DeadBeat [ A Conversation With My Father ] - @jackiehillperry

[[ Performed at GRIP Outreach's For Youth Fundraising Gala in Chicago, Illinois ]]
Jackie Hill is on staff at GRIP as their Female Mentorship Coordinator.
At GRIP, we realize that the only thing that can fill the void in the life of a fatherless child is the love of God the Father. Our mission is to reach and connect at-risk youth to Christian "life-on-life" mentors and develop them holistically in Jesus Christ to the glory of God. As we mobilize an army of adults to model the love of Christ to teenagers who desperately need it, we are obeying God's commandment in Isaiah 1:17 to "defend the cause of the fatherless." And along the way, we're extending to our youth an invitation to know their purpose and identity, and to experience an even greater love-the love of God, their creator.
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[@CalebMaclennan]

This won't be my father's obituary and I pray it won't be mine, but my heart goes out to all those who struggle with trusting our Father in heaven because their ones on earth didn't model Him.

[@thetruthtrumpsallliesfromt4399]

Caleb Maclennan The one on earth is total opposite of my Father in Heaven. Trust no man, they are as concrete as quick sand, theirs words melts woman’s hearts, yet to their children are like flaming darts, they make promises they can’t keep, by this, they have destroyed The Shepard’s many sheep. Their beginning is like their end, born for lie, dishonest until they die. Even so, they must be forgiven, because if we children don’t, we will live out the rest of our Life asking why?

[@KolussuslifeKB]

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[@dianajasmine111]

I think bad fathers make it harder to trust our Heavenly Father but wants we do he heals all wounds ❤

[@mickey1530]

​@@thetruthtrumpsallliesfromt4399God bless you ❤

[@TheSwilder411]

Wow she left her heart on that stage

[@samanthajo1593]

Crying, crying, crying. So glad that at 27 I have finally entered into a relationship with my heavenly Father.

[@thebeliever78]

Your comment touched my soul, though it may be three years ago. God bless you Beautiful Soul. ❤

[@GuguKhoza]

My boss walked in the office while I was watching this today and didn't understand why I was crying. You struck the core of my soul with your words today- but at the same time it's like a sweet breeze was blowing on old untended wounds, making me whole, making me healed. Thank you Jackie so much for saying the things I couldn't and helping me gain freedom; and God bless you

[@towannadiggs8774]

Gugu Khoza I hope you found your voice.

[@stephanieyorke514]

I know she touch my soul. May our Jesus who art in heaven comfort us.

[@godsbabeborn-again5945]

😭 I have a great dad and I'm so sorry to everyone whose daddy wasn't there. As we grow up and have our own kids, may we choose wisely the men who will father them. This pain lasts forever and it's not fair on these innocent souls. They didn't ask to be born. 😢

[@tobe2714]

There’s a link between having a great father and choosing a great father for your kids. The opposite is also true.

[@wnica1]

She took the words right out of my heart.

[@nativegyrl42]

how is it that you described exactly how I felt about my dad for so many years? my dad died in 2012, and he was hardly ever present in my life. your poem touched me deep.But God used our estranged relationship to be the thread that had me find him in a nursing home and witness to him and he accepted Christ before he died. I finally saw the man who eluded me all my life embrace the God I loved him through...now I know why I had to go through what I did...it led to the cross...it led to salvation and for that reason alone, it was worth every bit of the journey. I can say that now...thanks for sharing your poem

[@mhurd390]

nativegyrl42 What an awesome testimony! Showing love and compassion to him, despite his absence....... He was a blessed man to have you! God bless you!

[@niknatpattywack4293]

To God be Praised and the test that produced a testimony 🙏🏽🙌🏽💜💙

[@PoeticSwag87]

LYRICALLLLLLL!!! Man I promise you are one of the most lyrical poets I've ever heard. Your ministry, your emotions, your expressions. Everything is amazing. I look up to you poetically so much!!!!

[@georgiannabaeza1987]

This would be my father’s obituary. Just adding he left mom and I when I was 1 year old to move to US and became a citizen of a new country and a new life where there wasn’t room for us and neither was for my grandma who mourned his absence for 48 years until her death. Here I am,52, hadn’t cried for many , many years. Tears of the soul. And of gratitude cause as broken inside as I was, Jesus found me.

[@mickey1530]

God bless you!❤❤

[@SuhailaAlFraiheen]

Psalm 27:10 "When my father and my mother forsake me, then the Lord will take of me" I have learned that forgiveness is a choice...not a feeling. Sometimes a journey...a process...not a final destination. But I choose to forgive...because just like my earthly father who chose to betray me...I chose, at selfish weak moments...to betray my Heavenly Father who loves me (literally to death). ...So who am I to cast a single stone?

