Disguised Toast explains why he's staying in Japan alone

[@yellowsupercar366]

after his among us phase, every now an then toast has an identity crisis on what he wants to pursue in life

[@MrPog-doof]

Indeed

[@rokz2455]

Among Us 2, duhhh

[@dijone11mus1]

Among us vr

[@belovedxx5283]

hes always going through an identity crisis

[@bitsy_0523]

Yea it's hard for toast cuz when u think about what he's best at, u always think 'mind games' 'big brain strateiges' and among us is the perfect game for him IMO. But he's already overdone it so many times that now he doesn't know what to do next.

[@Dai1lest]

What we are witnessing is the growth of someone who wants to experience more of what the world has to offer than being stuck at a place the majority of people are, it's great to see.

[@Zaiqahal]

Unfortunately we only have one world that we are able to explore right now.

[@sup1297]

@@Zaiqahal I hope a new DLC is released soon...

[@Arjay1311]

Not all has the capacity to do it..

[@sunmoon2291]

He is literally too scared to eat at a restaurant on his own and is living off 7-11 lmao

[@Coin1360]

@@Zaiqahal It's ok, soon there'll be an update

[@vad1089]

I kinda understand what toast feels, that realization that you're stuck in a loop and you struggle to find something that would break the cycle. I hope this would be a nice change of pace for him

[@keiichinatsume]

That’s called middle age crisis

[@brandococo6841]

Yeah and I mean, that loop works for a lot of people, most streamers I would say. But some of us just need something more, I wonder if we'll find it, ai hipe Toast finds what he's looking for in Japan tbh. Althought I've never been a follower of his, I admire this decision

[@Mushimiya]

@@brandococo6841 a loop only works if you don't realize you're in a loop. The more you're aware of it, the worse your mental condition becomes if you don't work on it.

[@Vraii25]

He got rich .. he got bored of things

[@ZJasmineDragon]

fair, and I never want to dismiss someone's mental needs, but holy shit most people are in this cycle but doing back breaking retail work for barely enough money to buy food on

[@SvenNightingale]

I think Connor hit the mark when he was streaming with toast and said "I'm just as normal as everyone else and I'm running away from my problems in a different country"

[@deletedwaffles]

I feel like a lot of people who move to countries like Japan have nothing going on back home especially if you're from some small town in America and get thrusted into big city Tokyo.

[@nighttimeasbestos5958]

@@deletedwaffles I mean truthfully I'd never met an american who didn't enjoy their life more in a diff country, even those I'd met who went to borderline third world countries, US culture and especially just the lack of walkability, lack of public transit, etc, all kinda make it harder to live your life there imo

[@Mryodamiles]

@@nighttimeasbestos5958 I’m an immigrant who live in the US and I rarely ever met another immigrant who regret moving to the US and say things are better where they came from. You will meet people who are running from their problems or unhappiness in a different countries (or towns or states) all the time. Dude is basically going through what many people are going through…. We live our lives in a loop where we keep doing the same thing over and over for years. And moving to new places can help break that cycle and introduce variety into what is repetitive lifestyle.

[@elijahmartin5291]

@@nighttimeasbestos5958 think of it like this. most of the time while visiting a different country, youre on vacation of some kind or going out of your way to do new things while youre there. when in your home country you fall into a cycle of work and whats comfortable because youre often exhausted from the responsibilities of daily life. i dont think its an america thing, i think its just a new = exciting thing.

[@MrPromech]

“I have people to hang out with, Syd and Jodie met these two Japanese girls at the club, and they’re nice” ah I see, I understand king

[@GentleScythe]

I got the 666 likes 👍

[@marcomendoza4870]

699👍

[@alloyt7538]

not a hater but seeing his awkward interactions i dont think anyone would be comfortable hanging out with him alone unless hes friends/close with them

[@gregorbugri717]

@@GentleScythe i got the 999 lol

[@mitchhifi9192]

@@alloyt7538 not everyone likes Chads my dude, I love my missus because she's shy, awkward and when she opens up is just hilariously off kilter. I love her for it and I'm not alone judging by how many of her ex's still try and keep friendships

[@mollie_b]

This is a fantastic opportunity for him. It seems like he's still able to "work" (stream) and he has the money to be in Japan for an extended time even without working. That's a very rare thing to be able to do in life and it's wonderful. When I was 25 I went to Ireland by myself for 8 days and I will remember that trip forever.

[@SWonYT]

Why?

[@pengu6162]

As an Irish born person I'm really happy you loved the country :) My parents both aren't Irish but both came here and somehow met I admit sometimes I do complain due to the lack of things to do here but it truly is a beautiful country with many good people, hope you can visit again soon

[@matamune546]

I am 25 and i haven't contribute any shit to my life, should just I die now? haha

[@StillRooneyStarcraft]

@@matamune546 It's never too late to try something new and do something you get value from.

[@cheapskate102]

Oh man, a solo trip! So jealous

[@kwisty7554]

toast looks so much better! he is on his path to bettering himself every single day and it’s honestly so admirable.

[@NightcorEDM]

Every decent person tries to improve themselves

[@kwisty7554]

@@NightcorEDM that is not true. many people struggle to better themselves and have to take extra effort and steps. there is a pace everyone has to bettering themselves. as it can be easy for you, it can be harder for others. i just want to say it’s nice to see it coming to fruition in toast’s case. he’s come a long way and i just want to say it is nice. everyone is admirable in their own way for bettering themselves at their own pace.

