Bang Yong Guk (방용국) - AM

[@fairytailxnarutoshippuden7202]

Every single time we see his gummy smile, we all coo at how cute he is and what a big softie he is at heart - all the while, no one realised how weak he really was behind it all. That mind space he was in to even write this is terrifying, it sucks everything out of your life until there's only this dense blackness left. At that stage, nothing matters to you anymore, not life, not family, not anything. And to think that he called out to us and said that his fans kept him alive makes my heart burn and wish that there was someone close to him that could look after him like he needs - even if it wasn't how he wanted. All I can hope for now is that, at the very least, we, as his fans, never disappoint him. I hope that no matter what happens in his life - who he dates, who he hates, or even who he fights - all the Baby's will stick by his side and always help him through his darkest times. Bang Youngukk: we all really do love you, and before you ever do anything, know that YOU matter to US. Not TS, Not your fame, Not your money. YOU.

[@nadafateen4781]

your comment made me cry coz thast the same impression I had of him when I first saw him but after this song I relized his true self

[@RiRyn27]

Nada Fateen Same. This really opened my eyes to what he kept out of sight or that I just couldn't see before now.

[@yukicrosszeria101]

FairyTailxNarutoShippuden This made me cry..thank you for being by his side

[@remmos99]

I don't dare to say this on the original music video, but most of the comments there are so shallow that I get sick. Most of them are swearing and saying that his voice is super sexy. I don't find that appropriate at all, considering the feelings this song has. Of course I've thought the same thing in the past, but not when it comes to this song. He's telling us everything he felt and everything he's feeling, and some only hear a voice? Imagine a conversation were one person is trying to deliver a very important message, a call for help perhaps. Who would reply that the persons voice is sexy? Am I overreacting? Perhaps I am. But I can't shake off this feeling...

[@Hersheychocolate12]

I think that's just because there were no eng subtitles and most of the ones I read when the video came out said they were crying.

[@ninagrace-lee8323]

+remmos99 Thank you! People are here swooning over his voice, and I'm upset that Yongguk didn't get help. He sounds really depressed and possibly suicidal - I swear kpop fans are some of the most selfish people

[@remmos99]

+awkwardnchey True, a good point. But at the same time, music is it's own language. To me, it's obvious that this is a deep song that carries sadness. I don't need subtitles to hear that. When I first heard the song I instantly felt worried. Because I heard sadness, I heard that something wasn't right. That's why I looked up the subtitles. I think the people who said that they were crying felt that as well. But, then there are those who doesn't bother looking up what the lyrics are in their own language. Those who can't or don't want to hear what kind of feeling the song has. They are the people who only hear a voice, who only see a handsome face. It worries me more then it angers me...

[@remmos99]

+Faith Farmer I truly hope he's seeing a therapist or something. Even if he get's back on track with B.A.P and starts releasing albums, he must talk about what's happened and what he's been feeling. If he's depressed it won't go away for a long time. K-pop fans differ from fan to fan. Some value the beat, some value the lyrics and some value the looks. I'm just worries that those who value lyrics are becoming an minority. Liking the beat and the looks is fine! I like both of those as well. But I value the lyrics, I don't let the beat or their looks decide what I think.

[@d00mMoonXP]

+remmos99 I agree with u all :/

[@garunim]

damn, am i the only one who crying. "my fans hold my two hands and hold me so I won't fall"

[@Brixiebri]

Omg understand I got so emotional I had to stop the video to calm down

[@garunim]

+Nicole More yup and we better watch their teaser and support their comeback😢

[@Brixiebri]

Widya Rahmi we will, I saw their teasers I'm so excited

[@rozazelei9505]

Widya Rahmi i was just about to comment the same

[@MissAmissaBlack]

Okay so the comments on his grandfather are quite indicative of suicide.... but I thought it is very important to point out, the TITLE of the song: it is 4:44AM. In Chinese, 4 is in unlucky number because it sounds like death. Therefore the number four means or symbolises death - 4:44AM is basically the worst time since it is in the early morning/night time it is also like the "ghost hour". They follow this belief in Korea too (the number four is strongly avoided at all costs). the song title means death basically, and because it is all fours that means it was on purpose. Also the fact it is all fours means that the emphasis on death is very very strong and the song's title is bad luck.

