Citizen Soldier - Hallelujah (I'm Not Dead) (Official Lyric Video)

[@juliameyer10313]

Hallelujah, I'm not dead sounds both empowering and terribly sarcastic. Literally me when I wake up

[@_StarXDust_]

Lol i know right

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks for listening 💜;

[@featheredtadpole9778]

You do be right tho-

[@jordan-uk1qb]

lol me. i get disappointed when i wake up for some reason

[@intellectualrebel5340]

So I'm not the only one who saw two meanings in this.

[@gingerkat3278]

I love how the line “What doesn’t kill you builds your throne” implies that some things that hurt you don’t necessarily make you stronger but instead are something to build on yourself because you’re already strong

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks 💜;

[@catkin8330]

Ikr

[@tylermonette1410]

yeah thats a much better way of saying that

[@Kaydinp2008]

@@tylermonette1410 ikr

[@Kaydinp2008]

Well put

[@dhvanitvyas9418]

This song is a painkiller for those who're dealing depression and anxiety.

[@CitizenSoldier]

💜;

[@milacuchacovich6046]

This whole band is a painkiller for us ❤

[@serpentinewolf7085]

Also those that were born into either poverty, bad family, etc.

[@ell394]

@SATANIC DEATHSTEP REALM a healer you mean the best therapist with music

[@amandamarlow3162]

I LOVE THIS song, it does uplifts me

[@EyeTea]

This song is a reference to “What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger”

[@haleyraven.lilrocket9241]

Absolutley correct I been battling brain cancer for a few years they say nothing more I believe it's our fight within to fight 😃

[@CitizenSoldier]

Yes 🖤

[@NIGHTMARE_KRATOS]

Yu zhong quote 🤔🤣

[@wildone9946]

I love how they twisted that saying to make it more unique. The throne thing just makes it more empowering

[@snaptrap723]

@@haleyraven.lilrocket9241 my great uncle had brain cancer, part that makes me think you don’t have it is you completely forget everything and die a lot quicker so do tell, how are you still alive if you’re healthy enough to be on KZbin and chat in the comments?

[@hero-kun2314]

Pain can give you two things: - it can make you weak and surrender... - or it can make you stronger

[@MayaBarnwal34]

In my case it makes me stronger... Nd I'm proud to say that... Thnx to some meres who chng me...

[@kadenstructures_ks]

Fear. Fear everything and run. Or Face everything and rise.

[@CitizenSoldier]

True 💜;

[@katzui_keen]

As if someone just got my point (^o^)

[@hopeformorning6157]

"What doesn't kill you is what builds your throne." I think that it the most inspiring lyric I have heard in a long time. Thank you for this.

[@920-s3r]

If you like that theme, check out Throne by Bring Me the Horizon!

[@xpiece1109]

I agree with you, Pal. It's a deep message. Fuck, all their songs have a good rhythm, but also good lyrics. Even though this is my second favorite song of their new album, the one I consider #top is Stronger than my Storm.

[@hopeformorning6157]

@@xpiece1109 Stronger Than My Storm is my favorite in this album too.

[@bmcpictures2]

Record Producer: So... we need another hit. Citizen Soldier: We've got you.

[@brandonbowen3896]

Lol

[@CitizenSoldier]

Haha! Appreciate you Brogan 💜;

[@snowjamm975]

4 words for you and this song: "Your music saves souls"

[@CitizenSoldier]

Appreciate that 🖤

[@brandonbowen3896]

It truly does ❤️

[@dustythenoodle]

there is so much truth in that.

[@adamcannon7514]

"What doesn't kill you builds your throne" Easily my favorite line

[@CitizenSoldier]

Glad to hear that Adam 💜;

[@poisonoussnake2022]

It’s a great lyric

[@jakubduzy5766]

Like Kelly clarkson "what doed not kill you make me stronger" but rock. So better :3!

[@DinoDays703]

I guess I shouldn't be surprised at this point but the consistent quality of all of your music is amazing!

[@CitizenSoldier]

We gotta deliver to the best fans 🖤

[@alfredbyrd249]

Amen to that

[@jbcp4112]

Únanse con ICON FOR IRE ICON FOR IRE ICON FOR IRÉ ROCK

[@sanjidaafrin7023]

True!

[@garrett9562]

I'm telling you they the most underrated band there is. Like you said every song a hit

[@ace_of_spades408]

"If you've been through hell and survived... you're a miracle worth celebrating." You have no idea just HOW powerful that is. 🥺🥺💖

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks! 🖤

[@VickiDavidson1962]

@@CitizenSoldier WOW you just changed my whole outlook on the hell I have been thru and I HAVE SURVIVED. Thank You 4 reminding me I can and will survive and nothing can hold me back. I LOVE UR MUSIC. I go straight 2 you and lay awake and just enjoy your music and I am able 2 fall alseep.

