In My Mind: Living with Psychosis

Psychosis can happen to anyone and it’s far more common than you think. Stress, drugs and sleep deprivation can all trigger an episode. Teenage and young adult brains are particularly vulnerable. Meet a group of young adults, who share their experiences and how they keep well.
If you know someone experiencing signs of psychosis help them get support as early as possible. A GP is a good place to start.
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[@catherineclare1951]

I love this. I work in a psychiatric hospital I see this a lot. It’s great to see people talking about it and how normal they are. It’s hard seeing them only in psychosis and not usually getting to see them better only because I work 3 days a week and people come and go so fast. The goal is to get people stabilized and back into society. I love helping people and treating everyone with dignity and respect.

[@misakihana7593]

Thank you :)

[@Trojan4life3]

Catherine Clare can you please help me , I think my eldest brother has psychosis.. he was perfectly fine just 2 weeks ago and recently he started idek what it is but he claims he has seen Jesus and he most definitely just isn’t himself , I’m really scared and would love some advice please reach out !

[@megadgdg4630]

I'm feeling psychotic and it's scary and I don't know what to do someone please help me pleaseeeeeeeee as I have a plan for suicide soon on the 17th of this month

[@leannedarley2256]

I hope to get into and work in a low to medium to high security hospital I am currently in a rehabilitation centre which I enjoy but I want to do more I work for priory. I am also hoping to do my mental health nursing this coming September

[@sirianstarseed1394]

I have psychosis my grandma abuses me verbally because of it

[@franskel9647]

I got diagnosed with psychosis and it's still a little hard to enjoy things. If you're reading this and you have psychosis, don't give up. You got this, and you're awesome

[@monochromeboy]

Psychosis isn't a diagnosis its something attached to something else. (For example I have major depressive disorder with psychotic features). But psychosis isn't a mental illness, its the symptom of one.

[@MakinaMakinaMakina]

@@monochromeboy comment section full of lies

[@emilyb5278]

Your awesome too

[@freakonia]

Thank you ,you are awezome too 😊🤗

[@franskel9647]

Update: I didn't know much about psychosis at the time, but I was diagnosed as having a psychotic disorder. A year after that and another hospitalization, that psychotic disorder turned out to be Schizoaffective disorder. I'm doing pretty well now actually! So it's totally possible to function well again. It just takes time.

[@tessalogan586]

A psychosis is your brains way of flipping into a dream like way of existing, it's your brains way of coping with the over load of stress,some people are predispisitioned, some are not

[@a1974h]

Tessa Logan that makes so much sense and feels like what happened to me in hindsight

[@raceyboy]

Sounds like derealization.

[@boyandcatmum]

I totally agree with what you said, it explains psychosis exactly.

[@KristiLEvans1]

Interesting perspective.

[@quinexlo5339]

I like this documentary, because it shows that just because you have pyschosis you can still look relatively normal and preform, everyone precives us at all locked up in a mental hospital and that's just not true!!

[@AttitudeLive]

Thanks Quinexl o, we are glad you enjoyed the episode!

[@jamesmarcussolzan5490]

Quinexl o Thank goodness!

[@jedi6435]

I had psychosis once, I had a hallucination that I was a gold angel and I fought in a war against lucifer

[@alundavies8402]

JEDI 643 that’s par for the course

[@carolware1358]

WW1QQQQQ

[@cellogirl11rw55]

I had a friend in college who had psychosis, and I didn't know what it was called until she wrote about an episode on Facebook. There were times where she was very distant, even going to the extent of locking herself in her room up to two weeks at a time, only coming out for class and mealtimes, taking her food back to her room, sometimes not even for that. b One time, I knocked on her door, asking for her companionship to the dining hall, and she screamed at me to go away. Hurt, I asked her why she was pushing everyone away, and she said she was afraid of hurting other people. To that, I replied, "The Rose I know won't even swat a fly because she values its life. If you come with me, I'll make sure you don't hurt anyone, we'll bring our food back here. How does that sound? I think it will be good for you." She softened and obliged. Once we came back, she explained that she was overwhelmed by her class load and was afraid of doing something rash that would hurt someone close to her, including me. I convinced her to go to Student Counseling the next day, and she continued going as often as she could, and she thanked me for pushing her the way I did because she had been considering suicide that day, and it helped her get through that episode.

[@AttitudeLive]

Thanks for sharing your story Cellogirl11RW! truly amazing what can happen when someone reaches out! We hope you enjoyed the episode!

[@someperson3601]

“Why they’d say she wouldn’t even hurt a fly”

[@popbroke3505]

Black Ceiling could be

[@Alex-uy7pc]

What a bullshit story lmao. Nobody believes this, it sounds like it came off the Hallmark channel. Noone quotes themselves when describing a event.

[@Alex-uy7pc]

I confronted her, I reached out, I convinced her to goto counseling. And if that wasn't enough you had to add "she was considering suicide" just to really drum in how good of a person you are. Sorry I don't normally call out peoples bullshit online but I just couldn't help myself.

[@bbqueenyourobots5253]

I hope all people with Psychosis get the help the need.

[@AttitudeLive]

Thanks for watching Bbqueen! Hope you enjoyed and stay tuned!

[@ameliawiseman1158]

Sometimes we don’t because people think I’m just making it up and just don’t care I was once and it wasn’t a good experience and not being believed or no one caring to realise how bad it is and put it down for bad and weird behaviour 😔😔😔

[@happyme3556]

Me too.

[@phillipmakris7345]

unfortunately most of them are sleeping on the sidewalks and yelling at invisible people

[@knullehardt9889]

the ego=psychosis of the mind. "im bored, lets play" and if not up to it.. overthinking. 1 action=6sense=energy=transforms. If I plan doing and not doing, it goes to thoughts andd waste of energy.

[@daviddodds6573]

The constant gaslighting and the back and forth back and forth from narcissists over an extended period can cause severe delusion and psychosis.

[@mariesoto569]

David Dodds God bless that you survived that. You are a true survivor. I was married to a narcissist for 20 years he’s a master manipulator and great at gaslighting. His parents taught him at childhood. I’m now set free. I wanted to understand why he’s the way he is. I go to the root problem he has rejection from his mom she never nurtured him. He hates women. When I was with him I felt like I was going crazy with the way he spoke and treated me. It was constantly mental gymnastics. I can’t explain it was all based on lies and no truth. For anyone to survive that Is a trooper. After I left I can now spot manipulating and narcissism and gaslighting from a mile way. David I pray you share your story with others. Their is strength in your survival of this. Everything the gaslighter has said to you is a LIE. No facts. The truth is your are a beautiful person inside and out. With feelings and emotions and you are valued.

[@nikkic83]

I had a psychotic break from narcissists abuse. I’ve never been the same

[@DivineMisses309]

@@nikkic83 same here

[@DivineMisses309]

Im glad you said this

[@bluelakes_]

This.

[@Hippyme]

It's a horrible mental illness. Recently diagnosed with this illness. Mine came on by intense stress. Take care of yourself. Surround yourself with loved ones, that helps alot

[@jordanandkimbothepugs]

If you're dealing with psychosis and you're reading this, I want you to know that you are not alone. I hope we get through it together.

