~:text=In%201999%2C%20at%20the%20request,for%20Prevention%20of%20Suicide%20Day.)

[@sunmoth7101]

This song is in Captain Spirit and just shows the wonder of a child behind closed doors, reminding me of a youth that’s so distant. Coming from an abusive home I found wonder in the outside and turned to weed and depression for coping. I was a sad little girl for so long and this song reminds me of my happy days with friends and riding bikes and ice cream. I’m high, I know; but I realize how short life is and I’m feeling so lucky to tap into something that i thought was gone

[@bananabread010]

this song reminds me of being a kid so much. *sheds tear*

[@thatcrackerjack3225]

hotcakesand syrup bc you're parents are dead?🤔🤔

[@bayoanrios9389]

hotcakesand syrup Exactly the same feeling. Wow.

[@struthut]

hotcakes w/butterandsyrup im glad im still a child

[@reubee03]

Mine ended when I was 10 and just saying ADHD and depression do not go well together

[@g1k104]

oh :( rip

[@dexplays3298]

This song is making me so emotional, it really hurts...

[@josephgavrilides8383]

This Is Us

[@apetnamedsteve4070]

Yes!! Such a good show!!

[@aditisrivastava1341]

Listening it after 15 days of losing my mother. Feels like a punch in my gut. I used to love this song and used to listen it almost daily but after losing her, it just is so difficult to hear it. I can't help but get reminded of all the memories, all the sleepless nights, all the laughters,all the fights. Sigh...what will I do to have them back.

[@domisfaded420]

Rough shit man, u'll see ur in the other life, I believe in u🙌

[@aditisrivastava1341]

@@domisfaded420 Thank you :"). Its been really difficult for me these days. But your comment made me smile. Means a lot to me.

[@akaenteng2895]

How are you buddy? Just take your time in healing :")

[@aditisrivastava1341]

@@akaenteng2895 thanks for asking. I'm doing much better. Its difficult but I'm trying my best.

[@jeremiahmatthew1955]

Just something about that “you’ll never see us again” line that always gets me

[@sonicgrub]

He did it again another album of the decade personal, honest and resonating never thought he'd come close to Illnois I stand corrected

[@robertdvorkin1633]

+sonicgrub word

[@geokeoGR]

+sonicgrub It easily surpasses illinois

[@sonicgrub]

geokeoGR I disagree. Illinois is very dear to me since this is how I discovered Sufjan. I recorded his live performance during the Illinois tour from KCRW in 2005 and played it in my truck before college classes. Was struck how good the songwriting was. And then heard the full deal on record and was stunned. Sprawling and ambitious, it reminded me of an oral version of Grandma Moses' paintings. To steal from Sufjan; Illinois is an Arts and Crafts tone poem. High art in a down to earth way. I could hear Illinois in any mood since it covers so much emotional ground, while Carrie and Lowell is more niche listening. If I'm in an upbeat, celebratory mood Carrie doesn't do, but Illinois does. There is no song on Carrie that matches the perfection and exultancy of Jacksonville. But if I need to feel the deep roots of familial earth, I'll spin Carrie to deep satisfaction.

[@nourane2306]

For some reason, this is my hope song. When I listen to it, I feel like everything's going to be okay. It's soothing.

[@foolishshradefortnite7754]

Randall: *spends 3 minutes yelling at his biological dad for leaving him at a fire station as a newborn baby* William: would you like to come in? Randall: ....yeah.

[@randomfandoms6769]

RIP William:(

[@mayasanchez5251]

that scene was so good. like- I WILL NEVER FORGET ABOUT IT.

[@hereyago9460]

This Is Us is Everything! js

[@rameshsamanto7954]

Well his biological father has received Emmy

[@SagnikChowdhury-jy7yk]

Finally This is Us people

[@gagereddish4831]

Straight up listened to this song on loop for 3 hours straight because I felt like it

[@mathildeleprince5597]

Currently doing that

[@peacelovingmusicwarrior5823]

This song is medicine.This song was sent to me by my closest friend after the passing of my Mother.Helps the pain.

