Dean Winchester ✘ When did I lose myself?

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Dean Winchester deserves better.
TV-show: Supernatural
Editing program: Final Cut Pro
Coloring: Mine
Song: • NF - Paralyzed (Audio)
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[@lilun_ordinary6266]

Jensen Ackles is an amazing actor... I swear when Dean cries I cry when he laughs I laugh.

[@emmaxedits]

He really is!

[@williamveisamasama9792]

Ikr ❤️

[@abbey6861]

He needs a trophy

[@sumitkid123]

@@abbey6861 He needs an multiple awards, i feel his emotions every time, i feel like him in my life.

[@kaedingphillips9321]

Lilun_ ordinary ikr i have never cried for a show but I cry all the time for this one especially when dean cries

[@duncant6364]

I love that little clip where Cas says, "You think you don't deserve to be saved." And he says it in such a confused voice. Like, 'but you're so wonderful'

[@lana_shipley04]

You-Know -Poo ikr it hurts me to see dean like this, and it makes me wanna cry.

[@emmahente5061]

I can help others but not myself

[@medalia7622]

yess :’(

[@shakj6707]

he is such a broken hero. My heart goes out to him

[@tabeaternus3617]

Dean is the actual representation of a depressed person bc you don't always seeing it and at first they don't kill themselves but acting that reckless without thinking of the consequenses you might die is a depressed behaviour. Its damn time that these charakters get appreciated ( and their frecking good actors too of course)

[@Deadbeauty999]

You will live me always you have to work mind set of the end that is acomplishment to what you seek o love do drugs by self just see what yo u feel may help but fix. The bad that's mind sent

[@Deadbeauty999]

L

[@officialmaxrebo]

dean is such a realistic depiction of what having depression is like. he uses humor to cope with his fear, his trauma, and sadness. he doesn’t live for himself, he lives for others. he knows that if sam really died, that he would’ve killed himself a long time ago. he misunderstands his place, believing that he doesn’t matter. that nothing matters. the only thing he believes matters is protecting sam, something he’s done all his life. never showing his emotion-eventually it’s almost as if they all drained out a long time ago. he doesn’t care about himself. in fact, he shows self harming and suicidal tendencies with the way he takes care of himself (or lack there of). he doesn’t care if he dies. he wants to. but he can’t leave the people he loves. and that’s the hardest part. he doesn’t know how long he has to stay.

[@lauradufresne6628]

👏👏 you captured dean so well!!!

[@dustinmenezes559]

💯

[@hilal_w]

This is so true, He was always ready to die for his loved ones

[@win-chan4876]

Dean is such a deep and complex character and you managed to depict him perfectly!

[@emmaxedits]

Thank you so much! What a compliment ... Means a lot :)

[@rebeccashannon8320]

I agree 1000 percent!!!!

[@mikeharris615]

Jensen brought to life through his character the very essence of depression and self loathing. He made me open my eyes to my own demons that I refused to deal with because I told myself all the time that I'm ok. I always keep fighting everyday and hope that someday I'll make a difference in mine or someone else's life by me just being here one more day but even at the end of the day I feel completely worthless and empty inside.

[@souhilaxa]

what made Dean so brave is facing Death that many times, going through it and coming back undefeated, but we're all cowards coz we hold on to life to badly.

[@BasicBrute]

Sam and Dean deserve a happy ending

[@electricpuddle1320]

I have a feeling the show ends with them both dying side by side like it was meant to be they keep teasing it they have never died together its always been seprate i have a feeling thats how the show ends

[@williamveisamasama9792]

Too much Salt man that would suck

[@LeagueOfLegendsMuvi]

Big story does never ends with good ending.

[@giadaparmigiani8935]

@@electricpuddle1320 I remember that once they died together, in 5×16, they both are killed by two hunters, and so they go to Heaven.

[@bbrrrr6736]

"If there's a God out there why would he give a crap about me" "What am I supposed to do" "Should've stayed dead" "I'm past saving" Some fine lines by Dean himself♡

[@junejohn4023]

Poor Dean, he always has such a low opinion of himself. This is a wonderful vid, you did a great job editing it, and I love how clearly his freckles show in some of the clips!

