Drug Addicted Couple interview-Casey and Alli

[@kayem9909]

I would love to hear their childrens' side of the story.

[@westcoastxmama]

This ‼️

[@TheAshMcG]

I agree, drug addicts not in recovery lie through their teeth. I don't believe one word of it.

[@8_bruh_8]

💯

[@TheUnitedStatesofAmericaUSA]

Good point

[@40mrm]

They raised them, but they live with other people…right!

[@Tia.0721]

You never should judge, because this could very well be you. In my early 30’s I had spinal surgery. I was over prescribed during my recovery, then became overly addicted. Instead of the doctors taking the time to find the root of my problems, it was easier to give me pills then send me on my way. I started taking more; meaning I’d run out faster; which led me to purchasing from whoever had the pills I needed. It wasn’t until I caught COVID in 2021, that I realized how I didn’t want my husband waking up to me dead beside him over an accidental overdose; or worse, have my kids find me dead one morning. It’s been over 2 years of being clean. Getting clean and staying clean was my biggest accomplishment. To all those struggling out there - you can do it. Believe in yourself. It’s hard, but it’s possible. And makes life so much more enjoyable.

[@marshallmazzarelli8797]

Number 1 if you think you can't be happy without drugs u sadly mistaken......I was once in ur shoes and it's like a pair of shoes that don't fit ur feet will never feel good unless you get the right size and ur life will never be happy until you ourself has had enough and wants the right help there is happiness with out drugs I'm living proof nobody wants or likes change but until you change ain't nothing gonna change

[@afterthestorm221]

Yep, that's how too many of us got started, unfortunately. Congrats on your sobriety it's an incredible accomplishment so few of us have a pleasure of understanding. I'll be celebrating five years in a few months.

[@jamesplayer4466]

@N1ka Praying for you. You can be happy

[@user-myworth79]

Appreciate you sharing your walk! Thank God that you realized what the problem was and was strong enough to overcome it! Hope everyone can do the same!! 💪🏾 💕 Like this person said ,”it’s hard but it’s possible”!

[@ow3wells]

I have had pain, my doctor has always told me to go home and take Tylenol.

[@DarthJunkie666]

My wife and I lived in our car for close to 18 months addicted to Fentanyl. We would panhandle at an Oasis everyday until we could cop, it sucked! If they go to rehab they could go to a half way house after the 28 days. Thats what we did, it took a while and it sucked ass, but we have our own place n car now and life is way better.

[@Scuba_Bro]

I’m glad you were able to fight through it and do well. I hope you keep that positive momentum going!

[@DarthJunkie666]

@@Scuba_Bro Thank you so much, we're never gona stop, my daughter needs me and her step mom. It really sucks being sober sometimes, that anxiety that hits when you want to get high is rough! Lol

[@treehouse8501]

How many dicks did y’all end up sucking to support your habit?

[@crystallc8871]

Congrats to you both! I’m happy to see two more people get out and ahead of the grasp of addiction. ❤

[@Flowers-vf4pu]

@@DarthJunkie666 there aren’t enough props to give you for dragging yourself out of that situation. I’m sure it takes grit and determination that few of us understand. But people like you prove it’s possible when you put the work in.

[@mistygreen7559]

They are experiencing co-dependence as well. This is a hell of a drug in its own right. Unless they separate and get clean, they will love each other to death.

[@shyamlynn243]

Easy for you to say

[@jasmynita]

You are brilliant. AMEN 🙌🏾🙌🏾🙌🏾

[@claireerodriguez3533]

This! My thoughts exactly

[@elizabethgarrett5318]

I know both of these two. Have known them since they were very young. The lies they are telling is insane. They both come from wonderful families who have tried supporting them through their addictions. Ali was the sweetest kindest person. Casey was a super nice guy. He went to Boot camp and never made it through boot camp. They might be able to write a book with all the fantasy they’re telling. Drugs have changed them so very much!

[@lizziherambere6970]

😅

[@MsMeowington1]

This breaks my heart to see. Casey was a close friend of my brother when they were teens. I considered him a friend as well. Sweet guy. Alli and I had worked together for a time as well, about 23 or so years ago. To see them like this now... I just don't have the words. Addiction and trauma is a killer. Casey, if you happen to see this, sending love from the Box family. Please get better.

[@ninaportwoodshields202]

I grew up in Dallas as well, in the 70’s. Small world.

[@craftygirl9666]

I am struggling to believe how accountable they really are. If their oldest kid is 20 and that was when she got hooked, he already was, then, they have had 20 years to deal with their addictions. They strike me as playing the victim to their advantage.

[@TheUnitedStatesofAmericaUSA]

They are a disaster

[@twerkfromhome]

America is a disaster

[@jackstryker7478]

Yeah I tend to see all the free money we give them to just squander it with drugs and stealing all the stuff in your front yard and blame it on the drugs

[@elannathornton-lindsey2817]

This 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽

[@shaylaster1607]

Yep!

[@codiemorgan9648]

I live in a very small town and when I was in active addiction I told my Mom that drug's were everywhere that I couldn't escape it. Now that I am 9 years sober I see my town completely different and realize there is way more good than bad I just had to put myself around it. Prayers for you both and it makes me so mad that there isn't more for our veterans to help them.

