Bleachers - I Wanna Get Better (Official Audio)

[@calebdunn1288]

"I didn't know I was broken till I wanted to change" the real truth right there

[@atsuyak768]

It hits so hard.

[@Shannonbryant605]

Dead ass

[@Oreggon]

It’s a double entendre. He didn’t know he was broke in terms of money until he wanted some change. He also didn’t know he was broke mentally until he wanted to improve himself.

[@SalemSphynx]

True that🤘

[@CrazyCass]

Yep

[@gpgara]

This song made me shower, get dressed, clean my room, and take a long, silent walk through my neighbourhood. Yesterday I didn't even want to move. Bleachers 1 - My Depression 0. Thank you Bleachers for this song. So much.

[@alanpacholski2788]

Way to go! Keep it up!

[@gpgara]

Thank you for your encouragement. I just hope the improvement sticks. :)

[@gpgara]

Matthew Bridges Today I played the violin again. That should tell you how I'm doing! :) Thanks for your encouragement.

[@alanpacholski2788]

giligara30492, you should upload a video of you playing the violin!

[@gpgara]

Alan Pacholski Maybe some day!

[@1gnore_me.]

hey guys, just a reminder: progress isn't linear. if you had a bad day, you're still better off then you were before. don't give up.

[@oneoddduck777]

I hope it isn't inappropriate to say that I love you for this comment. Thank you.

[@Ratking008]

I also love you for this commemt

[@junipersolis]

"Progress isn't linear" is something abusers say to make people believe they're getting better. What does that say about you?

[@Ratking008]

@@junipersolis but that doesn't mean it has to be said by an abuser this is just someone trying to motivate people to do better and feel better when they're struggling it's a good thing to say amd abusers also say shit like "your pretty" "your made for me" and more but that doesnt make those statements evil or cursed

[@1gnore_me.]

​@@junipersolis this is something I say to myself all the time, I guess I'm abusing myself.

[@stateofdisarray679]

This song definitely gives me hope for getting out of my depressive rut.

[@anbuuoza5744]

I think the same. Life will be alright :D

[@sadiant9625]

Anbu Uoza u good now fam?

[@jemimadaisy7173]

Joseph Edwards I got out so you can too! Keep hoping - you're gonna get better!!! 😜

[@byrnesdubc]

Depression is reality, depressive thoughts are not

[@idkkk1825]

ha! hey at least someone can get better

[@barefootandindependent]

This song makes me not want to hurt myself!

[@nigeldelol]

+barefoot and independent No!! Everyone pay attention to me!

[@barefootandindependent]

Jess Brassington thanks!

[@barefootandindependent]

Nigel Swan shut up bitch, this song helped me! cheers!

[@enterusername7412]

+barefoot and independent yay! :)

[@kriskenard]

+Indigo Zap I don't know how, but, I know you're gonna be okay. hang in there!

[@gabbykingmusic]

I feel like I've known this song for years, like I've heard it hundreds of times. I can't explain it; it's like song déjà vu.

[@lyndseymiddleton5022]

same with me! when i heard this on the radio i was like, "i swear to god i heard this when i was a kid" déjà vu twins! haha

[@gabbykingmusic]

Lyndsey Middleton I guess it's just that kind of song haha

[@jeffjeffjeff69]

Same lol but i think ive heard it before i just dont know when and where

[@prototype359]

you were just remembering in the wrong direction

[@elliinspace]

Honestly I feel like when he sings “I didn’t know i was lonely till i saw your face” is definitely something I’ve heard somewhere else. It has to be, because it’s fucking with my brain how familiar it is.

[@m1kulas]

As a person who is recovering from depression, this song is a real boost.

