Dumb Shirts and Depression | VLOG_2

[@cboniefbr]

Best explanation of depression I have ever seen. But keep up the good work with the creepy pastas, I love them.

[@SicoSniper]

and.....then channel is dead again

[@philipkeenan465]

The wave analogy is one of my favourites for what I go through. Since I can't swim, it's even more fitting. I can confirm that parents just think you're lazy. My mum calls me it all the time. I've been battling depression since I was 13. I had a high point where I thought it was over at 19 until I was diagnosed with asperger's syndrome. That felt like a huge, cold wave hitting me straight in the chest. It wasn't enough to drown me, but it shocked me hard. Two years on and I'm now coping with borderline personality disorder and anxiety, but friends helped. I swear if one of my friends - who I'd known since Year 2 of First School - hadn't swapped Universities from Aberdeen to a local one, I probably wouldn't be here now. Last year was hard. All but 4 or 5 of my friends had gone off to Uni and here I was stuck at home, not going anywhere because I flunked my A levels due to mental health problems. I felt like I had nothing. I've tried the medication, but stopped it due to an attempt to OD. The only thing keeping me going is the hope that one day, I can get a hand to get up, brush the sand off and move away from the water's edge. And I know my friends can help that to happen. Keep your head up, man. You're probably aware anyway, but a lot of people care about you :) Even if it's just some stranger on the internet.

[@jameelam5626]

Faking depression is like faking poverty...

[@fireheart2951]

Jameela M say that after you experience it

[@laughingdragon7356]

+Fireheart whoa whoa whoa he said "faking depression" no actual depression

[@dravenbbs66]

I've gone through depression and eventually I kicked its ass. Stay positive and try to keep your mind busy doing other things. You will be just fine trust me I know how it feels.

[@rosatengarrinha]

And now..4 years later.. how are you? I have depression too, but that´s just another big story... I just hope you´re OK..

[@ChiyoBebe.]

He just uploaded about 12 hours ago

[@DistortedFaiths]

This is my favourite creepypasta yet.

[@PsychoCactusSasha]

You're really good looking whoa

[@fridamarinussen3154]

I agree!

[@JN-rv8xw]

I agree

[@EramElric]

+Sasha Bunakova defi

[@potatoperson9058]

he is my cousin

[@fridamarinussen3154]

+Potato Person tell him he's hawt

[@seak44]

Depression is a difficult thing to deal with with support, and unthinkable on your own. Having had depression for the second half of my life, I was overcome by how you spoke about this subject. I'm glad those feelings can be put in to words for others to potentially understand what it's like. It's painful to have all of that inside and not know how to bring it up. I'm happy to hear you have your good days! I hope things keep getting better for you (and anyone else reading this!).

[@mrsbunnyrabbit1130]

I have depression, and your description is SO accurate! I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. Don't feel pressured to get videos out, your health is the priority xxx

[@popdaskittles]

So I know its been ages but I miss your posts. Hope you come back one day.

[@aimehermse2554]

Perfect analogy, and yeah I slowely high fived the screen when you said your support goes out to others who've been through the same. It's nice to see people who understand. Thanks for sharing

[@yogibear8536]

Hey brother if you have not lost password to your Channel Account...please come to say an hi....we would love to hear that :)

[@brandonrobinson8135]

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR FINDING A WAY TO EXPLAIN THIS!!! I have Chronic Bipolar Depression and I have no way (logically) of explaining how I feel to anybody. If you want me to talk/explain more, please let me know.

[@aaronli3741]

I hate the people who say, "If you wanted to get better, you would." They have no idea what it's like. I'm fucking trying so damn hard. To anyone out there who is depressed, stay strong. I can't really say much more. Don't feel pressured to make any videos, take whatever time and do whatever you need to do. I know how it feels to spiral after a failed relationship or friendship, and you're right. You need to find someone who is a constant, who will always be there for you.

[@DabbinLlama]

Glad to have you back man!

[@gordonhoy465]

Zane Crabtree same here

[@Adama.1]

+Zane Crabtree And he is gone again...

