Fear of being a Bad daughter - CloudyApples

[@CloudyApples]

Thought I'd do some clarifying here since some people seem to think that my parents are "too hard" on me. My parents are the most selfless, hardworking and intelligent people I've ever met. They gave me everything, and I have the utmost appreciation for what they have done, so I tend to hold myself to a high standard. I've made some mistakes in the past, mistakes that my Mom warned me about before they materialized, and despite the fact that I will keep living my life how I best see fit, it means a lot for me to have my Mom's blessing. She has unconditional love for me, but I also work very hard to make her proud, and I'll never forget what she did for me. I am glad that they held me to a high standard, and that I know what discipline and respect are as a consequence of it. Much love to you all!

[@TheGagad]

+CloudyApples Our mums are both the same. I can totally relate. Seriously. Maybe that's how Malay mums are. But we both know they only want the best for us.

[@TheHellodazzle]

+CloudyApples No need to explain... We all want our parents to be proud of us! Nothing wrong with that :)

[@hubridnox]

+CloudyApples I love your mom. I think I would also feel amazing with her blessing, lol. I'm sure you've given her lots to be proud of. :)

[@deborahcadwell-boehm498]

I didn't know your mom was so nice

[@mythicjoker2707]

CloudyApples what do U work now in 2018

[@CloudyApples]

Was your mom more of a friend or an authority figure to you? Let me know in the comments!

[@bethanhnho]

Until I moved out more an authority. Now it's more a friend I respect a lot!

[@CloudyApples]

+bethanhnho Same here!! She was an authority figure who taught me respect, but now that I'm getting older, she's more of a friend

[@rawscientistofficial]

+CloudyApples Till I moved out she totally was. Now she's more of a friend. :)

[@LilySuu]

she's definitely a combination of both,that's what I admire the most about my mom ^_^

[@alexiaarellano1046]

Mom: friend figure. Dad: a mixture of both, and there's nothing quite like a visit from him...makes me doubt all my life choices, from my outfit to what's in my fridge! 😂😂😂

[@ndayani]

- mom, what's this? - *insert lengthy instruction for preparing mystery thing* - so it's dried fish? - yes. loooool

[@LaraElena76]

How could your parents not be proud of you and not think they raised you right?! You are amazing!

[@saviyabouh313]

agree!!! she's an amazing lady.

[@AudreyVictoria]

This was a really interesting look into the life of a young adult living on their own!

[@nataliesoutlet]

Terry your outros are the best! lol Love these more personal videos :)

[@CloudyApples]

+Natalies Outlet Thanks Natalie!

[@Lolmonster777]

While I was watching this I realized how goals Kassie is. She is so beautiful and so smart and so caring. And she just seems like the best person ever.

[@Mrs.AlbaRamos]

Oh ma gosh! This was beyond cute! FYI your mom kinda sounds like my mom except my mom speaks less English

[@tessiecchen]

SunKissAlba, same!

[@ladanj5161]

Your mum is so adorable! Unfortunately me and my mum haven't had the best of relationships, I haven't been able to see her as a friend in a long time. But I'm going to take the mistakes that we've both done to each to learn and grow and become a better person and mum in the future. We just lacked understanding and I think it's because we've grown up ina different time and culture. I hope you and your mum have some great mother-daughter time xx

[@MollySkupine]

ahh!! I love watching people clean their houses. It's so satisfying!!!!

[@funnybribri1234]

I personally, probably as well as most(if not all!) of your subscribers, think you are one of the most inspirational and intelligent KZbinrs to exist. You bring something completely different to your videos than most do, you are extremely well spoken and freely speak your mind while still leaving it open to other opinions. You never cease to amaze me and bring laughter to my day! I seriously love you so much!!

[@ilariaedera1386]

I can TOTALLY relate to you dear. My mum is definitely an authority, although I know she's always there for me, and she loves me, I am a little intimidated by her, yes, I have to admit it. And sometimes I think that this made me the person I am, which now I am very proud of, but some other times I wish her opinion wasn't that "important" to me….I find myself panicking often when she comes visit me, and at the beginning of my relationship with my bf I "suggested" him what to say or not, he always said "it's ok, let me do my things" and at the end they get along very well. I started to get a bit emotional when you said that you wish to be worth their time spent on you, that's what I think about my parents too.

