Driver's Seat (Lyric Video) - Madds Buckley

[@naomicain6088]

"if you're raised by an angry man in your house, there will always be an angry man in your house. you will find him even when he's not there."

[@koikun]

okay, this broke me... ❤

[@deathcap.]

I can relate to this deeply with my stepmother. It frustrates me so much how slamming doors or heavy steps on stairs, or annoyed tones in my friend's voices bring me right back to her.

[@theladyfausta]

My father told me once “My blood is in you, and nothing can change that.” He meant it in a good way; to say that the strength that got him through his own shit is in me too. But I heard those words and felt all the rage and damage close around me like a fist I’ll never escape.

[@ocean-3]

the “i won’t be who he is” switching to “i will be who he is” HITS SO GODDAMN HARD. you try and try so damn hard to not be like them…but that’s what you lived with for your entire life and you can’t stop but get into those old habits they had. UGH OH MY GOD MADDS!! AND THE ENDING TOO??????

[@IrritableArsonist]

I know this is a song about fathers, but I listen to this and remember my mother's rage, and the promise I made to myself to never be like her, and all of the times i broke that promise.

[@StarryRuins]

I man, I'm fucking speechless. It hit me like a truck at the line "I am my father's lost son". And just tears started. Fuck, I wasn't prepared for this today. It hits the same as "My father is the worst man alive, and I am his favorite daughter."

[@greycolours-u7m]

“I wasn’t raised to be a fighter, But it only takes a spark to blow” the way you can think that you’ll never be the people who hurt you, until it feels like it’s too late. Seriously powerful song

[@GreenEyedSummerGirl]

This might be the first song ive ever heard that encapsulates the panic and horror and defensiveness of hearing your father's voice come out of your mouth like that. Bravo, Madds 👏👏👏

[@MoldyWormz]

OMG?? the tear going down Dog's cheek when it's the "I didn't mean to scream" in correlation to the fact that Dog looks like they're holding back tears during the "he didn't mean to scream"

[@ccherry.berryy]

I DIDNT NOTICE THAT HOLY SHIT

[@arandomqueerfanpeep7655]

I did not realize there was a tear until this comment

[@RayetheAmazing]

I feel like the second half when "he's in the drivers seat" turns to "I'm in the drivers seat" its a cold realization that no, he isn't at the wheel anymore, you are and you are the one responsible for whatever happens now. You are the one in the drivers seat, but somehow, he still got his hand on the wheel (metaphorically) and yes you maybe in "control" now, but what control were you left with that isnt a carbon copy of what his "control" was.

[@hannahmcaleer6283]

I love “The apple’s falling from the tree.” Cant know if it’s falling far from the tree or not, but it’s falling. Where you’ve come from is set, but there are other forces at play now, and part of how that apple falls is up to you.

[@koikun]

"there are other forces at play-how that Apple falls is up to you." this was such a brilliantly put comment, and I'm in shambles even more now just reading it 🫠💔

[@silverwareyo]

The full saying is, "the apple doesn't fall too far from the tree, but rolls far away."

[@ryanmartiliano2601]

I love how the ending feels like she's so angry that she just rips the car keys out and leaves the car in a hurry, everything about this song is so emotional, I love this song already

[@laylajansen5178]

I love how this connects to Dogbird and the My Love is Sick album as a whole. "I'm a habit that won't alter" from Dogbird and "inherit the engine and leak, no mistake" have the same energy. i've listened to this song so many times already, i'm in love with it!!

[@koikun]

trying so desperately to reject the line "the abused becomes the abuser," but every day grows harder when you don't know how to understand your own thoughts.. painful song madds.. thank you ❤️‍🩹

[@sleepypop7268]

the cut off is EVERYTHING

[@sleepypop7268]

and i know it's just me but it's a lot like madds strongly saying enough to all the excuses from her past self/Dog

[@kkav4586]

This song hits hard. It sparked this memory of me and my dad driving in his truck the past summer- the same truck we had drove in when I was five and my mother was in thr hospital with my baby brother. We had a long talk about that- about how all his kids have grown. And how, despite being there only to see glimpses of that growth, he still managed to be in evert corner of our lives. "You know. Despite how (my brother) spends the most time with you. They all say out all the kids, I'm the most like you." I'd say. "I kind of see it. When I was a kid, I was always the one to pick up fights with you. I had/have the worst temper. I couldn't tolarate being told I was wrong in something. I hated being bossed around. I wonder what else there is." He'd be quiet for a bit. And then; "Well, they do say that the apple doesn't fall far from the tree." Now, listening to this song, I wonder if he wanted to say "I'm sorry" like I whished he would've. And maybe he just didn't know how to. Not that it matters now. I am learning how to roll the apple down the hill. Away from the tree.