[@blackstallions]

I've been through hell and back

[@JumpyBoss]

@@blackstallions letting your grandma pinch your cheeks and saying you survived hell and back does not count 🤣

[@lindathetford3776]

OHH MY GOSH YOU GUYS THIS SONG WAS FLIPPING AMAZING LIKE IM LOSING MY BRAIN HERE ❤️🔥❤️💘💕 THIS IS HANDS DOWN MY FAVORITE SONG OF YOURS NOW I've always been a huge fan of your music I wish you guys would come to rock the desert and perform this one It would be AMAZING

[@rebeccamichael626]

"Pain's a gift, it ain't a curse." Me - If we didn't have pain, we wouldn't know what anything good was like.

[@themakebelieverproductions6342]

Too true.

[@shahidhannan5610]

I've lost wars inside my head This line hurts .....

[@oni_leonidas]

I feel you buddy. But please remember the line right after that: "But Hallelujah I'm not dead" Be very grateful you are breathing, cause that is proof you can change for the better, and proof others your worth. I have lost my own battles inside my head as well, but we all have to keep getting up... Don't we?

[@VickiDavidson1962]

Me 2 cause I was losing a war in my head tonight until I listened 2 this.

[@shahidhannan5610]

@@oni_leonidas We all go through hard times hope u are doing well too.Thanks for caring🤗

[@Voron_Aggrav]

I lost battles, but I Haven't lost the War yet, Hallelujah I'm not dead

[@CitizenSoldier]

We hear you 💜;

[@jacobp1277]

"Only the strong the survive". You're are strong, because you're still here. Never stop fighting, survivor.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Appreciate that Jacob 🖤

[@brucethwaits3133]

My brother committed suicide. I have a semicolon tattoo. This one hits hard. Thank you for this. This is my every day struggle. Good to feel less alone.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Sorry for your loss Bruce 💜; Let's keep fighting

[@lill_sweets3271]

Send you a Hug..❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... even when you can't see him he will never be gone... He lives in your memory and in your heart and when you look outside the window.. he shines as the brightest star to make you happy❤️

[@DanTragedy]

big hug from mexico bro

[@StarForgers]

What does the semicolon represent though? I've not heard of it. I just saw the semicolon in the video but still not sure about it.

[@unitedastro8355]

@@StarForgers In grammar, to make a sentence longer you use a semicolon, making it longer, like life (I think, also sorry I’m not a good explainer lmao)

[@ChaosJedi]

Okay this song hits me hard for a different reason. It’s the more literal of the lyrics, I have several heart defects and have nearly died due to them several times. Some doctors even told my parents that I wouldn’t make it but they never gave up on me. Now days I no longer suffer physically my health is much more improved but my mental health is another story. I’ve been struggling with depression for a few years now and a few months ago my mother passed away and so my suicidal thoughts have gotten a lot worse. I found this band in my recommendations one day while searching for songs to make a Star Wars edit to, and I think my mom did this because every single one of your songs is something I can relate to some way or another and the type of music is my favorite as well. Your music has been making this difficult time for me much easier to cope with so thank you for making these songs.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks for sharing that 🖤

[@Juan-yc6wf]

I have felt the same my brother, wish you could face all those hard times 🙏

[@macaroni7741]

Damn man that’s so tough :( I’m so sorry for your loss of what it sounds like, an amazing mother. Keep strong my friend, you have this no matter how hard it can get :)

[@Only_-_Yours]

Please don't hurt yourself, your mom would never want you to do that over your grief of losing her. I pray God will heal you physically and mentally and emotionally ❤️❤️❤️

[@the_sky_is_blue_and_so_am_I]

I hope that you will get better my friend stay strong love

[@Vinzlinz2222]

love the purple yellow color scheme, the song is also so very worth the wait

[@CitizenSoldier]

Appreciate that 🖤

[@DinoDays703]

Agreed! I hope to see some of that purple and yellow or purple and white on the merch store.

[@saharabdollahi4899]

How is it that Citizen Soldier never fails to put me at a loss for words??! Those lyrics, the music... how can it all be so perfectly flawless?!

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks Sahar 💜;

[@xandermcdonald1110]

@@CitizenSoldier the flaws are what make it's sole. and what makes it great.

[@fernandoberrios1409]

"Pain's a gift, it ain't a curse" It's a reminder that we're still alive, love that!

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks Fernando 🖤

[@jayemsea4742]

"Only the strong survive" Me: this is definitely how i would describe the world today! Love the song its so amazing!❤❤

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks Jessica 🖤

[@Ven0mWildcat]

"Remember what doesn't kill you is what builds your throne" that line is amazing

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks 💜;

[@OnlyHezza]

"Remember what doesn't kill you builds your throne." #HallelujahImNotDead is the anthem I have been waiting for. ❤

[@CitizenSoldier]

Boom. Thanks Heather 🖤

[@GLORIOUSCHONK]

This hit hard. I'm really struggling with about every single thing in life right now. I heard "hallelujah, I'm not dead" and absolutely broke. Yeah. I'm not dead. Hallelujah.