[@iBarbies]

Ugh, I love your videos. I think what I like most about your videos is that you're this beauty guru who isn't afraid to be expressive with your language. So many of these gurus play this 'picture-perfect conservative' type of characters, which isn't really relatable. Not to mention - you're fucking gorgeous. Thanks for taking the time to make this video! I look forward to your next upload. :)

[@TammyDeLaRosaUtube]

awe.. you and Terry are such a delightful, fun, happy and so entertaining. I'm sure your mom is going to enjoy her time with you two. How could she not?? Enjoy your oh so quality time with your mama..

[@hirashahbaz6107]

You're an inspiration to me tbh, every time I watch a video of yours I feel more motivated to be a better person and educate myself more. and that is the reason why you are wayyyy different than all the other KZbinrs out there! love you ❤

[@CloudyApples]

+Hira Shahbaz Awww :'), that felt really good to read haha

[@chapster246]

I'm sorry that you worry whether or not your parent's felt you were worth their time. That's not a good feeling :/ I can tell you that you absolutely are/were more than worth their time and whether or not they are very good at communicating that to you, you are worthy... a sweet, thoughtful, hard working, intelligent, beautiful and talented woman and I'm positive your family is proud of you. Thanks for being you and for being transparent. I'm a newer subscriber but have watched almost all your videos now and always enjoy your new content. Lots of love being sent your way from Wisconsin! I'm glad you guys had a good time with your mom! You and your mom do seem like you have a real sweet relationship. :) And loved all her little gifts for you. P.s. you and your mister seriously make me laugh - I love you two together. :)

[@CloudyApples]

+Anna McPherson I was so mystified and flattered by your comment that I read it to Terry, haha! Thank you so much for your kind words, I can't believe someone out there would feel compelled to say something to nice to me. Today is a happy day! Much love to you, and stay awesome

[@chapster246]

+CloudyApples Aww, I mean every word of it :) Happy day!!

[@nam799]

I dont know why but this comment made me tear up lol! Totally agree with you! Love you kas

[@alyssachan865]

I love your video stores so much they are very different from others and teach me so much. I especially like these vlog type videos that are based around one subject. Keep making more videos we love them. I hope eveything went well have a nice day

[@CloudyApples]

+alysbubble It did! Thank you and much love to you

[@nadiacpu2]

Top five parts of this video: 1. Terry's voiceover ending 2. Hearing your thoughts and fears about being a good daughter, I've always felt the same way and even if my Mum says that she is proud of me I always feel like there is more that I should be doing 3. Seeing that recipe book (I'm not vegan but I think the ideas in are brilliant and I like the authors just put it out there writing style. 4. seeing how much your Mum loves you (and her care package of food is adorable, saffron, seaweed jam, himalayan salt, tamarind ( I think), dried fish oh man that care package was amazing). 5. and Terrry's obvious care in how your parents view him (such a good guy). Love you Cassie, xo

[@CloudyApples]

+Animalia That's so cute :), thank you for such a thorough comment! It really helps to see stuff like this! Much love to you!

[@lovettdeleted]

"I don't want my mom to smell my nightmares" lmao bye

[@saladwithasideof]

This was such a wholesome and genuine video, love it!

[@jessieee_p]

I made the mistake of watching this video in the library.... I burst out laughing when Terry said "IT'S TRIGGERING ME" hahahaha

[@theMessyPalette]

i'm a muslim , so seeing your muslim mom , and how she is open minded about you , and your life choices and loving you no matter what , really impressed me , that what islam all about , love and peace

[@jordynfisher9329]

This is a very inspiring video! I love you very much and you always make my day 1,000 times better when I watch your videos! 😘

[@CloudyApples]

+BoardingSchoolBanter Thank you love!! I hope the rest of your week is super awesome!

