sadness. recent struggle with depression

[@Dredile]

I know this vid wont go well over with some of you. Too serious, just know I appreciate you guys a ton. I'm working through it. Thanks for watching

[@snailmailgames6335]

Serious videos are OK. Feel free to talk about it :)

[@sakeviyokoyama9253]

Dredile I hope you win and gets your sadness away

[@purplehero7501]

ok, you honestly dont know how nice it is to have a constant source of good media and happiness that you and your videos give me. Having something constant like you and your videos is something is so rare in this ever changing world.

[@kevinlockwood1434]

I've been there. Hell, I'm there right now. Hang in there bro. Looks like you have 10k peeps who care...

[@spran369]

Dredile I know just how you feel, i was going through the same thing. Keep strong man, don't let it bring you down!

[@tompark724]

That "Party Trick" bit really resonated with me. Thank you.

[@EricMichaelLP]

Just recently found your channel, and been watching the Half life lore videos. I love them. I can relate to some of the things you speak of. I guess I was a bit depressed after I had a breakup last year. Good luck! You seem to be in the right state of mind. Keep posting and stay awesome!

[@Simte]

I was diagnosed with ptsd and depression. There's nothing better than giving yourself time to heal. You'll do it.

[@alfa_1014]

You’ll get thru it, stay strong

[@Andrew-rs3qd]

Your videos are the best, man! I love what you are doing and I hope you keep doing you! Stay strong and positive!

[@lordgdvei]

The Dredfam‘s here for ya bud! We love you! Keep working hard, and take a break if you need to!

[@thehappybigfoot8896]

I’m sorry to hear... Depression isn’t to be taken lightly. What ever it is that is troubling you... I hope you can feel better soon.

[@IReallyLikeTreessmileyface]

It’s good to get your thoughts out on stuff like this it releases a lot of that sadness/stress/ anger (for me at-least) that’s usually what I do if something is bothering me I either talk to myself like a goddamn weirdo or talk to my girlfriend and pretty much rant about all the shit that had me down and it helps alot that or I just listen to tool :T, I certainly hope doing this helped you

[@greenbean2222]

Hey dude, I hope you get better. We all get sad boi hours.

[@JuliusCheeser223]

Man I'm late but hang in there. I hope you heal.

[@XanderNiles]

We all deal with bullshit from time to time, but it shouldn't stop you to do what you want to do. I have suffered of anxiety and sadness, I know... it hurts but we need to look forward and enjoy our lives, because we only got one. Stay strong Dredile.

[@2tvtv]

we're here for you man

[@Grimmx50]

i give out free hugs dredile i got you

[@sakeviyokoyama9253]

THIS MADE ME CRY. LIVE THE LIFE YOU LOVE LOVE THE LIFE YOU LIVE Bob Marley quote when I ever feel said I think of this quote

[@sandeepmudi]

Keep fighting brother. I have seen it. There is light in the end...

[@zanni2695]

Your videos saved me from panic couple of times, bc I'm dealing with a mental disorder and you really helped me to forget all my bad thoughts when I needed to for a while ✌

[@Dredile]

Thanks! I'm glad to help in anyway I can. This is a temporary thing I'll get through it!

[@zanni2695]

We believe in you Dredile! ✊

[@Pelicanlover117]

I've felt the same way too recently. I am here if you ever want to talk. I am working in Hammer too I didn't know there was a competition for it! I suck at it so far but I am working on getting better. I actually am trying to make a mod but am taking it slow. You've made a difference to me and I am sure many others. Normally I'd say more but I am kinda tired. Be well, I know it's hard.

[@antonioacuna8575]

Half life lore brought me to you. For what it's worth, I've thoroughly enjoyed your content, and hope you bounce back strong.

[@Dredile]

Thanks I appreciate it!

[@thehumbleturnip8894]

I've suffered with depression all of my life. It's awful, and you're not alone. Love your videos, man! I wish you the absolute best.

[@Dredile]

Thanks man, I've been doing alright and I hope you keep fighting the good fight!

