Calli's Thoughts After Watching Ame's Final Stream 【Mori Calliope / HololiveEN】

[@sse12345]

All those 100k people probably feel the same. When I see the "Livestream is offline", I do nothing but looking at it while feeling empty

[@Butter_Warrior99]

Well over 110k, but still. The feeling is mutual.

[@syahmi6026]

its like u dont know how to feel. at the same time still processing, and then realizing that we will never see this gremlin stream anymore.

[@Toraks1205]

in my case i stay around 5 min looking screen waiting she back or make some posending

[@justinchannel128]

When the livestream ended, I didn’t have the will to exit and wanted to chat with the teamates for a little longer until the chat no longer worked

[@brunobarretocarvalho2315]

I had the same reaction...

[@saber_xyt]

I don't even know what to do after the stream ended i was js sitting there 😭

[@assassingamer1125]

Same..

[@vampirefishie]

Rushia icon you are a stronh soldier

[@nepnep9162]

I go on Vr aquarium world and just sit there

[@thegreatbeavers]

​@@vampirefishieNo matter what people say about Rushia. I feel she was that pillar of Holo Fantasy that everyone can make fun of but realize when she's gone, it shocks Holo Fantasy immensely. If only she didn't do what she did, she be comforting everyone now with soup and a warm heart..

[@alex38520]

the vr aquarium is a great place to go

[@custodesmarco]

I actually cried. When she watched the fan made song, during the last scene when Ame left Gura in her detective outfit... I don't know why but a sense of emptiness overcame me, and I almost started sobbing.

[@lizlizbianrosethornsword]

Calli..your feelings are very relatable and valid. Honestly speaking? I miss Ame already. In truth? I am still crying. But we will move on together strong Dad! We will!

[@アドルフヒトラ]

It should have been Calli. Everyone realizes this including Calli herself.

[@melonlord1414]

Sometimes there is no but. It just sucks

[@dingusuhum]

​@@アドルフヒトラbrother go outside

[@TkBloch]

Get out with that crappy attitude ​@@アドルフヒトラ

[@OtakuLolicon]

​@@dingusuhumSorry but he has a point

[@bee4no2]

i was staring at the monitor for 20 min straight not crying ofcourse

[@jekichuu]

I was actually not crying at all, until Ame walked off to the side, then it all came flooding

[@Upasana58850]

I was doing the same...I was staring at my phone when the stream ended...I was feeling kind of empty at that point...honestly I still am feeling empty..

[@brianwalsh1339]

I feel your pain, brother. Didn’t cry, but I did feel… a bit empty.

[@SirCamWA]

💛💛

[@Frostz7777]

Last month was Aqua, this month is Ame, I'm not just feeling empty inside, I feel like there's a blackhole inside pulling me.

[@thegreatbeavers]

As someone who lost it all and still has a chance in life, after I lost my entire family, my friends, and my finance where I have nothing and live in a car now, after Ame's stream I feel.. lost where I can go even lower. I should be crying and wailing like a madman but I just feel empty after Ame's stream. It feels weird but maybe Myth ends up being my caretakers in tough times. A Friend whose always there for you. It feels like I lost a best friend wondering if she'll ever return from the dead. I should be crying but it feels like I'm staring at the void. Will the void stare back?

[@thegreatbeavers]

You know I have this feeling similar to Gravity Falls now. Grunkle Stan I don't really care about until the very end where he decided to sacrifice himself for the entire family and while I thought Grunkle Ford was the cool one? I was wrong. It was Grunkle Stan the entire time. A Loser but ends up the greatest Grunkle who ever lived. Ame is like Grunkle Stan. You won't realize it untill she's gone..

[@petermartin6522]

​@@thegreatbeavers don't give up. These recent weeks have been very difficult for everyone apparently. I got my own prblms too. But don't give up, letting it pester inside ur mind. It will eat u alive. Just think of it as a part of our life. We keep moving forward😅

[@Alerian0950]

You forget A-chan wtf

[@NGuyEN28410]

Makes me dread the next big announcement from whoever

[@CyanAlmond]

Just like an alcoholic, a workaholic is using work to press the pain, It is just another coping mechanism that I am doing right now

[@joaoartur19]

I understand what Calli means. When I saw the "Livestream is offline" message after the end of the stream and it finally, *truly,* sank in that that was the last time I would ever see that on Ame's channel, I felt empty inside in a way I had never felt before. I wasn't even crying - I had already bawled my eyes out during the final member's karaoke on the previous day - it just felt _empty._ Like I had a hole in my chest that nothing could fill, and honestly that felt much worse.