[@danielmayer764]

The LOA

[@jasmynita]

He can't get help from the VA bc he was NEVER in the military. Sad lies.

[@Ch-vl8bg]

❤i was in a small town growing up. And ive lived in a city Capital of a State. Drugs are everywhere. Your mayor, dentist and librarian all could be on coke or whatever. Ive had friends use daily and i never touched drugs then. I tried pot and robins eggs(yep im old) and both made me feel horrible. I can not drink because of sulfites. I could see me getting addicted to more than food. Being anorexic or bulimic. Im addicted to ibuprofen for sure. Vets and general public need mental health care. In 20 years my State closed all mental hospitals but one. The VA is overwhelmed. State ran hospitals have few programs. Many people live 60-75 miles from health care specialist. Sad world.

[@GailGreen-ui1bm]

How do you know these are lies?

[@daynal9594]

​@@jasmynita If it's such a simple fix due to one being in the military, then explain the incredibly high number of homeless veterans here in this country.

[@Xenomorph788]

It’s obvious why their sons haven’t taken them in… imagine the childhood their kids would’ve had with this level of addiction.

[@keeper6458]

Exactly

[@alayahhayala8616]

It’s also likely why their sons are so successful too. Sometimes growing up in these types of environments pushes you to do your best in life, speaking from experience. Doesn’t make it right though.

[@elvenafae]

Yeah…as someone who had parents who were addicts of different things, I’ve gone “no contact” with them. I have my own business, two kids, bought a home, and a husband who is an Engineer (who also grew up with an addict parent) we don’t associate with the problematic family for a reason. We’re doing very well without them.

[@sarasmith2429]

Nothing is obvious because you haven't heard from them. Don't be biased.

[@Flowers-vf4pu]

My mother lives in a late model Chevy pickup in a Walmart parking lot. I have begged her to stay with me, but I can’t have her wasted all the time around my kids so she chooses to stay in her truck. And it’s not just that she’s drunk, the delusional stuff that comes out of her mouth is not even close to anything I want my kids around. Just an example, like I’d love to take her in but not at my children’s expense.

[@maggiefisker994]

This is very sad because Fentanyl is often the end of the road .Very lovely couple and i’m so happy your boys are fine and productive in society .I really do wish them both a happier time without drugs .

[@phoebeb.332]

Street fentanyl maybe. All opiates are essentially the same- the thing about fent is it’s SO short acting. The game has changed. I knew I had to get myself out somehow. Still in the road out! Life is much easier now!

[@maggiefisker994]

@@phoebeb.332 Good for you and well done .👍🏽

[@phoebeb.332]

@@maggiefisker994 while I haven’t had it easy, I’ve had it way easier than most. I don’t have a lot of the barriers so many experience. My thoughts are always with the suffering addict because there is no such hell, as that.

[@sxngkang4736]

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[@sxngkang4736]

@@phoebeb.332ㅏㅜㅜ

[@SiahsM0M603]

Casey. Thanks for your service. Mark, I truly appreciate how there is no judgment and you allow them to tell their story. ❤🙏🏾🙏🏾

[@moparpollack6242]

As a veteran I can tell you he's full of shit. He's watched too many movies no one comes home in Class A's. Too many people steeling stories of those who actually served.

[@BeeKay4444]

I wish them both better days ahead. My heart goes out to their kids. Having addicts for parents is really hard to deal with.

[@anonymous-dk3um]

The lies just stack up, it's incredible.

[@elgr4489]

Delusional really

[@raeraenewrochelle]

They’re junkies, what do you expect?

[@ewetn1]

Right.... They are sweet people and seem to be honest-ish but there are several contradictions......

[@ewechoober3355]

They're co-dependent and believe/support each other's bullshit. Moving to Skid Row is clearly their rock bottom.

[@michaelzborowskyii4668]

I was given oxycontin (80mg)by a friend daily for years. Then it dried up. Finding percocet and equivelents on the street then going to north philadelphia because $10 bag of heroin was so much cheaper and simpler but got into all the hard stuff down there. 25 years of drug use. Then began rehab stays(4× at 35 days each time) 2 years in recovery house. Im clean 3 years. Employed for 11 years continously. Paying rent with gf. She took me back after those 2 years i was a recovery house manager. I worked the recovery scene hard. Got on my feet and helped recovering people along the way. I was killing myself slowly. Today im picking up the pieces. Im stable and learning how to live at 45. I am grateful for i was/am most fortunate❤

[@marieneu264]

You are amazing!!! Wish my husband would get help.

[@Lizabethmoore-ow6mw]

You are my hero!!!

[@davepowell7168]

US Schadenfreude .congrats

[@doubleup63-nv6jl]

Very similar story from the pills leading to the dope to the multiple rehabs in Florida.

[@VsLeo1]

Keep up the good work. Life is truly worth being present for, even with everything that it throws at you.

[@jvalusmc0331]

Unfortunately his service doesn’t add up. He went in after highschool so with his age he went in 1998. We weren’t in Afghanistan until late 2001. So if he did a normal 4 years he did 3 combat tours one year? Also if he was injured in combat he would be receiving VA disability and every document he has is easily obtainable through the VA. Also most “veterans” who lie about their service claim their DD214 was burnt in a fire. He may have served but this isn’t lining up. Likely he uses the veteran story to get sympathy or money. Either way I hope they get help.

