Body Dysmorphic Disorder (When the Mirror Lies)

[@cemoxturk]

Whenever I see a photo of myself that is taken by someone else, whenever the iPhone camare inverts the selfie, it ruins my day. I start crying and want to die. I hate my inverted face and I cannot get over the fact that that is how people see me.

[@fmw_lol7223]

Same bestie the problem is they don't know how to take pictures. One time recently my best friend took a picture of me and its actually my favorite picture now. Also, good lighting, angles, etc. all play into whether your picture is good or not. And remember ONLY YOU think your inverted face is weird; no one else does. The only reason why you think it looks weird is because you are used to seeing yourself in a mirror. Sometimes when I'm looking in a mirror and someone besides me joins and looks as well, i notice that their face looks a bit off BECAUSE it's not the way around that I'm used to seeing regularly. Also no one else is fixating on your flaws like you think they are. I notice that i sometimes look for flaws in others to compare them to me and i actually don't find them ugly on other people. Just try to have the mindset of "no one is judging me as hard as im judging myself" ❤️

[@cherrybloomart]

dont worry cameras can distort the photo, the most accurate image of yourself if the mirror and the reason why you think you look weird inverted is because your not used to it

[@Millolini]

SAME!

[@emi-yj7wx]

i hate it so much i’m literally going through the same problem rn it sucks sm and hurts like hell

[@ishinisaparamadu799]

Same!!

[@enimalnaide7767]

I sadly have this disorder and has taken over my life once again!!

[@jesuschristmylordandsavior3924]

Same thing I struggle everyday as well

[@enimalnaide7767]

@@jesuschristmylordandsavior3924 And you look totally fine. That's what this disorder does...

[@jesuschristmylordandsavior3924]

@@enimalnaide7767 yea bro it’s weird how this can completely change your own perception of how you look and the flaws you see others don’t notice but somehow it’s magnified to you. I look at your profile and see a normal person but look at myself and see everybody possible flaw that others don’t see nor notice. I over train in the gym trying to fix the things I don’t like about myself.

[@enimalnaide7767]

@@jesuschristmylordandsavior3924 I want you to get better. Try medication and therapy. It will make you WAY better!

[@tamara7301]

I’m so sorry you have to go through this. I hope you’re doing better. I am going through the same thing. Sending love

[@kubrahaticeeken1300]

Whenever i put some makeup i feel even more freaky cuz of me looking totally different person with makeup makes me realize how terrible i look without it. I just want to take some pictures of myself without looking disgusting as hell

[@bunnyflopsie]

me too, ure not alone.. dnt worry :C

[@miannyvonne]

😭😢 _same_

[@christiangirl9478]

💙Jesus lived the life we couldn't live and died the death we deserved and rose 3days later, repent of your sins and trust in Him💙

[@stlouisramsfan03]

I've started having signs of BDD at age 11. It completely took hold at age 16/17. I'm still not over it and I don't ever believe I'll see myself the way others do. I feel sorry for whoever has to see my face.

[@TinyMedicine]

Don't give up brother! I know you can do it!

[@stlouisramsfan03]

@@TinyMedicine It's hard. Acne has ruined my skin. I look like a road full of potholes 😞

[@christiangirl9478]

💙Jesus lived the life we couldn't live and died the death we deserved and rose 3days later, repent of your sins and trust in Him💙

[@ronncarlfaminialan7525]

Same when I am 11 until now. It's getting worse as year passes by

[@leanimesimp6893]

im 13 years now and since i was 10 i hated my body and that im a girl i am scared tho cause my parents might say in overly dramatic,... and one thing to everyone: BDD is not quirky or cool in any way possible and can lead to suicide and and selfharm it is when you see yourself and think ,, how can these people even stand seeing me, i look horrific" so please stop faking it some people are suffering and i am one of them, i am very sorry to everyone like me, sorry that its this long, its just my opinion :(

[@youdontneedtoask1173]

I look like a totally different person everytime I look in the mirror and it's creepy

[@mybirdiswierd5307]

Same! There was once a time where I didn't look in a mirror for several days straight, and when I finally looked at myself I didn't recognize myself at ALL. It was terrifying

[@davitlomitashvili3529]

Same! But sometimes i look like supermodel but its only maybe once or twice in month when i feel super happy but thats so rare :(

[@jjjj-x9g]

@@davitlomitashvili3529 same bro its so fucking weird

[@aminaelabdi8265]

Me too. I don't even know how I look like.

[@petestreet7535]

@@aminaelabdi8265 would you be able to pick yourself out of a line up?

[@johnkkt7637]

I even cried for a few times because of I think how ugly I am…

[@bentleyamor944]

Same! I record myself at different angles and then when i watch it, i tear up

[@johnkkt7637]

@@bentleyamor944 omg I did the same thing too…even tho I knew I’m going to be very upset but I still want to look lol

[@atinacruz4673]

@@johnkkt7637 omg me too! I have a camera roll full of 360 videos of my face that I constantly hate watching. I think I’m so ugly no one will ever want me

[@johnkkt7637]

@@atinacruz4673 please don’t think that way! I sure there are a lot of people like you only they didn’t tell🥰

[@RowanArk]

I've done that so much. Like I know not everyone looks like a model, but why did I have to be the ugliest person?

[@seer29]

This disorder affects every part of my life its really awful!

[@ellajackson4272]

Same, remember you're not alone.

[@christiangirl9478]

💙Jesus lived the life we couldn't live and died the death we deserved and rose 3days later, repent of your sins and trust in Him💙

[@Fuckthisworld-kk5cc]

same to you It stared when I was 13 and now I am almost 15

[@karlaspoonamore5189]

Mine too. I have to look are myself in the mirror at least 20 times a day and look at my face closely to reassure how Fat and ugly I am. Is an awful disease 😢

[@Tiffany-eg7tq]

same

[@noactiveanymore]

I have BDD and one day I looked in the mirror and started crying because all I could see were flaws and how much I hated my body, I've thought about getting plastic surgery but then realized that wouldn't change anything

[@journalingbible1281]

I am getting a neck lift and chin fillers soon. And I'll probably save for rhinoplasty as well.