[@fredjones6847]

We need friends like you.. someone who knows and understands exactly what it is.

[@DrJewFishaSaurous]

I honestly enjoy these vlogs man. I feel horrible that you are going through this shit but the way you describe it is so amazing and I can really feel for you.

[@petermoores125]

Glad to have ya back man I've been around your channel for almost a year and a half now and I hope you stay happy because a lot of people are going through the same

[@pbjoiner]

I'm glad going off the pills has worked for you. As a fellow depressive, I recommend that patients keep their psychiatrists up to date. If any of us get to another bad patch, we should try something else. Not all drugs are the same. Not all care givers are the same. Feel free to fire the therapist, psychiatrist, or drug and keep looking for something that works. Talking helps. The more that people are aware of this reality, the better chance we have to actually manage this crap.

[@johnw3443]

I can relate man I've been struggling for along time with depression and anxiety. I had some shit happen to me as a child and teenage years , im 33 now and I've been a really hard life . My close friend was killed in a motorcycle accident wen i was 15 and I became an addict and my life worsened day by day . Until i was 24 and i met a dude who had been im my situation and had been able to turn it around , he was like a mentor to me ! I was making so much progress under his guidance I could see i was leaving the darkness finally and then suddenly at 45 he had a massive heart attack and died i was crushed I haven't been the same since . You are so right about having people in your life as a support network it is the only reason I'm still alive today. Iam very empathetic also im extremely smart and very observant and caring at the same time all those are hindered because of how i feel every hour of everyday . In saying all that im here for you too i will support you all the way . It takes alot to tell people about it so build confidence on that !!!

[@allisonwright2591]

I have depression and ADHD so does my best best best friend so we understand each other

[@MartinOfSomeName]

I'm glad you got mostly out of it... I've been there too, but I had a therapist instead of medication... The probably worst part for me is the dread that it might come back one day and I won't be able to get even through the day. It is kind of funny that scary movies and stories help me by letting me forget my dread momentarily due dreading something else.

[@Sauce8451]

Its an awful experience I've been there, but I tried to use my depression for the best of me. My depression made me put things in different aspects, my brain was constantly thinking and just always so overwhelming. So I tried to use it against my negativity and it kinda helped to be honest.

[@lauraweeks2908]

completely understand, perfect analogy, having depression is very difficult to deal with. hang in there..

[@xXSirKRXx]

Honestly I'm glad someone can describe how the medication makes you feel.

[@partycafe]

We express our care differently. And because of our responses we get into conflict with those who don't understand. Then we feel alone, but we just get happy differently. Sometimes people can't understand.

[@leoslili1998]

I lost a friend to depression and it sucks. I was depressed when i was around 14 too 15 and its hard to deal with and what your saying is true sometimes i get these moments where its just hard. Depression is like a wave. It comes in different forms and levels i believe but no one with depression wants it or attention but you can get through it! Props to you, really.

[@carcrash714]

I have been depressed for most of my life now and older than you so let me tell you about the most important things I have learned the hard way so others don't have to. 1. Don't isolate yourself 2. Depressed people are sensitive, use it to fuel creativity 3. ssris don't work for most people 4. Do not look for external sources (people, money, material items, etc.) for happiness or validation, it comes from within. 5. avoid drugs and alcohol, they will keep you from healing and will actually make things worse. 6. some people are better at giving support than others so don't take things personally if some friends or family are reluctant to talk about feelings.

[@slimjimroseman3587]

Thank you

[@justshon5415]

I screenshotted this. Ive been making so many mistakes. Thank you

[@Pewdieluvr64]

You have a beautiful mind, dear. Thank you for discussing such a difficult topic with us. Always remember that whether you believe it or not, you have a ton of people who love you and are here for you! Hang in there. ❤

[@JZGreengo]

I’ve been depressed for 6 months, I haven’t left the house at all and I’m crying everyday... Sleeping or playing videogames so I don’t have to deal with life. I fear death and don’t want to commit suicide but wish I was never at the born at the same time. I don’t cut or burn myself, I just want to sleep

[@meganbryson2006]

The worst thing for me is when I finally open up to someone I trust, they downplay my feelings. Don't ever downplay someone else's feelings just because you don't understand them. That really sucks. When that happens, it just makes you want to shut down and shut others out. I try very hard not to do that but it's hard trying to find someone who you can trust.

