"Because i'm died inside" | Family Abuse

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Multifandom kdrama

[@shammisaiyyed4940]

I was thrown out of the house by my mother in my childhood, so I went to the railway station, after one whole night my mother came to pick me up 🥺because my dad yelled at my mom 😅 I know this was funny but I was feeling very cold that day and also scared😔NOW..... I have ability to control my emotions

[@rinsharajesh4154]

That’s…… really horrible I hope your doing well now ❤

[@shammisaiyyed4940]

@@rinsharajesh4154 no dude my mom hates me a lot now🥲

[@ladylokiofasgard]

I can relate 🤝 something similar happened to me as well

[@sabrinasususa6957]

I feel so sorry for you and hope your doing better my mother wanted to kick me out of the house too,she thought I was meeting a boy secretly outside so started following me when I go out but after she seen me I was just walking and met nobody then she told me that she wanted to kick me out of house because I was one day after searching for a job at pizza restaurant to earn money since it was age of legally being not underage and start job,so she packed all my stuff in my room when I was at school and I came back and found a suitcase and I had nowhere to go,I screamed at her for doing nosense things and the house itself wasn't even hers it's on the dad name and he pays the bills and all so wtf It's none her house neither then,anyway one other day closed the house door when I was back from school and didn't wanted to let me in but wanted me to stay out of the house The most toxic woman on earth!!!

[@Jeonsuax08]

​@@shammisaiyyed4940Ohh😢I wish I could hug you and comfort you . 🫂🫶

[@quratulainkifayat2343]

Why family can't understand our feelings 🥺

[@zoradjurdjevic9987]

Offcourse😮😢

[@Jeonsuax08]

Exactly

[@Kelvin12er]

Becoz they see..their dreams in us.. and forget that we exist

[@TtottoChubs]

I wasnt their daughter ever, I was a trophy but they compared their trophy to bigger things… their trophy is broken because they reached to high for a bigger trophy

[@justnobody.tryingtobe_somebody]

I am just too tired, too exhausted. This has been going on for too long, 8 years.... I was only 9. It was the first day I turned 9, when everything was taken away from me. My mother started showing manic episodes. She has BPD or so do I think. She's just always switching sides. It drove me and my father completely insane and it still does. And on top of that, I was a gifted kid. Always on top of the class. But now, I lost all my drive to this mental torture that is still going on. She switches sides so often. Playing into her illusions she drew up in her mind. Severe anger issues.... Sometimes, she would hit me till I had some blood falling from scratches. It worsened so much in lockdown. I was her punching bag. I was abused verbally, emotionally and physically. She would hit me so hard that I literally felt pain in my bones and muscles for weeks. Sometimes I wish that there were some scars on my body so that I can remember her cruelness. She would shame my father for things he did not do. Her language drove me crazy. I could hear voices in the night as if my parents were fighting. I could not sleep peacefully. I still can't. Moreover, any time someone died, she just goes completely nuts, mad, insane. I would come from my far away tution and school all exhausted and she would start her bullshit. My father also has anger issues, obviously from all these. He would sometimes hit me also. I live on the floor above my grandpa who's completely healthy and sound and my uncle. They would never help me. My father does not even know how much my mother hit me while he was outside during the pandemic. But they are the only people I can rely on. We three have gone through so many struggles since I was 1 and 1/2 yrs old. We lived in a rented house when my father would work with his minimal salary. I lost all my gifted child abilities and can't even get a perfect marks at any one subject now. Moreover, my friends think I live a dream life. They talk behind my back. Curse behind me. My so called "classmates" wish me bad luck and laugh from joy and satisfaction whenever I do bad in any one exams. And the good thing is that nobody knows about it. Or what else would they think of me? + I am going through my 10th Boards and my Mom is again showing this bpd behaviors. Always just before my exams. I simply want to feel complete comfort for once. And it all started when I was born. Can't help but blame myself for my mother's issues. My mother was the best person I knew in my life when we lived in our 1st rented house. She was my role model, my only love along with my father. But now I can't recognise my life and my parents. I never thought that my life would be like this before I was even 9. And the fact she can't remember what happened. I can't myself remember my memories when I was just only in grade 4 in my new school due to all the trauma. I always try to show my happy side in front of everybody but inside I am dead and nobody is aware of it. I can't even get happiness or satisfaction in my grades now. I can't even get a single perfect marks in any one subject , I mean at least in Science, my very best subject! I want to die but I want to keep living for the sake of finding peace and happiness or love probably in the future. Though I don't think anybody will ever love me. Sorry, it was too long. Just wanted to vent out. Edit: I found out my mom has atpd or acute and transient psychotic disorder (T_T). It does explain why she acts like a maniac sometimes and out of the blue, ig.

