FEELING FESTIVE - A COSY SUNDAY & BAKING - SOME DAYS IN MY LIFE

It's feeling very Christmassy now... I LOVE CHRISTMAS!!!
I hope you like the vlog!
RECIPES:
cookies: www.bbcgoodfoo...
digestive chocolatey thing / fifteens- inspo from Mark Lutton Instagram: @thebakingbuddha:
30 digestives - crushed
some mini marshmallows
one tin of condensed milk
mix all together, press into bottom of lined tin and put in the fridge for 2 hours or freezer for 30 mins, then melt 200g dark chocolate and pour on top, spread so whole top is covered then put in the fridge for 2 hours. Cut into squares with a sharp knife (put boiling water over knife and dry so its easier) then EAT! YUUM!

[@georgiejones6096]

Thank you for being the best recovery channel out there! I appreciate u so much xx

[@jazmink650]

whoever is reading this, I hope you realise how amazing you truly are. Keep fighting babes you got this!

[@michellebishop2994]

You to❤

[@felix333aggourakia]

Love u

[@littlelittle1111]

You're truly amazing too 💗

[@hendrixhernandez7526]

@@littlelittle1111 HI WE WILL B OK NO MATTER WHAT

[@Rojena]

I’ve been watching you since the beginning of your recovery process and I think I speak for everyone when I say that you are SUCH an inspiration. You are so beautiful inside and out and what you’re doing with your platform is incredibly commendable! Thanks for being an amazing human being, you deserve to be blissfully happy forever xoxoxo ❤️❤️❤️

[@indiarock4574]

Already know it’s a good day when Elzani uploads 😌

[@georgiapenny9892]

So true!

[@valeriaaceves7876]

This girl motivated me to keep up strong during recovery. I’m 170 cm and used to weight 44 kg. Now I’m 56 kg :D, and having my period back (little by little) and using birth control pills to regulate all my hormones devastated from all the previous famines :D

[@alexaung5462]

Such a beautiful representation of living life to its fullest and actual freedom !! 🥰

[@miapileggi7330]

OMG you’re always posting when i have to eat a big dinner or if i’m going out for dinner and i’m so grateful cause you always remind me that recovery is worth it!!! thank youu💗💗

[@bazbee1]

I check in on your videos every so often and every time I do you’re looking healthier and happier than the last time I checked in! So good.

[@e.y3251]

I'm thinking the same!

[@natalia-hd5em]

Hi Elznai. Thank you for inspiring me to get better. I’ve dropped to 38kgs and i’m 5’7, and your video talking about how you were so scared of death and wanted to recover resonated with me a lot. Even in my profile picture i weighed a few kgs more and i felt better in myself. i’m scared i’ll loose myself completely in anorexia, so thank you so much for being here to motivate me and make me see how much i don’t want to throw my life away to anorexia ❤️

[@michelleseveney9113]

You look so healthy and happy!! You are a beautiful person inside and out! Fighter, survivor and inspiration! 💗💗

[@Jjjjjjjj27]

You should be so proud of all your hard work!! You have worked so hard to be where you are today.

[@user-fs2zv2lb2i]

I remember watching your video from last Christmas and it makes me so happy to see how much more you're enjoying life this Christmas 💓

[@maimoonajanbaaz5352]

only anorexic youtuber who actually wants to recover without counting macros + snacking and tasting food casually , not only meals❤️❤️❤️

[@kecrn4132]

So very true! She is doing actual recovery instead of replacing one symptom for another.

[@aintflexinjusttexan8339]

I love what a good life you and your family give to your animals. You look so healthy and beautiful. I’ve been watching you since the beginning.

[@LolaBathory]

Every time I see a new video I just get so so happy. Thanks for spreading joy rn elzani🥰👏🏼

[@nathaliekluken9478]

Will you place the Christmas tree early this year elzani? A lot of people in holland are already putting it in the houders because of COVID and they just want to make it cosy early this year .

[@mollxo9796]

You have come soo far! I found your channel right at the start of your recovery and I love it , no1 supporter💞

[@iola4451]

You’re so lucky to live by the sea! it always looks so nice in your videos.

