Dear Sean, Love Stef | Grief & Loss Week 12 - Part 1

[@angnardella5938]

I know we’ve never met, and I don’t actually know you… but I so badly want to reach through the computer and give you a giant hug! So many people care about you!!! Positive thoughts and love to you!

[@scstoney]

Ang, I’ve just started watching this channel in the past 2 days and I’m so drawn to it. Your comment to Stef is one of the sweetest things I’ve ever heard. Thanks so much for your comment!!

[@dennisswainston411]

Stef, I know how you feel. It's been 2 years, 2 months since Sue's passing. Grief continues to cycle. Good days & bad days. Like you I trigger off of unexpected things. Her illness was financially devastating. I never thought or planned to stay in our home but all my memories of her are here. God, in His' mercy has provided day by day and so here I remain. Covid has magnified grief in so many ways. God has a purpose and a plan..... but we are still most human. I continue to hold you up in Prayer and think of you daily....

[@mayragrille6378]

Oh Stef, you are so right in everything you said. Lost my husband of 43 yrs 6 weeks ago. Thank you for sharing. Strength 🙏❤️

[@Jerseybubblegum]

Old subscriber from pre cruising Sean and stef days… now on this day I find myself Rewatching old videos of you and Sean and now I’m crying watching the sincere love that you two shared… just know I am thinking of you and praying for your heart

[@brendamcdonald3132]

I can't help cry along with you, you are a very brave and very honest person. I pray 🙏 for brighter days ahead. Sending lots of hugs.

[@dawncorrellcruz9709]

Aww Stef. Sending so much hugs to you. You have so much love and support. Sean is right next to you all the time. Thank you for being so raw with your emotions . I just heard this phrase "It's ok to not be ok". Take care of your self please. Love and hugs 🥰❣️

[@sherrispringer5152]

Much love coming your way from Tennessee ❤️

[@rondadowden9710]

I totally understand. I have let the darkness consume me after losing the 2nd son. I turned into a robot and I ignored all the voices in my head. When I decided to listen, it was my boys. Begging me to take care of their brothers and to give them EXTRA LOVE. And it finally CLEARED. It was hard to make the switch, but I prevailed!!! You got this GIRL!!! Alone is the hardest. You will find him inside you and you will be able to deal a little better. You will have ups and downs. Do every day like you did this morning. People that haven't had to deal really don't know what to say about anything and I always tell them, just hug me. No words needed. I just need held every now and then.

[@elainehirst]

My heart breaks for you, huge hugs ❤️‍🩹 xxx

[@jennib11]

Wish I could give u a big hug right now

[@susandowd8772]

YOU WOULDNT BE HURTING IF YOUR LOVE FOR EACH OTHER WASNT SO DEEP. YOU BOTH ARE 2 AMAZING PEOPLE. YOU HAVE TO BE STRONG FOR SEAN,YOURSELF AND ESPECIALLY FOR YOUR FOUR LEGGED KIDS. THEY NEED THERE MOMMY TO BE HAPPY. THEY GET STRESSED AND DEPRESSED ALSO WHEN THEY FEEL YOUR SADNESS. LIFE WILL NEVER BE THE SAME, BUT THE PAIN WILL SUBSIDE IN TIME. WHEN NOBODY KNOWS. BUT AT LEAST YOU DID MAKE A MILLION MEMORIES TOGETHER. SOME PEOPLE DONT EVEN HAVE THAT. SEANS LOVE FOR YOU WAS AND ALWAYS WILL BE DEEPER THAN ANY OCEAN. YOU BOTH WERE TREMENDOUSLY BLESSED TO HAVE FOUND EACH OTHER. KEEP HIM ALIVE BY BEING HAPPY. HE DEFINITELY WOULDNT WANT YOU TO BE SAD ALL OF THE TIME. KNOW YOU ARE AN AMAZING STRONG PERSON AND SOMEWHERE DOWN THE ROAD, LIFE WILL BE GOOD AGAIN . STAY STRONG AND POSITIVE FOR YOURSELF AND FOR EVERYONE WHO WATCHES YOUR VIDEOS AND LOVE BOTH YOU SEAN AND THE KIDS.

[@cheristein8016]

I've been where you are and it is so so hard and it feels so so lonely! I lost my husband to cancer 10 years ago. We had a little girl who had just turned 8. I remember having to peel myself out of bed every morning to take care of her and get her off to school and then I would lay in bed and cry while she was at school. My heart was grieving at the loss of my husband and at the pain I saw in our daughter's eyes... it was a horrible time in my life! I'm glad to hear that you are going into therapy! Lots of hugs and prayers to you ❤🙏

[@sharonmckenna8271]

I just knew something was wrong when we didn’t get our week 12 last week, so happy you are getting some help! Continued prayers coming your way

[@walterbiscardijr.3674]

So much love to you Stef. So incredibly proud of you being able to share your story. You are definitely helping others through their own journeys. Major hugs and love from us.

[@mistyhayden3903]

My heart hurts for you. Some days it’s a second at a time, then minute to minute, hour to hour and day to day. Sending hugs and prayers to you.

[@adventureswithmachell]

Sending you so many hugs, love, and prayers!!!

[@jamiewillhite6355]

I feel your pain. I reach out to you with love knowing how hard this is. I survived loosing my fiance and in time you will feel like you can conquer this trial. Sean is always with you and I know he wants you to feel joy again. Hugs to you daily!

[@seanandstef]

Thank you for the support and love. I am so sorry for your loss. All my love to you from me ❤️

[@rlhubert]

I have never wanted to give someone a huge hug like the one I want to give you now. Stay strong Stef!! Lots of love and positive thoughts and vibes sent your way♥️♥️♥️

[@petermautner7052]

You are both genuine, kind decent people. Sean Was very suited to you and a great loss . You are very brave to share your grief. You are loved by your subscribers. Great sadness for two genuine people. We all love for the joy you both given us. Bless you .