[@drishti4991]

I will pray that god gives you the strength and patience to get out of that house respectfully! Keep fighting till then

[@oink23451]

I hope that soon only happiness fill your life and you will never be sad again I hope in future you will walk in a path Full of flowers and sunshine 🌼

[@mohammedibrahimnafzia9466]

dude...i'm crying after reading this....hope everythings gets better...wishing best for u...keep going...ur doing great dude

[@shammalight8075]

😭😭😭😭😭😔😔💔💔💔💔

[@rkivenehu]

Bro are you girl or boy because I live the same life

[@arminkzy]

"Because im dead inside" really made me upset

[@odd_onee]

I feel like I'm dead from inside now. Nobody pain hurt me. They really made me to hate myself and everyone. I end being alone. I hate everyone.

[@kealaniyamini2888]

hey man are you doing alright? Im young and i definitely relate to you. Im tired of everything already. But im still here, fighting through it everyday, and trying to find a way to give a shit. Many people have hurt me but they never apologized so all i can do is feel sorry for myself. But honestly im tired of it. Im tired of having to struggle with money constantly, im tired of sweating and hating myself whenever I look in the mirror. But all i know is that when i have children theyll never know this side of me because I'll stay in school for them, and get a job that can support them. And if things dont go the right way then I wont bother bringing children into the struggling world. i hope you are willing to try and stay alive like me. I love you man and i know exactly how you feel. Stay safe

[@tayybamalik4777]

I feel sorry for you, I hope you'll be ok one day, don't hate yourself because of people who can't even understand you, you deserve much better, you know that this world is not made for innocent people, but make sure when it comes to you, you'll not destroy someone, be your own friend, give yourself time and love, nothing is better than realize this. I can feel you, all the best, it's ok if your past is a nightmare, make your future fairytale💖. Lots of best wishes.

[@yoonbeanie_7]

My mother once tied me to a table in one of the rooms because I did something. She turned off the lights and left the room after locking it from the outside. She told my sister that she would beat her too if she opens the door. I was 8. I know she loves me and everytime I remember all kind of things I have to remind myself that she loves me but what blunder an 8yr old must have done to be tied down?

[@sabrinasususa6957]

When i was a little kid,i was like 3 and 4 years old i was liking to move a lot like every kids and to jump and play and have fun and i wasn't obedient to rules like "don't run, don't go there.." i was just a kid that wanted to have fun and not conscious of importance of following rules and more and every time i would be moving and play around the house without putting the rules into actions then my mom instead being understanding and calm,explain slowly with nice maners then instead she would take a rope and tie me with it in the chair so i would not move and normally play around the house like kids are suppose to do and also tie my hands so when it was lunch time it was hard for me to eat with tie hands and all so then my father came and told this is not how little kids should be treated and untied me and made me eat freely Also a lot of times she would have beat me with the belt which the belt hurts extremely and would beat me also with the phone charger and there was no way to run away from there Also a lot of times would grab the extremely hot papper and force me to put it inside my mouth as punishment At that age kids get traumatized from such treatments really Older i got like teenager then would grab a knife to fight me with like serial killers that woman should be in jail already and i tried to call the cops on her but yeah

[@sabrinasususa6957]

Also once she was a babysitter to a kid when like I was a teenager and she would literally beat that kid which is extremely wrong The kid wasn't even her daughter and all her job was supposed to be only to take care of her until her mother comes back and not beat her because plays all around the house with her toys and messes with it,like she was only 2 years old, neither her own mother beats her so who was she to do such shits

[@joydelacerna599]

Why can't they understand us, they once a kid like us too but why can't they understand our fillings, why they want us to suffer, why do they want us to take there dream because they can't, why do they blame us for their own mistake,why can't they love us and why they want us to be perfect Sorry for wrong grammar 😅

[@Life.of_martialarts]

Does grammer even matters while expressing feelings.......don't think so

[@Model_e_leona]

My parents and the world treat me like a useless person because I'm a sickle cell patient

[@simisworld_official]

i know how its feel like .no one is here by my side . i feel like im not living im surviving ,

[@Softyxie]

It's okay to not be okay is so good

[@editsxwag]

Yess❤

[@tayybamalik4777]

This is a sad reality, that our society hates to accept.