[@emmaxedits]

He really does deserve better ... Also, thank you SO much! I know right; thanks to the colouring for highlighting them! Gotta love his freckles

[@BurlixDoesntMiss]

emmaxedits this is how I feel sometimes. 😖

[@multifandomedits5779]

Dean is a damaged person a broken person he didn't deserve all this pain or how parents

[@TheTwins90]

what you did here is a proof Jensen Acless need a Oscar or two. An Emmy maybe? WOW! WOW! WOW! THIS IS MASTERPIECE! Simple edition but powerful message. "You're special Dean, you need to see that" - you wanna say after watching. WONDERFUL PIECE OF ART! ♥♥♥♥♥

[@emmaxedits]

I agree, Jensen is a marvelous actor! Thank you so so much! :)

[@theresacastanheira7580]

"I'm poison", "I don't matter", "i'm past saving" 😭 i just wish Dean could see how amazing he is, not just a pretty face, a pure heart, an amazing man !! A man who never had a chance to be a kid because he always was a father, a Mother, a brother, a best friend of his young brother... When i say i love Dean Winchester i mean all of this. He's just a character from a TV show but its so easy to conect with the characters of spn. I love you Dean and i really hope you don't die in the end 🙏🏻 or Sam and Cass

[@connorhicks4134]

They all go to heaven in the end

[@theresacastanheira7580]

@@connorhicks4134 i know now 😅

[@brendanichols7755]

The pain Dean has gone through. You depicted his life perfectly.

[@MrOphen]

I feel just like dean, I’m too tired of everything that has happened, my mistakes, the horrible things that I’ve been through I’m so broken I don’t wanna suffer anymore

[@nabsm1287]

You kinda just made my day cuz you made me remember that even if I don't care what happens to my life anymore I still want to jump in when people say they are so thanks random stranger also I think you're worth it

[@ok-eu5pw]

MrOphen to be honest...not trying to gain any attention...but I do feel like dean . My whole life ...it just like dean is representing me

[@dustinmenezes559]

Same

[@dustinmenezes559]

Me too

[@melikeceylan284]

*I can't stop watching this. It's hurts everytime but i love this video. That shows us, the feelings from dean and how he has to fight against the devil thoughts about himself. Really i can't stop crying.*

[@emmaxedits]

I hope you're okay!

[@maddyfields7788]

This is the most accurate representation of Dean. Of course, it's the side of him he hates for people to see. Out of all of the edits I've seen, this has to be one of the most meticulously edited and well done edits. Most of them lack voiceovers, proper editing, and good music. I also like how the voiceovers don't interfere with the music. I had to download it so I could keep it xD

[@emmaxedits]

Wow! That's one hell of a compliment, thank you very much!! I'm flattered :)

[@MichikoArashi]

Could you please tell me how can you download videos from youtube?

[@viiiiiiiiiiiiiicky]

I love how you manipulated te voiceovers to make them seem like questions-replies, for ex: Sam: "this isn't you", Dean: "I don't know" then female character (forgot who says that) "all you do is fail !" Dean: "i guess it's what i do" it really sounds like depression talking... Anyway you owe me a glass of whisky after this

[@emmaxedits]

Wow, thank you so much! I really wanted to use as many voiceovers as possible in this one, and I'm glad you noticed the "details," or how to speak. If only it was possible to virtually send you a glass of whisky, I would!

[@viiiiiiiiiiiiiicky]

emmaxedits you're welcome and don't worry about the glass X)

[@babybluejayy]

Mary says “all you do is fail”

[@tamara_orf]

And pie

[@alex_grudew4009]

Dean is deep person .. af

[@aelinwhitethorn8675]

Fuck Reality as deep as the hole in his chest when metatron stabs him

[@slasherlady]

Someone give Ackles his damn Oscar already. 💖

[@lana_shipley04]

Dean, you never once deserved the horrible things that happened to you. You have made mistakes, but we all have. You deserve a happy ending, along with Sam. Never give up, I know it hurts. It will get better.

[@masa8498]

Lana Winchester 😭😭 amazing words

[@spillthattea2370]

Dean is such a deep person and you really showed this. This is by far one of my favourite edits.