[@amaalali1621]

I love how happy you are and I wish u still happy forever 💕

[@ilikeyoutube836]

Elzani the difference between you last Christmas and this Christmas is astonishing. So proud and happy that you've come so far ❤

[@jordanreina5890]

I have been watching your videos all morning, so when I got the notification a new video was out I was SO HAPPY!! Thank u for brightening people's day (mine included)! 💜💜

[@libbyyy]

i love your videos so much omg, i’m struggling with eating and i always feel so bad after eating sunday roasts (dinner is like the one meal that i always make myself eat) but watching this was so reassuring 😎

[@felix333aggourakia]

This family is just wonderful 😻🙏💗

[@angelinadram1127]

I’m so ready for all her Christmas videos

[@lindareinholdsson8701]

You are My absolute favourite youtuber please never stop posting i wish you could post 10 vidzz a day PS I Love to see what you eat!❤️

[@alexfacchino1608]

please keep posting vlogs, i love watching them!!! Also, will you be doing vlogmas this year? x

[@jademusic1211]

This is hard to watch because I no longer celebrate Christmas and spend it alone. (Dysfunctional families suck). 😔 But I'm so happy for you, Elzani. You're really an inspiration and I wish you and your family all the best for the holidays and in the coming New Year. 😘♥️

[@bakerboo7680]

I love your videos they make me so happy

[@malinjohansen7793]

Can you have a q&a/mukbang with a q&a? I also agree with your suggestion about making a video where you eat others fear foods! Btw. I love your videos

[@rebeccaorourke7237]

I followed your other channel for such a long time and noticed you didn't upload in 6 months so I thought you may have been having a hard time,then I found this channel and I see that you're doing incredible and you look amazing 😍 I'm so happy for you, such an inspiration 💕

[@rebeccaorourke7237]

You look so happy too, omg I'm so delighted seeing this video , so proud of you 💖💖💖

[@abaynesh]

always such a joy watching your videos 💓 your happiness and attitude towards life is so contagious ☀️

[@ellieblake2287]

Inspirational you are wish I was ready for recovery and so confident like you

[@kellykirlidi9645]

I can’t wait for your Christmas Eve video!!🎄❤️

[@Mandapanda.]

I’m so incredibly proud of this girl!

[@froggy8814]

anyone else a die hard Elzani fan but not liking this background music?

[@julieta5376]

Me

[@deyaniraramos1396]

Elzani!!!! I haven't seen your videos in a while....my bad, it's been a bit tough here for me the lest couple of days but I'm a loooooot better now. Your my inspiration of course. I love this new video still got the others to watch but of course this one was inspiring and just Amazing. Loving all the new baking...the fun times, Blaze...wow and Satara on the piano, i-n-c-r-e-d-i-b-l-e. I love that your sooo happy. You really have pushed me far now!!! I am trying trying this recovery...really truly...I'm not wanting to listen to my eating disorder anymore...now I actually I'm in a predicament...sooo I do have to change. I want to be happy just as you are. You give me so much power and motivation to move forward, to keep going, just do it and keep fighting for freedom. I admire you so much, I say this loads but it's true. I'm really doing it too now. I know it's not going to be all the easy peasy but it's about disobeying the ED not letting overpower anymore than it already has...which has been years. Well. I love all the yummy tasty looking food you create...your sooo amazing. It's sooo fun to see you all in the old films too...sooo cute lol. You all are sooo adorable ❤️💜🖤💙🥊🥰😎 sooo loving and caring. Makes me happy to see all that. You smile so much more and laugh...it's i-n-c-r-e-d-i-b-l-e to watch. Your the best Elzani 👍 yaaas 🦋🕊️🥊💕🍞🥚☕🍓🥔🥜🌰🥯🥖🥞🥪🥓🧀🥨🍰🍪🍫🍽️🚗🏡🌄🏖️🎃🎄🎹🎶🎥📺

[@vanessareid2024]

I love seeing you so happy! ❤️

[@shannaerasmus1915]

Yay can't wait to watch! Such a perfect way to end the weekend 😊❤️

[@mariebeach5864]

Love your vlogs so much perfect end to a weekend xxx😘

[@Jjjjjjjj27]

Your smile is so pure💕

[@mikey7241]

love u loads elzani! your videos make me so happy :)

[@bmeggy11]

You are absolutely amazing!

