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[@aland.9060]

Hi Elena, COVID negatively affected me too. I'm currently trying to put my life in an order. I hope you'll be doing better than ever

[@kateryna5284]

I feel you I’ve been home studying in my hometown for 2 years not seeing my friends And then the war started Trying to pull myself together now

[@thenoobalmighty8790]

Lockdowns have done way more harm than good. There are 1000 excess deaths a week in uk now and financial crisis but never mentioned. So much mental health and physical health problems caused by a pathetic response driven by greed. Im sorry if anyone is immunosuppressed, but ultimately we are all going to get covid sooner or later if not already, regardless of whether others ate vaxed or not. Media is almost completely owned by big pharma companies as well as regulators. People who have been harmed by vaccines are silenced and ignored. I am in no way anti vax or conspiracy theorist. The common sense approach was to vaccinate the elderly and vulnerable worldwide, and any lockdowns should have been minimal. This idea was put forward by respected scientists from yale Oxford etc but they were silenced. Biggest scam ever. When will you realise?? How many boosters before youve had enough?? They want to stick this into babies, even though the risks are about even with the risks of covid even for 30/40 yr olds. Anyway, its done now. Lives ruined, loads of excess deaths and a lot among younger people, to dave lives of 80/90 yr olds. Bankrupt economy. Vaccine mandates pushed by the likes of Microsoft and Facebook and google. Its ok though. They made their billions.happy days Keep believing what the mainstream feed you. Not like theyre meant to investigate the truth is it???? HAHAHA HAHAHAHAHA 😂🤣🤣

[@aland.9060]

🙏🏻

[@manuelauravich3609]

Same here

[@harshojha6614]

@@maria.wippel 💞

[@kozmajiri]

So nice to hear from you :) Thanks for sharing your story with us, not only including updates about your academics, but also difficult moments. Take care and stay safe and sound!

[@constanzaburgossantos]

Thanks Elena for keeping this platform real! I'm sending you lots of love to get better and better! Hope to see you soon

[@winggg1297]

It’s okay to be not okay elena!! Keep going,we are supporting you always🤍

[@365daysaroundthefood3]

I miss your videos in English 🥰

[@annaariza1575]

Lots of love to you Elena! I think its brave to share something like this on here. It's normal to go through periods like this and very understandable to take time for yourself! You've put out so many videos in the past and these are still there. It's a pleasure to watch them back.

[@emiliapiech6564]

hi Elena! It is nice to hear from you :) stay strong and take your time

[@edwardinho6185]

Really refreshing how open you are in this video, Elena - well done for being so brave.

[@elislinova1083]

Thank you so much for sharing your struggles with us. Stay safe. Love you

[@Sophie-tt4xv]

Sorry to hear you’ve been unwell ❤️ take all the time you need for recovery and to get your head round what you’re dealing with. Any time you drop a video here is just a bonus ✨ hope you’re feeling better!

[@andreeablaj3414]

Thank you for your openness! I wish you all the best! Stay strong! 🤗

[@lovelyloona]

So good to hear from you! Please take your time to recover! I think I can speak for the community when I say that your health is important to us too and we don’t mind if you don’t post regularly. Take care and stay safe💗

[@Phd366]

Im so sorry to hear you were feeling that way, Elena. I know how it feels and its horrible to know that theres other people feeling that way too. I hope you are feeling better and keep being strong! You are a great girl and i love watching your videos! You are beautiful and an inspiration 🥰

[@daniela.radcliffe]

Elena, best wishes to you

[@schoolwork232]

Missed you, Elena. so glad to see your upload. Now let me sit and watch! 😇 Sorry that you were not feeling well overall in the past year, both physically and mentally. It's good that you took the time to take care of yourself and ensure that you feel like you are in a good place before uploading any content. We are all glad to see you here today. We look forward to the uploads, only when you can, Elena! 😇Wishing you well in the upcoming days, weeks and months ahead. You will do well with your studies!

[@alenenoknov]

Hi, Elena! Thank you for sharing with us! I hope you will get better soon 💙 Take as much time as you need. We are always here for you 🥰

[@yuekunliu1735]

Elena BE STRONG! I've been watching your videos for about 3 years at least, and you've always been my motivation. Now I'm about to apply to universities and you accompanied me! Best of luck Elena!

[@ArtventureWithADAM]

Hi Elena. I discovered you during lockdown and always loved making artwork while playing your Study With Me videos. I understand illness very well and hope you recover ASAP!

