Cool Stuff and Not So Cool Stuff

[@1962dkd]

I miss you so much. I watch this video often and it warms my heart to hear your giggle. But also makes me sad to know that behind that giggle is so much pain. So glad my trinkets gave you a little bit of joy. I love you my dear friend. RIP.

[@samuellaramsey5824]

Keyslivin did this lady pass away?

[@1962dkd]

I used to have horrible immobilizing panic attacks and then I got on a great medication that I take daily and I haven't had one in years. Also, I found going to a head shrinker extremely helpful. It's hard to get started talking to someone, but once you let your guard down and allow yourself to trust your feelings, it does get easier. My dreams were always about getting stuck on bridges. Now, go get your shit together!!! As for where I live, it is on a canal, you were correct. The shells I sent you were probably picked up on some random beach somewhere here in the Keys. They are my favorite to use as cabs because of their low profile. Resin is a great idea. I usually just spray with clear lacquer, but resin is a much better idea. I fill the shells with hot glue as you said to make them more stable and also to make it easier to glue them to the peltex so you can bead around them. The box is designed to use as a portable bead tray. I make them from cigar boxes. the right side of the box is your working area and because I padded the upper part as well, you can leave you loose beads on the pad and they stay in place. The indentation on the left will hold your bead tubes, string, needles... I am so glad you like the shibori. I love making it. You can always cut it in half if you want it to fit on that bracelet. Just make sure to turn the raw edge under so it doesn't ravel or use some Fray Check. I can't wait to see what you come up with. I love you too. Wish we lived closer.

[@DeeEll86442]

Hi Hun, I suffer from the same issue. I have always been someone in control of my world. When things started happening that I had no control over I started having panic attacks. Part of it is feeling out of control. They happen at the strangest times. I will be making dinner and all-of-a-sudden start shaking or have trouble breathing for no reason. I'm as confused about it as you are. I went to a doctor and they gave me meds but they make me like a zombie and effect my creativity. So I stopped taking them. I found that listening to soft music and meditating helps. I just had to realize that I can't control everything that happens in my life. You feeling like your getting locked out of buildings may mean something different than you think. It might go back to feeling out of control. Maybe something in your life that you can't do, fix, or change. That locked door may represent that. Counseling does help. If you need to talk I'm more than happy to talk to you. Be well, take care, Dee😊👍

[@dawnuselton2871]

panic attacks are not fun. I watched one of my best friends go thru them. Losing someone you love is not ever easy! I lost my mother over 10 yrs. ago, I still miss her everyday! I still suffer from depression, she was my very besttest friend. We talked about everything and anytime I had. problem she would listen and not judge. I really wish that there were more people in the world like her. The only thing that I know to do for your panic attacks is first go to your family doctor, and get him to refer you to a specialist, that was what my friend did, the meds that they prescribed her really seemed to help, that and being able to talk to someone that understood what she was going through. Love your vids, everytime you post a new one I always watch! I really enjoy that you talk us through the steps in a clear and understandable manner, Thank you, and Best Wishes on feeling better!

[@pennysanamo]

You are not alone. I think in my case I've always had them also but since my baby sister lost her 8 year long & hard battle with breast cancer it's almost a daily assurance now. I feel with grief comes panic that never ends.

[@coffeecatsandgames8963]

You, as the other comments have stated, are not the only one that deals with this. I have PTSD with EXTREAM Anxiety which is actually a step more intense than regular panic attacks (mine actually last for weeks.) And while I know you don't want to talk to someone, I do hope at least you start a journal, reading up, and I pray you find someone to talk to, they can make the world of difference. I know you feel like it's stupid, I used to feel the same way. But then I realized I was having this problem from being strong too long. You're actually a very strong person, I hope you will at least journal about it.