[@jadetrbl2325]

its also the time his grandfather passed

[@mochi4005]

we also believe in this thing at my country. so usually for room's number or floor number, we change number 4 to number 3A, and number 34 to 30A. i think it's the same to most of asia countries.

[@minhnghiem1387]

wow i'm alway awake at 4:44 AM with no reason

[@jizokim4393]

@@jadetrbl2325 really?

[@helloooozia]

back listening to this after knowing yongguk's news. tho i understand most of the lyrics alrd, but now im more understand that his pain is beyond what i imagined before. the fact that all the pressure leads him to a panic disorder breaks me. get well soon yongguk ㅠㅠ

[@neknarf1973]

OMG....I didn't realise he was not OK....with the recent comeback.

[@helloooozia]

neknarf1973 seeing some of this lyrics has suicidial meaning, im happy that yongguk didnt literally tried to suicide. the lyrics "going back to my grandpa's arm" also could be mean, he wanted to die, bcs his grandpa had passed away. he was and is suffering too much and always tried to hide it :(

[@neknarf1973]

woozia Yeah....the lyrics are pretty clear and it breaks my heart knowing he suffered so much and maybe still ongoing. I thought he was in the comeback now but he isn't : (

[@3470633]

This is not just a song, this is a person in agony expressing themselves the only way they know how, and pouring their very soul into these words. Everything in this song is so real, so strong and so heartbreaking. I will never know the names and faces of the people who were cold-hearted enough to hurt Yongguk (everyone in B.A.P actually) and to tear him down this much, but it will always sicken me to my core that those cold people exist in this world. I hope with all my heart that Yongguk will never have to deal with anything this harrowing, ever again, and that the smiles we see now are real, and not a mask he is forced to hide behind. This song is amazing, both in sound and in meaning, and it's creator deserves all the love and happiness available in this world. I know I am just a faceless voice among many, but this song is too important not to comment on, as is its rapper. Yongguk is so, so very important. Always. Sorry for the ramble, hope you have a nice day (you deserve it).

[@Nafisa.rtchive]

I've heard a lot of mixtape from a lot of korean rappers (i dont have to mention their names i guess) I have to say, their fast speed n word twisting raps are impressive BUT one thing that makes me love Yongguk's mixtape more is his inspiring an meaningful lyrics while others only focus on like "you cant do what i can do" or "i am the best rapper from the best" or even "aint nobody swag like me" but Yongguk's lyrics are more to giving advice. i like that

[@rozazelei9505]

BYNAF you missed the "i'm doing whatever i want, just watch me" part

[@bapsnatchedmywig]

BYNAF yes. this comment is on point.

[@nuraliyahahmad2282]

' My fans hold my two hands and hold me so i won't fall ' stay strong b.a.p . babys will always support you guys . and so do i .

[@oluwatobi6415]

I just want to hug him and tell him he's my entire life

[@pokopori]

The darkness in this song just swallows you up as a listener. The lyrics are suffocating and the music is heartbreaking. Depression, anxiety and other mental illness are hard to understand for those of us that are lucky enough to have never had them but songs like these gives a really good glimpse at the things you feel when you have one.

[@maeri6040]

This man is one of the most important people to me. What an actual artist.

[@린-t9e]

아 진짜 눈물난다.. 용국 앞으로 평생 음악 해주세요ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ

[@icxdlatte3804]

I'm B.A.P's new fans and was looking for Yongguk's mixtape/solo songs. This is my first time hearing this song and it's breaking my heart totally. He kind of bringing me to his world with lyrics. Damn, I'm proud to stan him now.

[@berrylee5370]

welcome to the fandom.

[@icxdlatte3804]

Berry Lee Thank youuu

[@kdramacrazy94]

I actually had the pause the video for a minute to breath and calm myself because I was crying so hard, wow this song is.... I cant even fidn words. I've never felt anyone portray their feelings as clearly through a song as yongguk did. It's amazing.

[@sukikirai3399]

This brings so many inner emotions and feelings I can't explain; I feel that Yongguk poured all his feelings and passion into this...but I can't help but feel the possible depression alongside this piece; this song is artwork and I hope Yongguk knows we have his back, this is the true essence of what music can send and make people feel

[@blue-vw5ny]

매번들을때마다 마음이 찢어진다

[@MrsAlmightyKey]

WOW.......I really want to cry for him and, hug him and, kiss him! The saying is true you never know what goes on behind close doors(in every aspect) Just to know that he didn't feel loved or wanted/worthy/respected not only to his company but to society yea he just needs a everlasting hug right about now!

