eaJ - 50 proof

[@Cymopoleia]

my best friend used to sing this a lot when we studied our modules before our exams. then we’d go to the emergency room to assist our consultants despite the raging COVID cases. she was under therapy for depression, and i was also close to the point of succumbing to it because of how heart-wrenching it was to have numerous patients pass away under our watch. there were kids who were much younger than us and elderly people who were older than our grandparents. we felt so helpless, even as doctors-in-training, to do everything we could-none stop 36 hour shifts, skipping dinner, and avoid meeting our families physically bec it was too dangerous-but it’s still not enough. she passed away two weeks ago, due to the same disease that took the lives of our patients. she was only 26.. just two years older than i am. i could remember her sad face before breathing her last in the same emergency room we sacrificed our lives for. i remember her mother telling me to take care of myself. i remember my own parents begging me to quit my duties as a medical intern and just stay at home. some of her antidepressants are still in the locker we shared, i can’t bear throwing them out yet. i still couldn’t begin to erase what’s left of her existence, even though her boyfriend’s starting to accept her passing. but i cant. losing friends who’s been w/ u through thick and thin really hit different. it’s like an actual family member leaving me forever. i feel so alone in the locker room as i’m typing this, even though i’m in the middle of my 30-minute break before going to the emergency room again, because my partner isn’t beside me anymore. but i have to be tough and fight for the both of us, you know? thank you jae. you may not know this but you helped ease our pain, even though we’re from completely different sides of the planet. i know that you have your own share of troubles too. i may not know you personally but i hope that whatever you’re going through.. you’re not alone. there are people who genuinely love and care for you. there are people who will always be gentle and patient with you while you figure yourself, as human and imperfect as you are growing into the person you want to become. and not just jae, but anyone who reads this comment. you’re here, existing, breathing, and alive. you are important and your heart is precious, we love having you here. stay with us, we can get through this in our little ways. i shouldn’t be sharing this on such a public setting, and this will probably just be lost in a sea of beautiful stories from all kinds of people, but it tugged my heart strings so much that i felt like my best friend’s telling me that it’s going to be alright, someday. the pain will lessen with time, and we will see each other again. maxine, wherever you are, thank you. thanks for putting this song on my playlist. miss you, sis.

[@user-fc7pm1ct2t]

Dear,thank you for sharing this with us and I just wanna say “Let me hug you,dear” 🤍 Can’t imagine how hard things might be for you losing your precious fri and carrying out such a difficult task...Just keep in mind that u are doing great and you are such a great person 🥺🤎

[@muskawaseem9271]

I wish you healing in people and places you have lost all hope and peace of mind.

[@Fiona-cg7jj]

Sending you love! ❤❤❤❤

[@youknowwhat7904]

i cried...

[@somnia268]

:( sending you a virtual hug

[@krisskye133]

jae's voice is literally everything. it feels like a soft blanket wrapped around you. raw and earnest.

[@kay-uw2ke]

my exact thoughts.

[@joytaime6890]

Autumn Skye im wrapped in my blanket like a burrito right now wtf

[@krisskye133]

@@joytaime6890 🤣 saaaaame

[@tinabee4141]

**chef's kiss**

[@sincerelyquynh]

We need to hear jimin sing this with jae

[@baksjxjska]

Something about this song is so perfect to the point of making people have a existencial crisis

[@noornasir3248]

That’s honestly true

[@tblmoon]

TRUE

[@tblmoon]

TRUE

[@-ster3011]

Same... even a dejavu, that Ive had for years is coming back to me! A dejavu

[@amlihali]

1.7k like 😌

[@yeyoung]

늦덕인데…제이의 노래와 연주, 목소리가 너무 좋아서 여기까지 오게됐어요..!!! 진짜좋아..좋은 노래 계속 들려줘요!

[@piw8572]

Last night, I dreamed that I watch the sky full of stars in the middle of somewhere unknown. It seemed like a hill. As soon as I woke up, this song came to my mind. It was the most beautiful dream I've ever had and this song too.

[@SaffanatyZulfa]

Congratulations!! 😍

[@sunakshisanwal]

This proves he still looks at the comments after all this time

[@vitadolce5542]

Aku menemukanmu :)

[@anya120188]

Beautiful dream

[@tessastle]

❤

[@krisskye133]

jae's songs are not even just songs, but poetry. the way he puts words together in such a beautiful way, and then translates that with how he sings, it's breathtaking yet comforting at the same time.

[@fairuzj6833]

Yes. It's very beautiful. The way he choosed the words and make it into sentences.. World should appreciate!

[@matiquiambao2482]

I CANT STRESS THIS ENOUGH

[@theressatea3960]

I agree

[@ryuugon7380]

Agree

[@rny6651]

Jae is DAY6's hyung. Jae is a vocalist. Jae is a guitarist. Jae is a KZbinr. Jae is JaeSix. Jae is eaJ. Jae is yellowpostitman. Jae is Brian Dennis. Jae is handsome. Jae is tall. Jae is kind. Jae is a chicken. Jae is savage. Jae is sweet. Jae is smart. Jae is brave. Jae is the best. Jae...deserves BETTER.

[@daisy9418]

This is probably one of the best comments I've read

[@nuruliman7057]

Jae is our (mydays) motivator.

[@sourlollipop6162]

Of course.