[@CHarlotte-ro4yi]

What looks ideal, happy, lucky and picture perfect on the outside often feels even more straining on the inside. Because while struggling through the difficulties of daily life and maybe even having very draining things happening to you there is always this outside expectation and mirror that makes you think you are ungrateful and whiny about things. Take your time, especially regarding your health (mentally and physically, which I guess also goes hand in hand). I really would love to give you a big sisterly hug (if that doesn’t come across as weird). You seem like a wonderful person who deserves the best which I hope your life will give to you! Gute Besserung und bis bald♥️

[@louise3611]

Hi Elena! I really hope you get well soon

[@nathaliaalarconortega9778]

I think this is a brave video! Thank u for sharing these hard things with the people who watch ur videos. It must not be easy, but its important and brave. I'm a native spanish speaker and I dont speak german but i think is great u look so confident in ur language decision! And i will continue watching ur ytube videos whenever u share them :)

[@oliver4eug3]

Honey, I feel so relate with you. Thank you so much for being open about all this. I hope you'll doing better now. And I just want to add that your videos helped me a lot during quarantine to keep myself trying to be at least a regular student. Really. Thank you so much for everything.

[@Diana-tb4kf]

Hey! Sending hugs to you, I hope you get better soon 💖💖💖

[@giuliarossi2674]

Hi Elena, I’m so sorry to hear all the things you have been through. I really wish you to find peace regarding school and health both physically and mentally. Unfortunately I don’t speak German because I’m Italian but I will continue following you also on the other platforms. Don’t ever feel pressured to make content just for us, how you feel about it it’s all that matters. Virtual hug💕

[@saraoliviabrumusescu]

Thank you for sharing these delicate things with us! I think everyone feels lonely sometimes or maybe I am an introvert too:) Good luck with your studies!

[@blubsbla]

Du bist ein toller, inspirierender Mensch! Pass gut auf dich auf ❤️

[@greta1115]

I'm so sorry that you have been going through this. But I truly appreciate you sharing this with us ❤ sometimes it can feel like I'm the only one struggling

[@thenoobalmighty8790]

Its been horrible for lots of people. And absolutely unnecessary. Its disgusting especially what has been done to children who have literally missed YEARS OF SCHOOLING. This is a LONG LONG time for children. Think back to how long the six week holiday used to feel. RIDICULOUS. And it was disgusting the way people like Elena and others were used to guilt people into being vaccinated. When you still catch AND spread covid even when vaccinated. Its all just been an utter disgrace. But im most annoyed at the people who dont even question, and just blindly go along with it all, and make out that anyone who doesn't is a conspiracy theorist, anti vax, moron, who should be cancelled.

[@daphnewassink6156]

Hi Elena, you are such a strong and bright person. Setbacks, health issues happen. It takes strength, reflection and resilience to face them. Through KZbin we saw you bounce back and flourish before, and you will again. Humans are not made for lockdowns and social distancing. I wish you renewed energy and dreams to follow and of course curious to see them here.

[@haidian1322]

I am sorry that you had to deal with all of that. Sounds like a hell lot of things going on at the same time, I can just imagine how hard it has been for you. You're incredibly strong 💪🏻. When I first when to uni I didn't make any friend at all, so I do understand that feeling you're talking about not wanting to go somewhere and crying when you have to. It sucks big time.

[@Janael101]

Du bist eine riesen Inspiration für mich und ich bin dankbar für jeden Content, den du produzierst. Ich wünsche dir gute Besserung und viel Kraft für alles, was kommen mag.

[@nawalilyas2426]

Hey Elena, it is completely okay, not to be okay! We still love you and will wait until you are ready. ❤ love u

[@bookshelf829]

I relate to a lot of what you described - illness during university, side effects from medication, being stuck waiting for specialists, being more covid-cautious than my peers. I'm so sorry things haven't been easy for you but thank you for sharing. I blame myself when things don't go well or don't feel easy, but that's harder to do when I see that other people are having the same struggles. Talking about negative experiences ≠ putting out negative vibes. Thank you, Elena

[@saraglocke2396]

Health is the most important thing. Take you time and take good care of yourself! All the best wishes!

[@dawnieb1014]

It’s so lovely to see you back Elena. Take time to prioritise you and your health. We will be here to watch your journey when you are ready to share. Xx

[@nahidkarimi5049]

Hi elena I wanted to say you are so strong,you can pass these days we will wait for your new best videos

[@micaelagalliussi]

Health always comes first: mental and physical. Sending you all the good vibes and hope you get better!