[@senny-]

For some reason, Ame reminded me of 2020 so much. She just debuted and I was just discovering Hololive, and she was my first. Four years later and we've all been different people than we were four years ago. Just thinking about that, and the fact that a big part of what made my past will be gone, made me bawl my eyes out. It's the first time I've ever cried this hard on a Holomem.

[@sev1011]

The stream emotionally drained me. I watched from beginning to the end with sadness, and ended up passing out hard. No tears, but just low energy for those sad vibes. I'm happy to have said goodbye to our detective

[@NickTheMemeDaddy]

I think the hardest part is that there’s not only this lingering, empty feeling; but also this feeling as if something is missing or lost. And the worst part is that we know what’s missing. Its Ame. I’ve watched several graduations before through the years, and with every single one, there is always this feeling of emptiness when you see that live stream go offline and hear the silence around you. I always wait, tricking myself into thinking that the live stream will pop back online and I’ll be told its all a joke. But it never does. Its always hard to close that tab at the very end, knowing the last stream is actually over. And That acceptance is really the most painful part of it all.

[@MOONWOLF7395]

Calli hit the nail on the coffin. The feeling of "dang".

[@sinfulbakaa]

We feel you Calli. After I saw Ame's final stream and I was crying honestly but like she said "we'll see you later"

[@saber_xyt]

I love calli shes so strong! A cute strong reaper

[@アドルフヒトラ]

She should have be the one to leave not Ame I will never forgive her for this

[@x-axis708]

​@@アドルフヒトラ cry about it

[@Victor-mi2py]

​@@アドルフヒトラ peak parasocial behaviour

[@AnlaVerse]

​@@アドルフヒトラWhat the hell are you talking about? You're saying this like she's a character in an anime that should've died instead of someone else, there's so much wrong with your sentence

[@アドルフヒトラ]

@@AnlaVerse Im just upset one of the greatest vtubers ever is gone but instead we still have an ogre is proud of looking like shreks gf and all her su bh um an fans eating her sh it

[@Zero-Pass]

The whole stream was emotional, I cried like a child for a good chunk of it. Thanks for these 4 years Ame

[@DawnOfTheOzz]

It's like watching the end of a show in it's final season. You get to the end and just think, "What now?"

[@serafimu2003]

Thats how i felt with Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood when i finished it

[@MattBrain9336]

I just closed the stream the second Ame said her last bye and was about to walk off-stage I absolutely did not want to see the "livestream offline" note

[@joss3_py]

that silence after Ame finished her stream, I was there, looking at my screen in silence feeling empty and numb, totally understandable for Calli to wanting to stream, thats the best way to forget a little the sadness

[@DaimonAnimations]

I didn't watch much EN so it doesn't affect me that much but when Coco left, it broke me beyond believe and Aqua's reminded me a lot of Coco's graduation so it hurt me as much, so I understand how the EN fans must be feeling right now. We can't do anything else but keep moving forward. Also it never gets easier.

[@thetcaseaway4306]

Yeah, she did reassure us, and we understand the situation. It's not sad "sad", like other graduation or termination. But its not happy occasion either. What I can call it is just empty and kinda like "hummm...... Now what to do" Kinda feeling. The situation is as clear as it can be, we know, she know, it's just kinda like a lull. One that was too long and too silent.

[@ZippyVtuber]

Yeah….people say we overreact when people graduate (in general, I know Ame’s case is different) and how we treat it as a funeral, but…unless you knew them in their past life it can really be like if they died, in a way. Yeah the person is still there but the character, who they were on screen and also just not having a way to interact with said person…at best, it’s MIA. It really depends. I did somewhat hear about Ame’s past life, but idk if many others will…

[@imLumineux]

It's not really an overreaction imo, so I think it's fine that everyone is reacting the way they have been. Everyone treats situations differently and it doesn't make any reaction or coping mechanism any more invalid or valid than others. I can see why some people think it's an overreaction though, not many people have been in a situation where they're able to care deeply about something (whether fortunate or unfortunate circumstances). The closest analogy I feel is like one of your favourite coworkers quitting their job or a dear friend moving away, sure they're technically still around and haven't died, but you don't really get see them or interact with them like you used to.

