Chronic Pain, Bad Health, and Channel Update/Rename - SunderlandSpook

[@WhitneyPlays]

I'm so sorry :( While I don't have it myself I've watched both my mother and sister deal with Crohn's and I know all to well how awful it can get. Invisible illnesses really do suck. I really hope that the next surgery will do the trick and allow you to finally live without extreme pain. Honestly, hearing your recap of your health the past 2 years, it's amazing how many videos you have put out. You are an amazing dude and I always look forward to seeing what you put out next. :)

[@sunderlandspook1875]

Thank you so much Whitney for your kind words. The worst part of invisible illnesses is how people don’t believe you’re ill and you have to justify your sickness. It’s fucked. And I’m sorry your mother and sister also have Crohns. I wouldn’t wish it on anyone. Thank you again for always being supportive and sorry for the late reply 🖤

[@Mike55690]

I really don't have words.. rather my words can only do so much.. Sorry to hear you're going - have been going through all this Sunderland.. I genuinely and sincerely wish you all the best and hope that the operation works. All i can really say is, Thank You for what you do and take all the time you need for videos, and if you outright stop, obviously that is understandable too.. All the best Sunderland.

[@sunderlandspook1875]

Thank you so much for the kind words and support. It really helps when everything feels hopeless 🖤 and sorry for the late reply!

[@VisComicaV]

Hey Sunderland, i just wanted to echo a lot of the others here. I'm sorry to hear about all of this and i hope you have had some reprieve from the pain, even if fleeting. Your vids are excellent, which is what drew me in, but what you're going through - have gone through - is remarkable and takes a remarkable strength just to survive let alone be productive through. Even though i am just an internet stranger, i will be sticking around to watch everything you put out and hopefully see updates on here that say you are having better days. Take care and know that you matter more than you know :)

[@cappedminer369]

i'm really sorry to hear that happened to you. i hope this issue gets resolved.

[@sunderlandspook1875]

Thank you so much and I hope so too 🖤

[@L307ug4]

I'll be looking forward to your future videos and I truly wish for everything to get better for you 🙏 stay strong

[@sunderlandspook1875]

Thank you and I will stay strong :)

[@BernicePanders]

I just found your channel via horror games, so I don't know if you have been vlogging, but you should, just like you did here. I've been vlogging about my lifetime of chronic illnesses & failed back surgeries for a decade, and given I haven't ever been able to see any mental health specialist, or had any friends in 20yrs & my family has abandoned me, I have nobody to talk to, except the 300 or so subs I've fought tooth & nail to get for 8yrs. It helps that you already have a very supportive viewership who will give you encouragement & love, so don't be afraid to cry on our shoulders or just keep us updated! It's been SO hard finding any other creators my age or younger that I can relate to chronic health wise, and we in the chronic pain community need to stay together & we NEED more great creative people like you to add to the rare younger demographic of the disabled & chronically ill! (Please join us on Twitter by using these tags: #ChronicLife #DisabilityTwitter #ChronicPain #CPP #NEISvoid #Spoonies) Also, have you considered trying straight up medical cannabis? I've been using it for 15yrs to treat dozens of symptoms, one of the top worst being the debilitating nausea & other stomach problems which cause me to vomit all the time if I don't have daily edible MMJ plus smoke every 6hrs give or take, otherwise I can't even take oral Rx meds. It has literally been the #1 reason I'm still alive, and it has been the only thing allowing me to run errands, do housework & get any sleep. I'd love to see more from you about your chronic life & will be following you on Twitter too! If you want to check out my vlogs, please start at least 5yrs back & watch them in order? I've had 24yrs of constantly worsening & mounting numbers of chronic illnesses & pain, 8 failed open-back surgeries & 2 near-death incidents of being clinically dead for 45mins (2nd time) to about an hour (1st time) from massive kidney & heart failure, had them ignore my firmly established DNR forms to put a pacemaker/defib in my chest, I have had to get all my teeth pulled after over 20 years of grinding & clenching my jaw (my terminal stress began at toddler age) caused my teeth to begin cracking & falling apart, and I've been dy!ng faster from poverty & never having been given help with any transportation of my own, so a majority of my vlogs from the last 3-4yrs are increasingly depressing & anxious & kinda off the rails. I've kept my ded channel going so long because I was using it to tell my story, to leave something behind so I don't end up completely forgotten. This has been a fu€kload of suffering & torture to go through for nothing... Anyways, hope to keep hearing from you & keep your head up! Just remember how much love & support you have on such an awesome channel, and that you're not stuck fighting to grow a ded channel like mine...

[@mn-ru4li]

I thought I'd check out your channel after seeing As Above Down Below. I appreciate horror reviews, even more when from Australia. I'm very sorry to hear your news. I didn't know a lot about this disease, so appreciate your education and sharing your experience. I hope you get better. I'm really pissed off that Australia's healthcare system has deserted you. No one can afford that care.

[@I8cereal645]

I wish I knew what to say. Chronic pain is abysmal. I appreciate your videos and the strength you showed in making this video.