[@luv_natyy]

this song is a masterpiece, a pure art. thank you captain spirit for making me discover it

[@erincrean5757]

I LOVE THIS SONG SO MUCH I COULD'NT GET ENOUGH OF IT IN THE GAMEEE

[@paranoid97]

Days after my 25th birthday i lost my precious mom 'cus of covid, a good friend of mine told me about this album, and soon after hearing the first lyrics of Death with Dignity i felt like a tight hug from her and a big weight was off from my shoulders, needless to say that this became one of my "comfort albums" whenever i feel sad or falling into a depression, makes me feel like everything will be fine after all the pain... Mom, someday we will see us again ♥️ love you, keep singin' beautiful up there...

[@lounaannajung4454]

On 2018, I listened to this with my brother on repeat on our very first flight (and first trip without my parents). We went literally to the other side of Earth. More than 11,000 km away from home. To meet my LDR boyfriend. And then again on our way back. I cried so much and my brother was so loving. This song unintentionally became a song that holds a very dear place in my heart. ❤ Thank you for sharing 🙏

[@Ahmad-hy6pc]

I brought myself here

[@alea4e693]

hey i like you :)

[@wayansuardyana]

god damn, youre independent man

[@meepysama9951]

Nice

[@niall798]

Congrats

[@user-uu7ez3oh3m]

Good job

[@irems5926]

This song has such a nostalgic vibe. It takes me back to my childhood. It makes me feel so sad and happy at the same time. I lo-lo-love this song!!

[@vivil7917]

Each time I listen to this song, I will recall the days that I was apart with my husband, it always brings me full of tears. But thanks to his support we passed the hard times together and finally get together and now live the life we want. This is the treasure for my life, cuz it reminds me the importance of loving each other and keeping trying.

[@milos345]

I didnt know anyone still listened to this so im glad to know im not alone :'D

[@JosephThompson619]

the greatest album I've experienced in a very very long time. When I say long time I mean more than a decade...I listen to the entire album a few times a week, mostly in morning over my coffee. This album is perfection, I look forward to your next album and hope it embraces the same feeling and level this is on.

[@chickensdontclap147]

This, Divers and To Pimp a Butterfly are my favourite albums of the year!!

[@chickensdontclap147]

Joanna is incredible. Saw her live recently and it blew my mind. I don't love the new record as much Ys or HOOM but its still pretty rad.

[@isaacdilworth]

+Dallas Jokic Are you me?

[@marcobazan4187]

+Ransom Lewis but TPAB is like album of the year..

[@marcobazan4187]

***** yes I know it won but it was a wrong call imo one if the biggest snubs in the Grammy's history. It won becuase popularity and pop appeal.

[@marcobazan4187]

***** I could say the same about Kendrick's album too. But, I haven't heard of MEW's album so I'll have to give it a listen

[@slimeyfaced]

This song just.... Breaks me down into a sad mess of emotions. I relate to this song a lot. My mother and father argue a lot. I just want them together for once like they used to for the first couple of years of my life. I know love doesn't work with people and people sees I'm just some "edgy" 12 year old. I just hope everything gets better. Thank you, Sufjan Stevens for making something that relates to me so much. 💕

[@jiyaakhanna5676]

Hold on, it'll get better. Sending lots of strength and love your way:)

[@knfives]

i lost my mom on the 10th of february, 2022. the wound is still really fresh, we had an incredibly rough relationship and she traumatized me a lot, making me afraid to try to rebuild a relationship with her. the day before she passed we went shopping and sat in her car for awhile. i felt i was ready to fix things. even if i cant now, i forgive her, for everything. all of it. she was my anchor even when i didnt realize it. i love you mom, i'm glad you're finally safe.

[@davidevansortiz7006]

I just moved to University in another state far away from my family and this song is helping me a lot. I was always very family attached, especially with my mom, and became a lot more since the pandemic. It is sad to separate from your family and even though it is just for some 3-4 months, it is hard when you've lived with them for 19 years 24/7, but it is life and time passes fast and thankfully all people here are nice and friendly, but sometimes you just miss your family, your dog, your bed, your mom's food and those times when your only worries where to study and have fun. Enjoy your family, treat them like if it was the last day, live the moments happily and always say that you love someone when you mean it. An advice that everyone says but you're really never ready for it, even when you think you are, growing is hard, especially leaving your loved ones. Loving is painful, but there's a saying that says that loving doesn't mean not to suffer, it means not to err

[@blackguy_tv9411]

I almost cry at the fact that there is 5 things that people at the age of 7 want to go back and change and that goes all through life. I love that this song brings it out of me.

