Andrea Gibson - Every Time I Ever Said I Want to Die

[@fedepa3]

Speechless. I want everyone listening to this poem to know that you are never alone. This world is full of strangers who are going through the same pain and grief as you are. You are never ever alone. And it may not mean much, but know that this particular stranger is rooting for you, wherever you are, whatever you are going through. Love you guys, take care of yourselves

[@ButtonPoetry]

Thank you so much. Much Love!

[@KandiBabyy]

🥺

[@VictorFiallosJr]

I love you too

[@bookerwills8649]

I searched a specific search because my buddy is no longer ger here as of yesterday, the last thing he told me was that he loves music because it makes him feel like he isnt alone. Pretty broken, he was a good person

[@fedepa3]

@@bookerwills8649 I'm so sorry. Sending love

[@inetlebo869]

"a difficult life is not worth less living than a gentle one" I needed to hear this with all the chaos in my life right now. I don't think many people realize how many lives are saved each day by Poetry. In the darkest moments of my life I always find comfort, hope and healing in poetry. Thank you Andrea for this poem❤️

[@ButtonPoetry]

Wow. Thank you so much for this. Needed to hear it today myself. Thanks for being you Inet. Much Love!

[@wakingtheworld]

My teenage daughter once snuck me in to a school performance of poetry by famous poets... Simon Armitage addressed the audience: "Poetry can save lives. It saved mine".... and my tears welled up in quiet affirmation...

[@dr1kk3r]

Not only this makes me feel, it makes me cry. As Vietnamese, I never thought English poetry could get to me and hit me so hard. Thank you, i'm grateful for these tears in my eyes!

[@24infernoX]

"I also have a slingshot that fires rock-bottoms at the sun until change spills from its golden pockets. That's how I got my hands on a summer afternoon" Absolutely brilliant

[@britniecampbell8308]

this poem broke me into pieces and built me all over again. thank you andrea

[@petrinashetunyenga8662]

“Friend, if you stay, at least we’ll be together “

[@karyssapower2586]

"I read that people scream when they are in pain... Anyone who asks you to hold your tongue is asking you to hold the heaviest thing in the galaxy."

[@danielvaldes6087]

I've been feeling desolate and wondering where to turn to to find people who understand me and who wish gentleness for strangers. i think the comment section for andrea gibson's poetry is that place. I wish I could hug all of you.

[@dep7311]

Everyday when I go to school, I often go to a lone bench in the middle of a area which is rarely crowded but used as a pathway towards the other buildings. I often sit there, alone asking myself questions like; "Why am I here?" "Why do I still exist?" "Why am I suffering?" "Should I quit?" "Should I run away?" "How, and When?" Suicidal thoughts and the feelings of hopelessness arise more stronger compared to when I was still alone at home... This poem shows me a event where while I was sitting alone on that bench, someone came up to me and recited this poem. Somewhat embarrassed to say it, but I hope something like this happens... I want.. no, I desperately need to listen to this from someone just sitting right next to me. A random thought, thanks for readinf

[@UchihaMB]

Companionship. I understand that. It's a year later and I sincerely hope someone came through for you, or you came through for you, or those thoughts abated.

[@Bookinista08]

I couldn't stop my tears from spilling over. Beautiful, beautiful poem.

[@ButtonPoetry]

Glad you enjoyed it! Thanks for commenting!

[@DreamChuckie]

Andrea always causes my tears to spill over. She is truly a beautiful soul. 🩵

[@wakingtheworld]

"And I have an extra straw".... "A difficult life is not less worth living than a gentle one".... Andrea never fails to get to our hearts, wring them dry... This one packs a powerful punch... ❤

[@viki9666]

The release of this video could not have been better timed. I've never cared much for poetry until I came upon this poem last year and now I get to hear it from Andrea's own lips any time that I like, thank you so much

[@ButtonPoetry]

You are welcome. Thanks Viki.

[@peachynicky1609]

The first line made me pause and grown I am very aware this is going to be the most beautiful poem I have ever heard rn

[@b.bailey8244]

There are no words to tell how much this moved me and maybe saved my life. Thank you.

[@Breathingspace09]

Thanks!