[@vaughendustries]

Ditto, my dude. Let's hope we can all Get Better soon

[@vickmalham8191]

We are getting better

[@aidanpicturespresents]

Right? Its crazy

[@spirit_soul3708]

True This song Gets me so hyped when i listen to it

[@SalemSphynx]

🤘🤍🤘🤍🤘

[@maryamaadw123]

I wanna be friends with everyone who loves this song

[@RoxxySweets]

+Hippie Not hipster Hey Buddy! (because we're friends now...😏)

[@aaronviss]

+RoxxySweets Guess not

[@RoxxySweets]

Double Aaron ....guess not what? Friends?

[@Herisson126]

+Hippie Not hipster here i am my child

[@maryamaadw123]

+AlessiaHasOpinions Mummy!!

[@cams5563]

This song is instant serotonin guaranteed

[@SirGhostly]

An 18 year old who didn't know what loss was hits home so fucking hard, I love this song

[@braltimore3995]

Recently realized that all my anger and rage doesn't help anyone. Revenge doesn't help the hurt. I felt the fire die and I feel so old and wise. I wanna be young and foolish again.

[@joshuaramon123]

The first time i heard this, i cried. I should've known this song when i was depressed.

[@simon-yx5ln]

same.

[@Dude2256]

I'm still there, I've heard this song many times, just trying to get better.

[@Ryanagator49823]

Dude.

[@simon-yx5ln]

***** can u not

[@zachswearingen6966]

Yeah... This song starts meaning a whole lot more to you once you actually understand the meaning behind it. I love this song.

[@thaliaferreira8656]

“I didn’t know I was lonely till I saw your face” and “I didn’t know I was broken till I wanted to change” really get to me

[@kayliemancino6269]

THIS SONG IS SO CUTE AND INSPIRATIONAL AND REALLY REALLY BEAUTIFUL.

[@shewhoshallnotbenamed9272]

Kaylie Mancino it's actually really sad 😐

[@ElpSmith]

but it inspires you to be a little less sad.

[@mothmadi_]

Yeah I'm pretty sure its about Jacks sister dying.

[@MT1932MT]

I listen to this song right before I go into therapy. Thank you bleachers. This is my freaking jam.

[@Ren-vh3hg]

“I didn’t know I was broken until I wanted to change.” God, this song has made me realized I want to become a better person. I love it so much. Bleachers in general has really helped me to get through these summer blues I have. I’m so grateful to know this band! ❤️❤️❤️

[@laughattack1313]

It's been months and THE LYRICS STILL AMAZE ME.

[@noxious9284]

"I didnt know I was lonely till I saw your face." *says me, to me in the mirror*

[@dannygrove9078]

Gotta learn to love yourself

[@noxious9284]

@@dannygrove9078 i guess so...

[@RupertRumble]

😭❤️

[@goigonk4460]

“Didn’t know I was broken ‘till I wanted to change” I’m in love with this line. So relatable my guy... or gal

[@AlanKey86]

That piano loop. Genius.

[@williamwall3403]

That is my favorite part of the music too. It's just so dang catchy.

[@deliahadian9618]

jack antonoff

[@CrazyCass]

Yeah!

[@jordancaffrey6196]

This song get me in workout mode/ my ex doesn't matter mode/ I can overcome depression mode it's so good! Thankyou bleachers

[@Ash-ej1jj]

Jordan C Hell ya!

[@futuresmiles5797]

the best running song, I cannot not sprint every time that chorus kicks in

[@deliahadian9618]

please take care of yourself guys, we all can do it.

[@blankityblank4976]

this song is enough misery and joyful for me i adore it. it makes me want to smile, sing and dance with eternally sad people.

[@ashleyrobbins8205]

I will dance with you! I've been jamming to this on repeat for a while now! I love this song ♡

[@robyn7650]

😭💗

[@intraserv3123]

This song is gonna be my fuel while I go through this transition.

[@kittymollykitty4785]

How's it going

[@David-Ivey]

I'm curious too, we're rooting for you!

[@aidanbolduc1735]

I hope it's going well!

[@eviltati]

I hope you’re doing well my friend

[@brainmeat2330]

Hope you're doing well!