[@onegooddeed3284]

I just love love love the creativity and humour in your videos so much that I felt the need to express that. You have so many wonderful things to say and I feel like (parts of) both your and Terry's personality shine through so well in your videos. I cannot imagine your mom not being proud of you and the things you stand for!

[@Gaganoek]

These videos are amazing, it's such a great way to get to know you better! How can a mother not be proud of a girl like you, you are so inspirational, funny and just the best! Hope you had an amazing time with your mom.

[@yourimaginarygal6670]

apa khabar auntie? anak auntie seorang yang baik dan talented as well . dia banyak tolong kami dan beliau adalah idola kami . we are so thankful to meet her here on youtube . the blesses goes to you too auntie . semoga panjang umur dab murah rezekii

[@msmissjulia123]

This is the only channel on KZbin that makes me happy! It feels like home watching your videos specially when I'm in a bad mood! Lots of love

[@ICONnetwork]

Always love to see what you're eating lol! So happy your mom's visit went well.

[@Keepingthehome345]

I love your vlogs! It's nice to see people being real and showing their messy days like we all have! I wouldn't worry about your mom being proud of you, you are a kind and thoughtful person and that is enough and worth it in and of itself :)

[@gayesha]

I've been stressed out and busy with uni for the past couple of weeks and haven't been able to catch up on your videos (i have an exam tomorrow as well and i'm procrastinating and contemplating what im doing with my life lol ) but i want to say just how much your videos are a stress reliever and how much they truly make me happy. I feel you're someone that is really trying to make a difference, even if it's just by making a small joke in hope that it will make someone smile for a second and forget their problems in that moment. You inspire me to be a better person, or just better than who i was yesterday. Thanks Kassie! xoxo

[@diamorefamily]

Girl I know the struggle! After the first couple of times they visit, all I do is a quick wipe down or two. lol

[@cicischannel123-m1i]

Wow... I don't know anyone whose parents intimidate them or others so much. I've always grown up with such a warm family who I can always be myself around, so watching you clean up like crazy because your mother's visit causes so much anxiety is surprising. When I think of family, I tend to think the opposite of anxiety. So this is fascinating. For me, seeing my mom is such a relief because she loves me no matter what, and never judges me, whereas it seems like it is the opposite for you.

[@CloudyApples]

+Celia Rose My family was very warm as well, but we also hold each other to a very high standard, and I'm afraid of her saying that she doesn't approve of a major aspect of my life. Turns out, she is very supportive and believes in me, so it's all good

[@fikuyo4378]

I really respect the relationship you have with your parents Cassie. Living a lifestyle that differs from your parents can be difficult, especially when it comes to religious aspects. I hope to be able to be as open and free living like you in the future, with the blessing and understanding from my loved ones. Much love to you!

[@ozlem4923]

My mom is a friend/role model to me because she had me at a very young age. I'm glad everything turned out great for you guys

[@CloudyApples]

+Özlem Isci I'm glad things worked out great for you too!!

[@michelletrottier797]

Every one of your videos is so energizing. I don't know if you ruminate all week on the topic of your next video,but they all are such a breathe of fresh air. Thank you

[@saraf8594]

All of your videos move me and inspire me. I'm often smiling and sometimes shed a tear. Thank you.

[@CloudyApples]

+Sara F Aw, thank you for the beautiful comment

[@tubaforeva]

My mum's always been a friend, sometimes she's more immature than me. My dad's always been the authority figure and someone you always need to be careful with about what you say. I was so nervous for you and Terry throughout the whole thing. Your mum seems like an absolute sweetheart!

[@mackenzielovegood]

I love your videos. They make me genuinely laugh out loud. You & Terry are hilarious :)

[@dianachamomile]

Aww Cassie! I'm so sure your parents are proud of you even if you're not doing the conventional route! Both you and your brother seem to have good heads on your shoulders!

[@user-ho7sv2jv3g]

Dying from laughter at this entire video especially the ending. I love you two so much.