[@갸힝-n7k]

방용국 , 뭔가 강하다 멋있다

[@ozwalkr]

Everytime I listen to this, I just feel my heart aching for them all. To work so hard and go through so much just to be treated like trash makes me just want to hug them all, especially Guk, and let them cry it all out. I know as leader. Guk probably feels like he let the others down, but we all know you can't win when the cards are marked and theres a pro dealing. Hang in there guys...Its all gonna be alright.

[@ndany2720]

용국오빠..ㅠㅠ가사가너무맘이아프다..ㅠㅠ

[@ayleenwang3351]

"Respect toward my dongsaengs who thought it was happiness and ran." This sentence is so meaningful.

[@yb1366]

용국이오빠 감정이 딱! 느껴지네요....슬프고아프네요 ㅠㅠㅠ

[@ghn07067]

이게..아.. 방용국이 저 때 느끼던 심정을 노래로 만들었다고 하니까.. 진짜 개 슬프다..

[@whenyousmileismiletoo5419]

forever respecting this guy!

[@alicehow456]

This is the first song ever to make me tear up like this. It shows you just how much Bang Yongguk, as a TS idol and as the leader and hyung of BAP has suffered for his dreams, his dongsaengs and the company

[@Orvis919]

완벽하군,역시 방용국군. 현실의 괴로움이담겨져있지, 사람들의 거짓속의.. 하..

[@lydiaherveaux]

Everytime i look in his eyes and see his smile,i tell myself that i need to make him happy before i die. I don't know why,but i feel like i need to this. I need to see his smile in real life,so i can believe that he is happy. Yes,Bang Yongguk. I'll always hold your hands so you won't fall,I promise.

[@천강호]

와 이런 명곡이 숨어있었네

[@yeseniaparedes2211]

This song allows us to see into his darkness a little bit, which makes the song that more meaningful. This song is *devastatingly beautiful*

[@nabilayanairar9802]

That "my fans hold my two hands so I won't fall" slaps me.

[@salbeitee601]

I really hope that BAP gets a new, better company, like bighit, they really deserve it.

[@cherrychan66]

Damnit, I love this song. The lyrics about mental illness is spoken so raw. Bang Yong Guk along with Min Yoongi emphasize their struggles in their raps which brings a greater connection with whoever is listening. True artists.

[@정수기-r4w]

용국씨~ㅠ.ㅠ 힘내세요.

[@Oliwiaguz]

I was dead at the end "everything is gonna be alright"

[@흘흘]

매일 밤마다 흐르는 나의 노래.

[@loganwalczak3437]

This song makes my heart cry

[@makenzieholt7693]

I cry every single time I listen to this song. I never cry. I only ever cry listening to this song. It breaks my heart into a million pieces. And if Yongguk is reading this, you where the only force keeping me alive. You made me happy. I was deeply depressed but I am happy now. You where the only thing that gave me happiness. I am in the best place I have ever been in because of you. Please, be healthy.

[@puppy7428]

I never cried about a song before. I feel this lyrics, this is so deep and i really feel the pain

[@jieun-t5m]

아 좋다..

[@shoshoa1101]

I talks about every thing B.A.P have been through . keep the hope , every thing will be alright.

[@vanktery]

those lyrics are so strong,.. woah. love it.

[@GeezItsGee]

This songs is deeper than what mosy peoppe think of it as, when you read the lyrics once you'd be saying "wow what a meaning they have" the second or third time, it really hits you, especially parts of it like the fans, his grandad or the fact that he had pills in his hands, no love to stop it anymore. This is something that a lot of people should know, it speaks to a whole new level. Yongguk you have all the support from me and the rest of the fans that understand, being close or in the same spot.

[@정혜원-f6p]

진짜 명곡이다..

[@akibiyori]

I feel like running to Yong Guk and just hug him silently. When he mentioned his grandfather, I assume that he has been dealing with depression (and maybe thought about suicide). I just want to hold him, and bring him hope even though he may reject my hug. This song really breaks my heart.

[@stephjowett2714]

so much emotion so much under appreciation yongguk needs some loVING man

[@wittyassh9902]

Whoaw.. *Heads down* respect.. He's way too good, the lyrics is so real... I just lost some words here.