[@sunderlandspook1875]

You’re too kind and your words mean a lot to me. Thank you 🖤

[@simonholm898]

I hope you will get better, i love youre vids so much. Much love from Denmark

[@sunderlandspook1875]

Thank you so much and I really appreciate your support 🖤

[@wat_question_mark]

You are one of the most underrated creators on here. I know it’s hard. Please don’t give up. Keep searching… cannabis? Osteopathy? Chiropractor? … Best wishes.

[@sunderlandspook1875]

Thank you for your comment. The negativity in my life makes me think my videos are trash and reading comments like this make me feel a lot better. I’m currently trying CBD oil so hopefully that works. And sorry for the late reply!

[@lolrus5555]

Damn, I'm sorry to hear you've been living with such a shitty affliction. Like what the other commenters have been saying, if you haven't gotten it done already, then I truly hope the surgery gives you the help you need to get rid of all this pain. You're a really good content creator and it's impressive to see how much content you've churned out even while living with such chronic pain.

[@tannerhill9648]

I love your content man, glad to know the creator is just as awesome. Your one of my favorite channels and you inspire me to maybe one day give this youtube thing a try. Best wishes, hope for your good health. Stay spooky 🤘🔥💀

[@BadVibesStoryTelling]

Sorry that you are going through all of this. Stay strong!

[@Shift_Salt]

I'm so sorry to hear about your health, I'm not sure what else to say other than I'm wishing you the best despite everything you're going through. I get how much it'd weigh you down especially having dealt with it for so long, I hope things eventually get better. May the therapy ease some of the turmoil, hope the next surgery actually does something. The content you've made up until now has been a great treat, sorry you're unable to get more out because of this. But I'm still happy to go back to the content that's already here.

[@sunderlandspook1875]

Thank you so much, Jay. Your support means the world to me

[@Shift_Salt]

@@sunderlandspook1875 glad anything I say can help. Hoping the best for ya, and thanks again for all the great videos.

[@PaulCaveworks]

Dang man, that is a lot. I am really sorry you have to go through this. I cant imagine how hard it must be. I found your channel randomly about one and a half year back i think. I ve watched almost all of your videos, and I always enjoyed how you brought sth 'different' to the table. Very good at stating your opinion with points well organised, and truly entertaining content and concepts ^^ Thank you for all of these hours of entertainment. And will be here for more to come ^^ Wish you all the best man, truly

[@sunderlandspook1875]

I don’t even know where to start. I’m blown away by this. Thank you so much. From the bottom of my heart. I never thought of my videos as anything special and it leaves me speechless knowing that people think different. Thank you so much 🖤 and sorry for the late reply

[@phish4203]

I hope you get better soon 😟 I can't even imagine the pain you're going through atm...

[@anmanarrative]

What you're going through sounds absolutely awful, I am so sorry to hear this and I hope things will get better for you. Don't worry at all about how long it takes between videos, I can happily wait any length of time because your work is incredible and always worth waiting for, so just focus on taking care of yourself.

[@sunderlandspook1875]

Thank you so much for always being supportive of me, Angela. It means so much. Really. 🖤 and sorry for the late reply

[@JohnyParuwka]

I'm so sorry man, I hope the next surgery will actually help so that you can go back to fully living your life. Also love the channel name change

[@sunderlandspook1875]

Thank you and I hope so too! I really want my life back. The channel name was a looooong time coming haha Sorry for the late reply.

[@Randomidwit]

Sorry, friend. I hope you get to deal with your condition and keep it under control.

[@sunderlandspook1875]

Thank you, Dan. Your kind words really help and sorry for the late reply

[@Ji99i3]

This video has me really concerned.... I bleed when I go to the washroom and my family believes I have the same thing. My country is garbage for health care despite what people think and so despite trying to get help I am consistently ignored. I feel literally the exact things you say. I cry sometimes it hurts so much and I'm a grown man. I take a bit of medication but nothing helps Edit: I truly understand what you feel. Can't do anything and always in pain

[@Ji99i3]

Just curious at the hospital do they give you the same run around about having IBS and eating low fogmap foods.

[@sunderlandspook1875]

@@Ji99i3 im sorry you’re going through this and thank you for sharing it with me. I’m not doctor, but what you’re going through are what i look out for when I think I’m having a Chron’s flare. Bleeding/mucous when going to the toilet, excessive toilet usage, pain. But these are also associated with IBS as well. Your best course of action is to try and organise a colonoscopy. These will determine whether you have anything going on. That’s how they found the ulcers in my bowels and diagnosed me. Also, lowfod map diets are extremely important if for example, someone is having a flare. They remove any trigger foods and provide foods that are easy to digest. So yeah, my advice is try to get a colonoscopy and also, possibly see a gastrologist.

[@Ji99i3]

@@sunderlandspook1875 thanks for your reply. I have the blood/mucus thing literally daily... I suppose I'm just scared to know the truth.... Ok. Good luck to both of us and I truly hope you get back to doing what you love. This has changed my life and when I go back to work full time (COVID has us working mostly relaxed shifts) I'll be really worried about how often I'm in pain and in the bathroom...