[@taylorduffy3658]

Preach 👏

[@Kumorolla]

In my opinion Jae is a wonpil big fans Awokawok

[@duong2675]

"I'm worried your tears still wake you up at night" Hope you'll be alright soon. Strong guy, you know, you have us, always.

[@Toastbleu]

What happened to him?

[@Toastbleu]

@@taesanschocolate oh.. ok

[@AilimePeace97]

Jae: puts lyrics on the video Me: still thinks about the "x" on LA trains

[@lavenderbloom9109]

He ain't gonna release them..

[@stanislavastoichkovaSS97]

I swear I'll sue him for the mental abuse he put us through 😂😂

[@winniehoang439]

Chibi Ash didn’t he clarify what the x was?

[@stanislavastoichkovaSS97]

@@winniehoang439 Nope 😔 He doesn't intend to do so, has said a couple of times that he wants us to figure it out on our own. What he doesn't know however is that we all share one braincell, a dead on at that 🤧

[@Aleth_]

😂😂😂 i'm reading 50 proofs lyrics as reference for LA Trains' "X" Lyrics. Hoping there will be same sounds..

[@camillemallorca6970]

"Asking on and on whats gone wrong?" Sometimes there are things that are meant to happen, no matter how we try to make everything feel alright, but sadness suddenly occurs to us keeping us up all night, despite of the fact that you are looking at the same sky with ur love one, but with detached strings of love and fate..

[@rosieposie6322]

Yeah i do that alone looking back on the past in my case, but this song nearly made me cry. That never happens

[@shintaryh]

this song hits differently when i miss u Jae🤧 im ugly crying right now.

[@lisang8110]

same 😭😭

[@astxrism6822]

HE CAME BACK!!

[@shintaryh]

@@astxrism6822 YESSS WE ARE SO BLESSED😭💕💕

[@rosarioacuna9988]

Came back from what?

[@수바리-r8p]

4식이에 입덕했다가 5식이에 퐁당 더 빠짐. 늦게 입덕한것 후회ㅠ 제이 노래 다 찾아 듣는중

[@stanislavastoichkovaSS97]

Jae: *releases a song* me: wow, I like this song so much, it's literally my favorite one so far, there's no way he could top this Jae: *releases another song* me: wow, I like this song so much, it's literally my favorite one so far, there's no way he could-

[@oohnotsehun]

and then Jae: *releases another song*

[@stanislavastoichkovaSS97]

@@oohnotsehun I'll love it even more, it's a never-ending cycle 🤫🤭

[@lidilekez99]

Same girl same💜

[@stanislavastoichkovaSS97]

@@lidilekez99 intellectual 💓

[@kate-bj3ym]

do you know if they are on Spotify. I love all of his songs so muchh

[@pspspsps_rbs]

Am I not late to stan Jae, right? This is a masterpiece.

[@tatakhaiphet]

Never late to stan just start🥰

[@mannajacobc.2269]

Not too late at all... I just found out about Day6 like, 2 weeks ago!

[@rynb1762]

Not too late,bcause I'm just found day6 like one month ago maybe,and I came bcause Jae. I'm so love with this chicken little human vers LOL

[@fatimarenteria315]

Always welcomed ❤️

[@attira.-.5720]

Its never to late to stan jae and his amazing music, we welcome you with open arms😌

[@-RallyaNapiniaBrTarigan]

“who loves you now?” IT JUST MAKE ME CRYING LIKE A BABY T.T

[@looneytv1362]

3 year old comment ima send this to my situationship from 2017. Wish me luck

[@user-2024wtrsfm]

23년 11월에도....이 노래 들으며 울고 있다 제형아..🇰🇷 한국에서 콘서트해줘 Plz. 바보같이 아직도 기다려....🫶

[@lolasamir4460]

this song is so delicate his voice and the lyrics........ crying

[@Jjangyoonman]

*THIS SONG IS AN MASTERPIECE I ALMOST CRIED AND THE LYRICS WERE SO TOUGHING THIS IS A PURE MASTERPIECE I CAN'T EVEN --*

[@chaeyunera]

아름다운세상 너의 이름은 좋다

[@jess5767]

jae, i know you read your comments every once in a while. in the off chance that you're reading this, i hope you know that we know you did your best, and are doing your best, and that's more than enough. you deserve a pat in the back for that. thank you for always working hard and being a comfort to us. let's continue to live well, okay? there is still so much good in the world. let's go chase it.

[@KrissMyosan]

💪💪💪

[@imsevenyearsold]

Hi jae! I came back here to listen to this song that once made me cry when i had listened to it for the first time, 4 years back. I'm feeling emotionally unwell right now and I'm here to seek comfort in this song. Thank you for being there for me! loving you always.

[@joycelaigo8674]

Here's Park Jaehyung feeding us with his beautiful voice while in quarantine

[@mujin_kingdom1159]

JAE I DID NOW COME HERE TO CRYYYY WHY DO YOU ALWAYS MAKE ME CRY "how you been doing" I HAVE BEEEN OK NOW BUT BOII WTOP MAKING ME CRY HOW HURT YOU SO YOU CAN HURT ME TF I FEEL ATTACKED

[@hwapyrus1415]

this comment section feels like a safe space so i'm here to share that quarantine is actually making my anxiety become worst than its ever been and this song is one of the few things that calm me down. i wish i could download it so i could hear it without wifi, but its already a blessing it exists. i really feel scared of everyone around me except a few people and i just really need someone to be there and to tell me i'll be alright even if it isnt true. i need someone to lie to me and tell me i'm ok and that everything is cool, i just need to escape from the cruel reality that surrounds me. edit: wow guys, this is so beautiful, thanks for all the good wishes in the comments. ily all and i hope blessings come your way.

