CAMBRIDGE VLOG 60: losing my love for learning?

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About me:
My name's Paige and I am in my third year studying Natural Sciences at the University of Cambridge. I am a member of Jesus College and make regular vlogs of my day to day life at uni, including lectures, supervisions, and social activities.
Credit to Henry for the outro jingle.

[@heidiharper265]

Paige - as a Physics under and post-grad from the 90s, I just wanted to give you a bucket load of encouragement. I was so enthusiastic when I started uni and couldn't ever imagine wanting to leave. But then after 4 years of hard grind I was very ready to stop studying. Your attitude to your work schedule is fantastic and it will pay off, I promise. Also, my advice would be to study with the sole aim of passing your exams. You have the rest of your life to continue learning, as I have done, focusing on the topics you enjoyed the most (Cosmology was a fave of mine too) and it's much more enjoyable when you're doing it for fun, of course! Go girl, you can do it! (and a few tears are normal)

[@PaigeY]

Thank you so much for the encouragement! Going to keep studying hard (it’s the final push!) and try believe in myself a bit more now ☺️

[@TheHollyChronicle]

I’m always worried about losing my love for learning, but as soon as I take a break for a while and come back refreshed I love it even more!

[@DeeFightingDreamer]

Definitely understand the struggle. As a person who naturally stresses a lot even about simple things, stressing about school is just the worst. I do think I learn amazing and useful things, but exams man, they're frightening. Also, since you said you don't feel motivated, do you think watching your own old vlogs where you study a lot would help? Just a random question. God knows we all could do with a bit more motivation.

[@user-tb5fc6yr7o]

I am in medical school, and anatomy exams a year ago had me crying randomly for 3 months straight because the exam terrified me so much (its oral, and its open, so you have an audience for your public humiliation). Now I am pacing down and having plenty of breaks and enjoying it so much more. Dont stress yourself out too much. It just brings depression and burnout.

[@ellis1034]

I burned myself out 2 years ago and I took 6 months off school to recover but to this day I still can’t give a 100% like I used to. Be careful and take care of yourself, because once you go too far it’s a steep climb to get out of it.

[@liloruf2838]

How did that happen to you? Now I'm afraid it could happen to me too :(

[@enami_0136]

@@liloruf2838 studying all the day not meeting friends/ family not sports jiust isolated studying

[@wiggielfchan]

Astronomy PhD student here, take it easy and don’t put too much pressure on yourself. Your hard work will pay off. There will be days when you think the subject is amazing and there are days when you will hate it and debate why you decided to study it in the first place. On those days, take some time off to do something for yourself and that makes you happy! Trust me, it really helps!! You’re doing amazing and love watching the videos!! 💖💖💖

[@PaigeY]

Thank you Aoife! ☺️

[@wiggielfchan]

@@PaigeY You're very welcome!

[@maryjoan9927]

As a med student, I totally understand the struggle of learning interesting content but not really having time to enjoy it because you need to keep up 😓 I really love science, and I know I could find physiology&biochemistry SO great, but since anatomy takes so much of my time (a LOT of learning stuff by heart), I just need to focus on passing the other subjects 🤦🏼‍♀️

[@steffliot3788]

Paige, don't worry so much. You're very talented. You can do anything you wish to.

[@judith3697]

You are there not only because of your good grades on exams, but because you have interest and skills for learning! I tend to put a lot of pressure on myself and it's very frustrating. Your teacher was right, we are more than exams but we tend to forget it. College is and amazing place and sometimes we just spend too many time thinking about exams and don't enjoy the experience as much as we should. Anyways, i love your videos, you motivate me a lot! Good luck from Spain! (Sorry, my english is not that good)

[@PaigeY]

Thank you for this lovely comment ✨ You’re right, I definitely need to make the most of this experience, the stress isn’t worth it!

[@aurora_skye]

He's right, there's more than exams in regards to education and the point of education is to learn, not learn for the exam but learn for the love of it. However, I completely understand where you're coming from! Good luck with your exams!

