dear diary...i don't want to grow up. (turning 21 in nyc)

[@Jasminekuwonu]

I’m turning 16 in two months and even I’m still young I still resonate with “I don’t wanna grow up”

[@immaloaf4091]

That’s so fun! Happy early early birthday 🎉 enjoy being a teen while it lasts ♡ soak up all the moments

[@Anna_the_torturedpoet]

Me yesterday it was my 16 birthday I cried at midnight lol it’s weird being 16

[@scarliekarma1390]

I hope you have a great 16th birthday! Mine's in 11 days and I'm terrified. 😊

[@moths.for.valentine]

As odd as it sounds the best years are still ahead of u

[@Anna_the_torturedpoet]

@@scarliekarma1390 aww thank you you too! You got this!!!

[@taeitadori]

idk why but i cried a little while watching the beginning, me who just turned 20, those words hit hard. love you dobo and a very happy birthday 💞

[@LorenaSang]

This channel has become a corner of peace and calm on yt for me.

[@princessofslytherin4495]

I'm turning 19 tomorrow, and starting college a few days later and it feels so surreal. I'm still not ready to be an adult and start making these life altering decision. Hopefully if I just take things at my own pace and make decisions as the need arises, everything will turn out good. I'm excited to see what the next year will bring us

[@TatianeAlves]

I just turn 37 and I can assure to you that we have the same feeling about adulting... I love listening Brazilian songs in your vlogs... Thanks for the good inspiration! Big Hug From Brazil!!! 💛✨

[@lisamgreenleaf]

Haha I know right?! I'm 41 & I've learnt we are all faking it til we make it! None of us know what we're doing 😂😂

[@disconnectedconnected]

i never thought about how scary growing up could be until now, it feels so alien. it is so scary to take of of your life, making big decisions..i dont feel like im ready for it, but was i ever ready? i wasnt ready to graduate to middle school, and i definitely wasnt ready for high school, when you think about it you can never be ready for life, and that's the charm. there are some friends you outgrow and make new ones same goes hobbies and your passions. what is important is to keep your family and morals close to you..live in the moment and let life go on

[@zezo_o2]

Very well said

[@disconnectedconnected]

@@zezo_o2 i feel so flattered rn, thank you so much today was a slightly rough day for me this made so happy. thank you so much

[@zezo_o2]

Im glad it made u happy💕 have a greatt dayy U are amazingg!!

[@thecreatorlaurenchi]

as someone going into their senior year of college I feel you. The fear of the unknown future is BAD but luckily we aren’t alone. Happy freaking Birthday girl and thanks for the video!

[@giuloss]

I’m turning 20 in a little over two weeks! I’ve been looking for internship opportunities here in my country, I started to drive myself to college, and a lot of changes have been happening. At the same time that I’m excited for all this new experiences, I also don’t want things to change (and have a little bit more time to be a teenager, to be honest). But as my therapist would say to me: life changes, it’s inevitable, and the best we can do is embrace them and grow with them! It’s a comforting way to think for me, and has helped me a lot to process everything 😊

[@daisydudu]

She always comes up with such good videos I can literally feel the words in my soul

[@dobochobo]

:'') ily

[@omosav]

I don't want to grow up either- I feel like my classmates and friends all ache for that sensation of growing up, to be more adult like, to be more "cooler"- But I never saw the reason for it, or cared. A message to anyone reading this: Enjoy life as you want it not how others want it!!!

[@mollyannzhihua04]

As a Swedish person I’m proud to see DESENIO sponsoring her video. I have three prints from there and I love them 😊❤️ (I’m turning 20 in just a few months and I still can’t believe it 🙈)

[@babyorangutan]

thank u for this vlog deborah,,, as someone who turned 18, 19, and now 20 during covid times i find it rlly important to talk about the fact that many of us don't feel connected with our new age, and are kinda stuck in our old pre-covid age. i really resonate with not feeling like an adult either, even though i am now, and it was really refreshing to hear you talk about it in this way.