[@akshita.s.s6037]

My mom is exactly like that💔💔💔

[@LoranCruse-me8yb]

Im cursed with depression because of my parents🥺

[@villagelifewithfayzafariya]

I am so much related to it but I am not crying cuz It's really dead inside.

[@sabrinasususa6957]

Same

[@ashfaqg]

I'm face this childhood

[@renellapark7357]

The title got me it's not because I'm died inside it's because I'm dead inside😅😅😅😅😅

[@ParkEvergardenchanVillsRaymond]

Name Of Drama ( Only I Know ): 1. At Distance Spring Is Green 2. My Strange Heroes 3. Extraordinary You 4. Sky Castle 5. It's Okay To Be Not Okay 6. Tempted 7. Uncanny Counter

[@saimak5007]

So emotional so bad 😢😢😢 but reality

[@clekey97]

I don't have the guys to scream so i can only cry in silence

[@Lex-gw2bx]

Can someone name all the dramas that are part of the video please 🙏

[@watchmovie3788]

Great edit 👍🏻🥺💘

[@editsxwag]

Thanks ✨😍

[@sabrinasususa6957]

This edit reminds me two years ago when i was 18 and i asked my younger sibling to help me in math subject since she understood that exercise and also since i always help her She refused to help me back so we started fighting,my father enters that room knowing well i was in the right but yet since that one i was fighting with was his favorite daughter then he started beating me extremely hard violence which is like violence against women I started self defense and throwing stuff at him so he wouldn't come at me but yet he came so then i had to beat him back for self defense abd was i started screaming all my madness at him for what he did then he started being scared that neighborhood would come at him by hearing me sfreaming at him what he did to me The sibling didn't stop that and neither said it was her fault that she didn't help me bcak so i had all the blame on me That got me traumatized forever I talk with him only when i need something but i will never forgive him for violence me and not saying sorry and not accepting to say yeah it was my fault I shouldn't and also never will love him Edit:Thank you so much to everyone that liked this previous comment of me and gave me 37 likes and used your time to read it all and show your support,i love you all so much And also thank you so much to everyone who showed their support and comment nice and helpful advices,only the victims like us who gone to this certain hard situation cn understand each others and support one another ,then of course it'll be easy for everyone close minded and ignorant and none understanding to twist things as they want Also remember that it's never okay of the people that blame the victim by telling that they should've called the police for the abuse and blame them for not doing so insted of questioning the reasons of why they couldn't and also instead of saying that a parent in first place shouldn't have done that and so on..acting like wanting to blame the victim so harsh of them. Anyway thank you once again for the support of all the lovely and understanding people that gone through my same situation and comprehend it perfectly also i wish you all the best❤ @Arabelle_grey thank you so much for your concern under my previous comment which was exactly this one which I'm publishing once again and taking down the other down @Jeonsuax08 thank you too for your concern and nice wishes And also thanks to all the people who liked the comments that were supporting me of those two amazing mentioned people that helped me through Hopefully one day the people that blame the victims for being aggressively attacked and couldn't defense by calling the cops and so on will stop to exist and instead there will be the ones that actually focuses on how somebody should never aggressively attack and in certain circumstances it's not easy and all to call for help

[@anna_kim4]

Amei o vídeo!!!! Muito bom ♥️

[@Toki_stay]

Who knows how it feels?

[@ruchakalkotwar9548]

Plz tell every drama name

[@parisharma1826]

Every children diserve parents but not every parents diserve a child

[@wintersyve2000]

So true! I made a video similar to this about Yeo Jin Goo's character in Beyond Evil, because his relationship with his father in that show matches the lyrics of this song perfectly. I hope you like it!