[@josefina121]

This and The Last always make my heart feel heavy. I cry, but at the same time it inspires me and helps me to push further. Such strong lyrics

[@7ornever]

Everything's gonna be alright sounds like he's trying to convince himself 😢 I hear the betrayal from the company, his pain from missing his grandfather, and his panic disorder. That he gives babys so much credit is really beyond touching... 💕

[@샤샤-i6y]

.ㅜㅜㅜㅜㅜ.... 너무 슬프다ㅠㅠㅠ 용국 오빠 힘들어 하지 마요ㅠㅠ

[@MikaMiksMix]

This breaks my heart

[@aliceliddell4062]

It's so long ago that I listened to B.A.P When Yongguk's voice came out, I was kinda impressed by his voice, though I knew it. I feel so sorry for the guys It's not fair what the entertainment did to them I am very impressed by Yonnguk's track, his low voice fits perfectly with the melancholy of his words. It's a sad track, really, but well made. I'm looking forward to their comeback and I hope that something really good happens to them in the future.

[@윤혜빈-y6p]

너무 좋다💕목소리개꿀💗

[@phatzCy02]

i want to hug Yongguk and tell him sorry and thank you.

[@joonieborahae94]

And here I am, back in 2020, listening to this song again, suicidal, heart broken and done with life; with breathing. I distance myself from everyone for a reason; the world abused me, hurt me and gave no mercy to me. I know I gave my all to the wrong people and it may be my own fault for actually thinking everyone is good. I want to follow my grandpa footsteps, I wanna give up; but it just means I need my cry for help to get heard. For years it hasn’t been hurt and I’ve been my own hero... but I can’t be my own hero anymore... I can’t... I need friends and caring people to save me... Yongguk... you saved me... you still do... please remember I love you, even after B.A.P disbanded. You are still one of the best leaders I’ve ever seen, you taught me a lot of things that no one else could. You helped me grow... you did... and I came back, for comfort only you can give me ❤️ Thank you for being my hero, where I was your hero and will try my best to still be your hero 🥺❤️

[@fhyeesandra]

to everyone relates to this song, may God bless you all. I hope life won't be so hard for you after this. I hope you keep going, trying to find a will, a reasons to live forward. I hope a person will come to your life, help you gettin your life together. *hugs*

[@headie947]

Makes me cry every time i listen to it 😢😢

[@ziaharado7135]

I wanna hug my Bang Yongguk so much 😭😭😭 You are doing well honey since day 1 💖💖💖

[@keylahernandez52]

Wow. Just wow. So much raw emotion in this song.

[@imeprezime1444]

Namjoon and Yongguk should get together, make a collaboration and start a revolution. That would be so epic!

[@Yvonnaanderson]

Omg yes

[@XxXanimegaXD]

iveto ha yeah i agree. they both know how to put emotions into their songs perfectly. for exqample after him and suga got dissed he wrote the song too much.

[@guiafreleen4796]

iveto ha Definitely yes. I've been thinking about that for a quiet a long time now.

[@Bl00DCrystal333]

yehet fox If IBIGHIT were to welcome B.A.P. into their Company, they would have two huge groups, and the way they treat B.T.S. I hope they treat them well, would be great for B.A.P. Just think two power groups in 1 Company. That would be amazing!!!!!

[@imeprezime1444]

***** Yea, actully not a bad idea, but maybe it isn't as easy as it sounds, but it would be awesome!

[@jimiliess1764]

Still listening in 2017, this is just beautiful. This art has become his second nature. That sweet smile was so hard to put on his face then, and sometimes now. His love for rapping has become his everything. To continue supporting B.A.P and Yongguk himself! ❤ ❤

[@aeinaerith6691]

i became a fans of BAP after i heard Yongguk raps in Song Jieun song. I love Yongguk's deep voice. i knew that he became a part of BAP since the company promises that he can continue writing a song even with BAP. I think BAP has a leader that is genius and someone great like Yongguk. Zelo always follow his hyung because he respects Yongguk so much not only as a leader but as senior..

[@neknarf1973]

Is Yongguk the leader from B.A.P ?

[@aeinaerith6691]

yup, he is the leader..i think that maybe the reason why he is so pressure with things that happen..i'm glad they are back now because i'm afraid kpop might lose a talented group.

[@neknarf1973]

Is this song Yongguks story ? I mean, he's singing about his life ?

