REALISING I MIGHT BE FIGHTING THIS FOREVER ROUND 20

[@mayday24916]

It's weird to dearly miss somebody you've never even met. But I think of Emily very often. I'll always come back to her videos.

[@Paula_Shelton]

This was filmed almost exactly a year from when Emily passed away and it’s really heartbreaking. Cancer sucks so bad. It took my beautiful husband when was 35. It’s just horrible but it couldn’t dampen Emily’s light before it took her life.

[@judithwallace2091]

Emily Hayward I love you and I miss you SO much! This video is absolutely brilliant. Aisha thank you for keeping the channel up. My thoughts are with you and your loved ones. I live in Vancouver Canada and will spend the day of July 12th in prayer for Emily and her family.

[@arem4494]

Judith Wallace Let me

[@mrsprincenelson5756]

I love and miss you both! RIP sweetheart x Prayers for Aisha and all the family and friends of this absolutely beautiful and inspirational woman xx

[@welshlad6427]

Love the fact that she’s so joyed with 3 new subscribers 🥰 She deserved a million. If everyone could be like this young lady what a world we would live in ❤️

[@susanparker4550]

I'm not suprised she felt tired, chemo & radiotherapy make you tired, so do morphine medications, never mind the cancer, no wonder she felt so tired, this girl was an absolute wonder

[@into-darkness5560]

Em, How I miss seeing you make new videos. You being gone has left a giant whole in this world.

[@rubberducky2926]

Hole

[@user-od1fm3hs9c]

@@rubberducky2926 - Really? You felt the need to pick someone up on their spelling? Poor you.

[@sarahmilner8483]

I can't stop watching this girl. She was amazing and still is inspiring us all even past still being here!!! I wonder did she ever know how special she was.. I don't think she did! ❤️

[@hamidakhan37]

Can't believe you are gone, we love you so much xxxxx

[@dizzydaydream9647]

I need to file a complaint Emily....my housework is non-existent, my ironing pile looks like Everest and it’s all because all I’m doing is watching your vlogs....only kidding....can’t get enough of them!!! 😄 I’m a bit of a technophobe and have only just subscribed so have had a lot of catching up to do since you started your journey. Just wanted to tell you that you are an a true inspiration. I don’t have cancer but I do suffer with chronic pain. Seeing how you cope with all the hurdles you have faced since your diagnosis has been so humbling. Your positive attitude and sense of humour shine through your vlogs and have helped me with my pain issues immensely . Thank you for sharing your life, your love and your cancer journey. My days are much brighter since I came on your journey with you. Keep being awesome Em. Love Debby x

[@louisacamilleri885]

I really miss you both. Emily there's no one like you. You had something special in you. Your positivity was amazing .Aisha hope you feel a bit better. I know it's not easy. Be strong like Emily. Lots of love coming your way.

[@gilltowers7978]

Still watching, inspiration don’t cover it ❤️

[@celticwelsh]

It's sad to think that Emily was on the best treatment available and it only got her one more year. But it's heartening to think that at least she was able to get that year.

[@jilliantabor7578]

Hey girl! New subscriber here. I stumbled upon your vlogs because I was looking up information about melanoma. I currently have been diagnosed with stage 3, and life has been crazy. I appreciate your honesty and your determination. Keep it up, you got this! -Jillian from Boston Massachusetts

[@emilyhayward4726]

Heyy! Thanks for subscribing and taking the time to watch. Its great to hear more people want to talk about it. are you undergoing any treatments? i hope you are feeling strong... you got this! em xx

[@jackiedavies6956]

You will be in my thoughts and in my heart next thursday peace.

[@zoicomeau3063]

Missing you so much Emily 🦋

[@riittapennym1371]

Thank you Emyli

[@garrieleepeck8753]

Brave young women lived her life to the full to the never showed her pain both young young women rip Emily Hayward you will be rembered

[@lewisratzker8949]

Hi Emily, i just subscribed to your Chanel. Your really helping me to deal with with my depression & anxiety regarding my own incurable cancer. I've cut my Lorazepam dosage in half since watching you! X

[@bobo-kj6od]

I hope you're doing ok.