[@upsidedownsteph]

This is why I love their music It hits you hard but can be the support you need ❤❤❤

[@Truffle85]

Same here. I've been lucky, relatively, but the idea of having friends in real life or going places ever again seems super unrealistic.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Stay strong 🖤 Appreciate you friend

[@GLORIOUSCHONK]

@@Truffle85 That's so close to home for me, I cannot even explain it. Anything you need to vent about? I'm an open ear if you need it.

[@Truffle85]

@@GLORIOUSCHONK Thanks. It's just, I miss talking to people. I am in touch with my family, but they just never seem to listen and I always have to put on a front for them, and most of my friends aren't close enough for me to feel safe talking to them. And doing normal stuff has just gotten so hard.

[@Twilight52013]

I have severe OCD and chronic depression. Some days, getting out of bed is a win. This song screams hope.

[@elizabethtaylor7072]

So True you know if it's for ya!

[@GORYGIRL]

OH UGH, GOD! OCD-(ESPECIALLY THE SUBTYPES) IS A BITCH, (PARDON MY FRENCH), I HAVE IT TO. SO I GET YOU MY FRIEND. I CAN'T IMAGINE HAVING DEPRESSION ON TOP OF THAT, I'M LETERALY AFRAID OF DEPRESSION TBH. SO, I DON'T MEAN THIS TO BE RUDE/INSINSITIVE BUT TRY TO STAY STRONG THERE ARE BETTER DAYS AHEAD.

[@briannadrew6425]

"Remember this what doesn't kill you is what builds your throne." This particular line really stands out to me because of how well it is written. I've certainly not had an easy life, since I've had it bred into my brain that I wasn't good enough for anyone, especially since a couple of my exes left me for another girl. That kind of stuff kills you inside, and it makes you never want to believe that you could be something more than what they said. I don't feel like I am quite ready to celebrate my life, though. I've always felt like I was not meant for love or happiness, but meant to give it to others instead. I've never lived for myself, and still don't know how to do that. Plus, my emotions are much more intense than others, and not knowing how to deal with that pain makes me suicidal.

[@bellasecretsify]

Learning how to heal and love yourself is the greatest gift. I swear by it. Go fourth and never look back! 💜

[@CitizenSoldier]

Appreciate you Brianna 💜; Let's keep fighting

[@briannadrew6425]

@@CitizenSoldier Thank you! I've only just found your music recently, but I've been listening everyday since, and it has really helped me. I appreciate you too! :)

[@veteranjaguar8317]

Rock on friend. I've had similar experiences. My last ex left me for another guy after 3 years. It really does hurt. Keep going, and look for the light at the end of the tunnel. You got this!

[@briannadrew6425]

@@veteranjaguar8317 Geez, sounds like what happened to me. My first ex left me after 2 years cause I was "fat and didn't wear makeup" and then his friends persuaded him to give me another chance, after which he cheated on me after a year with this other girl he knew only a month. He picked her instead. Thank you for your kind words though. :)

[@Serenity_93]

Citizen soldier: uploads a new song Me: DROPS EVERYTHING and races to the video!! 🤘 absolutely killer song! You guys always have the best songs 🎵

[@CitizenSoldier]

Hi Heather! You're always there for us 🖤 Thank you

[@VickiDavidson1962]

Same here. OMG I went 2 youtube and CS was my alert and out of all the ones and alot I been waiting 4 to put out something new I can't stop playing this 1 the others can wait till another day.

[@hermitsunite953]

Yeah, I pretty much just left Latin class to watch this.

[@NygmaNL]

@Heather Oquist yoo sorry i looked at your profile and came across No Name Faces - One Way Ticket. What an awesome band and song, thank you!

[@Serenity_93]

@@NygmaNL your welcome, I'm glad I could help you find a new band!

[@crawfishie]

The lines "No, it don't make you damaged / It makes you living proof / That you are so much more / Than all this hell you've known" hit so deep I almost cried. My trauma and cptsd affect my every day life even when I don't have to interact with my abuser, and the feelings I have of being damaged or broken are dang near Constant. To hear this affirmation took a weight off of me today. Thank y'all for your amazing music

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks 💜!

[@mikjallarnzs392]

I love how every single fkng song is accurate as fuck.

[@CitizenSoldier]

We try 💜;

[@NickyYoung308]

"I've lost wars inside my head" that hits hard, this song is definitely going to be on repeat for awhile.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Appreciate you Nicole 🖤

[@nootsgamin]

this song really describes my life. I’ve been through so much. problem is that I’ve almost given up. but this…This song helps a lot. I’ve had it on my playlist for years and i have to put it on when im down and I just hear a voice in my head saying “hey fucker. Wake the hell up. Don’t give up.” Thanks for making this Citizen Soilders

[@grahamnash9794]

A fantastic celebration of life in the face of a world that preaches doom and gloom. All glory and gratitude to the King of kings.