[@kevinoh1852]

Absolutely,

[@jaytee5500]

For I have satiated the weary soul, and I have replenished every sorrowful soul. Jeremiah 31:25 KJV Therefore also now, saith the LORD, turn ye even to me with all your heart, and with fasting, and with weeping, and with mourning: Joel 2:12 KJV For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved. John 3:17 KJV Then Peter said unto them, Repent, and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins, and ye shall receive the gift of the Holy Ghost. Acts 2:38 KJV

[@paulflint6254]

@@jaytee5500 😁

[@Trusting.the.processing]

Ikr

[@gerrycabellon9577]

amen@@jaytee5500

[@engindzhanhalmi769]

I had psyshosis. Everything was like a horror film and i was in it being tortured with psychological atacks. Every human movement meant something to me and i was very confused. Like if someone turn their head a little bit to the right it meant that he doens't want to hear more of my sayings and i always got sad.

[@BernieSanders-bn5dk]

Happened to me too although I make a conscious effort to tell myself it's all bullshit and try and chill out

[@NewEraSupreme]

The “every human movement meant something to me” is the scariest. My mom would scratch her hands and my psychosis ass will think “OMG SHE WANTS TO KILL ME I HAVE TO LEAVE AND GO OUTSIDE REAL QUICK” then later when you think about it you’re just like wtf was I thinking lmaaoo

[@jujujimenez8165]

For some reason i feel like i know what ur talkn bout ..

[@josesinclair4768]

Same thing happened to me. I hope you are well since

[@christybruntz3807]

same only i realized how similar people really were in their actions & expressions..

[@messickn]

I've always known I was at high risk of becoming schizophrenic...I was on mood stabilizers and had little episodes throughout my early teenage years. For anyone who hears voices from time to time or has moments of grandeur, some of the worst things you can possibly do are drugs; hallucinogens, like acid for me, and weed are the worst worst worst things you can do. I tripped two months ago and it sent me into psychosis. I just saw a psychiatrist yesterday and have a prescription now. For people living in these delusions, what we experience is entirely real, to us. However, we have to remember that at the end of the day, we are just experiencing the delusions of a sick mind. Your delusions are centered around things in your life which are relevant to you, such as religious beliefs you may or may not have had before your psychotic break. For me, my psychosis provided me a lot of insight into my bad habits and is actually helping me work on them. My advice is to find a stable base in your life, anything from self improvement to connecting with others or working on a long-term goal. If your psychosis becomes too much, just do your best to live your life in a way that would make you look back on your actions and not regret the way you've handled things. It feels like we're alone, but we aren't. I'm always here to talk or listen, so if you guys need anything, message me :) Peace, love, and joy to all of you.

[@claire-ui6pu]

Yes to what you said about weed. I knew it didn’t suit me after one or two years in my youth and my brother was schizophrenic so I just don’t abuse drugs or alcohol as I know there’s a genetic weakness there. Worst I ever experienced was night terrors couldn’t live with hallucinations my heart goes out to you! I think I probably do get moments of grandeur. My kids and life keep me grounded

[@faithlovehope4487]

Thank you! It's so hard to deal with at times

[@SamSung-wp4lh]

I'm so glad the voices are just voices they're going to figure out I'm going to win and all their negativity was all for nothing.

[@Trusting.the.processing]

I’m so lost rn.

[@scottburon5557]

Thank you so much. That helped. I am going on 4 years clean and sober and I still have it. But iam eating right, sleeping 7-9 hours a night, taking vitamins and Anti-Psychotic Medication. I just started to exercise too with short walks, some push-ups, and I read and watch these videos for signs of a cure or something more to assist with the pain. Pain medication seems to help if some of you are feeling pain from Psychosis.

[@puccipower]

I wish America actually helped those who were mentally ill.

[@violetbrugetti6630]

Lil Angelicious oh my god, you look like me. I've never seen anyone that I've looked like. I'm sorry if this is weird but I'm just so freaked out right now lol.

[@cellogirl11rw55]

Angela P I'm a an American with a mental illness, and I must say that America does try to help the mentally ill, but the mental health system is really broken.

[@calecbrayers3739]

It's not as easy as taping a broken piece of paper back together.

[@briarwelton4103]

LOL NOPE. Where are you located, because I need to move there. Mental healthcare in America is garbage.

[@Lakota828]

I find you can get crisis help by checking yourself into a hospital, but getting any form of aftercare (or any form of help other than a psych hospital) is ridiculous. I usually have to wait a year to see a psychiatrist or psychologist. It's insane.

[@ffishfinger]

The boxer gym dude is amazing. The few clips that showed him smiling, training with other people, were great to see. He has a really infectious smile, I hope he finds more things in life that make him genuinely smile. All powerful people, inside and out.

[@AttitudeLive]

Thanks for the kind words! we hope you enjoyed the episode!

[@user-ku1sd3iq5k]

ffishfinger I agree, he is the one in this documentary I remember. He's crossed my mind. And him being attractive doesn't hurt

[@Starsunshine777]

Boxing is great for mental illness

[@maggiet644]

Oh my goodness, people never really talk about mental health because of its stigma. These people are fighters. it's nice to see I'm not alone in some of my symptoms I experience as a result of certain events.

[@AttitudeLive]

Thanks again for watching Rikki, we really appreciate the support!

[@Fadder90]

Cannabis triggered mine. It never went away, I regret ever smoking it. The boxer reminds me of what my psychosis is like. Really negative thoughts about myself and the feeling that everyone makes fun of me, causing social anxiety. It’s hard to live with.

[@chavezunseen]

Chirpzie time man....only time. Meanwhile, do your best to be and getting better everyday

[@fredweeks9451]

exactly what im like does it get better?

[@chavezunseen]

Fred Weeks yeah with time and patience

[@kittycatyness6429]

Me too😟

[@joeldecoster8816]

cannibus has completely destroyed my mind

[@kuz7man]

I've watched a lot of videos on psychosis and this is the best one I've seen.

[@AttitudeLive]

Thanks so much Karan!

[@LoveandHappiness37]

Agreed.

[@AttitudeLive]

Thank you!

[@Sirdy857]

Attitude What can I do to get help I'm dealing with physcosis and it's really effecting my life. I've lost touch with reality I try to talk to my family about this but they just laugh at me. I went to the doctors yesterday to tell him how I was feeling he gave me a prescription for depression and anxiety because I'm dealing with those illnesses to. I lost all of my good friends because of this and I feel withdrawn from family my brothers don't even want anything to do with me.

[@sneakersheik2418]

Sir Dd It’s five months later, but are you doing better? I hope you got help and are doing well.

[@isaiah1of187]

I’ve been diagnosed with psychosis and I’m functioning just fine. I go on throughout my day without problems achieving my goals and pursuing a purpose.

[@kevinoh1852]

That's great, I hope to be there one day. Your comment gives me hope! :).

[@arlondon2434]

How do you block out the voices

[@isaiah1of187]

@@arlondon2434 catch em and release

[@DemureDarlings]

I’m so happy and proud of you. 🙏🏼

[@Nancy-pc6sf]

Wow

[@nandistaton2503]

Withdrawing from benzos caused me to have hallucinations; auditory and visual, and the insomnia made it worse. It was absolutely terrifying, especially when I thought people I loved were out to get me. It was so so realistic. I'm 100% better now, but I do have a family member who suffers from paranoid schizophrenia. Going through that really helped me understand what she goes through. I pray all of these people stay strong. Love and support are so important during this. ❤️

[@taurytaury4752]

How long did this last? And are u schizophrenic?

[@nandistaton2503]

@@taurytaury4752 No, I'm not schizophrenic. It only lasted for about 2 days. It was temporary because Benzo withdrawal can cause hallucinations. Plus I've been on it for 12 years, so quitting cold turkey is NEVER a good idea. Had I tapered off, I would have been okay.