[@nicoleswelt]

miss you elena. Hope you are were better in the future as now in your health. I totally understand this, caus I have also an unability on my body. Stay safe and see you soon.

[@snag57]

Hi Elena, I completely relate to everything you said and everything you went through. It is comforting to know that I am not the only one who went through this and I hope you know you aren't alone either. I was also in an outwardly ideal situation, studying in a top university in a great city but the pandemic bought on extreme loneliness and other social and mental health and physical health problems and really affected my life. Your videos and the live study with me sessions got me though some of it, especially the academic stuff and my thesis. I barely got my degree but I have now come to terms with the fact that taking a step back was necessary and important and I was kind of burned out. We got through it and things will get better still. I have come out on the other side as a wiser person and survived the rock bottom! So thank you so much for your videos and for being yourself in them, they are very much appreciated and inspiring!

[@xxcarolinxx2517]

Ich wünsche dir weiterhin viel Kraft und gute Besserung ❤️‍🩹 Ich hoffe du weißt, wie viele Menschen du stetig inspirierst und wie stolz du auf dich sein kannst auf alles, was du in deinen jungen Jahren schon erreicht hast! Ich schätze dich und deinen Content auf jeden Fall extrem wert, aber deine Gesundheit steht natürlich immer an erster Stelle 😘

[@lindaturnowski3176]

I hope you feel better soon, both mentally and physically.

[@janeinjune]

Thanks for the video, Elena! Take care of yourself, take as much time as you need❤️ The content that you have already created on KZbin really helps me a lot. I go back to your studing vlogs when I'm having a hard time, and it makes it so much better. Also, even though I don't speak German (unfortunately), I think your decision to make content in your native language is great! I am convinced that it is the native language that helps us to be 100% ourselves, so to say. After all, we now have a “translate” button almost everywhere))

[@AGR95]

Taking the needed time to be able to deal with life situations (medical, emotional, educational, etc.) is one of the wisest things you could do. Keeping a good "self" is the most important thing for a person. Hope everything improves or, at least, doesn't get worse again. Good luck!

[@chrisjackson_1988]

What I’ve always loved about your videos compared to others was your honesty. You are naturally a strong person, but even the strongest people are only ‘human’ and social media in general has put immense pressure to wipe out human struggles and portay a perfect life. Thank you for continuing to be honest Elena. Always appreciate your videos. Your style of videos makes them very easy to watch, almost like rewatching re-runs of Friends. Wishing you all the very best

[@Daisyjones94]

You have matured so much! Such a strong young woman!

[@mariafernandez4837]

So nice to hearing from you

I am very happy that this channel is still in English, I feel a bit disconnected when you speak in German but I understand perfectly why you do it, I will continue here since I want to continue listening to you and know how you are doing, thanks for sharing with us!

[@Clowd84]

Thanks for being so honest. I was very sorry when you switched to german content on Instagram (I'm not even native english speaker), I really loved your insta content but it's your profile and we can't do anything about it. I'm so sorry you felt that bad that whole time, at least you can get some learning from those times. I hope you finally get to feel well or at least your disease gets controlled. Again, thanks for your honesty 🤗❤

[@edwardinho6185]

Good luck, Elena. You are a lovely person.

[@natsu6932]

Hi Elena, Thank you so much for sharing your situation. I remember when I see your content for the first time, I was in NZ. I missed everything in my home country, I was often crying. But, your all contents encouraged me. Thanks to you, I finished all my studies and am back home. (surprisingly,) I still keep learning. Maybe it is time for learning Germany to fully understand your IG!

[@inesmarques5156]

I am so glad this video is in English!

[@Alexandra-ek6pi]

I am so glad you were open about all this. It spoke to me (pretty sure it did for many others). Always put your health (mental and phisical) first! A happy and healthy you has much more to give to the world. What I regret in life is not having dealt with my mental health issues sooner (college was one of those moments). I really hope you will reach out to all those who can support you, take every day as it comes, and never let any external factor or inner thought bring you down. With age you start realizing that life in itself is invaluable and being kinder to ourselves is the one true meaningful action that we can do to change the quality of our life. Sending love!

