Coming out to my brother

[@RobertFleming]

Good job man! You should be proud of facing your emotions so bravely.

[@raisinhead2]

Glad it went reasonably well with your brother. You have a great way of making difficult things accessible. Very articulate. Good luck with stage 2, 3 , the rest of your great life.

[@B0Y4rmSch00L]

I've really enjoyed your videos on coming out to your family. You might not consider yourself brave, but it takes a lot of strength to let go of your fears and share with those who are most important to you something that you have been keeping to yourself for years. You're very well-spoken and eloquent; I'm sure you'll be able to eliminate any misconceptions your family might have about LGBT people. They'll recognize that you're the same person you've always been. It just takes time.

[@Flanole]

You displayed courage. Give others time to come to terms with this as aspect of who you are just as it took you time. Knowing someone who is gay changes the way poeple look at their own views. You are free from the fear of others knowing. You can be the best person you want to be now. You are young and still becoming the person you will become. You know there is support on KZbin and around you. Keep smiling and living to the fullest.

[@tjtroy762]

I know it been several years now, but you seem like an amazing young man.

[@kimalanball]

Good for you Carlose. I hope the past 4 years have been amazing for you. Peace, from Dongguan City China.

[@ersonthemesa]

I'm so impressed with your video. U R a cool dude.

[@calvindavis3641]

Baltimore Ravens banner in the background . I’m in Baltimore. Feels strange to see this while just skimming through old videos. At least every video I seem to find is old. It’s 2018 now. Not finding current ones. I think I watch these because I wish I had a family to come out to. I have brothers, all numb to life in general. Just haven’t had any emotion. I don’t know if that’s good or is it bad. Feels lonely for sure.

[@carlose0318]

quite the contrary. i am fully aware of the dangers involved when I use these things. which is why it amazing even to myself as to why I continue to use them. its something that will never be fully understood by someone who doesnt have that experience. the altered state of consciousness is very addicting. i know i need to stop now though. it is a daily struggle that i now have to live with. please just take my word for it

[@garygary9310]

I hope things are going well for you ? I am gay also and understand what's it's like to come out! You seem like an amazing guy! Your brother and parents should be VERY proud of YOU 👏👏👍👍

[@controllerone]

All I will say is good for you. I do hope your family gets more and more comfortable. I wish i

[@carlose0318]

we shouldn't be hassled into revealing things about ourselves, thats not why I do the videos. these vlogs are geared towards those who can relate, not just to tell the world "I'm gay!" unfortunately, it's something a lot of us have to go through with family at least, because being authentic with those you love is such a crucial part of family life. but of course we have to delicate in how we approach it and even then it may not be received well. that's not my fault though. its personal growth...

[@carlose0318]

thanks for the comment man, i appreciate it. I'm working to be more balanced as for as using substances go. not really even a fan of alcohol at all, but I'm gradually getting better with the drugs. these things take time too. you can't expect me to stop cold turkey, it isn't possible. But I'm smart enough to realize that it isn't a habit worth keeping in the long run. I'm starting to look for safer "highs." It has to be a step in the right direction. thanks again for the kind words friend :)

[@michaelkwan-davis9321]

Bravo on the video. I have a younger brother who is so supportive of me.

[@carlose0318]

looking back on this video, the last thing i would say is that i am articulate. but i am glad you think i am haha. i appreciate the comment/like

[@controllerone]

sorry. I wish I was as brave as you when I was your age. But those were different times when I was your age. Just keep being you.

