Em Beihold - Numb Little Bug (Official Lyric Video)

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►Lyrics:
I don’t feel a single thing
Have the pills done too much
Haven’t caught up with my friends in weeks And now we’re outta touch
I’ve been driving in LA
And the world it feels too big
Like a floating ball that’s bound to break Snap my psyche like a twig
And I just wanna see
If you feel the same as me
Do you ever get a little bit tired of life
Like you’re not really happy but you don’t wanna die
Like you’re hanging by a thread but you gotta survive cuz u gotta survive
Like your body’s in the room but you’re not really there Like you have empathy inside but you don’t really care Like your fresh outta love but it’s been in the air
Am I past repair
A little bit tired of tryin’ to care when I don’t A little bit tired of quick repairs to cope
A little bit tired of sinkin’
There’s water in my boat
I’m barely breathin’
Tryna stay afloat
So I got these
Quick repairs to cope
Guess I’m just broken and broke
The prescriptions on its way
With a name I can’t pronounce And the dose I gotta take
Boy I wish that I could count
Cuz I just wanna see
If this could make me happy
Do you ever get a little bit tired of life
Like you’re not really happy but you don’t wanna die
Like you’re hanging by a thread but you gotta survive cuz ya gotta survive
Like your body’s in the room but you’re not really there Like you have empathy inside but you don’t really care Like your fresh outta love but it’s been in the air
Am I past repair
A little bit tired of tryin’ to care when I don’t A little bit tired of quick repairs to cope
A little bit tired of sinking
there’s water in my boat
I’m barely breathin’ Tryna stay afloat
So I got these
Quick repairs to cope
Do you ever get a little bit tired of life
Like you’re not really happy but you don’t wanna die Like a numb little bug that’s gotta survive
That’s gotta survive
#EmBeihold #NumbLittleBug

[@EmBeihold]

I wish I could "heart" every single one of your comments - while it makes me sad to see that so many people relate to this feeling, my heart is full from the little support community we've created here. Sending you all the biggest, fattest hugs in the universe ❤

[@gotmykneecapcrushed8760]

You're not alone❤

[@blythemariam442]

I love your music so much!

[@lanturn2876]

Your doing a wonderful job! 💕

[@katekatlazy]

Thank you.I'm really happy that I'm not alone. Also. Hugs to u too.

[@christitran698]

I love your voice omg plz respond to my comment

[@theodoreftm269]

"Like you're not really happy but you don't wanna die" This hits hard.

[@burninglite9908]

Definitely

[@gabbzgamez1442]

I just relate to it way to much

[@footballsoccer8981]

@@burninglite9908 kzbin.info/www/bejne/iaGZhqJ_n92Ur7M

[@Camille1367]

so hard

[@hqqq9792]

yea i don't think not being happy means you want to die so im guessing most people relate to this.

[@Xavierpng]

When a song understands you better than your friends and family-

[@Melibemaree_24]

Ow yeah

[@fuzzythefirst8554]

same

[@chimera6234]

True-

[@itslana8478]

Sad but true.

[@dailydoseofbeijingcorn2303]

yes

[@minilika]

I've always said that depression isn't about sadness, it's about abscence. The abscence of feelings, the abscence of meaning.. you just feel empty. This song describes this sensation very accurately. Every time I'm in a period of apathy, like now, I sing to this out loud.

[@ochasaja]

One of my friends asked me how I was because I haven't been in touch. I didn't know how to answer, a standard "I'm fine" or my actual feeling which is "I feel empty."

[@merylkenvan1776]

.....also absence of connection. My love and connection for my 2 precious children keep me afloat 🙏

[@ginnys.matthias1818]

@@ochasaja "I've been having a tough time recently" is a good compromise.

[@grizzoh]

This explains it so well!! People in my surroundings find it hard to understand. It's not that i'm sad. I just don't feel anything. No happy feelings, no sad feelings. i just am. an empty broken vessel.

[@idonthavealife4615]

@@grizzohand u constantly have no motivation to do anything but force yourself to do things so u seem fine

[@SquishySeaBird]

Just got my heart broken because my 11 year old little sister showed me this song. Shes autistic and has a hard time talking about her feelings but thinking that this might be how she is feeling just breaks me. Such a sweet sad song.

[@maxinekluckhohn9987]

Awww. Yeah. I am autistic and put together songs that explain how 8 feel about what i can remember from very deeply scarred trauma ❤️‍🩹

[@autistinquisitor9441]

I'm Autistic, and I love Linkin Park for similar reasons, haha. Bless your sister

[@Theepicgolem123]

It’s a truly amazing song, it makes me feel empathy for those who feel this way 🥲

[@hboudreaux66]

I'm autistic, and I feel like a lot of autistic people feel like this because we feel like aliens sometimes. Or, I do, at least. Like I'm stranded on Mars because I can't understand anyone else. Like I'm entirely alone. That leads to feelings of loneliness, which morph into depression and my social anxiety becomes worse, leading into more feelings of loneliness, which just makes me end up spiraling.

[@av201]

@@hboudreaux66 You are not alone. A lot of UNIQUE sensitive brain Autistic folks “get it.” We get the Alien on a foreign planet that is often hostile and shunning feeling.

[@markmcburney5940]

I gotta say, I love the fact that the caterpillar is talking to butterflies. It’s how I feel on a daily basis. Like I’m talking with people who have their life together while I’m struggling to get out of bed every morning. Beautiful song, beautiful video. Thank you so much for this song.