[@guitarpunk200]

lyrics cause all the lyric videos on youtube have shit going on in the back ground of the videos....... "I Wanna Get Better" Hey, I hear the voice of a preacher from the back room Calling my name and I follow just to find you I trace the faith to a broken down television and put on the weather And I've trained myself to give up on the past 'cause I frozen time between hearses and caskets Lost control when I panicked at the acid test I wanna get better While my friends were getting high and chasing girls down parkway lines I was losing my mind 'cause the love, the love, the love, the love, the love That I gave wasted on a nice face In a blaze of fear I put a helmet on a helmet Counting seconds through the night and got carried away So now I'm standing on the overpass screaming at the cars, "Hey, I wanna get better!" I didn’t know I was lonely 'til I saw your face I wanna get better, better, better, better, I wanna get better I didn't know I was broken 'til I wanted to change I wanna get better, better, better, better, I wanna get better I go up to my room and there's girls on the ceiling Cut out their pictures and I chase that feeling Of an eighteen year old who didn't know what loss was Now I'm a stranger And I miss the days of a life still permanent Mourn the years before I got carried away So now I'm staring at the interstate screaming at myself, "Hey, I wanna get better!" I didn't know I was lonely 'til I saw your face I wanna get better, better, better, better, I wanna get better I didn't know I was broken 'til I wanted to change I wanna get better, better, better, better, I wanna get better 'Cause I'm sleeping in the back of a taxi I'm screaming from my bedroom window Even if its gonna kill me Woke up this morning early before my family From this dream where she was trying to show me How a life can move from the darkness She said to get better So I put a bullet where I shoulda put a helmet And I crash my car cause I wanna get carried away That's why I'm standing on the overpass screaming at myself, "Hey, I wanna get better!" I didn't know I was lonely 'til I saw your face I wanna get better, better, better, better, I wanna get better I didn't know I was broken 'til I wanted to change I wanna get better, better, better, better, I wanna get better

[@Mode7GamingPLUS]

Sometimes when you feel like shit you need a song like this to pump you up instead of sad songs by other people when they were also feeling like shit because that just becomes a vicious cycle of people feeling like shit

[@caitlink]

Same, sometimes you just need happy comments instead of sad comments. I hope you are doing well!

[@Shannonbryant605]

We are all slowly getting better we needa support each other 😌☝️

[@matttress7218]

Any other songs like this?

[@scent-bubbles]

The lyrics of this beautiful song: Hey, I hear the voice of a preacher from the back room Calling my name and I follow just to find you I trace the faith to a broken down television and put on the weather And I've trained myself to give up on the past 'cause I frozen time between hearses and caskets Lost control when I panicked at the acid test I wanna get better While my friends were getting high and chasing girls down parkway lines I was losing my mind 'cause the love, the love, the love, the love, the love That I gave wasted on a nice face In a blaze of fear I put a helmet on a helmet Counting seconds through the night and got carried away So now I'm standing on the overpass screaming at the cars, Hey, I wanna get better! I didn’t know I was lonely 'til I saw your face I wanna get better, better, better, better, I wanna get better I didn't know I was broken 'til I wanted to change I wanna get better, better, better, better, I wanna get better I go up to my room and there's girls on the ceiling Cut out their pictures and I chase that feeling Of an eighteen year old who didn't know what loss was Now I'm a stranger And I miss the days of a life still permanent Mourn the years before I got carried away So now I'm staring at the interstate screaming at myself, Hey, I wanna get better! I didn't know I was lonely 'til I saw your face I wanna get better, better, better, better, I wanna get better I didn't know I was broken 'til I wanted to change I wanna get better, better, better, better, I wanna get better Better, 'cause I'm sleeping in the back of a taxi I'm screaming from my bedroom window Even if its gonna kill me Woke up this morning early before my family From this dream where she was trying to show me How a life can move from the darkness She said to get better So I put a bullet where I shoulda put a helmet And I crash my car 'cause I wanna get carried away That's why I'm standing on the overpass screaming at myself Hey, I wanna get better! I didn't know I was lonely 'til I saw your face I wanna get better, better, better, better, I wanna get better I didn't know I was broken 'til I wanted to change I wanna get better, better, better, better, I wanna get better

[@sophiehatter3600]

Thank you for the lyrics! 🌻

[@Yourmumsadoor]

i really, truly wanna get better.