[@fromneptune7254]

You're not alone on this :") We might have a different age, different experiences but I'm going to my senior year of high school rn, yet I've felt like I've grown too fast and now I seem to be out of place everytime... It doesn't feel right to grow up, I don't want to grow up and i wish i could be like peter pan. I've been following you since the pandemic and seeing your videos almost every week has been one of the most constant things in my life. Somehow it feels like I've grown up "with" you. You have done INCREDIBLE things deb, and as irrelevent as it may sound, i am extremely proud of you and how far you've gone. Your birthday has already passed but I will say it again because you deserve to celebrate your life every singlay, happy birthday!! I wish you all the best and all the smiles you've given me x 100000 (that means infinite smiles). I also wish you meaningfull and non meaningful moments too and that your life is filled with all the emotions possible, even the bad ones because they help us see how valuable the good ones are :3 Love you

[@vankaay]

"I don't feel like an adult but does anyone really" is so real. I wonder if it's just us that lived through the pandemic or if everybody feels like that at some point. Happy belated bday doby!!

[@lisamgreenleaf]

I've just turned 41 and it really hits me at times how quickly the last 20 years and gone, and in another 20 I'll be 61! But it also makes me take a deep breath, grab my life (even the scary bits) and keep moving, keep laughing and keep living 🎉❤

[@kadygrant]

it literally feels like since 2020 time just froze and so did my mindset tbh. like when covid started i was 16, just starting 11th grade, having all those important exams, and i couldn't meet with my friends and they closed down the schools for one and a half years, and idk, i've never felt the same since. still stuck at 16, feeling like i'm waiting for something to happen or like i forgot something, but no. it's so trippy and weird..

[@itsavianyways]

I can relate so bad to this. My 20th birthday was on Wednesday, and before the day came I spent it crying because I didn’t want to grow older, and honestly I am really scare of my future… but this year was actually one of the best days of my life. Thank you for posting this 🫂 And i wish you the best in life, happiness and love too 🤍🧡

[@Zahyuki]

I totally hear u Deborah, Im turning 20 next month and Im so not ready to be out of the 'Teen' numbers category )"

[@NurAina__yournaaa]

I hope you are thankful for your day because I really admire the beauty of your life

[@thegrimlooper]

I turn 24 this year. Honestly? I didn’t think I would live past 16. Life has always been tough, but it’s been worth it. Even the horrible things, I wouldn’t change to ensure I have the people I have now. But it’s still so crazy to look back and see, “wow. I actually made it.” 😅❤

[@aleahscottage]

I just turned 18, and it was really strange. Because all of a sudden I'm an adult with more responsibilities, but I want to be a happy child. It sucks. But it's also amazing and freeing at the same time. Thank you for being here for us to grow up with.

[@053shamaelashabonti5]

I'm 22 (soon to be 23) but still don't feel like 22 :") May be all the adults who are in their 20s are still a kid :3 also cheers to your first drink! It's good to see you grow & it's more like we are growing together!

[@Mary-kw2wq]

you make art with your vlogs, and that is why you are one of the few vloggers that i actually watch. it feels like you actually put your personality into your vlogs and genuinely want to make a connection with your viewers. thanks for the effort you put in to the videos you make

[@mlaura8697]

It’s incredibly frustrating how time is going so fast 🥲 This year I’m going to college and my brain can’t process I’m no longer 15 (I’m still stuck in pandemic lol). Adult life is around the corner & I DON’T WANT TO💔 we share the feeling of being awareness abt growing so fast, Dobo; it’s fine to feel like that 😢💗 let’s live happily:) the future is brilliant (even if we don’t think that way, it’d be 🌷)

[@kttsuo]

the intro to the video really made me cry. i turned 17 a bit ago, which means hey now its road to 18! which is scary. i do want to grow up, i have to. but it sucks, and i'm scared. your channel and you make me feel better. your inspiring, motivating, and amazing. your my comfort ytuber, thank you and have the best bday ever!

[@funkytweekkkk]

Happy (late) Birthday Debs!!! It's quite nice to see you enjoy your life. I'm so glad you're doing the things you want to.

[@dudat128]

i'm 21 too! growing up it's so scared, and when i was a child i wished so hard to be a adult but now i'm wanna to go back :') btw happy late birthday

[@celiabee4263]

You captured the exact feeling I felt when I turned 21 recently. It feels like I’m supposed to have figured everything out, but right now I’m more confused about my future then I was at 18. I guess that’s part of the process though!