[@daniareji247]

i- it gets bttr i promise TT

[@hrileyn]

I hope you are doing better, even though it might seem like there’s only bad things there are a lot of good ones too! Even though you are a random person I just wanted to say that you are loved and I hope you can see the good things in this world and the good people because you deserve to have an amazing life and I hope you have one!!!❤️❤️❤️

[@audram9024]

it will get better❤️i know i dont know you but feel free to talk anytime in this comment section :)

[@reannas2225]

hey i have been feeling the same way lately. but when i tell you everything will be alright, im not lying. i promise. it will be. do whatever you need to in order to feel better, maybe listen to Jae's songs on repeat, that always helps me :) anyway i hope that made you feel a little better

[@3yx88]

i really hope your doing fine and won’t do anything horrible and i know that this is a tough time for a lot of people including me and i know that you’ll be alright even thought i don’t know you or your situation i can tell you that people love and care about you ❤️

[@hanaoh2936]

I am not sure if you're reading this Jae but in the slightest chance that you are, I want to say thank you. While you're music may not be that long, it still gives me just a little bit of strength to battle my own demons I am facing. I often feel alone in this world because I lost the my best friend that made me feel like I wasn't alone. They were my home, the person who was my safety person. Ever since our friendship had been broken off, your music has given me comfort. It feels like a big warm hug that tells you you're going to be okay. Jae, because you're music has given me comfort, I just want to let you know that through your journey of becoming your own artist, you are never alone. I am here, your fans are.

[@strawberryparkie6396]

🥺

[@KrissMyosan]

🥰

[@ゆぅか-i8n]

Ever since self isolation began, i have been having many suicidal thoughts, specially at night. The moment i began listening to this, was able to just forget about everything for 2 minutes and appreciate the work Jae has released once again. The songs he's been releasing have helped to cope with so much pain, that a simple thank you isn't enough.

[@lovenpeace319]

I'm sorry for how you've been feeling. 😔 I do hope you feel better. I can't do anything other than give you a virtual hug but here...🤗💙

[@atlas_tk]

I'm wishing you the best! I know that it's hard, especially at night, but I'm rooting for you. We need you here

[@guddu5648]

Hey sweetie, it'll be alright, you got this💛💛💛💛

[@choosejoy365]

I just wanted to say you are a strong and beautiful person. I truly hope you never forget how loved you are by so many. I've been there; you are not alone. I'll say a prayer for you ❤😊

[@noiZtheartist]

Don't give into them, you are so not alone in those feelings...but while you have a future that can change. you are infinitely valuable and if you let yourself be, you can be so much more beautiful than you ever imagined. because you already are, you just can't see it yet. I love you

[@28Chelsy]

"Been worried all night Wondering all night Who loves you now" This part really hit my heart. It's sad 😭

[@farella8547]

he just touched every part of my soul with this song and his soothing honey-like voice

[@eunoia3822]

I can't be the only one coming back to this song and cryinh my heart out for no reason. It just feels like Jae's been through so much, and even though I don't know him personally or the things he's gone through, I can't help but cry and feel so proud of him.

[@allayucaneat]

“When you know why but you don’t know why at the same time” hit so hard

[@shadowtrap394]

Girls don't want boyfriends. Girls want JYP to release an official eaJ album

[@ryuugon7380]

So true!

[@mikumeku]

hehehehe... true... and... eaJ albums to be on Spotify as well.

[@maureenmontallana642]

Yes 😭

[@graciasalsadaniel7345]

Yash plis

[@elysian3246]

YES!

[@elmwood34]

This song makes me feel so terribly sad but peaceful and calm. I clicked on this song expecting to read my book while I was listening. As soon as Jae started singing he actually took my breath away and I just sat entranced. I'm not sure how to describe this feeling but I only get it when I listen to certain songs. The lyrics make me think about my future. I had felt so sad and empty that I wouldn't move for days only go to school and the sleep when I got home. This makes me think about my future self. "Am I going to be stuck again? Will I make it out of that place? Will someone be there for me?" It may sound a little selfish but it's terrifying when I'm in that place. The lyrics bring up those thoughts but I'm in a good spot right now so I feel hopeful. I think it will be okay, I'm not going to back there again. It's like my mind is telling me it will be bad again and at the same time I'll make it through. I'm so sorry that was so long for absolutely no reason. That didn't make a lot of sense but I hope you understood if you wanted to. Thanks for reading about my feelings lol.

[@pri5808]

Emma Wood i really felt that

[@daniiah394]

Awwwee🥺I hope everything will go well, now, and in the future. You deserve to be happy, and I really hope you are!!🥺💜

[@pri5808]

bts_my_life.__ thank you 🥺 i’m doing okay, but i’m trying! i hope you’re able to feel accomplished and content in life, you deserve it! best wishes to you ❤️

[@ezrabustamante654]

i'm glad you got your feelings out through this song and through this comment! no lie, you put my thoughts into words actually, this is what i thought when i listened to this song. i've had the same thoughts, same feelings... "will i continue to be like this? will i continue to be sad and empty and wandering through life not knowing what to do? who will be there for me? if i don't love myself right now... is there anyone who would?" sorry this is long too, but op i hope you see better and brighter days ahead of you!

