denial - alicia widar (original song)

hii!!!! my first original song!!!!
i wrote this song when i was going through a moment where i realized that everything i did was for other people. i put someone else above myself and i started feeling suffocated. instead of understanding that my feelings were valid and ok, i thought that there was something wrong with me and i started being in denial of my own existence. i hope u like the song, i may not be the greatest songwriter of all time but this song is 100% me :)
if you want to listen to my song on streaming platforms:
spotify: spoti.fi/3kf8iEl
apple music: apple.co/2ZkupSy
lyrics, produced and recorded by alicia widar
mixing by kiara moreno (ig: @sayitsk)
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instagram: / aliciawidar
facebook page: / awidarmusic

[@AliciaWidar]

lyrics: hey, i don't have anywhere to go and i'm laying on pavement too late i think that i'm in denial i don't want to see the view i don't want to look at you close my eyes, everything blue big mistake yeah i'm all over the place running away but wanting to stay hey, i haven't seen you in a while i can't pretend this doesn't hurt me it isn't time to whine living life, big time the atmosphere changed my mind in a stride i'm always right can't you see that i'm in denial i don't want to see the view i don't want to look at you close my eyes, everything blue big mistake yeah i'm all over the place running away but wanting to stay i lost myself but what can i do? trust me i don't know what is true daylight still radiates i'm numb i'm electrified i'm in denial i don't want to see the view i don't want to look at you close my eyes, everything blue big mistake yeah i'm all over the place running away but wanting to stay

[@theslavicdoomerandfighter2631]

The fact that talented people like this exist, while i still haven't quite got the hang of poetry, pains me.

[@luks303]

Damn these lyrics are actually fire

[@FabioAnzeOficial]

Letra fodassa

[@shortedtoground]

Great lyrics/voice, and as always your guitar playing is awesome! You rock!

[@adamdatson4646]

Such awesome talent! Keep it up 🖤🖤🤘

[@enki7914]

This is one of the best original songs I've ever seen on youtube, you have this smoky voice that just sounds so real with none of the plastic self-aggrandizing singing style that you see everywhere now.

[@koreanfriedchildren]

thats the 90s style

[@BeyondOurSolarSystem]

yeah, you nailed it with your review. I just found this channel. So for this is one of KZbin's treasure. Cheers!!

[@thevinylcafe]

Has this young lady discovered a time machine from the 90s grunge/britpop glory days? as she would fit quite comfortabley among the greats of that era. Very compitant songwriting too and with Hope Sandoval of Mazzy star's looks and the nirvana/pearl jam influences as well as an eclectic knowledge of all the great indie pop/rock of the 90s you are clearly a star in the making. Good Luck and I look forward to hearing more originals✌️

[@florentinaguggenheimer6557]

Holy shit girl. This is so so so good!!!! I've had it downloaded since day 1, and I know your lyrics now too lol. I've been singing it in the car, at home, at the barn with my horse. It's been stuck in my head!!! The transitions between verses is just awesome. I can't wait to see what else you come up with🤘🙌🤩

[@anant8884]

Same dude 😂

[@griffinlawson1093]

This, this is why I have my notifications on. Worth it every time. Beautiful voice Alicia

[@dulkacenllin6709]

But sometimes yt doesn't work right :(

[@brentf777]

I absolutely love this. Stylistically reminiscent of early Hole, but much better. You should release an album.

[@dangolfishin]

I got some Hole vibes too

[@nihilist6008]

Lol....

[@jsneuzilagent9940]

I’m saving my money, so when your record drops, I can immediately buy it! Three cheers for your tunes.

[@ivyhostetler8329]

I came here to see if anyone mentioned Hole. [Except you don't feel like washing your hands after hearing it.]

[@pietravazquez3280]

Está mais do que no caminho certo, você já é uma artista! Parabéns, adoro seus vídeos 👏🏼👏🏼

[@brendenwells518]

I'm sure I'm not the only one who had some goosebumps listening to this, having followed you through the covers it was really great to hear. Awesome tones, more of this :) !!!

[@ivyhostetler8329]

Just got them!

[@Livvvin]

The song is so beautiful :D

[@wildhog4251]

As a huge fan of your covers I really want to say it is better than I thought it would be. I know you are talented but writing original music is something different and I think it is quite common that people who do great covers are not so impressive when it comes to playing their own songs. I was a little afraid that your song won't be that impressive but damn, I was so wrong. It has this cool retro, unplugged 90's vibe, I love it.

[@justinchan6043]

very much Nirvana unplugged vibes.