[@Fuckthisworld-kk5cc]

same heppend to me too

[@penny-louturmel6913]

Why tf did i start crying

[@lightyagami7679]

Same I’m so sad

[@ithinkalot3343]

Same

[@vvvikaaxxx6552]

Same

[@yofavdilf5225]

Yep :(.

[@christiangirl9478]

💙Jesus lived the life we couldn't live and died the death we deserved and rose 3days later, repent of your sins and trust in Him💙

[@viciiaa3036]

Honestly i'm just so tired.. My face looks so different everyday. I can look kinda nice in a mirror then totally different in another one. One day i have a small nose with a small face then the next day I have a wider nose with a rounder face.. Sometimes i look pretty and sometimes I look really bad and I have no idea how i truly look like. I hate that :/ I also became really obsessed by the way i look this year, not that I'm in love by the way I look (which is not true) but that I *have* to look at myself in the mirror every single hour. I'm also wearing glasses which doesn't help at all; my face is SO different with and without my glasses.. I became so worried about the way i look that I barely show my face to people (evem my best friends) and I never remove my mask. I also stopped doing things i used to love in public (like going out in a restaurant, eating ice cream,etc..) I also stopped going out with my friends during lunch time just because it became extremly difficult for me to show my face to anyone. It's really exhausting.. :( I'm 14 and i really wish i looked more beautiful..

[@TinyMedicine]

Most people have fleeting symptoms of BDD at your age. Trust me, those feeling will go away. You'll be more confident and self-loving when you are 20. Don't miss out on anything. I still regret missing out on many fun events due to the pits on my nose that nobody ever noticed except for me.

[@scar5619]

Im so sorry♡ I feel like u litterly perfectly described how I see myself ;-; Im also 14 so I find this scarily accurate. Hope u feel better♡

[@alex-jp2tm]

Same dude ;(

[@keira5813]

You couldn’t of explained this any better, I feel exactly the same and I don’t know what to do anymore

[@mikol2353]

thank you for this comment i can completely relate ❤️

[@viermatheus]

The mirror doesnt lie, i record myself and im clearly the most disgusting person

[@bruh-nj2tg]

you‘re beautiful i promise

[@alanaharvey1691]

Recordings are just like a mirror; it's a reflection of your perceptions.

[@Ich-Existiere-Nicht]

I am sure you are beautiful.

[@Jakeee108]

Same lol

[@bandanar1321]

Wear everything you want to, act like you really are. You deserve to love yourself and I hope you will soon understand you're beautiful. And if some people that are not you, say the contrary, please trust me, you deserve more. They don't see you like they should because for real you are beautiful, and I hope the people who will recognize you as it will arrive soon. Love u beauty :')

[@ennieh]

Holy... I thought I was weird for not being able to go outside without looking exactly the same everyday but this video described so much of my life...

[@JLxavyo]

I’ve lost 30 pounds and lift and still feel like I look like my old fatass self who use to eat so much

[@arielmabelle3731]

Dead ass same, it’s fucking hard everyone tells me I look good but I keep saying I don’t look good enough

[@christiangirl9478]

💙Jesus lived the life we couldn't live and died the death we deserved and rose 3days later, repent of your sins and trust in Him💙

[@JLxavyo]

@@christiangirl9478 i trusted in Jesus Christ since a kid, my struggles are the battles the lord has put upon me, our lords second coming is newr

[@cadattack7819]

Bro same. It took me 5 months of hard work. 174-147 pounds. But I don’t think it’s good enough so I wanna keep losing weight and it’s unhealthy

[@evansonne34]

This is so relatable. I went from around 150 pounds (overweight for my age) to 125 pounds and I still look the same

[@khtmttabyebye3929]

*Say a girl beautiful she will believe it for sometime* *Say a girl ugly she will believe it for lifetime* 🙂💔

[@muskanhira763]

True

[@sepiless2536]

And guys

[@notbasilcount1059]

good

[@shaestewart5318]

@THE KINGDOM EXPERIENCE you have no idea how unhelpful saying that is, the brain isn't something that you can fix quick by a lifing weights or a pep talk. No matter what the affects of BDD may exist, so go to therapy learn self love and find people who support you fully and will surround you with love; it will help on the long road to improvment.

[@delancey3181]

@@elliexy6555 yes boys don’t get judged on appearance like girls

[@allysenmcdonald8071]

I struggle with this. I hate alot of things about my appearance. I have people I confide in tell me that I'm overthinking it. That im not what i see in the mirror. I just feel that they say that to make me feel better. I cant see it. I avoid pictures as much as I can. Sad as it is, thats how I am. Im not proud of it. Because im missing out on keeping memories with friends or family. When I go out, i wont look at any windows or bathroom mirrors, because im afraid of what my reflection will look like. Shoot, I avoid the aisle with the mirrors at Walmart. Its bad.

[@atinacruz4673]

Me too 😭😭😭😭

[@christiangirl9478]

💙Jesus lived the life we couldn't live and died the death we deserved and rose 3days later, repent of your sins and trust in Him💙

[@babyduck22]

Omg , you described me perfectly, like litteraly that's my life. I hate it and I'm so ashamed of myself for this. I hate how I'm missing out on so much, and I feel like I'll always be like this , I've been this way since really young, and unless I magically change my face overnight, this is how I'll remain. I hate it.

[@zob3412]

I can relate. Objectively I know that I'm good looking or above average. Like I gets stared at on the street and got hit on multiple times and all that, but I'd take pictures of myself with horrible lighting or angles applied to "convince" myself that I look horrible. I'd ask my friends or family members whether my flaw affects my image a lot, but I'd never be satisfied with a simple "no", even when they're complimenting about the certain area of my face. There are multiple times after taking a "horrible" picture of mine, that I'd just suddenly have suicidal impulses. No one has actually made fun of that certain part of mine, nor anyone said that it looked horrible, but I'm just never convinced. The fear of being ugly and disgusting as a guy is torturing me.I'm not officially diagnosed yet, but I think I do have bdd, and it's affecting my life massively.

[@ItsMe-ch1yp]

I cried as I begged the schools yearbook teacher to take my senior picture out of the year book. Although it was touched up, I was still overwhelmed by how ugly I looked. Every once in a while I'll just cry in bed because I feel cursed to look this way.