[@xxxxxx-tq4mw]

The St Louis National Personnel Records Center fire was in 1973 and only affected Army personnel discharged before 1960, Air Force before 1964. Anybody who uses the fire excuse is full of excrement.

[@Gram820]

I wondered about that story too

[@StupidShitISpit]

I'm glad to know you are smart enough not to believe his bullshit service story. I'm a navy brat that has lived overseas on military bases for the entirety of my dad's 20 years of service(retired). For the most part, you can tell and figure out whether someone has legitimately served or not based on the information they give you about their service. I never met anyone in the military that didn't state which branch they belonged to, because they are proud of that shit. I also knew he was full of shit when he talked about his "PTSD" and his theory of how we all sort of have it one way or another due to life's circumstances. It sounds like he's downplaying the severity and seriousness of PTSD to make it fit his bullshit narrative. It's pretty offensive and disgusting to true PTSD veterans .

[@quandaharding2977]

I know 2 guys who got put out after boot camp and that was there highest point in life so the inflate the story and even believe it a bit after crafting the story Over the years

[@lindakindlon2383]

I was thinking the same thing about the fire story! It’s all sad.

[@julieplumb4127]

I know a family raising grandchildren because their kid can't get sober, those children are in crisis too, they feel resentment and anger for being left behind and it's not right. Just because they are being cared for doesn't mean you can forget responsibility and the love they have for you

[@Freddybender123]

Me and my hubby is in that boat..my daughter is an addict left 3 children behind..😢

[@celinemccutcheon1988]

Well said Julie

[@hannahkatie5915]

I feel sorry for their sons

[@mark-ish]

It doesnt seem like their sons were the type to want pity.

[@gracehall9199]

They are both so sweet towards each other. I love how they treat each other with so much love and patience. ❤ wish these two the best.

[@SouthernBelleWW]

Our country should give immediate support to a veteran.

[@ow3wells]

Our country never will, Congress can never come together.

[@terrytownsend5583]

Eyeroll

[@Flowers-vf4pu]

It depends if they truly want the support. My mother was handed 60 days of inpatient treatment, and went to the liquor store on her way home. How many resources should they take away from disabled vets or vets with PTSD in the interest of hurling resources at addicts that may or may not even want them.

[@leahbrowning884]

They should. But I know someone that who came home from this freaking war. And it’s so sad and angers me how our veterans were treated when they came home. So much red tape to go through just to get the much needed help. The government, our policy makers, need to prioritize this. They see a different doctor at VA almost every visit. Instead, you have fighting between republicans and democrats and they don’t get anything done. Just pushing their agenda. It’s BS. Nothing gets done. I’m sorry for venting. Thank god there are veterans and their families that have opened non profits that help. That’s what saved my friend. This one got to me.

[@Egie427]

We beat the red armbands and our leaders are now sending money to Ukraine for the Azov Battalion self proclaimed red armbands of today. Our veterans are rolling in their graves.

[@kimberlywilliams5537]

My husband and I have a similar story. Met in kindergarten, grew up in the same neighborhood, but didn't date until HS. We became addicted to prescription pain meds after he had several foot surgeries. We thought it was safe since a dr prescribed. Didn't know it would lead to a heroin addiction and other substances for 10+ years. We hit rock bottom eventually and got help separately. We've now been in consistent recovery for 6 years. We've had counselors tell us how it's rare for couples to seek recovery together and stay in recovery together. In my opinion, if both truly want it, they'll do what they have to do to make it happen. Completely surrender to be free of that hell ❤

[@sweetsugarjones]

Why did you take meds prescribed for your husband?

[@tifKh]

@@sweetsugarjonesbecause they’re FUN, until you get addicted. Don’t be an a s s

[@sweetsugarjones]

@@tifKh I’m genuinely curious about how she thought they were safe when they weren’t her prescription and I’m allowed to address the comment she offered. She didn’t say anything about fun and as a person with chronic pain I don’t find them fun at all. Unless you’re her designated spokesperson you should take your own advice and let her answer for herself.

[@pestlund]

The temporary pain and adjustment to withdrawal is worth long term reward of sobriety.

[@RebeccaAnnetteTorres]

Thank you so much, Mark, for creating these videos. My husband is currently fighting stage 3 colorectal cancer, among other health complications, and your content really entertains us and helps keep his mind off his discomforts. We truly appreciate your efforts. Thank you and God bless.

[@Saer-s9u]

🙏💫💖🕊

[@Saer-s9u]

Rebecca.....do Google search for 'Pycnogenol +cancer'. Wish I could explain more but I think it would go against YT policy. And, it would just be a huge mother of a comment. I can however say.....after more than 25 years as an addition to the other treatments...I know more than 30 people are still with us today. Even stage 4. Bless you .... tons of hugs and good thoughts your way. 🫂 🤗 👐 Go for the drops, hits the system faster.

[@Kazacks9602]

As someone who has had stage 3 colorectal cancer then cancer a second time the year after, I am sending your hubby all the healing vibes! 💚💚

[@jeff503pdx]

Crazy, I'm in Salem. Ya, homeless is a big issues, so much that people have become desensitized. This channel is great at showing the humanity of life.