[@SittinginAcoffeshop]

All of my friends are achieving so much in school by going to state competitions and applying for college really early, and I haven't accomplished anything. I don't know what to do anymore :( MY parents are expecting me to become a doctor, but I just have a deep gut feeling that I'll most likely end up homeless and alone

[@faithmurunga6899]

Thank you so much , this was so refreshing to read coz this is how I always feel, like I'm the most confused, misunderstood etc while others are collected.

[@avery2872]

:(

[@Ludwinx]

Basically sums up my life

[@seonsun_]

@@SittinginAcoffeshop its easier said than done but remember, dont compare yourself with your friends! your on different paths on life, what's important is that you try your best, honestly nothing or no one is perfect so if you make mistakes along the way its okay! also do what makes you happy even if its "against" your parent's wishes, since we only live once and we gotta enjoy our lives, i hope i helped somehow, i wish you the best ♡︎

[@eileen9378]

This was an perfect depiction of mental illness and the things that go through our heads. I know at least or me it felt as if I wrote it because I’ve said and felt every lyric before in my life. It’s real and I can’t explain how thankful I am for this song, that there is at least one person out there that felt the same way. And now I get to see there were many others. I was never as alone in this feel as I feared I was.

[@propapanda4447]

Agree 100% The Lyrics are on point! And you're not alone in this! We all feel that way and you are stronger than you realise! Love and stay strong

[@genderfluidmusiclover808]

*hugs* we are in this together!💗

[@nicholassoliman6078]

🤍🤍🤍

[@nicholaslutz4]

I legitimately showed this song to my therapist the moment it came out. Turns out I was like the 5th person to do so. Its refreshing to hear it in a way that I can not only jam to, but get relief that we aren't alone.

[@kellylund1605]

@@nicholaslutz4 I will be showing this to my therapist at my next appointment. I feel every single lyric of this song 100%. It sums up exactly how I’ve been feeling for the past few months.

[@the.canine.corner]

“Do you ever get a little bit tired of life? Like you’re not really happy, but you don’t wanna die.” Exactly how I feel and it’s so hard to explain. This song describes how I feel every day and it’s the perfect song to listen to when I’m feeling down, because it truly reminds me that I’m not alone. 💙

[@mahKoreandudes]

That line hits different 😁

[@notabanana2495]

Though I feel even more alone for some reason I don't know about.

[@teddycathy3012]

Same I don’t know what I should do I haven’t said anything about this to my family and I’m only nine

[@thepoetstorturer]

Damn that's me in 2 sentences

[@exec_rigveda8299]

same reason i always listened to bohemian rhapsody, that "i dont wanna die, but sometimes i wish i wasnt born at all" truly hits deep.

[@RoSpacesingOut]

"Like your body's in the room but you're not really there" That line made me put my head in my hands and just cry. Yeah. Yep, that's where I'm at right now.

[@BlvrrySt4rzz.]

Fr tho -Onyx

[@muostanleyekene7694]

"Like you're not really happy but you don't wanna die" This has been me since '19. Songs like this are important because in our darkest nights, they remind us that we're not alone. And sometimes that's enough to hang on till tomorrow

[@jamesgodden3]

100% agree, for me I had Beautiful by Eminem on repeat in 2016 when I was at my lowest. The words “Like you’re not really happy but you don’t wanna die” were basically the words I was saying every night that year. But yeah without that song and a few more it could have been a worse situation.

[@YeeepaNo]

Satellite Call by Sara Bareilles is another good one when you want to feel like you're not the only one.

[@muostanleyekene7694]

@@YeeepaNo I'll check it out

[@lylysoncool]

Hanging on since 2004

[@muostanleyekene7694]

@@lylysoncool You're so strong and it's amazing. That's eighteen years of being strong. You're amazing. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise, not even yourself. Here's to being stronger and getting the happiness we all deserve 💯

[@azquiahlobido8053]

I just realized that the "twinkle" in the bug's eyes form a sad face. Such a small detail but it hits me every time. Our eyes really tell a story our mouths can't... no matter how much we try to hide it. Hugs to us, numb little bugs xoxo

[@Isnt_anyah]

I noticed that at first too and its so true

[@aimakashif2923]

Very true , sending virtual hugs

[@soramame0318]

I'm a Japanese junior high school student. 　Your songs has saved me. Thank you! 私は日本の中学生です。　あなたの曲を聴いて救われました。ありがとう！

[@Nan-59]

❤❤❤❤❤ Hang in there! ❤

[@russelloats]

"Am I past repair?" such a simple line that with so much weight for me...

[@MCLARK2010]

Best song I've heard in a long time. So incredibly accurate and honest. You've got a very bright future!

[@Shreyy17]

Ryt It's upbeat rhythm and dark but true lyrics and cute animation is what I needed

[@hana_d8533]

brighter than my future indeed, anyways good luck y'all

[@alejandrogomezlizardi5605]

Same

[@josiejohnson913]

Look up the song "panic attacks in paradise" its by ashnikko. It's upbeat like this, but also a depresso song

[@yalldontneedtoknow7141]

@@josiejohnson913 yes this week I've listened to that song 137 times I have a lot of time

[@Me-fn9kd]

This may just be me overthinking and over analysing things but I like how the main bug was a caterpillar. A caterpillar that wont be like that forever, that will grow into a beautiful butterfly. A caterpillar that wont feel like that forever. To everyone in the coments saying that you relate to this song, please know that you are not alone and this feeling IS NOT PERMANENT! It will get better!

[@Shreyy17]

This comment should blow up

[@jooniesbonsai4064]

That's very keen of you to notice!!