[@allthepolitix224]

Kassie, your videos are so honest. It's so refreshing to see

[@alial2669]

you are one of the few youtubers who have great content and very valuable advice, love you

[@NicoleKrohn]

probably the best vlog you've made, it's so real and it's fun watching people clean

[@Llamajhunk]

I would be proud if you were my daughter , you have good morals, you care about the environment, you treat your body like a temple, you picked a great guy to date and you are beyond intelligent and never fail to make me laugh. xo

[@MileySelenaJbDemiFan]

Your mom's personality screams grace and confidence! Beautiful lady inside and out Masha'Allah

[@CloudyApples]

+Mona Farhan She's the most selfless and kind person I've ever met! Much love to you, and thank you!!

[@empresskeloa]

I loved this so much! Please do more vlog videos. You and Terry have such a cool life

[@MichelleDiepbrink]

Your vlogs are my favourite to watch; they are so nicely edited and your vibe (& STYLE!) is amazing.

[@CloudyApples]

+Michelle Diepbrink Thank you so much!!

[@creatingashleigh1246]

You always look so nice and put together! Great video, Kassie!!!!!

[@CloudyApples]

+Ashleigh H Aw, thank you!!

[@zayniall]

awh Kassie!! I hope your mom is as proud as we are of you. you really are a lovely person xxx

[@ZoeyArielle]

You are amazing! I seriously love all of your vlogs :-) you're so inspiring, funny and personable and I hope one day my channel can be as bomb as yours! Loved the last part of this video, laughed so hard! Keep it up!!

[@cardichick]

Thank you for sharing so much of your life and so many of your thoughts it makes me realize it's normal to worry about these sorts of things love you!

[@TheresaBlueberry]

Your videos are always so entertaining! I wish mine would be as good as yours

[@ChristineMunar]

seriously love and enjoy every second of your videos.

[@amani121]

I really enjoy watching your vlogs and your videos in general. You are such a sweet, funny and humble person! Hope you are well. Have a great one! 😃

[@CloudyApples]

+amani121 I am very well, thank you so much for the kind words! You too!

[@N.A.96]

Loved this video, your mum looks like a likeable person :) Hope you had a great time with her, there is nothing like a warm mama hug :)

[@cocojo9529]

You are such an amazing person Kas. Trust me, I know it can be difficult to live up to your parent's expectations, but you should never doubt yourself. You got yo sh*t together! You are incredibly intelligent, happy, healthy and a little bit drop dead gorgeous...;) Love your videos lady

[@queentalksanddraws1307]

your mum is soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo adorable!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[@xiahkixiri]

you make everything hilarious, interesting, and also cause a bit o' self-reflection with every video. love you guys.

[@Ncolgrl]

Thanks for the video! This was super fun to watch :) I am the same way about wanting to impress my parents, so I am glad I am not the only one. Much love!

[@CloudyApples]

I'm surprised that some people don't care about what their parents think. The thought of not caring about the woman who raised me makes me sad lol.

[@Ncolgrl]

+CloudyApples Me too! I couldn't imagine it...

[@aroobaasadgill]

Your hair always looks so beautiful! Oh and your Mom seems so nice!

[@KSicVR]

Great video Kassie! You're wonderful, Terry is wonderful and your mom is wonderful!

[@CloudyApples]

+KSic Games Nah, you are wonderful, bestie

[@KSicVR]

+CloudyApples *Blushes*

[@AFrozenSolidAngel]

Ahhhh this was so good! I can relate so much!! Terry's voice over at the end was so funny too :D

[@chadwildclay]

How is that seaweed jam? Love the outro wrap-up, haha!

[@littleblondemop]

So great to read all of these responses. My mom was definitely the authority figure. We're super close now and much more like friends. Love my mom so much and so lucky to her her in my life.

[@pizzapizzaheyheyhey]

I am always amazed at how much effort you put into your videos and how genuine you always come across as. A lot of people tend to put on a different persona online, but I feel like you are someone I could really get along with. You have inspired me in so many ways and watching you over the years has taught me to accept my true self even if it may make me feel like an outsider. I hope that one day I can be a strong,thoughtful and opinionated woman like yourself. On another note, I can't wait to meet you at buffer festival this weekend!