[@babyduck22]

I'm so sorry you felt that way... my class did a short film type of video before we got into high school as a memory of us all together with funny moments and stuff. When I saw how awful my picture for the introduction part was, I felt like gagging. I immediately ran to the bathroom and broke down in tears. I felt so extremely embarrassed. I can't imagine how you felt ... I know how hard it is to be insecure and not like the way you look, I cry myself to sleep almost every night . I hope you're doing better

[@LorenMusicCovers]

As a person with gender dysphoria, this really helped my understand the difference between dysmorphia and dysphoria. I tend to focus on my chest and voice, less so my face or imperfections of my body. It's similar, but different, and this really helped me solidify my understanding of my gender dysphoria.

[@thejoysticks1248]

Hope you figure that out

[@LorenMusicCovers]

@@thejoysticks1248 Thanks, I'm working on it!

[@thejoysticks1248]

@@LorenMusicCovers np if you need anything just ask

[@jacquietimms3075]

Came here to learn more in recognition of ranboo, my comfort streamer.

[@TinyMedicine]

I heard about him recently thanks to you guys. I hope he recovers fast! can't wait to see the face reveal.

[@metra8604]

@@2DucksInABomberJacket same.

[@bei6768]

Yeah, poor guy. Hope he gets help and recovers, he really doesn't deserve this :(

[@emii4733]

Same! I wanna know more about Facial dysphoria

[@Please...Just....Dont.]

Same

[@mimoaa2652]

i have this disorder and its hell for me its about my face and hair i wish i didnot have this so i can enjoy life it sucks

[@yowhattupitzbigchungus4971]

Me too. I have it about my acne. I wish I was normal. I avoid public now because I’m afraid people are staring

[@hope-dv8kw]

@@yowhattupitzbigchungus4971 I'm gonna tell you something but you HAVE TO do it if you don't than you will never get the skin you want . I'm serious do this , BATH YOUR FACE IN THE SUN and not for 5 min at least 15 Minutes twice a day or once if you can . And while you are out side enjoy the fresh air breath and than PUT VASELINE IN YOUR FACE !!!!!!!! BUT don't use vaselime than go to the sun just clean if off good and let the sun sit your face than in the morning to night or watching a movie just put vaseline all over your face and see if it works do it man do It

[@descanyon7198]

Mine is my whole body especially my stomach legs

[@peachie5576]

This is terrible, no one should have to go through this :C It’s horrible that people think they’re ugly, because they honestly aren’t. I don’t care what you say, you are freaking beautiful / handsome / stunning! And there are people who love you!

[@gymdshowkeen117]

Yeah I also see some people that appear to me ugly AF. But same people have someone who thinks they are very hot. Looks are very very subjective I guess.

[@amear3933]

literally having to go check myself over 30 times a day in a mirror or glass just so i don’t look “crooked” is the most draining part of my existence.

[@Retromaster364]

Me too...

[@e11a222]

i’ve had bdd since i was at least 11, and im 19 now. it’s been so bad recently and completely consumes my life :( you’re not alone.

[@TinyMedicine]

You will get through this!

[@e11a222]

@@TinyMedicine tysm for raising awareness about this disorder 💌(^-^*)

[@babyduck22]

Same , I am 16, and I've been struggling with this since I was very young . It's only getting worse and worse... I am scared... I hope you are doing better . I'm sending virtual hugs 🫂 I know how hard it is .

[@e11a222]

@@babyduck22 thank you so much

[@babyduck22]

@@e11a222 ❤❤

[@tommygoncalves9569]

I really was insecure about myself. It got to a point where i was constantly trying to fix my flaws, and was never able to reach my expectation. I was so mentally exhausted of trying to meet this standard, that i completely drained myself of my energy. I feel into a deep depression, hardly having the motivation and energy to even take care of myself, binge eating, thoughts of taking my life, and completely neglecting myself. And now, i’m even more ugly as a result of that. Nothing has ever gotten better. Back then, i was so much more attractive than now. What have i done to myself. I wish i would’ve just accepted myself. I regret soo much of my past, i’m so fucking dumb for doing this to myself.

[@babyduck22]

Omg... i'm so sorry you feel this way , well felt since I hope you feel better now. I cried while reading this. I know how hard it is to hate yourself and be insecure. Having such a negative view of yourself can really lead to more bad stuff like depression and ed and you just keep doing more harm to yourself and it feels like everything is just getting worse and it will never end. Again, I hope you found peace with yourself, I hope you are doing better.

[@alicemabel9209]

My body dysmorphia started at the beginning of this year, when a few people told me a few times I looked like a man. If it was one person who told me I looked like a man on one occasion, I would think they were stupid. But different people told me the same thing multiple times. People also pointed out things about my appearance I hadn't noticed. I was devastated and it reached a point were I couldn't go out for a few months or go to school. I'm back at school but I kept on having panic attacks there so I now have to do my work in a small classroom with no one in. I still hate myself and I still have panic attacks. I tried makeup for a while but I still looked hideous so I go around with a mask on my face and my jacket hood up on my face if I go out. It's horrible.

[@andrewjoyce9038]

U look very pretty in that picture

[@SamuSayo]

@@andrewjoyce9038 bruh

[@SamuSayo]

Its horrible i have it too

[@cg2436]

I hide myself too & it’s the fact that I have to live the rest of my life like this . I pray everyday that god help it get easier

[@alicemabel9209]

@@andrewjoyce9038 it's not me, it's a cartoon

[@andreaodettaguilarsustaita3738]

Everytime I see myself in the mirror I see a male face with width body proportions. I am woman, this problem had affected my relationship with guys and self worth

[@cambiakays1639]

Im going through the same thing it’s like I have to prove everyone that I’m girly in the face and wearing making hurts my soul so I stop because I want to force my face into being naturally pretty and feminine. I have a girly shape but my face it’s only girly if I have hair or lashes etc. like I’m lieing to everyone who I am. I feel like me being in a relationship compares me to my bf’s x’s and how I look nothing like them naturally pretty and feminine. It’s driving me insane

[@christiangirl9478]

💙Jesus lived the life we couldn't live and died the death we deserved and rose 3days later, repent of your sins and trust in Him💙