[@A88-p5e]

it still baffles me that Americans can't legally drink until their last year of college. Anyway, I'm 24 and reading the comments made me feel old. But if it makes anyone feel any better I still feel just as young as I did when I was 19. I'm back at university part-time and I'm still figuring things out, going on adventures, making new friends. I also didn't want to "grow up" but actually it happens pretty naturally and you're definitely not very old even into your late 20s. I'm only a 6 year old adult after all and I'm still figuring things out!! I still have the same wonder and life in me as when I was a teenager, but now just so much wiser and more confident. Change is scary but humans adapt quickly. The more you accept and welcome change into your life, the more you start to thrive in it. Getting older really is a blessing and I can only see that now I'm approaching my mid-twenties. Speaking with people in their thirties made me realise that you can live multiple lifetimes in your twenties. I met a 34 year old recently who was a nurse, then a chef, then a counsellor and is now back at university. A whole lifetime of experiences wrapped up into one very interesting person. You have so much time, just remember to take a breath here and there and enjoy the moment ❤

[@hydrofrolicwildflower3393]

wdym? Drinking in college isn't even good-

[@A88-p5e]

@@hydrofrolicwildflower3393 it's not that, it's more than in my country, once you're in college you're an adult and can do anything you want because you're already 18. It's crazy to me in the US that full blown adults in college technically aren't legally allowed to drink until their final year or maybe even when finished college. Plus, a lot of the fun of university is discovering clubbing and partying while you still have the time. Here, if you had to wait until 21 to drink legally and actually followed the law, you would already be out of college and have a full-time job most likely. I get Americans are in college for longer but just blows my mind is all. Not that it really stops college students from drinking anyway. I think I would understand more if the voting age was 21 also, but it's weird to me that legal adults at 18 - 20 can't buy or drink alcohol but can vote??

[@bl_aigel]

the words from your intro really hit me and i totally agree with not wanting to grow up yet wanting to grow at the same time! it truly displays how time is precious and that we should cherish every moment. happy belated b-day !!!

[@snober1591]

HAPPY 21st LIVE LONG AND HAPPY GIRLLL

[@DeSireeAlicea19]

Hi! I’ve been watching since the pandemic and I understand the sort of woos of growing up and being considered an adult for the first time. The pandemic robbed me of my early 20s so now I’m in my late 20s feeling like I didn’t fully get that experience to be a late 20something. Anyways, I just want everyone to know that you’re still you no matter how old you get. Your interests don’t have to change if you don’t want them to. And it’s another year that you’re on this earth which is always a blessing! Happy birthday and looks like the new go pro is a lot of fun 🤩

[@sneliee]

I'm feeling the exact same way that you described in the beginning of your video... I am turning 21 on Monday and every birthday feels scarier!! I am also graduating college this year ;( But adulthood has never been described to us and I think I prefer to not know what it really is, so I can relate my "own adulthood" if that makes sense :))) I wish you all the best for this new year of your life!!! I also wanted to thank you for all these beautiful videos that you post, they truly are an inspiration

[@Dp123-zw7ks]

This is what all people want. I am 20 and I can also relate you . I am also seems to a different person outside but actually an INFJ who want a peaceful life. But still I will work on and one day hope it will be satisfied future where I don't have to compromise and will get what I wanted. Thank you for posting realistic and motivational video which will keep me going through this period.💚💚💚

[@bangtanrelief4829]

Same here bro I'm also INFJ .. All the best for your upcoming time 😊

[@ltr.vincent]

I'm turning 20 next year and i can't imagine myself being in my 20s. I want to stay 18 for the rest of my life. Getting older is terrifying but at the same time i know that my 20s are going to be my best years.

[@hydrofrolicwildflower3393]

Same here! I'm 19 and I'm kinda scared to turn 20 next year but kinda excited !

[@rirriifr]

the way I relate to this. i am turning 19 in a month, and the thought of turning 20 in 2024 is so depressing to me. i just hate to think of it. it’s absolutely frightening.

[@Namyuna94]

I'm 23 and I'm turning 24 the next month, I feel the same. I don't want to grow up, with ages the number of responsabilities grow up too :(

[@UnknownUser_10]

We are almost exactly the same age. Turning 25 next month ✌🏻

[@ragaz2i]

Omg i'm so happy that you used a bossa nova song (one of brazilian tradicional type of music)!! I love your videos and them really inspire me. Good luck with that new phase of your life, I desire only the best things in the world for u ❤ love ya!!