[@noramasa]

"Yes every road leads to an end." And so does the wolf brothers' story. I'm so glad I got to experience such an adventure.

[@theda6723]

I love his music! It is like a dream full of tragedy and love

[@deniese2104]

Sufjan Stevens' songs are those type of songs that magically brings people altogether in the most wholesome-est way as possible. This is one of his songs that I dearly love.

[@TusharDeb]

I'm not crying, you're crying.

[@deadbutterfly7846]

'Because.. we've all been children' CaptainSpirit Here!!

[@clairegranier2428]

No other musician has taken me on such journeys as Sufjan Stevens does. I thank him, so much, for the beauty of his music.

[@Chascoso]

This reminds me of my relationship with my mom. She was abusive during my childhood, and it affected me greatly. I remember listening to this song back then and how this song described how much I longed to have a relationship with her without it being toxic and filled with anger and sadness. I'm glad to say that now she made a drastic change and is completely different. She's a lot more friendly and I feel like I'm finally developing the bond we should've had ages ago. However, now whenever I listen to this song, it actually feels more sad...Because I picture this song playing at her funeral for when the time inevitably comes. How the last verse perfectly describes the dread that will come with her passing.

[@spoiltmilk6511]

i wish more people were talking about the actual song and not what brought them here

[@melissataylor1561]

spoilt milk this song makes me think of how my mother is aging and will soon be where I will never see her again. And I sent it to a close friend who lost her mom because it was so beautiful and sad and just amazing

[@honkmaster]

Well said, mob.

[@MrA3523]

My grandmother died recently, my mom is still healthy and energetic, but I'm worried now.

[@spoiltmilk6511]

@@MrA3523 I'm sorry you're going through that, I send you my best wishes. I'm sure your mom will be ok

[@dabiclips1094]

Dying with dignity law for me is the most painful, and also the feeling of real freedom, having your own life handed to your hand is freedom

[@similisticmurfur3964]

I had a dream last night. Reminding me of a laughter, and smile that I so dearly miss. But I remember the joy I felt, while this song played gently in the background. I miss those days.

[@zipkitty]

I am turning 26 this year, I thought by now I would be ready for the loss of so many near me, because it is inevitable. But I am certainly not ready nor do I feel I will ever be. I just hope my heart will be strong enough and these songs will be here to help me out.

[@Maggie12791]

That part at the end, after the singing ends, gets me everytime...it's pure pain and grief expressed through melody

[@IKHANOGRAPHY]

2:32 "I forgive You, Mother. I can hear You and I long to be near You, but every Road leads to an End."

[@cosmicbixby3459]

I began listening to this song as a way of coping when I'm scared, and that's why I'm listening to it now. This song makes me feel like I'm sitting on a bridge at sunset, letting everyone I love hug me peacefully. That's what I want. I'm going to the emergency room because my knee is hurting too much to walk. I'm a minor, and I'm scared. I can't go to my job, I can't take a stroll with my friends. I don't know what exactly is wrong, but I hope it isn't severe. Wish me luck.

[@shayanali9141]

I see comments like Kanye made him famous His fame is because of his talent and music

[@stefond7908]

there are a lot of people with good talent and good music that never become famous. A person as big as Kanye shouting you out can definitely help regarding fame. I do not know how well he was known before Kanye. I personally ran into him through This Is Us

[@lamestudiosinc418]

@@stefond7908 He was already pretty big in the folk community, definitely not obscure.

[@OMCollective]

@@stefond7908 Yeah he's been selling out shows internationally for like 5-10 years. But now he's more famous. That's probably good too.