[@icebergslim8926]

Nandi Staton hope your doing better

[@RaneBane]

I remember going through this many times , I was actually asking people if they thought I was a schizo because I couldnt trust my own judgement.

[@D.1992-w9l]

@Nandi Staton I was on serepax for 8 years. One week I ran out of them. Had terrible withdrawals. Now I'm on diazepam to slowly get off. Not sure how long I will have to take them for.

[@ga3906]

My mother has been diagnosed with psychosis for 7 years and after having a strict diet and workout routine she has not had a breakdown for the last 5 yes. There is hope whoever is reading this and has psychosis know that you can have a regular life. You are amazing and know people love you. You are one of the strongest people and can do it.

[@Jonathan-iq2jh]

Hey! Mind sharing her diet and workout routine? Would love to try it out!!

[@Veronica-yd5dz]

I would also like to know what kind of diet and workout routine

[@mihaiapostol6423]

@@Veronica-yd5dz I think it doesn't matter that much which. Eating healthy (fruits, veggies, eggs, meat, nuts, whole grains) & going for a brisk walk or running can do wonders :)

[@ItsAllNunya]

this is the only video i've seen talking specifically about spectrum Psychosis, not Schizophrenia. Thank you so much. not all psychotic people are schizophrenic. sometimes we're broken a little differently.

[@kevinoh1852]

Indeed, I was diagnosed with Bipolar 1, and had dealt with psychosis.. So I absolutely know the feel.

[@lesleymetthews4590]

My son drank himself to death aged 41 three years ago because of this. The Nhs in the UK was hopeless treating him,they had no understanding or empathy.The most important thing is to have friends and family to be there come what may.This is an illness of the brain and soul,my son believed the devil was after him.It started when he was about twelve but i think the signs were there before.In the end he gave up fighting he became tired.He was a good,kind man and a talented guitarist but he was lonely.Please give these people your time,your hand,help them to see the way out of the darkness,men are especially vulnerable.

[@elleh3495]

Lesley Metthews 💔😢I'm so sorry for your loss of your boy. It's heartbreaking, even moreso because we have a system that fails almost everyone with mental health issues. Its either inaccessible because of money or insurance or clinics are too busy, or the people staffing them are not using dynamic and varied treatments geared toward the individual. We have a long way to come as humans in so many areas. I hope you are ok.

[@clarakennedy2922]

I'm so sorry for your loss. As a Christian, I'm struggling too with the idea of psychological vs demonology and under what I call an intense "spiritual attack" I'm sure my cats are seeing things too...but my husband (muslim) doesn't understand. I'm also in the UK. NHS don't help. I'm so sorry for ur tragedy....I truly am. Ur poor son 😔 sending love and hugs. Xx

[@SSuinn-mg5es]

I have a friend who's bipolar n used to be a drug d3aler as teen so as adult won't be on meds so he drank to drown voices n fall asleep, smoke to rid anxiety, drink energy drinks for depression..

[@hannahkenyon3432]

Another great documentary. As someone who suffers from psychosis, this, for once is a non patronising and exploiting story. X

[@AttitudeLive]

Thanks Hannah, we hope you enjoyed!

[@jodibrazel3919]

Attitude this is great and so truly portrayed my story I hope to help others

[@lyderhorn6240]

Hannah Kenyon it's still a narrative that is mostly written from the perspective of the psychiatric profession

[@facetioustimes6211]

Hannah Kenyon I agree, I also experience psychosis

[@moncho3998]

Can we chill?

[@thetimeisnow613]

I've just got through a strong episode that lasted about 5 days, it's incredible what our minds are capable of. I can't begin to explain what I was believing... Love and light to anyone having a hard time 💜

[@loopy2163]

Mine lasted for 7 months, im proud you got through, I hope you’re doing really good!

[@cherylkhoja917]

I hope you are feeling better. My daughter started about 2 years ago. As a mother, you ask yourself what did I do wrong. She is not on any medication. She has Bipolar/phycosis/Schizophrenia. Doctors could not detect it at an early stage. And now it has reached its peek.

[@loopy2163]

@@cherylkhoja917 honestly for me when I was at my worst I was always scared I’m medicated because of what happened and I will say medication has been a really big trial and error some make you feel nothing at all while some make you feel over simulated and always just dull at the same time my delusions were bad and I think something that helped me was just knowing you can choose who you put yourself around when your feeling really scared or anxious,paranoid, and I think being able to let her choose who she feels comfortable with enough to see her in that state if she needs her space give it to her but definitely make sure to check in when you think you need to it may annoy her but it also helps you for your own well being and the benefit to her if she is in low state of mind but if she also is willing to sit with you and talk about what she may be seeing, feeling, hearing make sure to say it’s okay you may be feeling this but it will pass and this is where coping mechanisms come in and healthy ones because I’ve done both unhealthy and healthy and I will say i feel much more stable doing it the healthy way so square breathing which breathing in for 4 second and breathing out for 4 seconds (that’s my typical one but if she needs to make it longer,she can)

[@dianakarina8080]

@@loopy2163 did you remember what you did during your episode after thee fact when you came back to yourself? Did you regret the pain that may have caused those closest to you?

[@loopy2163]

@@dianakarina8080 it was needing a lot of time to myself to just realize and fully solidify reality and what it really is along with the fact that if I did hurt the people around me it really wasn't my fault I had no idea what was going on around me or what was actually happening I just apologize and hope they don't make me feel bad for it :)

[@JotaroKujo-zc3dn]

I've dealt with psychosis for around half a year now, i hear voices all the time, and i get so angry for no reason and im sorry for everyone dealing w/ it

[@ohmymeta8669]

I had psychosis and had major delusions. It was a living hell. At one point i thought i would never come back from what i considered a permant insanity. I'm now on risperidone and am one hundred percent better. Never stop fighting. It'll be ok, but you can't back down if you have a problem. There's somebody out there like you. It WILL get better.

[@kerryevans7793]

Good for you hun I felt that to when yr in it It feels it will never end . My last 2 half years wether it was or wasnt psycosis It was shock what led to many symptoms main on intrusive harm ocd . Insomina suersidle deppressed anxiety hyper vigilant .in all of it i felt my brain sore i kept telling my husband i feel my brains broken

[@ta.entmoney3405]

me too im 15 heard stuff saw stuff all day, thought everyone and everything was fake, had multiple episodes and phycotic breaks, unexplainable out of body sensations, everytime i realized i was alive i had an instant panic attack, led me to be very suicidal because i was way past my breaking point it’s living hell also on risprodone as of last week

[@Cockneyviking666]

I'm on rispiridone 9 mg and sertraline 200 mg

[@lupitaortiz1471]

God bless you 🙏 my husband is going through it I am his punsing bag

[@Nancy-pc6sf]

Thank you

[@JWitt30]

Really enjoyed the way it's filmed thru there perspectives and not just a bunch of doctors giving there input, very good job.

[@AttitudeLive]

Thanks for your kind words, this was a great documentary to film. Hope you enjoyed it and found it informative! Thanks!

[@SuperMissblueeyes]

I totally agree. This is why I enjoy Attitude's videos so much. They look at it from the person's point of view & reality of living with the condition every day.