[@MeediaArtur]

@@kwisty7554 Usually people change when a huge crisis hits them. People are lazy in their comfort zones and avoid looking to the mirror.

[@carlohilario4253]

Feels like a generic PR script

[@southpawcat7468]

@@kwisty7554 That is why Nightcor EDM said "tries to improve themselves" and not just "improve themselves". Because it is not about how much or how little you improve. It is about the intent to change for the better.

[@pinkkrayon]

i think toast is on a new path of self discovery and that's totally okay! we are all growing every single day little by little and we often forget that there are so many new things out there that allows us to grow into a better version of ourselves. there is definitely a reason behind his prolong stay and as fans we shouldn't question that, but respect it instead and continue to remind him that we will stand behind him. continue to wish him a safe and enjoyable journey because he earned it, toast does so much for us and the least we can do is hope him all the best in all of his endeavors.

[@mercenary1889]

maybe he had a breakup

[@zuko7797]

@@mercenary1889 i feel like he didnt have a lot of close friends between otv and friends people, and the only 2 he had was boxbox and miyoung and he doesnt talk to miyoung anymore idk why so i feel like its hard for him. i mean my guess would be he and miyoung broke up but then again it would be parasocial and thats just a guess. cause they were playing all the time together with miyoung and making big streamer lobbies + miyoung and toast was playing tft with miyoung all the time and now they havent interacted for nearly 2 months , and i feel like the girls are on miyoungs side like rae leslie so he lost passion cause of lack of close friendship

[@soumojitchowdhury151]

@@zuko7797 what i think is that he is going through his prime mid life crisis.

[@bleiss3547]

Pog he is gonna stream in Aokigahara

[@gehtdichnichtsan2418]

@@zuko7797 Jeez that sounds like it sucks... also I hate this Team Game after a Breakup, like everyone chooses one side... dafuq, you are either friends or you are not. Idk, all the best to Toast, may he stay in Japan and connect to the Trashtaste Boys + Chris, I bet they could have a really good time and become good friends. There were good vibes when Garnt was on the OTV Podcast.

[@Screech2111]

Kinda want Chris or the Trash Taste guys to show Toast some parts of Japan. Would be a nice crossover

[@rebeccachia]

that would be a GREAT IDEA

[@CottidaeSEA]

Aren't they outside of Japan right now? Chris could probably do it unless he's busy though. Doesn't mean he will, but he could.

[@inepthabit]

@@CottidaeSEA No, they just came back.

[@CottidaeSEA]

@@inepthabit Cool! Thanks for notifying me!

[@TianCooperFTW]

Disguised In Japan.

[@Plasmacat1]

Him and others seem to have had an epiphany that there is more to life than streaming almost 24/7 or just "do content" for the sake of it. If they are smart they can keep streaming in a more chill way that can sustain them.

[@bella_testastretta]

epiphany lol more like made enough money to chill now

[@Plasmacat1]

@@bella_testastretta not all of them, only a few have way more to "retire" a lot of streamers are shit at finances. Reminds me a lot of professional boxers that have tons and burn it without a retirement or investment plan.

[@hadessonofcronus1826]

@@bella_testastretta There are a ton of streamers that are set for life and still stream, if you've spent any amount of time out of work or inbetween academic years you'll know that not having anything to do gets old and boring quick. Streaming is work but it's attention and fame also

[@PicassosCat]

@@bella_testastretta I don't think those are mutually exclusive

[@PicassosCat]

@@mradavid but its still a pattern. Living in a pattern kinda sucks if you're not enjoying it as much as you used to.

[@babiloointros8761]

Toast needs a bestfriend that’s not a streamer that he can spend his free time with

[@Poison_tears]

I volunteer! lol

[@felinawell]

@@Poison_tears think toast would probably want someone who doesn't watch his content to be friends with

[@doomsdimension1663]

Thats something a lot of streamers crave

[@Cra1gDav1d]

He has one but she's in Korea with her wife

[@antidave]

@@Cra1gDav1d didn't they breakup lol

[@FireSonicYT]

Toast is just on his touching grass arc, nothing wrong with that.

[@moong.912]

The dude seems burnt out/bored of what he's doing. Being with the same people and doing the same thing on an on is ducking mind numbing. A new atmosphere, new people, and new experiences are what you need so things don't become stale.

[@Jenneration95x]

It feels a little similar to what lead toast to go to FB. I think him being in Japan will help him refresh himself :)

[@chloetzpiano6548]

@@Jenneration95x maybe he need to hangout with people outside of the streaming community,he looks tired talking as a streamer all the time

[@alloyt7538]

Dude... Its like saying you're sick of your bestfriends doesn't that behaviour seem toxic in itself?

[@divinrth5187]

@@alloyt7538 no, it seems human.

[@toad7395]

@@alloyt7538 hes not sick of his bestfriends, hes just sick of the monotony of the life he has, he still loves them and wouldn't trade them for anyone.

[@josepharroyo3311]

I did a 2mo stay in Japan during college. After graduating, I decided to come back. It's been almost 5 years now and have never looked back! Hope you can have an awesome journey here and find something (whatever it is)!!

[@sentopain]

What do you do for work in Japan?

[@NathanA]

That’s really cool! And I second SentoPain’s question

[@josepharroyo3311]

@@NathanA @SentoPain I do talent acquisition for Amazon Japan now, but when I got my first visa it was as an English teacher haha. Hardly the most unique way to get here but it definitely works!