[@danaefoulani2665]

What a depressing yet beautiful video, it gave me chills. It describes the character of Dean perfectly, even though he is so deep and complex... The only thing I want to do now is give him a hug. The great acting by Jensen Ackles combined with your editing gave us a masterpiece.

[@emmaxedits]

Wow, thank you so so much!! Means a lot :)

[@lia-xo4zn]

Sometimes i forget how sad he really is because he's hiding iz

[@Gislefrost]

Videos with an emotional impact are the best. This captured my emotions perfectly. Remarkable! I loved it!

[@emmaxedits]

Thank you so much! :)

[@fridagutfelt1914]

Looked for sad Dean and then I find that AND NF in the SAME VIDEO. BLESS YOU

[@emmaxedits]

Bless you for watching haha! :)

[@tayydaniels7997]

Seeing Dean broken breaks me so much and him crying gets me every time when he brakes down I brake down 😭😭 I can’t help it he has been acting so strong pushing how he feels deep down inside him so no one sees when he knows there is something wrong he knows he feels empty and it makes me feel empty when he feels this way

[@daniguerra-martin2436]

Damn the lyrics of this song went perfectly in describing how broken Dean Winchester really is.

[@CatyProductions494]

ahhhhhh I'm in love with this song, and then this video shows up in my timeline, and it's amazing, so you may know what happened. I'm dead.

[@emmaxedits]

Aw thank you so much!

[@CatyProductions494]

You're welcome

[@coffee-lc]

I have watched millions of sad amvs of supernatural, but this is by far the best one and i havent been able to find anything that beats it.

[@emmaxedits]

Wow. That's a huge compliment! Thank you so so much, that's incredibly sweet of you :)

[@coffee-lc]

emmaxedits omg i love you. Great, im flipping out cos the creator replied to me...

[@G_camacho]

Never thought NF could go so perfectly anywhere! Genius!

[@Dnez44]

My hero Dean Wincester! Who doesn't love him for being vulnerable and real

[@cMp6323daG]

i could watch this over and over again... it's pefect ! great job

[@emmaxedits]

Aww thank you so much! .x

[@crazy_anime6931]

Everytimes dean crys i cry and everytime he dies i feel like part of my heart is gone he is amazing and that why i love to watch supernatural!

[@certifiedpuddlejumper4574]

This.. Just this.... is the BEST edit I have ever seen for Dean. I have watched many, and nothing even comes close to what you have created!. You captured all of his tragic torment and pain so powerfully! This truly broke my heart. Your work is beyond words, you have such an amazing talent! Thank you! I can’t wait for your next one!

[@emmaxedits]

Laura Pappert I honestly don't know what to say. I mean, wow, that is such a compliment! Thank you so so so much! It means a lot to me! I hope it didn't break your heart too much :)

[@moonlight_haze]

i just finished the show for the first time today so now im just binge watching supernatural edits 😭 this edit is so heartbreakingly beautiful. dean deserved better :(

[@emmaxedits]

Quite the journey! Thank you so much, and he sure did :(

[@n91r]

I love Supernatural to my heart, watching this made me cry. Amazing video❤

[@BeatrizGF1]

Awesoome video! Showed all the things Dean went through. I need hug him right now... Great job!

[@emmaxedits]

Thank you so much! I wish I could give him a hug, too :(

[@BeatrizGF1]

Right? :(

[@danayehya890]

I can't explain how obsessed i am with these edits 🥺🥺 they portray the brothers, especially Dean, in an invigorating way 😭

[@cailinmccann5311]

“Name one hero who was happy.”

[@victoriakruger8845]

these videos make me so emotional, i truly hurt and feel for these characters

[@b-lily5215]

I love the song and you tied it in perfectly in this video with Dean and it almost made me cry. So sad to see a hero fall apart over and over. I loved it

[@emmaxedits]

I Am Delusional thank you so much for your kind words!

[@kayluelee]

Nooo wayyy!! NF plus supernatural?! Great video and choice of music!!

[@ShaDoNuK]

Kay Christie tu est français

[@madasandwich7009]

Dean’s self loathing really resonates with a lot of fans, and this video captures it well

[@HimmelBlau081]

I watched many Edits, but this song, the clips are perfect chosen really great edit :D In hard times u feel this character.