[@caedis_why2591]

I started getting symptoms quite recently, I’m 13 if you were wondering, and it is hell. No one knows what I go through because I hate being a disturbance but a few of my friends know I hate/fear mirrors but they all take it as a joke. I miss wearing masks to school when I could just forget about how others were seeing me at least a bit or being back online where I didn’t have to have my camera on. I miss being able to just look in the mirror and feel a sense of joy and not disgust. I feel sorry for anyone that goes through this. It is not easy and is not in any way begging for attention as I have heard. I have heard that people will be like “ oh you just say that because you are fishing for compliments” it’s not, it is a real life medical condition and is very hard to deal with. I feel happy for those who get to walk around being confident and proud of the way they present and look but sorry for those of us who walk around in fear of someone looking at us in a wrong way. Going through this in year seven in high school is very bad too because a lot of people already judge you just for being a year seven but it gets hard to distinguish the difference between just not liking year sevens or your aperance and can feel suffocating. I’m sorry if this got long, I just had to get that out, I hope someone can relate to this.

[@shanice-joy5989]

Sadly I can relate to this, I really hope you’re feeling a lot better now 🤍

[@Fuckthisworld-kk5cc]

same to you I am suffering from bdd for more than 1 year I wear mask to hide my ugly face when I go outside and I rearly go outside but now lockdown is over so I have to go to school I wish people never stop wearing mask and covid ruined everything but now I wnat covid 19 to come back so that all the people will start wearing mask so that I don't feel weird that I am wearing mask I just want to give you hug girl you are yonger than me Ibam almost 15 now

[@zob3412]

I can relate. Objectively I know that I'm (kinda?) good looking. Like I gets stared at on the street and got hit on multiple times and all that, but I'd take pictures of myself with horrible lighting or angles applied to "convince" myself that I look horrible. I'd ask my friends or family members whether my flaw affects my image a lot, but I'd never be satisfied with a simple "no", even when they're complimenting about the certain area of my face. There are multiple times after taking a "horrible" picture of mine, that I'd just suddenly have suicidal impulses. No one has actually made fun of that certain part of mine, nor anyone said that it looked horrible, but I'm just never convinced. The fear of being ugly and disgusting as a guy is torturing me.I'm not officially diagnosed yet, but I think I do have bdd, and it's affecting my life massively.

[@SludgeMan90]

The disorder ruined my life. I was obsessed with my really mild acne and it made me feel terrible about myself, I would wake up with nightmares about it. So I ended up going to the dermatologist who prescribed me Accutane and it destroyed my body and left me disabled.

[@nataliaolivares]

Omg I'm so sorry. Not to be mean but what do you mean by disable? ☹

[@SludgeMan90]

@@nataliaolivares disabled as in didability. Brain damage, eye damage, joint damage, digestive system disease and more. I lost my career and i spend most of my day in bed.

[@nataliaolivares]

@@SludgeMan90 oh wow ! That is sad , sending you good vibes and stay strong 🙏

[@aminaelabdi8265]

I have this and it completely destroyed my life. I've never seen a person uglier than me.

[@comfortablefeelingday]

nah you must be wrong cos i’ve never seen a person uglier than me

[@aminaelabdi8265]

@@comfortablefeelingday hey! I no longer feel ugly lol

[@comfortablefeelingday]

@@aminaelabdi8265 i’m happy for you :)

[@aminaelabdi8265]

@@comfortablefeelingday thank you!

[@Retromaster364]

@aminaelabdi8265 How did you do it?

[@jessief8820]

I feel like mine became a lot more prominent recently when masks became a thing. It was always kind of there, and caused me anxiety, but when masks went away it made me realize how much comfort masks actually provided me. Being perceived terrifies me.

[@Retromaster364]

This is me too... i wear a mask for work just to hide my ugly features

[@jem7758]

i'm suffering from this since 3 or more years now. but i always tell myself God made me by His Image. His image is perfect so i look fine. i'm recovering now gladly :)

[@annablochberger245]

I love this way of looking at it! Thank you so much for sharing!🥰 I hope you continue to move forward in your recovery, and find the peace and joy you deserve in life.❤️

[@jem7758]

@@annablochberger245 thank you so much it means so much to me, you also. God Bless you :)

[@christiangirl9478]

❤️I'm currently working on that too, it's so hard to believe God created me in His image

[@Calizen]

My own thoughts have degraded my self worth so much that I’ve given up. I never go out unless it’s very special occasion like a birthday. Whenever I go to school I always immediately put myself under others I never think I’m worth being in the room nor being near people who I think are pretty. I suppress my own thoughts when I see someone I like because I know I have no chance. I’ve convinced myself that therapy *will not* help me because therapy won’t change the way I look. Surgery will

[@coricognitions]

my facial/body dysmorphia got so much worse over quarantine. I didn't use to care as much, but now i'm wearing hoodies in hot California summer because I can't stand the thought of people seeing any details of my arms or chest

[@Supremepie]

Great content! I'm sure if you stay consistent you'll become something big one day.

[@TinyMedicine]

Thank you! Really appreciate it

[@christiangirl9478]

💙Jesus lived the life we couldn't live and died the death we deserved and rose 3days later, repent of your sins and trust in Him💙

[@fairybel3]

sometimes it comes to the point where i have crush on people and just try to forget about my feelings and not have crush anymore because i get worried that i was ugly and no one would like me back. Sometimes i know people like me but i feel really weirded out that they like me and feel as if theyre lying to me because in my own thought i get the spitting image of my face and question why anyone would like me, its just really hard sometimes :( ... i take numerous selfies on my phone everyday to analyze my face and delete all of them because i somehow always find flaws in my face, consistently deleting 40-90 pictures a day ... :(( i hope it will go away some day 😭

[@coconutoes]

i was diagnosed with bdd and i do the exact same thing. if for some reasom someone doesn't text back in a day, i believe it's due to my appearance. i take selfies of my side profile and front proilfe constantly, too. i try to rid my feelings for people i deem too attractive for me; we still wear masks, and people comment on how gorgeous i appear, but that's false. i don't take off my mask at school... EVR. i am afraid people will be disgusted, and they will abandon the idea of ever getting to know me because i'm ugly. i haven't even taken my mask off in front of the guy i like out of fear that he is too attractive for me. i'm on antidepressants now, hopefully my bdd improves. god bless, hope you are well.