[@schpleef9395]

their*

[@luna-qv3sc]

My boyfriend suffers with psychosis . I watched this to try and get a better understanding and learn how to help him . I really feel for people who dealing with this on a daily basis , your all amazing xxx

[@sinisasladojevic8455]

Well done

[@Theloss52]

I hope all of you beautiful people find your path to awakening, and have the strength to overcome your fear. Turn away now, and risk becoming forever lost. Dig deep, let go, and come out the other side free.

[@chaosdweller]

🤔

[@Theloss52]

@@chaosdweller I don't remember writing that, and it still sounds like good advice

[@beardforpm2115]

I'm hiding under the covers in my room isolated and afraid of all these hallucinations... I wish I had never taking drugs. 20 years clean but still a daily hell 😢

[@mr.cifuentes1779]

Beard For PM god bless man hope u recover

[@CandyGirl-do9uu]

Don't worry, even once time of taking drugs can make a persons brain fucked up. It messes with ur thinking patterns..

[@mr.cifuentes1779]

Candy Girl are you like that? If so what do you take? Take care

[@tauresattauresa7137]

See your doctor

[@damnmuggle]

Mr. Cifuentes meth

[@captnquazar2153]

Psychosis changed my life forever

[@a1974h]

Lyrick - Music Channel me too

[@bonniejohnson760]

It has for me to. It was a very scary moment in my life and I don't wish this even on my worst enemy.

[@aliennetwork08]

i agree. :(

[@aliennetwork08]

imagined people breaking into my house ran into my neighbors house with a blade in hand cops took me to the hospital whole time i’m imaging swat teams trying to shoot sleep darts in my neck worst experience of my life

[@macaroon147]

I'm sorry bro. Keep strong.

[@tessalogan586]

It's very scary, but i have mastered living with it(: I'm 50, and schizo- affective.

[@jamesb2106]

When did you first go to the hospital for treatment ?

[@kossiscott1002]

Tessa Logan how did you faired on when it comes to higher education. I have had tinnitus and had been diagnosed schizoaffective also. And I think I have a lot of confused thinking. And probably overmasturbation created it.

[@ejbb0374]

My husband had 3 psychotic episodes. Life felt like hell. It was hard. Best thing I did was admit him to hospital. After that he finally took the meds and now is way better. My sympathies to sufferers and their families!

[@DemureDarlings]

That’s wonderful. How are you guys doing now?

[@claire-ui6pu]

Went through soMething similar I wish I admitted him to a hospital but he was too smart and wouldn’t trust anyone in the end including me which made me very sad.

[@ES11777]

Than you for staying by his side and offering him support ❤

[@cass3313]

​@@claire-ui6puI'm going through this right now with my husband. He won't seek help and he rejects my attempts to help him. I'm at my limit and I don't know what to do. I feel like I'm the enemy to him. Nothing I do is right anymore.

[@Liberateus]

I would love to see a episode on dissociation disorder.

[@emilyrothwell7524]

Marly C omg @mylife

[@emilranfors4540]

Me too but i would just dissociate.

[@strawberry444]

@@emilranfors4540 me too

[@emilranfors4540]

@@strawberry444 haha. Is thats whats going on? When i think in my head. Im so done with myself. That pops up. Haha. The Wierdest thing ever happend once. Its a big deal to me but to noone else. I was realy sad and alone. And thought. Well. The next girl that sends me a message. I marry her. In my head. Got a massage. Instantly. After i replyed. Nothing special. Wanna marry me? Wtf? Thats unreal. What are the odds of that happening?

[@thc7865]

I feel like im dead depersonalization and derealization sucks but im going to push throught it im alot better than when it all started but i know i will recover

[@SongofaBeach2012]

I have PTSD, depression and GAD and have had several episodes of psychosis since 2001. It's absolutely terrifying but I notice my episodes are triggered by sleep deprivation. As long as I can sleep I'm ok and can cope with my other mental ilnnesses. But tbh I'm scared I'm headed towards another psychotic episode because I can't sleep lately. My sister committed suicide after having battled schizophrenia for 8 years. This was 2 years ago. Losing her has been the hardest thing and I fear if I have another psychotic break, I'll end my life too. I hope I can get thru and my psychiatrist can help me, but medications have never been my thing

[@mightjaazuz4348]

Practice breath work, it helps me, it might help you

[@mihaiapostol6423]

I'd recommend CBT and mindful meditation therapy, to learn effective coping habits that complemenent the meds. Also, a healthy diet and moving in nature are great for the brain.

[@feinfein4444]

@@mightjaazuz4348 how are you know

[@ZYNinaGazi]

Medication will help . Please take medications

[@ES11777]

@@ZYNinaGazi Incorrect medication can make things worse. My psychosis was fluoxetine-induced! I was taking it for depression and anxiety but it cost me one of the worst psychotic episodes.

[@michelhebert9832]

I had one last year and I can tell you this : the documentary tells the truth. It lasted 1 month and the process of post-psychosis took me some months to be able to finally be back to normal. And yes, I wouldn't change that because me too, with that experience, I can now see life with more positivity and being grateful about living normally again instead of being in that state where you questioning everything and feel vulnerable all the time.

[@nativechique7589]

Will my son come back to himself? It's been a week. They threw him on zyprexa in the er he doesnt have an appt til july 7th n its June 24. He wont go inpatient cuz he cant see or understand.

[@giovannipuccini1967]

Me Chique how is your son doing now?

[@XxhairainbowsugarxX]

My mom is going through this for the first time in her 50s I went researching for some insight. This breaks my heart I feel so sorry for anyone going through this..

[@Sykedhorse]

My sister is currently in a state of psychosis at 36. She has been Jesus and will be the second coming of christ. It started by a fascination in numerology and how she kept seeing certain numbers. Then progressed to her being able to talk to the spirit world which then progressed to her being Jesus. This has all been in a span of about a week. Not sure how long psychosis will last but we can't get her treatment because she truly believes she's here to save the world and nothing is wrong. "They" will take her to the moon where she will transition and come back in her Alien body. It's been very difficult but nothing we can do, she doesn't want help and she hasn't done anything for her to warrant an involuntary hospitalization.

[@XxhairainbowsugarxX]

Sykedhorse I’m so sorry you’re going through this. It’s hard to watch someone you love turn into someone different in bad ways. Since I posted this comment my mom went through another one and we are actually about to pick her up from the hospital. Unfortunately psychosis I don’t think it goes away without treatment. Cause people in psychosis usually don’t sleep and it just continues to get worse. My mom got diagnosed with bipolar 1 and no matter how long we waited to get her to hospital it would progressively get worse until they were able to give her medicine to put her to sleep. I’m not sure if you live in USA but there may be a mobile mental health crisis unit that can come to your house and access her mentally and then get her treatment

[@AbletonLiveTechs]

@@SykedhorseHow’s your sister now? Reminds me of my brother

[@Sykedhorse]

@@AbletonLiveTechsshe’s doing very well now. She eventually got treatment and has been mentally sound since. Thank you for asking.

[@AbletonLiveTechs]

@@Sykedhorse Praise God :) If you dont mind me asking how did you get her to get treatment and seek help? Currently dealing with my brother right now and its brutal. He is living in his van and i feel so bad. Way you described your sister is excactly how my brother is. Would love to chat over the phone and discuss what steps I need to take to get him well

[@JAY-oe5jj]

I just found out my 20 year old nephew has psychosis . He took one of his eye out . My heart breaks to those who suffer with this . I’m now watching videos educate myself .

[@kimberlyelliott7933]

Omg I'm so sorry 😞 Prayers...