[@piperchickennuggets9788]

❤❤‍🩹💔 i hope that will happen soon

[@ricilightcibro]

I agree with you ♡♡♡

[@frog649]

For me it got worse:)

[@elenamunozdedios2916]

When I heard this song, I went to my mother and played it for her, telling her to listen carefully to what it was saying. When the song ended, I asked her if she had understood it. She said yes, to which I said "that's exactly how I feel". Thank you forever Em, for putting the feelings of so many into words better that anyone could've ❤

[@cremetangerine82]

I admire that this song says "it's OK to not be OK." So much of media is focused on cheering up and "put on a happy face", even when life's giving you too much to handle. Keep holding on.

[@c00kiesart74]

It’s so refreshing to find a depression song that touches on the middle feelings like this one does, I’ve never felt suicidal (thankfully) but I know I have days where I don’t want to do anything, and this song is a breath of fresh air, knowing I’m not alone here. Depression isn’t fun, nor is it a one trick pony, it comes in many forms. And I’m happy to see this form get a lil attention in such a bop song bout a bug lol

[@norabell0743]

I completely agree. I feel like what most people hear about mental illness is the extremes. It’s like if you have depression that you have suicidal thought and if you have anxiety then you are constantly having panic attacks. These are both extremes. This song totally touches the middle ground. I’ve never been able to really describe my feeling because I feel like they aren’t bad enough to be validated. This song helped me realize that there are people who feel the same way. The ones who “are not happy but don’t want to die”.

[@Dragonild]

SAME I often feel stuck and upset by how I feel but it’s also not completely debilitating? And it’s really confusing, I’m so happy to see other people who feel the same way

[@lavenderladybugs]

I agree so much. I unfortunately have had the suicidal side of things. For me the unfortunate part I’ve noticed is nobody really talks about what comes after. I’m out of that side of things which when you’ve gone that extreme it makes you kind of minimize what you’re left with. For me this is kind of where I’m at and I have been for a couple years, but it fills you with even more doubt because it’s like yeah sure I’m not happy but I’m not like THAT anymore so I’m “fine”.

[@_sogar]

@@norabell0743 wait... People who are non-suicidal can have depression....... .....

[@hanniefrei]

Same. I love life, never felt suicidal but a lot of times I dont want to speak to friends or go out. I have great friends and family but I just feel so numb on things happening around me.

[@lonelynight7872]

"Do you ever get a little bit tired of life Like you're not really happy but you don't wanna die" Hits me hard literally thinking about that years, sees this song in instagram. The amount of relatable lines gets this song a good attention

[@Ellianagreenwood]

Very sad but true

[@Morning_Dewdrop]

I feel exactly like that

[@luisamuller9111]

true

[@anonymoussimp1507]

We can all relate to it, especially with what's happening in our personal, virtual and global life 🥲💔

[@agooddoorandfriend9911]

I know right like I feel it and understand it

[@user-wq5dy3ud2r]

For anyone in a position like this song. I give you a hug. Life is always changing, today can be sad, tomorrow can be happy. Make every moment a lesson. Don't give up easily :) one sentence: don't die

[@jessicalange548]

The lines “Do you ever get a little bit tired of life?”, “Like you’re not really happy but you don’t want to die?”, and “Like you have empathy inside but you don’t really care?” unlocked something inside me

[@sidneyirwin6712]

I've always found it hard to describe the apathy that depression gives me but "like you have empathy inside but you don't really care" are exactly the words I was looking for. thanks for the incredible song :)

[@mrcookie6603]

Right?? I always wanted to express this feeling but i wasn't able to cause its so hard. Then this song got released and i am finally able too. This song is truly incerdible!

[@alisonjones9361]

same

[@hermionegranger2930]

For me its “like your not really happy but you don’t wanna die”

[@happytimesonlines]

Curious, are you related to mr. irwin at eastwood elementary?

[@woofyfoofers7286]

@@hermionegranger2930 Completely agree. That related to me like no lyric has.

[@angie.castle]

Never had depression, but this also relates to severe burn out / compassion fatigue in the medical / helping field--which I have felt. Beautiful song

[@sonderly7820]

@@water3408 stop downplaying someone’s struggles. burn out in such a vital, yet demanding field is valid. all these feelings are valid and it is not a sole determinate in how great someone’s life is. also pls know the difference between having depression and being depressed.

[@PlayLaughLogan]

@@water3408 depression is a mental illness, not just extreme sadness. it's like saying "wow you've never experienced being bi-polar?"

[@Obxpotterthings]

@@PlayLaughLogan yes I think they mean being depressed rather then depression which is a struggle for people ho face it

[@PlayLaughLogan]

@@Obxpotterthings being depressed means you have depression though, otherwise it's just sadness.

[@anonymoussimp1507]

@@water3408 i don't think everyone gets depression. it may just be sadness or major stress for all, but their predisposition to depression makes them proceed to such. and to me, now that we're becoming aware of our mental health and the fact that there's a lot of things going on in real life and the virtual world triggers it. only if we can snap our worries away 😔

[@francesleones4973]

"Haven't caught up with my friends in weeks. And now we're out of touch." - this line hits hard for me because I've struggled to connect with my friends long distance because of my anxiety and social awkwardness 😢

[@girlsjustwannahavefun4912]

" Like you have empathy inside, but you don't really care" hit me the hardest

[@brightonboy191]

Same

[@sing3prima]

Same here.