[@TheVersipelis]

I heard the same bs, when I lived in a small town. Despite having massive wilderness recreational areas easily accessible to them (bicycling, hunting, fishing, dirt bikes, swimming, hiking, etc.) the kids in the small town whinnied “there’s nothing to do!”

[@JMOlsen_]

If you are poor, you may not have much of an access to those activities. Also some of them are not very social activities. If you want to meet new people, that can be very difficult.

[@mattclay513]

And then you move to big city like L.A. and you ending up taking fentanyl

[@JMOlsen_]

@@mattclay513 You can live in a big city and not use fentanyl. There is no real correlation between those two.

[@Gram820]

Exactly!!!!

[@teejay3272]

I just commented on the exact same thing. You're so right. I now live in a rural mountain town, with access to what you mentioned, and I hear the "nothing to do" shit way too much. There's always something to do. It's just another excuse. Addicts are about blame.

[@eunitapitout3167]

I am not getting a good feeling about these two

[@user-fc8qg9vx8t]

Same here.

[@NatalieDuby]

My Grandpa became an addict due to painkillers he was prescribed after an accident he was in during the late 80s. He was never a drug addict prior to that accident, and he started using other drugs as a result and was eventually homeless. He ended up passing away from a drug overdose in the mid 90s. I'm naturally a very compassionate person but that definitely plays a role in my compassion for homeless people and my ability to see things from a higher perspective.

[@jeannine3750]

Great interview, I wish you both peace and safety

[@flashgordon6510]

So sad. My husband deals with addiction, which means I have to deal with his addiction. Even when things are good, you're just waiting for the rug to get pulled out from under you. Look at what drugs have done to these two. That woman looks and sounds like she's in her 70s. So sad, so much wasted time and life. My heart breaks for their children.

[@Azabec]

What's your husband into and how's he doing currently? (If you're open to share).

[@mustachadon]

That dude will steal your wallet and help you look for it.

[@susanriddle9408]

It is always so shocking to me to hear people say, I boost, like it is just another way to make money

[@mattmorganRnR]

Good one😂

[@MrsM334]

I've never heard that one before@mustachadon

[@mustachadon]

@luk3_7 booooo

[@davepowell7168]

Nah, that's a guy who returns the wallet empty and expects a reward

[@rumham7466]

Just to clear something he said .. not all people who go through a trauma/traumas develops ptsd. It just all depends on how the body reacts. It’s different for everyone and the circumstances. It’s a body physical, psychological, nervous system reaction.

[@2501me]

Reminds me of something drDwyer or DrMaté we’d say:)

[@rumham7466]

@@2501me who’s that ? 🤷🏻‍♀️

[@2501me]

@@rumham7466 one is a doctor that used to do infomercials back in the 90s to promote the sales of his books about his philosophy of life. He lived in Hawaii & is dead now. The other guy is still very much alive & works with people that have or are experiencing trauma. He’s originally from Hungary, is well known for his work with people addicted to drugs on the streets of Vancouver Canada & was over supporting people in the war in Gaza / Israel/ Palestine area in the last few months, I think.

[@2501me]

@@rumham7466 Dr. Dwyer was an author that promoted books he’d authored, based on his philosophy of life, on infomercials back in the 90s. He lived in Hawaii & has been dead a number of years now. Dr. Maté is very much alive & is very well known for his work with people addicted to drugs on the east side of Vancouver Canada. He is also an author & has an extensive knowledge of trauma & its impact on a person.

[@CriticalMass-yu1ec]

Thank you for sharing your story. Thank you for your service.🇺🇸 May the peace of being drug free come over you both 💜

[@andrewprobst846]

This is a ride or die couple right here despite their issues it was very sweet honestly

[@anamericanprayer1967]

Well said. Yep! It is a double edged sword. I’d LOVE to have a soulmate like him. However; codependency is a drug and kills. Both will die together.

[@Cottonball-gz4cr]

It’s codependency

[@mylifeasasociopath]

@@Cottonball-gz4cr Call it whatever you want. They still have another person who is there for them, which is better than total isolation.

[@Kelley-r9y]

It’s called codependency

[@jlc928]

Mark, bless you and these people. How tragic, the lady looks in poor health. Those poor kids, thank goodness they were raised elsewhere.

[@vii6en]

my heart goes out to these two. It broke my heart to hear their stories and I truly hope that they can rebuild all that they've lost.

[@devontolly1596]

Life begins at sobriety. This is a fact, you might not realize it while you're doing drugs because addictions play tricks on your mind but it is true. Take care of yourselves and try to get clean. Being together is making this harder for both of you to quit as well. Just so you know. And I know all of this from a lot of experience being a drug addict and massive alcoholic for over 15 years growing up before I finally got clean.

[@pionteg]

Yes, this is a fact.

[@DeeP-_PerspectivE]

This is a fact but what I'm struggling with is staying off. Now my routine is clean for a couple months, then use, then clean a couple months then use. I can't stay off!

[@estebanperez3931]

I don’t know that I believe his military service

[@agent9973]

I thought it was just me

[@user-fc8qg9vx8t]

I agree. The VA would never prescribe morphine for him to take at home. Plus he would be entitled to benefits if he served over seas.