[@elmwood34]

Ezra Bustamante I’m sorry that you feel this way, too. We will get through it just stay hopeful. I’m honored that you wrote how you feel too and I’m glad we can connect over something even if it’s not the most pleasant thing.

[@롱-e1j]

한국에서 보는 그 날까지 기다릴게🇰🇷❤️사랑해 째형♡

[@AsharporBflat]

Is it just me, or aren't these comments so deep? Artists' music like this, bringing out the stories people usually hide from ones around them, is just the best thing ever.

[@hayleypotter3497]

This is such a comforting song. The lyrics are so relatable, like it walks straight into the deepest part of your heart to comfort you by telling you we all have been there, it’s alright to feel sad and lost, but it’s okay I got your back kind of vibe :’( Jae, I hope you’re happy everyday and sending you good vibes ✨

[@renchinxh]

the blurry background is how jae see the world without his glasses

[@divisharma3932]

I shouldnt have laughed

[@pacmanlover7196]

YOU DID NOT

[@armymydaycaratnctzenatinyaroha]

💀😂😂😂😂

[@nobipopeta7324]

Wth 😂😂😂

[@user-zm1o16ft9k]

이 노래만 들음 왤케 울컥하게 되는지 모르겠다… 박제형 평생 노래해줘..❤

[@josecaringal]

Park Jaehyung serving vocals and aesthetics is so calming.

[@simp2478]

and i ask everyday: when is eaJ putting these on music apps

[@simp2478]

besides soundcloud

[@angularangst1162]

well Eaj is technically not signed to any label so it might be difficult for him to put up his music?

[@simp2478]

@@angularangst1162 ohhh gotcha

[@AK-zx8gz]

I wish he got signed up so we could get a mini album from him. I need to buy his music

[@hipeople9856]

@@angularangst1162 Technically he is in Day6, signed under JYP entertainment, but his music under the name eaJ is separate from that, I believe

[@krisskye133]

pacman seems to be the favorite for most, and when i first heard pacman it took my breath away. but every time i come back to 50 proof, i fall in love with it all over again. there is something so intimate about it. it never fails to soothe my soul. i guess my heart decided for me - this is definitely my fav.

[@jsyhys3035]

I ghostwrite this

[@devilix123987]

I agree with this, though I'm not sure if I can actually choose between them, though I can sing this song better, so maybe that puts the bias slightly more on this song.

[@thisnumberdoesnotexist]

this song feels like someone out there actually cares about my whole existence, thank you jae, for making this beautiful song

[@dayana7931]

right

[@AK-ms5ou]

I hope you're doing okay out there x

[@thisnumberdoesnotexist]

@@AK-ms5ou

[@hazel9890]

Who wipes the problems like leaves turned autumn when they wont stop falling from your eyes and from your sighs. Poetic epic point of the song 🍁 jae, it's so beautiful 😭😭😭😭

[@wosile_]

Jae: Do you still wake to sunsets and eat home alone? Me: Yeah, it's actually quarantine so..

[@aiyanacruz3498]

Kateika Pahomova FBJSJDN

[@stacypanla-an4686]

Haha

[@rizkiaadeputris]

The lyric isn't only lyric. It's poetry

[@goodgirllab9405]

We love you always Jae, you're not selfish. You deserve better

[@minny9610]

Jae has came out with more than 5 songs and we still can’t figure out “X”

[@kisae7490]

Im sorry but thats me

[@minny9610]

haru you made me think that it really was “i’m sorry that’s me”

[@anne-sophiegroeme7348]

Y'all it's Wonpil lol

[@maureennatalie3063]

i'm feeling like this song can see through myself... "i'm worried your tears still wake you up at night and you know why but you don't know why at the same time" i'm stuck in a moment where i still can tell two things apart, whats dream and real life, after someone that i love, my dad, passed away and i still cant believe that really happened thank you for making this song:) sometimes you need a song that could help you feel your deepest feeling

[@ann9772]

Can relate

[@ameliaclement5466]

Aww I was looking back on the comments here and my dad has also passed away about near 2 years ago im so sorry and I hope you are okay :(

[@maureennatalie3063]

@@ameliaclement5466 im so sorry for your lost and i hope you are okay too :)

[@caratnctzen7488]

Omg I'm so sorry for you, are you ok?😭

[@maureennatalie3063]

@@caratnctzen7488 i hope so :)

[@fathyaprasojo3122]

Jae was definitely right when he says it's his favourite song so far that he released. IT SOUNDS SO PRETTY. Maybe this quarantine thing aint so bad after all. THANK YOU JAE.