[@lissadavis2536]

+Your mums a door You will, fellow Phandom member

[@Yourmumsadoor]

Melody Stargirl thank you.

[@saamjonees]

+Your mums a door

[@Yourmumsadoor]

lethe love you, olivia ♡

[@awesomealiza4351]

Melellie Mel PHANDOM!! and I want to get better also

[@chuuchuuz]

The old comments are so wow. Glad you all are taking the journey to better yourselves

[@Maryam-j7l]

made me smile for the first time in days

[@vaughendustries]

Me too, I hope life's been treating you well.

[@TheForestFamily]

I have never related so much to a song in my life before. Ever. It's hopeful though, which is nice. Anxiety is so hard to fucking deal with and no song has ever described what it's like as well as this song.

[@pizza101real9]

TheForestFamily nice to see someone I can relate to

[@annie-pq6qs]

This song makes me extremely pumped and ecstatic

[@DesertPoem18]

I used to play this song a lot when I was going through a deep and bad depression, and sing it to myself with determination that I wanna get better. Now I play it and I know I'm better, life has gotten better and I love this song even more.

[@emmakrumm6399]

Hey, I'm truly glad to hear. How are you now, do you want to tell me?

[@stephaniel7002]

Listening to this song on repeat while going through terrible depression. It helps a bit.

[@ale5929]

Stephanie Levine How are you doing now?

[@vaughendustries]

I think it totally does, it has positive and honest vibes. I hope you're doing okay, my dude, and that we can both get through things.

[@mariaechuacasantonja5903]

This lyrics seems to be depressed but the melody is so great and cool and it is like wanting to dance while you're sad anyone agree? lol

[@shmesaalrawahi3492]

Basically what twenty one pilots is

[@glithch]

+Someone Special i like top but,, no? also its a bleachers song so why are you talking about diametrally differend band

[@shmesaalrawahi3492]

glithch except im not saying anything related to the bleachers? Im just saying that most top songs have a happy beat and sad lyrics so idk where your coming from?

[@glithch]

+Someone Special no? you are on a bleachers video ppl are talking about bleachers song and you are trying to push 21p here?

[@glithch]

+Someone Special you said NOTHING about other bands. what game are you trying to be playing?

[@hannahbeckington]

This song is so underrated

[@raine-rambles]

no therapy we listen to this song fifty times like men

[@blissfulstatic2563]

Jamie Brown okay legit? i came to this video because of a tumblr post that said almost the exact same thing the post's 11 months old so it's possible that you saw the same one 👀

[@dayman7084]

What sort of toxic masculinity bs is that?

[@writteninthestars02]

Day man it's a joke

[@brianchenny]

Jamie Brown yeeeahhh buddyyy

[@ouijabored000]

use testosterone to dominate your own mental illnesses

[@oliviahyates]

this content is relatable

[@inno8283]

At a rough point right now. Shit is really rough and I don't know if I'll make it through tomorrow without doing something I'll regret, but I can't deny that this song has picked me up in the past and that I believe it'll pick me up long into the future.

[@Enturbulant]

I hope things have improved for you, sincerely.

[@sketchreemead6353]

I hope you're still here in 2024 with us ❤

[@crunchenpretzel]

Coming from someone who's suffered from depression, everything from the dissociatively happy melody acting as a mask over the lyrics to the delivery of said lyrics is a perfect representation of that to the point where it's hard to say the one who created the song didn't suffer from it themselves. It shows such an intimate, even poetic knowledge o of the disease it honestly makes me break into tears. And that's a good thing.