[@Voldemorti]

@Catherine Monroe Official definitely, but then again it is important to note that your performance on exams doesn't measure or reflect your intelligence or even your understanding of something.

[@AnaLuisa491]

It always happens, but then you come to realize you love those days. I'll be graduated in 4 months, I cannot tell you how it feels, today I had my favorite event and it was the last one of my university days...it's exciting yet i cried. You'll come to appreciate, love and miss those horrible days with all the pressure and stress...Hope you have an amazing day, and keep perspective of how lucky and amazing you are🍀

[@komorebi7861]

Thank you so much for still making and editing these videos while having been so busy! We really appreciate them☺️ they're so interesting and inspiring xx

[@Stargemini11]

I watched you over a year ago. You ended up back in my feed, I am so grateful. I absolutely love your videos. I binged on your videos over the last few days. You rock!

[@CoralineLTB]

I smiled like crazy when you showed your cosmology big book. I studied law and that was the size of my notes for one subject 😂

[@eni4498]

It's not a book, it's a handout so basically notes 🤷‍♀️

[@CoralineLTB]

Okay :)

[@Emma-hf3oh]

You're so relatable, and you make university seem not as scary. We aren't superhumans, we're all people! 💜

[@scheimaa172]

I try to tell myself "you're going to do it anyway and stressing over it would just make things harder" it kinda works. I had so much stress build up from Math Homework and Physic Protocols that just thinking about them gave me Pain in my Chest. Now I kinda learned how to relax when I start to panic. It's the start of the Term so you might need a bit of time to cope with this new stressful Semester.

[@duncan4081]

I think the lecturer’s ‘if you just want to pass the exams don’t bother coming to the lectures’ comment was a bit off, if not self indulgent. The reality is after three years of hard work you would naturally like good grades to show for it, after all you are paying something called tuition fees so he ought to be focused your objectives too.

[@stephaniemena93]

After a long day of uni work, its nice to have some down time with a new PaigeY vlog!! :D Also, don't worry about the workload/exams, it is ALOT and yes i'll admit myself that sometimes I find myself hating parts of my subject (I do history which involves a lot of reading and research which can get boring and repetitive when doing it for one topic for so long), but when I take step back and look at how much work I have actually done, and how proud I am of myself for knowing the stuff that I do, I remember why I love history and why I chose to do it for my degree! Crisis of confidence is definitely a worry for students but don't let the down days keep you down forever! X

[@nadiar700]

Honestly, I love these vlogs so much!

[@pedronunes7002]

Have been really enjoying this type of videos because it translates exactly what people like me and you go throught the semester! There (finally) goes my sub, deserved!

[@umangmanhar1029]

Gawwwdd!!!.. I'm sooo happy now😭♥️ My day was really messed up today and nowwww!!😊 Thank you!..and don't stress out so much.. you're gonna handle all this soooo well!!😚❤️

[@viki6017]

in the beginning of the video, while you were talking about astrophysics students and stuff, I suddenly thought: wow, this girl is becoming a scientist! and it made me feel so happy and proud of you! it is beautiful to see us doing our stuff and having our space. I have a great impression about you, and I’m pretty sure this is just a bad moment and it’s completely normal. don’t worry, keep strong; you’re great 💗 love from south america

[@magdaj.7211]

Friday is better with your vlogs! Such an inspiration

[@wrighty321go]

I am definitely feeling the stress as well this term. One of my problems is that we have the really open ended task of do extra reading and the more extra reading you do the more likely you are to do well in your exams as you get marked for 'original' thoughts. So I never feel as if I've done enough as I could always have done more.

[@Annapaz25]

You inspire me, Paige! Love your videos!! Keep up the good work!

[@midori7564]

omg im so happy i found your channel im sooo full of energy after watching ypur vlogs

[@noahx3569]

you have come so far and done so well, keep going! you can do it 💜💜💜💜 sending love and hugs

[@isabelantolin8339]

Don't worry sometimes you don't necessarily feel like studying o doing work, don't be stress about that Try to be relaxed and enjoy what you are doing and if you can't end everything you have to do , don't worry it's normal

[@wiktor5719]

a question: what would you like your job to be in the future?