[@user-nh7wy2pd5l]

사랑하는 제형아~ 널 보고 싶어하는 사람들이 정말 많아 네가 얼마를 상상하든 그보다 훨씬 더 많은 사람들이 매일 너를 떠올리며 살아가고 있단다 기특한 우리 제형이 소중한 우리 제형이 너에겐 셀 수 없이 많은 네 편이 있다는 거 잊지 마 사랑해 제형아

[@delaneyd2100]

not to be one of those sad sappy comments, but, this song is the most calming thing i’ve heard all week. you see, im currently fighting a heart disease/defect and am supposed to be getting another surgery this year. the problem is, with this whole pandemic going on, i’m worried i might not be able to get into the hospital which just puts my life at more danger. my mind hasn’t stopped running all week and on top of that i have to switch to online schooling which is tough. but, when i listened to this song, time stopped. i felt loved, i felt cared for, i felt understood. thank you jae for your music, it means more than you think. and thank you to everyone who read this far, have a lovely day/night

[@Nurul-ky3fn]

I hope everything is going well for you 🙏🙏

[@stanvictonandloona563]

once you won the fight can you update us. I would like to celebrate with ya 😉

[@bleachinthehallway]

youre doing so well. i may not know you but im so proud of you. youre fighting so hard and you deserve a break. im so glad jae could help you find a little comfort. i hope you make it through. i hope you become happie and that your life becomes easier. im supporting you.

[@tinabee4141]

Thank you for being brave enough to share a bit of your story. I wish you the best!

[@minx.toesies2037]

im sending you my prayers, you are strong and you will get thru this hopefully the world figures itself out 💞

[@basmah1997]

0:00 tears streaming down my face

[@eymiko1841]

Basmah Radwan MOOOD

[@oliwiakowolik4707]

That is too tru

[@morganclaiborne3122]

Okay, three things: 1. The way my heart SWELLED when I first heard this song is unbelievable. 2. My heart then proceeded to ACHE when I read the words. 3. I need sheet music / chords IMMEDIATELY. BEAUTIFUL work Jae. I'm so proud of the creative route you're taking. Some incredible pieces of art are being made because of it, and I haven't been disappointed by a single one of them. Thank you for being open and for allowing yourself to express your thoughts in this way. PLEASE keep it up! ❤️

[@shaneyyy3232]

Jae, these days must have been so hard for you. We all know that you are still in the process of starting anew with your new found freedom. However, another bumpy road has come upon this path. “Who loves you now?” Some may have turned their backs on you but I just want to tell you that you are not alone. There are still people who believe in you and will wait to see the good change in you. I prayed for you last night. I prayed that may you reflect on everything that has happened and be given enough strength to get through this. I prayed for someone to be with you during this difficult time of your life. We will wait for you, Jaehyung.

[@3kaj624]

Just found this guy from all the twitch streams he is in, great music.

[@nokaby3223]

he also in a band called day6

[@lumos7988]

He literally sings in a band .

[@no1GIRluvr]

u should check out day6 he is in that band lolol

[@taepro64]

I head this from Tenz stream.

[@prodst2916]

Yes he is in a band named Day6 and their music is top tier

[@barbarah.methieu6994]

This song hugs me so bad.

[@ambrose413]

Honestly the best way to summarise this haha ^^^ 😭🥰😭

[@barbarah.methieu6994]

@@ambrose413 **hug** ❤

[@patriciapawa5208]

Oiiii

[@kore2705]

@@ambrose413 yess 😭

[@05_aldazaenida29]

🥺❤

[@saranghanuy6237]

He is Jae who has never met me in person, I have never heard his voice in person, but the presence of you is able to make me want to last longer, wanting to get to know you better. which always gives me confidence until I am able to stand up again.

[@rlatnwls100]

박제형 노래는 곡 자체가 듣기 편하고 좋아요.. 😊

[@nathaniaaldora]

tbh, I listened to this without a thought (it was right after I woke up in the early morning). didn’t know I was going to be hit with all the feels. it felt like (chicken little) Jae was asking me these things, and singing to me, and I know that I would go back to this song again and again and feel comfort and concern and love. I’ve struggled with severe depression for 7 years now and years and years of suppressing it has made all my feelings bubble over and I started thinking about ending my life or disappearing since late last year. i don’t think anyone around me truly understands the severity, nor how much I have retreated into myself and changed myself to become more of an empty shell, just existing and not really living. hell, even I think I don’t understand myself sometimes. things can still be rough, but I finally sought the mental help I needed from a psychologist. i’ve cried on my therapist’s sofa, drank tea while sobbing and did a lot of thinking and reflecting and trying. I just want everyone to know that it’s important to seek help if you need it. also that I’m cheering for all of you to become better and whole selves again :-) much love and bear hugs from a stranger behind the screen (AlSo ThX U JaE For thIS SonG) p.s. I don’t know if it’ll help, but I’ll share techniques I’ve gone through with my therapist that really helps when I am thinking of things I shouldn’t be thinking about. 1. BUTTERFLY HUG (you put your left hand on your right shoulder, right hand on left shoulder making an X across your chest. Then you tap yourself slowly like once every 4-6 seconds? And tell yourself the things you want to hear or say to yourself. Things like “it’s okay. This feeling is not permanent” “I will get better, I can get over this” “tomorrow I am going to have more courage to face my day” things like that) 2. BOX IT (after butterfly hug, think of a box with a lock in your head. then put all your problems and your negative thoughts into it. close the box and lock it and then you should feel that your negative thoughts aren’t floating around anymore, but you know where it is, and you’ve locked it, so you can feel safe and secure enough to sleep. If the thoughts are still too loud, you can do anything to the box like putting it inside another box, wrapping tape around it, sending it to space. Anything you want, but only you will know where the box it and where the key is. I always imagined burying mine and then planting a seed on top of it. Then I watch the seed grow into a big huge tree and it makes me feel like there’s still life and beauty and something growing over negative things.) If you read this to the end, you’re a champ! :-) edit: oops I guess I'm editing this comment because I don't really want to spam all of your notifications with my many replies, but all I want to say is that I'm softened my small tiny message has brought about some form of positive or heartening emotions in all of you + anonymous likers :-) I'll put all of your sweet, sweet words to heart and know that there are human beans at different corners of the world who root for my wellbeing as much as I pray for all of yours as well. on a more serious note, I know that I am not the only one who feels like her sense of self is disintegrating and feeling never good enough for everyone and everything . there are days when I am okay with that, there are days when I feel like I'm so lost while everyone seems to be fine moving forward. the whole cycle of being better, then regressing, then feeling nothing has been tiring, I'm sure many of you can relate to it. I have accepted that sometimes even great friends and family have their own very busy lives to lead and their own problems, so much so that it takes too much of them to be burdened with my stories and problems. instead of being able to confess my darkest thoughts to those closest to me, I had to learn how to cope by myself instead. but at the very least, I have me, and that is enough. I want you reading to know this as well, that regardless of how well or unwell you are at this moment, YOU have YOU. and you come with a huge reserve of strengths and goodness that can carry you through A LOT. (but also when you feel like no one's around, I am your avid cheerleader without a face. I cheer for you and your life.) trying to understand our own selves isn't a straightforward path, it's ups and downs, lefts and rights and sometimes crazy loops, maybe all within a short period of a month. I hope that the strength and goodness within will be able to carry you forward through tough times. okay, I guess I'll end my short essay here! YOU MATTER! I LOVE U! also here's a short compilation of songs that I like for that mellow vibe: trying my best- anson seabra on the train ride home- the paper kites rainbow- kacey musgraves I love you (cover)- audrey mika (original song by billie eilish) love and hugs from a screen apart