[@parisharma1826]

@@wintersyve2000 oh I will see it 💜💜

[@wintersyve2000]

@@parisharma1826 Thank you! Please let me know what if you like it!

[@anikabuto6263]

2:45 whats the name of the drama

[@editsxwag]

Sky Castle

[@user-xp8cy7ft9z]

I hate my mom my mom feel so happy when i cry from her bitting but now a days i can control my tears and now a days my mother say why you don't cry 😅 it's funny but my own mother but me with blait and cut me 😊 💔

[@josilenematias8675]

Amo os dramas 😢❤

[@noni8214]

Do anyone know all dramas name?

[@AussieVietgirlcookie]

1:58 ep? And name?

[@editsxwag]

True beauty ep 11

[@riizeareseven7]

I like the edit ❤ 2:26name of drama please ♡

[@editsxwag]

At spring distance is green

[@riizeareseven7]

@@editsxwag I'm sorry but before that 😊

[@editsxwag]

@@riizeareseven7 okay, name: *Sky Castle* ☺

[@riizeareseven7]

@@editsxwag thankss

[@zoradjurdjevic9987]

​@@editsxwag at a distance spring is green

[@proudagustd]

What are the names of the kdramas used?

[@rose.a.g.]

this edit is so good, what are the drama at 0:22 and what is the drama at 1:00 and 1:13?

[@editsxwag]

0:22 / 1:13 Sky Castle 1:00 My strange hero

[@rose.a.g.]

@@editsxwag thank you so much! you are very talented 💗🤭

[@k-drama3447]

1:32 drama name please

[@editsxwag]

Weightlifting fairy kim bok joo

[@Irsyaderyan]

Can i have all the drama/movie titles?? Pls

[@sabrinasususa6957]

-It's okay to not be okay -The doctors kdrama The rest ones I don't know

[@janetodeyemie2974]

True Beauty 2:14 School 2015 2:16 Sky castle 1:15

[@naoswirl]

1:54 what is the name of this drama and ep pls?

[@jojo1074]

the uncanny counter, but I don't know which episode :(

[@priyankachowdhury727]

Uncanny Counter episode 15 or 16

[@bardssongs]

Edit is so good! Can u say name of kdramas 0:26 and 1:40 ?

[@editsxwag]

0:26 Sky Castle

[@editsxwag]

1:40 The doctors

[@bardssongs]

Thank uu

[@hf_suakimbora]

1:18 drama name please Where the man tells the girl to die

[@black_flower2816]

It's okay if you're not okay

[@hf_suakimbora]

@@black_flower2816 thank you!!!!

[@Marykpop77]

1:54 what's the name please??

[@humain_]

The Uncanny Counter saison1

[@Marykpop77]

@@humain_ thank you!!!!

[@humain_]

@@Marykpop77 you're welcome

[@user-xp8cy7ft9z]

My own brother bite me with glass and cut my lips and face and he this such type of think in just for fun

[@jhumkirouth4593]

00:57 drama name

[@kalaiarasi3345]

0:23 can you tell me the drame name pls

[@editsxwag]

Sky Castle

[@kalaiarasi3345]

@@editsxwag ❤

[@sunilyelkar6636]

Can you please tell me all drama name's 🥺

[@solenndif5690]

Not all the dramas but some of them: my strange hero, true beauty, sky castle, extraordinary you, doctors, it's okay not to be okay, school 2015, uncanny counter

[@janetodeyemie2974]

Run on Tempted The Doctors

[@Valen-gu8ms]

2:09 name please?

[@editsxwag]

Name: True Beauty

[@meihkmdz.5426]

2:24 drama name please

[@editsxwag]

Tempted

[@lillaajna]

Amazing edit, thank you for this!😊 Could you tell me which movie/show is at 1:15, when Kim Byung-chul is hitting people? I like the actor. Also, I recognised Im Si-Wan's sweet face around 0:30. Where is that scene from? Thanks in advance!

[@editsxwag]

0:30 Run on

[@editsxwag]

1:15 Skycastle

[@lillaajna]

Thank you so much! I just added them to my never ending watch list 😉

[@funwiths.j6618]

2:23 & 2:43 drama?

[@editsxwag]

Tempted Sky Castle

[@anushkaarya4716]

0:41 and 0:58 ??