[@remyish.]

There are so many things I love about this, the parental issues, the anger issues, *the anger issues being inherited like they seem to often be* "switching seats, Inherit the engine and leak, the little fist bruising the wheel, IM IN THE DRIVERS SEAT,..", it just sounds - chefs kiss, and especially THE AMOUNT OF BRAINROT I CAN HAVE ABOUT ADDING IT TO ALL THE SILLY LITTLE BLORBOS FROM MY SHOWS/DND CAMPAIGNS, that I also do *not* relate to, none of them, at all, mhm. Now excuse me as I listen to this on repeat till the sun rises I keep editting this because I SWER THE MORE I LISTEN. AAGUDRH. "I DIDNT MEAN TO SCREAM,.." THE ANTHEM FOR SCREAMING WHEN YOURE NOT EVEN THAT MAD, WHEN YOURE NOT MAD AT ALL, NOT KNOWING WHY, THE FIRE JUST SO EASILY IGNITES LIKE YOURE A WALKING LIGHTER "DONT KNOW WHAT I MEAN,.." NOT MEANING TO DO THAT, TO IGNITE FROM THE SMALLEST THING EVEN IF NOT RELATED TO ANYTHING THAT SHOULD MAKE YOU ANGRY "IM NOT WHO YOU THINK I AM" TRYING SO HARD NOT TO BE LIKE THEM, SUCCESSFULLY FOR SOME PARTS UNTILL YOU BLINK AND YOURE IN THE DRIVERS SEAT, DOUNG THE SAME THING. AND DOES ANYONE KNOW WHO YOU REALLY ARE, ARE YOU THEIR ANGER, ARE YOU YOUR OWN, ARE YOU MORE THAN THAT ANGER.. MADDS BUCKLEY YOU ARE A TRESURE AND YOUR SONGS MAKE ME CRY. IN A GOOD WAY.

[@soozidarling5629]

I know this is meant to be about a dad or some parental who is full of rage and the generational trauma that brings, but for me it's exactly the opposite. My dad died in February. I miss him every damn day. He was the kindest, sweetest, person. Everything that hurt him just made him kinder. But I'm not like him. I'm the one who angers. I have such a short fuse. So for me, this is about how he couldn't help me with my own rage. "I wasn't raised to be a fighter" "I am his rage" I am all the anger he didn't express. "He's in the drivers seat" is more, again just for me, that I am fighting my own instincts to be more like him. Anyways, I know this isn't really what the song was necessarily intended for but it really hit me, thank you Madds.

[@aceaszwall8333]

I am so sorry for your loss my friend. I do really love your perspective though as it is quite eye opening how a piece of music can relate to so many different experiences and ways.

[@Clobober]

I swear every song Madds releases immediately becomes my new hyperfix

[@The1stPurpleCat]

I am so so blind. I’ve been listening to this for so many months now, possibly a year. I originally took this song as meaning a girl with an angry dad realizes she has inherited the same random fits of anger her dad did. This makes more sense with the beginning and ending matching lines. However, after a fit of depression I just had, I realize it has a second meaning to me. A girl with an angry and hateful dad turns into a woman who has that same anger and hate… towards herself. So that’s what it means to me today. I am shaking and crying. I am praying for anyone who feels half as much pain as I do right now, and for everyone with more than that. Cause God knows I’d love you, even if I can’t love me.

[@Venus0Kets]

Adore the sound of the blinker- such a good detail!!

[@myak3266]

The car sounds make this like 10x more painful because they help tell the entire story beginning to end and GOD does that hurt. Getting in the car and the moment you realize how you’re acting you try and get out as fast as possible.

[@goldpeak_tea]

I thought of the car noise in the beginning as him being angry since the start (of their life most likely) and in the end as them putting a stop to the behavior when they noticed it carried through to them. I love how music can be interpreted in so many different ways :)

[@snowallen5194]

I….. I have no words. Omg. I love this. So much. Brother. Saved mine and my little brothers life at one point. But this one……. This one hits like a semi truck. And I don’t normally cry but I’m sobbing. So hard right now. Thank you for this

[@moonsurge789]

I think this song is the call back to dog bird and the last scene and this is dog's trying to come to terms with her past. At least in my headcanon thats whats happening! Thanks for the song madds.