[@emmaxedits]

Thank you so much!

[@MrOphen]

And the saddest thing is that some people have gone through so much pain, not in the same way but like dean, feeling hopeless and lost

[@pepsikid1030]

I feel the same. I love supernatural the actors are so perfect for this.

[@romyisbored]

I don't know what I'm feeling now, you truly put in every small detail of how dean deals with things and his problems, it's really great 💜

[@soul7445]

Okay I knew I was gonna cry and still watched this. Now excuse me I have to watch more depressive videos

[@summerbarker995]

Ohhhhh myyyyy worddddddd that was amazing editing and Jensen/Dean never ceases to make me cry

[@emmaxedits]

Thank you so much!

[@sana6024]

This is such a powerful video😭 I'm literally crying seeing all the pain Dean has been through😭😭 thank you for this video❤️

[@emmaxedits]

Thank you so much for your comment! Means a lot :)

[@sana6024]

@@emmaxedits your welcome👍☺️

[@dianas2754]

My boy NF and my boy Dean all in one, love it ❤️

[@tracy9570]

As it ended, I whispered to myself, "Well that's just a giant ball of pain." Wow this hurts like so so much but it's also so incredibly well done and I just... wow. The voiceovers playing over Dean's most gut-wrenching moments, knowing how completely dead he is inside and worthless he feels, it honestly breaks my heart. I was never supposed to feel like this about a fictional character but if there is one character that feels far from fictional, it's Dean. I just hurt now. Thank you.

[@emmaxedits]

Aw, thank you, thank you, thank you! I definitely got a bit emotional whilst editing this one, realising just how much Dean has suffered

[@tracy9570]

@@emmaxedits I would question your humanity if you didn't get emotional! ;) By the way, your clips are just stunning HD, are they Bluray or iTunes or..? It's gorgeous!

[@emmaxedits]

​@@tracy9570 I'm pretty sure they're all 1080p (HD) but some might be 720p (especially the older episodes). Plus I added a colouring + sharpen to all the clips

[@tracy9570]

@@emmaxedits Goodness they're so beautiful, I've never seen Dean's freckles like I have in this video, haha. Fantastic work!

[@tammywelch3823]

My two favs. NF and Supernatural. Thank you.

[@skylertomesek5441]

This is the best dean Winchester edit I’ve ever seen!

[@emmaxedits]

Wow, thank you so much!

[@ry4nx]

great vid, makes me want to rewatch all the seasons over.

[@Jerronimooo]

When they say 'This isn't you', and Dean says "I don't know", it hit home... I feel the same way

[@marnobroodryk]

I can't get enough of your channel... thank you 👍

[@emmaxedits]

Marno Broodryk thank you!! :)

[@nickwoyurka6820]

5 years later and here I am again ❤

[@samna2096]

Dean and NF's voice, it's just great

[@AndreaWard-p2f]

Wow so amazing man you are im here for you allways

[@anirakirella6286]

This is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. You did such an amazing job!

[@emmaxedits]

That's so sweet, thank you so so much!

[@williamveisamasama9792]

The Song suits everything about Dean Winchester and tbh it’s the best one I’ve ever seen keep up the awesome work

[@emmaxedits]

What a compliment! Wow! Thank you so much :)

[@gabrielleantille8008]

Casually watching sad supernatural edits on Easter to make me cry. This is so good by the way

[@Alaine5811]

Amazing! EPIC! I love the voiceover and editing!

[@emmaxedits]

Thank you so much! Glad you like it :)

[@tareqaljuaid8751]

Thank you so much for this video, I love you 💙

[@clintoncampbell-smith1228]

that is the best way to explain how i feel! awesome vid. love super!

[@emmaxedits]

Thank you! I hope you'll be alright

[@fs3743]

Why do I relate so much to this? 😭

[@marissa3867]

This was absolutely perfect 💖 the best video of Dean that I've seen in a long time 😁 please make more just like this!

[@emmaxedits]

Wow thank you so much!!