[@babadookies6495]

Miss you Em

[@dg7761]

I am a new subscriber! I found you and I had a binge watching with your vids! I'm struggling with ovarian/breast cancer since three years and your videos help me to stay strong. Now I'm getting chemotherapy and it's going to be fine. I'm so happy for you and your beautiful wife, I can't stand to see your wedding day! Love from Rome, Italy 😗😗😗❤❤❤❤❣❣❣❣

[@tiffanynicole5920]

This girl was so strong and inspiring. I think everyone should live everyday like it could be their last cause no one ever really knows, even people with cancer

[@jeansmith3367]

Such an inspiration, such a fighter. Hard to believe she has gone

[@jessicakelly9558]

I can't stop watching ur vlogd even though ur gone u have positive energy so sad z

[@dmm6341]

She was worried she wasn't maximizing it? And she said Aisha had fat dysphoria....she had "are u serious dysphoria" she's lived more life in 2 years than I have in 57. Just love her.

[@samevans1289]

Aisha, thank you so much for keeping her videos up! They're still so important for many people, me included. 💜

[@doreenlnelson6861]

I have been watching these, I'm still liking every single one and have subscribed.

[@mandbetts7843]

no way your birthday is the day before mine how cool love you post i have had stage 1 skin cancer but they got it in time howdi from down under

[@josephbader1243]

I keep on saying. They should do a movie based on Emily hayward. What would be the tough part. Who would play Emily hayward. Any suggestions. ?????

[@girlielove188love7]

Drew Barrymore!

[@girlielove188love7]

Drew Barrymore

[@ellamarson3882]

Em having to watch another vlog , missing you heaps, I’ve lost motivation,inspiration and hoping you once again give me a kick up the bum ..thinking of you Aisha and your families and friends and feeling your heartaches 💖💖🌈

[@KC289]

Ella Marson You’re not alone in missing her. I’ve gone back through most of her videos a couple times now. We miss you Em!

[@lunis471]

Oh Em yes pain is so draining. What a fighter you inspired me and I'm sure thousands of others. R I p sweet soul x

[@denisecrawford7876]

Hi another viewer from BC (Vancouver Island) loves and misses you Emily but still look at your videos . So proud of MoMMA Aisha

[@mustwereallydothis]

Miss you so much!

[@kimcolaprete6859]

Miss you and your vlogs. Your love of life is so inspiring. I go back and watch them every now and then. Hope your getting everyone in shape in heaven.

[@ronanwalsh7024]

Emily you were so not an idiot! You had so many things to deal with sweetie and dealth with bravely and didn't allow any of it to absorb your precious time. You were an amazing young woman that inspired and continues to inspire. That is a wonderful legacy to leave behind xx.

[@desiderata333]

BINGE watching darling! You’re now at 20,000 SUBSCRIBERS! Yessss girlll! Love you both and always praying for you. Stay strong Em. 🙏🏽❤️❌⭕️

[@appalachianfamilyrecipes4647]

Keep moving forward... watching your vlogs motivates me to try to get more out of my day and my life... Hello Aisha :) I hope you're both enjoying planning your wedding!

[@sandraclark7771]

Im catching up on your vlogs but don't seem to be watching them in order so its hilarious at times! I used to watch on my phone which was small but easier somehow. I recently bought my first ever laptop so the screen is great but im such a peasant, cant navigate for shit so that's why im all over the place! love you and Aisha, youre the most loving and brilliant couple ever xxx

[@SarahRayneDropz]

So tired of feeling tired....sending you light and love from Canada 🍁

[@Lottiloveslife]

You're amazing 😉 x x

[@emilyhayward4726]

Nooo haha How are you? xx

[@Lottiloveslife]

Emily Hayward debating going back on inflixamab for my arthritis and Crohn's but the side affect can be skin cancer!! Ironic huh? CT was clear but I'm in so much pain now and the fatigue is killing me! Inflixamab is my saving grace but could also be my death sentence!!! I don't know what to do😘

[@emilyhayward4726]

how long have you been clear for? how odd that the side effect could be recurrence!? if you are in that much pain i would go back on it personally for better quality of life xxx

[@bonniebunting6415]

Still watching you Em in 2019. Missing you.