[@jaycepentad9535]

Really, we aren't under NDA and it's not doxxing. I have no qualms sharing the info around. She's dooby3d on Twitch, YT, and Twitter having recently updated them from her old OG PL name. They definitely look like she plans on streaming again as an indie. I hope people check out her new endeavors whatever they prove to be.

[@ZippyVtuber]

@@imLumineux yeah, spot on! Agreed.

[@Upasana58850]

​@@imLumineuxyou really has a point dude!

[@ZXUmi]

i think the thing is why we all get like this if a vtuber is graduating (or for ame's case, concluding her activities) is that we won't see them interact with chat nor the members/genmates anymore, at least on stream. ame's a bit different since she still gets to participate in events & other things if able to, but it's still very sad to know that she won't be around as she normally was anymore for the time being another thing is how much of an impact the members who departed/ceasing their activities have on so many people by just being here & making our days brighter with whatever fun stuff they would do for us & their friends. ik they're not gone gone, but it still makes saying goodbye to the character they're representing as very difficult. it really feels like a part of you is gone in a sense at the very least, we should all still smile as we move foward after letting out all our tears. cause at the end of the day, it's what our oshis want for us: to live & be happy while cherishing the memories we made along the way while they were around

[@staplesock5549]

Just sitting there as it ended, and watching the loading thing go round and round knowing that Ame did end it, and walked off to her next adventure. she will come back, and we must be ready to shout HI AME when she dose. as soon as she announced it I became a member, and even got my first Hololive Merch adding up to $200+. Sadly I missed the deep rock galactic and charity stream due to work. I'm incredibly grateful that she pushed the Later Gator stream for as long as she did, or I'd have missed it also. Thank You Ame, For Everything

[@poundtown3429]

the fact that the stream remains 100k+ views until the end

[@N-Rod357]

After everything thing these girls have been through, you can really feel the love in her words

[@MrVal05]

Its weird. Those empty feelings makes you think that you wouldnt be able to live the same way as you did without her, but you know damn well you'll be fine, and she'll be fine. Life goes on and you would most likely still watch and support the other hologirls as you usually do. We'll be fine, we can feel sad, we can cry for a bit dont we? But eventually we'll move on and learn to accept the detective absence. 4 years, its not easy letting go 4 years of memories guys, especially those who is at the bottom of their lives when myth debut. Watching someone who support you and entertain you at your lowest left is crazy work. But we'll do it, so just embrace the sadness for a bit and then smile after

[@multichrome-en]

I think this is a really good opportunity to take Ame's inspiring work ethic and apply it to our own lives; that's one of the best ways to honor their legacy. Build our own, and do them proud!

[@WhisperingAila]

I broke down when the fan song came on and couldn’t stop crying the rest of the time… Seeing that screen, “Livestream is offline”, I stared crying for a solid few minutes

[@BattleManiac7]

I get Calli. Ame is my kami oshi, so while I tried to be happy for her, at the end of stream I just field weird. The silence a little more quiet than usual. I was so glad IRyS was gonna stream right after, I wanted to sleep with a smile, and I knew IRyS playing a CoD game was gonna give me that. See you later Ame 💚💛 o7

[@MichaelKing015]

Me too i lost gallons

[@Katsura-San124]

Of tears? Yes me too.

[@jiro9888]

I too have also lost my galleons

[@mr_pants278]

Man, I hope you find them.

[@willowravencroft]

I sure you can buy more gallons at the nearest hardware store 🥲🥲

[@Katsura-San124]

@@jiro9888 Where did you lose them? The Atlantic? Off the coast of Cuba? Africa?

[@jack-exzolt9858]

The stream went by like I was woke up from a sad dream. And I'm still recovering from Aqua's graduation. Really curious what Miko or the JP seniors thought of this.

[@jheoz5078]

I wish some member do a solo VRchat stream at the aquarium and see themselves as fish and their description man...