[@sarah2239]

Thank you so much for this post

[@nathaniaaldora]

@@sarah2239 awww you're welcome! I hope the same for you too :-)

[@jadeshepherd8627]

This made me tear up. I'm so happy you're okay now

[@beatrizbrito3897]

thank you so much for sharing. i've been struggling with an anxiety disorder for the past ten years and i've struggled with depression years ago. i know exactly how it feels and the song also slapped me right in the face when i first heard it. took me too long to seek help, but i finally did two years ago and things actually worked out fine and i'm much better now. oh and i loved the butterfly hug thing, i'll keep that in my mind from now on. hope you're having better days and are looking after yourself. sending a big loving hug back!

[@yongyongsoyoung]

Thank yo so much for sharing this I never thought I need this but it's help me a lot

[@Lixvator_]

Seriously why can't i sound like Jae when i sing like this angelic voice of his can stop little babies from crying he can even but them to sleep while singing this song. Please just let this man sing for you I promise its worth it too juat let him sing you to sleep

[@naranaracarbonara3582]

Instead of saying "i didnt know this streamer was a good singer" Say "i didnt know this singer was also good at streaming" You see jea is a Singer he plays game as a hobby and also to promote his music which is his main. So lets respect him:)

[@nonopenothing]

True. He loves being called as a musician❤️

[@sashasaelan2094]

some people don't know that jae is a singer before he became a streamer, maybe they only know him for his streaming career

[@jaybear3405]

Both are still compliments it just depends on where people discovered him, none of them have bad intentions. But I do understand what you mean.

[@silverday4809]

As a myday who has discovered Jae since kpop star and Day6 during their debut, I feel truly disappointed of how you are trying to take a control of those people who know Jae from streaming... please be more respectful toward those people especially a newcomer who know him from streaming and become his fan because of his music and his gaming... they don't deserve to be treated this way and this is definitely not the way to help Jae gaining new fans... while we need to respect the artist, we also need to be respectful and grateful toward those people who are willing to be part of this community.. hope you will understand this

[@kakaaifan2943]

i know this comment was posted 4 months ago, but for me as someone who discovered jae and day6 from his twitch, i first thought "oh, i didnt know that he's also musician". and i guess there's nothing wrong with that. eventho now he stopped streaming, i'm really glad that i discovered him through twitch, maybe i would never know about him or have interest with him if he didn't stream. and until now i'm still listening to jae's music/song as a fan.

[@angularangst1162]

i think there's always room for growth in a person, no matter how old you are, or how big of a mistake you've made. at the end of the day, we're all just human beings trying to find our place in this world.

[@orultoo5959]

it makes me sad how underrated he is :( his songs better come to spotify soon

[@heyaurx6188]

He said he don't want to monetize so he don't think uploading them to Spotify :(

[@orultoo5959]

Hey Aura6 aaahh i guess i missed that 🥺lets just listen to his masterpieces on youtube then!!💓

[@rinaaleeeah6866]

I looked for his songs in spotify but it wasn't there 😭

[@salmaalya1709]

You can still listen on soundcloud

[@lunaazer]

same bruh same

[@lyttlemonsta]

The people who disliked couldn’t see the like through their tears

[@loenblade]

Ally R i- agree.