[@CloudyApples]

+Anisa Omer You're going to be there?! YAY I can't wait to meet you! Thank you so much for the kind words, and you are stronger than you think.

[@pizzapizzaheyheyhey]

Yup,can't wait. Its my first youtube event and I'm really interested to see what it will be like.

[@smRRmn]

I feel the exact same way about my mom! I love her to pieces and she's an amazing woman, but I am also so terrified of disappointing her or making "bad" decisions. Could relate to this video sooo much

[@UndercoverMuffinz]

Oh man i havent been on your channel for a while and this reminded me of why i fell in love with it in the first place! You seem like such lovely people :)

[@MegaBabro]

Your mum seems so cute! And I remember seeing your outfit on Instagram and thinking that it was so on point.

[@lnmor9]

I love your mum! She reminds me of my mum alot! ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@tatiannatownsend1531]

What do you have on your lips??? Honestly can you do a tutorial on this whole look? You really do look fantastic

[@hellostephyyyy]

I also want to know what's on her lips!

[@truth3676]

Your represent "one world, one love" saying Kassie! You are a huge mixture of culture which I really3 love!!! Your mom look malayish enough with head scarf and gave you the freedom to be who you want to be... wow that's amazing Kassie! Over here in MALAYSIA, "not every" Malay ladies given that choice!

[@TheMuncher15]

This is really interesting, both my parents were pretty strict on me growing up but have eased up over the years. Though I always had a fear of disappointing them because my mom, as great as she is, isn't the one to always give praises or compliments. While she wouldn't tell me I did horribly, she was just a lot more subtle with praises which honestly helped me in the end. Both of them are south asian so I think its an influence of their strict parenting, I used to hate it but I realize how beneficial it has been. Great video Kassie!!

[@CloudyApples]

+Arian Banana I totally get that feeling. My Mom doesn't jump up and down when I accomplish something, but I can feel it when she's proud. It helps me strive for better :). Much love to you!

[@amiraie7786]

Your mom seems very sweet and man those are awesome gifts! also, can you please list all the makeup items you use in each video because your makeup is flawless and such pretty colors that I dont have and need! your sparkly eyeshadow and lip gloss is amazing here! You are so pretty!

[@LindsayXo]

The thumbnail is everything to me...🙌😂. Much love my genuine friend!!💕

[@CloudyApples]

+Lindsay Xo Glad you liked it :D!! Much love to you

[@yellowowl]

You are wonderful! Don't you worry :) You don't need to be anything to earn the parents' love. It's given by you existing, my dear!

[@atikahakram7449]

Kassie I love your videos soo much and you're such a beautiful and humble person. This video was too cute an omg your mum is sooo adorable! :) xxx

[@amelieb9952]

The whole video was funny, but the last sentence was HILARIOUS! Great job, Kassie!

[@Guruthosa]

This is amazing! Your videos are always so original!

[@youknowwhoitis4]

I know we only see what you choose to show on your youtube channel but with the way that you present yourself I don't know how any parent wouldn't be proud! You carry yourself with self respect (which I feel like is a rarity now) , and I feel like it really shows with the content and quality of your videos.

[@CloudyApples]

+Perscription HipsterGlasses Awe, I really appreciate that. Thank you so much, my friend

[@youknowwhoitis4]

I also appreciate your time to answer :) sending good vibes!

[@sheris3673]

I loved this video and could relate to it so much. My mom lives in the Middle East and whenever she comes to visit she always brings back spices, tea, dates, and incense. Thanks for sharing. :)

[@erox_mn]

ugh I loooove these videos of yours! and your mom is so cute!

[@Maria-kg4hu]

You're the only person I'm subscribed to whose videos i give a thumbs up EVERY SINGLE TIME...! Really love you, Kassie! Greetings from Germany :)

[@CloudyApples]

Aww, thank you!! 😭❤️ Greetings from Canada!