[@seanparsonsmusic230]

I was gifted this album, the day I got to my beloved grandfather for the last time. This song is a heartbreaker. Although it's about Sufjans mother, it really helped me in my process of grieving. The line "five red hens, you'll never see us again", really helped me to fully grasp the totality of death, and the fullness of loss.

[@roda.7853]

Sufjan Stevens' music reaches my heart and soul; it lives there now.

[@saturnmercury3112]

this song will always hold a place in my heart . i found it by chance at the worst point in my life and it gave me a calmness i had never felt before

[@caesario8791]

Thank you, Sufjan, for helping me come to terms with my mother's passing.

[@quahmeilrobinson7953]

Captain spirit brought me here

[@matthewellis2585]

I recommend listening to this right after listening to his song “Romulus”. Romulus is a picture of a young man’s angst against the mother that abandoned him while this song shows a picture of a wiser man who understands the importance of living with forgiveness in your heart. How the burden of being unforgiving weighs far more to the person carrying it than it does on the person who caused the initial pain. I love watching an artist grow.

[@cinephile5939]

I lost my mother 4 years ago to brain tumor. I haven't moved on. Feels like an important part of me me is missing and this void will never be filled by anything or anyone. Also, i refuse to move on because its the only way i feel i am connected to her. Still feels like Yesterday. The Pain in Sufjan's voice is so deep, always makes me cry and is very relatable. Sufjan is my Hero ❤

[@GerhardtFox]

It's your family. You have to make a new one.

[@malekhaddad1389]

I’m no professional and I don’t mean to give a lesson or anything. That said, I feel like when somebody you love has died, you need to find a way to be connected to them through the happiness they brought to you, not only to the pain that their absence brings. Being in pain is not the only way to stay connected to a person you love. When you are happy, sad or angry, you also are connecting with them because you have probably felt all those emotions towards your mother in the past. I feel like I’m not using the right words and that this comment is confusing. But I just mean to say that if you feel like you can’t allow yourself to be happy in your life because you think that you would be abandoning her, well I don’t think you would. I think you would be sharing the rest of your life with her, sharing the happy moments and the sad and that’s probably what she would have wanted for you.

[@cinephile5939]

@@malekhaddad1389 i really understand where you're coming from, thankyou very much for your kind words!

[@DaniBee2900]

i know your pain

[@malekhaddad1389]

@@cinephile5939 I’m glad it was understandable, thank you for your kind answer 😊

[@MattTylerwywh]

My own music taste brought me here

[@alicehall6232]

Lol ditto

[@soulcamil]

How wonderful it is that 2 great works have something so beautiful in common, This is us and Captain Spirit. I'm in the right place and with the right people.

[@dipendraupadhyay3901]

My favourite show "THIS IS US" brought me here

[@apetnamedsteve4070]

Same!!

[@susanacardosogoncalves1010]

Yes, me too.

[@carloambrosio6726]

What? This was really used in TV shows?

[@braykoterba5611]

What I was brought here by captain spirit

[@wkduffy]

It’s funny, but I just found my original comment on this Sufjan track from 8 years ago (I said “Oh God, I need to call my mom”). And I did call her, many times. But here 8 years later, my mom is now dead. She died 2 years ago from a heart attack at age 82. Actually, she had one heart attack that she recovered from, and I had the pleasure of being her caregiver, waiting on her hand and foot for a few weeks while she recovered. I'm so glad I had that time with her, even though during that time she was so afraid another heart attack might happen again. Sadly, a few weeks later, it did happen again. But her second heart attack was fatal, and that was it. "Every road leads to an end." Sufjan is right. Now my mom is just memories and pictures. Bye, bye mom. Love you.

[@stillalexx]

Wishing you the absolute best, man ❤

[@Jack-bl2bj]

I’m very sorry for your loss, wishing also for the best

[@melissab3217]

This song perfectly captures the emotion when my mother in law passed away from cancer last year. I revisit it often to remember her. "Tired old mare with the wind in your hair" - such beautiful imagery to pay tribute.

[@domisfaded420]

Man, I just remembered Captain Spirit, it was blast, and coming back to this song, it's emotional, back when thing's were simple man

[@elisabethstathopoulos3676]

This is so pure; makes me feel like I'm lying down on a cloud floating over a meadow