[@Vixa_Jaz]

Tbh the like to dislike ratio is very good. 39k vs 28 at the moment 👌🏼

[@jinggu.]

lmaoo

[@itsnafisa4102]

TRUE

[@happypuddle1993]

That could be a profound metaphor too 0A0

[@shhhaj2197]

At first, it felt like it’s a song for someone. An old friend or an ex. But then it hit me, that maybe that someone doesn’t necessarily mean another person. Maybe that someone is one’s self. A song talking to one’s self? Anyway, this will always be my favorite. Thank you for writing this, Jae. And for sharing it with us. :)

[@olyakvitko2903]

true! I thought about this song in the same way. Like he is questioning himself if he is lonely, if he has someone to rely on, and reflecting about his anxiety and bad/depressive thought, maybe.

[@mochimochu_]

Agreeee

[@mariangracecabatingan3567]

truuuueeeee same perspectiveeee!!

[@mariangracecabatingan3567]

the more i listen to the song the more it speaks to my self. alone. it's like facing on the mirror but the one on the reflection is different to the me now. i can't even remember me last october and what gone wrong? idk eitherrrr. i know i'm not me the same me but i don't know me now too.. daaaang!

[@mariagonim]

true! ive always felt like it speaks for myself

[@선플-i2e]

노래와 영상이 만들어내는 특별한 공간에 빠져들었어요. 음악은 마치 마음의 문을 열어놓고, 영상은 그 문을 통해 새로운 세계로 안내해주는 듯한 느낌이었습니다. 이렇게 아름다운 작품을 만들어주셔서 감사합니다. 좋은 음악 잘 듣고 있습니다.

[@cahyapuspitan.3577]

Jae: Who loves you now? no one : meanwhile Me: OF COURSE YOU THAT LOVES ME FROM 50 PROOF HIGH

[@noot9478]

So I just pressed on this cuz it was on my recommendation and I was like “posted 33 seconds ago I should watch this” and I do not regret ANYTHING this is AMAZING

[@catstronaut1526]

it's such a perfect song to cry to. It's not that it makes me sad, it gives me lots of comfort when I cry/feel sad. It's like a good friend who understands me without me having to say or explain anything

[@rapszkyniki6372]

I miss you Jae I hope you’re not sad. You deserve everything, we will always be here for you.

[@larceling]

Dear Jae, This song helped me heal during a recent difficult season in my life. I live far away from home and I've been struggling with feeling like there's purpose in life anymore. It felt lonely all the time and I wished someone checked on me the way I did for them too. When I found this song, it was as if someone was doing exactly that for me. It was so touching and warm. I didn't feel so alone anymore. Please don't stop writing and creating. Your work is powerful and you have a truly beautiful soul. I am immensely grateful to have found Day6's music and later, yours. Much love to you, Jae. 💙 I hope you're doing well too. Praying for you and, cheering you on!

[@lizbethherrera9437]

This!! I know what you mean. I experienced it this year the most. Feeling lonely and being far from close ones. Whenever I would listen to this song I would just get emotional bc it felt like he was talking to me in a way.

[@larceling]

@@lizbethherrera9437 Sending you lots of love, hugs and positive vibes! I hope and pray that the days to come will be better for you. Remember to reach out if you need someone to talk to! :)

[@obliviousplant6068]

i think that jaes music is so relatable because he doesnt just seem like an idol or whatever, ofc all singers are real people with emotions but i just vibe with jae more if that makes sense, with his sense of humor and maybe the fact that we are from the same area (i lived like 35-45 mins from around where hes from) maybe i just really like his music but i think thats why it all hits me like a truck. kinda like "oh this guy from where im from gets it? hell yeah man! wait why am i sobbing?-"

[@awestrux]

i can clearly see why this is jae's favorite song off eaj project (so far) like the feelings it gives off; the somehow casual yet sad manner of a brokenhearted soul checking up on the one they loved the most, who's also hurting like them from breaking it up. and his /vocals/. it sounds so gentle and delicate. it makes you feel like you're pulled into the warmest embrace that you felt in your entire life. we stan the right man y'all.

[@kinskygisela]

After HITC, I totally understand if Jae decided to stay in LA. It's good to see him happy again with all of his friends. Yes it will hurt me to not seeing Day6 as full member in long time, but when the time comes, I believe all 5 of them will just gather and produce good music again. Till then, My Days will keep supporting you Jae. You got this! :)

[@haleyokane]

“Who holds you on your 50 proof high” hits different...

[@behuman3811]

Ow, I couldn't understand what 50 proof high means. It couldn't be literal menaning isn't it? Would you explain that for me, thank you

[@haleyokane]

@@behuman3811 yeah! "Proof" is a measure of the content of ethanol in an alcoholic drink. So basically what he's saying is who is going to hold her when she's "high" on alcohol. He's saying "Who holds you while you're drunk?"

[@lilyc9722]

@@haleyokane omg I was always wondering thank you sm

[@rizmanzon2294]

@@lilyc9722 thank you jyp*

[@meramera.]

@@rizmanzon2294 Lol I can't tell if this is a joke, but if not, sm means "so much" :)

[@sunflower-yh5zc]

i’m begging whoever is responsible for this to put his songs on spotify PLEASEEEE

[@gurwoi]

for some reason jype doesn’t let him do that :(

[@domislrk]

I think he mentioned he doesn’t want to put in on Spotify during one of his lives..

[@sunflower-yh5zc]

oh :(

[@a.meimei-28]

it's actually on spotify.

[@KT-qy3bf]

@@a.meimei-28 is it? how could i find it???