[@KittyGrammy]

Jenson Ackles is so heartbreaking. But I love his portrayal of Dean. I feel everything

[@CrAziAngel]

This is my favorite edit of all time.. I love it because it hurts the most.. I fucking love the pain

[@lexietavares7199]

Okay I don’t usually comment on things but this is just so good I’ve seen so many dean edits you nailed it it’s so perfect it makes me wanna run up to him and hug him 😢

[@emmaxedits]

Aw,​ thank you so much! Means a lot :)

[@soullessseraph6154]

This Vid needs more views. Period.

[@nataliemejia515]

Thank you for making me cry

[@KittyGrammy]

I miss my mom. She passed from cancer in 2005. I was diagnosed April this year.. I just didn't care but i found other videos and family like this. Thank you Jenson/Dean💜💜💜💜

[@mannheimratcake7836]

i'm crying

[@rachelpham21]

im crying Why am i on a spree of sad dean edits Why do i relate to him

[@JessicabelliciMa1]

That is the one of detailed video abt a character study of Dean. I love him so much great video by the way. 😘

[@giginura236]

I will always love you DEAN-JENSEN😍

[@electricpuddle1320]

To of my fav things in one video dean winchester and NF such a fitting aong

[@mynewworld0409]

I love this Video, it's so sad...but a great Work, Jensen is an amazing Actor and Person !

[@emmaxedits]

Thank you very much :)

[@joandracaraballo276]

IovethisVideo,ltsosadbutagreatWork

[@samv4448]

I started to cry. And stared to get depressed

[@masa8498]

samantha vivero me too😭

[@xsemi-automaticx2038]

Ouch. That hurts.

[@maulikmehrotra9277]

Dean is the kind of person I want to be.the one who keeps trying against immeasurable odds

[@tojin]

Besides Sam (of course), Cas has played the biggest role in Dean in my opinion. - "What's the matter? You don't think you deserve to be saved.." (Loved the way Cas stared and whispered btw) - A very important turning point for Dean pre & post self-acceptance triggered by his Gardian Angel. - No matter who died, Dean somehow overcome and accepted it knowing their mission comes with tragic losses, until Cas died in S12 causing him to stopped believing in their mission. (Then after when Cas was back, his mood made a 180 turn) - "You are like our brother, I want you to know that" to Cas. The only one besides Sam whom Dean accepted as his brother, and possibly the only best friend Dean ever had (or love of the life, as my guilty pleasure lol)

[@goknurozbudak5896]

he is beatifulll

[@chuchokcf]

i cryed more than ever in my hole life, because i fell like shit, i think the same about me when he said " i know how you fell when you look to mirror, and hate what you see"

[@aryamgandhi2126]

What an awesomely emotional video. Excellent work broo... 😘😘

[@xboxfreaks7618]

Name a better supernatural edit. I'll wait😉

[@sarv9628]

i can't stop crying💔

[@ardedits540]

Looking at doing an edit for supernatural in the future but gotta rewatch the show to see the emotional parts again. Killer video, always loved his character

[@emmaxedits]

Thank you so much! Good luck with your edit :)

[@Doobies34]

The worst part is when he his inevitably dying you can tell he has accepted it but he still looks worried that his brother won’t be able to make it without him

[@wywardmoose]

This hurts to the bottom of my soul, because I can relate so hard. This is amazing

[@emmaxedits]

Remember, you're not alone. I wish you the best. And thank you so much :)

[@dichealburn217]

I'm going back to the numbness the depression the fact that I can't believe in anything anymore I can't change no medicine is going to help me

[@sarahatknn]

time to go drink and cry

[@acinnor4633]

I am dead now. This is the best video ever! All these feels... I thought I would never feel this again by SPN especially with Dean but this video omg. It let me feel again 💙🔥💞😍💙🔥💞😍💙

[@emmaxedits]

Wow, thank you so much!! I'm glad it made you feel something :)

[@JessicabelliciMa1]

You did a great job here dean is ly fave since the first season and i see myself in him...😪

[@onenighthope9851]

This video just shows that there is literally no show (I MEAN IT) where a character has LOST MORE than Dean, Cas and Sam in Supernatural 😭😭😭😭😭 it’s making me so sad

[@hayden2503]

Im...crying. I feel just like dean...But we can always get threw this

[@emmaxedits]

ᎻᎪNNᎪᎻ ᏚᎢᎬᏞᏞY I'm really sorry you feel like that. I wish you the best .x