[@shantellmiller29]

I loved this poem I saw myself in these words. I have been to the void and felt it's pull and rejected it. I too struggle daily with that hole inside me that I am working to fill with light instead of darkness. You are an amazing poet and I'm glad my professor told me about you.

[@robincrowflies]

This world needs those who can do that. Yes. I am 56 and never thought I'd live past 17. Glad to be here, carrying the grief, the pain, and the joy.

[@angelatay4550]

I feel this so much. How much do I need to here these words, everyday. Thank you for sharing your mind so eloquently Andrea.

[@ButtonPoetry]

You are so welcome!

[@lorieartist_60]

Every word is golden beam. What a force of nature you are! Thanks for sharing your incredible gift.

[@dimpledevaraj4189]

Andrea speaks in a language that's only known to someone who's lived a dark life hidden from the rest of the world. 'Grief is the fastest way to truth '. How does she come up with those lines? I feel healed through her words.

[@jennifermurnan5505]

This is so powerful!!! I can’t express what this says to my soul.

[@ButtonPoetry]

Thank you Jennifer!

[@bodhisattwabanerjee5803]

Thank you, for writing this. I cannot explain how I feel. Thank you Andrea Gibson.

[@annawallace3383]

Heard this for the first time tonight and immediately purchased one of Andrea's books. I think this poem just changed my entire perspective. So in a way, it changed my life. Every time I replayed it, I found something new to cling to. My life isn't less valuable because I struggle. The world needs those who struggle. We have to tell our stories and lift the cities, light the tunnels. The world needs grief astronomers.

[@irisshillony9186]

Dear Andrea, you melted me. You shook me. you conquered me! So much sensitivity and delicacy, power and presence at the same time! You are amazing, and your heart is huge and compassionate! Thank you for you!

[@madelineoctober]

Hard to pick a favorite in their new book but this one is up there. I love it so much!

[@ButtonPoetry]

The new book is sooooo good right? We were so lucky to film these poems. We were able to fly a team out and set a studio up in an Airbnb near Andrea's home just before they had to start Chemo last year.

[@madelineoctober]

@@ButtonPoetry I am so glad! The audio book y'all produced is carrying me through this very very difficult year💜💜

[@sami-yc3xj]

Chills and goosebumps all over my body, tears welling up with each word. Wow, speechless. I can’t help but wish some people had heard this before it was too late. Poetry like this can truly save lives 🩵

[@lukegouldCSS]

Beautiful, touching, and powerful. Thank you for reaching my heart with your brilliantly written words.

[@justinchui36]

Whole hearted, open hearted as I listened to her words. Thank you !!!!!

[@alysiaabeaudoin]

Your words reached into my chest and squeezed my heart.

[@azul4904]

listening to this poem i imagined how it’d be if they had actually died. how much i would want them to know i was planing on meeting them one day. how i’m a to-be writer in a different country but i still daydreamed about the possibility of one day writing together, in the same room, or having coffee and rambling about things that don’t matter but don’t need to at all. who knows if that can still be true.

[@atuhaireandrew3201]

Another beautifully read poem from my favorite! I hope I get a chance to meet you in my lifetime, Andrea!

[@its_naaaancy]

I'm holding back my tears, this is so beautiful❤

[@jagratisaxena2335]

What kind of soul one has to have to write something so amazing?

[@ButtonPoetry]

Well that is sure a big question! Catch one of Andrea's live shows and you might get a bit of an answer.

[@jagratisaxena2335]

@@ButtonPoetry well they don't perform in India sooo i guess KZbin has to do for now.

[@janebennett7292]

The tears just came and came: 'I have an extra straw'.....thank you, Andrea

[@lanamaree7513]

heart breaks in the most tender way when i listen to you poems

[@angelica4354]

I cannot, Andrea. I cannot. THE BEST. YOU.ARE.

[@tinaabichar4617]

Dammit that woman leaves me speechless every time.

[@ButtonPoetry]

Andrea has really got it, right? Thanks for posting!

[@sheilaclerkin2238]

Thank you Andrea . I am breathless every time I listen. much love x

[@samvancook]

New work by Andrea! Love it. Live it =)

[@ButtonPoetry]

Thanks Sam!