[@Paulimausi]

Danke das du so ehrlich und offen bist. Ich hatte echt so die letzten Wochen das Gefühl das du vielleicht keine Lust mehr auf KZbin hast aber jetzt kennt jeder deine Gründe und ich freue mich einfach auf neue Videos im Oktober

[@Zakuchanhatesyou]

Hi Elena, I hope you are continuing to do better. Dealing with health diagnosis is never fun (wether mental or physical) and i just hope you manage to accept it and deal with it on your own, no matter what it might be. When I got a chronic illness diagnosis I found it helpful to talk to a support group with others ith the diagnosis, so you could try that out if you want to. It left me feeling a lot more hopeful, less scared and like i had more agency than before. So you could consider that if you wanted to.

[@ABisdoingjustfine]

I haven’t watched the video yet, but that thumbnail is relatable af. I’m in the same boat, and frankly, it feels like I’m drowning in greyness with each day that passes by, if that makes sense.

[@gooohst3013]

Hi Elena, just wanted to say that you don't have to be sorry Its fine like just take the time that you need, tell us if you are fine with.Hope you'll get better soon. Love

[@kennyskhronicles4880]

Hi Dear, social media likes to highlight the ‘ups’…the truth is - in life - there are ‘downs’… we truly appreciate your honesty. It’s refreshing! Well done 👏🏾💕🥰

[@vivianemelo2495]

Hey Elena!! You helped me go through quarentine without going crazy. I'm a antisocial person too so I know what your're talking about. Earlier this year I had to come back to my school that's pretty far away from my home city and dealing with making new friend and my social anxiety was hard, really really hard, I cried almost every day and I just wanted to go home. But now I'm better place mentally (FINALLY) of course we all have days when we just want to lay down e forget that we are responsible adults ( pretty taunting, I know). Everything is going to be okay. Lots and Losts of love from Brazil. You deserve the whole world 🥰🥰🥰

[@aichaaicha6952]

Elena I understand you🤗 and we really missed you and your study videos, you're the only one who motivate me and when I feel like giving up I go back to your Cambridge vlogs playlist❤❤

[@farzonaizatullaeva3427]

You can overcome this. Health is on thr first place. Take care of yourself.

[@oceanpoem219]

Well done for speaking out about other people’s lack of care for and awareness of people who are immunosuppressed. There’s a lot of ableism out there. You don’t owe anyone else personal details about your medical condition.

[@malamarky6861]

Hi, I absolutely understand how are you feel… I have some weird post-covid health issues since 2021 and sometimes it´s very hard cause it really affects my life a lot… you are not alone, wish you a lot of healt and better days ❤️

[@aleksandarmiladinovic5761]

Hi Elena 👋so great to see you again 💖

[@saraoliviabrumusescu]

I love your work on youtube since now and I will still follow your next chapter but it's ok. I will still watch the old videos. You helped me a lot during my high school years and right now I'm in my first year of medicine and rewatch study with Elena and it's so weird when I'm thinking of it. In this year I realised that I'm a coffee and library person:) I like going to library to study alone or sometimes I'll ask a friend to come if she wants. My point is that you need to finish your degree and manage your health and recover. Take yourself easy and give your cells a break❤

[@karolinax]

I'm really sorry about your illness. Thank you for keeping youtube content in English, I will be still following you on instagram although I don't speak German :)

[@helenabranco8618]

I hope you get better physically and mentally. I was very sad that you started making content in German because I don't speak it, but I fully understand your decision. Since the quarantine started I have been following your accounts and you have been a great inspiration to me. I am a person with few friends and the truth is that watching your videos and "studying" with you has helped me a lot to finish my degree. Thank you so much for everything, even for wanting to make youtube videos in English so we can understand you, I wish you all the best.

[@doomergirl6012]

Love, take your time if you need. It is okay ❤️

[@kariskhattab2132]

I'm sorry you've been feeling this way♡ These couple of years have been tough on almost everyone:(

[@carolinekrahmer1906]

Gute Besserung Elena! Nimm Dir die Zeit, die Du brauchst!

[@Sophie-nz9ho]

Hi. I hope you’re getting better! God dearly loves u

[@inesmarques5156]

Stay strong, Elena. We are here to support you!

[@thenoobalmighty8790]

I am here. FEEL MY SUPPORT

[@not.alma.]