[@stevenlomon]

This is part of the soundtrack of my life right now. I recently had a complete mental breakdown and I've never related to a lyric more than "I didn't know I was broken til I wanted to change". One week of therapy and regular exercise now and it'll only get better! :D

[@LoveSickPanda]

This song makes me oddly emotional. Such a uniquely, beautifully, touching aspect to it. Been on replay all morning.

[@trilohgys]

imagine being the artist reading these comments about how this song has helped all these people 🥺

[@vickmalham8191]

It’s fantastic

[@veilentines]

I have to get ready for school in less than 3 hours and I'm quietly jamming out to this song. And there's no other way I'd want to spend another sleepless night :')

[@user-te9ue7wz3j]

What a MeMe

[@yetanothersalvadordaliacco3085]

Pepe = meme = mepe? Peme? Meep? Sleepless nights = memes??

[@zofiaszefler1701]

You got that right, buddy :))))

[@ludalin2898]

You Are Fucking Awesome

[@esoteric.5031]

I am in the exact position.. Today.

[@fatgods2921]

What is this? Why is this in my recommended? Why is it the best song I've ever heard?

[@kellydixon8423]

this is such a good summer song :)

[@khaosx4260]

My friend who passed five years ago had this in her playlist that i was archiving so it wouldnt get lost if her spotify got deleted. Ppl like to use the fact that she was an asshole on the internet as a kid to justify what happened. She really did want to get better. This song has an entire different meaning to me now

[@lizhorn2931]

i can not thank you enough for this song it has changed my life

[@eric_the_egggremlin]

I haven't heard this song in years. I immediately started crying. This was my recovery song. Today I'm on new meds, I have new doctors, I have hope, and I swear to god I HAVE gotten better

[@vickmalham8191]

Good luck pal and happy New Year 🎊🎆🎈

[@jocelynsawyer9647]

Whenever I’m really thinking about it.,. I jam this song, read the comments, and remind myself it’s ok to wanna get better, and I’m not alone. Thank you all. Thank you bleachers. For at least tossing me a match to light in this darkness..

[@emmakrumm6399]

Thanks for phrasing that. It's okay to want to get better, I don't know what you thought writing that but I think I needed to hear.

[@loststar5503]

used to listen to this when i was younger and it found me at the perfect time again. love y’all

[@randomfire27]

I fucking wanna get better.

[@ryanlee7697]

Love you

[@Calob]

Bleachers has a bright future in the Music Industry that's all i have to say. :) Great song.

[@mothmadi_]

Calob Yeah, they got on the radio finally. Which is great.

[@SolusEclipse]

I think well all need to get better...Anyone agree?

[@chipcookie707]

Kinda but No cuz im perfect

[@violetb.2835]

Haha. I agree. We certainly all need to get better. Except not that guy... ( cookie chip ) Cuz he's perfect. ☺

[@chipcookie707]

i be perfect

[@XxLilBxX1]

cookie chip A perfect person would have a better grammar.

[@chipcookie707]

I said im perfect not flawless ;)

[@jimo1759]

I am 55 yrs old and after listening I feel like I am back in college in 1983! Great to feel like I am in my 20’s again! Awesome!

[@solarprncss]

I can’t believe I just found this song. Even though it’s my first time hearing it, there’s a sense of familiarity and comfort there that I can’t describe. I feel like this song was written for me, and that’s the best feeling in the world.

[@thewizard2158]

I love how good this song makes everyone feel... it's nice to know how many people a single song can inspire.

[@charleswoolley8367]

This song is such a motivator. It makes you want to get up, show up, and make your life into a better version.

[@lauraosterdock7492]

I’m

[@lauraosterdock7492]

I’m so happy

[@sab1229]

THE FUCKING BEST SONG Ever

[@sad-wr4ye]

ilesonce sb PROFAMITY

[@sab1229]

TheTitanOfChaos Right. i'm sorry

[@zonkvervonk]

happy birthday babygirl IWGB! thanks for keeping me alive for 9 years!

[@logankemp2755]

this song has got me through the worst times in my life. it also made me love music again. "I didn't know I was broken till I wanted to change." are lyrics that ill always live by and remember till the day I die...thank you so much jack for writing a song that is relatable and memorable.