[@mr.dirtydannnnn]

Japan life is just way too stressful to me. And train rides suck ass

[@JacksonWalter735]

​@@josepharroyo3311 was the language barrier hard to overcome?

[@Endlesshadowsxoxo]

I really don't think he's been happy for a while now. I truly hope this helps him find what he's looking for ♡

[@JonklingJonkler]

Really feels like LA, most people there, and the clout-chasing/phony streamer/youtuber culture there is just incompatible with him. A lot of streamers seem to fit right-in but he's just always despised it, and he's been there for like 5 years now. The main thing that seems to lock him to LA is OTV, if it weren't for OTV then I think he'd have moved away already.

[@deletedwaffles]

@@JonklingJonkler This is the problem with groups. So many of them are stuck with the obligation to stay together. Pewdiepie did it right, just mostly stayed to himself, moved to Japan and can do whatever he wants without being attach to other organizations.

[@asomefacepro]

His life in l.a. is 10x more eventful than my own and he still feels trapped in repetitive cycle. Life truly is what you make of it.

[@alloyt7538]

Man.. my 9-5 job with 0 job enjoyment makes me salty that people are complaining making 2/3x more of what i have

[@portablejea7014]

@@alloyt7538 well yeah, its okay to feel that way, but at the end of the day, everyone struggles sometimes, i hope you can find your own path and do make something out of your situation that you enjoy one day, maybe not today but tomorrow :)

[@ferocious1288]

@@alloyt7538 for real they just sit there and play some games and they earn more than professional workers and still complain/whine about life

[@kzbw]

@@ferocious1288 lmao better than sitting in KZbin comments whining about what other people are doing with their lives

[@chashubokchoy8999]

@@alloyt7538 i mean yeah but there are kids starving and homeless veterans and you’re here complaining about a stable job. there’s always a worse situation but people deserve to feel how they feel

[@leepadki]

We all need real life friends. We need in person relationships with people that we connect with. The type of person who streams for a living successfully is really interesting to me.

[@leepadki]

With that said, good on you for doing something different. I hope you find fulfillment.

[@breakingbad3995]

F people, I’m a loner. I love being by myself.

[@Widmouno]

​@@breakingbad3995 That's why I kept saying to myself throughout my Teens and 20s, now that I'm in my 30s I realize how idiotic it was. I was just scared of approaching people and cared too much about what they'll think about me, my shit lifestyle and my 'childish' interests. Now I'm alone and miserable. Don't do that, humans are meant to bond with each other no matter how much you try to deny it; it's the truth. I understand if you're an introvert, I am a one as well - I love my me time, and that's fine, but that doesn't mean we don't need connections, friends.

[@skeetskeet7576]

@@breakingbad3995 everyone gangsta till you mentally age

[@deletedwaffles]

@@Widmouno I use to think that way too. I'm also in my 30s and I'm glad I realized at a younger age that I need friends around me. There's something about having people with you while you do things that is worlds different than just doing things by yourself.

[@zero-ws8tq]

Wow Toast is really going through an interesting character arc. Good for him

[@krazyknva78]

When borders feel like a cage, cross them. Live your life, Toast. You've only got one. Enjoy it.

[@lushbIood]

tbh this mans barely spent any of his 20s and he's already 30. it's about time he let himself run

[@shocky377]

what? he did more in his twenties than most people will do in their life

[@naip9315]

@@shocky377 u mean studying for a degree he didnt got and focusing doing heartstone content on a daily basis AND streaming at that time?

[@anonfalco7880]

@@shocky377 In Achievements sure. But the only time he hung out with friends is at 'work'. It's fun work, but it's got a load of pressure because chat, potential cancels, twitter etc. It's not the same chilling with the boys on the weekend. Which he did none of for an entire decade

[@lushbIood]

@@shocky377 the 20s im talking about is the one with wild stories, mistakes, injuries, waking up in places, spontaneous shit, impulsive actions and regrets that you look at fondly when you're older. in short, it's really the 20s spent outside the house. it's the thing that makes life beautiful.

[@benballier9580]

@@lushbIood you’re saying you should do a bunch of stupid stuff for some good memories? Glad I’m not lol. I can make memories other ways.

[@LU-gf8jz]

I like his points, may as well stay and try a change of scenery for a bit but I don’t see him staying for more than another 2 weeks

[@bitsy_0523]

Maybe this is like his Canada arc where he stays there for months then comes back again after what it feels like an eternity

[@AppleGameification]

@@bitsy_0523 his visas probably gonna run out

[@AngryLookingBanana]

From what i heard it's extremly hard to move to Japan so im pretty sure he is not going to be able to stay there for long even if he wants to. He have to go home when his tourist visa ends.

[@xpo1220]

@@AngryLookingBanana Canadians can stay up to 6 months without visas in japan.

[@jumuno_1137]

@@AngryLookingBanana I believe they got a work visa. But I still don’t know if that allows him to stay slighter longer or shorter than tourist visa

[@alli1222]

From the looks of it, Toast had a major realization while in Japan and now he’s gonna try and go on a self discovery journey! He’s growing as a person and that’s wonderful to see :) I’m glad toast is trying to see more of the world and what it has to offer rather than just stay in his own little bubble.

[@seanmorris2189]

Something that helped me break a consistent monthly cycle was a first time trip out of my state. Helped bring me back to my own little world I was so focused on and start trying to focus on the now, hope you feel better toast!