[@magicalmusicbox]

I genuinely loved this video! I sometimes feel like that about my Dad. He raised us, so I hate to do anything that would upset him. My Mum is great, but she's had a very hard life. I suppose she's more of a friend than authority figure. :) Anyways, keep up the vlogs! They're always beautiful to watch and you and Terry are such a joy. Thank you for sharing.

[@Erecura]

ohhhmygod, the commentary at the end LOL, Terry's joke fell flat, Twink was an embarrassment and had to be relocated ,and that guy's face at the end hahaha. . This video was so funny and awesome! Your mom is so cute with all her little gifts. Thanks for sharing this nerve-racking but special day, I'm sure your Mom is so proud of you

[@natasharose]

WHERE DO I GET THAT COOKBOOK OMG 😂

[@kota2264]

Probably look it up online. Just a thought LOL

[@kalliste01]

+Natasha Rose And with the magic of Amazon :) amzn.to/1jVsysD

[@pamtaro7]

girl your videos make me so happy. keep up the good work👍

[@Apple-qh3it]

You're so beautiful! Seem to be such a great person and Terry too! Keep being awesome and inspiring people:)

[@jordynfisher9329]

Hey Kass! You should do more of these vlogish things they are great I love them!

[@UndercoverMuffinz]

My mom is definitely a bit of both.. She can be serious and stuff but there are also times when she acts like she is my age .. she is perfection i love her so much and i hope i can make her proud

[@justabunneh6490]

I wish you had a vlog channel! XP

[@rashamoubacher2301]

LOL you guys are hilarious and honestly it's so respectful how much Kassie wishes to please her mother

[@raycee5816]

Your mum is the cutest women of life! Bless her. MashAllah

[@linkkid185]

Kassie, you're an inspiration for me to follow my dreams! Sending big hugs to you!

[@raghada9123]

You know kassie, I always would think that my mom deserved a daughter more put together than me. A daughter more like herself & a mother-daughter relationship more like hers with my grandma. My mom deserves the best daughter, because she truly is the best mother. She invested so much of herself into me and my siblings, and it breaks my heart when I do my best knowing that there's somebody out there more worthy of such an amazing mother than myself. But I hate feeling like that. My mom is so proud of me, and she always tells me she is, but I wish I had more to give her and I wish that I had more to show for myself. But i don't. A lot of this has to do with me never being pleased with myself and expecting no one else to be. And I say this to both of us: our mothers love us. They truly love us despite anything, we are their daughters. I probably won't understand this completely until I have kids myself, but I have to try to get it into my head. Anyway, good luck!! Love you and your mama!

[@CloudyApples]

+Raghad A This was so sweet. It's so amazing that you're such a grateful lil' angel. It's better to be too grateful than too unappreciative. Now all we have to do is learn to be really proud of ourselves. It's really easy to be our own critics, and it pushes me to work harder. But a little self-appreciation never hurt anyone :P

[@raghada9123]

+CloudyApples Yes, criticizing yourself within reason is always the best way to improve yourself. Lots of love from Kuwait xxx

[@KatiiusKa]

I loved this vlog, it was so real, your mom looks cute and the food you cooked looked delicious!!

[@KatiiusKa]

+KatiiusKa and you looked stunning btw, but you always dooooooo

[@CloudyApples]

+KatiiusKa Thank you so much!!!

[@rosehes]

your mom brought you back the best stuff!!! really jealous right now

[@CloudyApples]

+rosehesami She knows the ways to my heart :P

[@highpitchnoises]

I still live with my Mum after my Dad left us when I was born and growing up I did some stupid shit that hurt her. I completely understand the need to make our Mothers' sacrifices worth it and by far Kassie you are doin alright kid. 😇

[@Rachelcampbellll]

gurl! you put so much pressure on yourself! also you rock!!

[@LotusLeilaful]

"smell my nightmares" lol

[@boci_music]

You are absolutely wonderful 💜your mum seems like a don 😎 I send my love X