[@Neforax]

so i go to look at my subscription and theres a new video for IRCP and i was like WHAT!?!? Great to have you back man and i think i speak for all of us when i say we support you 100%

[@onyx00100]

I feel the same... you described it perfectly. thank you for this video

[@evanrichards4039]

Hey I've been diagnosed with bipolar depression for about two years and I'm 14 now do you have any tips in which I could do to slightly make it somewhat easier. I've been through therapy and nothing works.

[@IReadCreepyPasta]

evan richards Like I said, support. You need to surround yourself with people who care, people who can drag you out of it. Friends, Family, anyone. And you need to find someone you can TALK to without feeling judged. They can be online, or live right down the street. Just as long as you have people who really care about you.

[@evanrichards4039]

Thanks, it really means a lot to me for someone to give helpful advice.

[@trevorvisiongamingchannel8641]

IReadCreepyPastas I'm diagnosed with bipolar type 2 I understand but I am more happy go lucky/hyper. But when I hit rock bottom it's shit. Just watched one of your videos on the sleep experiment then came across this. Hang on in there mate. I agree you need to have good people around you and fuck off people who are negative.

[@mrmaverickface]

i will say what the wonderful snoop dog has said many times "Smoke weed everyday"-snoops

[@xXderpensonXx]

evan richards i have bipolar depression and ive had it for as long as i can remember. im a cheerful person 7 times out of 10. im 16 and i "longboard my depression away" if that makes any sense. whenever i feel the "water touch my toes" as he says in the video, i ride my longboard for hours on end and it almost always pulls me out. he says making the videos on here is a sort of therapy for him. my point being find something to let you breathe as well as someone to talk to. thats what i find has worked for me for 5 years and im surviving without medication. everybodys different so try a lot of different things

[@daltonwillis9758]

Where are you my friend where are you

[@fredjones6847]

This is how i feel. I'm 37 now and it seems to get worse as time goes on. I feel so sick like my body is about to scream for help, but there is no help. I just hope it passes and I get a day of feeling good asap. I'm excited for this diablo 2 resurrected reset though.. I'm hoping diablo will save me like it always has in the past.

[@sirborkington1052]

Hope you're doing good mate, this is a great channel, I can't really understand depression (as I've never had it) but I hope you're as happy as possible

[@logant8489]

Hey man we're all here for you and we're all glad you're back and doing better.

[@mikejames357]

It's important to have a hobby or a job as i found out. I tried all i could to stay off pills and drink. And always talk to people even if you don't feel like it. Exercise helps too.

[@Ventureplixgaming]

Hi IRC, I've been subscribed since your "Hands" narration, and I just really wanna say, your amazing. You are an amazing person and I want to wish you a successful recovery. Finding an emotional outlet is an amazing distraction from these things. I can't wait for your next creepypasta narration or other video, but take your time and come back on your own terms. Just remember, You are not alone, and you are loved by your subscribers and friends and family. :)

[@Danietz]

Little did Connor Unknown know: there was no next creepypasta narration.

[@brunohill9120]

hope you're ok :) would love to see some new creepy pastas, deffos missed them your reading of scratching is still one of my top 10 favs...

[@fredjones6847]

I never took meds. My brother takes meds, but I see no changes in him besides once in a great while he becomes social and talkative, but that's like once a month or something if lucky.

[@loumaisie8548]

I hope your doing okay? Ive gone through a similar thing man, its horrible and shitty but hey i hope your around people who support you and things might be looking up? It's beyond difficult to handle some days but people are with you :3 Hope you feel okay

[@PlayItLound]

dude i feel you so hard, I'm sorry this happened

[@ryandunkel991]

Im glad you're better!!!