[@Luan-st2gb]

WE FAILING TO BREAK THE CYCLE WITH THIS ONE LADS 💯💯💯💯💯

[@koikun]

I find myself doing this-getting angry, shouting, the silent treatment that trails the rage.. I've lost so many people by following in my father's footsteps. god, this hurts so bad and sounds so good. never has an artist captured as many of my feelings as you.

[@ccherry.berryy]

BRO THE UNHOOKING OF THE BUCKLE AT THE END-

[@RockCandy718]

My dad has always had anger issues. Especially behind the wheel. People would always laugh when I brought up how even when I was a toddler, he would scream and curse at people. It’s only funny when you ignore the fact that I’m always scared and angry with him, I still flinch at car horns, and I can’t stand up for myself without going too far. This song is my childhood and adulthood, because he hasn’t changed. Not one bit.

[@M0ldy-FleshCoud]

I'm sorry, people would LAUGH when you told them he would scream even when you were a toddler!? My brother in Christ who are you surrounding yourself with get OUT

[@Pottedplant53]

'the blaring that won't let you sleep in peace' something about that line ate me alive

[@MaryNooB]

unironically, this is a song i would put on my driving playlist

[@melaniemunoz-muller8127]

This song hurts me in ways that I have been trying so hard not to hurt from. Growing up in an abusive household, it’s my never ending nightmare of becoming like my mom, whenever I have moments where I lose my composure, it scares me beyond words. This song captured that when you’ve grown around these sentiments, they become part of you, shape you, whether you want it to or not. And I interpret the ending to be trying to cut off that cycle before it repeats. Breaking from generational curses and trauma is one of the hardest things to do and to any of you who also have to fight this battle; you are not alone. Great job Madds, I was so excited to hear this song, will be on loop for the next while now :’)

[@remyish.]

Can you believe I fell asleep waiting for it, woke up four hours later, looked at the time it was 3 AM and supposed to premier at 4, then fell asleep again and then woke up again an hour later With no alarms or anything. The parental issues truly drive you to stay up at night huh

[@Glitch.incomplete]

This song hit me so hard, like bruh I didn’t even know I could relate so much to one song

[@squidwardsdumpy]

that ending was such a punch to the gut oh my god. this song is devastatingly beautiful. it's so dabi from mha. it's every character/person who had an angry person in the house and who will forever have an angry person in the house

[@peristeronic5520]

ALSO AGH. THE CHILD BECOMING THE OARENT IN A SELF DESTRUCTIVE CYCLE YOU DONT KNOW HOW TO BREAK. ITS SOOOO GOOD. THE TURN SIGNAL JUST TICKING ON AND ON AND ON DRIVING YOU SLOWLY INSANE, NOT HEING ABLE TO BREAK OUT OF YOUR OWN HEAD TIL IM IN THE DRIVERS SEAT. THIS IS WHY MADDS YOU ARE MY FAVORITE ARTIST. JUST UGH, FOUND MY NEW FAVE SONG.

[@koikun]

the sophistication and pain in each of these comments is beautiful-breathtaking and relatable.. but I saw you goofballs panicking and fangirl/boying during the live too, you can't hide! 😅💔 ...all in all, the song, the community, the comments.. I was so happy to be able to hear and see all of this in my lifetime. thanks to madds and everyone here!

[@lahya]

My brain was right this is a Jason Todd song but at the same time the whole song reming me of Batfam, honestly a lot fandom and imma go cry in my little corner cause im using all the fandoms so I don’t related to myself and cry more. ALSO THE ENDING GODS PERFECTION

[@destinylogan5924]

ITS HERE ITS FINALLY HERE. SCREAMING CRYING THROWING UP

[@sofiavalerio41]

Dude I don’t think I ever hear a song have a cut of like this! Holy shit it’s awesome!!

[@honeybun8823]

Oh my god this song is so good, I almost immediately fell in love with it. I’ll definitely be listening to this one for 5 hours on loop.

[@MsSplitterherz]

Im listening since I don´t know hours? And I can´t get enough, this song means so much to me!!!!

