ED Update- Road to recovery, inpatient feels, bloating, body shame

I'll be documenting my journey with being inpatient for the length of my stay. Be kind to yourself my lovelies
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[@scribby8862]

Hey Taylor. I have never experienced inpatient myself (never lost enough weight for it). But I have experienced similar food problems to yours. I’m recovering now. But I just want to let you know how strong you are. You are doing some seriously difficult things right now but I think it’s going to make you feel so much better in the end. And I also want to let you know that you are so much more than your body. You are also very intelligent, sweet, caring and you’re an activist for minority groups like the LGBTQIAP+ community which you are part of and the black community. Do you realize how beautiful all of that is? Maybe not (I was in that place too once) but just know that I see your beauty shining through in every video. And I’m sure I’m not the only one. I truly believe you can do this Taylor! Like I really truly believe in you. Struggles will happen and it’ll be a fight but you are so crazy strong and I admire that so much about you. Sending you lots of love and positive vibes! ❤️

[@janaicr9629]

Just keep it at the forefront of your mind that, you DON'T want to live like this forever because (and ik it's morbid but we both know it's true) it means dying like that too and NOBODY deserves to go like that. And so, you have to recover at some point and the longer you wait, the more times you relapse, the further way you push your personality ACTUAL desires and needs away, the harder it's gonna be later. Plus, your set point will only get higher the more you return to old habits and I pray that you do infact get to a place where that wont matter but at the same time I dont want you to try and recover 5 years from now, gain to a higher weight and be scared off. Just know that I want the best for you and I am so proud of you. Inpatient is a fucking mess 80% of the time but it works if YOU work IT. Ultimately it's not the solution, more so a guide or stepping stone. Use your time there to not just physical recover and do the therapy THEY offer but also for making the executive decision to do your own version of therapy and spend your personal time working on self-acceptance. And, no, that doesnt mean you have to take rose petal baths with obscene amounts of essential oils😂. It can be songwriting (since i know that you're into that), journaling, skincare, making lists of things you missed out on due to this shitty illness and another of things you want to do with your new healthier mind and body... Research tips and test out whatever you can. I wish I could be of more help to you but i will let you know in your next upload if i think of any other tips/things to be mindful of in inpatient/upon discharge💖💜💖love you!💖💜💖

[@LuvJohnnyx3]

I think you still look good, when I eat those high volume foods you described I basically look pregnant. But it's both normal I guess. The distorted view and discomfort is so difficult to let go of though. Stay strong!

[@janaicr9629]

Liza could never look "bad"😊 simply impossible.

[@intothemystic5223]

What do they do if you're a vegetarian? Do they have different options? I know it's hard but I'm so glad you're taking this step. Keep your head up! ❤

[@LizaLovesYou]

I'm a vegetarian too! They usually have one option that is vegetarian and the rest has animal products in it. You do have to eat dairy which has been really hard for me because I wasn't eating milk products either. Thank you too! I appreciate it!

[@tess1681]

i’m sorry i’m literally 5 months late and i have no idea if you’ll see this, but first of all, i love your channel so much and have been watching you for a long time:) i’ve been to inpatient several times for my eating disorder and i’m worried i may have to go back soon. can i ask how inpatient is during the pandemic? how is it different, what are the safety precautions, do you have to wear masks 24/7, etc. i just have no idea what to expect and can’t find any information online. anyways i love you and support you 100%

[@ijeomaokoro5720]

Masks... nothing crazy. Couple of days of quarantine . They aren’t very strict with the masks-where I went.

[@someone-kt7uk]

❤️❤️❤️

[@user-fs2zv2lb2i]

I know this sounds dumb and the LEAST of anyone's problems. But are you allowed to wear makeup in inpatient? It's one of the things that makes me feel better and idk if I'm allowed to do it

[@LizaLovesYou]

Yes, I am allowed to!