Brian Wilson - In the Back of My Mind (1975 Piano Demo)

Featuring the same photo of him that was in the original video, which was taken down.

[@archubiclub5736]

I know it's so hard to find A girl who really really really really Understands your mind Oh, she may be happy just living so plain But in the back of my mind I'm afraid it's gonna change I live my life for her And living plain is all I have to offer her What would I do if I lose her It'll always be in the back of my mind In the front of my mind I got nothing to worry about 'Cause she tells me everything I like to hear In the front of my mind I wanna be her best man But I really got nothing to fear I know it's so hard to find A girl who really understands your mind What would I do if I lose her It'll always be in the back of my mind

[@HealthHaven26]

❤️

[@user-xo5ko5uj1o]

ブライアン頑張って‼️ お孫さんもいるんでしょ。

[@robertfinkel7548]

This is the "missing link" between Brian's old and new voices.

[@sheatiller2465]

@@TheRWE12 No he is not.

[@SlickNickVids]

Dennis sang The Beach Boys Today version from 1965. This is Brian’s demo that he recorded ten years after the original with new lyrics.

[@tonyr1950]

Brian said in an interview that smoking 5 packs of cigarettes a day. changed his voice dramatically

[@univon4892]

@@tonyr1950 Jesus!

[@funcamp_ltd.]

@@tonyr1950 it was more likely the nasal drip from excessive cocaine use, though cigarettes certainly didn't help.

[@MidosujiSen]

That final falsetto gave me a chill. He sounds great throughout the whole song, but still different from young Brian. Then for a brief second there young Brian came out to give one last goodbye.

[@jmua8450]

Probably the last recording of Brian’s falsetto before he descended into a deep broken hearted depression.

[@Robert-pe9sy]

What about his previous deep broken hearted depression in 73? Yknow the one where he stayed in bed for 3 years?

[@ComeAlongKay]

He still had some falsetto later. I kind of like him here it’s got some gravel and soul but still has the falsetto and angelic quality.

[@archubiclub5736]

This is peak Brian. He was in the "coolest" band in the world but he never worrid of singing about anxiety or depression. This is what makes music eternal, he sang with his heart about his feelings. That's why we listen to it now and it touches our soul.

[@layne182]

In the back of mind, I can't help but think Brian, if he stayed sober from here on, could have had a greater output in the 70s than he did. This rendition is beautiful. He's still a legend.

[@Lridesagain]

Unfortunately at that time, Brian was an undiagnosed auditory Schizophrenic. From 1965 to 1982, Brian used alcohol and drugs to self medicate. Being severely paranoid…he would use anything to make his ‘scary’ voices go away. During those years, he couldn’t stop his self destructive behavior. He was way too sick. On top of that…everyone refused to believe he was so severely mentally ill. Brian was everyone’s bread ticket. Not until he almost died in 1981 did he finally get medical help. But again, during those years under Dr. Landny, he was again someone’s meal ticket! So please, when you make comments about Brian…realize this was and still is to this day, a man dealing daily with mental health issues.

[@layne182]

@@Lridesagain of course, I know of that. Brian sought help in the late 60s for his mental health during the recording of 20/20. Had he gotten better help during the mid 60s (Smile era) and after the death of his father in the early 70s, he may have been able to realise the error of self medicating with substances. My comment was made about his sobriety as during this recording we can all hear how great he still sounded and with proper help, maybe we could have had more like this. Brian is a tortured soul, he's been through so much.

[@vincevirtua]

Stayed sober? He was definitely pretty much already intoxicated. If he’d have stayed away from drugs from 1965 …

[@layne182]

@@vincevirtua I get what you mean, but in 1975 Stan Love took a role in Brians life to get him to sober up and get in shape, which was working, but then Stan left to go back to NBA and Brian was introduced to Landy...

[@Providence..]

@@vincevirtua If he stayed away from drugs at that point, we wouldn't have Pet Sounds or the Smile Sessions. The LSD was never the problem, although it wasn't great for him, but it was ultimately whatever Landy prescribed him in the 80s that ruined him in every way, forever. Also, if he never took LSD in the 60s, the Beach Boys would just be a forgotten band that couldn't keep up with the times and expand into psychedelia, that formulaic surfer trope wasn't going to last them forever and Brian knew that.

[@Benefit1970]

I think I know what note he's trying to hit when he says "but I really got nothing to fear" and it's haunting how this would sound if his voice were fully entact. I am lucky at 37 that I stopped smoking in my early 20s. My voice was starting to change. After a year or two, it recovered, and even now I can sign as high as I could as a teenager. I will never take my voice for granted, and I know it will fade one day, but until them I'm appreciating it, and this song.

[@ComeAlongKay]

I think he sounds nice here. Some gravel and soul but with some of his pitch still.

[@chimpkelly7624]

Officially released without the spoken intro on Brian's 2015 solo album No Pier Pressure as a bonus track

[@nikolamarkovina2751]

The crescendo of the song, Brian evokes Art Garfunkel's performance in Bridge Over Troubled Water, the way he holds those final notes.