[@owlwoman3111]

Hi T , I never knew about anxiety problems untill it happened to me. I dont know where it came from but it got so bad that I couldnt even go sit on my front porch or have friends over. I couldnt drive my car or go shopping, I was stuck in my house. It was really ruining my life. I have always been in control of my life. I finally went to the doctor. I now take meds and I am so happy to have my life back!! I still have a few things to work on but all I do is keep improving with time. The doctor can recommend a therapist..they are experts at anxiety. This has made me realize that we are much more fragile than we think and we are also too hard on ourselves. I know you can get better just like the rest of us did... you dont have to suffer with this okay? ...dont waste time...go to doctor.. We all love you!! :)

[@Ysa632]

the silk is shibori, I just bought some and there's a girl that I really like from one of my KZbin channels and she does a lot of bead in broidery and she incorporates this, so I can't wait to see what you do with it!!

[@JanetStJohn-db4uz]

Bless your heart! I totally understand how you feel! it is not stupid, it is real. I take medication and that has completely changed my life. I lost my oldest son 15 years ago and that totally sent my problems in a tailspin. you will never get over the loss of Ashley, but you will learn to cope with it. Have a heart to heart talk with your doctor. He/she can get you on a path to a better life. I have kept you in my prayers and will continue to do so!

[@sharonopstbaum1023]

Thanks for sharing your pain. Divide and conquer your fears! Sharing with friends is good, but sharing with a caring therapist will give you so much more relief. Good luck with it and keep beading! We all love your vids and you! oxoxo

[@cookmartyn3]

i feel you girl, love you. Wondering what kind of camera you use.

[@debbiecarney1724]

My daughter use to get terrible pain attacks where she would pass out, its hard and scary. I have a thought about your dreams, I'm just me not a DR, so that it from where is comes lol. I was wondering if the being locked out might have to do with everything that has happened and then not being able to be at your daughters wedding on top of it , you feel like your being locked out of the big day. Like I said take it for what its worth, most likely not much lol I send you BIG HUGS, healing thoughts and lots of love xx

[@Just_Hearts_NYC]

Hay camera shot looks good by the way just want to let you know that anyway that's something, what kind of camera did you get? you didn't say, and it's good to hear from you sorry for all you're going through hope you get to feel better hopefully soon :)

[@gailrod2096]

T, is that your smoke alarm chirping in the background?! I had that happen; checked the alarms and all were good, but still the !@# chirping...found it up high in the hall closet in a box, oye. How long before the wedding? Love your warmth and humor. Gail

[@1994abbygirl]

Where did you find your beautiful colored cabochons! If you said, i could not hear it because my sound is gone! Thanks

[@meanauntrena4667]

My dear, no one has "their shit together" the way that everyone else believes. You are most likely lonely. But, all of us adore you and we happily listen and we would all hug you.

[@tinayoung9707]

I know just what your going thru I have such awefull panic attacks the Dr had to give me attarax but it helps. hope yours gets better.

[@matchacharms9180]

Hello T, you are most definitely not alone and don't feel like an idiot my panic attacks use to make me feel weird but once I had learned how common these are I just focus on getting through them the best way I can I am also very paranoid Always looking behind my shoulder, I choose not to take any medication but I do have a very strong support group just talking about it helps a great deal. Take care xox

[@sgfluellen960]

You're not alone in this and you're not stupid. You know what's wrong; good luck in finding help. You'll be fine.

[@CassandraWood0177]

I would love to show you some of my work with shibori if you would like. Lots of hugs and love !

[@debhouckscraftycottage]

HaHa - Funny about the Ruby video and buying the cabs at Fire Mountain. I did the same thing. :-) Okay, so I wrote that comment before hearing the end of the video. Lots of HUGS sent your way. Hang in there.

[@kyra-leemariewilson9141]

I have Asthma & Panic Attacks In One it Scare Me. So You Are Not Alone Ok Everyone Has Attacks. Sending You Heaps Of Hugs.

[@skh_okakok]

❤️

[@amyweinstein1740]

be careful it could be your heart.

[@teragrace187]

You are certainly not an idiot, you're normal. I and my daughter have gone thru similar tramatic situations. I hope you don't mind if I keep you in my prayers?