[@PhytagorasPancake]

The feeling is mutual T_T

[@soullessgamin6954]

Thank you for being there for us calling, it was really nice being able to hop over to your stream once Ames was over. It really helped with the empty feeling

[@TheFatBird3204]

Same feeling with Calli...i think everyone was. But need be strong guys!! we must moving on...me too.. i cried a lot too

[@jest5837]

I was at work while watching the stream and it definitely made it hard to focus all day. I did visit the aquarium when I got home though and it cheered me up a bit.

[@webprosketches2636]

It’s enlightening to see how many of us looked at the “livestream is offline” screen, trying to process and make peace with this new reality in the HoloEn community. I too was among those silent viewers. I also appreciate Calli’s choice to stream (as well as Kiara with her unarchived karaoke stream) in order for us to share this empty and/or sad sentiment. Vulnerability helps us to empathize and connect with each other, and connection is a hallmark of the human experience. I’m grateful for these moments we get to share together (including the bitter, sorrowful ones). May your wings take you high in your endeavors, Ame. We will continue to support you, and will wait patiently for you when you’re ready to reunite.

[@-Raylight]

After the stream ended, we just want place to collect our thoughts, glad to know Dad is on our side 😭😭

[@cloverpod]

I cannot even cry. I was in the middle of my lecture, students are taking a quiz and I was staring at my phone, watching Ame's stream.

[@lostnemesis]

Knowing that she isn't going to be around as much sucks.

[@Earliersphere]

Calli's always been one that falls into deep melancholy and contemplative place when strong emotions and reflection happens. I've been there where you think just working on something is enough but the thoughts and emotions while alone is just to much. I'm glad she felt ok to stream, there will be hard things for her a head. when you say these kind of uncertain good byes you never really know if its truly a good bye or see you later and that can be worse. I would not be surprised if Calli and some of the others are feeling they were allowing there contentment to steal the time they could of spent making more memories with Ame. Tomorrow isn't promised.

[@shelbyjackson6903]

The fact that she thought about her community and wanted to be there for them as well makes my heart feel warm and fuzzy...

[@Dracobyte]

We all miss Ame already.

[@UltimatePhantasm]

I've felt like that many, many times before... the pain gets to a point where you start to legitimately lose your mind

[@Shadows_fall]

When someone important leaves there's always a hollow feeling. It's part of being human and it shows you how important that person is/was to you. It's sad but a good feeling.

[@MeguminDStaff1007]

Feel the same too then i got notif of Ame's messages both in yt and the several reposts in twitter. That put a small smile on me and saw Ame and Moom message and it reminds me of one of Ame's message to us: Cherish your Oshis Ill continue doing that Detective o7

[@iloveplayingpr]

There was a moment of lull while I was watching the live stream ended asking to myself "What now? Where do we go from here", and I do hope with all my heart that this is a new journey, despite the pain and loss we are feeling. It will get better.

[@alecaquino4306]

This is really good. I think so many people in Calli's position would just try to keep things positive and optimistic and distract the audience from the elephant in the room. And while I get the reason behind that line of thinking, I do find it a bit frustrating because it forces us to ignore something that many of us feel very strongly about. The fact is, we lost someone special and we are all processing our emotions that come with the fallout of that event. Our feelings are valid and shouldn't be ignored right now. This is the time to mourn and soon enough the sun will return to our lives. But that process cannot be forced or rushed. It needs to be organic. I'm glad Calli is being so honest about her grief. It brings her closer to us just as it brings us closer to her. We're all in this together.

[@tako1908]

good point bro

[@WilhelmScreamer]

At least Cali has her number, better off than the rest of us

[@Aizen_SSRB_Delumin]

Yeaaa I relate to/understand where Calli is coming from... I'm glad she isn't completely gone though. It's still tough, but it definitely helps that she will ocassionally be around again

[@mitomidou]

Sometimes there is no silver lining. Something is just a sad thing that happens and it can just hurt. But if something is important enough, you can live with that hurt, knowing that the reason it feels that way is because it mattered. So long as you hold on to those times past and memories shared, someone not here anymore to hang out with will carry on with you. Because they mattered.