[@KuRIkO069]

SO EXCITED TO SEE THIS IN CONCERT!!!

[@alexvaughn3834]

God... This is powerful and so very pointed. The pain at having been raised by anger, and the guilt at ever feeling anger of your own. Wondering if you're just continuing the cycle, if you're just kidding yourself in saying you want to break it. It's me. It's my girlfriend. It's my mother, and my best friend, and so many people I've known. Yikes.

[@MarziaAh4]

I LOVE THIS. I AM ADDING THIS IN TO MY PLAYLIST IMMEDIATELY

[@agrainofsalt7909]

This song hits especially hard as a transfemme who was raised with a father like this AND shared his name until I changed it. This song would have destroyed me back when I was still crying over him.

[@spinoodles4043]

Why do I relate to all of your songs way too much 🥲 I swear we are like parallel souls having the exact same experiences just at different times Love your work Madds ❤ You give me understanding to my own feelings somehow like a catharsis I never knew I needed so bad somehow just when I need the words to be sung to me ❤❤❤ Youre amazing :]

[@BlackHeart16905]

I can’t believe I was here for this

[@And_a_pie]

Madds I'm going to melt away because of this

[@oaksap1915]

It is out and the song HITS so HARD!!!

[@annamobrashear]

and when I thought Brother was your peak you’ve topped it 10x over. This is a masterpiece Madds

[@dlorion]

Feeling this real hard…how could you hurt me this way, Madds??

[@koikun]

These beautiful lyrics... --- He didn't mean to scream Then what does he mean? I'm not who he thinks I am Trapped in his anger, one way road Familiar blood I hold alone I won't be who he is (The apple's falling from the The apple's falling from the tree) But he's in the driver's- The check engine light is blinking brighter And I wasn't raised to be a fighter But it only takes a spark to blow (I won't be who he is) And I wasn't taught to tame the driver Just how to delay the raging fire That turn signal's ticking Ticking Ticking (I will be who he is) Ticking 'til He's in the driver's seat He's in the driver's seat I am his rage Inherit the engine and leak, no mistake I am the warning The blaring that won't let you sleep in peace I am his only The little fist bruising the wheel and switching seats I'm biting my own tongue I am my father's lost son He's in the driver's seat (I won't be who he is) He's in the driver's seat (I will be who he is) I'm in the driver's seat (The apple's falling from the tree) I'm in the driver's seat (The apple's falling from the tree) I didn't mean to scream Don't know what I mean I'm not who you think I- (every word just tore a hole in my heart.. thanks madds 🥲❤️‍🩹)

[@TheLunarElixir]

It's like Christmas every time a song by Madds drops 🥹 I love how many layers there are to the song, how the background art changes with the lyrics, and how car sounds are integrated into the music.

[@Arukorstza]

This is actually really relatable to me. Not because my dad was an angry guy, but because I became an angry guy regardless and fear that my children will inherit that anger from me.

[@DonteatRiotplease]

I can't relate to the song But geeze, it is a banger. The amount of emotions and stuff is very powerful. Another great song❤️

[@MoldyWormz]

Just came from TikTok live chat . One of the best fucking songs I've ever heard. Pulling out trauma playlists I've forgotten about to put this in. This is beautiful Madds

[@potatobeetle]

I added this to everything the second it dropped. They got my ass with the Jason Todd tiktoks. This song will be my obsession for the next month ❤❤ yet another banger

[@wiwuno]

My father always had a temper. Explosive rage that got worse when he drank. I have memories of him ripping chunks of hair from my mothers head, of him throwing me across the room into an armchair when I tried to stop him. He was sent to prison when I turned 13 and by the time he had gotten out I was bigger and stronger than him. I could protect myself and my mother from him. I wasn't scared of him anymore. Then one day my wife started talking about wanting kids and I found a whole new fear he had seeded in my heart. The fear of being him. Being terrified about making my own children feel the way he made me feel. I have a bad temper that I work every day to keep in check. I never raise my hand to anyone in anger, I don't raise my voice. My wife doesn't think of me as an angry person but every time I feel a spike of anger I fear it getting out and making me into someone I grew up hating. Thank you for this song, it breaks my heart every time I hear it but knowing I'm not alone in this makes it easier.

[@Glあss]

Ow ow ow oow(my heart)

[@rowanadixon9099]

This is going on loop 😭 I love it so much!!!