[@carlose0318]

you need to understand that it's been a huge part of my life and my coming out process. while it really turns you off and you hate to hear about it, it is really important to me. i'm not saying i supprt that stuff, but i feel it necessary to mention it. i know a lot of people cant relate, but its part of what i've been doing to cope with things. but i'm aware of the dangers and i know i've got to stop with it all soon. its not part of my future plans

[@TheYipedo]

I can definitely relate to this. I went through the exact same thing with my older bro. I thought to myself: "Bah, I won't be emotional." But as soon as I said it, I starting bawling like hell. I also reassured him that it's still me. Nothing will ever change. He never would've guessed I was gay either. =P

[@carlose0318]

well you are absolutely right. I totally agree with what you just said. sorry for the misinterpretation before. but can't you see that the stress family and society can cause for gay youth makes it not only beneficial, but essential for us to talk about these things on public forums like youtube? I dont agree with being overly demonstrative, gay or straight, but the reason i do these videos is to let other ppl in my position (especially younger ones) know that their struggle is not fought alone

[@jrcookice10]

I don't wear labels. I've been single 4 over 1 yr. by choice. People seem 2 assume when ur attractive & not attached that ur gay. I've jus not found dat ''someone'' yet. I feel if I expose 2 much people won't understand & I'll lose so called friends ect. So I'll live according 2 me! Peace

[@carlose0318]

and i respect yours. I'd like to hear more about why you think you would lose more than you would gain by coming because that is absolutely not what has been the case so far for me over just 2 months! i do respect your values on discretion but i want you to really think about why keeping it a secret is so important. u cant understand it yet but things change and you see things a new way when you come out. you can be honest and it's just such a freeing feeling. thx for the comment...take care :)

[@larrybillngs6913]

carlose0318 callme

[@carlose0318]

yeah i can only imagine how much lonlier people must have felt back then. its nice to have a medium like this to be able to share my story as it happens. well now that my family knows i hope i can get along with my life. i really hope society continues to grow up from its primitive homophobic way of thinking. the more people show they are comfortable with themselves, the more other people might be comfortable with it. thanks for the kind words my friend. i appreciate it :) take care

[@RayRaySoShy]

i think your cute :)

[@danielhodson5489]

It took me 2 attempts to come out to family (2 bottles of wine on the second attempt). I was prepared to take my life when I came out to my friend.

[@carlose0318]

thanks :) but i dont find it fitting to call me brave. if you knew what i do to cope with the constant anxiety i have, then you'd know i am a coward. i am rarely ever "me." but i hope i'm getting there. i appreciate the comment though

[@jrcookice10]

I wud neva tell anyone my sexual orientation. (MY OPINION) People will say they'll support you and my fear is that I'll have more 2 lose than gain. I jus take discretion in my life and I won't decieve. My life, under MY rules. Respect u tho. God bless!!!

[@carlose0318]

thanks haha

[@carlose0318]

if you really understood it you'd know it's never that simple. there's more to it. but you think i'm making excuses to keep using. maybe i am. i dont know. but i dont plan to continue with all this stuff down that road. i only talk about it bc i feel its important to my story. i dont mean to support anything about abusive recreational drug use. i know i'm hippocritical. but i will get over it soon

[@uknowcurt]

Your'e cute :)

[@carlose0318]

i have to say something because of the way society is right now. the reason gay people are so passionate about speaking about these things is because there are STIGMAS and MISCONCEPTIONS out there about how gay people really are. so by talking about our stories, we show that we are no different than anyone else. I'm not talking about what I'm doing in the "bedroom." That is you imagining the scene of two guys or two girls together and wanting to have it out of your head. thats not what im doing.

[@ck85x65]

You took time and had a lot of emotions about coming out to yourself. It’s the same with everyone else. As a guy who you’d “never know” was gay, that you defy every stereotype, is that much more difficult. You’re too normal, in other words.

[@controllerone]

Oh my friend I know a bit about anxiety trust me. The sun don't shine on the same dog's ass every day, so you will have bad days. But you are confronting who and what you are. I think you should consider being a little more generous with yourself. Keep posting. You're interesting.

[@shahilagh]

oh dear .. but it is sad that you don't look like gay stereotypes ... if a woman ever loved u, dont be silent and hiding .. just say to her I m gay .. the love ppl have to us matters ... many people just take things for granted... u dont be like that