[@trav3nn]

@@coconutoes i cant believe thats exactly me.

[@Jaylynn0]

I use to be called beautiful but I never thought I was pretty I would compare myself to others better than me it’s not the same when it’s a family member or a friend

[@somepeep8944]

Help me,please.

[@marshmccarthy]

What’s up bro?

[@witchontape]

U alive hun?

[@somepeep8944]

hello! i am doing fine, i appreciate these a lot!! you guys are nice, please take care!! :)) thanks

[@p1nkPallas]

I wish I didnt look like this. My nose is too big, lips too weird, tongue too short, my eyes look ugly and undetailed and dull, my eyebrows are weird, I have zits and all that stuff, my hair is too frizzy, im too sick all the time, im skinny, im short, im an ugly crier, my smile is weird, my eyes get too squinty when I smile, my voice is stupid, I cant speak right, my walking is uneven, my hands are dry, my legs are fat, my chest is too big, my eyelashes are weird, my head is shaped funnily, my cheeks are big.. For Christmas, I asked for a mask and sunglasses. At school, I'm gonna be called "emo" and be forced to take my glasses and mask off. Then, I'll be told I look weird, my face is messed up. Im still staying alive because of how proud I am of my comfort streamer from recovering from facial dysmorphia, slowly but surely.. and im most likely never gonna meet him, let alone be friends with him. I kinda have no one rn. Plus, another reason I don't wanna give up is im scared of death and I feel pain too easily. Jeez, im so weak and terrified of stupid shit. I laugh too easily too. Im done now. You probably didn't care enough to read to here but eh, if you somehow did, sorry I said all of this. I dont want to pressure someone into trying to help..

[@lilylovesmadison]

me watching this as I’m locked in my room because I don’t wanna go outside bc of how bad my bdd made my anxiety

[@emii4733]

Recently one of my streamers, Ranboo, says that his BDD has gotten worse. I'd like to understand more about it to maybe understand his circumstances. Hopefully it will get better in the future 💛

[@dariaboschetti2003]

it got better in the past 8 months ig :)

[@emii4733]

@@dariaboschetti2003 omg it rlly did! So proud of him!

[@starayalvsu]

people say i look good but i swear theyre all lying to me cause everytime i look in the mirror i want to throw up from how disgusting i look. i wish i could leave my body and see myself but im too scared to realise how even more so ugly i am. it freaks me out seeing how differently i look. i cant even recognise myself.

[@detenebrisvenio7610]

Okay but having this mental disorder while being deemed "attractive " by society is extremely hard because everyone tells me I'm beautiful but looking in the mirror all I hate every inch of my appearance ...no compliment from anyone can change how i feel and it hurts cuz I'll never see myself the way others "see" me I spend hours to even get ready not because I'm going slow, but because I keep over analyzing my face in the mirror every five seconds... I literally hate every inch and dimension of my face... my day is instantly ruined ayone asks to take a picture or does so without my permission and ofc this affects my relationship with my bf because he always takes pictures of me and sometimes post them on social media and I get very upset and angry telling him to delete it ...we've been together for 2 years and we do not have not one picture together cuz I always smack his phone out his hand when he tries to take pictures..sometime I look at him and think "I wish I was beautiful enough for you " or "I'm sorry for not being pretty enough" ...he completely doesn't understand n hates that I feel this way because he thinks I'm "beautiful" but I just can't see it.

[@fr33f4l4st1ne]

Yeah. I think its genetic and environmental for me. I never felt beautiful or pretty. I was always made fun of for being a hairy girl, told i look like a boy, or belittled in other ways about my looks. My grandma also has had an eating disorder for a long time, and i know how tied up with BDD and OCD that is. I habe OCD, and now im suspecting bdd. Its good to have an idea of why ive felt so insecure, so worthless, and so ugly for so long. Maybe this can g et better? Maybe it wont go away. And thats okay. But we can sit there and learn how to be good friends to ourselves. "I cant make this pain go away, but im here for you, and i still love you, and you are inherently worthy, no matter what you look like."

[@babyduck22]

I'm sobbing right now. Hope you are doing better , I know how hard this is.

[@Sarcasmavadakedavra]

I had this condition cause of sexual assault and two of my exes saying me i was fat. i had longer the sensation i was ugly. Also my hair were really thin and i had no volume. It was more diagnosed as ptsd/anorexia nervosa. From 2009 to 2014. I am out every single misstreatment about my weight...

[@TinyMedicine]

Sorry to hear about the past trauma you had to face. How are you coping now?

[@Sarcasmavadakedavra]

@@TinyMedicine I eat better since i smoked marijuana. Also since august 2014, as i met a friend. I also don't talk anymore with some people i knew. I basically don't hang up anymore with people who are obsessed with their status and how others are seeing them. Also still have minimal dosis effexor and an half xanax. Also had a strict diet without caffein and tea, and all soda which contains stims, i stopped somking pot since 2 years. My appetite still ok.

[@sophiafakevirus-ro8cc]

Yes, unable to see myself. And the first time I was video filmed, when I saw the playback it looked like someone I didn't know, and yet he seemed very familiar. It was as if my part in the video had been substituted for another person.

[@anikagonzales7189]

ranboo has this?! im.. just gonna cry in the corner :

[@rustypenny]

ahhh I feel so bad

[@onesecondsniff5840]

i know :(((

[@aeonofyaoi]

I'll join you :(

[@choochoopicklepie]

Its all falling into place, when OCD. And the social anxiety, depression and suicidal thoughts were mentioned I just know

[@TinyMedicine]

get treatments ASAP. your BDD could be linked to OCD. treating the latter could give a cure to your BDD.

[@choochoopicklepie]

@@TinyMedicine I wish I could but my mom is one of those people who doesn’t really believe in mental illness, she just describes me as “weird”.

[@esraaselawii122]

I have bdd and I can't even take pics .. even when I try to I just start crying and I wish I was someone else..I start blaming myself and swearing on the mirror..