[@herestothefuture7115]

Sobbing fr

[@SkyJetcom-pq3uo]

Amazing, stunning, beautiful, LOVE IT ALL!

[@aceaszwall8333]

Bloody hell I am on the verge of tears from this so bloody good just .. memories and ahhh. On a more important note, ya blew it out of the mother fucking park with this one Madds keep up the bloody great work. Edit: I can't get over this god damn song it's so good I personally see it in the light of well anxiety and panicking how this has greatly affected my family as I was so trapped in this illusion of death at every corner. How I know am this paranoid person ... and how I have lost some friends from my panic attacks and losing myself in the fear and terror. How much my own life has been changed and dictated from my mother's issues and how it has been passed down to me and how I am constantly struggling to improve but well failing constantly as I have done everything to escape the endless cycle but I am trapped and the only way to really escape is to face it. "And I wasn't taught to tame the Driver, only to delay the raging fire" I was never taught to control my anxiety only to avoid and escape all situtitons that I could possibly face that would have me end up in such a "dangerous" sitution" "That turn signal's ticking ticking ticking ticking til" Just reminds me so much to the buildup of either a trance and a halluncation or just a panic attack. "I didnt mean to scream, didnt you know what I mean, I'm not who you think I-" Just .. remind me so heavily of all of the stupid shit I have done when halluncinating or in a panic attack or just desperatly trying to find some type of comfort and then that silence .. that final cut is either me losing another friend or just falling deeper into another trance and it all starting again .. since I looped this song lol. And finally the idea of the driver seat is just a power impact as my sibling suffers from this same thing .. minus the halluncations somehow only I got those. But he is old enough to drive ... way old enough but he can't bring himself to get behind that wheel and drive as they are to scared and anxious. But ill be different ill get behind that wheel and overcome this fear.

[@andreah9587]

I don’t have hallucinations, but damn, do I relate to everything else you said. My mom has severe anxiety and control/anger issues, and I inherited the former from her (but it’s also mostly due to the childhood trauma and abuse I suffered from both parents). I have learned to have a huge amount of patience, but when it runs out, I explode and say the meanest shit just like my mom does. It horrifies and disgusts me. I don’t want to do that to the people I love. I’m trying to hard to get better. But I don’t know how. It’s not working. The years and years of therapy haven’t helped that much. So I have three options: my friends all eventually leave, I get stuck in the cycle and hurt my loved ones, or I isolate myself so nobody has to deal with my bullshit but me. I can’t hurt anyone, and no one can hurt me except myself. Maybe it’s better this way.

[@aceaszwall8333]

@@andreah9587 Hey, I just wanted to say that you're not alone my friend and I wrote that comment around four months ago and I thought I was fucked over for a good few years. But I did exactly what you did I attempted to lock myself away so that I couldn't hurt anyone, and nobody could ever hurt me again. I grew up alone for a long time I couldn't really speak I had a well speech impediment, so I thought that maybe this was all a sign that I was meant to be alone. I looked at my own options and it was looking a lot like just suffer or be alone, so I picked being alone. In that time, I did some bad stuff including an attempt on my own life, but I managed to crawl my way back up and I just want to say you can get up too as cheesy as that sounds. It was from a lot of I guess as stupid as it sounds looking deeper and bigger picture really helped me, but everyone's recovery is so well different. And I know for a fact that it feels powerless hell I know for a fucking fact I felt powerless, but you aren't powerless, and change is going to take a really long time but the worse thing someone could ever do is give up. So please my friend don't give up like I almost did. If you ever need someone to talk to feel free to reach out to me, I know what it is like to feel to be alone and I don't wish that upon anyone else. My discord is mrgoodberry if you ever feel like reaching out. A great thing about talking to a stranger is that it doesn't matter what you say as there isn't a bridge to burn so you can just freely express yourself.

[@rayfisher9519]

NEW SONG?! OH GOD THANK YOU!!!!

[@pupmania_2370]

Omg I forgot time difference it's OUT?!!! THIS WAS AMAZING

[@soapssie]

It's a shame how short this song is, it's so GOOD! Ugh, I usually put off your songs because I just KNOW It's gonna make me an emotional WRECK from bottled up emotions. Take care Madds Buckley, your songs are awesome!