[@shanragojo5496]

I feel like this reached my heart. Sometimes we just need to ask the people we know, how you been doing? Have you been sleeping well? This means a lot to them

[@dayglow5]

내가 제일 좋아하는 제형이 노래 ❤

[@sunandmoon3568]

"Do you still wake to sunsets, And eat home alone, Watching the moon rise, Asking on and on, What's gone wrong." I can relate to this.

[@user-cp6kw6zf5z]

Jae: “Do you....... Me: i felt that

[@Andreiwantstosleep]

I keep forgetting that jae is an idol. i keep seeing him as a twitch streamer even though i first knew him as a member of Day6. And i keep thinking he's an indie artist. I love how human he is. How raw everything about him is. I love him so much

[@happyandgoood]

he is a musician, an artist

[@happyandgoood]

@@user-vo7dz1bl1z i just wanna go from specific to general :))))))))) don't even judge me thx

[@happyandgoood]

@@user-vo7dz1bl1z lol we misread sometimes

[@timeinframe]

I realized now, maybe i've been trying to be hopeful and cheerful all day long, that when i listen to this song at night i eventually cry an ocean. Some times are hard enough and we always try hard to have the hope. But i think it's ok to not have hope, to just be neutral and see where everything is going. Your song ease my heart Jae. I hope you know that.

[@crazyfantasyworld2883]

I Am Crying Over This Masterpiece 😭🥺🥰👏💖✨

[@sitifatimahrostam421]

The lyrics, the melody, the voice EVERYTHING *chef’s kiss*

[@lo_Ovung]

"Do you still wake to sunsets and eat home alone?" Me, waking up at 4 in the afternoon and eating alone : well shit!!

[@milkyway-hs8jl]

지금 한국은 밤 10시... 오늘따라 이 곡이 생각나서 들어왔어요 필요할 때 들을 수 있는 곡 만들어줘서 고마워요

[@limabeans9282]

I am: crying because this is so great and beautiful and i just wanna tuck jae into a warm fuzzy blanket and protect him from all harm

[@jessicaspielman3711]

I’m six seconds in and already moved. The TALENT that you possess is absolutely breathtaking and I hope you are as proud of yourself as we are of you.

[@saras.5619]

"I'm worried your tears still wake you up at night" This is so touching...😭😭😭😭

[@sufutensecronen4186]

여전히 데이식스때처럼 악기같은 목소리 너무 멋있네요

[@leemintwho]

Jae: *"Who loves you now?"* Me: *"Can you love me now?"*

[@nadyayo4123]

imagine driving along sunset sky after a long tiring day while listening to this another-masterpiece-snippets from Park Jaehyung..

[@aulia4137]

regardless of the meaning of the lyrics. I am very grateful to you, today is the anniversary of my father's death one year. I know it's very heavy but hearing your song many times makes me feel better. thank you from me a girl who is truly grateful and will love you. im very thanks for you that you can made this beautiful song and more songs again.

[@strawberryparkie6396]

jae, idk if you will read this but i just want to let you know that your music save me from dark times. your music and your words became my comfort, please keep making music jae. always remember we are right here, your fans waiting for you. we can’t wait for your solo album as eaj. i miss u so much

[@gracetseng7664]

Istg Jae’s voice is so calming ☺️ listening to Jae is more relaxing than doing an hour of yoga

[@nana-jx3ol]

"50 proof was my favorite. Pacman is everyone else's." I guess I'm not everyone else

[@04Ammy04]

I still love Rose so much so I'm back and forth between that and Pacman

[@monstacookiee4775]

I love them all. But Truman is my favorite.

[@RaquelSilva-nz6pb]

I love them both, but 50 proof is my favorite.

[@echosvn]

I literally came to the comments just to see if I could find someone who felt the same way

[@nyxofmee]

I'm loving both cause I feel these two have some connection or probably all his song are related to one thing or someone.

[@madisonlane5169]

i started to get teary-eyed without even knowing why... that’s how beautiful this is

[@wwonwhipped4136]

i've always been present whenever my friends need someone but when it's me who needs them they're suddenly busy. every time i listen to this song i feel like there's someone who constantly asks me "hi, how are you? are you alright?" and it's really a comfort for me. thank you for making this song, jae.

[@ahgasetuan2528]

jae writes THE most incredible songs ever, this needs more recognition. very meaningful and impactful. thank you for this jae. forever grateful

[@geonequalizer7159]

eaJ : "who love you now?" me : "Idk Jae, no who one care about me. But me and my shadow try to love myself." :(

[@oliwiakowolik4707]

And that is kind of good first things first love yourself 😊 😁

[@yannam5339]

Somebody cares about you out there. I do. Wishing you nothing but abundant happiness and blessings. Spreading peace and love during these oddly difficult times that we all face💜

[@asia8145]

“Who loves you now?” 😢 tbh I don’t know who loves me... Jae/eaJ that line hit me hard. Thanks for making me cry once again. I love the song. ;-;💙❤️

[@amouryong]

Two years later, I'm just now realizing these lyrics reflect on how I felt at the time and how I still do now. It was so shocking to me, it's like I'm the person the song is about. There's like some parts of it that where things and thoughts I did/had more in 2020, and more I have now in 2022, this is scary. But, it only makes me love the song more now. Hopefully I find a day where the song doesn't hit so close to home, but I'll never stop loving it