[@editsxwag]

Clean with passion for now My strange hero

[@xart1279]

Name of the drama 1:00 pls

[@editsxwag]

My stranger hero

[@zainulhaque7393]

0:41 drama name

[@editsxwag]

Name: Clean with passion for now

[@user-gn2ng7im3j]

0:54

[@editsxwag]

Sky Castle

[@slavicmortem966]

Drama names please?

[@saraelmeskine]

1:24 drama name

[@editsxwag]

Extraordinary you

[@NazishZavahir-sj8ip]

Can anyone tell me which is the kdrama in 0:59 I feel like its vincenzo but im not sure

[@editsxwag]

My strange hero

[@mehjabeinohi5114]

All drama's name?

[@funwiths.j6618]

0:23which drama?

[@editsxwag]

Sky Castle

[@funwiths.j6618]

@@editsxwag tysm

[@Itzzqueenie]

I am just 17 years old college student they send me to the college I most dislike and force me to goo there are very toxic like my college bus driver is a young boy 3 years older than me so they change me to the another bus whose driver is old and what hurts the most was I sacrifice everything for them but in the end I always suffer for no reason even when I get old they marry me to someone just toxic like my father I am fed up of my life💔❤️‍🩹

[@thestarsandmoon_]

1:02 what's this drama? Can anyone tell me the name please?

[@editsxwag]

My strange hero

[@watchmovie3788]

0:50 - 0:53 name ?pls

[@editsxwag]

Name: Clean with passion for now

[@asianlife1610]

Name of dramas pls

[@obsessedwith39others]

0:58 drama name please?

[@editsxwag]

My stranger hero

[@shairaaltheacanales8959]

can u say what is the name of the drama 0.40

[@asutoshdey4360]

but my family not untersant my

[@photostore7248]

0:12 what's the name of drama

[@editsxwag]

Sky Castle

[@photostore7248]

0.12.5

[@editsxwag]

@@photostore7248 It's okay not to be okay

[@itsmoon_arfastha889]

2:16 & 2:28 this drama always broke my heart😭😭

[@editsxwag]

😥yes

[@teresanunley5322]

What is the drama for 2:16

[@i_am_trusfrated6685]

@@teresanunley5322 school 2015

[@user-jt4nd8hs2d]

Drama name please when he get into the car and his dad hod his neck from back

[@editsxwag]

The uncanny country Season1

[@user-jt4nd8hs2d]

No I watched the uncanny counter not this kdrama

[@leofriehe1984]

@@user-jt4nd8hs2d that scene is def from there. its the evil possessed guy and his son, who bullies the protagonist

[@imambhatti8845]

0.35 drama name pls? Where he saud his mother came for money?

[@Ahedil674]

Weightlifting fairy kim bok joo

[@iam_pousha]

0:09 name?

[@editsxwag]

Extraordinary you

[@heeshareddy117]

what is the name of the dramaa in 1:13?

[@editsxwag]

Sky Castle

[@parkmochi4498]

0:54 drama name Please 😢

[@editsxwag]

Sky Castle

[@Doraemon_19]

1:21 drama name??

[@editsxwag]

The uncanny counter

[@Doraemon_19]

@@editsxwag thank you

[@Doraemon_19]

​@@editsxwagwhat is the name of drama 1:23??

[@editsxwag]

​@@Doraemon_19 Extraordinary you

[@mercianfernando3327]

2:42?

[@editsxwag]

Extraordinary you

[@surveekhan8554]

Drama names?

[@amnamahar5026]

0:20 drama name?

[@editsxwag]

Are you human too?

[@rozhatahir7808]

All name please drama

[@JKandHisBananaMilk]

0:34 drama name and ep plz♥

[@drama_lovers123]

Weightfiling Fairy

[@madhukoriighosh3082]

1:22 can ya pls say the drama name

[@editsxwag]

Extraordinary you

[@CemreGülçin]

​@@editsxwagWas that guy the lead?

[@veramelkonyan3323]

0:47 drama name plss

[@editsxwag]

it's okay not to be okay

[@khadijahalshehhi5365]

1:54 & 1:56 name?

[@editsxwag]

○The uncanny counter ○True Beauty

[@kunjalchopade4303]

0.33?