[@CitizenSoldier]

🖤

Hey citizen soldier, I truly appreciate the song. The line "Pain is the living proof that you are more than the hell you've known" hit me so hard. I over think everything and feel very bad about myself. All these intrusive thoughts completely beat me down everyday and hearing the line " I've lost wars in my mind" Made me realise im not the only one. Life is surely pain for me but some how listening to songs like this help me out a lot. I just hope you realise how much of a impact you make on people's lives. Again, from the bottom of my heart thank you so much for this song. Much love from 🇮India ❤

[@CitizenSoldier]

Tons of love to India my friend. I hope you have an incredible day. You’re not alone. Keep fighting cause you’re worth it 🖤

@@CitizenSoldier thank you so much ❤😊

[@PurpleFlames87]

I have those kinds of thoughts too so you’re definitely not alone

[@Salty_Goose]

I added this to my playlist before it even ended. I think we have all lost wars in our heads at least once, but guess what guys... You're reading this... You're alive... Hallelujah to all of you strong people :)

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks for sharing that Sarah 💜;

[@beckyfrost5950]

0:56 I just love that the medal has a ";" in it. That's meaningful

[@CitizenSoldier]

This is definitely a concept record and that’s the most important part of it 🖤🤘🏻

[@enokifromenokiland]

WHEN I SAY I NEVER CLICKED SO FAST IN MY LIFE edit: I LOVE THE SONG SO MUCH I JUST REPLAYED IT TWICE

[@MrSandman610]

same

[@laclaregross3781]

Same

[@DinoDays703]

True

[@FaeTomioka]

Facts!!

[@upsidedownsteph]

Seriously.. I let out a "hell yeah"...Loudly

[@Analysebutonadifferentaccount]

Found this song at 3 am and now I'm addicted. This somg is so relatable on so many levels! "Been through hell and back" ? Jeez, hitting me right in the feels. I swear, Citizen Soldier makes the most relatable songs known to mankind.

[@Karoshi123]

Another amazing song from an amazing band as always. Your messages from these songs has amazing meanings.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks Katsu 🖤

[@zloss3927]

Pls don't mind me I'm just gonna put this lyrics here. Flatline, a breath away I was born with one foot in the grave Been to hell and back Dealt a real bad hand, but I live with that I've learned to face my darkness Now I embrace my doubt Don't go and plan my funeral Don't go and count me out (Don't go and count me out) Living on a razor's edge Danced with demons, tasted death I've lost wars inside my head But hallelujah, I'm not dead Won't be waiting on my hearse Pain's a gift, it ain't a curse My heart still beats, my blood's still red Hallelujah, I'm not dead Hallelujah, I'm not dead Hallelujah Hallelujah Wake up, another fight Am I the victim or the homicide? What's in my head left scars behind Every step is an uphill climb I've learned to live in shadows Even without the light I've learned to love the battles Only the strong survive (Only the strong survive) Living on a razor's edge Danced with demons, tasted death I've lost wars inside my head But hallelujah, I'm not dead Won't be waiting on my hearse Pain's a gift, it ain't a curse My heart still beats, my blood's still red Hallelujah, I'm not dead Hallelujah, I'm not dead So if you're black and blue And feeling so abused No, it don't make you damaged It makes you living proof That you are so much more Than all this hell you've known Remember this What doesn't kill you is what builds your throne Living on a razor's edge Danced with demons, tasted death I've lost wars inside my head But hallelujah, I'm not dead Won't be waiting on my hearse Pain's a gift, it ain't a curse My heart still beats, my blood's still red Hallelujah, I'm not dead Living on a razor's edge Danced with demons, tasted death I've lost wars inside my head But hallelujah, I'm not dead Won't be waiting on my hearse Pain's a gift, it ain't a curse My heart still beats, my blood's still red Hallelujah, I'm not dead Hallelujah, I'm not dead

[@sicout9010]

Thanks you for lyrics!

[@nesluca]

Thx for wrote the lyrics of this incredible song

[@ticklepoplemur1510]

Thanks

[@januaralvianto1800]

When my friend asked "Hallelujah? Isn't that another religion? " And I said "Please you don't understand anything about this song, listen well and understand then talk after "

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thank for listening 💜;

[@justanobody8010]

what religion?

[@Resters52_official]

@@justanobody8010 Hallelujah is commonly used a phrase of rejoicing in Christianity, but even with this understanding this comment is confusing as hell

[@justanobody8010]

@@Resters52_official i feel like i knew that

[@Resters52_official]

@@justanobody8010 everybody forgets shit sometimes

[@nlrknight4497]

The game may be rigged, but we play the cards that are given. An when they think we are gonna fold, we play the aces to fight another day.

[@CitizenSoldier]

💜;

[@halfgecko3202]

In the game of life humanity plays by its own rules, and even then we'll still cheat

[@izzaireredacted3018]

Agreed.

[@kalibur_Jace]

Is it bad, that this comment made me think of the Fallout: New Vegas opening.