[@fabsnoble]

Jackie, I so identify with this video. I too, learned that my father in Heaven was nothing like my earthly father. Love to you

[@lovit7777]

A Powerful Message to all Deadbeat Dads! Sad but So True!

[@MsNkanyezi]

When someone else speaks your emotions, your story. Wow... I pray I find the courage to have this conversation with my father while he still lives. Thank you for this Ms Jackie Hill. *love*

[@arthurgonsalves6953]

One person didn't like this- obviously a deadbeat dad, stumbled across this

[@lumbabanda2028]

I've watched this poem so many times. I'm male, but there's so much I can relate to. I even feel like crying right now. I've tried writing about my emotional trauma with my father, but have failed. I always dump the poem a couple of lines into it. That or I just feel I'm not putting the right kind of emotion.

[@khwezim7439]

Love your poems. Cover her in prayer people.

[@mickey1530]

God bless you! ❤

[@bellavee4096]

Ten years later and it is still true today. In a word, DEEP...

[@sarosebless8581]

Thank God I didn’t have to endure this pain, I have the best dad in the world. My prayers goes out every kids that’s going thru this I pray you all find healing and pray that the cycle breaks.

[@BooWayn]

It wasn't you that I was looking for but I am so glad that I found you. Your words had an impact on me that I wasn't expecting. Thank you for sharing and thank you for the tear in my eye.

[@mickey1530]

God bless you!❤

[@TheyCallMeSauce]

Wow. This is amazing, so much art, reality and perfection! Your story, emotions, facial expressions, vocal projections and deflations at the perfect times, hand movements and everything! One of my favorites. Thanks for this sis!

[@jackiehillperrychannel]

wow... thank you bro. Even your attention to detail is encouraging (a lot of people don't notice the different performance techniques that go into making a poem come alive.) but I am talking to Mr.Sauce himself lol

[@TheyCallMeSauce]

MyNameIsJackieHill Ha! Yea, I noticed all the techniques! I still watch and love this joint!

[@fafahlove5411]

They Call Me Sauce

[@albany222]

What an incredible way to paint a picture of so many peoples lives without their fathers, without someone to truly call daddy. Thanks Jackie!

[@The1Motif]

This piece is going to not only bless millions but push the hearts of fathers and mothers to be all that that can be I pray God's peace and the comfort of the Holy Spirit continue to resound in your heart and mind Jackie. Love how you let GOD WORK THROUGH YOU!

[@mickey1530]

God bless you!❤

[@problemchild8143]

I have listened to this a million times it feels and each time it makes me tear up a little. My daddy left me when I was too young to remember him so this hits me on a personal level.

[@makena2546]

My dad's absence still shatters my heart at 30

[@boredhousewifelife]

wish I could make my "father" watch this.

[@yourlieinaugust]

I miss my father now I legit cried through this whole thing...

[@donezo116]

That was amazing. First time hearing about you, glad to see you teaming up with Humble Beast. Can't wait for you guys are going to cube out with for the glory of God.

[@nkhan04]

I relate so heavy to this and come back to watch it every now and again. Praise you Father for Jackie’s art and for your love through Jesus. I would be nothing without You.

[@MynameisNOTthepoint]

The power! The way each of the words resonated with my soul, my childhood, my womanhood. Just... thank you. Still working on forgiving a father who loved alcohol more than his children. The pain feels like an eternity. But God!

[@LisaNaomi24]

Such a great instrument for the Lord. Your words are always penetrating to the broken heart and spring forth hope for such in the same conversation. Love you Jackie!!!❤

[@drawingboard10]

I had to come in here looking for more of your work..you are a precious gem to the kingdom of God!! Amazing work HE had done in you :-)!

[@AnastasiaMonet]

first time seeing this and I felt every word. I can relate, my father being on the earth but not physically being in my life. Then he died so yes I understand everything you said. The obituary part is so true and sad. Thanks for sharing your story and all of ours all in one poem.

[@kylipsso]

Bless us all who had no choice but to know strength to overcome abandonment at an early age cause our parents were to god damn selfish thinking about themselves! Bless us all who finally broke through, even in the mist of our confusion and exhaustion we still persevere! Bless us all to serve as an inspiration! A beacon of light and hope to those souls who have lost their way by no fault of their own! May we find them and demonstrate they’re not alone.

