Enneagram Types 2, 3 and 4 in Turbulent Times with Russ Hudson - March 2020

[@susanlittlesthobo6422]

As a Scottish type 4 I found it surprising to hear so many non-4s want to be a 4…I struggled to accept I was a 4 and was sure I was a 1 then 2 then 3 then maybe 5 until I just had to be honest and accept I was a 4. In my culture there is a lot of shame attached to being a 4 - grief and sadness are to be swallowed and ignored and individualism, aesthetic purity, beauty are seen as vanity and pretentious. I definitely had to lean into my 3 wing to be accepted that I would burn out a lot just from not being authentic and struggling to do 3 as a 4 which was incredibly intense and exhausting. I also had to satisfy my type 1 mother and type 9 father by shutting down strong emotions and following their ways which was suffocating. There is a lot of joy in being a 4 in health and acceptance but so much pain before reaching that point I’m not sure why anyone would want that…even if secretly I know I would never want to be anything else. I also resonate a lot with difficulties living in the world…I have said many times that I don’t know how to be a normal person…all that human doing is alien to me. I love the way you teach the enneagram Russ…you and Richard Rohr showed me the essential qualities and energy of the types and that helps a lot because personality-wise we can wear many masks due to culture and family contexts as well as gender etc. but we wear them in a way particular to our type which is important to understand.

[@PistisSophia.1]

Exactly. It's tough being a type 4, more so in a environment which do not accomodate our sensitivities and feelings.

[@goldenflowerpm]

The most helpful description of a 4 I have experienced. Feeling relief as I hear it being described in this way. The shadow and light of it, it really resonates and offers new lenses. Thank you Russ!!

[@dianelewis9458]

Thank you for this series of videos. I’m finding them very helpful in learning more depth within the Enneagram. I hope you will keep making more! I love the Enneagram!

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