Day 329: 23rd November 2022 | Ooh no

My evening went from bad to extremely worse.
If I didn't like myself earlier believe me when I say the self hatred has kicked in after calling the person back. I thought it would be a brief call. But she wanted to talk. I am so stupid. So so stupid, I just want to defer my last three units and just stay in bed all the time. I am not a nice person. I don't mean for this to happen but sometimes I seriously can't regulate my emotions. Because of this I think it really is best that I say away from everyone.
I have sent a message to cancel tomorrow's plans. I need to just slowly but surely keep working through my uni content. Gets a bit harder every day that I feel like I've fallen even more behind.
I am so so sad. 7:49 pm