[@AssantiM]

So powerful... Can definitely feel the many emotions through this... Reminds me of the movie "Courageous". I haven't been the best daughter either. I desire for my relationship with my dad to reflect the Father&I's relationship.

[@nailanteikamotho3771]

DEEP. And beautiful. Thanking God for good fathers and for healing in Christ where there was none

[@kimbeyers8795]

My story is a little bit different, My dad was my HERO, he taught me about Christ the 1st person to do so... Thank You JESUS!!! Unfortunately my son is not that lucky. His father could not care. Its hard as I dont know how to deal with it. So i smother him with love and Teach him about Christ as my dad taught me

[@beelievehunny.]

Gurl, YOU DID THAT!!! You said EVERYTHING that us women without Fathers have felt. To be fatherless means to be dealt a hand you cannot afford.

[@kategraham5808]

Oh wow. That just shredded my heart. That was not my experience, but for my girls, and the lifetime of neglect and apathy from a selfish, self-serving father.... that just broke me.

[@tobe2714]

Could relate to so much of this, but I have no tears left to cry. My Heavenly Father told me that I will never be heartbroken again. That my father was the last heart break I’ll ever have and with that, I released the anger I had for him. Only God, and a good friend of mine knows the details of my conversation with him. I pray that God saves his soul, because then MAYBE we would be able to get to know each other. By his own will and words, it won’t be in this life, unfortunately, but that’s okay. God is more than enough.

[@exactly150]

how beautiful, how very solemn. I too, was raised without my father. Not having a dad putting his loving arms around you destroys you. Yes, I found Jesus, but my heart continues to ache for an earthly father, and it aches for a mother that blamed me every minute of every day for his leaving. My only hope is in the loving arms of my Saviour.

[@kenzienoel9298]

You're not alone dear. I grew up without a dad. It hurts me more and more without him. I blame my mom for him leaving. Yes I know it's selfish but their mistake hurt me in more ways then one. It's gonna be okay.

[@nonameunknown4483]

whether you have a earthly father that cares or not you will always have a heavenly father that does care for you from the day you came to this earth

[@tyschenzel]

Powerful! Thanks for sharing this, for sharing your heart. I've visited GRIP a number of years ago. Love what they're doing. Bless you!

[@adathestoryteller6014]

Wow! This poem hugs me

[@NiuLifen0w]

Your words played out vividly, I saw eveyrthing you were saying like a movie. Thank you Jackie for using the gifts God gave you for him and not for this world. Cheers

[@gman1660]

Parents live a life worth remembering with your children; to give them something to tell their children; cause if you don’t, they’ll tell that too.

[@BrandiNaCole]

I had to watch this again. I relate all too much. To say that this sister has a mere gift is an understatement.

[@cinnamonslice1990]

Powerful... poetic licence.. "make a metaphor of your life" I can just feel her emotions... unfiltered.. real..

[@josephineexpi]

I can FEEL your pain through. So much emotions behind your words :'(

[@stilpoetic]

I admire your courage. Placing your heart under a microscope isn't easy. It requires loving others more than you desire to remain safe.

[@CandaceLeAnne]

Woooooowwww ... from one fatherless daughter to another, you moved the earth within me with the honest exploration of abandonment and loss in this piece!

[@Lilidoula]

This poem is amazing, so encouraging to see you using your gift. Glory to GOD for your life and ministry, you are one of the people the Lord used to inspire me to use mine and even start a YT page, thank you. God bless and keep you! I know our DADDY in heaven is proud sis!

[@psylettagilroy]

This got me! Thankfully, I grew up with my Daddy, but my kids...well, that's a different story. Their pain is real. Thanks for sharing this!

[@Kerriann.M]

jackie you are truly amazing God bless you

[@margaretholman756]

Nice poem it says a lot. It speaks to the mothers from the 70s. The 80s were horrible. It was the crack epidemic. I had no idea how bad it was with the crack mothers but hearing her poem I got the scenario. It’s real. It’s sad. Survival is real. Those generational curses is no joke. The narcissistic mothers are still happening. Mothers are to proud to say I’m sorry. It gotta start somewhere 🙏🏾 Thank you for the poem👌🏽

[@Blazer_for_Jesus]

Just WOW ❤️ Absolutely took my breath away. Everything about this is raw emotion. Artistry at its finest. Thank you so much for sharing this with the world Jackie. What an inspiration!

[@HiKulchaTV]

Thank you for your courage! Thank you for releasing it at this time! Hope still prevails with my Pops but in the end... I will thank God for covering me in spite of the situations.