[@yuirungg]

yes, he compose a song during lawsuits

[@kianatorres2542]

This song broke my heart and made my cry. Ugh. I want to hug Yongguk right now.

[@mist07859]

I listened to this song when it first came out and i knew that I needed the lyrics because I knew he was saying some powerful/true things. I got goosebumps before the lyrics and I still have them now but even more. Literally poetry in motion.

[@ra-gs6vi]

The cold feeling of no one understanding us starts by our feelings not being validated. I hope Yongguk and everyone relating including me will start to feel validated by gentle, soft people in our lives one day, and understood and listened to despite everything. Perhaps someday we will be happy for not letting go of everything today. I hope we can one day soon feel love and hope and true connection that makes even the hardest things more bearable. Let's say out loud "I can do it I wont give up, sooner than it seems life turns around. I will make it, I will make it"

[@hamachinasan]

I'd forgotten how good this song is.

[@원-y7m]

가사공감간다

[@alexxwwhat3678]

Love the piano, and of course, the rapping and the lyrics are beautiful, keep on doing your thing man, it's wonderful

[@rndoftx62]

I feel like this is a man who has been through some shit. It's so odd, my favorite rapper from Korea is Min Yoongi, aka Agust D/Suga, and he still is, but through a lyric video for 'The Last', I found this. and now, I wish for them to write together. Yongguk's so contemplative, sad, and done, while Yoongi is full of rage, desperation, and drive. They would compliment each other well despite being complete opposites, because Yoongi works so well with Namjoon.

[@lounakwasiska8779]

i'm here for the same reason, and I was thinking about the same thing, i hope they will collaborate together !

[@alinas933]

RND of TX I agree. listening to this song and reading the lyrics, it reminded me a lot of Yoongi / Agust D's 'The Last'. It is so sad that they feel this way... I really hope they feel better soon or already do.

[@bapsnatchedmywig]

RND of TX bap in general have through tons of shits. we can see from this track and also zelo's "no title" the teenager whos dream was played by ts. that is why I really hope you guys would support bap especially their newest comeback, "honeymoon" thank you so much.

[@아리랑루루애오]

아..ㅠ 가사 한마디 한마디가 내 가슴에 콕콕 박힌다.. B.A.P시절 용국오빠가 얼마나 힘들었을지 당사자가 아닌지라 그 고통의 크기는 감히 헤아릴 수 없지만 부담감과 현실에 부딪혀 엄청 괴로웠을거라고 예상된다 나쁜 생각 하지말고 행복해줘 제발

[@Chris-cx3nx]

Yes, it was very hard for Yong guk😭as well as all participants of Bap((

[@anonimanestesi1570]

i can feel the feel of this song and feel desperate too but the ending-- "everything's gonna be alright" --it's heal me ;)

[@usedtobemyself]

This song breaks my heart. I don't know what else to say but to wish for him to get better, as hard as it is. (I am just assuming that he has depression judging by the part about pills and various other things)

[@alopmoy]

2018 and still holding on to this song❤

[@Cherytatime]

I cried. I'm so sad :( I miss them sooo much :( TS why you have to be so cruel. This is the first time I cried because of a rap T-T The lyrics has such a deep and sad meaning T-T

[@faithguitarable]

Shit. Yongguk needs to take it easy. He tries so hard. It's so saddening thinking that someone with a heart as golden as his is torturing himself just to entertain us. He seriously needs to be nicer to himself. Each line makes you picture the situation he was in and what he was feeling at that time. Bang Yongguk, stay strong and don't work so hard for us BABYs.

[@andreasmarian2947]

i'm really enjoying to listen this song at 4:44 am every night. *4:44**am in Romania*

[@showlo9530]

l love it Bang yongguk

[@amberzulfiqar2484]

still my fav rapper

[@helenamatias1520]

we love you Yongguk... please stay very very well, so we can continues well too B.A.B.Ys WILL STAY FOREVER WITH YOU JUST TRUST IN US! FIGHTING!