[@btchpls6363]

I am watching the stream . Toas really look glowing and refreshing while chilling in Japan

[@Liezshae]

Good for him! He has the money to finance this stay so its not a super rash decision. Everybody needs to separate themselves from their daily at some point and this seems like a perfect time for Toast. May he prosper as long as needed in Japan!

[@UltraEevee]

If I were in his shoes, I'd probably stay too. I've been stuck in the same place for so long and visiting Japan would feel like a major upgrade in some aspects. The thought of returning so soon saddens me.

[@bluekid5099]

He’s rich and he’s bored. He could literally go to any country and just stay for a few weeks, maybe even a few months. I know I would do that if I could.

[@hatorokku22]

Right lol who would wanna stay in the states

[@kazuo398]

If I didn't have to work in Japan I'd definitely live there

[@hatorokku22]

@@kazuo398 interesting lol

[@user-c3jdf9lylzse]

@@kazuo398 then work for an international company or be self employed

[@noxus158]

@@hatorokku22 have you seen the other parts of the world?

[@shreyas.2445]

I feel bad that he was going through so much and couldn't tell us... hope he finds what he wants soon

[@blackwingz55]

What he needs are friends who aren't on the internet 24/7

[@helloeveryone0123]

You do you, Toast! stay positive and stay strong. you are not alone.

[@Ridlay_]

If he wasn’t happy with what he was doing, then yeah, changing things up and discovering more to life is great! I wish him the best.

[@zan1971]

Honestly as a millionaire he can take whatever amount of breaks he wants and he'll be alright. Even if it staying in a foreign country to rediscover himself among foreigners. He'll do just fine.

[@Slurptacular64]

The issue with that is a large majority of “millionaires” don’t have millions in the bank because of higher standards of living. Sure they may have more available cash, and probably more in the bank, but very rarely a lot more. They tend to buy bigger houses, with higher mortgages, higher living costs, buy more expensive things, and end up having a lot less available cash as a result than one might expect.

[@zan1971]

@@Slurptacular64 I'm sure Toast is smart enough to recognize the implications of living alone without support and thus managing his expenses appropriately

[@ellie.ivanova]

I also think he'll do just fine, but he can't really take big breaks not because of money, but because of his contract with Twitch

[@mikeoath9541]

@@Slurptacular64 Pretty sure he has millions in his bank. Unlike other streamers/youtubers he doesn't spend on fancy cars mansions etc. He had his facebook deal probably in double digit millions or very close to it. He got so rich that he stopped donations. Dude has a very low spending habit other than food. He is def sitting on millions in assets he could liquidate pretty fast if needed.

[@duskpede5146]

@@mikeoath9541 "double digit millions or very close to it" where tf did you get that idea from. other streamer contracts are like 1% of that!

[@spongyreaper2239]

I feel like he's tired of all the toxic personalities he was forced to deal with for so long. Good for him to make the choice to change his situation. 10/10

[@cvvamp]

Toast is toxic tbh has a temper and 0 patience

[@1Plebeian]

who tf is toxic in his circle?

[@Arukorstza]

I don't know if you've ever encountered actual toxicity before. But it's not the kind of thing you can laugh about and act buddy-buddy immediately afterwards from.

[@airwaters]

Huh? Who?

[@shrivel_d]

tf you talkin bout

[@woorp]

the fact he stayed once he got there is a big move mentally and physically, he’s in a whole different environment and it can really stress people out if they’re not mentally strong enough. i’m hoping the first couple of months go as smooth as possible for toast. ❤️

[@romdom9406]

He started out as a lone hearthstone streamer. Got into otv, lived with them for the longest time. Went back to taiwan because of visa purposes.. went back to otv and now he just wants to live alone again in japan this time. Like a cycle

[@etanafeya7219]

He seems lost. I hope he finds himself during the time he spend in Japan.

[@onyroo]

Japan is amazing man. I still think about it all the time from my 2019 visit.

[@notting2640]

same, 2017 my first time in Japan… still remember every detail till this day amazing country for tourism

[@onyroo]

@@notting2640 I miss it all the time. 😭

[@ivel17]

hey guys, can you give me some advices for the trip in Japan? i really want to visit this country when I'll get enough money. thanks

[@dhe8742]

@@ivel17 go watch trash taste (#97 iirc) regarding traveling to japan, they're pretty much covers most of it

[@xxDxxism]

@@ivel17 or the Abroad in Japan channel

[@sophia-pr8gi]

i’m so happy for him. i would love him to move to japan permanently

[@Michaelonyoutub]

1:42 note, I am unsure of Toast's travel status and Japan's specific laws, but most times when you travel to a country you get a travel/tourist visa that is only valid for a certain period of time, beyond that it can be illegal to stay and you need to apply for something else like permanent residency if you want to continue to live there.

[@techsoly]

Japan is very strict when it comes to residency as well. I believe you must relinquish any and all citizenship to any country you reside in if you want to live in Japan as well as already have proof that you'll be employed immediately upon living there. Also iirc streaming isn't considered a viable/realized job in Japan as they kicked out Hololive's Kiara as that was her job forcing her to move back to Austria.

[@pats8577]

@@techsoly residency is strict, yes, but you need not relinquish your citizenship altogether. My mom has been a japanese resident for more than 30 years and she has still kept her citizenship. Mostly, it’s the visa that’ll be an issue.