[@rgbuns4ever]

Please don't feel stupid about panic attacks. I think they are way more common than you think. I just lost my dad a few days ago so it has been a difficult week. Although I don't suffer from panic attacks, my son does. They started when he was about 9 and we have no idea why they started. He saw a child psychologist and although he still has them, they are not as bad and the therapist taught him techniques he could use and here we are 7 years later and he manages them so well, no one even knows he has them. I think if you can find the right person to talk to they could really help. If you need help finding someone I could try to help. Good luck, God Bless and I will be thinking of you.

[@DanielleComesBack]

Hi Theresa! I think maybe you're feeling so panicked and anxious, having those nightmares, because Ashley is gone. It was sudden and must have made you feel all sorts of helpless feelings. And not to mention a whole horrible mixture of other emotions. Also, I saw that your other daughter didn't have you at her wedding shower, which is very disheartening. The fact that her wedding is somewhere you can't get to leads me to think those dreams are related. You can't get into the building. You're trying very hard to cope with some excruciating pain all on your own. I know the feeling. I've been there. It's been 4 years since my last involuntary hospitalization after a coma I induced. The reason I survived after my suicide attempt is largely because I found a good doctor who actually gives a shit. There's no shame in asking for help, Theresa. When you're ready, I hope you will.

[@cathijohnson5867]

oooohhh hahaha I saw rubys bead haul and I bought some of them to!!!

[@DenisMaksymowicz]

When I first started watching your video I thought, she's so cute, she gets so excited about sea shells. I thought, I can send her some sea shells, I have plenty from trips to Florida and elsewhere, and she's so sweet--doesn't take a whole lot to make her happy. I stand by that btw, I"d be happy to send you sea shells, if you want. But then...the panic attacks and how you need to talk to someone. My first thought was, but you are talking to someone--me and whoever else watches you on KZbin. And I'm hearing you loud and clear. And I'm thinking what a terrible time you've had and I can't begin to know what to say or do BUT--suicide is not something one does just to oneself--in a vacuum--so you are a victim too. And I think you should go to some kind of a therapist who's not an idiot, who knows who to listen and may even be able to help you. Not that they're easy to find but they do exist, and I hope you find someone, someone who's not part of your daily life. I've been watching your beading videos for a long time and I 've learned a lot from them. I see you as a generous and giving person, and also very funny and smart. So, If you want to take me up on the sea shell offer (paltry as it is) please let me know and I'll send them off pronto. And just know that also I care about what happens to you-for what it's worth.

[@juliaerlich4349]

Oops, I was on my husband's account when I wrote this--I am not Denis, but I am Julia--sorry

[@Stephanie_Hancock]

Oh Teresa (sp?), I just want to hold you. Sweetie, you do need to find somebody to talk to. It's not stupid, you're not stupid. And as I think you've said before, medicine DOES help. Don't try to deal on your own. Get some help and support. xoxo

[@hoomalumalu]

it's so sad to see people refuse to take medication. so easily fixable and yet there remains a sort of medieval superstition around this

[@echoandmeaservicedogslife3300]

you are not stupid or dumb I wish you would stop saying that you are a wonderful person I know exactly how you feel I have PTSD social anxiety disorder panic attacks I think if you name it I've got it and I'm like you I don't want to go talk to a counselor I'm 57 years old the last one I went to I swear she must have just got out of school and she's going to counsel me I've got four lifetimes of crap and she's just a little girl just out of school probably have never had any kind of trouble or trauma probably had everything given to her on a silver spoon well at least that's how she acted like she was holier than thou and she's going to counsel me yeah right I don't know if you can where you live but maybe you can get a little dog I have a service dog and she is my savior she alerts me to panic attacks wakes me up from bad dreams well she's a new service dog my old girl was 10 and a half and she died last month I thought I would die without her I didn't leave the house or eat for 2 months then a very nice lady in North Carolina sent me a new service dog I'm not going to say I'll pray for you because I know how you feel about that but I will say I will ask my goddess to watch over you do you have a personal Facebook page so we can talk sometimes I don't like to comment on KZbin very much especially letting people know all my problems and lows LOL I believe your dreams are because you are upset but you cannot go to your daughter's wedding you feel locked out and I know how that is sending you love and light take care