[@kerryhughes5372]

❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@dfcvda]

hen she said "rest of my life` my heart sunk.

[@joannoriol6444]

This girl was the genuine item, I never once thought she was a phony or attention seeker. She 100per cent real, so is Aisha. As much as I have sympathy for pee wee toms suffering, I just do not feel the bond as I do with these girls. I feel like they are my friends and neighbors. When I watch Dan I feel no warmth, just saying. I'm not knocking him but I love these two a million times more, they are never over the top or uncomfortably in your face. RIP Em, sweet never give up angel, best luck ti Aisha.

[@parisahatami2099]

Joann Oriol it’s not a competition. They are people not show ponies. Everyone is an individual in their own right, and they didn’t asked to be pitched against each other....like which one is your favorite chocolate bar. How disrespectful to Dan when he is facing the toughest part of his life. Absolutely no need for some of these words. Say Emily is amazing.....the end! No need to pull someone else down to exaggerate your point. Grow up!

[@bobo-kj6od]

@@parisahatami2099 well said.

[@mstubeornottube]

I know pain ---and you handle it amazingly. Where you think of maximizing life, I allowed pain and worry to rob me of mine. Funny that a vlog I came across (yours) gives me such inspiration to change that now. Ya know that rabbit hole one can go down with You Tube? You start watching one and it opens up many others? I have recently seen a miraculous recovery of another vlog-ger and I know that you too have a hoard of people in your corner who have created a shield around you to keep you here with us, strong and happy! I'm writing this months after it was posted and you have gotten through it. On to your wedding. And the shield continues around you so live, love, laugh. And give us an address to send you and Aisha some ❤️swag… LOL

[@martocasp]

❤

[@sapphireweeks]

Hope you feel abit better soon 💙

[@emilyhayward4726]

Thank you!! x x

[@Bklyn93]

Keep on fighting. Bless you and your girlfriend

[@Bklyn93]

And you've got another subscriber

[@Lesley246]

Can't stop laughing at aishas tiny arm 😂

[@dee8261]

Lol now you have 18k subscribers I loooove it!!! I just sit at work and watch and listen to your vlogs all day #loser good luck at treatment today

[@wisewillow5731]

Catching up on your old clips, have to laugh at Miss now 13,000 subscribers saying “3 new subscribers today” on this clip... growing your channel beautifully 😘😘😘

[@annettegenovesi4012]

How you would have wished to have treatment for a life time. So the doctor said to Mrs. Smith, "Mrs. Smith, if you don't give your husband 3 square meals a day, and see that he gets enough rest, and don't let him get anxious about things, he's going to die." So later Mr. Smith asked anxiously, "So what did the doctor say?". Mrs. Smith replied, "He said you're going to die."

[@jonimoss3539]

My birthday is July 5th - we're both cancerians in a couple ways

[@emilyhayward4726]

yessss joni! The best people are born in July ;-) haha xxx

[@jonimoss3539]

Congrats on #20 down!

[@emilyhayward4726]

SO EXCITING! Well over half way x x

[@zippy2175]

I don't mean this bad and respect you 100 percent but what a waste that your gay ....Your one stunning looking lass in fact yous both are .I feel ill 5 year ago with a muscle disease chemo 2 years had me wrecked .At first I was given 3 month to live 5 year later I'm still here .It's in remission so you never give up lass sorry my Geordie accent comes through lol ...Big kiss hugs

[@a.aguirre6820]

Shaun Craig keep these comments to yourself. “What a waste that your gay” it’s downright disrespectful to her as a human. There’s no justification. Never utter or type those words again.

[@bobo-kj6od]

You sound like an ignorant homophobe. Stfu.

[@leonoraerskine5848]

I'm a gay woman and I know you meant well. People are way too sensitive I think. Hope you keep cancer at bay.

[@louisacamilleri885]

I really miss you both. Emily there's no one like you. You had something special in you. Your positivity was amazing .Aisha hope you feel a bit better. I know it's not easy. Be strong like Emily. Lots of love coming your way.