[@techsoly]

@@pats8577 That's because she presumably attained dual citizenship before the law was enforced in 1985. Everyone that got dual citizenship before then can keep both, however anyone after that can only choose their original country or Japan, but not both. It's the official Japanese nationality law.

[@WizardManMerlin]

@@techsoly Trash Taste boys literally are all residents and maintain their respective home citizenships

[@techsoly]

@@WizardManMerlin Unless you can provide their dual citizenship information that is very unlikely they maintain two. Reminder that work visas are not the same as permanent residency

[@angiekpop2607]

Honestly I can definitely say that being out of the state is definitely something life changing when visiting other countries, I was in Europe for 2 and a half weeks and I felt more alive and just different, I guess it also had to do with how everyone is around you because of the surrounding of different cultures it just different of how they take in respect and behavioral wise it’s completely different then being in the state, idk how to explain but I guess the location just shapes you in a way. I felt more open and less anxious in a while when I went traveling, but now that I’m back in the state I feel weird because I was so used to being outside that now I feel like it’s somehow difficult to go outside idk, but the experience of going somewhere else does shape you into making new goals, so now Ima try opening up even if it’s a bit difficult when Im back to a place where I began to close myself, but I believe I can push through. Finding yourself or a place in general that interest you is completely fine, I feel like it’s making you learn more about yourself or shapes you into different positions of things. Being in the state isn’t a bad thing either or in general America itself isn’t bad, I’m sure all the states are different and just good in their own ways of how things are, including people and life style, but being out of the states is something that is just as life changing and great for a change of life.

[@xPhantomxify]

People like to see and experience different lands and people from distant lands. That simple. Humans are innately adventurous beings.

[@duskpede5146]

nah its probably walkable infrastructure. yeah everything you described just comes from being in a city not designed by car lobbyists, down to the not wanting to go outside when you get back

[@dumdumbringgumgum2940]

Because he's the Anime Protagonist on his journey of self discovery

[@toggtlas7099]

I give it a week before he realizes that he is stuck in the same routines in Japan instead. It was the same when he was in Canada over the winter breaks. "Oh maybe I stay here, I don't want to go back to LA, maybe I stay here". And then he got bored and noticed that a change of scenery doesn't change who you are.

[@flavoryf566]

a week (or 2) is a good enough amount of time "away" still to enjoy some things by yourself, or discover some other things. All he prob needs there before returning. I usually recommend the same thing if you visit Japan on the regular 1-2 week trips is a good amount of time to do things, but not get dulled down once it becomes "routine" in some aspects. Least that is what I learned on a yearly basis for the years (2014-2019) I was visiting (precovid). Then he can repeat a less stream/content time elsewhere down the line for a week or two. Best of course if you are interested in the culture in lots of aspects instead of just one/niche aspect of course. (unless you really, really enjoy that niche to an extreme and can make most out of say events for it during your stay.)

[@zefersanity6537]

japan is hella overrated

[@CGgamer128]

@@zefersanity6537 it better then usa tho

[@4purs]

@@CGgamer128 to tourist in but definitely not to live in unless you’re rich and don’t have to work lol

[@pljoo9]

@@zefersanity6537 why do you think that

[@darkiepoo8949]

he's very lonely. 30 years old and needs a real connection. and needs someone who can match him intellectually and keep his interest.

[@tikkng]

yeah this is partly why i don't rly agree with him and miyoung dating, it really doesn't seem like it'd work, but whatever obviously who am i to talk about it it just does kinda feel a bit 'forced' in a way, kinda like they were both around eachother and single and thought ehh why not, like they had a semi crush on each other as people do when theyre around attractive people but personality wise and how they _are_ doesn't rly match up imo. it doesn't really feel or seem or look like actual _love_ which is part of the issue ofc, so many people for some reason (libido? lust? false sense of what loneliness actually is?) hate being single/WANT to be in *A RELATIONSHIP* like regardless of anything, they just want to be 'With Someone' but more often times than not, it just kinda ends up making it all worse and turn to shit i dont rly understand that aspect of life bc i myself dont/have never really been in any relationships that i didnt see a girl and *felt* love/passion for them as opposed to just kinda... like... coexisting... in a 'relationship' sorta like 2 friends that find eachother attractive or so and happened to start dating and having sex with each other not necessarily friends with benefits but also not necessarily an actual good/proper/loving relationship because yeah people say it all the time and its in all the movies and tv shows, that ppl call their significant other their best friend, but in reality it shouldn't really be like you're both friends with each other its sort of more like family love, sort of like how you act with your siblings a bit (as in, in terms of playfulness and interactions, not anything fckin weird) which obviously makes sense because at the end of the day/lifetime, when you are actually in love the intention is of course to be together in _A family_ edit: right maybe went a bit off the rails there but yeah pretty much i feel like that all applies to toast, as parasocial and weird as it may seem. obviously nobody but myself actually knows exactly what i see/feel/think when i 'judge' a person, so ofc it probably looks and sounds weirdly parasocial like im watching their streams 24/7 and that's how i know, but no, its just kind of how they both speak, look, act, their body language and style and all that sort of shit rolled into one ball in my weird little head again off the rails but yeah i myself know im not being parasocial weird and as far as im concerned these are just 2 normal ass ppl that i can 'judge' and 'sense'(cringe word) that they aren't really that loving or in love with each other, at least toast 100% he's a lot more clear than miyoung because miyoung is a walking troll lol it's hard to get the exact idea of exactly how she is and what she'd feel but basically yeah, like janet for example was also kind of similar but imo she was definitely better suited to toast even if it went to shit while miyoung and janet are both educated and intelligent of course, there's like a certain specific type of inherent intelligence that's more important than any learned behaviour or education, that toast has and that he'd naturally seek in a partner /end actually no final edit: just a little extra thing to kind of make it semi clearer, john and jodi for example. they are both nearly perfectly suited for eachother. they both have the exact same kind of inherent intelligence and personality/humour that makes them work amazingly together. so yeah while toast may be "smarter" or big brain haha meme etc, its the same exact type of 'intelligence' that john and jodi have, its just that personality wise ofc jodi wouldnt work with toast for example. so its not all black and white and just bc someone is naturally intelligent OR similar-ish personality doesn't mean theyll work with toast. inherent intelligence and good/similar traits/personality aspects to toast is essentially the key 'identifier' i’m tryna say here, in what would ACTUALLY be good for toast and help him out of his weird emotional hole he found himself in atm, which again, i feel almost certain that what he has atm/with miyoung doesn't fit the category properly, because unless ive missed a completely random break up, theyd actually WANT to be together as much as possible, and the mere thought of one another should brighten up each other's days/moods, aka the way john and jodi are