[@traceyprofio3666]

My gosh I never wanted to give a huge hug to a complete stranger as want to give to you. I hope you can find some peace and hope and pray for you. xoxo

[@christopherrobinson6251]

I am so sorry for your loss. My prayers are with you

[@kellythomas5746]

You don't know me and I don't know you, but keep you smile on and stay strong. never ever give up!! You can always reach out to us another time you need us!

[@terrireed8949]

I’m glad your going to have fun again today. I’m in the same place you are only my husband died 13 yrs ago. Don’t do like I did and stay home and grieve for all these years. I’ve lost all my friends I haven’t dated for years because I compared the all to him and no one added up in my mind. Grieve but don’t forget to live. I cry with you girl every time. Just please don’t forget your still alive and Sean would want you to continue living. Much love and hugs to you. Terri

[@1981cchris]

❤️sending love and light your way!

[@shannonfrederick9115]

Praying for you!

[@lindafajardo9869]

Aww Stef. I’m so very sorry for your sadness. Sending you a million hugs 🤗.............

[@karenjordan5731]

Good girl! Thank you for saying the hard words. Sending love.

[@spliffme2x]

Stef, nothing is easy. Nothing. Just know that those who move on truly feel rest, I know I envy the thought of giving up. My kitties both know when I’m down, they are always there. Everything happens for a reason. Taking that route means that you wouldn’t end up where you want to. I know I don’t know you, but I love you and pray that you find peace. ❤️ 🧀🧀

[@sharon-pr5ew]

Awww sweetie, I am sooo sorry. Sending you so many big hugs 💜💜💜

[@tamarajohnson89]

I am so sorry for your loss. I have been watching your videos about the Carnival Sunshine. I even subscribed to your channel to get more information out the cruise. My heart truly goes out to you because I saw the love between you and Sean.

[@JourneywithJosh]

I deleted my first comment. I just wanted to help and luckily, you didn't need those words. My heart is with you and know you are not alone. Thank you for not succumbing to the darkness. Just..thank you.

[@RocklandPaul]

Steff, I have been following your recent videos and while you are a complete stranger, I am somehow drawn to listen to your story and indeed feel your pain. I will continue to watch until we see the Steff I so eagerly watched when you were so energetic doing your cruising videos with Sean. You’ll get there! I can’t imagine losing someone you love like this and wish you strength to get out of this slump. I learned something from you “it is more difficult to have fun and be positive than being down and sad.” Hopefully you will live by those words and wish you the energy to do just that.

[@onceuponacruise]

I could feel your pain. So heartbreaking. I wish I could reach through the screen and give you a hug. I am glad you had fun with your sister but so sad for you and the pain you're feeling. You have a lot of people (and kitties!) sending you love and hugs. Be well and take care, Stef.

[@coopyswife]

I'm sorry you are in so much pain. I will say a prayer for peace in your heart.

[@nicolesvacationsandcooking496]

That’s the lesson my dad’s death is really brought that to a traumatic head for me life is to short make as many memories as possible!

[@sircravenuk]

Stay strong for the cats. They need you. I love my cats, they know when I need them. They know when I need them. Your cats are your family, they love you.

[@annaswarb6818]

Hi Stef. In the UK there is a charity called Widowed and Young. It has helped my friend who lost her partner at a young age. She has met people who are going through the same thing as her. I wonder if there is a similar organisation in the US that you could join. Certainly worth a look. Lots if love xx

[@joycegiddins2988]

Just thinking about you, keep holding on.

[@SetCCC]

You are AMAZING lady!!!! 💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛

[@DebYman62]

🙏🙏🙏

[@nicolesvacationsandcooking496]

Me and Sean would have gotten alone so well I love coasters

[@dopattier]

Oh Stef... you made me cry. I'm at month 11 since I lost my husband to cancer. I know exactly what you're talking about, it is hard to have fun, and easier to stay home. And even at month 11 you will still have moments that you will loose it. Mine was last Thursday when I went to Van Gogh experience with our daughters. And I broke in a million pieces there, I cried so much because that was something we both would be doing, I even knew what we would be talking about. And the rest of the weekend was just as hard. Today I feel much better. Hang in there Stef, we will get through this. You are helping so many other grieving people around the world. Love, Pattie.

[@cathy3546]

My grief is compounded by PTSD and my adrenal system is not functioning well. People tell me that life goes on, and I know that it does. But...my PTSD is a handicap.

[@janetbeans6472]

God is with you, sweetheart. May you fee His loving presence in your life today. Amen 🙏 pray

[@Gameplayhq]

😔🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾

[@raulmaldonado6316]

🙏🏽😔

[@KS-kr4ok]

If you leave then your cats would be separated or possibly euthanized. Please please do not leave. You will be OK again. You are wonderful and Sean wants you to take care of yourself and your beloved cats. It is not your time.

[@seanandstef]

Thank you for the support. It's easy to be on this side and logically think about external things that would be effected. At the time though, those rational thoughts are very far away. Thank you for the love ❤️

[@safari79]

❤💔❤💔

[@l.writer6539]

You are such a beautiful soul. Sending you love.

[@janete1292]

🙏🙏👍👍

[@heatheredmonds7947]

STOP AND STEP WEBSITE!

[@KS-kr4ok]

the cat can see Sean. The cat is talking to Sean.

[@JanieC93]

Exactly what I was thinking 💕

[@seanandstef]

I thought the same thing when I was editing the footage. I have 2 cat moments in each video that I believe was all Sean ❤️