[@nlrknight4497]

@@kalibur_Jace lol that's okay, I expected nothing else

[@TrayXCooper]

This song SLAPS! Not many songs are so good and catchy that I'm singing along halfway into my first listen and that's what I'm doing on my first listen. I'm already singing it like I've heard it a million times already This track is fire!!! Most songs I need to listen to a few times to decide if I love it or like it. But this song has me completely hooked on my first fucking listen. I see this song being one of your biggest hits

[@CitizenSoldier]

Appreciate the support 💜;

[@TrayXCooper]

@@CitizenSoldier no problem. Keep up the killer music! I love it!

[@catkin8330]

FACTS

[@catkin8330]

SAME

[@josephlucas5792]

Around the time this song came out I was in a pretty bad mental state I honestly probably wouldn't of still been here without this, thank you

[@OneworldOnelove36]

You guys really have a way to make people excited for new music. Absolutely love this new song.

[@dredragon2707]

Can't get enough of them

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks 💜;

[@FirestoneAnimation]

I feel like throwing hands with God and Satan for putting me through hell now.

[@flamboyant_uzui]

"Remember this what doesn't kill you is what builds your throne" Instant goosebumps❤❤

[@Dami_Error404]

This is the music i needed, I've lost my dad, and my uncle was found dead on my birthday, i almost lost my mom, she's currently in hospital, and we live far from a hospital, and my mom needs to be near one, so i had to leave home, and stay with my sister in another city, my brother had to leave to California for school, and i can barely get a hold of my best friend. It's been so chaotic, i also have to leave the people i know, and get used to a completely different school, with completely different celebrations. And i won't get to continue learning my culture. (I'm Native American) And I'm not in a school, and i have to watch all tree of my nephews and my niece. I've lost so much recently and even my own free time, you guys make the best music i know. this helps more than you understand! Thank you!

[@CitizenSoldier]

So sorry for your loss 💜; Sending hugs your way

[@SCP-qe2ob]

Sorry for your loss lad but we are in this together

[@wayneearl6689]

Citizen Soldier has done it again!!!! Another amazing song. In today's world its amazing to find a band who constantly finds a way to reach its fans with masterful lyrics and they do it every single time!!! Much love guys

[@CitizenSoldier]

Appreciate this words Wayne 💜;

[@user-mw6jo7ql1c]

These songs are so empowering. He has a way of speaking for those suffering from depression, anxiety, ptsd, and other similar disorders.

[@noragiovanni5576]

Me: *sees a new Citizen Soldier song out. CLICKS AT THE SPEED OF LIGHT!* Less than five seconds in and I was HOOKED! OMG this was TOTALLY WORTH THE WAIT!

[@CitizenSoldier]

Haha appreciate that Astrid 🖤

[@bellerain381]

Citizen Soldier, thank you for saving my brother. He has been fighting depression for years. There have been times I thought I would find him dead in his room, but he discovered your song and this one is his new favorite! He's getting better and I've actually seen him smile more! He has a ways to go, but you have helped him in such a huge way! I cannot thank you enough for letting my baby brother know he's not alone! Thank you, thank you, thank you!!! :')

[@FirestoneAnimation]

"What doesnt kill you is what builds your throne" love that. If it doesnt kill you, then you were already strong to take it.

[@anontheweeb87]

Who the hell gave those dislikes?

[@hermitsunite953]

The dead.

[@CitizenSoldier]

That's alright 💜; Thanks for your support

[@anontheweeb87]

Well, this one didn't Age quite so well.

[@Creative_Kylee]

@@anontheweeb87 ikr lol

[@nex3858]

I think they were dancing too hilariously and they pressed the button by accident

[@zackcou172]

"I've lost wars inside my head" Such a powerful line cause it truly is a mental battle to continue on. There may be no physical scars for some, but there are always mental ones.

[@pgwldhai]

Never before have i had a song resonate so deeply with me, thank you, citizen soldier!

[@samanthastuessel7986]

Makes me think of my sister in law. She only has a few month to live. Not sure if I should send this to her or not. She has spent almost a year in the hospital. Has died and been revived 6 times. Had been through hell and back, then back to hell a few times over. They don't even know what's wrong with her. Just that her body is shutting down. This started in april of last year with a stomach ache. And now she's going to die. What do we tell her 6 y/o daughter?