[@restinson2651]

@@ButtonPoetry Thank you for giving me strength on a dark day

[@eveh3028]

THIS IS AMAZINNNNNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGG!!! GOD BLESS YOU BEAUTIFUL WOMAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The first sentence was so true and all your words encapsulated who you confidently are and its beautiful. You inspire me to stay.

[@wendyharder3080]

That was incredibly beautiful and I needed to here it.

[@3y3srolling]

sobbing, beautiful, thank you

[@jimisru]

Andrea, thank you.

[@ButtonPoetry]

Thank you James!

[@natalierobichaud4351]

So very moving and beautiful ❤

[@LPoper]

Thank you 💜 I needed to hear this

[@ButtonPoetry]

You are oh so welcome!

[@whatis.afairy]

👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾 Andrew! You did it again ❤️

[@ButtonPoetry]

Love seeing an Andrew Gibby post! Thanks for being you Ki!

[@Belle_Venus]

i love it. i love this poem so much

[@samvancook]

Favorite quote?

[@Belle_Venus]

@@samvancook "anyone who asks you to hold your tongue is asking you to hold the heaviest thing in the galaxy" and i also really like "my hand now committed to writing every page of my story except it's end"

[@melab629]

Thank you, truly

[@GraceDurbin31]

Amazing! So beautiful, just perfect.

[@kalanyou3275]

Andrea makes me cry every time

[@Twalzz]

Good grief. This was impeccable 💗

[@SharraUK]

This moved me to tears. Can anyone tell me which book this is in please?

[@ButtonPoetry]

bit.ly/andreagibsonybbl This is from YOU BETTER MY LIGHTNING!! :)

[@paperprincess1050]

Awesome, beautiful, wow

[@ButtonPoetry]

Thank you! Cheers!

[@summerjupitervalentine4008]

Phenomenal 💫

[@reneemoxley162]

this is so powerful i have recntly attempted suicide and failed and ended up in the hospital, I feel this is such a good poem ifonly I would've head it sooner.

[@zoeli72]

Oh my, this is my lifesaver 🙏

[@calliacovers]

I needed this exactly right now.

[@AnneIcardi]

I can only say wow and that I need more

[@eleanorguseva5078]

What if we don’t have to be healed to be whole?

[@samvancook]

Such a great question!

[@nixkelley]

thank you 🖤

[@peace8822]

Omg you made me cry💗

[@abeerali5093]

Wow!!! Dropped one tear maybe two hhhhh ouch

[@ButtonPoetry]

Thats it?? Hear of iron over there =P

[@nkululekoyoung4808]

This year is the first year in my entire existence I'm starting to warm up to the idea of making an exit

[@aniqahbe]

I love absolutely eveerything about this.

[@venessab8989]

Love this!

[@Trance--sx6zb]

Powerful

[@ButtonPoetry]

Thank you for the comment! We hope you check out more of their videos! We've got a lot by Andrea and they are just flat incredible.

[@machariajoseph4072]

Powerful 🔥

[@ButtonPoetry]

Thanks for the comment Macharia! Got a favorite line?

[@taraspeak3590]

While this performance was beautiful, is there a written format of this somewhere? I struggle with audio comprehension and i would like to be able to read it. I can tell there is a message i need to hear but my brain can only grasp parts in this format.

[@akshatkaushal5809]

I have tried a lot to get back on track. I was never a good son. I couldn't do it. I was a liar. I am the worst of humans ever born. I disappointed my parents. Now I don't want to disappoint then anymore . I watched a lot of videos but I am not able to stop myself. I wish I died the moment I was born 17 years ago . I wish I was never born. My parents did so much for me but I was never a good son. Sorry muma and papa I love you so much. I don't want to hurt you anymore now. I'll be ending my life today. Bye everyone whom I met in my life. Thanks for helping me. One last bye to everyone. 🥺

[@ButtonPoetry]

I know a post on YT doesn't change the world but I want you to know I appreciate you taking the time to voice your emotions. I hope you see this and know that someone is thinking about you and that you are important.

[@rhythmicanthem1032]

There is room at the feet of the cross. Jesus is the way the truth and the life. We humans do really bad stuff. We lie, cheat and hurt those closest to us. And at times we really cant help it, its who we are. But God not only called us to holiness but he also provided a means for forgiveness when we fall short and the strength to be better people. He has called us to love and yet also teaches us how to love. He sent his only son to die for us as a demonstration of how much he loves us and how much he wants to reconcile us to him. Call on him and ask him to come into your life AKSHAT. For there is freedom in Christ Jesus.