[@danielleprendergast9221]

I have a friend with depression and when he talks he sounds completely crazy and I wonder how someone can think like that and sometimes he even sounds a little delusional as well. I really try my best to encourage him and keep his spirits up but sometimes he's just too much and he doesn't take medication because he says it don't work. However he is still alive he use to talk about death alot but it's gotten less and he let's me know that he would never take his own life so I'm happy about that. Well I'm glad your keeping up the good fight with your depression I hope your ok and you continually get the support from your family, friends and therapist even if the wave overwhelms you can endure it.

[@patrickpinhead9535]

Meh I've had depression for almost 2 years now and I haven't been seeking help at all. It's only gotten worse but over all this shitting time I've grown to live with it, practically if I can't be happy then I may as well make everyone else happy so they don't have to go through all this shit.

[@Jeelindberg]

Hey, how are you doing? Just wanted you to know that my fiancé and I misses you :) Get well!

[@mattiasjohnsson9338]

Why are you gone again?? I love your stories, please come here and upload videos

[@bolt44571]

Welcome back hon. Really missed you. You got me into creepy pastas xD

[@boyoblue5222]

Had The same problem. Started to smoke weed. In a week or so it was all over I felt much better. Than I stoped smoking and it is not coming back. I think that weed can make you really optimistic in times like these.

[@evandavies8487]

I understand how you feel I've been through some dark times too and I agree with pretty much everything you say here

[@shanecle]

I always enjoyed your story telling, probably my favourite channel for telling creepy pastas. A lot of what you say here strikes a chord with me, but yeah, try not to use anti-depressnts and try to deal with what's making you sad. Winston Churchill says "when you are going through hell, keep going" Try to stay positive and notice when you let negative thoughts and feelings into your mind and say no to that. If it's any consolation, you are super young! and have your whole life ahead of you! Whole experiences, stories and friends you haven't met yet! (I'm a 29 year old male).

[@sumocat7270]

Honestly I've had clinically diagnosed depression for 2 and a half years now, i'm 17 and i hate admiring that i do in fact have depression because i don't want to be associated with those liars that like to lie about having a serious mental illness. It gets worse when your teachers also think you're lying about your other illnesses like mine fore example: Asthma, Depression, MPD/BPD, and ADHD. they will still make you do the things you can't do.

[@indicablue7450]

i get the depression thing. i hate it. i always come thru it but its taken years sometimes. ive been off my meds for years now & never thought I'd ever be. i hope you feel better & recover. if you need to talk let me kno.

[@SeanPAllen]

I have chronic depression and it sucks ass... I've been taking pills for it, yet it just keeps getting worse.

[@cleocleo7653]

Perfectly explained

[@Jeelindberg]

That with the wave thing... Is that a common thing? Like do people actually say that? That is literally what I feel. Sitting on the edge of the beach, having that fucking wave trying to drown me and I can't stand up. I didn't know other people actually thought like that... I mean, picturing it like that and so on.

[@SuperAWESOME3333]

Thanks for being you IRCP :)

[@iimjayii3771]

I've seen so many of your videos when you read creepy pastas but this is the first time I've seen your face... you look really good tbh😂

[@AngelicaRae13]

My depression is mild but my mother's is bad. She is hooked on her meds & she can just full on cry & I don't know how to deal with it. She just wants to lay in bed & sleep.

[@Buggerme75]

hey.guy, what's the name of your video with the hotel and the guy looking through the keywhole I watched it amd can't find it again I wanna rematch

[@demonking14229]

still freaked the shit out from the russian sleep experiment video

[@MrHfeet1]

Think about the word depression for a second. De-press. Depression. A depressed person doesn't do much but be up in their head. I've experienced some shit in my life my friend, and don't get too affected by the outside world. Know that nothing in this world lasts forever. I'm fully aware that people i now know may not be in my life later on. The problem is getting too caught up in the bad things in life. It's all about perspectives. When you zoom all the way in on a zit on your face all you can think about is "oh its so ugly, people will see it, eww". But when you zoom all the way out and actually see how your life is and how beautiful it can be, then you will experience a euphoric type of happiness. Getting too caught up in the story about the problems is what causes distress and depression. Notice im calling it a story, cause thats what it really is, thats what everything is. Keep telling yourself one story and you will find yourself in one.