[@iKatieUndead]

My dad self medicated because the veteran affairs hospital literally stopped treating him for his bipolar disorder, PTSD, and probably also depression/anxiety when i was like 6 or 7 years old. He served in the army during Vietnam. Thank you for your service and my heart goes out to you, both of you. Stay safe and stay well. ❤

[@AnaFernandez-jp5uh]

So Casey and Alli raised their kids, but not really because they lived with Casey's mom.

[@AFFTFOMSICHTS]

I noticed this too..,,like why yall lying then telling on yourselves less than 10 mins later

[@Flowers-vf4pu]

@@AFFTFOMSICHTSfeels better for THEM to twist it up and say it that way. Take the least accountability possible, because it’s not about their kids to them at all. Coming from an abandoned kid lol.

[@Lilliesandlilacs]

@@AFFTFOMSICHTS oh you're so judgmental and smart! They said that their children were much older. Gosh, everybody in this little thread really added to the hopes that this veteran and his wife get better. I hope you all feel better about yourselves.

[@Scuba_Bro]

I think they probably needed help… it’s probably near impossible to raise your kids under heavy drugs like that.

[@Flowers-vf4pu]

@@Scuba_Bro if they wanted the help, it’s absolutely out there for parents. CPS doesn’t just come in and swoop children up and walk away anymore. It’s 2024, and reunification is always part of the deal. But you have to want your kids more than you want to be high and that’s an internal drive a lot of addicts simply don’t have.

[@laciethweatt1198]

Mark thank you for all you do from texas

[@Toonces666]

I concur with Casey. Life DOES give you PTSD. Casey and Alli are a cute couple and seem devoted to each other. I hope they can get back on their feet.

[@richardhiller3135]

That afraid of success and self sabotage talk is just the bullshit of dopefiends

[@afoolsjourney4444]

Good morning everyone ❤ My favorite part of my morning having coffee and watching Marks videos .sending you love Casey and Allie

[@jeff1130]

It's amazing I hear this over and over again.People going into the military.They come out a mess and the government has a blind eye. What a shame

[@TheFunkybert]

The accountability from these two is commendable. They are blessed and cursed to have their love and support for each other. I just wonder if two addicts can succeed in getting clean together..

[@juliell3263]

He said himself, he has an uncontrollable seizure disorder along with war injuries and subsequent addiction. He said fetanyl is the only thing that helps. I have a family member with uncontrollable seizures, its heartbreaking and devastating for the person to try and live with this.

[@tb1826]

Fentanyl isn’t a seizure medication.

[@juliell3263]

@tb1826 I know fetanyl is not a seizure medication, and i am absolutely not promoting fetanyl as such, but I can understand someone with that condition who may seize 24/7 for years and seek relief. He didn't say how often he has seizures. I am assuming often.

[@funkyklunky.]

I don't like the small town, nothing to do line. It exacerbates the idea that the power is out side of us. That ( as adults) we are and should be dependent on something in the environment. True... That babies and kids are dependent on the environment. But the maturation process that is not celebrated and refined in our society... Is where the power shift happens... The power is in you. Wherever you are at you have the resources to get you somewhere else, you just won't take initiative. We are putting the power outside of us. Waiting for some one or something...

[@Ofthevalleyofthewind]

Sometimes you do have to wait. I agree with most of this and the essence of that but yeah sometimes part of it is you have to wait for stuff that IS outside of your control

[@funkyklunky.]

@@Ofthevalleyofthewind That's why patience is a virtue and luck is the science of being prepared for the right moment. Relative to your desires, plans, and goals. It's even more difficult to hear that somebody chasing their tail ( no goals no plan) is waiting for something outside of them to stop the madness. Ugh. The frozen tundra of the American mind. Is there still hope

[@ddz1375]

Seeing so many videos like this about drug addiction and addicts has led you to belive that addicts are the rule and not the exception. The overwhelming superiority in the number of normal people with normal lives is on the wrong end of the microscope. The focus of attention is on the squeaky wheel and not on the three good ones.

[@agent9973]

right

[@elizabethgarrett5318]

God! What Casey said at the end just made me want to cry. I loved the people they were before the drugs.😢

[@mikefixac]

I can't imagine being so trapped in one's addiction, knowing the possibility of never escaping, and having to live in desperation (well, until the next high) for the rest of one's days.

[@DeeP-_PerspectivE]

Good, be glad you never got there. It's hell, and stopping ain't a solution. Cuz you can always go back, which is what I've done too many times to count

[@knitknack2285]

You can tell she absolutely loves him by the way she looks at him. I hope they get the help they need.

[@KaiLuck]

Thank you Mark for another great video interview!

[@CheTorres1976]

Thanks For you service Casey and thanks for sharing your story it takes guts and humility.

[@St.Sebastian80]

I have alot of respect for you two surviving in LA I was their about 2 months ago and its definitely survivor of the fittest so many dangers and I'm far from a coward or nieve I been in and out the streets for years in different states different cities from down south to the Midwest to the west.And along the way I became a addict breaking the Golden rule never get high on your own supply but I'm 6 yrs clean and you two can do it to.watchin this video reminds me of my ex she was my ride or die and love of my life but i knew us being together we would never get right so I broke things off knowing it would break my own heart but I loved her enough to let her go because she deserved so much more and its not a day that passes that I don't think about her I miss her so much..And to this day she has no idea thats why I broke up with her and now she's been doing great im so happy for her so you two mite wanna think about separation so yall can get yourself together then maybe getting back together

[@beckywrught8767]

Thank you for your service! prayers to you both

[@aliciagarner2005]

Amen 🙏 🙏 🙏

[@mddell58]

Casey, thanks so much for your service. ❤

[@alprofit]

For what service? Anyone that claims to be carrying around his military papers that were "destroyed" is likely lying. He could simply go the VA and the would pull him up from his Social Security or whatever. Why would he be carrying his papers? Why would it be relevant that they were destroyed?