[@lt.dantaylor7185]

@@justinchan6043 yes i got the same cobain unplugged vibe as well. Wonder if she has ever replied to anyones comments to appreciate what we are saying.

[@stratocactus]

You've put a smile on my face for 3min17s. "I may not be the greatest songwriter of all time but this song is 100% me" THIS is exactly what music needs today. Be yourself, do what you enjoy, do it with passion. That's all that matters. Thanks for sharing your first (hopefully not last) original song :)

[@132thebrook]

"I may not be the greatest songwriter of all time". I can't believe you said that Alicia, your song is brilliant and easily as good as any artist I have ever listened to. I wish you all the best for the future songs......and wow what a future you have. well done.!

[@JOOLVAUR]

I genuinely like this song, it has a really good melody, chords are nice, and the lyrics are great. GOOD JOB ALICIA 👏🏽

[@projectnewmoon9314]

Your song sounds like it’s ripped out of the 90s, my favorite era for music!! Excited to hear more from you!

[@Trenzalore-gn6xq]

Yo new moon profile pic. I fucking love elliott

[@MIKERUPTION]

Amazing song, Alicia! You could be the catalyst for a much needed 90's revival in music. Please share more original songs when you're able to. I'll have this one playing on loop for a while. LOL!

[@yungmisha5730]

I've been listening to this song on repeat since yesterday and the more I listen, the more I fall in love with it. I recently started trying to learn how to play the guitar and your covers have been something that I not only enjoy as music, but they also motivate me to keep improving :) I'm very proud of you for coming all this way and releasing this AMAZING first original song!

[@zoeashleigh4087]

so happy & proud to be here to hear your first original !! your videos make me so happy, can't wait til you blow up

[@woninabillion_]

an original song!!!! you’re so talented and this is amazing

[@AliciaWidar]

thank u 💕💕

[@spicy_paint_water]

This song literally describes what I'm going through and how I feel, and you sing it so beautifully, you did such an amazing job. much love

[@justmes.s.9922]

I love this! It's amazing that you're writing about your own real emotions. Only good things can come from that. I'm excited to hear more but don't feel pressured to write. We will be here and I'm really curious of what you are going to come up with in the future💜 (your voice is so good😲)

[@samkim9786]

ahhh congrats on your first original! its truly so impressive, and you sound amazing. it totally fits you

[@luisgasparini5507]

Se vc consegue colocar seus sentimentos profundos em alguma forma de arte como a musica, você com certeza é uma ótima compositora. Ótima musica, e com certeza esperando por mais musicas autorais! s2

[@AliciaWidar]

mds obrigada!! 💕

[@domalxd1]

@@AliciaWidar caralho tu é BR como assim? Sou seu fã pra crl guria

[@thats_tiggas8558]

@@domalxd1 não, ela provavelmente ta usando google tradutor kkkk

[@domalxd1]

@@thats_tiggas8558 Google tradutor não faz ideia do que è mds mano

[@pedroargolo5520]

Pensei que só tinha eu de BR🤡

[@luizfellipeabrantes2933]

Era só o que eu queria ver, uma música autoral sua, e parabéns, ainda superou minhas expectativas

[@AliciaWidar]

obrigadaaa 💕

[@lolyfrenzy12]

@@AliciaWidar você é brasileira, que orgulho, te juro que você é uma inspiração gigantesca pra mim e saber que você é brasileira me dá vontade de sair pulando de alegria!! Você vai longe Alicia, fica com Deus e continue cantando, sua voz é linda e você é genial ♥️

[@icaroinoue4920]

@@lolyfrenzy12 Acho que era meio explicito pelo cobertor da hello kitty com essa vibe grunge

[@legitkiller9158]

@@AliciaWidar cranberries 21 please

[@maxherold3769]

This is such a beautiful piece, amazing! I hear influences from the bands you cover but this is 100% yours and I love it. Really great job 👏

[@qcrew2938]

I'm blown away with how talented she is

[@henryweiland7761]

This is a really good song, the melody is what shines the most for me. I feel like the song could be sung in so many different ways and still stay true to its original form. Being a songwriter myself, you have inspired me to keep writing on a song thats been in my head now for a while!

[@joelstoppa]

Nossa parece q é uma musica composta nos anos 90, o que é perfeito, tudo combinou tao bem

[@youtanpoluo6754]

This is such a great a song! I've been listening to it nonstop. I hope you keep composing, I'm looking forward to listening to your songs in the future :)

[@Orcilius]

I cannot even express how happy I am that you finally made your original song and it is just hella beautiful. Just.. amazing.

