Opiates... How I love Thee...Shall I count all of the Ways? Hah, back during My Opiate addiction, this was One of THE "Primo" Songs that just HAD to be Played at SOME point throughout My Night of Nod...As of the 11th of this Month, it will mark 3 Years that I have been in a Buprenorphine clinic. I know that many would immediately say that this still technically constitutes Myself as a User in "Active" addiction. Though I would have much to say in regards to My own Opinion concerning the nature of the way in which I use the Bupe. There IS no "High" while upon the Buprenorphine, nor can You attempt at getting High off full Opioid agonists while on it. I take simply 2mgs of the Subutex in the AM. Subutex is simply Buprenorphine without the damaging, and along the line, intrusive as well as unbearable Naloxone additive. It's absolutely nothing like Medications like Methadone, where abuse is still an able choice, as well as the fact many MMT patients simply manipulate their Daily Dose MUCH higher in milligrams than what it should be...Those who do, are still looking for that High. Therein, lies the difference between many Methadone patients and the Buprenorphine patients. All I want is to feel "Normal". I don't wish to be High anymore. And that is what sets Bupe apart from harder Opioid management Meds. I remember One of the first things said to Me in the Clinic..."If You're here to still get HIGH, You are wasting not only BOTH of Our time, but QUITE a bit of Dollars, in It's cost per Month. If You are OKAY with "simply being Fine...Able to wake up, NOT HIGH...But not in WITHDRAWALS, either...Simply, as Normal a 'Normal' Drug addict can possibly be...Without the High. If this sounds suitable to You, than You possibly have a great opportunity here with this Medication as well as Therapy. And My Goodness. I NEVER would have thought I would end up having this kind of POSITIVE, almost "FairyTale" like change of Heart...Change of desire. Sorry for the Tl;dr as well...Just felt like relaying My various Stories which are apart of the many Songs and Music within My subconscious... Ahhhh. One can STILL look back upon their "wreckage" Romantically every now and again though, can't One? After all...We're only Human...! Oh the memories...How they wash over the Entirety of My being. Much love to all of You...This Song will ALWAYS hold a special place...SOMEWHERE...Somewhere within Me...
@BrunoSnatso5 жыл бұрын
Thanks for sharing your story! We all have a strong connection with this great track. Love the song so much I made a cover on KZbin... kzbin.info/www/bejne/rHPOfaaXg619nbc
@benbennington82582 жыл бұрын
Did you make it? I’m still in the depths of the addiction. Sometimes I feel like I’m never going to get away from it. I hope I can, I keep trying but I never get more than a couple of days in…