[@kynleechapman7472]

@@alprofitgood point 🤔

[@michaeldaniel73]

@@alprofitsentimental value. I still have the original copy of my birth certificate.

[@_Cristina_]

What kind of service did Americans do in Afghanistan to be thanks to?

[@moparpollack6242]

@@alprofit He is full of shit! Walk off the plane in Class A's? No one does that coming from Afghanistan. You would have to carry them to Afghanistan and no one does that. Typical bullshit street story from people who have nothing to do but make up stories.

[@marybethdugger2547]

It appears to me that help and detox centers have become less available and more expensive. They talked like they were doing so good on the methadone program. I wish them well and hopefully they find the help they need so badly.

[@dudleyeventer]

I am an addictions professional. Insurance is mandated to pay for treatment by law. If someone is without insurance, most treatment centers have staff solely there to get them signed up for Medicaid. If that fails for some reason (rarely) there are many grants and stipends available. Help is here for those who want it.

[@annenyberg3414]

It would be interesting to hear their kids perspective. Probably not so rainbowie like they are painting it to be. Total denial

[@celinemccutcheon1988]

Was thinking the same

[@shyamlynn243]

I like these guys and appreciate the honesty. I hope you guys somehow find a way to break through this shit that's holding you back. I see alot of good you have inside you . Not something I usually see on this channel. Good luck guys.

[@countrygirl366]

Sending prayers and lots of good vibes. Ty mark for doing these interviews i think that they help a lot of people ❤

[@annalouisaross]

I hope he gets in touch with the Veteran's Benefits Administration. There is help for you. Especially being a combat veteran. Thank you for your service. Please reach out to the VBA and VHA. There is help

[@leahbrowning884]

I’m so glad you shared this information.

[@moparpollack6242]

It would be if he ever served he's full of malarkey.

[@valerieadams5603]

He should have a Purple Heart for his injury, and he should be eligible eligible for disability compensation for PTSD with substance abuse, foot injury, seizure disorder and anything else wrong with him. He should get a retroactive benefits after discharge. This man should be 100% disabled getting over $4000 month with his wife as a dependent with free health care. He will need a fiduciary so he and his wife won’t spend the money on drugs. A fiduciary is a person or entity appointed by VA to receive benefits on behalf of a beneficiary. This is where there sons can help them by being their fiduciary.The benefits must be used to support the beneficiary or their dependents. The VA can get him sober. His wife would eligible for CHAMPVA 20:28 insurance to get sober too. He needs to go register for VA Healthcare. Veterans Affairs can get in the database and pull up his DD Form 214. Also, he can request his military paperwork. MARK, PLEASE HELP THEM GET THE NEAREST VETERAN AFFAIRS. He has a lot of retroactive compensation coming his. Even his son can recoup the money they spent on their college education. He should retroactive dependent compensation for his 2 sons. This man should be 100% Permanently and Totally Disabled. I know because I am Veteran that 100% P &T Disabled for PTSD, Heart, Sleep Apnea, Lumbar Strain. benefits.va.gov/BENEFITS/factsheets/fiduciary/FiduciaryFactSheet.pdf

[@valerieadams5603]

www.benefits.gov/benefit/318#

[@michaelsizemore1398]

Thank you, this is what I was hoping someone would say. God Bless. Happy Memorial Day Weekend.

[@TheScotian82]

"Not much to do in our little town" ..how is that such a commonly accepted excuse to abuse tf out of drugs. A small town used to be THE place to grow up. Not the reason why you became a problem.

[@rosannacellini2158]

Right, such a lame excuse, then they have kids on top of it. Not fair to them. Do they really care for them boys? That should be a #1 priority.

[@JeffRebornNow]

These two need to get away from one another in order to get sober.

[@Karen-h5k]

Exactly and do it for themselves because if not it won’t happen!! So true

[@terrytownsend5583]

No s hit

[@mark-ish]

Their 21 year marriage says your opinion is as useful as an ashtray on a motorbike.

[@hihowsitgoing2867]

More likely than not. There’s also a chance that the only way they get and stay sober is together. If I was him I know I personally would gun for that chance. I couldn’t blame him for trying

[@sethbelanger8460]

Despite their drug use the marriage seems like a good one. Loving, committed and their communication is great. It seems like they really love each other and having them divorce or separate would be more harm than good. I feel like you’re just repeating stuff you hear in intervention. They can get clean and still be married. Where do people come up with this stuff? It doesn’t seem like a toxic marriage.

[@heatherpoulsen8780]

I watch a huge amount on youtube! But this is my favourite one!! Love from South Africa

[@miranduhbeu]

God bless them and protect them. I wish the best for them and I pray they will have the chance to turn everything around for themselves.