[@riaxri03]

THE VOCALS AT "I AM MY FATHER'S LOST SON" OMGGGG

[@vedamk3358]

Beautiful!! It brings me back to when I listened to telephone wire from funhome on loop!!! I love the emotion and buildup especially in this song. I can feel myself tearing up

[@neonspark4047]

I swear every new song you drop makes me sob immediately But I love it

[@h0bb1t322]

this song is awesome

[@tokenethnicfriend]

This hits hard, I may have inherited my mom's bipolar disorder but I won't be who she is (also im finally learning to drive at the ripe old age of 28 lol, at long last I AM in the driver's seat)

[@phoebelim5255]

I'm literally so excited this song has been all I could think about for the last few days ngl

[@acenothanks]

YESSSS time to listen to this on loop for the rest of the day, another absolute banger

[@koikun]

I can't wait to see you live madds~!! 🔥💗

[@idkanymore8881]

madds, you have done it again. imma be cryin to this one for WEEKS. love ya

[@Bones_lemons9289]

I’ve heard the shorts on this . THIS IS GOING TO BE GREAT!!!! (Edit) we putting this thing on repeat!!!!!!!

[@ParryingLogic]

This a new song? 👀 I just became a fan a week ago so I can't wait to hear this. Love your music❤❤❤

[@natedog8319]

best song i have heard all day

[@kkbluebyrd]

Another great song, Madds. Absolutely love it. Here during release for this song and hopefully may others in the future

[@mementomortalis9592]

God, the way the song just abruptly ends feels like a punch to the gut every single time.

[@FairFeline]

OH THIS IS GOING TO BE SOOOO GOOD Edit: I just noticed the car is named in the credits. PERFECT.

[@val_xo_xoxo]

im absolutely GUTTED rn

[@koikun]

I'm always so overjoyed and overwhelmed when I see you post madds..!! any short, any album.. and a new song? Incredible.. love it already~!! ☺️💗

[@jamesbowditch3241]

Lovely.

[@-orczy-5111]

Okay wow. This song would fit Red Son from Lmk so well! I love this so much, such a cool song!

[@turtleman5405]

Incredible :)

[@remyish.]

It’s gonna be four in the morning when this drops but F IT, IM AN ADULT I CAN AFFORD TO NOT SLEEP FOR A BANGER

[@BearToonStudios]

I've never found something that really fit the bill when describing how abuse changed me. I used to call it that ball of fire in my chest, but yeah this encapsulates my constant struggle to keep that burning rage from coming out.

[@shar4803]

I JUST SAW THIS ON MY RACOMMENDED OMG MADDS I WAS SCREAMING WHEN I SAW YOU RELEASED A SONG! Your music is fire, BUT IT FUCKING HURTS OUCH. I'm excited for more

[@Burntcookies1]

it only took one listen to move me to tears. thank you for showing me i was holding onto something i didn't even know i was. your music is always so powerful

[@MichaelaRodrigues-k5j]

I love this song, it’s fire!

[@SeerOfTime577]

CHILLS.

[@annewylie9339]

AAAAHHHH🎉❤🎉❤🎉❤

[@mayu_CGOluvr]

This song is too relatable I got my anger issues from my dad, because he gets mad easily. I always keep telling myself I won’t become him. But knowing how I am I think I already did. I keep lashing out for no reason and shouting things I don’t really mean. MAN MADDS YOU ARE A LYRICAL GENIUS JAGDKSGSKS

[@midwinterhunt]

welp time to listen to this on loop for the next 8 hours

[@hoimuk]

she is soo underrated 😭

[@maionnaisse]

WHAT THE HELL I'M IN TEARSHFHWJFBWJ THIS IS SO BEAUTIFUL...

[@Submarine_syrus]

This made me sob ngl , you're music has this like magical effect of both breaking and comforting , keep up the good work ! 😁

[@fennelfin]

Yay!!

[@ParryingLogic]

Yay!!!!

[@fennelfin]

@@ParryingLogic Yay!!!! It's cool you have a one shot profile picture

[@koikun]

when anger is all you know, you learn to embrace it. survival instinct.. I can only hope that it can be unlearned. ❤️‍🩹

[@maddieames1234]

This song terrifyingly resonates with me. I absolutely abhor my father. But I'm constantly told I look like him or act just like him. And I don't want to be. I'm trying to fix my temper, my bad habits you don't like, I'm trying not to be him. But this road apparently only goes one way. And it terrifies me.