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks Samantha 🖤

[@kotrum6309]

In my opinion try to make her feel love in her last hours and show her this song to give her a bit of joy that she survived this long, but with her daughter i really dont know, thats a hard question, u could tell her a brief info on whats happening even tho shes really young and tell her to stay by her moms side till the end and give her time to say things to her mom, she will probably say "i love u and im gonna miss u" etc, after her mother passes away tell her to fight and overcome every obstacle(s) in her way show momma that shes just as strong as her, but if u dont tell her this, tell her at least something like this “Momma will always be with her strong little girl, momma is never to far away, she'll always be listening to her baby even tho shes fully grown" if its possible buy something for your sister in law to give to her daughter a bear, plushy etc so that her daughter can in a way hug her mother after she gone Hopefully this never happens and ur sister in law gets better and recovers from this, good luck

[@samanthastuessel7986]

@@kotrum6309 thank you. I just don't know if the song will make her feel better or not. The wee one knows most of what's going on. It's heart breaking that she is so used to her mom being in the hospital. Almost a year now. She was home a total for about 6 weeks on and off. The first time she was here for 3 weeks. Then a week. Then a couple days. Then this last time was about 36 hrs home then she had to go back to the hospital. I hope she gets better too but the doctors have given her only a few months. But shit man, she just keeps beating the odds. She is so strong lol. I'm bewildered by everything. I really am. She has quite a few things her mom has bought her to remember her by. It was so cute. My older niece from my brothers first wife, the wee one and her, V (my sister in law), she got the 3 of them a necklace set. It's a heart and on one side it say big sis, then mom in the middle then little sis on the other side and you put them together and they make a heart.

[@kotrum6309]

@@samanthastuessel7986 i dont know ur sister in law so i just thought since u were thinking about showing this to her it would give her a boost to her mentally or something but im glad to hear that the little one has multiple things so she can remember her mum, ur sister in law is strong if she has beaten the odds this far, who know she could prove the docs wrong and survive, and i know for sure the little one is going to cherish the necklace forever, wish u the best of luck to you, ur sister in law, the wee one and the rest of ur family

[@samanthastuessel7986]

@@kotrum6309 thanks

[@FaeTomioka]

I LOVE THIS SO MUCH !!!! HALLELUJAH WE ARE NOT DEAD MY FRIENDS!!!! WE ARE STRONG!!! GO US!!!! 💜💜💜

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks 🖤

[@akirarose3947]

What doesn't kill you is what builds your throne..... This line is the single biggest most badass fuck you got mine line ever! I love it

[@savageme7330]

Jesus be like: Hmm. These humans are really working hard making new types of prayers....

[@CitizenSoldier]

Ha! 💜;

[@ericthompson6621]

Yeah I like this one it's how I feel and we'll Jesus does save the sick so

[@samaeldeul572]

Right😂😂

[@j.dcarver9713]

Amen

[@kalibuskristof2174]

Yea, way better than they used to be hmm?

[@Cam1an]

Got goosebumps listening to this. Love the song and I just love all your music.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Glad to hear that 🖤

[@AlecWheelweld]

Listened to this at work, and have to say, my manager recognized you guys! Your music hits hard enough to have people of all ages listening to you, and enjoying it. Your music is wonderful, and means so much!

[@CitizenSoldier]

Happy to hear that 💜; Thanks for your support

[@emmam7427]

I always get goosebumps. I can't even start with how incredible Citizen Soldier's song are.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks friend. That means a lot 🖤🤘🏻

[@CanaAkuma]

I swear Citizien Soldier just isnt able to ever make a bad song. This is amazing. And damn, I can vibe with the message for sure.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks 💜;

[@samirnassif4737]

What doesn’t kill you builds your throne. Lyrics!

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks Samir 💜;

[@Nightwave-if1hy]

Hallelujah! I'm not dead! Thank you, CItizen Soldier, for releasing these bangers during these dark times. I think I speak for a lot of people when I say this music helps me keep persevering. Blessings to you all!

[@CitizenSoldier]

Of course Nightwave 🖤 have an incredible day

[@Germansniper0190]

"This what doesn't kill you is what builds your throne" one of the most inspirational things I've vere heard. Thank you citizen soldier

[@lunablight6647]

I've dealt with depression for around 14 years now. Every song of yours that I've listened to speaks to me with different things. Thank you so so much with what you do for people like me. You're truly a blessing.

[@Lord0Raven]

This is easily one of the best songs I've ever heard in my life. Every single line is so true, so powerful and... Damn it, this song can't be described with words. You guys are amazing!

[@CitizenSoldier]

That means so much Jona. Thank you. I appreciate you 🖤🤘🏻

[@commandervor6038]

love the song, the text is just to true and relatable, people dont like to see it but these problems exist and its soo good to see someone not shying away from the topics but embracing it

[@CitizenSoldier]

Appreciate that 🖤

[@missqueenbee98]

I think that's what's going to make them popular and it's certainly why they're one of my two favorite bands along side disturbed

[@commandervor6038]

@@missqueenbee98 yeah their good and dont shy away from these things, their music also helped me get thru some dark times

[@newlohaku8644]

I'm Lohan, from Brazil and I hope you grow up soon, because you deserve so much! They only make a work of art, you rock too much!

[@CitizenSoldier]

Muito obrigado Lohan! 💜;

[@newlohaku8644]

@@CitizenSoldier Tamo junto! 🔴⚫🔴⚫🔴

[@careless4u764]

I use your guys music when ever I'm having a bad day and also for mma

[@CitizenSoldier]

Glad to hear that 🖤

[@GrayIsNotHere]

This is by far the best birthday present anyone has ever given me. A great song as always, I love it!