[@kincaide67]

Wow - he sounds like a perfect mix of himself and Dennis here.....Painfully beautiful.

[@TheHallOfTally]

Hauntingly he kind of sounds so much like his father. Still though, it’s such a beautiful yet tragic piece, but it’s good to see Brian in good shape in recent years.

[@acerjackson4579]

Would be great to have heard Dennis duetting with Brian on this around this time

[@stevenriddle22]

Everytime I come back to listen to this version of Brian singing, I get the craziest goosebumps. Feels like I wrote this about my life, and it haunts me,,,,,, thank you brian for your existence

[@Agos226]

This is my preferred version of the song

[@lesbiansteveburnside]

Every time I listen to this I have an overwhelming urge to send it to everybody I know AND I DO . I LOVE YOU BRIAN

[@dmer-zy3rb]

as much as i love Brian, this was the last time he could be taken completely seriously as a singer. good vocals from him after this were very few and far between.

[@decisivechicken1573]

chills listening to this

[@Grace-qo5ty]

Don’t know about anyone one else but this version kind of reminds me of Randy Newman, especially cause of its stripped down feel.I did hear that Brian really liked the album ’Sail Away’ by Newman as well, so maybe it’s coming out a bit here.

[@mackymusic673]

I was literally thinking that right as I read this! I read somewhere that he was really into newman in the 70s.

[@erictseitz]

The last time we would ever hear Brian’s falsetto belt.

[@Robert-pe9sy]

Shes got rythm, I sleep alone, alot of songs off his 88' solo album. Do I dare go on?

[@erictseitz]

@@Robert-pe9sy Not quite the same as this though.

[@Robert-pe9sy]

@@erictseitz Id argue shes got rythm is goes even higher than this one. He recorded that around 1978

[@dmer-zy3rb]

@@Robert-pe9sy Caroline no live in 2002 can we go further?

[@erictseitz]

I guess I'm talking more about the overall quality of his voice. He could still hit the upper register, but I think this is one of the last examples of that piercing clarity he had.

[@DenkyManner]

Brian at his most grown up.

[@joelgoldenberg1100]

Never heard that spoken intro. Brian sounds like Burton Cummings when he's speaking.

[@RoddyMacLeodBlog]

At this time, Brian was at the height of his 'powers', with confidence. And every note is so perfect that no-one can best it.

[@gerrydooley951]

not at all, he was fairly inactive during this period

[@RoddyMacLeodBlog]

You are quite right. I was overcome by his wonderful voice on that track when posting that message.@@gerrydooley951

[@steve_ward]

one of the greatest things I've ever heard

[@gerrydooley951]

People are commenting that this is Brian's last falsetto but you hear a pretty good one in 1976 "In the Still of the Night" and '76-'77 "The Night was so Young"

[@goopyhead]

oh my god i love how he sounds in this

[@gagenettles7093]

Can't stop listening to this. So beautiful

[@Mandrake591]

He sounds confident and focused, I wasn’t expecting that considering it’s the mid-70’s. To think the song was already over ten years old when this was recorded. I like both versions. A must hear for any serious BW fan!

[@gratefuldead5865]

Some guy posted a comment of an old video of this before it got deleted. He said something like “ this was Brian’s peak.” Shame he ended up doing what he did to his voice in the following year

[@pokemint1515]

I think at this stage he was already in the process of ruining it.. I'm sure he smoked a lot already and you can start to hear it. I think if he didn't smoke he would still sound something similar to the 60s brian but deeper. Al still sounds pretty much the same.

[@bobbbbysacamano]

It wasn’t smoking, it was the 3 years of non stop cocaine use.

[@nickb5371]

@@bobbbbysacamano that usually does it

[@jaggass]

@@pokemint1515 Brian had given up cocaine and smoking in 1978 and sounded younger on the MIU album. A shame it didn't last.

[@moist_owl9469]

Such a powerful rendition of this masterpeice

[@JDrevolver66]

Along with his backing vocal on Johnny Rivers' version of "Help Me Rhonda" that same year, maybe the last traces of his original voice, already noticeably rougher only a few months after the California Feelin' demo.

[@maitlen4021]

Wow. Still so good - a few months later, shot.

[@anthonybarrington2562]

I am deeply moved by this. Thank you for posting, and thank you Brian Wilson for selflessly displaying his soul to the world for us. Peace and blessings.

[@mikogale]

such a gorgeous version of a perfect song. brian wilson really is something else

[@connieace16]

I never heard him sing so beautiful. Wow!

[@anibalciani3602]

Heartbreaker

[@kanebint2021]

Thank tou

[@runnersdialzero1244]

Wait, where did the beginning and end audio come from? I've only known this to be released as a bonus track on some editions of his _No Pier Pressure_ album, and it wasn't there.

[@eduardoschereder5981]

The best singer

[@petertremblay6229]

Love Brian and his music!!

[@Floodland-bn3ol]

Don't destroy yourselves with drugs.