Hey Elena, vielen Dank für dieses Aufklärungsvideo. Ich hoffe natürlich sehr, dass du bald wieder fit bist um diesen tollen Kanal weiterzuführen. Aber Gesundheit (psychisch und physisch) ist immer das aller Wichtigste und man sollte sich ihr auf jeden Fall mehr widmen als dem regelmäßigen Hochladen von Videos. Deswegen nimm dir unbedingt die Zeit die du brauchst, wir warten hier auf dich egal wie lange es dauert. ❤️

[@poppyrendall847]

I had a similar experience with not making friends in 2nd year. I ended up in halls (was meant to be with a friend who had to move elsewhere at short notice). It was a quiet flat and no one wanted to socialise at all, I didn't leave my room other than for lectures and it was so detrimental to my mental health. Hope you're doing better 💕

[@estelle4793]

Take your time Elena! You are good enough ❤

[@ArtemisKost]

Everything you said is completely normal and understandable. Everyone has difficult and sad times and how you deal with them is your choice only. P.S. You have beautiful eyes and this makeup/ colour palette really brings their shade of green out!

[@madalenavairinhos4505]

I missed your videos in English! Hope you get better ❤️

[@sophiewagner3856]

Hi Elena Ich verfolge dich schon sehr lange, kommentiere jedoch kaum. Nach deinem Seelen-striptease fühle ich mich allerdings verpflichtet zu sagen, wie sehr du mein Leben bereichert hast. Durch deine Lern-Motivation habe ich mein 2. Semester an der Uni mit diesem Schnitt erreicht, den ich benötige für ein Auslandsemester in England. Du bist eine wahre Inspiration und ich möchte, dass du das nie vergisst. ❤️ Falls du trotzdem noch neue Friends akquirieren möchtest, ich stelle mich gerne zur Vefügung. Ich habe das Gefühl wir würden gut Viben😂

[@asanjilukong5266]

voll süß

[@SalmaAmr95]

Hi Elena ❤ that's so brave of you to put out there you... good for you. I hope you're doing better now mentally, physically and emotionally. Looking forward to seeing you back. Rest well dear 💜 You can do both languages on Instagram if you're feeling it. Know that you're not alone in all of this

[@evasragova8335]

Thank you for your honesty, Elena. I can feel your words are 100% true. I'd just want to make you sure that I don't think your situation has been "the best of the best", you are "always the lucky one, the best one, the priviledged one" etc. In fact, I can imagine A LOT of hard times in you life - parents' divorce, the lost of your rabbit, depression, social awkwardness, and now even autoimune disease... and of course your incredibly hard work. I just wanted to say thank you for your openess. This video has helped me a lot 🙂 Best wishes, Eva Also, hasn't your English improved a bit? Now I don't hear your German accent at all! 👍

[@camilatorres8322]

I missed you so much❤️ as a fellow law student and an international student, I felt just the same thing you’ve experienced with loneliness and kinda having nobody 😢 Having you on any kinds of social media always made me feel better. You’re great and we love and appreciate you very much💖

[@Sandruskiita]

Hiiii I hope you are doing better from now on, sending lots of love! I wanted to say that the only bad thing I see about uploading more content on your Instagram is that if you don't speak german (I don't haha) you are not really able to understand your stories, your Q&A and stuff... but do whatever is better for you!Lots of support!!

[@hibaberguellah5342]

I miss you elena🥺🥺🥺 .. please take care of yourself first and then come back stronger and happier... We hope see you soon too elena 🥰🥰🥰

[@hafsasaeedvlogging1650]

Lots of love Elena .

[@MsTheblackbox]

Get well and take care ❤️

[@alexismundy5893]

Love your channel Elena

[@Sakkkuuuuuyeahhh]

It's sad. Same here, COVID afected me physically but mentally above all. I finished my Degree with almost the same sadness. I remember one of your videos showing the new dormroom. I felt you sad but on the last video, oh, I can really felt it. I quickly noticed it. Same situation here: I graduated with honors and it's like... ok. My final grades, ok. I feel that I have to be happier for accomplish that goal, but I don't. I'm following you at Instagram even if you now only speak in German and I can't understand you, but It's nice to take a break and try what are you saying!. Stay safe and stay strong. 🌺

[@stevelawrence8945]

Best Wishes from the USA .......about 100 miles from New Orleans !

[@ZeldaRomain]

Hey Elena, i'm very very sorry to learn all of that and i hope you'll feel better in few weeks and comeback to us when u feel like you can do it and that you have the energy ! Don't worry, we will stay here and wait :) !