[@WolfLeviathan9000]

I've felt the exact way you do through my whole life. I've felt like I was a failure, like I was not good enough, and that I was inferior to everyone in the world. But in my life experience I've found that it's good enough to just talk to someone, preferably a friend or family member, and they'll help you get through it. We're here for you!

[@Dredile]

Thank you, everyone has been very supportive. Thanks for always watching m8!

[@WolfLeviathan9000]

No problem m9!

[@Cephilsan]

That feeling when dad has forgotten about your discord you *made

[@bmpcrip8243]

Love you vids man! I know what you mean when you say you’re not happy even though you have it way better than others. To me the best coping system is a show or a good game (for me it was the office lol). Stay strong and hope you get through this rough patch 👌

[@theblackbull55]

I liked this one. Aint nothing wrong with a little serious talk every now and then. The best thing is that you have a positive view on it all, believing you'll eventually get out it and im sure you will. With that being said sadly it doesn't apply for everyone, especially for those who have been dealing with it for a long time and yet refuses to seek any form of help. The point is you got to help yourself because if there is a will there is a way.

[@absentation]

Awwww ;-; you need love and care ❤ we're here for you :3 ,btw I'm still living depression from what I've been through in my childhood. But meh, I'll only live once. And I'll fucking live it whether it's shitty or good,it might be better than what others lived

[@JeremyNoelJohnson]

It's ok that you feel this way. I can relate 100%, especially this year.

[@Dredile]

Thx Jer! Msg me on Facebook or w/e let's get dinner in the next few weeks

[@saenes6295]

I have been a rock for years, until somehow i got up and just went out, everyday i would go to a park walking 5km until i would get there, walk for a Hour, and walk back. That helped. But i really shook it off when i met a Girl thru a aquintence of mine, and after just weeks life turned around for me and now i am almost 1 year with her and im more happy then i ever been. Just because of that one person i met. Loved your rambeling as i somehow felt i could relate to some of it. Just keep doing what your doing Dredile, things come automatically, good or bad. Do you by any chance still map for source casually? I'd love to see your past or present stuff as i do love making some maps aswell! :D

[@Herobrinehunter1000]

Keep trying man, your videos make my day every time I see them, know we care about you and we want to see you happy. You’ll get better, stay strong, and we’ll be right behind you the entire time.

[@Dredile]

Thanks man!

[@lochnessmobster9026]

aww I’ve helped some friends with depression before, and I do have a couple ideas to help ya out. Do know that I’m by no means a professional, or a miracle worker. - I like the quote from Confucius, “If you find a job you love, you’ll never have to work a day in your life” I’m not saying you should quit your job, even if it’s (from what I see) taking a toll on you, but you should try to find a balance between it what you like to do (youtube, music, mapping) to maximize happiness. And now that you can make money off youtube again, that should cushion you from any financial loss from less work - Theres a video by CGP Grey, called “10 ways to maximize misery,” which is a different take on motivation, by telling you how to do the opposite, as a way of reverse psychology. He’s done some other good videos, his Dragon Parable is really good too if you need something to make you feel empowered - Maybe be more active on discord? Or do more livestreams. Basically, just do more stuff with your fans, and it’ll make u feel better - (thats all I can think of, I’ll add more if I think of any)

[@Dredile]

Thanks lochness, yeah I think the mood has affected my content and outreach to people. I apologize for that. I'm turning it around. Always appreciate it man, we need to play soon online

[@captainscrumpy1019]

It’s alright man. We love you!

[@antonio-onism9814]

Man.. I'm always late. But anyways You're great dude! The important thing is that you're fighting! If it makes you feel any better, I've recently lost all my motivation and quite frankly, I don't see the point of anything anymore. I used to be a top student, had all As. Now I'll be happy if I don't fall a whole year and possibly even get kicked from my high school thanks to the new laws in my country. But again, the important thing to do is to keep fighting. Like you're in a tunnel with no light. Maybe you don't know the right way, but you always can and have to move in order to find it. I'm sure the light will come soon. And besides, I've been watching you for a long time and I must say, you're one of my favourite KZbinrs out there. I wish you all the best man! Take care and stay safe ❤ (Also on the positive note; Gaben recently said something about releasing the next episode for Half Life in "the next 5 years or so ;)"

[@charmyzard]

I have always been the soul of the party, making people laugh, and overall, when they laugh, I feel like I fullfilled my purpose, so I understand that part

[@ReMaxJax]

I’ll pray for you man!