[@thekimfamily1380]

I've been dealing with Psychosis for more than 5 years now. I have read that the sooner you have it diagnosed and treated, the better off you will be. Medication and regular Psychiatrist appointments keep it manageable, but I still get episodes pretty often. This disease is an isolating one. I have lost a lot of friends due to not being able to connect with them. And I am sort of ashamed of having to explain myself to others. I am just blessed to have such a good support system from my family. I hope you all find some peace during this holiday season. And in the rest of your lives. Love and good thoughts go out to all of you who are directly affected or know someone struggling with a mental illness. Things can get better for us all. There is hope! 🤴👍🌅❤

[@jaidinpatterson9075]

Your comment actually made me schedule a psychiatry appointment so thank you 😊

[@andyc9902]

Are you a targeted individual? Your comment seemed similar

[@eej9273]

Makes you feel a little less lonely watching something like this. Makes me want to get help. I have had severe depression for a long time, got RA when I was 17, I am bi-polar, told I am very psychotic, sociopathic, paranoid, anhedonic, delusional, I am an alcoholic, had problems with gambling and drugs, got into a lot of very risky sexual situations, sometimes I feel way too much or absolutely nothing at all, have been suicidal, let it all go mostly untreated my whole life, never had a true friend, never been in a relationship, never had a good job, went through an anti-hoarding phase where I threw away everything I could so I was left with nothing in an empty room. Have ocd I think, paranoia is like mental ocd I think. My teeth are rotting, my hands and feet are deformed, I can't bend one of my thumbs, it is miserable and everything seems pointless. But I still believe there is some sort of hope somewhere, maybe I can get better, whatever the hell that means, I push everything away, maybe if I didn't have such powerful relentless anxiety I could get a job with health benefits or be able to afford to see a doctor. Just the thought of trying to live is nauseating, but hey it could be worse. Good luck everybody!

[@AttitudeLive]

Thank you for sharing your story Ee J, hope you enjoyed this documentary you are living happy & healthy life.

[@mr.cifuentes1779]

God bless be strong

[@flightyy441]

U are not alone...#stayingalive

[@thehiddenedge5712]

I will pray for you. I hope you find the strength to find your true self and to one day be in a position to help others. Find a job you can do from home (affiliate marketing or e-commerce) and take each day as it comes. Everyone lives life at their own pace so you have as much time as you need to get better. Good on you for commenting and showing the courage to speak about your personal struggles. I hope you get to read this message and you come to the realisation that you are definitely not alone in this battle.

[@Merrida100]

Please try to keep God out of this. A gentle Christian compassion is lovely but please...@Heather Lynn

[@cheriegirlinblue]

They still sound really sad, even when talking about their recovery

[@stuff1784]

Recovery is an inaccurate way of describing it. "Management" is more accurate. The mental illness never goes away, but psychiatric medication and therapy can help reduce the symptoms to where a person can live with the mental illness. They seem sad bc they know it'll never go away. The way they are feeling now is probably how good they'll ever feel in their lifetime considering the psychosis.

[@benellisguitar7729]

It never leaves you..

[@richardlongmore9301]

Great documentary ! The exhaustion of having to keep rebuilding your life after a episode is what Finaly broke me at 41 just can't seem to snap out of this one

[@AttitudeLive]

Thanks for watching Richard! Wishing you all the best 😊

[@88jessicalong]

Damn so what happens ?

[@TheUrbanPrude]

There right now

[@Samcirca]

@@TheUrbanPrude me too 😔

[@JesusSaves194]

Sam circa. 1984 Jesus Christ can heal you

[@paulobrien7557]

I went four years suffering with psychosis untreated and it's exactly how they describe it in this video. The treatment takes a long time to get you back to a normal state and even as I write this i can still hear faint voices and whirring noises but not all the time however. Hang on there you guys i know what y'all have been through best wishes

[@marygracegilen5034]

Hello, how are you now? I was listening in this video, coz my boyfriend is diagnosed that he has psychosis now.☹️

[@Trusting.the.processing]

Prayers💗

[@reinhardt7261]

The worst thing this people or anyone suffering someway somehow, can do, is depend on someone else. Do not depend on another person when it comes to your happiness. You must learn how to fight your own demons and conquer them. What happens when the person you depended on the most is gone? You spiral out of control. Be independent, sure have support from others but don't fully depend on them.

[@nuvolosa]

I thought the same thing man

[@kristingallo2158]

Amen

[@ghoste_girll]

Ever since i met my s/o i felt light in my dark tunnel of depression and bad psychosis, now they might leave and i realized i somewhat got rlly attached to them because i felt relief with them , now i feel a bit afraid and worried i might worsen and might go insane, but im going through it

[@Kikilu7552]

I'm dealing with psychosis at the moment for my mum. let me tell you. it's not easy! every day is like a battlefield! the number of sleepless nights just looking after her is so stressful but there's nothing I can do but to suffer with her because she is my own mother.

[@neomoloi3552]

After three years of hell... I was diagnosed... A blessing and curse at the same time... Blessing because I finally knew what was happening... Curse because I don't know what was real and confidence in self non existent... But one thing for sure, I will forever be grateful for the spiritual journey...

[@teteminaj12]

Hi neo, how are you? I too have psychosis

[@JonathanXLindqviust]

It's great but at 11:00+ where they talk about partners helping them, that's depressing for someone who doesn't have that. Most people in psychic misery- and sickness are alone. I don't think anyone wouldn't love or want someone to be there for us, us with mental problems, but the last truth is that no one can bear our cross but ourselves... I think it is very detrimental and horrid to make it out as if someone else can make us swim when we are drowning. It helps, it truly does, to have a lover, friend, family, etc. to help you. But not everyone has that luxury.

[@weloveicecream2281]

So what? Not everyone have such a thing but he has, and he has the right to show and tell about his life and its details if he wants, including a loving person by his side.

[@TheScreamingFrog916]

It ca be very difficult to be in a relationship with a person who's reality can change without warning, and blame you for their problems. You don't know when it's appropriate to try to tell them what is real, or when that will just upset them more.

[@KyLives]

I think a more positive way to look at it is this video is showing how good things can be if loved ones actually support the individual rather than giving up. I know it sucks to be alone. I was alone for a long time. But eventually I started to get the help I personally needed and that included educating the people around me and I'd send them videos just like this so they could understand and see how important it was for them to be patient with me. Nothing but love for you buddy. Good luck and stay safe.

[@lenny6506]

Everyone’s human - humans need each other ! Even if it’s not a romantic relationship- having support helps anyone in a tough time !

[@sabrinamitchell4107]

It truly is kind of hard to find someone who even cares enough to help you through your mental health challenges.

[@zoeyperkes8572]

I have a hard time describing myself to others about my own mental health and these people help me have a voice.

[@RebekahLeaPhelps]

Praying for you all and my beautiful daughter. So proud of you for being transparent and open! Mental illness MUST have a voice and faces to make a difference! Thank you

[@cryhhostjack7945]

Man i had this for 14 years and now im like Wow im not alone

[@justmadeit2]

Full respect for everyone that took part in this documentary, it’s helping people a lot to be open, honest and real

[@leylaperez2746]

My first psychosis experience was last September and it lasted about 2 months I was sent to the psych ward for a few weeks . It was the hardest thing I’ve ever been through or experienced. I was seeing and doing the most crazy things .i felt evil and not at all like myself . It does really suck and is so hard to get through but to anyone else who’s experienced this you guys are so strong I know how hard and confusing it is. I experienced this at only 17 years old so If anyone would like to share these experiences with me I’d greatly appreciate it ! God bless .