[@Divosligo]

@@tikkng I mean nobody knows both of them are dating or not plus we dont know whats going inside their lives so we cant say anything about it. I hope toast is doing good tho and is doing what he loves and lives a happy life 🤞❤️

[@sebongteens]

@@tikkng yeah... you do seem weird by writing that much about several strangers' relationships

[@mrnineoclock6929]

Holy parasocial

[@tomi-Q]

@@tikkng You really do not know enough about this situation, you crossed way too many lines with your message. I believe that you are a smart person but what you wrote makes you look delusional.

[@centurionMAC]

"Why are you staying in Japan?" Toast: *philosophical stuff about the direction of life and where things are headed.* "....and there are these two Japanese girls...."

[@chairofthebored]

@Wei Li who knows if they're still even together they went from spending every waking moment together to being basically no contact (at least on cam) for the last two months. Plus they kept things hella private so maybe all the shipping ended up being too much pressure on them

[@antidave]

@Wei Li they broke up lol as you can tell they haven't really spoken or interacted as they used to

[@awkwardzoltar3529]

Good for him. Every young adult needs a change of pace sometimes. It can make you’re life more exhilarating, and you can discover more about yourself. It’s sad so many people in America can’t afford to get away or to safely live on their own. Then in Japan, it’s frowned upon to take vacations.

[@モロコシ-y7t]

日本で休暇を取っても嫌われません😅インターネットの情報を鵜呑みにしないでください

[@awkwardzoltar3529]

@@モロコシ-y7t I couldn’t agree more, you’re mom said the same thing last night. We dine over a plate of McDonald’s French fries.

[@itsmesky3545]

@@awkwardzoltar3529 Did you even translate the comment? Or is this some racism joke?

[@awkwardzoltar3529]

@@itsmesky3545 towards Americans? Ya I hate everyone who isn’t me. Can you be racist towards Americans who can’t even tell they’re being insulted? If I wanted to be funny and racist towards the Japanese, I could of reply with Yooooooooooo

[@itsmesky3545]

@@awkwardzoltar3529 Okay whatever, but my first question though? Also you were replying to a Japanese comment so how are you racist towards Americans? What are you even talking about lmao dude you just sound high.

[@Cripplified]

It really sounds like Toast might be burnt out as a content creator. He should do whatever makes him happy and pursue a fulfilling life. He's 30 years old, and it's clear he feels the creator lifestyle isn't bringing him the joy it used to. He's made enough money to retire and life a comfortable life if he wants, and I'm sure everyone would understand. Then, if he gets the urge to come back and make a video or stream out of leisure in the future, it'd be better than seeing him act like he feels forced and trapped in this rut of constantly needing to entertain people. Sorta reminds me of Bo Burnham and his burnout/hiatus.

[@sabrinaghostblade3948]

Pretty sure the length to stay in Japan without a visa is 3 months, so Toast could definitely stay long enough to have a change in scenery

[@cheapskate102]

Hmm I thought they were on a business visa?

[@rayocker]

He said he has to be back in LA for some events/business meetings so probably cant really stay that long in Japan

[@lanceareadbhar]

@@cheapskate102 Google seems to imply 90 days as well.

[@lucuslopez6866]

na. you can stay longer than 3months.

[@katalysis]

Disguised Toast stays in Japan: To hang out with two "super nice" Japanese girls.

[@brandonxiongxiongsta636]

Double it

[@lowcjr2845]

Toast wants to be an actor right. Why not try one in Japan.

[@RokuNyx]

@@lowcjr2845 He can't speak Japanese, and Japan is notoriously harsh on foreign workers i.e natives come first most the time and they prefer some level of conversational Japanese. Look at people like Chris from Abroad in Japan - only got in because of the JET program and then eventually became a tourism channel for Japan. TrashTaste boys are somewhat similar, Joey being part Japanese got in easier. Connor pretty much never gets voice acting work due to this and originally got allowed to go over because of the creation of GeeX+ same with Garnt.