[@babyduck22]

Exactly the same for me.... I get a mini panic attack whenever I hear " let's take a selfie " and always make sure to be hidden in group photos, in the back behind tall people, so my face isn't visible . I have like 0 pictures on my phone, and each day I can't help but feel discusted at what I see in the mirror. This affects my whole life, and I'm always sad , mad , depressed and anxious . My appearance is always on my mind, and idk what to do anymore. I hope you are doing better... I know this is hard.

[@esraaselawii122]

@@babyduck22 thanks.. I'm actually doing better because I stopped thinking about what others think of me .. because.. who cares? What if they think I'm pretty? How is this supposed to be good? I don't care .. as long as I'm happy..

[@babyduck22]

@Esraa selawii I'm glad you're doing better. Being able to not care about other people's opinions is really a hard thing to achieve, so congrats. I am still working on that. Know that you are enough and don't let bdd fool you, you are beautiful no matter what your mind or the beauty standards say

[@BhawaniSingh-kv4vc]

My brain can't think of anything else but the flaws I have. I can't even fight for the things that used to get me feeling so alive. I used to be such a happy person, I don't know where it all went wrong. My brain feels like a prison, I can't escape these thoughts :(

[@avalouise5223]

im so fed up i look in the mirror every hour ! each time i look different, each time i notice somthing i hate and it ruins my day i feel sick and disgusted bymy face and body. Each mirror I look different and I always worry about the lighting of the room and how it might make my face appear. I feel so confused by my looks because of what other people tell me but I feel like im in a never ending battle with my appearance

[@babyduck22]

I know exactly how you feel, you described to perfection my situation as well. I know how hard it is and I hope you are doing better

[@georgerpg6610]

Same goes for me, perfectly described

[@babyduck22]

@@georgerpg6610 :(

[@the420don4]

Ok so I’m 19, and I’m training to fight in martial arts. I got diagnosed with body dysmorphic disorder when I was maybe 16? But my mom says I’ve had it since I was 12. I get driven insane every time I look in the mirror cause my body is not symmetrical. My right arm is shaped differently than my left cause I’m right handed, my left bicep is larger cause I throw hooks with it and use my bicep more on my left than on my right. So on and so forth. It drives me to the point of mania yet I know it’s EXTREMELY rare for a human to have a naturally symmetrical body. I’ve even started making myself ambidextrous and 50% of my reasons for taking that up had to do with thinking my body would even out. It’s hell.

[@Sara-dj7yz]

"let's talk about youf nose" *covers it with my arm*

[@liwolfsohn]

Once I look in the mirror, I get so angry at myself for how I look that I just want to strangle myself and punish myself until I’m knocked unconscious. What adds to the struggle is that I can never pinpoint exactly what I look like. I look different in every picture and every mirror. It makes me feel sick. Am I extremely skinny or obese? I can’t even tell anymore. I’m so tired of feeling like this.

[@comfortablefeelingday]

i get so angry too, i can do better than this, what’s wrong with me like cant i just like better? it cant be that hard 😭 it’s just so frustrating

[@babyduck22]

Exactly bro. I have no actual real idea of what I look like . Everytime I look in the mirror I feel like peeling my face off.

[@Retromaster364]

This is me too... its exhausting, i hate it

[@user-ok5nl1rf6o]

Is there any cure I'm so tired

[@spacehusky8265]

I'm a Dream SMP watcher and fan Ranboo has BDD So whenever he has to show his face, he puts on his black and white mask, sunglasses, and gloves He hasn't done a face reveal yet, but he said he's *probably* going to do one at 5M You can watch his live streams on twitch 👍

[@TinyMedicine]

oh! Thanks for the info. I hope he would recover from BDD. :D

[@mesa8680]

Its 5 mil not 500mil

[@spacehusky8265]

@@mesa8680 fixed that! Thank you for correcting that

[@mesa8680]

@@spacehusky8265 no prob

[@cheeserat2020]

@SpaceHusky826 so as someone who's a big fan of ranboo, I wish I could do something to help. Obviously, some loser who obsesses over a video game and people who play it, like me, can't really do much. I can only wish he gets through it and starts to love himself more. It took myself a bit, but I love myself a whole lot more than I did a couple months back. I don't even care if he does a face reveal or not, I care more about his well being and how he's doing. So, from ranboo fan to another, I guess all we could do is hope.

[@jace.after.midnight]

ive always had body dysmorphia from a young age (10-present day). i always brushed it off as low self esteem, and its never gotten better. its mostly about my hair, chest, lower face, and upper arms. my hair is the worst. i focus on every little strand and if it is not to the absolute best it can be, i want to pull it all out and just collapse. its really hard for me to talk about it, because it seems like im overreacting over something "small", even though its the toughest thing for me to handle every single day. thank you for making this and helping me realize im not alone :)

[@randommemes4594]

I usually have a hard time looking at my face or my body because every time I look at my face or body I get this feeling of dread and over the years I’ve come to really hate my arms because of the way they look, so I tend to wear shirts that have sleeves that are just below or above my elbows. And the hatred I have for the way my face and body looks has just grown so much over the last two years and sometimes I get sick just looking at my own body/face

[@frans_diary]

it's so strange because when i look in the mirror I'm mostly okay with it, but then someone takes a picture of me and i want to die, i cannot fathom that people see me as something other than my own controlled edited version and it doesn't matter if people tell me I'm beautiful and give me heartfelt compliments the bullying i faced all my life from peers and family constantly nitpicking my every move traumatized me beyond repair .... antipsychotics fucked me up badly and made me gain ridiculous amount of weight so that didn't help , and it doesn't help either that i have no family support they were extremely abusive and narcissistic i was never accepted or good enough , i use beauty filters on everything and every time i try to be honest with my friends and post my unedited pictures i always cover parts of me because it's too painful for me and i end up just deleting everything ..... I'm exhausted of how many hoops i need to jump just to record myself or take a picture i just want to be effortlessly pretty like everyone else .... i don't feel good without make up or my hair done , my disorder is more about my face but now it's my body too because my doctor put me in these shitty f--- antipsychotics that don't even do anything , i want to cry and starve until i at least have a good looking body .