[@o.b.itwistedrose1091]

You are still here. You can add more beautiful colours to your canvas. Unsolved rubiks cube still beautiful in their chaos. Your parents will be proud of you.

[@NaomiDelightSpirit]

Wow.

[@maxl.3301]

Great ending "tell us what you see"

[@framboiseBOEL]

does anyone knows where I can find the written version of the poem?

[@kristinleary9058]

In their book, 'you better be lightning.'

[@indievh6187]

❤

[@Mmvrs]

🖤🖤🖤

[@jonathantrauner3742]

VICTORIOUS // Victories are gained with blood sweat and tears. The battles and wars we go through will make us eternal triumphers. // Victories are earned after going through endless suffering and painful setbacks. To become warriors, keep being tough. // It does not matter how many times we fall down after adversity. What matters most is resiliency and courageousness. // On the frontlines of war and battlefields, overcome obstacles as superheroes of courage. The toughest heroes persevere. // Triumphers obliterate roadblocks and challenges to become triumphant. To become the greatest, remain resilient. // Triumphant warriors can survive wars and destructive defeats. Do not remain knocked out after the knockouts occur. // Do not give up when the fiercest critics tell us to give up. Overcome so we can end up being triumphant superheroes. // On our warfronts and battlefields, we are almighty soldiers. No amount of defeats and destructiveness can kill who we are. // Knockouts can only be overcome with perseverance and eliminating negativity. Positivity easily extinguishes negativity. // Indestructible heroes and superheroes have the power to prosper and progress. Triumph and thrive. We are battle ready. For Mrs Gal Gadot Varsano from one of her biggest fans in my Jerusalem Israel Jonathan Trauner. I have Autism I am Israeli and Jewish I am 28 years old and I work for the startup Mobileye Intel of Jerusalem Israel where I daily save lives from car accidents all over the world. My dream is to win EGOT in Los Angeles California in March 2024 and to receive a honorary knighthood from the Royal Family.

[@olwynm402]

thankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouthankyou

[@OUTSPOKENWALLFLOWER4444]

❤❤❤❤

[@OnusOfNous]

Grief astronomer here, anyone else?

[@shiwanudhungana9057]

❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️

[@deIcorazon]

wish i was as good with words as them so i could explain everything this made me feel :(

[@nnekarosalie2523]

Last Sunday, my priest said the exact same thing you said about wanting to do anything to really live as a reason for wanting to die. Thank you both

[@thathardrockguy]

Has anyone seen my jaw? It fell on the floor and I can’t find it…

[@jcosabellano2854]

Beautiful. Fucking beautiful.

[@catedoge3206]

silent repost

[@rarababy23]

Andrea has ruined me

[@yuriination]

Don't get me wrong, your poetry is the best stuff I've ever heard. I just wish beautiful poetry inspired me to believe it. I don't feel proud to be able to hold so much pain. I think it's disgusting that anyone has to. Its disgusting to me that anyone let's it happen. I don't want to be stronger, I want to live in a world where you don't have to be strong because you are safe. Safe from humans that hunt other humans. Safe from people who derive joy from torturing others. Speaking of which, that's another thing, don't tell me I'm "not alone" because someone else suffers. I cannot find one ounce of solace in the misery of others. People who also feel stranded by their family or faced violent abuse from so-called, "lovers". That's the last thing I'd want for another human being. How is that supposed to make ME feel better?? Like, "oh great, at least there are THOUSANDS of others out there, EQUALLY as alone and in pain! Good!" The fck?? This sht is why I dont want to be here. Look how completey unaware people are of what they're even saying. There aren't enough poems in the world to put out the fires that people set, inadvertently or maliciously. (Figuratively, and literally. iykyk) Blah... time to self soothe (more like distract) with food and tiktok cat videos.

[@greentam2]

Thanks!

[@ButtonPoetry]

Thank you so much for supporting the arts!!

[@1spiritdancer]

❤

[@upamaphuyal7231]

❤❤❤❤

[@maddiegaither]

Thanks!

[@ButtonPoetry]

Thank you