[@Hamlet0727]

He finna feeling like he just existing probably

[@onesack9614]

Good for him that takes a lot of courage to put yourself in a situation like that

[@Saida___]

This is a man who has reach peak boredom

[@deletedwaffles]

I did this several years ago before the pandemic. Went to Japan for a couple weeks stay and ended up staying for the duration of my 3 month visa. It was a time when I quit my job in the states and felt like every single day was just a routine of looking for a new job and sleeping. It wore me down and Japan kind of gave me a mental break from that. It helps that Japan is practically built for people who enjoy walking and not driving (me) and a lot of things were just accessible without the need of a car. It was a good experience. It really helped clear my head and get me back to a place where I wasn't so depressed and moody.

[@nathalykim1263]

watch out for your visa though, my country's visa in japan was quite short, i think and i know a canadian visa would probably be longer but it's still important to keep that in mind, especially in a country like japan

[@deletedwaffles]

Not sure how it is with the pandemic but it's 90 days as a tourist.

[@ronelaandallo]

I do not blame the man, we all hit those kind of points in life. I am very proud of Toast!

[@justsaiyansteve]

It's a man's search of purpose in life, from the mundane routine of life.

[@thetillter2228]

Wishing Toast the best !

[@sandenson]

I can relate to him. I was also stuck in a loop, but suddenly got my first proper job in a tech company from across the country. When they offered me the option to live there (with some of my friends, who also got the job and opted to go), I immediately took the opportunity and it's been the best thing I've ever done.

[@turkeyman631]

Essentially from what I’m gathering, he doesn’t feel as pressured to work in Japan. If I made the same amount of money as he has, I’d do the same thing. Life’s too short, gotta stop and enjoy it sometimes.

[@iisencha3046]

A change of pace is definitely what he deserves, hope he has fun in Japan!

[@chaotic9729]

So basically he’s taking a vacation. All good toast 👍🏾

[@arc0.035]

Don't get depressed just stay alive... Toast

[@Eskii_NZL]

You spent years building your career in a dark room brother, I'm glad your finally reaping the rewards of your hard work toast. No point in working hard if you cant play harder. Enjoy life and be safe out there 🙌

[@altaccount648]

I like the mindset, realizing you're bored by how your current life is going so you switch your life in the most drastic ways.

[@robincasey1700]

do what makes you happy man it'll be fun watchin the journey if you still make videos :D

[@itsprincebri]

I understand how he feels, I was raised in cali all my life and spending a year in korea made me never want to leave. I miss it out there.

[@stanleyho8009]

Toast is tired and bored with his “standard” streaming life, which is totally understandable. After years of heavy streaming, being in another country that is so different with no ‘obligation’ or pressure to stream makes it relaxing being and staying in Japan which has a total different environment that doesn’t remind him of streaming. Great for his mental health but who knows if it might lead to his ending phase of streaming in the ‘worst case scenario’ (for some of us at least).

[@Removewastaken]

I’ve known about Toast since he played Hearthstone. At this point, anything that doesn’t lead to him upheaving his life in a major way after 3 years is the “best case scenario”. If that means he stops streaming then so be it.

[@tinor9591]

Crazy seeing his growth from like 2016-2017 toast. Whole ass man now

[@twidget]

Toast wants to experience night live with out being recognized and have good old fashioned fun.

[@sleepygummi]

glad Toast is taking some time for himself and experiencing new things. This also means there's a small possibility for an Abroad in Japan + Trash Taste collab and that thought excites me even if it doesn't happen.

[@MiaRose02]

Well, I hope he has a good time in Japan and feels more fulfilled :)

[@mjxy]

I can’t wait for the CDawgVA claw machine vs toast video

[@vt_hikaru]

I hope he knows that Japan is very strict on extended stay. Even kiara who is backed by cover a Japanese company had to leave. It's not like the states where people come and go as they please. Now if he has a work visa that may be different but from the sounds of it, it was a spur of the moment decision

[@notnotme3918]

Was wondering about this, when he said you can just stay how long i was confused cause japan is strict af

[@notome5621]

glad toast is just doing whatever feels right for him

[@terakahn]

I am surprised that more streamers don't do this. You have a job where you are successful and can work from anywhere in the world. Why not experience the world.

[@RexDeorumYT]

Language barriers, work visas, timezone schedules, there are plenty of hurdles that make it difficult to simply just pick up and move somwhere else, even if you do have a job that lets you be remote

[@terakahn]

@@RexDeorumYT most of those things are easy to work around with a local guide or assistant.

[@RexDeorumYT]

@@terakahn If you can't get a work visa, a local "guide" isn't going to solve that. Nor can they change the time zones to make them more convenient for you.

[@terakahn]

@@RexDeorumYT do you really think that toast can't get a work visa. I don't know why you put guide in quotes. You're making it sound like moving is next to impossible and it's just not. They have a ton of freedom to live almost anywhere in the world they want. Their job does not restrict them to a location. Unless you're going to debate that too.

[@RexDeorumYT]

@@terakahn It is very difficult in Japan, the Trash Taste boys only got them because they are directly under Kadokawa and sponsored by them to be there. You really shouldn't open your mouth if you don't know what you're talking about.

[@swvch]

I’m 28 right now(10 years since I’ve been 18) and it flew by but I’ve lived. All my friends played everything safe. I traveled, I up and left everything to go see what the world had to offer me. You’ll never be 18 on the road making things happen again. If anybody reads this. This is your sign to just go out and do it. Pack everything and just go somewhere for a week and figure it out. Don’t plan, just go and make it work.