[@ferndog321]

so nice of her to stream for the community

[@zero4391]

Even though I am not an avid Holo fan, I respect their creators a lot. Regardless of how you exist in the Vtuber sphere, this had such a big effect on us all. Their group opened so many doors, eyes and hearts. Beginning to end they deserve happiness, love and respect.

[@KintsugiShiko]

I felt fine, and then when she came back at the end and then faded away, I felt that "Uh-oh..." moment and started bawling. I was crying. My manager was crying. We were all crying. But we're also proud of her and love her and her sisters. 💛🌸🍒

[@benjiusofficial]

It's one of those kinda things that makes you re-evaluate what you are (and have been) doing and why you're doing it. S'kinda the way it is when someone close to you dies. You're just kinda hollow. But, if you survive it enough times, you do what Calli is doing and double-down on the good things you have left.

[@PhytagorasPancake]

Ame is just like a friend to us and someone who made impact in the ups and downs T_T call it attachment issues or something but... it really hurts to think that we won't hear her shenanigans... her rants and silly antics... and I really hope she will be back someday... when things get better ❤

[@abiakbar286]

I was holding down the tears until the sad version of chiku taku plays. After that ame left the scene and all i felt is emptiness while staring at my screen with the most pain and empty stare i ever did.

[@jeanlucc99]

after the stream ended, I was literally staring to the screen until my coffee went cold

[@Shendue]

Makes me smile a bit because yesterday I tuned in on Calli's stream despite being busy with other stuff to do and I thought "even if I'm not that huge of a Ame fan, the whole thing is a bit sad anyway, so I'll keep Calli's stream on in the background with her soothing voice for emotional support". I think this is the positive side of parasocial relationships. While you may not be really close to a streamer individually, there's still this strong sense of community and sharing experiences and emotions.

[@Zentofu1]

i was so grateful that irys and calli streamed after. it was something that everyone needed.

[@lukeorloki]

Seeing and hearing the silence when "Livestream is offline" pops up will forever hit differently from now on. I can't unfeel the silence after Ame looked back one last time and walked off her livestream stage that last time. That silence was soo damn loud. Today though I imagine Ame happy, resting, and interacting with her friends. I of course have no way to know if she is as happy today as she deserves. I imagine Ame happy because my job is to continue in my very little part of our shared world to allow happiness as much as possible so the world can be the mostly fun and caring place Ame and others deserve. Smiles > tears Though each day we're older What the future holds Is not, not, not for us to know yet It's gone, gone, gone before we know it So, let's solve the question We can make each second Chikutaku, last forever Wakuwaku, it's now or never!

[@Philly_Phil]

My friends and I installed vr chat to go see the aquarium after the stream! Def brought smiles to our faces after that 💛

[@ammar1415]

There was just emptiness and a feeling of emptiness after watched her last stream...

[@absolute_aero]

Calli's honesty is comforting tbh. I tried to smile for the good times all week, but that backfired last night when Ame sang Ookami Blues for the last time. Ever. It sank in. A sea of tears, skullsplitting migraine, despair. Today I feel empty. It really does hit different when it's your oshi.

[@thedarkneon4447]

that empty feeling when a person you love leaves hurts so much.

[@Sora_Mesa_5th_Apostle]

At least we had some Hope to watch after the stream

[@tylerfun3158]

The strength to be honest with how you're personally dealing with things is hard enough. Going online and telling everyone that it's ok to not be ok but that we can still rely on each other is huge. Myth are my Oshi. All 5 of them!

[@DarchrowTheEnigma]

When the stream ended, it literally started heavy raining for me here. It hits different than yesterday, or the day before, or the day it was announced. 😢 o7

[@takenname8053]

Being happy for Ame! 😭😭😭😭😭

[@manganimesYT]

those few last seconds with the stage empty after Ame walked off, felt long, heavy.

[@scarymonsters9130]

I have the same way of thinking anything to keep your mind occupied

[@TheKenchanx]

Felt the same. Just sat in silence, with my own thoughts. Just, like... Should I cry? CAN I cry?

[@DSmash]

i felt the exact same way i couldn't sleep

[@AliTheNerdKing]

I was listening to the stream while I was at work and I got out of work around the same time the stream ended. So for the first time in a long while I drove home in silence, even more so when I got home I just sat in my car staring at the steering wheel. So yea, like many people, I can relate that after the stream I felt very empty.