[@vaideeflores6078]

Same

[@ScorpioMojo]

Boo hoo ... life is so hard. If girls wanna have fun, then why are u whining and listening to this depressing sh*t 🤔

[@lowkeyz4118]

Same

[@barricade1391]

Touched all the chords ‘Like you have empathy inside but you don’t really care’ yup Hang in there everyone, you can do it

[@skipteel7124]

Great song - old guy lyrics correction though; pretty sure it should be “apathy”…… …….. if anyone cares. 😀

[@preppyme6617]

Yep this song is if I wrote it cuz I also make music and this is the sort of thing I would write and have wrote I feel this I’ve lost a lot of friends this past month bc of this other girl in my class and I think she just hates me even tho I didn’t do anything to her :( she’s allways been mean to me

[@DeeniesChannel]

i relate to every line exept the love in the air

[@batmanh8899]

@@skipteel7124 Nah, it’s supposed to be empathy.

[@Tigeress37]

I've never known exactly how to phrase this until I heard this song. How do am I supposed to explain that while I care about people and things but I don't really care about people and things?

[@Talonrod]

hats off to the animators who made the light reflections in the eyes sad faces ❤

[@Kaizen.daily01]

You know the worst thing you ever feel in the world is being lonely Where you got no one to understand or support you That hits different

[@jazznoreos]

if mental health was a song, it would be "numb little bug!" your lyrics always hit home and this one is definitely a home run. I'm obsessed with the lyrics, the melodies, the message, and the pure genius creativity! Love you and your music, keep going, and thank you for sharing your feelings

[@keryyo]

I've been wanting for a while to talk with my family about how I've been feeling for years, but felt embarrassed about speaking up about my undiagnosed depression. This song makes the waterworks start every time I hear it. I just used it today to break the ice and start to explain to my wife how I've been feeling. Thank you for helping me take the first step to hopefully getting to a better place. Nobody can help if you don't let them in.

[@kurimallow]

Being able to show this song to someone who doesn't quite grasp the idea of depression feels... refreshing. Sometimes telling people "im depressed" makes them think its the absolute extreme depression and thats not quite what I mean when I say it.

[@user-tt5ku1dm3t]

awwww

[@maanasayenamandra8895]

You go!!

[@wiederganger1959]

I sincerely wish you all the best, and hope that you can overcome your troubles. But what I've learned over time is that no matter who you talk to, you could talk to a million people, each one an expert, it might make you feel better for a while, but it's just a bandaid. It doesn't actually fix any of the underlying problems, it just feels relieving to get stuff off your chest, but when the door closes and you turn off the light and lay down.. Nothing really changed. Some people are just born broken, only thing to do is to stand firm, be tough, and ride it out, like a tree awaiting the lightning, and look back often, it makes time fly faster. The only certainty in life, is death. There's comfort in that, if you have the patience.

[@alexb.2055]

Beautifully said and good for you👏🏾. You got this and so many who aren’t there yet

[@ValerieBorowiec-xs4uh]

“Guess I’m just broken and broke” Hits hard

[@shadowvampwolf]

ah bless i have found the original source of this song instead of the instagram and tiktok reel ones

[@lisahopkins3866]

My daughter called me tonight and asked if I'd heard the song "Numb Little Bug", that every time she hears it she thinks of me. I thought maybe because Bug has been my nickname my whole life. I had not heard it, so she sang it for me. I cried like a baby, because it's exactly how I feel on a daily basis and it makes me sad that she sees it. Sometimes in just going through the motions, we're not as good at pretending as we think we are. I love this song of yours. It really speaks to me.❤️

[@aryaraisha8477]

You're lucky to have a daughter like her 🥰🤗

[@lisahopkins3866]

@@aryaraisha8477 Yes I am. Thank you. Not many mothers get to call their daughters a best friend. I'm very blessed.💗

[@nicollejones9671]

same! not me crying rn

[@naomihipgrave3362]

You've got this mama. Be proud that you have raised such an intuitive, compassionate human 💛

[@juliajackson344]

you are very lucky, your daughter SEES you and she understands.

[@eloisecarcini1280]

I absolutely adore this song, how could I not?

[@ZipFPElol]

This is so relatable, nobody realizes or cares, and this song does.

[@RoRyWebley]

The bugs in this animation had me 🥺 the whole time P.s. the song slaps Em I’ve had it on repeat for an hour

[@yyeelaine2160]

omg rory aaaa

[@hereshero6966]

I LOVE SOMETHING SUPER SWEET AAA

[@gemmagray7394]

Same

[@bangchans.big.nose__]

only an hour?? I've literally had it on for days , not even joking

[@grizzlywizzly]

@@bangchans.big.nose__ agreed! It’s my theme song these days ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜🤍

[@kenzieduckmoo]

what really gets me in this song (other than ALL OF IT) is the "hanging by a thread but you gotta survive cause you gotta survive" like the whole surviving for surviving for surviving's sake, not really because you specifically want to, but you dont really want to die, so theres not really any other option than to survive.

[@MiloMurphysLaw]

You don’t wanna die, but you don’t want to live, so you just exist.

[@nicolesouza451]

omg yes. been to a point where I wanted to die but felt like I couldn’t because of the people who depended on me so this “cause you gotta survive” hit me hard too (i’m doing fine now, the thoughts have gone)

[@katkaos7896]

yea, that's basically me

[@anushkathecoder5718]

This is a song that makes me dance and smile and cry all at the same time .

[@McHandle_]

“Like you’re bodies in the room but your not really there” I feel that all the time.

[@asel8189]

The rhythm of the chorus and bridge really hits the spot, it’s just so good - reminds me of those older songs from 2014-2016)

[@chancematters]

Shit, is that why I like it so much. Oh boy.

[@aclstudios]

2016 is considered old??? Wow I'm ancient

[@grizzlywizzly]

@@aclstudios no no don’t listen, we can be old when we’re 80! I do agree tho. V Sarah Bareilles/Natasha Bedingfeld/Ingrid Michaelson vibes 🥳

[@kbluedoc7768]

@@grizzlywizzly omg I was like this sounds like a Bareilles song in her prime lol nailed it. Very talented young woman that accurately represents the nihilism of young adults right now.