[@TheEnemy159]

Maybe you have to try another thing? i dont know, i have been like that for who one knows. but its a big step waking up from this, and have the motivation to heal yourself, that is something to be recognized. i hope that you get trough this, bc i really want to see you make more videos :)

[@Dredile]

Making changes, I've made progress observing my thoughts and keeping busy doing new things. That said I still felt dirty making this as I know it's off key from my vids. I'll keep making moves

[@DarkSaguaro]

Hey! Talk about it more , you will suffacate yourself with your own thoughts (they are just your imagination) stop it till you can. I lived with depression for about 5 years andd mow everything is fine so just dig in and wait it out it sounds like a bunch of bullshit when you are depressed but try not to think about anything. Best of luck with your fight It's going to be hard but you will be ok. Thanks for your videos

[@jenovaloz3108]

G-man sent me here

[@kuroinekonya]

We can wait

[@purplehero7501]

sheeeeeeet i love you were here for you

[@ParasolMushroomStudios]

I hope you feel better!

[@Dredile]

Thank you, this past week has been good and I'm making good progress. I appreciate it

[@bugzy9824]

Don't have a half life ^^ have a full life brother. 👊🤘👊🤘

[@rickbossen]

Depression isn't something you get over. It's not controllable. It isn't influenced by everyday activities. It's an illness, like a cold or the flu. It hurts and causes fatigue, doubt, and sucks the fun from your life. It can go away on its own or with drug therapy. What I see and hear from you is more anxiety, than depression (they are related). You're newly on your own, working, and a You Tuber. Lot's of changes. Chill. Go easy on yourself. See a phychologist for a couple months [if you can afford it]. It may help you get your life back in sync. If not, you may need a pyschiatrist and short term drug therapy. Hope you feel better.

[@Dredile]

Thanks for the really great advice. I agree I don't think it's clinical/mental condition - depression. More anxiety mixed with being in a funk. I'm working through it, thank you.

[@PrimusPicklebal]

Dude, i love your HL lore videos, id like to know more about the other cities, and is there anything i can do to help?

[@Dredile]

Thank you, nah commenting and watching is more than enough thanks pal

[@kemptcode]

Wieners always cheer me up

[@atticusnari]

I'm sorry man. We all love ya at the gay Dredile community :P (PS, it's gamingdominari)

[@Dredile]

Thanks man ur a beast

[@atticusnari]

Dredile No need to thank me :D

[@sakeviyokoyama9253]

No one can change your life only you can quote from Carol Burnett

[@Dredile]

Working on it!

[@sakeviyokoyama9253]

Keep posting videos dredile

[@Cephilsan]

Awww dad

[@ruffrack737]

Hope you get good. You are one of the only youtubers i respect, and i do not know what would happen if something bad happened. Here, have this to get your mood up kzbin.info/www/bejne/mpqxpJeBot6YZsk also, i want to give you a tip. If you want to help yourself from depression, make sure you eat healthy and excersize. Trust me, at first, its gonna be hard, but in the end, you are gonna get much, much better. The main reason why you feel like that, is because your body is low on dopamine, and the only way to get it in a constant way, is by keeping your body healthy. Trust me, as a message by a big fan of your.

[@yordanpetrov3119]

depression what :D who can relate

[@maddblair]

Your pituitary has locked up. That’s all it is. Google image hypothalamus pituitary gland. I could just offer you empty meaningless platitudes like all your other subs. But actual practical useful information on what the problem is and how to fix it will always transcend a punch in the shoulder and a pat on the head and the good old "hang in there man" pffft that does nothing. Use information to FIX the problem. Try the scientific approach. You know, the way that actually works...

[@Dredile]

Thanks man I'll look into this! Appreciate it :)

[@maddblair]

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[@maddblair]

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[@sargoon1017]

We're here for you man.