[@MrHfeet1]

Predalien Hansen I wish these thoughts and perspectives would be more open to everyone. Me? I don't get caught up in anything but the moment. I live in the moment, i thank whatever caused me the experience and then i move on. I simply just dont get caught up in the bad thing. I'm not saying that you should be unemotional, because thats the worst thing you can do really. Emotions are nor good or bad, they are simply just your unconncious self trying to tell you something. Here are a few KZbin channels that might help you with all of this: Elliott Hulse, Actualized.org I hope what i said made some sence.

[@rabidrabbittt]

You're a very good preacher.

[@cvby100]

I really loved your channel when you made videos years ago and always checked up on your channel, checking what happened! if the mothman killed you or you died, or don't care about this channel anymore and moved with your life. In any case I know your feeling and I got through my depression and I'm not gonna say you're gonna get thorough this, but try. and seeing your channel and that you have 2 vlogs I got so excited but then again, you probably gone for some time ): I really hope you're fine

[@marilynbland8496]

I know how you feel exactly with people acting like they are depressed and are not. I have hade depression cents I was 12 and I am now 14 so I have been like this for 2 years. I have lost a lot. My old friend used to say oh I am depressed too and she never was. When ever I used to say anything about depression they never believe so I went to cutting. No one knew and still no one knows. I lost people friends and family. But the way it all got started was my dad died when I was 12. All I have been doing is going down hill. (I am sorry this is so long just the video brings back a lot and depression that I still have)

[@dikshatomer3176]

Hii.. I hope you are good and healthy now😇.

[@blackenred]

I don't do drug for mine not many people know I find with a smile nothing really helps me more than helping other people and art and it's sometimes hard because when I help people it ends up eating me in the ass and I'm just glad there's people try to reach out for others and that make me do something I usually do smile

[@The_Entitiess]

The on camera consciousness is strong

[@joeywtf7040]

I agree

[@randallciski9062]

please do more videos and not creepypastas, do more vlogs and get closer to us you really hit me hard with your words and made so much sense i would love to watch more of your vlogs, you are an inspiration to me and when i found this channel it was for a quick scare and i got so much more out of this than i expected and thats thanks to you

[@buttscratcher6513]

depression....I went threw it im 27 now... and as most people I didnt know how to control it...until now its very simple I cant believe I didnt think of this years ago, dont think about thw suicidal thoughts make sure you are always and yes I mean ALWAYS with someone at times you will feel like ending it so u will need someone there to stop you and comfort you make SURE you are not in a relationship I CANT stress this enough this is vital. go on social medias flirt with girls or boys (depending on ur gender) do NOT have any feelings always keep it mind that these girls (if ur a boy) are bimbos fuck and duck as id say... go to partys socialising is KEY never put a fake smile and pretend your okay this will eat you up slowly or quickly....always ....ALWAYS express your feelings talk to someone thats going threw depression it will help you. knowing that someome knows what your going threw do not go around telling everyone ur depressed especially if your in school noone cares in school trust me. teachers as well. they will call social serves on your ass thats one of the reasons why I dropped out. if this fails which I highly doubt... then stick it out time will heal all...all wounds, if that fails weed is the way to go never try cocaine or other drugs weed is the best drug that will help searh up weed therpy if your in the U.S if not then buy it illegally. and make sure when you do smoke that ur with friends start smoking by your self in a year or after you tried it for a year just incase you get them fucked up emotions

[@brettvonhenneberg-romhild3535]

I hear you.

[@andrewgodoftitsandwine8928]

Wear what you want dude if I was in Vegas I'd be doing videos commando.