[@khristianpeel7165]

I heard this song randomly at work and had to see what the name of it was because of how dope the chorus is so you’re spot on with that.

[@KarstenBelt]

This is the most fitting lyric vid Ive ever seen, love the song Em😊

[@elm625]

"Body's in the room but ur not really there" "Empathy inside but u don't really care" Those two lines are a summary of my entire life-

[@jessejagg3d]

I love this song. It reminds me that people aren't necessarily depressed or mentally ill themselves but our civilization itself is socially ill.

[@biddoplays]

So true so true…

[@biddoplays]

I’m not exactly depressed i haven’t been diagnosed or anything, but life is just hard and rough sometimes rougher for the boys too but we gotta be strong

[@jessejagg3d]

@@biddoplays Hang in there bro. The journey is worth it

[@biddoplays]

@@jessejagg3d Thanks, Sometimes the internet is so much better then what people (parents) say it is. They say it just starts up drama, but sometimes people like you can be a blessing in someone day (mine). You may not think it, but those 2 sentences are amazing for me. Ty

[@user-ug2fu8mj2j]

You called?

[@animegirl1006]

I already know I'm going to be listening to this on repeat for weeks.

[@ja1iece]

same!!

[@marsholford4126]

me too, me too

[@helennguyen3923]

Same! I also did the same when Good News came out by Mac

[@kfirunger]

It’s going to be my theme song ❤️

[@decks4818]

I survive an anxiety disorder, and now when I listen to this song I can't help but smile. Smile because a chapter of my life is finally behind me. Smile because I'm living my best life despite the ghosts haunting me every day. A message for those still fighting: It gets better. It gets WAY better. You will reach the point where this song won't hurt anymore, and I wish you all the luck. I love you all.

[@marydc2557]

Thank you.

[@bPstudios20]

This is a thing I know but needed to hear again after struggling for so long… thank you

[@shelbyandstuff123]

Absolutepy.. Same

[@cheeze588]

That's great! I wish all the best for you.

[@TaneishiaHadimulyana]

I know it gets better- but it can take up years.. my life have been a living hell for aorund 2 years, should i wait for it to get better? Is it worth the wait? How long does i take? I'm not a very patience kid-

[@laurayoung7971]

It takes me about three listens of crying, then 5 singing along to the cute beat until im better again 😊

[@lionessoftor4139]

Just knowing I'm not alone with this feeling helps. Stay strong everyone.

[@kylerkhoo1371]

2024 anyone?

[@Ireallyreallywishiwerenthere]

2 years after? Who cares? 😂

[@user-tl7un2oz3b]

March!!

[@Starbucksgurl21]

Meanwhile… I've been waiting/hoping/praying for a “good year” since 2019 🤷🏼‍♀️

[@Walterworlds]

Fuck yeah

[@tamaltarup]

Totally

[@leafy4509]

incredible song. there’s the feeling of just not wanting, yet you don’t wanna die yet you have to put in effort to survive, but you can’t.. this song conveys so many feelings

[@josiefaith6838]

Listening to this really gets me crying. This song makes me feel so validated. You know the feeling of not being depressed but also not being okay? This song kinda gives me the feels of being stuck in between and I CAN RELATE TO THAT. Thank you for creating this song. 😭 May we all find the motivation to keep going

[@melai8688]

Yes. Yes. This this a million times this.

[@jazz741]

Yess. This is what i feel right now

[@syedmujtaba9825]

" I have nothing to feel depressed about " situation

[@Maga-22]

Exactly. This song describes exactly how a Lot of us feel, but not so often it's talked abuot.

[@huangrenjunism]

yes yes omg

[@hh212312343]

Many of the comments here along with this song have rather helped. Dunno what you’d call that, having your mood improved by being presented with animated evidence your not the only one who feels like that from time to time. It really rather helps. It’s a lovely song.

[@Eevee4042]

This is the most relatable song I've found yet

[@maggiestewart]

Thank you for this song. I'm a therapist and a client shared it with me today to help express how he was feeling. I hear the same from so many people and can even relate to it myself. I think it's actually normal to feel this way sometimes (or often!) in our parts of the world, but society tells us there's something wrong with us if we do and we need pills to fix it. How the heck are we supposed to feel happy when there are wars, a pandemic, constant media shaming our bodies, and rampant racism and other types of violence all around us? We can do all the coping tricks in the world to try to feel better but if we don't feel a sense of purpose, safety and belonging, then we're not getting at the root of our feelings. Becoming a butterfly is about making decisions every day that bring us closer to the person we want to be and life we want to have. And we usually need other people or things in our life to help us get there, because we are stronger together.

[@Jirolin1]

Glad to hear patients shared this with you! I was planning to do the same once my waiting period is finally done for haha

[@cocosom]

Agreed, i love this comment

[@jjk4891]

And I also feel like being depressed is sometimes just part of life and our generation tends to shun away a bit too much. Sometimes we just feel a bit down, depressed, burnout, and it's OK. It doesn't mean someone is broken (a wreck) when they feel that way. However, longing depression is another problem! I write this to remind myself that it's a natural thing to feel down now and then during this stage of life (late 20s looking for a next job).

[@Jirolin1]

@@jjk4891 Sure, everyone feels a bit down every now and then but it definitely is not shunned in our generation. For the first time in a while, people are okay with expressing, discussing and sharing these feelings where previously they may have been obliged or pushed by society to hide it. Open discussion of these issues and feelings is a lot healthier than trying to brush it off as normal, or going back to the hush-hush ways of the past.