[@ellagracex8230]

I love this video! Just a question- what are you plans for the future? I can really see you having your own little bakery/ coffee shop in a little village of seaside town xx

[@piu.winston9650]

fav family :) fav videos :)

[@vivh6254]

Lovely family videos 💕

[@amyturner1199]

Is Satara doing A Levels? Which subjects did she take? Also, Great video! 🤩

[@lucylendall4214]

YOU ARE SO INSPIRING!!!

[@lottileiter2733]

I was actually sad when your vlog was over😄♥️

[@pamelak.271]

Sending love and light 💛

[@tan_verse]

Elzani u seriously r the most beautiful person I've ever seen n I really mean it ...I'm trying to recover too .But tbh it's not easy it's been like 4 months n I've not gained any weight ..I'm just not able to eat like u I'm just eating till my stomach being full but not like u how u do it Elzani. I know Ed recovery requires a lots of calories a day n it has no limits but it's hard for me ...whenever I try to do that my disorder stops me ...pls tell how can I be a normal person I can't take it anymore 😢😢😣

[@AS-ur5gl]

Hi huni sorry to hear you are struggling so much. I guess the only way to change your mindset about weight gain is to see it as a positive thing. Think about the life you will gain not just the weight. You will feel free and will be able to do much more things . Try and focus on the positives of gaining weight and not the negatives . Don’t view weight gain as a bad thing. Be proud of it and enjoy the freedom giving up your disorder gives you. Take care xx

[@tan_verse]

@@AS-ur5gl thanks for being supportive ..I'll try my best 😊

[@AS-ur5gl]

Tanya Thakur take care xxx

[@kecrn4132]

Also, try not to look at recovery as weight gain, because it really isn’t. For those of us underweight, recovery will include weight gain as a result of the work we put in to gain our lives back.

[@tan_verse]

@@kecrn4132 ty so much 😊😊 it's been about a week now n I've improved a lot with my eating n increased the diet healthily but now I don't know why I'm not gaining any weight ..maybe it would take a lot time to get a healthy weight back

[@itsanni3678]

The cookies looked soo gooddd 😍😍

[@zoemarie5327]

I'm a massive germaphobe an watching you dip an eat of a spoon then dip it back in really makes me anxious an shakey....I guess we all have different battles....great video

[@hendrixhernandez7526]

ELZANI DID YOU TRY PEANUTBUTTER SLICED BANNANA AND AMERICAN BACON ON TOASTED SEEDY BREAD SANDWICH YET

[@vincenoir8180]

I find these videos difficult to watch now with the background music over everything :(

[@theajuelfrederiksen7589]

YES YES YES PLEASE DO AN "EATING PEOPLE'S FEAR FOODS FOR A DAY"!!!!!!

[@jestzle6996]

You show me yes, i can eat

[@Elena-pq8yp]

Is Alisha at Uni? Isn’t everything online? When is she coming back? :)

[@elzanisingleton]

Yeah she’s at uni! It’s online but she paid for her house and all her friends are there too! She’s back in December 😃 we all miss her lots

[@tatjanabruning3834]

Elzani! :-) Have you ever tried baking a German Stollen? It's "divine", I promise! :-D I'd love watching you doing a Christmassy-themed bake-off; maybe in a "European Christmas food"-edition? ;-)

[@kecrn4132]

What is roast gamon??? Elzani, you are incredible! Please never forget that!

[@lauraelizabeth541]

It’s like a joint of ham, or thick sliced ham we often have it with fried sunny side eggs and chips (fries) 🥓 🍳 🍟

[@Jjjjjjjj27]

What is the COVID situation like where you live?

[@valeriemurphy8628]

Pumpkin is good for dogs. Just not sure of raw!

[@summermccallll912]

What do you and your sister think about harry styles vogue cover shoot?

[@JoStotts]

where do i sign up to have vlogs this CUTE?!?