[@bsigns1935]

Take a break bro, you deserve it

[@taytay32865]

I've reached this point in my life and I definitely think he needs to do more with his life than game. The community isn't meant for everyone to stay in, it can get extremely depressing after awhile. It seems like he's at that point himself and there's nothing wrong with that. I hope he figures out what would truly make him happy.

[@MrDoyle-ky4he]

"Could go back to LA" Okay yeah, there's a fuckton of better places then LA my dude. Never understood why successful people gravitated towards densely populated cities when you could live in infinitely more peaceful environments.

[@duskpede5146]

and when people finally leave the hell hole... they go to texas. which is just as bad as LA in every way except there are slightly lower taxes.

[@token8390]

That feeling of repetitiveness in your day to day life of just looking up to the weekend and doing it all again is something I can relate to

[@graceworld7087]

If he has the money, he can totally do it. It is a Novelty that he has to worn out.

[@carneliansweetness]

As someone who regularly extends her business trip to travel leisurely around Japan before covid, i relate to Toast. Japan is actually pretty fun and safe for both guys and girls to travel alone and i could walk for hours around tokyo or take odakyu out to enoshima/kamakura or hakone just to walk around and sightsee. Also you can explore at your own pace and eat what you want, which is highly recommended if you visit japan as they have so much good food around. Highly recommend anyone to give solo Japan a try honestly.

[@clint6193]

I wonder if the bigger picture is that Toast realizes that he is happier when he's not in L.A.? L.A. is its own weird bubble and it's not for everyone. Japan is amazing, but I wonder if he could be just as happy by moving somewhere else in the U.S.?

[@bryantpinette5189]

dude ya just needed a change of pace for a bit, we all get there, this will be a new and exciting time for you!

[@lime455]

Is this what the first stages of a depression looks like?

[@Widmouno]

No, I'd say this is a huge step to cure depression that's already been there for a long time.

[@faiznordin9343]

As much as I miss his hearthstone era. I'm just glad he's doing better right now.

[@alexmbiocjr9962]

He can do Sissy Sunday anywhere. Good for him if he stay in Japan.

[@nateg5505]

Timezone differences makes collabs hard. Not impossible but when your collabs feature multiple people you need to be more mindful of scheduling

[@hersheytemple]

yea i get it, lived in a small town for the majority of my life and then decided to move to denver 2 years ago to see what it was like living in a big metropolitan city, prob not the best city to move to but was glad i did it, and now im moving back so that i can finally focus on what actually want and see where this takes me.

[@SephirotHeRe]

Isn’t everyone like this when they go away on vacation??? No one wants to leave but you have to for work reasons, kids school etc he can just afford to stay as long as he sees fit.

[@leni9157]

yeah I guess it’s the streamer lifestyle…I rarely see someone take a week or two off, fly somewhere and lie at the beach and do nothing kind of vacation…

[@blonded_ari]

i really relate to this on a personal level. im still really young but im at a stage in my life where i don't feel content about just settling for the bare minimum. i've been making some really big personal changes and trying to grow as a person.

[@studyou1016]

I literally stayed in asia for 4 years cause its so much better than the States so i understand

[@ashash8026]

ah yes Asia , a continent

[@studyou1016]

@@ashash8026 the top major cities in Asia beat the top cities in USA so i dont have to specify much haha

[@queeng508]

@@ashash8026 maybe the person just doesnt wanna specify the location because its none of our business? maybe they just wanted to express compassion, empathy or a sense of understanding without having to put out their personal info?

[@RokuNyx]

@@queeng508 That's cool bro, give address now.

[@alloyt7538]

@@queeng508 saying whatever country hes visited isnt gnna get him doxxed

[@DjuraValtr]

Change is always fine, just don't lose your core self in the process.

[@zero5082]

Real vacay

[@bobbobby475]

This is what happens when you're rich you sometimes get bored

[@demitri9211]

wonder what this’ll do for his girlfriend miyoung, if he doesn’t treat her right he’ll lose her

[@vic_cresss]

Nah miyoungs loyal like that

[@AlyDia2]

I wish for this arc if my life to start soon. Go out do something unexpected and see how it goes. I’m happy for toast.

[@joebarraclough1438]

Sucks to see depression in the people you look up to. Wishing you the best. Running from your problems won't change anything though they will follow you to Japan.

[@AppleGameification]

Amazing you can diagnose someone without even meeting them

[@lemongeezer1157]

@@AppleGameification ikr lol

[@Blopez007]

@@AppleGameification KZbin comment doctors coming in hot with the diagnosed depression from one 1 minute clip.

[@yololoyo7379]

Nah that is not depression. He just got lost and bored again

[@TheRandyalex]

No, his went to Korea instead

[@GoBuddieGo]

Honestly I totally understand how Toast is feeling. Japan has been at the top of the list for countries I want to visit and recently I’ve been feeling weird and trapped so I’m currently saving for hopefully a month long trip to Japan even if I have to go alone, I’m just not happy and I know I want to travel to Japan and have new experiences good or bad.

[@noobageddon7936]

he's definitely staying for the girls 1:16 lol

[@ordinarydude2237]

Realizing you want to do more is a big step in life, one not many will be able to get in their lifetime

[@Chewyness]

Someone just sounds heart broken, this is something someone that just got broken up with would do lol

[@steepyt]

That's what happens when exposed to a completely new comforting environment after being stuck to a previous one. It feels there's so much more to discover without intervention of your common peers. Deciding part to stay for good is whether these discoveries are deal breaker or not.