Celldweller - Own Little World // Talking...then Lightsaberdancing w/ Hope and Faith

Music by: Celldweller - Own Little World
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Hello there!
Currently I am in one of my weirder states. I often feel like I am slacking.
Kinda without a certain drive. And I think I am getting ever so closer to finding my stride with that.
You see there is something about making a dream of mine come true.
It's almost like a freeze. Most of the times there is a certain surge that comes out of me.
That has to actually.
It's when the brain finally catches up.
Sometimes it is a really quick thing.
Like the last time I was in Dresden. (Sudden distraction burst from getting something)
I was given the honor of performing during the pauses of the Drum and Bass Awards Germany.
Then got up on stage behind Gourski and flowed.
And a dream became reality.
I was basically gone after that. An overwhelmedness some might even give the stamp of dissociation.
Others might say a moment of mania followed by shutting down.
It was when I suddenly asked myself:
"What now Too Kind?"
I honestly couldn't answer it that evening.
I really struggled coping something that positive for the first time in my life.
At least in an actually aware state of mind.
It actually went on for a couple of days.
Kinda like being paralyzed by the divine. (ungh....drool...puke...laugh)
But I still choose these exact words.
The only words that I know, which can carry the feeling of it.
And currently I am again in that state.
Because I asked myself:
"But how are we gonna do this now?"
And once again I got stuck a little on a simple question.
Almost like: Too many ideas trying to get out but jamming themselves into door frame immobility.
It's really cool, but can also be quite scary.
It is a time of great change, understanding and insight.
Where old things dwell back up again.
And get reassessed. Takes some time. And with every loosened knot in my mind.
A new idea squeezes itself through to the surface.
And then they just pile up again a little sometimes.
Hence the chapter name Trial Trail.
Many things I experience often feel a bit trialy.
In the end it's because I make them harder than they need to be.
Because all of this here is because I finally dared to be me.
Instead of a mask I thought I needed to be.
I started this journey.
And I made dreams come true along the way.
You might think I'm making a big deal of it.
Then I say of course I am.
Because for so long I forgot how to even dream.
Since a part of me was locked away.
Missing.
And is there a better thing than a reunion with a loved one?
Cause that's how it feels when I take a shadow and turn it into light.
When I rediscover myself.
And head onwards with more Joy, Peace, Pride, Unity, Purpose, Hope and Faith.
On the path of the Dancing Jedi.
Now with someone else traveling with me, with every video I put on here.
And whenever I think about it I feel it throughout my whole body.
This chill of insight and excitement.
Exploding into a gratitude I never even thought was possible.
I cannot thank you enough Elenuay.
You have created a miracle in my eyes.
Again: I'm aware I'm making a big deal out of it.
And yet again: Because it is to me.
You gifted me not only with something I always wanted to do, but couldn't.
But with so much more fun, freedom and new ideas.
Cause you see, it's only one frame here.
But wait!!!!
There's more.
And you will get to see them all in action.
With so many more tunes.
So so many too many effects for the general audience.
And so much more of me not giving a sh*t about it.
These videos are my way. My art. My healing.
My passion.
And so much fudging clarity.
I always knew it had to be this song.
Because how could it not?
If you clicked on the link above, you know.
And if you didn't I can only invite you again to do so.
There you'll see another side of the marvel that is Elenuay Jenley.
Can't stress enough how much artistic talent I see in how she paints.

[@Elenuay]

Ooooh!!! I love it sooo much! It was one thing to make the frame, but a whole other to see it in action! And thank you so so much for all those words. Thank you for inviting me to all your wonderful ideas and thoughts. The ones you addressed to me specifically and the things you share about your experience in this world. I resonate with so much of the things you put out here. It's wonderful to walk this creative path with you! And I am so thrilled you flowed this song, it means a lot to me. This channel has come to hold a special place in my heart, truly. Keep being you and I will keep throwing art at you. xD It's such a perfect constellation, I can't even really describe what's happening here. I'm just super happy. ^^

[@tookindthedancingjedi]

FYI without further ado in my language means I'll just keep on talking because something else popped up! 🤣