[@sofieb.barnewitz4083]

I know how he feels, but he has probably have has it worse than someone who has a emotional diagnose like autism (which I have) and when I see video's of him now, with that big, gummy smile and amazing laugh we have seen him show for years now; it was all a mask to cover his problems- all the pressure, depression, suicidal thoughts- everything that he suffered from, he kept it all bottled and managed to break down now. When he couldn't do anymore of it all. I can imagine how scared he has been, how his members have been worrying about their amazing leader; how much he must have cried behind the doors, putting on the mask and fake smile he had in his pocket when the camera's, management, crew and mostly his members he tried to stay strong for, to make sure that they'd be less hurt. But what pain they must be going through now, must be unbearable... They miss their leader, and their two youngest looks up to him. He... Like Suga, they both have been through some shit that have made them the strong people they are today. The inspiring people, the inspiring rappers that that they are today. And now he is finally getting treatment for it, for his mental health and his anxiety disorder. He will make it, he's a strong man who can do it, with his members support, and our, BABYS, support; he'll make it, I believe in him! I have autism, and I suffer everyday; am misunderstood by my own dad, while my mom understands me a little, the most people understand me. But, yet here I am; alive, in pain, on this earth, when I have self harmed, but never enough to kill myself. I hvae been so close to taking my own fucking life, standing with the pills in my hand and on the empty, lifeless road right by my old boarding school; but been dragged from the road, by two of my friends... If it wasn't for them, I probably wouldn't be here today... That's why Yongguk and Suga are one of my biggest idols. They have told ud their life story, with emotional pain that they hold in everyday; but now, look at them, where they are. And that's why I keep myself to these kpop artists; they understand me, that at least someone, understands me when I'm misunderstood too much that I don't know who to trust anymore. But I know, I can trust these artists; cause they love me, unconditionally, no matter what. My life story is not to brag, it's for desperation for someone to understand me; no, it's not. It's prove, to tell, that they can save lifes, like mine, be there when no one else is there by your side. That they are still alive, because of us. And some of us, are alive, thank's to them.

[@neknarf1973]

Your post touched my heart. Thank you for sharing ! I'm sorry you are struggling. Keep on going, life is beautiful....it really is. Lean on people, reach out and don't be afraid to ask for help, love, support. I'm really proud of people like you who are struggling but still going strong and keep on fighting !! I've had some really difficult times too and music for me was my lifesaver. When I think what Yongguk and B.A.P have faced and still are dealing with....it's really sad but at the same time inspiring. They are still going strong and I'm sure Yongguk is gonna come back stronger than before.

[@sofieb.barnewitz4083]

Life has not been all easy, sweet and cute towards me; no, it has been forcing me so far out that I didn't have the fucking guts to ask for help before it was too late. I have managed so far, but being diagnosed with autisme, only made it all worse... now, I might seem like I have the confindence in myself; I do, but that doesn't keep the need to cut again, to self harm to get out my pain, is there. Because it is, when I have been clean for so long, nearly a year now... Thank you for the compliment. Yongguk will be stronger than ever before, scared and bruised; but hopefully, better and much more happier than before. And smile his precious gummy smile, that we miss to see; his laugh, his adorable laugh. That when he returns, that he doesn't have to wear a mask like I do; that he'll be able to say; "Yeah I struggled, but so? Everyone struggles, and it's okay. Cause you will get better, when the time is right, you will suddenly have happiness in your hands."

[@neknarf1973]

Sofie Barnewitz You seem a very wise person and you know what to do. You've been clean for nearly a year you say.....so hang in there sweetie. It's hard, I can imagine but you can't give up. Keep fighting !! And seek help if you think you can't cope on your own. This urge to harm yourself can be resolved I'm sure. Dig deeper and find out what it is that makes you do this. When you know, attack it at the root !! The cutting is just a sympton as you probably know too well yourself. Wish you the very best !!

[@sofieb.barnewitz4083]

I have a bad relantionship with my dad, whom thinks that we are so close. I am close to him, but he is harming me mentally without he knows it. Because he doesn't understand me one bit, and I don't know how to cope with it, even though I tell someone about it. My mom knows, my contact and support person knows... the most important people know, but yet I seem to still get worse over time now. Like there is no way to safe me. I just keep on falling further and further down, and the only ones to pull me is my kpop artists, my boy groups (BTS, B.A.P and a few others) when they barely know me, haven't met me; they still pull me up, let's me take their hand and pulls me up again when I'm at my worst. And it should be my family, and them; but it's only them, and honestly? I'm scared. Scared of myself. Scared of living.