[@annabellesmolinski1858]

Oh my gosh, you put my experience into words. Mine was back in September, and like you described "feeling evil" is just how I felt 24/7. It was so so terribly everyday but luckily it ended after a visit to the psych ward. I definitely believe it is some sort of dark oppression. Really hope that you are doing well

[@auraoptics]

I experienced something similar . You’re not alone 🙏🏽

[@ericowen449]

I've experienced psychosis twice. I nearly died from hypothermia from running through the forest in the dead of winter. I thought people were chasing me that wanted to kill me.

[@zflynn2]

Working and studying as a psychotherapist, I have watched many, many films on all types of mental illness, including, of course, a wide range of psychosis. This is one of the best I've seen in terms of people who are doing well in recovery. This can be used as a great tool for those who are struggling with these issues, treating them, or just living with those that do. Excellent resource. Thanks!

[@sarahoyrealestate]

Thank you so much for letting these people share their stories with dignity and presenting it with compassion, to fight the stigma against mental illness. So many people view illnesses like schizophrenia and psychosis as these horrific, violent, and disturbing diseases and disregard them as human beings without value, heart, and goals. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

[@crizii1]

Finding videos like this is such a comfort on my lonely days. Thank you

[@bingowashisnameo80]

To all those who have faced psychosis whatever you do whatever makes you think you are not in the world of the living do not take your own life.I personally have just came out of psychosis and all I can say is there will be something good that guides you out of it there will be a way presented to you it may seem impossible at the time however do not give up & do not take the route of suicide whatever you do because that is the wrong option.I almost killed myself a few times due to it and it is a very scary illness reach out when you need the help & if you feel you can't because it is unsafe for you or those around yourself then return to what made you happy in life as a child this is hands down the thing that saved me whatever it was that you loved so dearly when you were younger will help you get out healthy eating and multivitamins as well as exercise helped me a lot.There is hope.

[@marlonmendez5176]

All of your documentaries are 10/10. This channel is a gem on KZbin, and I don't understand why there aren't at least 1 million subs.

[@AttitudeLive]

Thanks Marlon! Really appreciate the support and hope we reach a million sometime soon haha!

[@suribuxton9079]

This topic just isn't discussed enough, everybody should be looking out for each other more. It's so hard trying to be there for someone experiencing these things, I think it would help a ton if we we're taught about this when we're younger

[@meerespflanzen]

My cousin passed away 3 days ago from a psychotic episode. I feel like I’m living in a trance, in a day dream. I’m still waiting for someone to tell me this is all an elaborate prank. This video is helping me achieve some sense of closure...

[@Joshtheigbo]

Did he kill himself?

[@kadeenjohnson1404]

Condolences to you and your family it's also difficult and it take everything in us to stay alive everything

[@abe_is_here]

i was diagnosed with psychosis over a year ago but i thought i was alone. i never heard of anyone else having it and seeing this made me feel more normal in a way. And it gives me hope too. i relate to their experiences so much and i just never heard anyone have a similar mind to mine.

[@teteminaj12]

I have it to let’s link up

[@vonharvell5867]

when i was younger i did not take mental illness seriously and sometimes joked about it.. but i NEVER joke about this anymore.. when u feel like u are REALLY gonna lose your mind, it is extremely frightening.. my prayers are with everyone dealing with this illness.. love you all

[@rockydo2307]

Good luck to them on their road to recovery, mental health issues can be as debilitating as physical illness.

[@AttitudeLive]

Thanks for watching Rocky, hope you enjoyed👍

[@jaydonalds8438]

Not "as". They are worse.

[@huntershaffer8771]

@@jaydonalds8438 Sorry, no. I've experienced mental illness and also over 500 broken bones. I'll take the mental illness.

[@kerryevans7793]

I think much worse mh is worst illness in the world most fisical and painful bar somethink bad happerning to yr own child Thats worst thing in the world But next is mh for sure

[@kerryevans7793]

I would take no arms legs and sain calm happyish mind If i had to choose i never ever want to go bk there

[@candiceminor1855]

My husband was going through psychosis. This video helped me truly understand what he was going through. It was like a break through for the both of us. Thank you for sharing this with the world. You have have no idea how many lives you're changing! I am one of them....

[@tiffanycayce8701]

A really good friend of mines has bi-polar disorder and when she's in a manic state has hallucinations, delusions, hears voices etc. Her parents are very old in their 80s and didn't have the mental or physical strength to deal with her symptoms. They also had absolutely no idea what to do to get her well again. So i became her power of attorney even though i have depression, anxiety, PTSD, BPD and insomnia. I have to say having BPD and dealing with her was extremely hard bcuz when someone aggravates you which she did many times we want to lash outat them. I never did though not physicallyy anyway. i may have been like wtf u need to chill out but i could never hurt her she needed me more then she ever had before and i was there for her. It definitely was the most challenging thing i have ever dealt with. It took a lot of time and i honestly believe helped it helped me to better control my emotions and taught me patience. But after almost a whole year of going to drs andy therapist appointments and many trips to the psychiatric ward and even going to court to get her mandated medication injections she finally got well again and has been doing so good for going on 2 years now. Im wicked proud of her and of myself too!

[@lsuzicosbw644]

I think I am going through this currently. This has been the most difficult period of my life. I am in a dissociative phase for about 95% of the day. Unfortunately if I get hospitalization, I lose everything. America is the worst place to suffer from mental disorders.

[@aaronbr2001]

How are you doing?

[@bb79]

Going through this with my wife. No drugs, no alcohol. Just woke up one day and she snapped. We are 3 weeks in right now. The false memories, the lack of sleep. I had to take time off of work. Trying to juggle the kids and keep them calm. It is so weird to see someone you love not be there in her head. The recovery is hard. She actually lost all her rights and was admitted to a mental hospital. No way in hell I was going to let that happen. Luckily enough, I spoke to her judge before her hearing and he agreed to release her into my care. We are on the long road to recovery. Each morning it’s a battle to convince her that we are not going to get divorced. The false memories were the worse. Now it’s all attitude and aggression. No violence or self hard. She’s just pissed off all the time. But she’s worth it. I just want my wife back. One day at a time.

[@romageorgian9004]

I was just diagnosed with psychosis after two years of living hell. I appreciate this video so much. I don't feel like i'm the only one like this now so thank you

[@AttitudeLive]

Thanks for watching NothingSpecialReally 😊

[@nazafghan3570]

Charlotte was my daughters year 1 teacher last year. My daughter absolutely adored her. She’s onto bigger and better adventures and we wish her luck!

[@saucyshapz6061]

Guys you can definitely recover and be better than you were before! Be compassionate and empathetic with yourself in your recovery and take as long as you need and give yourself as much peace as you need You will get there and the beauty of life will be restored 🙏✝️

[@createwildescapes]

Each of you is so resilient. Your vulnerability and courage is on another level. Thank you for sharing your stories.

[@webworkpeter]

I developed psychosis when I was 18 and it was active for a long time. I am told I have residual psychosis now, so hopefully it will clear up in time. Residual means it is no longer in the active stage, so it is a few negative symptoms remaining and not positive symptoms like paranoia, etc.

[@AttitudeLive]

Thank you for sharing! Hope you enjoyed this episode.