[@avegen1616]

"I didn't know I was broken until I wanted to change". I felt that..

[@llamabomb9375]

Dude I dont know what this song does to you but It does something, I got dressed, cleaned my room, lit some candles, chilled out. This song is great

[@watermelonboi234]

Wintersebb what a nice way to vibe

[@sarahcarvalho9963]

Listening to this to give me courage for my first therapy visit today.

[@user-pm7mt7ho9w]

I have chronic depression that comes and goes. I use this song as a reminder, that things will be ok again, as long as I keep going, I'll get better soon. Then when I'm through, I dance like crazy to the song with a crazy burst of adrenaline and happiness. Like, yesterday, it was raining, and I love rain, and I woke up so happy, so normal, after a week of depression, and I just ran outside and danced to the rain, and jumped in the puddles. I didn't care that people were seeing me in their cars, I didn't care that I was probably too old for this, all I cared about was that I just felt so much better.

[@BenVanAmburg]

You go Jenny!

[@1gnore_me.]

I've listened to this song probably 1 billion times throughout my life and it never gets old. Classic.

[@tessamarie3106]

I think I've listened to this 17 times in a row and I'm still getting chills

[@silverfox142]

I'm sorry for all of you that have struggled with depression or heroin use. I've not, but it doesnt mean iam better than you lot. Iam just proud of you guys have listen to the power of this song that enabled you guys to pick yourselves up to the greater possibilities of what your lives can offer than drugs or feeling low. Big hug to all of you!!

[@goigonk4460]

BIG hug

[@goigonk4460]

🫂

[@jimmy404g]

Wherever you are. Don't give up.

[@Hauntedomens]

Uploaded on my birthday on possibly the most life changing year of my life. This is a gift I didn't know I got. 2014 itself was a gift to me

[@weezysneezy2876]

This one is getting me through current hard days and i’m thankful

[@taylorness04]

I'm glad to see this song has helped so many people as I was scrolling through the comments :) music really changes people and it's an amazing thing

[@shinwonderboy]

this song will always be for 15 year old me, staying up all night and watching the sunrise over the mountains in my old neighborhood. i’m 23 now (has it really been that long?) and i’m still not okay, but sometimes, i think i am better.

[@test123apt]

day 4 off heroin. this made things better

[@wxstedstxrs]

test123apt I hope you’re doing better now! :) 💕

[@test123apt]

Wxsted Stxrs thank you. It's still a rough and rocky road... But I'm determined to give it all I've got.

[@falloutarchival]

I don't know you, but I'm proud of you. You are getting better.💛

[@rory4623]

Hopefully 9 months now.

[@ilselangnar507]

I wish you the best. Almost nobody I ever knew got off heroine successfully. Be strong, my friend. Withdrawal is not fun and I know it can be painful and frustrating, and heroine is a thousand times worse, but if you fight you can make it!🤞🏻🤞🏻

[@hunterwhite7075]

ex drug addict- for 3 years ! and i can only thank this song.

[@Chirpingcherub]

“I didn’t know I was broken till I wanted to change” yes literally you don’t know how depressed you actually are/were until you start treatment

[@Poultrygeist666]

Thank you based Bleachers.

[@phill4301]

i haven't heard this song in like, a year and a half and i randomly thought of it today and i'm so glad i did

[@vaughendustries]

Itis one of those songs

[@Owen_O-Quinn]

Shout out to all my people who going through the inner struggle and are unhappy with yourself Stay strong be great be yourself we gonna breakthrough

[@hastithakkar]

this song is way too precious. i couldnt thank you enough

[@MsGumshoe22]

Truth be told, I'm wrapped up in this song. hitting replay for days. Memorizing the lyrics.

[@enterusername7412]

this song is one of the many great things that made 2014 amazing.