[@jeremyrude6883]

I can tell these 2 are definitely deeply in love. I wish you 2 the best. Praying for you both to get clean.

[@JBE608]

Thank you for you’re service.

[@Jessa-RM]

My husband and I are both 10 years sober, our sober anniversary is Valentine's Day. We were addicted to opioids, people would tell us how lucky we were that we had each other but being with another addict is very difficult because you can't handle seeing them suffer through withdrawal.

[@melindabailey5858]

Prayers!!! My daughter is homeless in addiction in Oregon

[@faithporcella]

That must be so hard . You must worry so much. Prayers for you and her 🙏

[@melindabailey5858]

@@faithporcella thank you

[@Jess_Moonflower]

It's so strange to me that people keep saying she looks old. I think she actually looks in pretty good shape for all the drugs she's been on. My parents also got addicted to painkillers being prescribed by a doctor. So heartbreaking for me and as a teen I didn't understand what was happening. It wasn't until later I realized it wasn't normal to be on painkillers for years and years. Eventually, my mom had a stroke and now they live off of her disability checks each month. The house is a wreck. They always say they want to get off the pills, but they never do. My mom was a wonderful mother up until they were prescribed those pills, oxys to start but they're on methadone now. They are not there enough mentally to be a part of my life really, and it sucks. They are checked out. Sending love to others affected by the opioid epidemic. ❤️

[@SoloRenataSavedraBlu]

Loved this so much. A true love story. I hope the BEST for these two.

[@shellysbrewing]

I'm so sorry for what you experienced overseas. I can't imagine what you saw over there, thank you for all you did as a vet. For the momma, I too had a c-section and I have degenerative disc disease, so I can relate to the severe pain and I hate wanting pain meds to relieve the agonizing pain yet knowing I'm an addict. It's not fun and really sucks.

[@anamericanprayer1967]

Thank you for your service - sir. The VA and America 🇺🇸 must support you. A new DD214 is a must - someone with connections -help- God Bless you both.

[@ilovemefirst4689]

I like this couple. Much said hit home with me. I'm rooting for you both. Sending positive vibes and blessings!

[@Chopchop752]

Why is it everyone else’s fault? They are not accepting much if any responsibility for their choices.

[@KEM85]

Grew up in a small town, always found something else to do that wasn’t drugs. 🙄

[@helenbartoszek243]

That was you and everyone is different.

[@tacey01]

I grew up in a small town. Everyone, all my elders, drank alcohol. Mostly beer but certainly beer is dangerously addictive. Of course, us kids would sneak a sip of mom’s beer. As I grew up, alcohol was king. Soon, however, some of my acquaintances transitioned to drugs. This was late ‘60s so the drug culture was blooming. I functioned into adulthood, married, divorced, remarried and just continued my alcohol abuse with my friends and family. When I turned age 59, I developed arthritis which led to medication which did not mix with alcohol at all. So I stopped using my wine and beer. That was ten years ago. Upon reflecting on my life, I finally realized that alcohol played the primary part of ruining my life. In retrospect it’s obvious to me. I’m much healthier now and live a much less stressful time. Life begins at 60! Haha! All the best to this couple. God bless them and a big ‘thank you!’ to the creator of this channel.

[@Just4AZ1]

I grew up in a small town as well and doing drugs never crossed our minds. You just need to be a bit creative but there are plenty of positive alternatives. I credit our parents for keeping us on the straight and narrow.

[@thisguy6525]

All of the things that he mentions about his service are red flags. Just so everyone is aware, modern military records are never lost. It is a 20 minute process to request a copy of your dd-214. The VA also provides housing for homeless vets. Just saying, from my experience, this guy doesn’t seem to have actually served, or not in the capacity he claims.

[@xxxxxx-tq4mw]

Growing up in the 1960s, 70s, 80s, i can’t remember seeing lots of homeless, especially middle-aged couples. What has happened ?

[@suzannenorth2240]

A big part of it is probably deinstitutionalization. They would've been in a mental hospital or similar place.

[@Starshineeeeeee]

I wish he would let her speak!!

[@KikiSanders-qr5pj]

I wish she would let him speak😂😂😂😂

[@Heyoudummy]

Shes the one who CONSTANTLY interrupted!

[@tay7366]

You both seem really nice. I hope you both find a home and get well.

[@tjbrauttigan4841]

Even in the interview, he's high. You can tell by the intense vocal fry in his voice.

[@Heyoudummy]

The woman is WAY higher than the man. Doesnt matter, tho.

[@jasmynita]

They're both high, DUH

[@ladev91]

The sob story is sad and all, but your kids should be enough reason to stay sober.

[@rosannacellini2158]

Right! I hope they take accountability, and get proper help. It's hard, but they have to want it bad enough.

[@afterthestorm221]

What scares me is the way this man talks about his wife as a possession. He's going to keep you sick and suffering because he's afraid to address his own problems.

[@TheFunkybert]

Have you ever called the woman you are with “my wife” or “my woman”… sane thing.

[@afterthestorm221]

@@TheFunkybert I don't consider calling a woman a wife the same thing as toxic codependency.

[@wyattlightning]

I didn't take his manner of addressing her as possessive at all.