[@ritasauer6341]

Be who God created you to be and you’ll set the world on fire.

[@sheeesh2347]

Yaay! New video🎉🎉 And I really understand you. I'm just so scared of my future. Cause we can't know what is going to happen next. But we need to keep going? I'm sure we are. No matter what.

[@LisetBautista-p9c]

I just turned 21 too🥳I still feel a little lost but I go day by day💕hope you had a wonderful birthday

[@sophianatasha194]

as a 25 year old watching this, I still don't feel my age and also don't know where I'm going with my life. and that's okay!!!

[@poppycalliope]

I'm turing 28 in a few days and i still feel like 21 was yesterday! Time does fly by. Hope you had the loveliest birthday Deb ❤ love the go pro footage ✨️

[@sophiad548]

really appreciate how you keep your SO private. it's sweet 💛

[@beakkun_]

Ohh brazilian music, is gratifying to see my culture around the world. It's been a long time that I didn't see your videos, and Deborah, has a incredible changes, good changes, I liked so much. Good luck in your new adventure.

[@erleen5226]

Wow this video really struck me. Turns out we are birthday twins!! I also turned 21 on July 10th and I graduated college back in April. Time really does feel so precious and fleeting and remembering to be present can help us hold it all together. Thank you so much for your videos!

[@jessicas5538]

your videos are so lovely! my mom watched a few back to back during a rainy afternoon with fresh popped popcorn and it was cozy perfection. thank u for being u!! and pls keep making more videos - you're my fav corner of yt

[@NextLevelStudios]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YAAAAAAY!!!! You’re such a beautiful person and your videos always bring so much joy, hope, and inspiration into my life. Not knowing what’s in store for the future is really scary but taking life one day at a time the way you do is the best way to do it! Congratulations on turning TWENTY ONE YAAAAAAY!!!!

[@elijahjohndatuin6498]

Hi deb, I’ve been watching you for a year now! (Aka The end of winter vlog) I can’t believe your going to graduate in a year😭. I’m so sad but happy for you at the same time! I’m going into 8th grade and you helped me push forward through the trauma of middle school. You inspire me so much and I really look up to you. I hope that when your feeling down that you have your subscribers always looking up to you and just commenting something nice to you! I

[@Just_Cynthia]

Happy belated birthday Deborah!!🎉🎉 I can't help but identify with your monologue at the beginning of the video. I believe that, regardless of age, these things happen to all of us, at different times in life. I am also dealing with several problems and I want to think that I will get over it and you, who are even younger than me, will do it and you will be great!😊 Even in the darkest moments, we must enjoy all the little things that make us feel happy!!!☺ Thank you for sharing these thoughts with us!! You can do it!! Have a nice day/night Dobo!!❤

[@henny3738]

Hey deb!!! Over the years I’ve watched your videos I’ve seen you grow soooo much and it makes me so happy to see you enjoying these moments and sharing them with us! Ngl the beginning of the video really hit home for me 🥹 personally I am so very lost when it comes to what I want to be and what I want to do in the future and whenever I think about it I get very anxious and worried, so knowing that other people also have no clue sometimes, makes me feel better :). I just wanted to wish u a (late) happy birthday and I hope u will continue to blossom ❤ love you loadsss

[@raevenne_]

i turned 22 last january and the "I don't wanna grow up" hits hard 🥲 kinda ironic to think that when we're kids we were eager to grow up fast but now looking back gives me so much nostalgia and reflection abt life in general ✨ indeed, you only live once and the way the number of our age increases so does our growth as an individual and i think that is beautiful 🤍 Happy birthday Deborah! 🎂🎉

[@AP2807]

Tbh after college life has been really hard for me, but the best part it's that everything is an adventure and there are so many possibilities, i try to take it to the positive side but sometimes i feel very lonely, still, your videos help me appreciate little things in my life, feliz cumpleaños Deborah! Gracias por tus videos! 🌻

[@kittyphom]

I’m turning 17 in a month. Each year, I feel like I’m getting old and even more depressed. I feel like I’m running out of time. But… Happy 21st Birthday🎂

[@haldiroot]

I get that feeling! For me, I know what I want, but there's something about having to put in so much effort into big choices that just feels so pressuring and exhausting. I'm slowly trying to find ways to branch out and be content with my life now, while also finding a way to work towards a better future.