[@robyn18]

Aw Paige, I’m also in my final year at uni and feeling the pressure. I study English, (so not as academic as the sciences I am told;) lol) but it’s a lot of reading. I used to love reading but now I hate it and sometimes I feel uni has ruined that for me. But we are nearly there and after uni we can enjoy learning without the pressure of exams and essays and reports etc. You have an amazing work ethic - you will do great. If you take a step back you will see that yourself - you’re in the library on a Friday night!! Love from Scotland 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿x

[@FiZZgAR]

Your videos keep me motivated through out the year, I am in the 11 grade now and I must say I got my marks up since I watch your channel so keep up the amazing work and never give up! Greetings from Germany 🇩🇪!

[@issachung801]

you got this Paige !!!!💪🏻💪🏻💙 don’t stress yourself out!!! 💪🏻💪🏻

[@flawlesly8502]

I absolutely love your vlogs !!

[@kellyharris3733]

I think you're amazing. You're a hard worker and a nice human being. You've already won hun 🥰

[@Ghost572]

I can't imagine hearing that from a lecture when you are at one of the highest level universities in the country, I can imagine them just constantly wanting you to learn everything in detail and having to be extremely organize and be on time with studying otherwise it would just pile up and become more stressful than it already is.

[@lilyhong7293]

Happy new semester Paige!❤️

[@muleykeduzyol3293]

I like your videos and watch it all over again. You're motivating!🎉🎉✌🏻😎

[@alberteinsteinisaacnewton2664]

i love sooooooo much physics and you always inspire me and yes the BIG BANG is coool

[@fatoomqueen5530]

Omg I’m early plz reply I freaking love you so muchhhhh you make my really motivated to study💖💖💖

[@annikaa.3854]

I missed your vlogs so much!

[@federico8052]

Ohh i missed you! Watched so many of your vids before the interview 😅

[@mikosbookstore166]

I did lose them since eighth grade🙌

[@PeaRab]

🥺🥺😿

[@lisa-hv7vb]

Lmaoo

[@Huumbug]

oh paige third year is the absolute worst because of the pressure you have of getting the highest grade on your transcripts, like you said it will eventually matter in your future career... I have been following your journey at cambridge for a while now and your work ethic will surely pay off. These tears are perfectly normal, sometimes it's just a bit too much. One thing that helped me during my last year was going to bed very early and waking up really early to do some work (something in the early morning makes you feel invinicible...). As for the feeling of "losing love for learning" I totally get that, when the year starts you're all excited about the courses you will have but eventually you get caught up by exams, and we all know that cramming past papers is a foolproof strategy (as frustrating as it can be..) . I suppose it's all about finding the right balance of doing enough past paper throughout the year to feel confident during exams session, and still enjoying the courses during term for the love of learning (easier said than done...).

[@markwalton3706]

Can distinctly remember the feelings of being overwhelmed at times in my final year. Take it a day at a time - only thing i might suggest is keeping reading your notes as the more times you read it through the more sticks so come revision time you will have less to pack in. In the end you can only do your best. Do you have a tutor you can go to and just talk about your stresses? Keep going! All best.

[@craigmaclaren3154]

I’m just catching up with your vlogs for the first time. Really enjoying your updates. Would love to have studied at Cambridge. 👍

[@thomaspremoli189]

Paige, hello from Brazil! I love your videos and I find them really inspiring and motivating!

[@steffliot3788]

Cosmology Amazing! Flawless! I want to become a cosmologist and I thik this is the best channel that presents infront of me the track that I should follow for my dream to come true. You made me choose Cambridge for my batchelor degree instead of Harvard.