[@viktoriabahr8458]

I remember not being able to get up in the mornings and making my hair due to pain. I hope 🤞 the meds. help. Just don't give up on anointing your Doc. 😅

[@cheyennepeng3818]

Please keeping to make your vlog. You’re doing a great job. ❤

[@Hakoona]

Wow never thought I could relate as pretty and successful as you. Literally relate to sm1 to everything u said. Everything

[@Cupcakiiiii]

I really know what you mean concerning the finding friends thing. I started a Master's degree last year and I honestly haven't made any new friends. The only friends I made are people my one friend I already knew set me up with. It's just so hard when you're a socially awkward person who is also still careful concerning covid. I've been feeling so lonely and out of place the whole last year tbh. In other terms I am so incredibly proud of you for what you achieved in your life so far. You are such a strong and intelligent person and I really hope you'll be better mentally and physically soon. You really only deserve the best

[@celine4732]

Feel hugged ❤️

[@silvinhabruno]

I missed you! I hope you get well soon and that you feel loved every step of the way. About you IG content: Can’t you add subtitles in English ? I Love your content and I have to screenshot the stories and add the writing part on google translator so I don’t miss anything. Please, speak in German but add some subtitles for us. Love from Brazil 🇧🇷

[@Carlisle_Volturi]

Vielen Dank für dieses Update. Chronische Autoimmunerkrankungen sind doof, wenn sie in Schüben verlaufen. Kenne das gut (auch, wenn es kein Rheuma ist). Es ist stark, was du bisher in deinem Leben erreicht hast. Auf KZbin muss man nicht alles zeigen. Und wenn es dir nicht gut geht und du während dieser Zeit keine Videos machen kannst, ist das vollkommen okay.

[@laurentiare]

Hey Elena, as someone who had COVID (last year) I can relate to your struggles. Luckily, it wasn’t serious which was good as I had been vaccinated. Regardless, I wasn’t my best self during that time. As of right now, I am currently studying for my German degree (I just started a few days ago) and it’s been quite busy for me. The German vlogs and IG posts have really helped me with understanding the grammar. All in all, stay safe and healthy. ❤️

[@yoongi_means_gloss]

❤️❤️❤️we are here

[@folkwh0re]

Stay strong, Elena, we love you ❤️

[@helenwatterson8636]

please remember there is no one timescale for doing things, no one ideal that makes us happy, even though this is what society constantly feeds us. take all the time you need for yourself 💛

[@PoppySimonSays]

Nothing I'll say will be enough compare to what you went trough the past two years. I'm sorry for you and I hope that you will take care of you and let your friends and family taking good care of you too ! And I wanted to say that, yes you were in a good material situation but it's not because you're fine "materialy" that you have to feel better or don't have the right to be sick. Room, scholarhips, they didn't heal you, they maybe allowed you to focus on healing and your degree without dealing with more problems but that's all. It did not change your sickness or your symptoms. I also wanted to tell you that I missed your YT content and I'm eager to see what you'll do next when you will be in position to do so. With that said, I wish you all the best for what is to come and again I hope that you will feel better mentally and physically :)

[@karolinaa.6183]

I am sorry that the last two years have been a difficult time for you. I kinda suspected this might be the reason for your silence. For me, the last 2 years have been difficult, too, and also due to my physical and mental health, so I can relate to your experiences. I am a bit older than you, in 2019 I finished my studies and started working, but first lockdown, and then health problems thwarted many of my plans. I even had thoughts of suicide. (It's better now! Even though I'm still not fully recovered.) I also understand the feeling of loneliness, because I feel like I've lost a lot of friends because I've been sick for so long. I didn't even want to keep in touch because I felt like I was complaining too much and that I had nothing positive to say, and I felt bad about it because I was always a positive person. Maybe I'm reading it wrong, but I think you keep explaining that you appreciate your privilege and that it's not really that bad. Dear, I'm sure you know this, but I'll say this: it's okay not to be okay. Your problems are the most important and the most terrible because they are yours. You have the right to feel bad in the most beautiful room and in the most prestigious university. You felt pain, that's normal. You have endured a lot, you have a lot of strength in you and for sure your loved ones are proud of you that you managed to graduate despite the difficulties. Sorry for my long comment. It is a pity that I can only write these words over the Internet. You are a wonderful person and if we met in real life I would like to befriend you. Ah, one more thing. I don't use Instagram and TikTok, but if you'd rather run KZbin in German, I don't mind, as long as you give English subtitles. I can read. ;)