[@itsallperspective7415]

My siblings and I grew up in a abusive neglected household. Nothing better than being 17 drunk with your 13 year old brother screaming this song smoking a bowl parked in the driveway ✌

[@sebrenadookhoo8789]

just so you know, Jesus loves you :)

[@itsallperspective7415]

@@sebrenadookhoo8789 thanks that means alot ❤️

[@sebrenadookhoo8789]

@@itsallperspective7415 ❤

[@kaylamenne7765]

Enjoy your youth. They’re short and the best years of your life.

[@mewcelappleby]

the vibe reminds me of fun. idk i just miss the old times

[@willliammaymay1402]

Thanks brother. Spirits high forever.

[@chelintony]

I can't explain my love for this song in words....thankyou Bleachers for making this.

[@cmunson9488]

This song will help me get thru my depression

[@Naomi-rf1bl]

It makes me sad that all the comments are from four years ago

[@danmihm3505]

Don't worry I'm still listening to it.

[@brianchenny]

Dan Mihm Same and same.

[@AlexTheCrayChick]

now this ones a year old

[@nick-bc3vc]

alex time low hell yeah 2020 gang

[@wesleyutter5947]

We out here 🤙🏿🤙🏿

[@rustypterodactyl]

There’s just something about the line, “So now I’m standing on the overpass screaming at the cars hey hey!” And how it changes to “Standing on the interstate screaming at myself” and then combining the two at the end to “So now I’m standing on the overpass screaming at myself hey hey!” Lyrical Genius

[@backseatlover3310]

I'm a single mother with what seems like no help, always stressed out, it got so bad I slowly became depressed and shut the world out. It was only me and my daughter, I heard this song and it definitely helped me out and gave me courage to get through the hard times in life.

[@dallaswwood]

"I didn't know I was broken, till I wanted to change." - that's a lyric that sticks with you.

[@askshahawy]

Magnificent one mate, can't get enough of it. Keep the great work up.

[@lexiepetranin7729]

not sure if anyone will actually read this, but two days ago my cat passed away. i had him for over 5 yrs, growing into my teenage years. he was my best friend, and a brother to my other kitty, who is probably going through the same pain as me. im really scared for my mental health right now. i feel so sad and useless. im hoping to come back to my comment in a few months to understand how much ive gotten better. i want to get better, but i promise myself that i will get better.

[@CoRLex-jh5vx]

My cat died about a year and a half ago (September 7th, 2019). She'd been with me my entire life, my parents got her as a wedding present to each other (my dad knew my mum wanted another cat, my mum used the excuse of them having their own cat each in order to get her). I dont really know what happened with her, we couldn't find her one night and then the next morning we found her and she couldn't move her back legs. She was fifteen, deaf, probably partially blind, and had been rather chunky up until a year before. We knew it was nearing the end when she got skinny with no diet change. I feel a lot of guilt because for the last two years of her life she smelled really bad and always snuffled and snorted really loudly. I avoided her when I should have made sure she knew I loved her. She was always there when I needed her, despite my stupidity. We had to have her put down the same day her legs went. The vet couldnt even finish injecting the whole syringe before she stopped breathing. From the moment we found her that morning I'd been wondering what itd be like to breathe in a world without her. Shed been there my whole life, followed me around and acted as more of an emotional support than my mum did most of the time. She was basically my second mother, and I'll always think of her as such. It's probably stupid, she was a small boned tabby cat I tried to curl up smaller than so she would think I was her kitten, but that's just what it was. I did hold my breath for a while, after she breathed out the last time. I wondered if I would even know how to breathe without her. I breathed back in eventually, obviously, and it hurt a lot. Accepting a world without her hurt a lot. She had been there for every milestone before that, what would it be like to not celebrate with her? It still hurts thinking about her sometimes. If one of my other cats snuffles too loud while coming up the stairs, I automatically think "Ah, here Brindle comes, looking to steal some food." The grief doesnt go away, and it doesnt heal in the way most people say it does. It's more like you grow around it. What once was huge and all encompassing becomes manageable, then small. Like when I was young, and picking up my cat was a full body effort. Then, as I grew bigger, it got easier. She never changed size, my body just grew to better accommodate her. There's never a right time to lose a pet. It'll never be easy to do. But we grow around it, it becomes part of us. Eventually, cliche though it may seem, we look back and remember how lucky we were to have them at all. I hope this helps a bit :) RIP Brindle She saw 12 kittens come into our household over the years, saw eight remain in said household, and of those outlived three, all with the patience of a saint. Her predecessor Billy the Great, if cats could cackle, would be cackling with her in cat heaven for all eternity.