[@charlottegirl2807]

Absoloutely beautifully written and said, im crying 😩

[@menzamarz889]

I love her brutal honesty. I love her. This hit differently... wow! 🤯❤🫂

[@TreseySongBird]

More than an amazing poem..it was astounding. Your very words resonated with my life story, coincidin with I & my father's astranged relationship. Keep up the great work. Your transparency is appreciated.

[@rajhansakima]

The GRAVITY in her words is just.......................

[@johnh.3202]

Still the truth..YEARS later

[@naturalliejazzy4259]

i fell in love with this poem

[@racquelsutherland4731]

Wow, just wow... I am speechless

[@akambeyakambey9643]

I'm speechless...all I can bring myself to say is God bless you

[@LindaMillerOfficial]

Wow....I'm speechless.

[@YolandaRevealed]

Tears... nothing but tears. :'( Powerful!!!

[@Rza5675]

Wow... You're to spoken words what meatloaf is to Rock Music! Thanks !

[@all4god116]

Wow!! This was really powerful!! Could feel the hurt! Love the power of spoken word!!

[@sisterjoplaintalk555]

FORGIVE and HONOR our fathers and mothers....none are perfect. All men are broken until they come into knowing JESUS CHRIST... then restoration to the soul begins.

[@victoriaaktsioglou7194]

Hell is a place for the worthless parent's forgive is hell

[@lizdiaz2277]

sitting here in tears :'(

[@ashtonnn777]

SO MUCH TALENT❤

[@Smileyyy21]

Jackie, My dad is still with me today. He ruined my family's trust. About 2 years ago I realized he was a narcissist. Than it hit me I never really had a father. Unless one day he decides to admit to his wrongdoings. For now I know that my dad won't be the dad that I dreamed of the Lord is my savior and my father. My dad just as I'm sure your dad was abused as a child.

[@KeyshanaMayo]

Thank you for speaking on our behalf. This is a painful good! Love this Jackie!

[@sashacisneros3981]

This is exactly how I feel. 😣😥😧

[@magneticaims]

This is so good, I am speechless. Thank you for sharing with us Jackie. I for one, am grateful. God bless.

[@CallmeCkno]

Amen!! Thanks for sharing fam. Hope this reach ppl whom need to hear it. Take Care.

[@EsteeCoako28]

My goodness. This just blessed me!!! God blessyou and may he continue to use you.

[@alexandryah9251]

May THE MOST HIGH BLESS YOU ACHY!!!

[@MarkCRyan]

Jackie - amazing artistry as always. Thanks for tackling such an important and personal issue.

[@edwardsedwards7151]

Absolutely loved it , bring tears to my eyes God bless u ....keep up the good work 👍❤️

[@incosmeathomas8529]

Yeah, I know this all too well. I found out about my dad's death by text too. We look like twins so much so, I considered plastic surgery. However, you can't change DNA. Mine walked me down the aisle too but that was like having my daddy back like it was when he loved me. He played peekaboo too. Yeah, I know this story but the plot twist came when I truly accepted that Jesus loves me and when my dad forsook me, He took me up. The newness of my life with Him as my Father is amazing. It really does get better. The Lord bless you Jackie for sharing a FAMILIar story.

[@goodthingp3111]

Glory be to god!!!! Thank you for writing this poem!!!

[@nombuso_madela]

Wow...to emotional to comment how I really feel right now about this poem

[@jacquelineo3748]

Beautiful

[@Theresajaneappiah]

Thank you Jackie God bless you

[@laurenf6558]

You captured it all. Thank you so much for this.

[@FusionofSoul]

Amen, your talent is surely amazing. God bless you Jackie

[@demariomusic968]

Gripping. Powerful. Sadly, the experience of so many.

[@taealexander4209]

I'm sitting on my hands trying not to cry!

[@Drewan27]

This is so sad, but thanks for sharing Jackie. I'm sure this does, and will continue to resonate with a lot of folks.

[@PoetByDesign]

Wow! Very Moving!

[@skottcellar5245]

Wow, that made me choke a little. Her words and emotions are powerful

[@eliciaroberts4285]

I can't stop listening to this video, sigh... :(

[@graceg4996]

This is just wow😭 gifted woman

[@janethutcheson3678]

Oh my, so painful, but she is beautiful.

[@queenalla12]

I really relate to this poem. 😩

[@MrPrincePeri]

This really touch me. I'm one of them with a deadbeat father

[@antheabarclay1724]

Powerful

[@janetDT1904]

This broke my heart. I've never met my birth Father but I too see him in the mirror every time I look into it.

[@MegaDivalious]

This makes me cry so much