[@suzanavucinic8527]

Hiii. So happy to see you. You made my day complete. And you know what, I will challenge myself and try your beautifuly filled 24h of eating your favourite food. Wish me luck. Thank you for everything. Hope you are still checking your PO Box😊💕💕💕💕

[@tamarpost]

I tought the title said "feeling myself" for a quick second lol

[@lillyleeding1014]

Same 😂

[@ampisepulveda2170]

Hola😜😜

[@gemgel]

I've been watching elzani's videos to recover from this eating disorders but my anorexic mind keep saying that I have to be on diet😔(+ it's been a year since I lost my period) PS:sorry for my bad English

[@masilvey2608]

Please believe in yourself. Your eating disorder was not an enemy. It was trying to protect you from feeling pain. But see your body is so smart. Once you start showing compassion to yourself, you will slowly start eating. And with every bite tell yourself that you are healing and taking care of yourself. I had an ED for 30 years, I am in recovery right now. Please get help, I waited for 30 years because I felt like I could handle it myself but it’s ok to get help. Once you start recovery, you will see one day something will click and you will be changed.... I never believed recovery was possible but it is. I promise.

[@gemgel]

@@masilvey2608 is it okay to wait 30 years to be ready? I'm eating 3 meals a day now not restricting but and I'm eating well but what I'm amfraid of is going all in for my hypothalamic amenorrhea.. I eat 2100 ~ 2300 calories a day but HA RECOVERY says I should eat 2500 a day and I'm scared I might not get my period back if I shouldn't go all in

[@masilvey2608]

@@gemgel I totally understand. And no it was not ok for me to wait 30 years but I had nobody to tell me to go get help. I am no doctor but I can tell you that getting help was the best thing I have done for myself. I am no where close to being recovered 100% but that would be the only good advice I can give anybody. And don’t get hung up to calories. You should be eating at least 3 meals and 3 snacks and more if you still feel hungry. The first thing I have realized was that what I thought of binge eating was actually called extreme hunger and it is a very normal response to starvation. When I binge ate ( extreme hunger) I would restrict for the rest of the day and it was a cycle I couldn’t get out of in the beginning of my recovery. All in is not easy but it maybe the only way. Do you have health insurance? You may be surprised to find out that some insurances have really great eating disorder recovery benefits.

[@gemgel]

@@masilvey2608 no I don't have health insurance I totally don't know about that I'm only sixteen I just want to get my period back cause my mom is so worried and my aunt is a secretary in a hospital and the doctor their said that I should take the pills but I already take it and my period came back but only for months then stop then they want me to take the pills again now I just think pills are not the answer cause it's only for months and not a real menstruation

[@masilvey2608]

@@gemgel Have you talked to an eating disorder specialist? Or a dietitian who is specialized in eating disorders? I don’t know where you live. My period was gone for 6 months. I know it takes time for your body to adjust. But just because you are eating 3 meals a day does not mean you are not restricting. It sounds like you are eating just enough. I totally felt the same way. I always said I wanted to heal but I didn’t want to gain the weight. And honestly It took me a while to get used to the idea. But to get your period back, weight restoration is a must, sometimes it may not be enough. Your body is trying to heal the most important organs initially and unfortunately our reproductive system is not crucial for our survival. Also I benefited a lot from writing a journal (not my food intake though, just how I felt about my meals and my hunger levels). I also ditched the scale and counting calories. Once I did that my stress level around food vanished. I am sorry this is too long. But I exactly know how you feel.

[@edienesbitt9258]

do u have friends that aren't your family?

[@elzanisingleton]

Yeah! We are in lockdown so you can’t meet people right now

[@elzanisingleton]

Also they live away I haven’t seen them for ages, and they wouldn’t be in videos anyway

[@oliviapirie6941]

Nothing wrong with family being your only friends :)

[@Andrel8046]

when are u gonna start socialising

[@lauraelizabeth541]

The uk is back in lockdown honey, and stands to be right through till new year possibly. So not on the horizon any time soon!

[@emmawilson804]

hey just remember if you want to monetize your content, be careful about what songs you use