[@CitizenSoldier]

Happy birthday 🖤🤘🏻

[@Ludi_Chris]

This songs make think of someone who has gone though tough time, dealt with depression and suicidal thoughts. But came though to the other side stronger.

[@benswinden1577]

I love how real these lyrics are. Fantastic music every time

[@CitizenSoldier]

We try Ben 🖤 Thanks for the support

[@solarixstar]

“No it don’t make you damaged; it makes you living proof” ...I might need a minute or two A banger that speaks, just what I expect from Citizen Soldier~

[@CitizenSoldier]

So happy you felt it. Much love to you 🖤💪🏻

[@Veltani]

In a few hours, it will be two years since you gave us this song. I have a story that isn't really mine to tell. You see, the day this song came out, I listened to it quite a few times, then a messaged my friend, and asked her if it was OK if she heard your song, then pass it onto her son. He was 18, and was born with practically half a heart, and his life was in most ways like the words in your song. Until recently I never really comprehended what your song was for her son, he quoted it, he listened to it, sung to it, and used it as one of his songs as his casket left his memorial, just over a month later. I still have this song in my play list, but I do not attribute this song for any negative, but as the greatest positive for one person in their final days. Thank you very much for this song.

[@spikemonon2316]

Citizen soldier always motivated us. When I'm depressed I listen their Let It Burn song and feelings relax. Thank you so much Citizen Soldier ❤️ We want 23 more great songs from you guys

[@CitizenSoldier]

More music on the way! 🖤

[@fyrefae744]

I wanna say thank you for making this song. Recently I moved out from my family’s house - it was a situation that I didn’t even know how bad it was or how bad it kept getting until I had the space and genuinely good people around me to finally feel like I could breathe again. Every day I learn more about how messed up my whole life’s been, but now I have a good job and rent a good house all far younger than I ever imagined I’d be. I never thought I’d make it past 16 - I didn’t think I could bear to live that long - but it’s been more than a few years since then and I’m still alive. In fact I love my life; something I never really thought was possible before, and it’s songs like these that helped me get through it when I was too scared and needed the support I couldn’t get from anyone else. Don’t ever forget you’ve changed lives ;

[@cosmicawkward4868]

After "Would Anyone Care" I thought i'd never hear another song from you that made me think "Wow they just keep getting better" but damn you proved me wrong this is an absolutely incredible song on par with that keep up the great music guys much appreciation to your work bringing awareness to mental health stigma

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks for the kind words 💜;

[@Venompool-wt4gx]

i agree

[@Kaydinp2008]

Agreed

[@amals4316]

My best friend Foster showed this to me and told me to read the description. I could not be more grateful for this. What happened to me didn't kill me, it just made me stronger and this song gives that message. Most teens my age don't really appreciate music like this. Mostly, they like rap and music like that. And each to their own but this, music like this keeps me going.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Appreciate that 💜;

[@sahirdaghet1647]

"Pain's a gift, it ain't a curse" that's a hard thing to realize but once you do it's a freeing thing.

[@CitizenSoldier]

So true. Thanks Sahir 🖤🤘🏻

[@brabrd7]

Absolutly love your music just helped me more than i can even explain been in a place that i never knew i could be in and u just saved me thank you

[@joshuajohnson4341]

Besides the music - whoever puts the music videos together gets props too. I feel that they add so much to the songs. Thank you for another great release!!!

[@furytheshadow9044]

„If you've been through hell and survived, you are a miracle worth celebrating.” You have no idea how much it means to me

[@CitizenSoldier]

Much love to you 🖤

[@makenziestreet8373]

I discovered this amazing song when my best friend showed me the ringtone he had for whenever I called. When I listened to the whole song, I noticed how much I could really relate to the lyrics. Almost 9 years ago, on December 26th, I attempted to OD on a muscle relaxer. I ended up unconscious, unresponsive, and unable to breathe on my own. I was rushed to a hospital and had to be on a ventilator for a week. Every time they tried to take me off or decrease the amount of breaths it was giving me, I stopped breathing completely. If I hadn't told my mom that I even took the pills, I would not be here. Your songs are amazing and I can relate to a lot of them. You are the first band to ever accomplish that for me. I'm so thankful that I found your music, especially when I needed it the most. Please don't ever stop writing your songs and blessing us with your amazing talents ❤️

[@Ethereal.Comatose]

This song is absolutely amazing, its crazy how fast citizen soldier can pump out amazing songs

[@CitizenSoldier]

Appreciate you friend. Thank you 🖤🤘🏻

[@katebridges7513]

Those wars inside my head get me nearly every time. I've slowly gotten better. Thank you for bringing these issues to the forefront. It's not just a private battle, we have to work together to beat this if we want to be here to help our kids.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Very well said Kat. Appreciate you 🖤

[@Dragonphil223]

Another brilliant song by you like sat here in college banging on the table and banging my head away to the tune your songs really stand out to me keep making these brilliant songs