[@noufm4985]

Thank you for saying it's normal. My anxiety level got a little bit lower

[@marlz672]

I’m 29 and I’ve lost 2 friends to suicide. Both of them were guys. I’ve struggled with mental illness but I’m grateful that I have always gotten through it. It’s heartbreaking to know that they were suffering in silence and that for them, every day was a struggle to survive. They always had a smile on their face. Nobody expected it. Men need to know that it’s OK to talk about feelings, to ask for help, to break down, to cry, to need support, to be vulnerable, to go to therapy and it’s OK to not be OK… and if you feel like there’s not a soul in the world that would care that you’re gone, I can promise you that you are wrong. I am a complete stranger to you and I want you to keep fighting. I care that you’re alive and so do millions of other people. Keep fighting. Please.

[@hana_d8533]

shit, take care

[@ayaanaa.1]

you have gone through so much and you are so brave

[@amongaimchen5017]

❤️❤️❤️

[@ark23.5]

Sorry for your losses Thank you 😭

[@shrikhan2215]

This helped, take care of yourself 🙏

[@krizzkrozz4841]

"like your hanging by a thread but you gotta survive~gotta survive" this is too true damn its so good its my fav song now❤️

[@thats_rough_buddy]

did y’all notice that the shines in the eyes are sad faces!

[@isis9237]

i've been waiting for this song ever since the first snippet, i was obsessed with it and now I'm crying over how accurate this is, now let's just hope my therapist doesn't get too worried when i send her this song. either she will get worried and then jam to it or jam to it and then worry but one of those is definitely gonna happen. (also i think i just found the perfect inspiration to finish a one-shot i had been stuck on for a long long time so thanks for helping eliminate the writer's block!)

[@ginny0075]

I'm not even kidding when I say this is one of the most relatable lyrics I've ever heard of. Your music is always able to calm me down when I'm having a panick attack, and I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart. Keep going

[@sarahdebruijne5439]

Sooo cute! I kant stop looking!

[@maddie5201]

[@footballsoccer8981]

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[@ginny0075]

@@maddie5201 that's so sweet

[@user-lm3fm4cq5i]

This is great. It hurts, but it's great. Thanks for this song.

[@arvo-noon]

Most of you are here because you relate to this song, and I do have a small message for all of you. You have people that care about you. People that love you. People may not show it, but they still do. You’re not alone in your struggles, but that doesn’t make your problems any less real or valid because even if you feel like you’re ‘burdening people’ or ‘overreacting’, you’re still right to feel upset, numb, overwhelmed, or any other emotion. You’re doing extraordinarily!! You’re alive and here, and I’m really proud of you for that. You’re hanging on even though sometimes you might feel like letting go. I don’t know what exactly you’re going through, and I don’t know what’s happening/is happening exactly, but I do understand the feeling. I really do. It feels horrible. It feels like you’re constantly fighting just to keep yourself together. And I understand-me and everyone in this comment section and so much more. No matter where you go you’ll always find people that’ll support you and relate to you. It’s okay to reach out, it’s okay to not be okay! Vent to your friends (if they agree), talk to people about it, trust me, it’ll help ((: Bottling it all up and shoving it away constantly will never help, it’s a short term solution that’ll all come crashing down eventually. I know that my words may seem like shallow filler to some and maybe most of you, but take the time to read it if you can. Because seriously, you matter more than you think. Your mental health matters just as much as anyone else’s. I’ll leave with some of these bad boys >:))) Please please please call them if you want/need to, they’ll try their best to help, and they’re very experienced in what they do. *National Suicide Prevention Lifeline:* 1-800-273-8255 (24/7) *The Trevor Project:* 866-488-7386 (24/7) *National Eating Disorder Association:* 1-800-931-2237 *National Alliance on Mental Illness:* 1-800-950-6264 *GriefShare:* 1-800-395-5755 *Eating Disorders Centre:* 1-888-236-1188 *Beyond Blue:* 1300-22-4636 *Kid's Helpline:* 1800-55-1800 *Trans Lifeline:* 1-877-330-6366 *Australia:* 13 11 14 *Canada:* 1-833-456-4566 *India:* 1800-599-0019 *Korea:* 1566-2525 *New Zealand:* 1737 *United Kingdoms:* 0800-689-5652 *United States of America:* 1-800-273-8255 💛💛💛

[@azucena-hm2wo]

wow you are a great person thank you

[@ed3245]

I cried so much reading this

[@MadelynsWorld]

i love you so much

[@br00klyn_isstup1d9]

BRUHHHH THIS DESERVES SO MUCH MORE LIKES!!!!! But seriously, thank you. This helped me feel better about myself, so thank you so much, and I hope you have a good day :)

[@klassiequiyounez736]

THANK YOU FOR YOUR WORDS!! THIS SONG HITS MOST OF US PEOPLE RIGHT IN THE CENTER OF OUR HEARTS SOULS CORES& SPIRITS.....THE ONLY DRAWBACK IS IT IS KINDA LATE FOR A FEW FRIENDS I TRULY MISS AND A COUPLE OF MILLION THAT DIDN'T GET A CHANCE TO HEAR IT, I KNOW IT IS PUT TOGETHER SO WELL. I PLAY IT ON REPEAT AND SOMETIMES ALL DAY...RIGHT ON FOR THE INFO TOO. STAY UP PEACE...

[@shithead8498]

I just wanna say, this is the most relatable song I have ever heard, and I just wanna say thank you for making this song. It's extremely helpful to see thoughts finally be put into words.