[@editsxwag]

Weightlifting fairy kim bok joo

[@jojo1074]

0:15 name please?

[@editsxwag]

My strange hero

[@jojo1074]

@@editsxwag thanks, do you know which episode it is?

[@editsxwag]

@@jojo1074 Episode 05

[@jojo1074]

@@editsxwag thank you so much

[@nonamousa2598]

1.55

[@editsxwag]

True Beauty

[@nonamousa2598]

2.43

[@editsxwag]

Sky castle

[@black_flower2816]

What is the name of the drama??

[@black_flower2816]

The dramas are: 1.Clean with passion now 2.The great seducer 3.Clean with passion 3.now it's okay to not be okay 4.extraordinary you 5.sky Castle 6.true beauty 7.My strange hero

[@melisakarakus8815]

1:54 or 1:55 which kdrama ? Name

[@editsxwag]

The uncanny counter

[@teresanunley5322]

Do you know what ep?

[@shiny5817]

1:43 name?

[@editsxwag]

my id is gangnam beauty

[@shiny5817]

@@editsxwag thanks for telling the k-drama name

[@khadijahalshehhi5365]

1:34?

[@editsxwag]

the uncanny counter

[@JT-du7ct]

Can i get all the names plz

[@janetodeyemie2974]

Tempted 2:24 It's okay not to be okay 2:31 Run on 0:30 Sky castle 1:15 School 2015 2:16 A distance spring is green 2:28 The Doctors 1:40 My strange hero 1:02 Extraordinary you 1:22 True Beauty 2:14 The uncanny counter 1:54 Weightlifting fairy kim bokjoo 0:33 Are you human, too? 1:51 Clean with passion now 0:14 My ID is gangnam 1:43 Crash course romance 2:47

[@rose.a.g.]

@@janetodeyemie2974 what is the one at 0:22?

[@janetodeyemie2974]

@@rose.a.g. sky castle

[@saritakalra9733]

0:58 to 0:56 drama name bro ??

[@editsxwag]

My strange hero

[@saritakalra9733]

Thanks🙂

[@akg_4918]

0.01 drama name please

[@editsxwag]

Name: Clean with passion for now

[@jeanethponsica8185]

Kdrama Name Po

[@ScrewHandles571]

0:51 drama name please

[@editsxwag]

Name: Clean with passion for now

[@ScrewHandles571]

@@editsxwag ok thanks!

[@wongnoir1841]

What drama is that at 0:58? 💜

[@editsxwag]

My strange hero

[@wongnoir1841]

@@editsxwag tq very much, I'm just looking for sad kdramas to watch especially parents abusive since I'm related. ... Can u recommend me any pls

[@editsxwag]

​​​@@wongnoir1841There's a lot about abusive parents : It's okay not to be okay

[@wongnoir1841]

@@editsxwag oo alright TwT tq for recommending.... ❤

[@chitrashukla06]

which show at 1:51

[@editsxwag]

Name: Are you human too?

[@priyankachowdhury727]

1:01 what is the movie or series name?

[@editsxwag]

My strange hero

[@priyankachowdhury727]

@@editsxwag Thank You.

[@hania277]

i know a girl who is abused by her mum daily even her mum abuse her with knifes

[@editsxwag]

😢😢

[@sabrinasususa6957]

Same my mother abused me with a knife and was really about to make a cut with it in my skin until I stopped her otherwise I would have a big scar all over my skin And all that guess why? Just because she criticed me so I was mad and closed the door really strongly so she was like how dare you to close the door this strong,you are gonna break my door one and bringed a knife against me But guess what?Her lovely door isn't always lovely, multiple times before me my younger sibling closed the door string out of madness and she told her never nothing So I asked her that same day why she doesn't like when in past other days that one close the door strong And she told me that she is allowed to meanwhile me not It's obviously because of "favourite daughter affairs", And she make it obvious everyday more that treat us unequally,she gets to do all she wants without getting screamed at meanwhile if I do afterwards the same things I get screamed just because I'm not the favorite daughter

[@zahirah612]

1.55 name pls🥰

[@editsxwag]

The uncanny counter

[@alkxxxz]

Whats the name of this drama 2:42

[@editsxwag]

Extraordinary you