[@riezunique]

i have never known there was such thing as residual parranoia- sounds like what i may have as one thing im certain on is what the main initial traumas were but cant understand why i attach it to new situations that in reality have no link. I am going to research this term thankyou x

[@guillaumemalherbe4486]

Don't believe everything psychiatrists tell you there are other ways of curing psychosis then giving yourself brain damage with antipsychotics. You're mind is all you have don't let anyone destroy it

[@selmazihni9287]

Guillaume Malherbe my son has been on olanzapine 5mg they tried to put him on 10 mg I notice with 10 mg he did not want to get up not want to bath change clothes so I’m put him back on 5mg and all I have read about this drug made me take him off medication he only took it for 17 days now I don’t know what to do iv notice he’s very quick temper now and not wanting to go out only sit in the garden I don’t know what to do

[@lionheart1257]

Selma Zihni try CBD oil/hemp oil whole plant not just seed.. Make sure it's full spectrum!! Has very calming effect but quite expensive, however it works really well for anxiety and stress.

[@goldenz9480]

Speaking from experience, this gave a really accurate insight of what it was like for me and is for others and provided alot of reassurance for me. I wish this was more wide spread so more people could understand it isn't just being crazy. It's real, it hurts and it's treatable like all other mental illnesses. It's not the be all and end all.

[@qian6668]

My mother suffered of serious mental illness, delusional disorder, depression. She hear people talking about her, screaming all the time, sleep in the car coz she get scared. It's killing me to see her like that. There's very little things I could help her. Every time thinking about that makes me feel more hopeless than before

[@philipusher4282]

These young people and others finding themselves in this distressing situation are incredibly brave and resilient and I am full of admiration for their tenacity.

[@sweetnsour5661]

Great documentary about psychosis, I've suffered from it multiple times. It's hard and it repeats itself for me a lot, medication helps but not the life I want to live. I'm glad this video can teach others to see psychosis in a different light, it's not all doom and gloom. Bless all who have it, you will get trough it. I believe!

[@AttitudeLive]

Thanks for sharing Sweet 'N Sour, hope you enjoyed this doco!

[@sbo6477]

Great video, well done with showing different peoples story and perspectives

[@AttitudeLive]

Thanks for your feedback Sam, we really appreciate it! :)

[@riezunique]

I am undiagnosed but there is alot here i can relate to. I think i have bouts of psycosis, long term depression anxiety and parranoia. Some days i do not know how i feel or even how to feel. Moments of numbness, moments of bliss/ euphoria and even 'normality'. This video was helpful because when you have soothing wrong with your mind it is so damning because if you tell others about it you risk the chance of them thinking you are crazy. If you dont tell them you feel like you are going more and more crazy battling it alone . But then you face either being judged and a burden or dealing with it internally and possibly losing your mind or just suffering deep pain with no immediate indefinite cause. Knowing there are so many others out there like this is a comfort to my soul as it helps me not beat myself up about it.

[@Odom0407]

The only people I've told are, mom, dad, gf, brother, brother in law, and that's only between 8yrs of it. They seem to understand, but they still probably suffer too, cause it can be evil even to them, and I don't mean to, I love them so much.. that's one thing I noticed, it seems to hurt the people I love. :( .. so I isolate myself.. come around, because it's not outward, i can be a normal human being, you wouldnt have known I'm suffering at that moment, but my thoughts........ I feel they can see them..... & that's my conspiracy today, what if they could..?

[@anngarnsey3622]

I wonder why when someone had a psychotic episode they don't experience pleasurable things? I feel so sad that these poor people must feel so frightened and unsure of themselves. I wish society had a deeper understanding and were more empathetic of people who are suffering so much. Mental illness does not discriminate and anyone at any time could fall prey to this terrible condition. I think they are very brave. I admire their courage and determination.

[@junbh2]

I have heard of people having positive psychotic episodes. Though some were still dangerous, e.g., if someone believed they could fly or were invincible in some way.

[@martinjager6914]

I've experienced psychotic episodes and it's usually just frightening. It feels like you're losing your grip on reality and like the world is just falling apart. Everything you thought you knew about the world here turned upside down, you experience strange thoughts and emotions. There's really nothing that cool or positive about it when it's happening

[@autisticzuko2750]

A lot of times, psychosis can be brought on a traumatic event (sexual/physical/mental abuse either as a kid, teen, or adult), or a very stressful patch in their life, or like this doc said it could be because of drugs/alchohol making it worse. So, it makes sense why good episodes don't really happen because its root cause (not all cases of course) is because of something bad.

[@eternallaurum]

Usually when I hallucinate I see cats or hear humming or music. Its not really scary unless I recognize it as a hallucination and then this triggers my paranoia and anxiety for some reason. Maybe I'm just lucky that my hallucinations are tame compared to others.

[@estherday2239]

When I was in psychosis I had what psychiatrists term as "positive" symptoms and "negative" symptoms. The delusions of grandeur was very exciting, I felt I was a God. The negative symptoms such as hallucinating peoples faces melting before my eyes were not so wonderful.

[@honpaul2203]

Great video, it's not easy to frame a topic like that. This documentary does a great job, you really get a good insight in what it is to live with that. But it's not pathetic, it's right on the spot, well balanced. Kudos to the creators of this film!

[@AttitudeLive]

Thanks for watching, and we really appreciate your kind words!

[@Odom0407]

I've said the same thing with tears in my eyes! "I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy." Because it feels like a curse that I'm praying just eventually gets uplifted. I know what triggered mine, but that little specific information I hold dear, cause it just sounds crazy.. I can seem so normal around somebody, but good luck if you can see into my brain, my thoughts can be so evil, and it saddens me, because I LITERALLY don't have control over them. People tell me "just get ahold of them." Or "come socialize with your family/friends" but they don't realize that being around people makes it worst, so I just avoid them all together, because it'ssaid than done.i feel they can see my uncontrollable thoughts, that just keep going at 100 miles an hr[but I never let it leave my brain of course, cause they're not me].. by excluding myself i feel like I'm doing them and myself a favor... :(... cause idk, I feel like hurt them...... my brain just goes on these evil roasting sessions...and I feel bad, my heart hurts when it happens, and feels like it skips a beat, the only way I can explain how that feels is when somebody gives you a surprise scare... especially if it's family members, close friends, and even when I'm in a relationship... they don't know how much I love them.. my parents tried to get me help back when I was 17, cause that's when it started... they, the doctors diagnosed me with it, prescribed some pills, but they only made me angry? So I haven't had them since.. I'm 25 now... still in the same... I dont do the whole yoga thing, but i do cling to Jesus/God, He makes me happy, because He knows the heart of man.. there's times it's been lifted, but when I lose track of Him, I begin to lose myself again.. Oh that's another thing, when i would read my bible at first, it would get worst, the words I would read would get twisted in my head, and say evil, dark, sometimes perverse things ); like it hated God, it's actually the best way to put it, it feels like a demonic posession/oppression sometimes, so I would just be consistent reading [new testament and psalms book], but once I get over that, eventually my thoughts would quiet, like I couldnt think anymore. That works better than weed and drinking for me, in fact the weed would make it worst, so I've been clean pretty much.

[@hello-gz2ys]

That sounds like demons tormenting u. U R on the right path with god/Jesus. He will heal u :-)

[@nativechique7589]

Try diff meds?

[@aaronbr2001]

How are you doing?

[@Odom0407]

@@aaronbr2001 I am much better , thank you , Jesus is the ultimate medication for the soul. You asked, and this was my response(:

[@alexandraaugust34]

Wow I didn't know there were people who experienced this. I thought I was the only one!