[@maurices5954]

Dear Alicia, congratulations on your first song! Very brave and generous of you to share this with us, your talent and passion is obvious to all of your followers. Good for you for not falling into the trap of altruism, don't ever place another person above yourself. In order to be of any use to other people you must first make yourself happy. Keep doing what you're doing, never give up on following your passions!

[@igorerik6556]

É incrível como tudo se encaixa perfeito entre você e o violão, música ficou mt daora ❤

[@emmanuelrodrigues2068]

Adorei sua música Alicia, ansioso para mais autoral !!!

[@robbyzee9237]

I was waiting for the day you'd post an original, and here it is ... absolutely beautiful! I encourage you to post more, and to make an album when you can. You're one of a kind.

[@LucasAlves-zf9ut]

Cara, tua voz foi feita pra essa pegada grunge, não é atoa que seus covers fazem sucesso. Boa sorte aí com as suas músicas.

[@leoferr7885]

nunca pensei q ficaria tão feliz por não ter um cover da Alicia no domingo :) Música incrível Alicia, parabéns!

[@ATypicalTurtl]

"i'm all over the place running away but wanting to stay" Damn, same

[@ju6815]

omg this is so amazing, i'm so glad that a found you, ur song and the covers are so perfec

[@matt-gr3hd]

Na minha primeira audição, fiquei sem reação! Que som maravilhoso. The Grunge is alive and well

[@Dona543219]

Alicia, congrats on putting out an original! Lots of us have been waiting for that moment and the song is beautiful. It's got a haunting vibe to it and your voice sounds better than ever. I'm so happy for you (:

[@granpuscanucks]

I watched your videos because you covered of a lot of my favorite songs so I know you have good taste ;). I always thought you did a good job in your own way. You really should be proud of your song. It's always hard for any artist to share their creation with others. Whether intentional or not, I heard a lot of grunge and Hole influence in your song and it was honestly pretty catchy to me. I already listened to it a few times. I would love to hear it on the radio one day. Keep up the good work!

[@bloodybackfat]

I seriously want an album!! Please!!

[@arson764]

I’m so proud of you. I’m a teenage girl and I look up to you so much, I hope to write music as good as yours one day. Your vibe in general is goals ❤️ one thing is I would love a Q and A video about the song and maybe your audience could get to know you a little better? Of course you don’t owe us any type of content or anything but I would love that

[@nigelsimmons]

Excellent. Sounds like a song straight from the 90's grunge-era. Look forward to hearing more originals!

[@Boosti__]

👍❤️🤘 After enjoying so many of your awesome covers, it's great to hear that your originals are awesome too.

[@isgrin8823]

I identify with this. Last week ive been feeling like theres something very wrong with me and this has been getting me lots of anxiety and yesterday i felt like i was literally going crazy. Im better today but sometimes it gets really bad :( Anyway just needed to vent. Great song, ive been watching your videos for a while and im so happy that you made a song. much love

[@exposia.1619]

i love it! the moment i found out you released a song through spotify, i heard it and loved it

[@rique1808]

Que orgulho de vc Alicia! Já te acompanho há tanto tempo e agr ver vc fazendo sua própria música... Vc merece! Rainha!

[@AliciaWidar]

obrigadaaa 💕

[@jeremysaulnier5717]

Was so excited.to check this out and im blown away.You write really great songs!

[@santiagoauditore5286]

Loved it! I knew, when you made a song of yours it would be awesome! So powerful

[@imcoolerthany0utbh795]

your voice gives me peace..

[@alicemilton8756]

This is fantastic! I didn’t know you did originals, I like it!! 💛

[@cookiduhh8601]

this is amazing, you’re amazing! i’m glad i found ur channel :D

[@QWERTY-qz6ym]

Definitely keep up wit writing original songs 👌 your voice is amazing and you got the lyrics to back it up too! Can't wait for you to hit the big time! Much love ❤

[@elliotsumaire5233]

Alicia, I feel so proud that through covering great songs you found such a beautiful sound in your own voice and lyrics. Keep it up!