[@mateusz935]

That kind of artists... we need more

[@katecardinale8881]

I’ve never felt so validated by a song before. I think this should be an anthem for humanity. Thank you for understanding Em.

[@Faith-qx3kp]

I am so incredibly excited! This is exactly what I needed tonight after a tiring day. Em’s music is the equivalent of a remedy to any sort of bad or off day you could have. There’s no way to not feel happy once you hear her music! CONGRATS EM BEIHOLD ON NUMB LITTLE BUG’S RELEASE!!! You’ve got so much in store with this kind of talent! ❤️🎉

[@EmBeihold]

you are so freaking kind 🥺 thank you ❤️

[@clipo-rama5615]

The style, the song, the lycris, YOUR SKILLS IS OUT OF THIS BIG WORLD

[@thebluefeline]

I can't hold back my tears but your song soothes my heart

[@JC-qg5bl]

....that feeling you get when you find a artist you absolutely love and then realize you just missed seeing her live.....oh well, I'm keeping my eyes open for when she makes her next round with touring in my area. Its always nice to find something to keep you motived to staying around a little bit longer. Its not always rainclouds and maelstroms. There's better days on the horizon, i promise

[@Ghosttyhoomann]

I love this song sm especially the line “like your body’s in a room but your not even there” because I have ddd (dissociation/ derealization disorder) and that’s how I feel everyday

[@lalala_1018]

"Like your bodies in the room but your not really there, like you have empathy inside but you dont really care" Hits a little different.

[@lorineleung5988]

this is the best song i ever heard that i feel like i relate so much with my depression, i like the way it singing out the message that others don't understand, unlike some song just make it very sad or angry, this is what i wish all my friends and family understand

[@Urlocal_MHAfan]

This song is made for me. It’s definitely about all my feelings. No one truly understands me or knows me and I’m always putting on a fake smile and trying not to cry because I am severely damaged inside and it’s true that I try not to care about it. My life is really hard when it comes to my emotional state and nobody ever notices that my smile is fake. This girl has made the perfect song for me. I’m glad she understands ppl in this state.

[@rachelann1308]

I'm not going to lie this song makes me feel better when I'm in a dark place like today. I literally played it on repeat for the 30 minute drive to work and I feel like I can get through it if only for today. One step at a time. Thank you Em Ebihold

[@emily-miamitcheson3794]

This honestly hit me so hard currently going through post partum depression. Whatever your going through we can all get through it 💕

[@nicholaslutz4]

I'm a new father and am helping my own wife with her post partum depression. Congrats on your baby and it will get better. all you gotta do is one day at a time

[@hunterhofmann3785]

My daughter is eight months old and she's my first, the postpartum depression has been killer but it's little things like this and her smile that keep me going ❤️

[@cookiebaker2461]

Same here love, we got this!! ❤️ 💜 ❤️

[@Shusshorts]

I never wouldth thought that a song can understand my feelings 😢❤

[@GremlinQueeb]

Fr

[@user-tz6kc1dp1o]

this song is a validation :")

[@1oftheboys824]

The lyrics really resonated with me, especially the lines "Do you ever get tired of life?" and "Like you're not really happy, but you don't wanna die" and "Like you're hanging on by a thread but you gotta survive, cause you gotta survive".

[@mamabear4728]

I hear you. I'm starting to feel like maybe a majority of people feel this way and most us just don't talk about it because we don't think it can be helped. We're already doing the best we can what else is there?

[@1oftheboys824]

@@mamabear4728 Yeahh, I mean we don't talk to people about it, is because some of us imagine and expects people to react like "You're depressed because of that? You're so shallow!" Which I guess downs us more

[@alexiarobitaille299]

This song literally explains what depression feels like. It’s probably one of the best song I’ve heard in a while

[@jeanbreton2126]

This song perfectly depicts and describes how I feel. And unless you are there or have been there, you can't understand. It is a true talent you have to be able to put those feelings into words, so succinctly and completely. Thank you

[@marymarjorie8714]

My theme song for this year

[@chrisgirl1979]

Wow. I know this will get lost in all the comments, but it means so much to hear someone describe feelings I could never express. And to see the outpouring of support and understanding that no one is alone in this. So thank you.

[@janetgraverson6925]

Yes. I heard this song in my car today, for the first time, and was blown away at how well it described how I feel most of the time. Kind of sad that so many of us identify with it so well, isn't it? You feel like this, then you hate yourself when you think of the utter misery going on for others, like the people in Ukraine.

[@bayaholic]

@@janetgraverson6925 Same happened to me. Heard it in the car, the melody and the lyrics grabbed ahold of me. Home run swing and knocked it out of the park.

[@daydreamingaboutbooks]

I hope this won't get lost in all the comments. I hope that you know your feelings matter just as everyone else's.

[@alexb.2055]

Never alone💃🏽👯‍♀️!

[@metactaft5850]

@@bayaholic same with me

[@cady7752]

Wow, this song comforted me. These past few days I just kinda feel hopeless, and not knowing my purpose in life. Sometimes, I am questioning every thing and it kills me. When this happens, I used to listen music like this, and it helps me. Sad to say that this pandemic also makes me depressed, I always find an answer, it's just so sad. I don't have any one who is there to listen to me, so I am just keeping it to myself and writing it down. Anyways, thank you for this wonderful song. 🥰

[@jarnodoetdingen8690]

I know how this feels

[@miaholloway7311]

Same, kinda feel hopeless and don’t quite know where my life is going. Music helps for me too.

[@Janal_Hoe]

I wanna die

[@cady7752]

@@Janal_Hoe heyy, that's not a good thing to say, and come to think of it it's not the best option. It may seem messy, but trust me, all of that will end. Having challenges and rough times is a part of life. Problem is intended for you to be stronger and learn at the same time. I care for you, stranger!