[@lexiepetranin7729]

@@CoRLex-jh5vx i really really appreciate your reply. reading your story made me feel at home again and reminded me of how good my kitty was to me. i am so sorry you lost one of your best friends. i can understand it’s the hardest thing to cope with (more difficult than human deaths imo). the breathing thing hit me hard, as at times i used to always think that lilo was dead but just breathing slow. hurt like a ton of bricks when he stopped breathing after we put him down. anyways, thank you for spending the time to write that out, seriously. it’s definitely been a few months since my kittys passing, and i am very happy to report that i am better. eventually, i (as you said) learned to grow around his death and keep a positive eye open. i still miss him a lot and once in awhile i’ll shed a few tears but... they aren’t full of sadness anymore. i’m so joyful that he was able to be in my life and comfort me. pets truly are our guardian angels in disguise. i have two new kittys now, they’re amazing. at first, it was hard having new cats in the house. may sound stupid but i didn’t say i love you to them for the first few months. i guess i felt guilty? whatever it may be, i now love them with all my heart. but, lilo will forever be remembered and missed. no other kitty compares to him. i’m glad you’re doing okay. im wishing love and happiness for you always. thank you, again.

[@renebiem5031]

reminds me of senior year because I would listen to this every time

[@ameliariddell6939]

I told myself a couple years ago that whenever I got depressed i'd listen to this song and for the past few months or maybe even longer I have been so devastatingly sad, I can barely get out of bed and i'm rarely ever sober and everythings just been a blur. My boyfriend and I are on a break because I "need to get myself together" and i've been really trying. I'm still sad but attempting to remain positive and optimistic, i'm five days sober and have been cleaning and working the past few days. I just started feeling down again and then I remembered this song and god did it help, I really truly wanna get better, i've hurt so many people in the past few months... I'm going to get better for myself and for them... it'll take time but one day i'm going to be a genuine good happy healthy person. Sorry for the lengthy rant and if you read this far thank you & I wish you the best.

[@jamesrows6819]

Forget about this song till now when I probably needed it most. Hope you all are staying well in this crazy 2022+ world, keep those chins up!

[@matheusdejesussilva]

Music perfect, it is bleachers, GO to win bleachers

[@eddiecordero2644]

I like the part “mourn the years before I got carried away”…alcohol is my thing.

[@varglbargl]

I have this on a spotify playlist called The Scream-Cry Sing-Along Car Ride that's genuinely dangerous to listen to while driving because I can't see the road through the tears.

[@Lobstir]

May you please tell us what your favorite songs on the playlist are? I think we all need some scream-cry-sing-along car ride songs right now. I know it's almost a year later, but y'know.

[@varglbargl]

@@Lobstir Let's see, off the top of my head there's this song, Your Heart is a Muscle The Size of Your Fist by Ramshackle Glory, No Children by The Mountain Goats, Twin Size Mattress by The Front Bottoms, A Better Son/Daughter by Rilo Kiley, and uh Let It Go from Frozen. I remember most of it because I've needed to go back to it myself pretty recently too. Those last two tracks are important for coming out the other side 💜

[@Lobstir]

@@varglbargl Thanks! I'll be sure to give these a listen.

[@BoereViking]

Whatever you are busy with and going through. Just keep moving. If you cant run, then walk. If you can't walk then crawl. Just keep moving.

[@davidbeatz]

was here. My ears have changed forever-there's a clear before and after with this song