[@Aaaaagghhhhh]

There has been times when I didn’t want to go to school because of how insecure I am about my face (It got to the point that I faked being sick). There are these two boys in my class that will make fun of my face as well, which doesn’t really help-

[@still.m4ds]

i get so insecure about my face and when i see a picture of my face a have full on panic attacks and when i look in a mirror i just look awful and i feel like i’m too fat and its really annoying me, my parents just say its all in my head and its just a phase

[@Evan_Shau]

With Such clear a concept nobody dare to dislike the video

[@khawla4444]

This have ruined my life 😢 I’m all alone no friend no job and I didn’t even that it was a mental illness until today 😢 I have 29 years and didn’t enjoy my life yet I need help 😢

[@nicoleschaefer1151]

For some reason I sometimes feel like my face is about to explode and just hide it as much as I can to not look at myself. Days later I feel good again and the cicle continues.

[@yofavdilf5225]

I spend every 1 minute looking at myself in the mirror. I try to avoid the mirror but I can’t.

[@aminaelabdi8265]

Me too

[@sly3186]

Ive had bdd ever since i can remember... I havent looked in a mirror or taken a pic in a year! Literally, if i see my self in a mirror my whole day sometimes week is ruined. Im so ugly i dont know how I got such a handsome husband and 2 beautiful daughter's.. I believe what i see in the mirror cause ive been called ugly my whole life. So how could everyone be lying? I'll admit it's mostly other women that call me ugly but it hurtsbjust the same.

[@fern8018]

I don’t even know what I look like anymore. I feel too hideous to be seen by anyone and I’m missing school bc I hate how I look. I wish I was someone else

[@babyduck22]

I feel you... hope you are doing better, I know how hard this is :(

[@khloe-rosegray649]

Legs stomach arms and the right side of my nose yes only the right side of my nose is a problem these things control my life

[@musclehustle1594]

I try to show one side of my face Bc I have the same problem with my nose and I end up looking even more dumb trying to just show one side of my face

[@kaiidoiso644]

Me too my left side is good but my right side isnt

[@abbieamavi]

Thank God I no longer have to deal with this. Recovery is always worth it. Speaking from experience. 😌💛

[@TinyMedicine]

Glad you have recovered

[@abbieamavi]

@@TinyMedicine me too!! 💛

[@vaporoustick6782]

How did you recover?

[@leanimesimp6893]

@@abbieamavi yes how did you do it??? :O

[@no_username_yet2397]

How did you recover??

[@bl4e3nthousiast]

My friends keep asking me “when are you going to wear that sweater” (an off shoulder sweater I really like) but I’ve been more insecure than ever so I can’t LOL 😂

[@myuniverse4186]

I diagnosed with it after my sallow face issues... I look yellowish or dull so I check mirror again n again... Spend 50k on dermatologist products still covering my flaws with makeup/concealers As it give me Satisfaction... For me, environmental factor is the reason n made me like this!! I was one of the topper of my college still got this issue :(

[@saYONAkidoRII]

I don’t know if this is actually body dysmorphic disorder, but everytime I look in the mirror, every second I see some completely different person with different facial features, and just kind of don’t know which of these images is the “real” reflection of me :(

[@_bastion]

I mostly obsess about one thing I will never be able to change; my height. And it's just ew. Like I never want to be seen next to anyone unless they are shorter than me. People will always say “you're not even that short!” or “I'm shorter than you, you don't even know how bad it is” and it hurts every time they say it cuz they're lying to me and they're wrong. (I'm 5’1 and almost a fully grown adult). Just it hurts even more when you know “you can't change this” OR in some other cases you have the physical possibility to change something but you can't or you aren't getting immediate results.

[@TinyMedicine]

I understand your pain. It's so frustrating why we (including me) care about what others think of us. We could have been much more than we are today, if we can live with out worrying about what others think. My friend, with time your pain will heal and you'll have a wonderful life.

[@angelcake212]

Well I'm tall for a girl and everyone points that out. It's annoying and they make me hate myself even though I can't change it

[@jaiden8529]

I litteraly think about this all the time. It infuriates me cause height is something you can't change even with all the efforts you put in :/

[@andrewjoyce9038]

I used to have it in my twenties. Couldn't go past a mirror without looking In it and stressing about my appearance. Now I'm in my 40s I couldn't give a shit. You'll get over it

[@TinyMedicine]

Thank you for sharing your experience.

[@chalkfarm11]

I often feel hopeless and suicidal when I see my own image, especially video or webcam. My face constantly shifts from slighlty cute to hideously ugly to the point that I don't feel any real sense of identity or personality. I don't know what I look like... but I'm convinced it's horribly abnormal.

[@moonbabe1770]

Ugh I have this but I have lines on my cheeks that looks like bags.. I always look tired I’ve tried cosmetic injections didn’t help I now stay home and don’t go out and when I do I wear glasses to try and hide them I look horrible and very unattractive 😭😭

[@wobble4139]

I find myself crying every other night because I feel ugly. Sometimes suicidal. I just wanna be a pretty black girl

[@maria-pn5sn]

You are pretty don’t let a dumb beauty standard make you feel any other way

[@kamaboko662]

Gurl you are gorgeous regardless of the “flaws” that you think you have! How you look is what makes you who you are, so own it! Remind yourself that whenever you feel down :)

[@gfullcrayon562]

The mirror might lie, but not peoples eyes and mine

[@DJMealia]

I’m ugly too. The best thing we can do as a society is stop idolising attractive people and chasing them - unfollow any models or celebrities - stop giving them attention and power

[@nikko4129]

today I was at the mall with my cousin, grandmother and mother, and my mother bought me a drink and I had my mask on so i put the straw under my mask and drank it, my mom told me to take my mask down while i was drinking, so i did quickly did then pulled it back up. My mother got mad at me and ripped off my mask, when that happened I felt like everyone was looking at all my facial features and judging me so i went covering my face then started cry and hyperventilate and my mother and grandmother were just whispering in my ear that everyone was looking at me and that i looked like a crazy person. My mom said that if I stopped crying, took my hands away from my face and finished my drink she would give my mask back, but I couldn't bring my self to do it. She got even more mad and me and pulled my hands away from my face forcefully then started recording me. She said that she was embarrassed and she wouldnt let my cousin comfort me and she said I was just doing it for attention. I dont know if I have BDD or not but to me it feels like a possibility.