[@dernachname1685]

As a medical stuent I can relate so much! I'm so lucky to be able to learn about some of the most interesting topics I can imagine, however because of the huge amount of work, I feel I can't quite enjoy it as much as I'd like to. I guess after all we'll just have to push through and remind ourselves that this is going to help us get the jobs we want, so that we can enjoy learning and working in the future:)

[@freesoul975]

IM EARLY FINALLY I LOVE UUU

[@aradhanavarma5109]

I’m a Psychology Major, and I know exactly what you mean. Speaking from personal experience, the value that marks hold beyond the classroom is limited to stupid eligibility criteria and what they say about one’s work ethic . I get your exhaustion . So, one thing you can do is focus on going beyond the syllabus for topics that really interest you , perhaps for 25-30 minutes everyday . If you focus solely on the exam aspect, it can affect your motivation . You’re a learning-oriented person, and you should be allowed to incorporate that in your life .

[@remlatzargonix1329]

Don't let the stress get you down!.....you will pull through it.....I reckon your other classmates are also feeling the same way. If you are really stressed, maybe you could talk to a counsellor? Good luck! By the way, in my most recent degree, I was feeling stressed and down and almost contemplated dropping out, but I pressed on and.....then....graduated with distinction, so i know how you feel....

[@SapphireDemirsoz]

This vlog is a big mood! - but you got this girl! x

[@daianaarazi22]

ohh i had the same feeling with my art history knowledge, soo much to read and learn for the exams and every single time it was like i wish i didnt get graded for this, because is sooo interesting but had to study fast for exams...

[@akshayraghavan8328]

Good luck with everything Paige you'll end up liking everything and not get frustrated if you just give yourself sometime n proirity everything will fall in place and just enjoy life you're a serious motivator kudos to your efforts Love from India:)

[@nakulshyamkumar9122]

Your hair looks amazing!

[@sushmeetsandhu8975]

Girl, I needed this so much. This is how I've been feeling in my upper level chemistry course. I got 10 wrong on last week's lab! I don't love learning chemistry, despite the fact it has so much to do with medicine. I just can't get motivated for it. There are so many semesters of it too!! As soon as one exam is over, I'm already preparing for the next exam in my other class. :/

[@milangaypure5020]

5:40 BEST ASMR EVERRR!!!! 🥰💖

[@sukanyaghosh24]

Just recall the resolutions u hv taken in new year... Nd proceed ur lyf 😃

[@varnikakalani8504]

Ahhh Paige is backkkk

[@ellenball4792]

“touch wood” *touches head* i love it

[@joefothergill6303]

Love the way you use 24hour time

[@RobWalker1]

good video. I liked the honesty about stress levels. You always seem so upbeat so it was interesting to see that stuff does get stressy sometimes. But you weren’t too dramatic about it and seemed upbeat again by the end. Hope all is well!

[@GamerscoreOfThrones]

I hope you’re doing better at showing up on time than I am this semester. It’s the last semester and Senioritis is real 😂

[@emiliadolgos2660]

My new semester only starts on Monday, and by some miracle, I got my motivation back to study and to do the best as I can. Good luck with your new term, I'm sure you'll manage. :)

[@TheNachoesuncapo]

Good luck,youre gonna do well

[@cynicalcenobia]

Mit tanulsz? :)

[@emiliadolgos2660]

@@cynicalcenobia meteorológiát :)

[@cynicalcenobia]

@@emiliadolgos2660 Az érdekes lehet, én English (BA). Magyaron vagy itt a UK-ben tanulsz, ha szabad így megkérdeznem? :)

[@emiliadolgos2660]

@@cynicalcenobia Budapesten. Ezek szerint te a UK-ben? :) Jól hangzik az a szak is. :)

[@totenfred2538]

i love it just listen to your voice

[@zen280]

I am just studying for my last exam in law college and it is soooo stressful. Everything on this college was frightening and the only things I remember of the last five years of my life studying, fear and the feeling of being constantly tired. And now I have just one more exam and it is so hard...thousands pages to learn and I just struggle to find motivation. I am telling to myself that after this one it is over but the quantity of this subject is just terrible

[@lucymiller8172]

Hey beautiful have a wonderful day!🥰

[@mariahmcdonald1351]

One step at a time. You got this.

[@allysonroyston9671]

Don’t be too hard on yourself! Your hair is definitely growing..looks lovely 😊 Have a chill later xx

[@rajipadmanabhan209]

Love u paige😍😍😍😍

[@monti222]

i loved that little asmr moment

[@limmingilimmingi2551]

Don't give up sista!!!! You can make it!