[@magneto7930]

This is a gem!

[@notanotherjamesmurphy5574]

I love the sound of his voice here. A little more bottom but still flighty

[@user-xo5ko5uj1o]

なんかいつものブライアンで安心した❤❤

[@user-xo5ko5uj1o]

ありがとう🙆 ブライアンウィルソン好き歴は俺の方が長いよ🙆

[@jaggass]

This was the transition between Brian's younger and Brian's raspy voice which fully developed in 1976. He started smoking because he thought he sounded like a girl.

[@anibalandresciani7784]

Me pone los pelos de punta😢❤

[@PinkFire2004]

A lot more somber than the studio version.

[@tiagogalindez]

Wooow, wooow and wooow! Never heard this version before...it really blows my mind. Fragile as a leaf...beautiful as an LA sunset.

[@Danimal1577]

💙💙💙

[@lolabraun3987]

i love that iv listened to this song so many times through this video, and i just realized it was posted by "callie cuttlefish official", LOL. maybe i should draw some beach boys x splatoon art.

[@squidiculus]

id LOVE to see that.. who woulda thought callie would like brian wilson

[@Danimal1577]

😪💔

[@kddo1455]

something noteworthy beyond the obvious change in voice between 1974's california feelin/this track/15 big ones & love is the degradation in piano skills between california feelin and the love you demos. the piano part for california feelin is fairly complex and has many moving parts rhythmically and melodically, this song somewhat less so, then by the time you get to the love you songs its mostly banging out chords on the quarter note. don't get me wrong, those chords are still very unique voices and movements, but the decreasing piano skills are another piece of the puzzle that is understandably overshadowed by the voice issue.

[@kiryu3795]

I agree as well, it really got more simple over time

[@daviddamico3615]

I think you’re mistaken. Brian has always had a simple playing style and Collaborators with him in the 60s have pointed that out (Look at the Don’t Talk demo from 1965). And as we know Brian had his struggles and probably didn’t intend on actually producing a big record in this period after Holland in 74-75’. Too much pressure on him so he made demos like this instead and developed some of them more than others but never really polished them completely. California Feelin’ is the rare exception in which he developed his musical ideas and arrangements for one piano part. I’m happy he did because it proves that the brilliance is there. And you’re right, the piano part would be a hard to sing and play at the same time but I think that it shows Brian truly was excited about the song compared to some of the other demos he had lying around at the time.

[@gerrydooley951]

yes one of the problems Brian had was finishing anything for release. Even Love You had to be polished and mixed by Carl so it was releasable.@@daviddamico3615

[@justmadeit2]

Should have put it on the love you album and left out one or two

[@tunesmusic8929]

Brian's voice is not as bad as it will become with all the drug use and smoking. Soon after this it were turn in a barely audio shadow of his former self, never to return

[@tunesmusic8929]

@@TheRWE12 it’s Brian

[@Fear2Stop]

According to Bellagio, this was from DECEMBER 1975?! I can’t hear that …no way this was recorded after the lead of Back Home Edit Nope… it’s before Back Home, sometime in mid 75 before Landy entered the picture

[@toastertwo1602]

It's March

[@Fear2Stop]

@@toastertwo1602 that sounds way more likely.

[@lordgarmadon2598]

How is this photo scary? It's sad, but I don't see how it's scary.

[@squidiculus]

i dont see it as scary either tbh, i think i got that from a comment on the original video

[@FucklesTheEnchilada]

I guess its just the greenish tint and how Brian's eyes are black. Not that scary to me, but it does remind me of a ghost.

[@gerrydooley951]

it isnt, it's a poor quality capture from a film taken in 1969

[@buddygripple7512]

Tandyn Almer on piano

[@allesanbro]

I didn't know this. How do you think it was cut? Live take with Brian on vocals and Tandyn on piano? I always thought it was Brian on both, live, considering some of the flow/push-pull of the piano seems to follow the vocals extremely closely.

[@buddygripple7512]

@@allesanbro Probably Brian and Tandyn sitting on the same bench. Tandyn was a really excellent piano player (see Body Talk/Grease Job from the Sail On Sailor box, all the keyboards and bass are Tandyn, and it was written and produced by him too. Brian is credited on it but people involved in the box confirmed that it's a Tandyn track) and he and Brian had been good friends for years at this point, they definitely had that psychic musical connection people get when they jam a lot with each other.

[@allesanbro]

@@buddygripple7512 That's really cool, and interesting. Thanks for the info!

[@yahiryellow1]

What the hell is your channel?

[@squidiculus]

i be posting anything

[@hurleybot]

Is this on any music streaming services?

[@noahlangworthy1902]

Sadly no but it might be released in a Big Boxset in 2026 or 2027

[@dmer-zy3rb]

youtube lol

[@fall2nd269]

Can we get some sheet music on this 🤏😔

[@spacelook9076]

Who really, really, really... LOL

[@linkachuxd494]

His nose seeded inflated from all the coke

[@crazydaveissexy9458]

oh my god