[@EliandAriiGaming]

I’ve never been diagnosed with this but every single thing applies to me

[@TinyMedicine]

Seek treatments If it bothers you.

[@BRYANLEECABATAY]

I go straight to the comment section cause i thought im so early so ill comment "first" then find out im not watching kurzgesagt in the nutshell or ted-ed nice content bro youll make it big someday i know

[@spooky_vixen5194]

Does it though? Because every time I look in the mirror I see the one person I hate and that’s my dad. I resemble my dad so much and I hate it, I feel so ugly. I’m a female too. BDD started when I was 7 yrs old….

[@Keitaalise2746]

i cant tell what my face looks like. i feel like i have 3 different faces. 1 is when i take a selfie of myself 2 is when i see myself in natural lighting in a mirorr, and the third is when someone else takes a photo of me or inverted. i cant understand what i look like, i constantly send my friends my selfies and ask "do i look like this in real life" and they always say yes but i just cant i cant believe it when i take a pic of myself w flash and the back camera i want to cry i dont look like "myself'' i also feel like i look like a different person almost everyday, i am insecure and think im ugly, but i cant point out whats exactly ugly about me, its different everytime and i feel pretty when i sometimes take selfies of MYSELF, and i dont edit my photos or put filters but i still somehow feel like people dont see me like that and that im catfishing and what not i just really wish it wasnt this complicated and i wouldnt care abt how i looked, i spend so much time infront of the mirror SO MUCH TIME trying to figure out what i look like, what i can impulsively change about myself and whats wrong with me and obsessing wheter i look good or not every single second i cannot stand it and i dont know what to do

[@Sulam2490]

Hey lovely, if that is you in the picture i have to say, you are beautiful, i completely understand you, i deal with this as well, specially the part where you said, you feel as if you have 3 different faces, is tough, i just haven't lost faith and hope that we can be free from this once and for all.

[@somber087]

I hope people realize this isnt just being insecure

[@Carlxz.]

I'm self diagnosing again just to deny the fact that I'm ugly, 😭😭😭

[@la_vida_es_buena]

im 13 and i lost 20 pounds then gained back 8 and i still feel like soooo ugly and i look back on videos of me when i lost all 20 pounds and i was so skinny and muscualr i wish i was just happy instead of telling myself repeatedly, "5 more pounds, then you can be happy" because now ive just gained weight and am really the ugliest (5'6, 125 pounds and 13yr old girl, started off 137 and my lowest point was 117)

[@iamnotokay1248]

the thing is, as much as i try to eat healthy, shower regularly, exercise, etc my brain just tells me to stop doing so. i just 'loose motivation', which then makes me feel lazy and ugly - and on top of that, the constant loss of focus, bad memory and zoning out makes me feel so dumb sometimes. i'm sorry for this little vent, i needed to get this all off my chest - thanks =)

[@iamnotokay1248]

also, when we first had to start wearing masks to school my confidence went up a small amount. when i focus on something (like a video game, book, homework, etc) i make these funny faces, so knowing that nobody can see those faces makes me feel a lot better. but now, my school doesn't have to wear the masks so i don't wear one. it does hurt a bit when i feel uncomfortable with the way i look or faces i make, some days it's my stomach or the width of my thighs - but i've just got to learn to ignore that, right? it's life. you gotta 'suck it up and move on'. it hurts

[@serius37283]

i have been recovered from this disorder.....always remember there is a chance to be recover....

[@itsfin3905]

u cant self diagnose bdd but i relate to almost everything in this video-

[@TinyMedicine]

Consult a Psychiatrist to get a proper diagnosis first.

[@hgjhdsgjgkjkhhh]

I started crying when it said "let's talk about your nose" ffs mom let me get a therapist

[@tidgypud8938]

I suffer from hormone conditions after having cervical cancer, endometriosis and pcos. I get thick dark facial hair, my hair is falling out, I have a hump on my back and a vulture type neck. I'm fat, hairy, spotty and I've hated myself ever since I was 10 years old... I'm 35 now and I still feel disgust for the person looking back at me in the mirror

[@fr33f4l4st1ne]

🧡

[@cocosteel1526]

I suffer from BDD and OCD I am extremely exhausted with myself. I'm completely unhappy with the way I look. I have mental breakdowns almost everyday trying to cope with my issues. I just want to be normal.

[@Zevels]

when I’m watching this video to try to prove that I am good looking but @ 2:13 all I can think is that the rendered silhouette of a side profile looks way more normal compared to mine 😐

[@TinyMedicine]

Talk to a therapist my friend. You deserve selflove.

[@nixcapturedyourheart]

Not me just staying tf away from mirrors or cameras

[@TinyMedicine]

with all due respect, that's bad coping.

[@m0NESY-Iives24]

This remind me of a person in american got talent and he made howey not afraid of Germ anymore. If I was tommy or tubbo,I would actually try to contact him to see if he remove ranboo condition

[@randomeggthatworksforthefb7172]

Wow the quality is amazing for the amount of subs

[@TinyMedicine]

Thank you!

[@louie2047]

I literally can’t remember the last time I looked in the mirror because I am so disgusted by my face rip

[@TinyMedicine]

Get help dear.

[@zarabumberova]

I hate my face inverted when ever i see it i wanna die i just wish i had a symetrical face or that people didnt see me inverted cuz i hate it sm sometimes it's all i think about i literally can see my left side being deformed is normal mirror and when it's inverted it's even worse

[@raixamartinez8670]

I have this it's really hard to live with this i can't do it anymore i want to stop this pain i feel constantly i can't no longer live like this 😭😭

[@dacisky]

Excellent,I learned some new stuff about this today.

[@TinyMedicine]

Thanks Daci 😍

[@dacisky]

@@TinyMedicine Your welcome. So,in a nutshell,my friend who had a sex change years ago has this.

[@vos651]

So you’re telling me it’s not normal to hate looking at my face… noted

[@Sanjay002vfx]

its crayZ how many people suffer from this, i have this, i remind myself every second of the day that i am fat, even though im 140 pounds and 172 cm, i lost 30 pounds in 3 months from just starving myself everyday cause i wanted to be skinny. I still see my fat body in the mirror.