[@mollyswanner1607]

Very good point

[@caddyv2327]

She's a grown adult just like he is, her actions are because of her doing them

[@clownrituals587]

He says he will stop boosting by selling macrame…mmmmmhhhhhh…he might want to revisit this plan..

[@Teresa-jj5mo]

😂😂😂

[@agent9973]

right

[@mulvaney04]

It's a better plan than being a thief. I hope his plan works. Macrame is making a big comeback actually. But first they need rehab.

[@Amazingme17]

They've been through so much. What a sad sad story

[@mollyswanner1607]

Everyone has been through crap,very bad crap,and don't take thus route.

[@travisday27]

I really can tell they're good people! I was an addict for alot of years and it's difficult to get clean. I really hope they can get on the right path. It's never to late. I really wish the best for them and I wish I could help them

[@rcheezy7501]

For me the #1 thing was getting away from the people places and things that are triggers. Unfortunately you both are each other's trigger. Together your chances of getting clean are very slim. I feel there's more to this story. One thing I hated about myself was I would always make excuses. Any reason why I need to stay on the things that are hurting me the most. It's something that bothers me still while listening to people's interviews. I hope the best for the both of you. Change is very possible and you both seem intelligent enough to know there's much more happiness and quality of life in being clean. You can do it if you want it bad enough.

[@AmberlyPerez]

They’re from where I live. Salem, Oregon. Salemites don’t tend to like homeless. Everything they are saying is absolutely true and it is so heartbreaking 💔

[@drkdrumz]

I'm a proud Californian, and they make me proud to hear that Los Angeles treats homeless people better than anyone else in the country. We are all humans. Brothers and sisters.

[@little-miss-happy]

Casey THANK YOU FOR THE SACRIFICES YOUVE MADE FOR ALL OF US SERVING IN THE MILITARY! I hope so much Casey that the next time you are ready to get sober you just do it so you will be in a better position to help your other half! Trust me if you wait till both your stars align you’ll be 64. Please please please y’all just GET INTO REHAB together or individually! You clearly have much to offer each other.

[@karinreichenbach1689]

I would LOVE to see an interview with the sons!

[@TKmotivation-]

This was probably a very attractive couple 20 rears ago. Imagine the way they would present if they were in good physical and mental condition. Imagine if he would have never gone to war and instead chose a career that he loved. Decisions in your 20’s shape everything.

[@noramay4954]

I hope that you both get out of this. I'm around your ages and I got clean a little over a year ago. If I can do it, you can do it. You have each other's support, your sons are doing great, hopefully you will get your ids and be able to get the Healthcare and support you need. It is the story to end all though. Traumatic events, injuries and then prescribed strong meds, mental illness as well. I have all of those in my story so I feel for you both. You seem very strong, withdrawl and dope sickness, yes of course is horrible. But once you get past that, things start to get better!!! Shi* does come back to bite u in the ass trying to get your life back together but it's so much better than being deep in addiction. Wishing you both healing and love.

[@garvinwolfe]

Addiction will never discriminate… and if you think you cannot become something you never thought you could… it can happen in a blink of an eye. I pray for the lost and vulnerable souls, including myself - sad world

[@xtinamarie_333]

If nude, decapitated bodies doesn't scare you straight, nothing will 😮

[@donacatanguma]

“ … as long as we can’t see you from a paved surface, then we’ve got no problem.” This sums up perfectly how we treat the most vulnerable among us. 😢

[@marymckenna6482]

there is PLENTY of help available if they are sincere. They lie, cheat, and steal their way through life. They abandoned their sweet children for a life of crime. They are not vulnerable, the children were. And are.

[@donacatanguma]

@@marymckenna6482 Not every traumatized child becomes an addict, but all addicts experienced some type of adverse childhood event(s). Not all types of addictions are chemical either, as many are solely behavioral. The absolute worst traumas are the ones that are denied. And, some traumatized children become permanently disabled adults who do not have the capacity for the the self-awareness and ego strength required to change the trajectory of one’s life to a more positive one. If you have survived any childhood adverse event without damage to yourself or others, count your blessings, because many do not. Just go to any lock-up anywhere in the country and listen to the details of any inmate’s childhood for confirmation. The Compassion Prison Project - Step Inside the Circle, started in 2019, made these theories self evident. I know your mind is made up and nothing I can say or do will change your criticisms. But, I just felt I needed to respond. I’m sure you make an excellent juror. Prosecutors must love you!

[@lauradehart8182]

I had severe post partum depression after my first child was born. Trust me when I say… Addiction can happen very easily, and when you least expect it. Good luck to this couple. You can overcome addiction! You have to want it, though. 🙏🏻

[@StephanieBlatnik]

Prayers going out ❣️

[@Dearest_Kenyetta]

The way we tell our stories.... Fascinating.

[@SunshineSarah74]

I would love to see them get clean and have a follow up story ❤

[@drb2k580]

This is truly a sad story. These two are obviously educated and well spoken but have just resigned themselves to the fact that they are addicts. They don’t seem like they have tried very hard to recover yet they have seen tons of loss due to their addictions. Recovery isn’t easy but it’s not impossible either. My heart goes out to them.

[@Kayjuneoh]

It hurts my heart to see this. I celebrate 5yrs of sobriety on 6/20 & i watch this as a careful reminder of what I came from. There is a way out. ❤