[@neknarf1973]

Sofie Barnewitz Oh sweetie, come here for a BIG hug. Reading this I think your father should know about it. You can only heal when you're honest with yourself and others. I really think when you open up to him and tell him gently the truth, it might be a new start for you and you feel like a huge burden lifted. Please think about it. I really think it would help !!! I'm glad you get so much support from your favourite K-Pop artists. I know what it feels like ! Once music saved my life. Without music I wouldn't be here. I truly believe that. Keep on listening your favourite music. Life is indeed scary and challenging, but so worth living. Try to find things you enjoy in life, do those things as much as possible and let it lift you up.

[@itzmays1630]

I miss yongguk! 😔 I hope he is okay.

[@sitizulaikhazulkifly2785]

i've had listen to this song for more than hundreds times since the released n it never fails in making me cry..it helps me so much n i'm sure it helps others n yongguk too.. bang yongguk FIGHTING!!

[@mel_sj]

Im on a marathon on the mixtapes released by agust d, rap monster and now bang yong guk. Never felt so relatable to all these songs until today and i just couldnt stop myself from listening then. I love how raw it is and the emotions put in.

[@Lea-zf8zy]

he is legend

[@김령훈-k5f]

와 옛날 솔커시절 Jepp Blackman느낌좀나네ㅋㅋ이게 용국형이지ㅋㅋ이런거 자주내주면좋겠다ㅠ

[@sydneymarshall3204]

This makes my heart ache thinking about what he's going through. I go through the depression and suicidal thoughts sometimes and the like and I'm not in the public spotlight. I hope he is getting help he needs. WE LOVE YOU YONGGUK!!!!

[@jeannec2936]

i just- can i just give Yongguk a big warm tight hug and we can stay like that for about 5 mins..

[@yasmimrios2341]

Even before knowing the lyrics for this song I had this feeling about it... Now that I actually know the lyrics I'm crying so much... The lyrics have such an important message and impact that I don't even know how to react.

[@KagomexSesshoumaru1]

Coming into a fandom, especially a music based fandom, and seeing how much hurt these artists have gone through is horrible. Because you dont know if theyre still hurting. If theyre still feeling whatever they were feeling when they wrote this song. Its really a horrible feeling and I hope that during the time this was released the fandom sent all of their love and support to him. Because thats all I want to do right now but that risks just bringing up bad memories.

[@GhostCookies48]

................ And I'm crying. I just wanna hug him now.

[@luisaordonez7040]

Hey Babyz if you didn't know Zelo released a song called No title!!! So please keep supporting them !!

[@emilyemily354]

This breaks my heart...

[@Bora.k]

This song is so so so...idk so emotional so REAL. Something that came from the very bottom of Yongguk's heart. He's going through hell and we probably won't even know it. I wish I could do something to help him! I wish his grandfather was still here to hold him. 😭 I will b here for u Yongguk~ Always will be cheering for you and BAP! ❤️

[@ellomgbofu1174]

Thank you sooooo much! I love this song!!!!

[@syasha71]

I love it. Yongguk, 😭😭👏

[@퓨퓨-q9c]

뭔가마음아파

[@ohkiiimaniii1722]

All this time, I had no idea what bang yongguk was saying, I just know I like his flow and vibes but actually listening to him and paying attention to the lyrics break my heart, I know I'm not the only struggling with something mental and physical and also emotional but this man here is struggling with all 3 just like me, I wish I could take his pain away and put it with my pain.

[@gabrielacluciuniuc3451]

It's the first time listening to this song and I got goosebumps.. The lyrics are so powerful and insightful 💔💔

[@soft4ngel]

'In the end my lyrics are trash, letters go away' this is exactly what y'all prove with your superficial comments about his voice or anything else. he pours his heart out and that's all y'all can think about? seriously? i'm sitting here crying while feeling the exact same way he feels and all these comments make it even worse.

[@loen2629]

on some days I need Yongguk to save me. I truly love him and his honesty

[@monsterchenjule2326]

After hearing this song the first time and knowing about Yongguk's hiatus, I really think there is truth in the saying that those who smile the brightest are often those who are the loneliest. Those who suffer the most are often just scared to show their environment how fragile and "weak" they actually are inside, or embarassed for feeling like that. So they just act as if everything is fine and put on a mask to hide themselves. This is so sad. Since I got into kpop a year ago, Yongguk and Suga (Agust D) have been some of my favourite idols ever, and they always looked so happy and strong while doing what they love. But you never know what's going on behind closed doors..