[@kassiklower3347]

Endlessly proud of you, for releasing this candid video, for getting through every day, for being you 🖤 I got you no matter what. You are so loved.

[@sunderlandspook1875]

Love you too 🖤🖤

[@danibethea3425]

Sunderland, it’s so good to see you, however I wish it was under better circumstances. I pray that an effective treatment, pain regimen is found for you soon. If/when you have surgeries or need medical monetary assistance…please let us know we’ll pitch in where we can. Sending love and hugs from overseas. 🖤

[@sunderlandspook1875]

Thank you so much, Dani. You’ve always been so supportive of me and you have no idea how much it means to me. I hope to find something that works soon too. Thank you, again. And sorry for the late reply

[@Killysunt]

I also deal with Crohn's, it fucking sucks & I wish you the very best

[@sunderlandspook1875]

I’m sorry you’re dealing with the same shit as me. I wouldn’t wish this on anyone and hope you’re able to keep it under control. Thank you for your kind words And sorry for the late reply!

[@Mankey619]

I hope for the best of you Sunderland. Get well very soon my friend,cause you need it to get rid of this pesky pain that your going throughout your life here. Get well real soon buddy.

[@sunderlandspook1875]

Thank you so much, Usman. I’ll try my best and sorry for the late reply

[@Mankey619]

@@sunderlandspook1875 it’s okay. Just get well soon buddy.

[@ozhartley6408]

Can only echo what other people have been saying; hope things get better for you, dude.

[@sunderlandspook1875]

Thank you so much, brother. I hope so too. And sorry for the late reply

[@randalfland]

Hey it's Tommy Tummy Pain coming in with another banger. You will get through this. I know you fucking hate that I put it like that because it's so fucking frustrating when your existence is pure pain every waking moment, but you will.

[@productions-lx3qh]

I hope all is well 🙏🏽

[@madeline99awfulradiatorlove]

only recently discovered ur channel and i've been rly enjoying ur videos and like obviously yeah um because you've mentioned it in other stuff couldn't like,, not,, click when like i saw this on ur channel like normally just look at recommendations or something but um yeah ;-;;; i hope after 4 months ur feeling some reprieve because it sounds really tough and it is like??? so amazing that you can do extra stuff like this and keep up with socials even some of the time ??? it's seriously like,, rly impressive ?? ❤️❤️but um, yeah :// hope health stuff is going better now and u should feel rly proud of like,, how you've managed this because u still seem to have a really like,, positive mindset? not in the sense of like,, oh everything is good or something like not fake positivity >:(( but u just really come across as super likeable and genuine and i think like,, it's great that like!! u can do that because like,, even w like a cold i can struggle to find the energy to rly communicate with people so i can't imagine how strong u must be to go like?? do something so like,, extra for other people and yeah 😤😤💖💖💖 um,, hope things are cool and thank u for all the stuff you've posted ✨✨✨

[@GuyVomiting]

That sounds just awful, I'm real sorry. I'm not very good at talking serious, but you are probably one of the most underrated creators on this platform, you put so much effort into your videos and it shows, I can't imagine having to deal with such constant pain everyday. Also that football team can get fyucked, buncha copy cats if you ask me, what will they do next a series on cancelled horror games.

[@sunderlandspook1875]

Thank you so much for your kind words, brother. It really means a lot to me. And it’s gonna be my personal goal to DESTROY that footy team for stealing my schtick. And sorry for the late reply.

[@aaronm934]

is surgical removal of the colon or sections of the colon a possibility? i know a proctocolorectomy is a medical treatment. using a bag for life might be preferable to agony and higher risk if colon cancer due to the chronic inflammation.

[@Chaku99]

Dude, don't give up. Seems like you are having a pretty shitty life experience at the moment, might not sound like much but it makes you who you are, it shapes who you are going to be. Someone with a perfectly numb and comfortable life will never understand what you are going through. Still, you deserve to be able to get the healthcare you need especially when you deal with daily insufferable pain. I don't want this to sound like charity, but if your life circumstances have not allowed you to get the right insurance to get the surgery you might need, maybe you can use crowd funding to get that. I know I have money i don't need to live well and you would benefit from it so much more. Also, I watched your vids for free so in the end it would just be fair compensation for your work. I know this sounds weird coming from a total stranger, but I couldn't just stay idle knowing a human being I really appreciate the work of, is suffering without bounds, so whatever you decide to do, you can count on me

[@sunderlandspook1875]

Thank you so much. Despite how low I get I’m gonna push forward and get better. And thank you for offering to help. That has blown me away. I’m lucky to have a family that can support me while I’m going through this. But seriously, thank you. I’m speechless. And sorry for the late reply too.

[@Randalftown]

has it really been that long...... fuck

[@sunderlandspook1875]

Fucking yup

[@donnaherrera7415]

How are you doing? I have UC and it was hell before i finally got into remission. I really hope you're doing better. I'm just a stranger sending you a big hug and wishing there was something I could do to help you. I was so happy I came across your channel. ❤️‍🩹 Wishing you the best and remission.