[@estanabelle]

¡So cute! Happy 21st Birthday 🌟

[@anagxx2446]

the brazilian music in the background warmed my heart💕💌🇧🇷

[@Charreyy]

You're so wholesome! Happy birthday! 🎉

[@s0ohia]

you posting this video on my birthday is so funny, I was just thinking about how weird it is to be 19. I still feel 12

[@hydrofrolicwildflower3393]

FRRR

[@tessarose8430]

happy belated birthday! thank you for feeding us such pure, wholesome, aesthetic, comforting content and for being such a lovely human. i'm 23 and i also feel the pressure of time slipping away. but you enjoying your life and celebrating your birthday with loved ones is exactly how to make the most of your time! you're on the right track, and things will work out

[@moonsxs]

we love you so much

[@jaydenglover5033]

gurl you look so cute and elegant in that dress!!!

[@automnesleaves]

Fellow Cancer here too! Always loved your vibes and vlogs, so glad to see we are sun mates 😊 Happy Belated Birthday!

[@susanateixeira7515]

Veryveryveryveryveryveryveryveryvery Happy birthday Deborah!!!!❤️❤️❤️I hope you have the most beautiful time!!!!!!!!!

[@hyrishwasacharacter]

Hi deb finding your channel was one of my favorite thing that happened. Im turning 17 this winter and i been following you since i was 15 and at my lowest point. Because of your vids i started romanticizing the life i wanted. Thank you for sharing a piece of you that gave me life.❤ HB

[@giselemendez1020]

happy belated birthday deb!! the monologue at the beginning was so beautiful! I’m so grateful that you are sharing this part of your life with us!

[@mafechaves4012]

I love u so much and I'm also turning 21 this week and it feels so scary and new at the same time 🌟🌟

[@srariuvu169]

Te conocí gracias a una plantilla de notion, y después de estar viendo algunos de tus videos me diste muy buenas vibras, feliz cumpleaños y espero que lo pases bien :D 🤍

[@moths.for.valentine]

Idk why but it makes me so happy to hear you're still with ur partner omg

[@MistyLaShay]

Definitely can relate, I turned 22 this past April and I've still been in that teen mindset and it still has yet to hit me that I'm actually not a child anymore but with that comes the realization that that's okay and everyone is really just a big kid and no one really knows what they're doing so I take my journey one day at a time and let things come and go as they please ❤ because if one things for certain, its always gonna work out for the better even if its not as you planned 🪽

[@Nkookdmin_07]

DEB!! I’ve been following you since what, 2021?? And oh my god Im so proud of you, 21!! Lets go!! You’ve developed so much as a human and I’ve seen you get sick, get stressed and most of all, get happy and excited! I guess you could say that I’ve kinda grown up with you too. You reduced the anxiety of like, oh god a *year* has passed! And just helped me de stress in a lot of situations. I can’t believe I missed these vlogs because of my finals!! AHHH! Well, better late than never so.. thank you so so much! Here’s to another year 🥂✨! Love you so so much. Seriously.

[@lazulizuli]

the brazilian song, omg! sending you some love from brazil 💚

[@jazz_vieira]

never grown up from taylor swift describes our feelings. happy birthday deb, lots of love for u from brazil

[@starsstyx]

I follow you for a long time and i can't keep my tears because i feel like i see you evolve and it makes me so happy and so confused at the same time. I don't want to grow up, i fear the futur but i have no choice, i feel block. It kinda confort me to see that i am not the only one ! Thanks, like always ! ❤

[@irbiswirbis]

thank you so much for the video, and the captions 💚💚💚! i love your channel and seeing you grow so much, its so soothing to know that its okay to not feel ready to be an adult yet, especially as a 17 year old

[@lanilynbosogon1312]

I feel like I grew old with you, I have been watching your videos since I was a freshman and am now in my fourth year of college after this summer's internship. 🌱✨

[@ashalaskar133]

we love you so much deborah!! happy birthday 🌟

[@beinganny10]

Dear debochobo just dont get lost just be there and enjoy the time for yourself it will all be healed soon✨🌻