[@footballsoccer8981]

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[@AuroraKilljoy]

I know this song is already two years old.. but it’s the first I’ve heard it. I’ve been struggling myself with so much for the last couple years. injuries and addiction.. This video is all I’ve watched and listened to all day, it makes me feel less lonely. And the comments.. Thank you for this!

[@user-sp5nv2tx9m]

This has become a comfort song to me. When I'm not singing 'you are my sunshine', I'm singing this... "Like you're not really happy but you don't wanna die" It hits so hard bro

[@jaywhisper8118]

This song is amazing. It talks about mental illness and stuff that people are going through everywhere in the world. I kind of relate to this song, expecially the lines in the chorus. The words feel familiar to me and that's what makes the song so effective. Thank you so much for this emotional masterpeice!

[@jaywhisper8118]

@Eunji² 💞 What?

[@amiraelboundati121]

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[@jesusislord461]

Time to let the self pity go, when Jesus died on the cross he said it is finished to feeling sorry for yourself

[@jaywhisper8118]

@@amiraelboundati121 okay

[@revaendeguia7559]

Metaphorically speaking, bug represents "trouble". When we're depressed, we feel like we're trouble to everyone. That's why instead of sharing our feelings to someone, we just keep everything in because we don't them to be indulged in our personal troubles. The title of the song is one of the best, I must say. ❤️

[@parkerbochniak1105]

Literally got me through 2021.

[@callisto.s_clawz]

'like there's empathy inside but you don't really care' DON'T RECITE MY OWN FEELINGS TO ME WOMAN

[@animalbloopers2982]

em, i'm not a huge music fan, but this song is literally one of the best i've ever heard. i have NEVER stalked a page waiting and counting down the days until it's released🧍‍♀️. i just discovered u and ur music a few months ago, but i already have this and groundhog day in my playlist!!! just wanted to say how rare that is and how proud u should be!

[@arasandaga355]

you're not a huge music fan? how is anyone not a MUSIC fan,,,

[@my.paper.obsession]

I love this, I can’t even begin to explain how close this hit to home.

[@shiftygypsy89migh41]

straight up facts.

[@mimimilk3178]

Oh this is so good. This leaves me feeling empty but at the same time so full of emotions

[@jennkrull8713]

this song gives me déjà vu. i swear i've been singing this for the past 3 years but i checked and it only came out 3 weeks ago???

[@lauradev6371]

This song just played in a random store when I was shopping in Brussels… you made it internationally girl 🤩

[@ELVIR2]

U bekgian?

[@Myah-and_Lily.]

hits hard "like a numb little bug thats gotta survive"

[@Eclipse_drawsthis]

I’ve always related to this song.. I thought I was getting better. I really did. But I guess I’m falling back again.

[@hannahgood4811]

For about 6 years now, I felt a certain way and could never find the words to describe how I felt. The first time I listened to “Numb Little Bug”, I felt like this song was written for me. Thank you Em Beihold!

[@Masa-jl8ei]

Same I've been numb for pretty much 5 years and after covid hit and I had to distance myself it just made everything feel worse, it's also like it hurts to the point you just can't cry anymore its just numb.

[@ScorpioMojo]

😢 😭 .. glad I was raised to overcome adversity and not sit around whiny and playing the victim card.

[@robloxaddict101z9]

@@ScorpioMojo your def a male. Hate to break it to you but this is what’s called toxic masculinity. Idk why it’s called that because it’s anything but masculine and strong but whatever …Being strong enough to address these emotions and reaching out to others for human connection despite the public’s hovering distorted stigma around mental health, not to mention the strength needed to ACTUALLY face and overcome these things is what’s actually powerful. Vs the weak “option” of hiding and neglecting these problems like a child stuffs their mess under their bed. Because it’s less hard work. Strength. If you want to be weak and cowedly so be it. But honestly don’t be coming all this way to a “childish” music video (i came across your other comments)and taking all this time commenting all over the comment section, just to try and spread your weak mindset. Words have power. But your words are filth. All your words have are toxicity. Keep it to yourself. For fucks sake. Honestly no one should live like this. So i hope you grow and learn and lean away from thisq, but it’s no excuse for you to try and hurt others just because you’re a hurt soul.

[@AnneDalton82]

@@ScorpioMojo Because bottled up emotions and no help to learn real tools to use to know how to cope with your emotions is a lot better.. (Hint: /sarcasm) Saying that you need help when you need help is more impressive and mature than any faux "overcome adversity" by pretending you're not depressed when you need help. This goes for anything bot just depression

[@ashleycapz807]

My friend sent me this days ago with a message saying, "This might be low-key relatable to u." And he was right, this song had me in tears the first time I listened to it, and now it's my topmost favorite song of the month

[@SAS-nq8jh]

I don't know how gerat of an friend you have there? But who am i to judge.

[@ashleighjanulis2916]

@@SAS-nq8jh great enough of a friend to help her realize that she was struggling, he noticed it and reached out. People may not always have the best approaches when it comes to mental illnesses, but the fact that he took time to reach out and make sure in his own way that she's okay, that's a great friend. Especially if he's still there to this day.

[@footballsoccer8981]

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[@AmberTheCat274]

i love this song

[@AxilotlPlays]

These comments are telling me that life is just so mysterious. Never in my life could any other sound understand what I am suffering

[@killuazoldyck4754]

This is a really dope song! especially to people like me who are still/had experiencing these kinds of things, it became like a lullaby to me, made me calm for a bit, and made me realize that I wasn't the only one being like this. Thank you for this wonderful song