[@user-cs4wr3fo2x]

Writing ur own songs is a huge step forward for u, especially such excellent songs like this

[@_JellyDonut_]

Wow this is so good! I've listened to a bunch of your covers but never realized you had original songs too. What a great voice

[@azlan_eastern4706]

Absolutely love this. Congratulations Alicia 🤘 Sek Kito Mandi Lanje

[@teokantot7518]

Hi, thankyou so much for making this song :,) it’s just what I needed rn and I relate to it so much !! Ive been stuck in an abusive relationship for a very long time that I just got out of, I really gave everything I had and lost myself in it, In the end I completely dissociated from myself and my own emotions. But in spite of all that I really really miss this person deeply. Listening to this I really feel seen and that I’m not alone :) AND ITS SUCH A BOP ASWELL!!! U must be so happy with it, I cant believe its your FIRST original song omg. I’ll definitely be listening to it on repeat :)))

[@AliciaWidar]

hii! i’m very happy that you got out of this situation and that you could find comfort in my song. i wish u all the best and i hope you’re feeling better now. thank u for your words and support, it means a lot to me 💕💕

[@carlos13hd]

Muito feliz por tudo que tem conquistado Alicia!

[@carloshenriqueares2389]

O grunge ainda respira... Parabéns Alicia

[@livviek4420]

I'm such a fan. Ive never been captivated by singers from youtube before, im glad i stumbled upon her here once. Love her natural talent 👏❤️

[@eddyalvarado131]

Amazing song, I can definitely hear all the music influences. It’s like a mix of nirvana and Lana in one. Pure Gold!

[@luctator8956]

I haven’t been able to stop listening to this song since it came out. I’m looking forward to hearing more

[@polarcaps8966]

I was so into the song i almost forgot this was original. It's incredible how far you've come, and it's exciting waiting for what comes next.

[@switterbeet]

I found this song randomly on spotify and im so in love with it! It gives me so much green day vibes and i connect that to my childhood! Your songwriting is excellent im excited to see more from you in the future

[@HimawariCh]

amazing song full of emotion, thank you for sharing 💛

[@caue23]

Por favor, nunca pare de compor! Ficou tudo muito bom. Adoro os seus covers, você tem um ótimo gosto musical, mas adorei essa música e adoraria ouvir mais. Um abraço!

[@vivianwy9700]

Rocking on like always!!! So proud of you. Keep posting more original songs, we love it ❤️

[@MrGrimReaper1]

what a great song! I feel like this song can tell a story common to many of us. Best songs are those written with heart and passion and this one surely is! Thank You Alicia and congrats for your first original song! :D

[@chingonsit0]

Me encanta, tanto tu voz como tus letras estan llenas de sentimiento. Muchos éxitos Alicia

[@jonathanferreira8836]

Amei, espero que as próximas venham no mesmo nível 🖤🖤🖤

[@yasmincorzzini]

alicia que INCRÍVEL, isso ficou na minha cabeça e com certeza a letra e a melodia me surpreendeu, isso me fez querer esperar por mais músicas suas!! amei❤️

[@franktank4553]

This is a fantastic original song, I have been waiting for you to do this, and I am not disappointed. Keep it up, amazing work!

[@Justpassingby204]

This has a very infectious hook-especially for the first song you’ve put out.

[@ArthurAssisCruz]

Orgulho dessa brasileira,viu❤️ Fazia tempo que não ouvia uma música boa e nova.🌹

[@fletchowns]

You are so talented! Love the song. Can't wait to see what the future holds for you!

[@pauldavis5489]

Great song Alicia!, I love your voice and playing style, it is fantastic. Keep writing. you have a gift!

[@GregsKitchen]

awesome!

[@gabrielpinto2030]

Voz linda, letra linda!!! Da pra sentir muita influência das bandas que você curte e ainda assim tem a sua cara!! Você é sinistra!! Parece que pegaram você dos anos 80/90 e jogaram aqui de presente pra gente !!

[@feltrin9401]

Olha eu acompanho seus vídeos a pouco tempo, mas já posso dizer que o seu jeito fazer música é novo, diferente e acima de tudo perfeito, faz uns dois dias que sua voz não sai da minha playlist, e saber que você tá criando suas próprias músicas é simplesmente incrível!! Eu desejo tudo de bom pra ti, e que venham mais músicas PQ ELAS SÃO D E M A I S !!!

[@paodoceap]

The Grunge is alive!!!! This sound make me back in time! It's like I've known this sound for a long time. Great work!