[@aster_0000]

Thank you so much dobo for posting this video it's exactly how i feel now that i'm growing older now. But can't believe ur already 21 i swear it was just yesterday when i started watching your videos back in 2021. It's really nostalgic to look back on those videos but i always enjoy every video you post. Love you so much dobo you moved me to do all my tough homework assignments and got me out of bed to do my work. Thank you for inspiring all of us and have a great birthday dobo!! 💗💗

[@EVELYN-eu9iw]

I don't want to grow up either, I just turned 21 too but I have to say I'm grateful for getting the chance to get this far into my life span

[@shulump8375]

i also turn 21 this year!! actually tomorrow, and i also graduate college!!! such a scary but exciting time. glad to do this together!!

[@tiyasdiaries8781]

Happy birthday, Deborah. So glad you spent precious time alone and with your beloved ones. Thank you for making this video and inspiring many people here. Keep up the good work!

[@nabihahasnain4102]

I loved the short monologue at the start since I also turned into an adult this year and I CAN RELATE LIKE DAMNNNNN:)))) Plus I love every video of yours they're so beautiful, cool and aesthetic!!!!

[@yeyosilver7067]

As a proverb says in my country: "who does not want to grow old, dies early"

[@sanriotedi]

🌟im so glad you got to spend your birthday with friends!!!! but also getting to have that alone time for yourself!!!! I love being able to share these adventures of your life with each other!!! So excited to see what your future holds!!🌟💗

[@akilahthompson3451]

Firstly happy belated birthday girl!!😆😆💛. Looks like you had fun and I’m glad you did. I turn 24 next month and I’m not really scared, but I can completely understand the fear of the unknown!! But also know that just because it’s unknown doesn’t mean it will be bad. You never know what’s around the corner. That was so cliché I’m sorry😂. But really I do believe you have a bright future ahead and we’re all rooting for you😊🫶🏾

[@amrenofvaleris]

Turned 22 last month and definitely can understand your point and can relate. Sending lots of love

[@DeepaliNayak-hs2zc]

i just realised i also grew up w you, I think I've been here since the super-early days of your vlog and I'm turning 21 in nov too lol

[@crescentflower444]

omg happy bd!!! your vlogs are so comforting :(

[@Wxo_xo]

Deborah your not alone !! Happy beloved birthday 🫶🏻🫶🏻 I hope you have everything you wanted in your life and be happy all the time!🥹🫶🏻

[@daisydudu]

I'm turning 21 this year too and trust me I know, I just know, I don't think I can sum this up in a bunch of words, but all the very best to you turning 21 my big girlieee🥺🍄

[@zainabmohamazubair6509]

Happy birthday Deborah! I also relate to your words even though I’m 15. But damn, I’m 15. Thank you so much for being such a nice person creating nice videos. I appreciate and support you!! I’m proud of you. Take care and remember to stay hydrated

[@mahiesabu]

it feels so peaceful when my comfort youtuber is feeling the same way as i am! thanks for sharing this! Love ya

[@twirlingpages]

stop why am i crying

[@patriciasiano19]

🌟Happy Birthday Deborah 🌟🎉🥳

[@pbcstr3247]

Os meus 30 saúdam os seus 21 com: "É isso aí, amiga! Só continue!"

[@MariaMedeiros]

Wishing you all the best!!! 🎉Happy Birthday 🥳

[@catm.7446]

Today is my 21st birthday and this resonates a lot. I am grateful to take confidence in being unsure though, time passing is letting me learn a lot about myself and how much I can accomplish without putting myself on a certain timeline :) happy birthday on behalf of a fellow summer bday girlie

[@maryambaghirova]

Happy birthday!!🎂 Mine was yesterday :) (11.08)

[@ccloudliv]

Happy Birthday, Deborah! 🌟

[@lokinnYT]

Happy birthday 🌟 i just wanted to let you know that i feel the same. I get these feelings a lot, lately. Kinda like it gets worse the older i get 💀 but,, i know i gotta push through 😤 the life if sort itself out,, somehow

[@heysofynavarrete2197]

🌟 🌟🌟Deborah you don’t know how much of an inspiration you are for me ilysm, if you ever come to Mexico let’s go and have some tacos 🤭