[@michellesin445]

I just stumbled on ur channel today. I hope you are ok i know this video is a little old.. does anyone know if hes ok?

[@lullabyssong9727]

it's ok, some of your followers know how it feels. I do, and I'm only 12! you'll get through this, but not alone

[@shannon-rosejones3578]

Its been 5 years are u okay?

[@hondav65sabre]

you realy got me in to creepy pasta the rusian experiment was awsome. i hope your ok..love to hear some more storys..but if your off living life i understand..

[@petermoores125]

Don't get me wrong by saying this but are you going to make more videos?

[@techstro8434]

see the wave as a punching bag, support is good if u have it but if u dont get music vids, books, people who draw, philosophy, psychology u need the influence of any source that u can take from any of the above ur thoughts will be the gloves to knock down an make the depression go away focus ur mental strenght to get ur body out the water an have the water to ur neck so u can swim to that island(that peace of mind) an think with clarity of were ur at

[@buterrs101]

I know how you feel man, Its fucking horrible!

[@oblivion7394]

Why doesn't he post anymore?

[@ghostyposty3453]

Vegas?! Oh snap 702 the city of swamp ass

[@JH-jh2cp]

@IReadCreepyPasta this is maybe a wierd question to ask but are you still alive? Becouse a depresion video as one of the last videos is not a good sign

[@RussianStack]

Well I hope you feel better

[@Choisedrug]

stay strong kiddo!

[@dunadan1995]

Oh, God, yes. I'm studying in a medical institute and it always bugged me that most people are not considering depression to be a medical condition, unlike other neural system deceases like schizophrenia, epilepsy, narcolepsy etc. Please stay away from opiates like Tramadol, Promedol - that stuff is Really addicting. Valium is kind of better, but still a shitty medication to take overall like any chemical that messes with your neural system is. And yeah, dealing with decent people helps a lot when you have a depression

[@TheKandigirl12]

SENPAIIIIIIIIII

[@IceColdMilk69]

This my view on these pills, coming from someone who is diagnosed with depression, they give you a false sense of security and make you feel like it will all be fine and dandy, and they don't, I'm in the process of trying to come off them, I don't think I have had it as bad as some, I just have a family history of depression on my moms side and anxiety on my dads, this is kind of an unguided rant but set goals let yourself see the future, I dropped out of high school to get myself out of the anti Christian environment and become a welder, the past few months have been great, this might just be my republican side talking but I honestly feel that those pills make it worse and harder to get rid of, but I really do hope that you get better and have a good life, and keep up the good videos

[@peatear42]

Ever heard of borderline personality disorder...? -I also just wanted to let you know you're not alone. I feel ya bruh...

[@DianVx]

wow. You're cute.

[@GoLDeNDeLic0us]

I thought u said in last video u were gonna start making content again? Once a week? Nope?

[@wrathfang]

Wait till u hit ur 30s like me it gets worse but I have a wife and daughter there the ones that make me power through looking foward to some more stories

[@michaeltwocrow5368]

Bro just be you ik it's a 6yr old video, but just be you better yourself

[@destinygarza1356]

and I can't think I can't sleep I can't EAT DEPRESSION IS EATING ME

[@joshuadeacon2547]

I dont want to sound inconsiderate to the subject because i think you should focus on handling whats happening to you and put yourself first but that said... I kinda miss your creepypasta readings so will that be back in the near future?

[@Mr.Elder01]

just seen this cause I just got back to watching KZbin and you and I doubt you'll see this but I have depression ever since my bad car wreck that cause me to have a brain bleed and other injuries I won't bother you with but still someday I feel like I can't get up and some days I just don't want to live I just give up do you have some kind of helpful tips I could use

[@Hell_Inc_CEO]

Comes back just to leave again

[@laslurper2368]

Exactly

[@peacemaker3171]

I hate that..i just feel so scuicidal for reason so its just like why am i doing here

[@ValentineC137]

I once felt like that, still sometimes do, the reason im still here today is because of my friends. I dont wanna leave them, and i know for sure that they dont want me to leave them.