[@wvsnds]

primeira musica da alicia n saiu da minha cabeça desde q lançou no spotify, mt boa mt boa🙇‍♂️ feliz q agora posso pegar a cifra pelo video

[@user-in8mw9kt6l]

chords: E G Cmaj7 G x2 [Verse] E G Cmaj7 hey, i don't have anywhere to go G E G and i'm laying on pavement Cmaj7 too late G i think that [Chorus] D A i'm in denial Cmaj7 G i don't want to see the view D A i don't want to look at you Cmaj7 G close my eyes, everything blue D A big mistake yeah Cmaj7 i'm all over the place G D running away A Cmaj7 G but wanting to stay [Verse] E G Cmaj7 G hey, i haven't seen you in a while E G i can't pretend this doesn't hurt me Cmaj7 G it isn't time to whine E G Cmaj7 living life, big time G E the atmosphere changed my mind G Cmaj7 in a stride i'm always right G can't you see that [Chorus] D A i'm in denial Cmaj7 G i don't want to see the view D A i don't want to look at you Cmaj7 G close my eyes, everything blue D A big mistake yeah Cmaj7 i'm all over the place G D running away A Cmaj7 G but wanting to stay [Bridge] Cmaj7 G D A I lost myself Cmaj7 G but what can i do? D A trust me i don't know what is true [Verse] E G daylight Cmaj7 G still radiates E G i'm numb Cmaj7 G i'm electrified [Chorus] D A i'm in denial Cmaj7 G i don't want to see the view D A i don't want to look at you Cmaj7 G close my eyes, everything blue D A big mistake yeah Cmaj7 i'm all over the place G D running away A Cmaj7 G D but wanting to stay

[@giuliabonardi8194]

this song is so good. i absolutely adore your voice and all the covers you've done. you're a great artist.

[@joshuabassham2052]

Love this. Bring back the 90's sound!

[@miroslav_g]

This song made my weekend :) I loved every single second. You are incredible, keep doing you.

[@jaydehy]

This song is so good. The songwriting reminds me of Hope Sandoval’s and I love the grunge influence!!!

[@evelymoura2173]

Já estou imaginando um álbum inteiro nessa vibe!!! ❤️❤️ You stunned! I hope you can share more great originals like this one! Waiting for more! 🏵️ Lv u

[@seenphiia7436]

WOW! Words can't simply put how amazing this is! This is such a gorgeous song!!!!!!!! It's so captivating, I just want to listen to it forever! It's really relatable and so good to hear songs that empaths can genuinely be like "Oh wow yeah this is me I do this I feel like this" so to have this feeling be put into a song, is honestly amazing. not to mention the whole entirety of the bloody song is fucking magnificent!

[@joshy2joshy]

Alicia I read your comment in the description and I really understand why you're into grunge now, it really makes you feel something so blissful yet only those suffering can feel that bliss. I love your covers and your energy, it's speaks so much about who you are and what you see in this life. I'm so happy you released this song, it takes a lot of guts but I'm grateful you decided to show yourself a bit more. To me you are real, you exist, you're one of the most real and honest as well. The most beautiful souls are those which are usually also hurting the most.

[@AliciaWidar]

thank u a lot!! your words mean the world to me 💕💕

[@joshy2joshy]

@@AliciaWidar

[@Litebrite_]

Awesome description. I couldn't agree more.

[@invernalz]

Orgulho de ver uma brasileira fazendo um som tão FODAAAAAAA, Parabéns Alicia você é foda, sou carioca tmj (:

[@h2ophilter]

this is amazing. great song! look fwd to hear more of your stuff

[@NodeNomad]

I love it! You are such an inspiration to many of us Alicia. I can feel all the good taste references on your very own music, adding your own soul, and it's beautiful.

[@srSATA-qi7yx]

Adorei!! Sou da geração Grunge e sei que sua música tem fortes influencias lá.

[@MyCircadian]

One caveat of being such a beautiful songwriter/ musician/vocalist...stay away from hard drugs !

[@Jmc726]

This song drawn me in, I had to make sure to leave a comment and say great work! Will have this on repeat for awhile. Love everything about it!

[@sampledude8846]

Great song Alicia! Channeling AIC in this. Very nice!

[@davidb.1731]

ALICIA PELO AMOR DE DEUS, REGISTRA ESSA MUSICA!!!

[@Jheff_OTraveller]

Meu amigo eu até acredito que ela já tenha feito isso para depois publicar a música aqui.

[@carlosmendes6749]

Caralho ela é boa pra cacete. Parabéns, Alicia! Faça mais músicas por favor.

[@peppa3355]

THIS IS AMAZING, IT SOUNDS LIKE A REALLY HIT SONG FROM THE 90S!! I LOVE THIS, YOU'RE INSPIRING ME TO PURSUE MY SONGWRITING AGAIN! PLS DONT STOP POSTING SONG COVERS AND ALSO PLS CONTINUE MAKING ORIGINAL SONGS!! 😭💖🥹 AND ALSO YOUR VOICE IS AMAZING! 😩💖💖

[@byangelissandy8409]

Aaaaaa essa música é tão perfeita,a letra é tão profunda,e o ritmo combina muito aaaa,obg Alicia por essa obra de arte