[@AttitudeLive]

Thanks for sharing Alexandra! Hope you enjoyed our channel!

[@MiguelRamirez-kl8bq]

Get it checked out. Gl

[@Odom0407]

I didnt think so either! Sometimes I feel they still don't understand.

[@zayraroa]

Me too - it was when I was 18-19 I fought and recovered 100% in 2-3years

[@benellisguitar7729]

That's exactly how I feel!

[@jondojondo5115]

God bless everyone with this problem.

[@VerasPlanet]

Thank you for including hope in this video and recovery processes, instead of just the manifestations of psychosis. A lot of videos on the subject can make a person feel hopeless so it's nice to see recovered/recovering people.

[@10-OSwords]

I really like how this showed these people being involved in activities as part of recovery, such as boxing, biking, live poetry. I have Bipolar II disorder & had a year of ECT because I didn't respond to several classes of medications & was bedridden for quite a while. After getting the ECT I was able to start a workout program that I have been doing for the last 20 years now & I would be far worse off without that. Just having some routine & something you hold yourself responsible to is very helpful as well as physical activity-underrated when it comes to good mental health.

[@roba165]

Everybody who has someone who needs help, please don't push them away! They are not fault for the illness they have. As someone who lost most of his friends due to psychosis and drug use, having someone beside you who will help in the bad times, is the most important thing you can get. My biggest regret since I'm "normal" is that I destroyed most of my relationships with people who where important to me. Accepting that I've done so much bad things is a bigger fight for me than the illness itself.

[@911deano1]

xx

[@AndreSaysHello]

Y'all are the most amazing channel ever

[@AttitudeLive]

Thanks for the feedback Andre! We're stoked you enjoy the channel and continue to watch our stories!

[@kellycrowder29]

Your a lot stronger then you think you are. Take your power back. Your so strong for reaching out and saying you need some help. That's what takes guts. Remember people can't read your mind all you gotta do is communicate as best as you can. We all have strengths and weaknesses we all need help there's no shame in that only courage. I'm here for you any time you want to reach out. I promise you that. You have come so far I can see. You should be sooo proud of yourselves. I'm so proud I can see your minds body spirit and soul growing. Perception is KEY. # free yourself #stayupandstaystrong # you are beautiful

[@mimosasmagnolias1243]

You are all very special ~ I understand fear ~ as I've lived through real fear myself ~ I wish you all the best ~ sounds like your learning your triggers - they are different to each individual - do what you need to ~ to take good care of yourselves ~ God bless 💜

[@AttitudeLive]

Thanks for your feedback Leselie! hope you enjoyed this episode and stay tuned!

[@TETTAhatHunger]

This is the most wholesome documentation on psychosis I've ever seen. You've got the expert with scientific comments, the people suffering from psychosis, but not only one but four, so it is some kind of representative. That together with the varying pictures and emotions and the great structure of the video is simply awesome.

[@synthaea7919]

Means a lot to hear that people are appreciating it. Thank you for watching

[@yell1481]

Thank you. I feel less alone now. I have been looking after my son, who developed psychosis in late teenage. Hearing from young people who had been through it give me the strength and confidence to help my son. Really really appreciate all the speakers in this video clips. ❤

[@nenaamartinezz9429]

My ex was a schizophrenic & narcissist. He suffered from psychosis. It was the big reason why we broke up.! Praying for anyone with a mental illness 😥🙏🏼

[@andyc9902]

Go back to him. Give him a chance. It's not his fault . Change him. People deserve a chance.

[@Sunshine-gv6nd]

Thank you for this video. It has helped to bring me to an awareness of the severity of mental phsychosis, schizophrenia and bipolar disorder. You have demonstrated so much courage and bravery bringing it out in the open. I'm completely convinced that it was extremely hard to confront and accept the condition. Doing something about it was a huge hurdle that allowed an opportunity to have some sort of normality restored. My heart goes out to those of you that suffer with mental illness. I'm pretty sure it is everything each and everyone of say it is, (hell, torment). Mental illness runs in my family as well and caring for an older sibling with paranoid schizophrenia is very challenging. This video has helped me a lot and I am learning every day little by little on the subject. I just feel so helpless when this sibling goes through a psyhcotic episode. Again, thank you for your transparency. Sincerely, Humbled 💓🤗🙏🙏🙏🙏💐

[@MrBenenes]

Really great video. As someone who has suffered from psychosis I found this very relatable and comforting.

[@AttitudeLive]

Thank you!

[@guerillachan20]

James How many times in year do you relapse and what do you have bipolar or schizophrenia.

[@Michelle-Williams-Melbournite]

It’s so hard having an episode. It’s secretive and self sacrificing as Psychosis disturbs your normal thoughts. It’s a disease & very common. We can get through this one step at a time . With lots of rest ( even thou sometimes impossible during an episode) thoughts become so urgent every other necessary human instinct is forgotten. It will get better . Very slowly . & Understanding the Psychosis are infrequent Helps one better get prepared and finally no more Episodes will occur . Hopefully 🙏. My first episode in my mid 2O,s was so harsh. Distressing & debilitating. If I get a day of no sleep it comes back. Sleep is the only antidote to Psychosis. Forever sleep 💤 is what helps me.

[@snushiee]

I have had psychosis for 5 years. Had found out by a doctor that I needed medication for it at 10 or 11 (sometime around the end of 5th grade when I went to a mental hospital). I've been in and out of hospitals since then. It is still hard to cope with them even though I use what we call "coping skills". I have been diagnosed with severe depression, psychosis, and anxiety. I believe I have ocd and anger issues (which if I do it would have to be from my dad). I haven't heard much from the voices for about 2 weeks and I'm always happier when they are gone. This video helps me not feel alone. :)

[@kellycrowder29]

Prayers go up and blessings come down. People are seriously praying for you when you don't even know it or least expect it. You deserve better. Spread your wings....😉

[@happyme3556]

Thank you to all the people that told their stories. I wish only the best for you all. Thank you for letting us learn through your journeys.

[@chaosdweller]

I teach and act as a amusement park ride with it every day.

[@alexaston]

seeing them say "i wouldn't change anything" made me tear up. i have borderline personality disorder, misdiagnosed as bi-polar 2 disorder when i was 16.I have been through the depths of hell and back. Hurt people, hurt myself. After many years of trying medications, i am stable, i have made my amends to people i've hurt. I wouldn't change anything either.

[@pilarkrol]

Thank you so much for this video!! Stay strong and be kind to yourself, things will get better 💓! I've been trough it 3 times....So please have faith in your power to recovery!!!

[@AttitudeLive]

Thanks for sharing Pilar, hope you enjoyed the episode!

[@Sunrisecan]

Pilar Krol thank you for that, I was worried

[@Odom0407]

It's been 8 years... BUT IM STILL HOPEFUL!!😭

[@chaosdweller]

Mines every day and every night (non stop) it's extremely painful to me, but fun and annoying to everyone else most don't believe me and therefore try to mimic me (except when talking to their boss or the opposite sex thats attractive unlike me 😉 haha). Yep I'm too crazy for working over ten hrs a week, but yet not messed up enough for disability........... haha.

[@RepentfollowJesus]

I have had numerous traumatic experiences in my life. Im 57 now. I smoked pot before 14. It made me paranoid after a while and I quit at 16. Thank the Lord I only have cptsd, anxiety, panic attacks and severe depression.