[@prodbyevadwave]

Hi Paige your hair looks different love your videos about studies hope you do more daily from Philippines🇵🇭

[@cussama1835]

Good Luck Paige☘ ‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎

[@JustMe-rn5xm]

I already have Uni burnout just by watching you doing this crazy amount of studying

[@Mia-sj1mi]

Hi Paige! I'm going to the Cambridge Science festival his year, are you?

[@arianaa.1084]

Love from Argentina 😘

[@vtee361]

Love your videos you are so funny ! What an inspiring young lady you are. What do you want to do after you finish uni ?

[@oatycookieori]

I love your videos so much! ♥️ I have an offer for vet med but am really unsure about putting it as one of my choices because I worry it will be too stressful and I won't have any time for sports and socialising ? Alsooo do you normally go to Cafe every night for dinner or do you tend to cook yourself ? Thank you so much if you see this ! Xxx

[@SB-ll1tt]

You can do this! Promise! Keep it up. Play hard and work hard. Believe me, when you start working, you’ll wish you were back!

[@dudpktz]

Hi there, I don't usually type down here cause I feel like my words are not worth it. Anyway, I wanted to say thank you for all your videos, they are so entertaining and full of life, I especially enjoy when you are surrounded by your friends chatting haha. And another thing that I wanted to tell you and everybody that is reading this, uni can be extremely stressful and I personally (I have squizoaffective disorder) don't enjoy it that much. But if you really can keep on the track and study and finish your grades and maybe even later have a PhD, it's the best you can do for your future. Cheers mate

[@federico8052]

The asmr session starts at 5:40

[@PaigeY]

Lol this was entirely unintentional 😅

[@jeeveshbudhia]

We love you!!☺☺☺

[@lalitayadav3946]

I love ur videos ❤

[@Annex41]

I felt the same way at my last semester of my master's degree... I got very frustrated but it was worth it... now, after 6 years of my graduation, i would love to hit the classroom :-)

[@PaigeY]

Yeah I think I’ll miss it when I’m finished! Even with all the stressful moments 😅

[@hitchinaride94]

Definitely go to concert band, music always helps!! :)

[@arcmomo]

so good to see you Paige! The nerve of Sainsbury's...moving stuff around to confuse Paige...shame shame!! Have a wonderful week my dear! :) ♥♥

[@nidanadeem9925]

Its alright, if others cam get through days like this, then so can you!!

[@Noah-qp6oe]

Although u distract me from my revision I do love ur vids

[@amanyamin632]

you are soooo beautiful without makeup 😍❤❤

[@Chloe-rs7nw]

I think if I was the lecturer, I would say, if you are interested in topics related to cosmology which are not taught in this class,, look into it in your spare time (not teach it in classes). The reason being is that, if you are extremely interested in cosmology m, you need to pass the exams to pass the course, to enable you onto post grad cosmology classes or a good career in cosmology.

[@BoggyStitches]

the thing about wanting to learn but ultimately not being able to care about anything but your grades is sooooo real and sucks so much ':(

[@dzenan1688]

Everything bout you is so adorable 😍

[@christinavathiotou8748]

❤️❤️❤️

[@asonsabag9759]

So, after 3 years of Bachelor plus 2 of Master degree, more or less 40 exams done (1 or 2 written exams, project and oral exam EACH), focusing on lectures, friends and some HUGE books, some pubblications and 2 big thesis of experience, I can tell you to keep going. You will finish this, It's a period of your life that will end, sadly or not. So keep focus on what YOU want, and fight for that P! 😘

[@BlossomxJuliette]

❤

[@berrekrca8774]

❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@alexcarrara6352]

Hi Paige, do you know if the learning materials are purchasable (from your course) at the uni? Just asking because my bachelor doesn’t really do astrophysics stuff and I’m aiming for doing masters at Cambridge. Thanks in advance!

[@charlottedanguien8022]

You can do it!

[@dominicrowland9555]

Very motivational I want to go to Pembroke college and do pure maths I’m 12 love the vids