[@TheRealVordox]

Been seeing people i know and talked to suddenly stop their activities for many times. It is never easy...

[@DorQ_YT]

While Ame had her final stream, it was my very first stream I watched from Hololive EN. I'm not much of someone who watches livestreams, but I feel like after watching Ame's last stream that it made me realize that I could do this for the other members too, so I really have to thank her for that

[@drieonlive5395]

I'm feeling the same as calli where I cried alot after the stream but after the stream I booted up another stream and just started watching L4D2 justice collab so I wouldn't feel that sad

[@ZHibiki]

It was a scuffed last stream but damn I wouldn't have it any other way. We love Ame 💛

[@DatHoasi]

We’ll meet again Don’t know where, don’t know when Oh I know we’ll meet again on some sunny day

[@TSouL22]

Sometimes, we need to keep busy to distract ourselves

[@zaphkielkt]

So im not the only who was staring at the "Livestream is offline " feeling so defeated

[@nutshot_brawler8466]

Honestly, I thought I would feel empty too, but Ame saying goodbye, but then, coming back, twice, made me laugh so hard. I got choked up, no lie, but this was the first graduation stream, that left me smiling by the end, truly the Ame way

[@kelvinw.1384]

Were lucky guys. Were still in the golden age of vtubing all our oishis are young enough to not have their own families yet or other things. So we have a few years with them in their current form or reincarnations. So were blessed the talents are still around for now.

[@theunknown7683]

I just sat there. Because I was just felt nothing but emptiness.

[@Salmagros]

Keep in mind that Calli knew about all of this way before us and has more time to prepare her emotion. Even after all that and being a Workaholic herself Calli still couldn't work through her sadness and need to others around for comfort ( Deadbeat in this case).

[@melonlord1414]

You can tell that she's comfortable with her audience when she wants to stream when she feels sad

[@saintsinningsword]

As long as it was on their accord and they made off like bandits it sounds good. Bummed if it's retiring forever.

[@Rhenryie]

Charting uncharted territory is Myth's specialty.

[@tattrd]

I havent watched it yet, because I dont want it to end.

[@danielparnell117]

It has been almost twelve hours and part of a night I didn't sleep so well since it ended and I still feel empty. Totally get those feelings and not sure what to do with mine. I know we will make it through though.

[@meino6465]

I think this is a beautiful message. Going seperate ways will never be easy. You'll feel a sense of loneliness and emptiness, but that's okay! It's only natural to feel like that, and acknowledging those feelings is an important part of processing them. And well, the best thing you can do then is simply to do something fun with people you care about :) Sounds a bit cheesy maybe, but it's honestly just how our brains work haha Though of course, it's always a little different for everyone.

[@sirdropkick2251]

I didn't het to watch ame often but after the stream I felt a twist in my gut.

[@DrathVader]

My only comfort is that the door still isn't quite closed. She's still an affiliate, she'll appear in songs and other projects, and we'll still hear her voice from time to time. There's also a non-zero chance she could return to streaming one day, as she said, but that's just me being high on lethal does on hopium. I'm not really counting on that.

[@NecromancyForKids]

Being lost in your own thoughts can make things worse. Sometimes, you need a distraction.

[@KeebeThePlush]

It’s the end of an era for sure

[@breadpham]

Ame didn't graduate, but she's going where we can't follow and that separation is where the grief resides.

[@skippyjigglesJR]

Left us all feelin empty

[@mimisk9357]

After the steam ended, my brother and I were watching... without saying a word we both stood up and just went to bed. what can you even say in a situation like this...

[@pyufi]

i sat there for a good 5-10 minutes just staring at the "Livestream Offline" screen. . . . yeah.

[@jucabnubster]

I didn't have this feeling for Coco, but dang Ame got me sittin in silence for a bit. 💛

[@kagin1235]

when ame left you can feel that theres like a huge gap or a hole between myth. someone or something is missing.

[@dancao1454]

It feels like the ending to that episode of The Simpsons where Homer says goodbye to his mom, and he's just sitting on his car looking at the stars.