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks 💜;

[@Flori236]

Perfect timing, just before I have to get on my way to school Edit: and its so frickin amazing, I totally love it

[@hermitsunite953]

Same. This came right before my English class. I don't dislike English, I just hate the teacher.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks for listening 💜;

[@rileynorth8472]

These lyrics are the new perspective I desperately needed. Once again, this is a work of art, a masterpiece. I regret being this late because this just turned me from the slump of darkness back onto the right path

[@CitizenSoldier]

Glad to hear that Riley 💜;

[@sharrkan9177]

This song, and the others of yours I've listened to so far, have brought me to tears. Going through a lot right now, and they made me feel heard for the first time in a while. Keep up the good work, man, and I hope you're taking care of yourself too.

[@UnashamedFollowerofChrist]

THE SEMICOLON! IT MEANS THE PHRASE ISN'T OVER! I LOVE THAT!

[@CitizenSoldier]

You got it! 💜;

[@witchybuisness8503]

It's official, I'm getting "What doesn't kill you builds your throne" tattooed on my forehead.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks for the support 💜;

[@tlm4392]

After failing some of the exams of my last semester, falling into a depression and not leaving my room for three weeks... This is a good song to get my life back toghether. Thanks man, you are a real life saver.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks 💜!

[@Glacial_Wintrr]

Your songs never fail to disappoint they're always so good!!

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks so much 🖤

[@theforgottenwinterrose7323]

This song touched my soul! Dealing with depression is the hardest challenge for me. Suicidal thoughts and thoughts of people being happier without me have crossed my mind almost on the daily, yet I still fight to survive. I’m so glad I found this song! Rock on 🤟

[@kevinkaswer889]

"What doesn't kill you builds your throne". WOW, that just blew my mind. We all go through hard times. Take pride in your accomplishments (even if it just feels like survival). It's what builds you & makes you a better person.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks for those words Kevin 💜;

[@azzuro_greenleaf]

Hey Citizen Soldier, In case you read this; Thank you. I just recently found this masterpiece, and it landed straight in my mood playlist. I can (unfortunately) relate to the lyrics, and it was only now that I saw the semicolon in the end. I honestly just feel like crying right now. The fact that someone out there cares about us so much, that they make a song about it, is unbelievable. I am usually not the type of person that makes very personal comments, but i just need to tell you how much this means to me/us. Thank you so much for sharing the music. It makes me feel grateful for not being dead, and as weird as this sounds, i'm very sure that the author of these lyrics knows exactly what I mean. I thought that the scars I have had healed, until recently, a friend of mine took his life. We weren't best friends or something, but I knew him, and it showed me, what could have happened to me back then. Thank you for showing me that I survived some rough times, and thank you for showing me, that it was worth it. Thank you for giving me hope. Hallelujah, we're not dead.

[@azzuro_greenleaf]

Also, Citizen Soldier, I think everyone just keeps telling you how much you helped them and how much they gone through etc etc. I just wanted to add, that you shall keep fighting too, just in case you are right now. You mean a lot to a ton of people, and we are so unbelievably proud of you - I'm saying this 'cause I don't think that anyone could write these lyrics without having personal experience. Please be proud of yourself, you're making the world a better place.

[@unknown-unseen4824]

Yea, U are right, writing such deep and meaningful lyrics one should have get some or lot of experience 3(I don't know much) although I am not as experienced as U all are but I think I can feel a bit of your pain cause I don't think I am inexperienced, so the strong bear it and keep growing stronger , getting ready for anything that can come in way but for the weak or weakened person give up by killing themselves.

[@artemismoon7129]

I need to remind me of this every day. I'm not dead. I am alive. I am strong enough. Thank you guys again! 🖤🖤🖤

[@CitizenSoldier]

Glad to hear that 💜;

[@TheirishHornet03]

I always listen to this song when I go for a drive. Just the feeling of freedom and listening to this song is an amazing combination. Absolutely love it.

[@hardcoreheaven4153]

It’s been months, actually, no, it’s soon going to be nearly a year since I recovered from unwanted suicidal thoughts. During that time, I felt so low, and even came close to thinking of trying to harm myself several times. But now, I’m MUCH better. Though I’m not supposed to see it like this, it certainly felt like I went to living hell and back. To those who are still struggling with their mental health, don’t give up. You can get out of that dark place. It’s not going to happen instantly, but it *will* happen. And don’t try to do it alone. Be brave, and get help from others. If they’re not willing, find others who are. To those who have gotten past major hurdles involving their mental health, congrats! I’m glad that you did whatever it was that you did to get out of that low place you were in. The scars, whether emotional, mental, or physical still remain, but... you should think of them as proof that you survived whatever happened to you now. And of course, this may not be the end of your struggles, but whatever comes next, stand strong in the face of it.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Much love to you friend. Thanks for this 🖤

[@DanTheBuska]

Hey man, this helps thank you. I hope you're having a great day ROCK ON!!