Cursed with an Explosive Temper (ASMR)

[@Weirdaman]

One of my professors said: Sometimes a human has to act crazy to not become crazy. I keep it in mind. As simple as it sounds, there's no escape from our animalistic, wild side. It's better to vent it somehow in a semi civil manner than hold it under an umbrella of 'discipline' or whatever have you.

[@nahaniyes]

I act crazy not to become crazy every single day, but I never realized it so simply before reading this comment.

[@Jesty.r]

Crazy? I was crazy once. They locked me in a room. A rubber room. A rubber room with rats. The rats made me crazy.

[@gameblox3892]

@@Jesty.r Crazy? I was crazy once. They locked me in a room. A rubber room. A rubber room with rats. Rats make me crazy.

[@MorArkGP]

Don't worry it happens. The important thing is that you can see there is a problem, clean up the mess, and improve.

[@TreeFrogOnATree]

Us humans excel at mistakes!

[@alt9172]

Wonderful quote

[@formeitisthemcchicken]

Being cursed with an explosive temper is okay, but for me, it is the McChicken. The best fast food sandwich.

[@irsony4436]

IM GONNA BUST

[@space_hamster]

HES BACK

[@mygills3050]

chicken

[@sagopalm279]

hey it’s 3-for-free!

[@totallyhuman9206]

I personally prefer the McCrispy

[@Cloakingpower]

Explosive tempers never happened until I got out of the house from under my dad's watch and suddenly all that pent up anger and pushed down rage was loose. Got mad during video games, magic the gathering, work, had to keep pushing it down but, thankfully I think I'm finding a way to let it out in a healthy way, or seeing it subside with age.

[@wellillbedipped]

Were you playing against a blue player

[@amiester3thou258]

A white player you mean

[@robparrinello3281]

I just masterbate

[@nonsensicalrat]

I would love to hear about what you do to rework your anger instead of exploding. I’m having a hard time trying to divert my family member’s aggression elsewhere.

[@Cloakingpower]

@@wellillbedipped any color, I hate losing, still do, but I'm learning to let it be

[@AngerRanger]

Positive videos including ASMR makes me a happier individual and I have found to be more in control of my emotions when I have a good nights sleep and when I wake up I make sure not to look at the news or anything negative that can cause me to feel a sense of hopelessness for Humanity. I have some holes in my wall that remind me of why I control my anger by doing things that won't make me angry. Anger has unintended consequences till its too late and if the Internet is not making you happy then its best to go offline for the day. I hope this helps anybody struggling with Anger from the Internet or Video Games but I think this video helps just the same. Thank you ER for reminding us that we all get mad sometimes and that we can control our anger from getting out of control.

[@Ididitall4thenookie]

He always uploads these perfectly when i'm about to go to sleep

[@robertpaws]

Same, its currently 10pm

[@MrOlsen-bf3rg]

I seriously am so upset I JUST found you and your content. Your serious stuff.. your comical stuff.. your very indept characters.. are soo witty and clever and well thought out.... Thanks for opening up to everyone and spreading information/help/positivity

[@charlesgordon3905]

It takes courage to talk about this kind of stuff. I still get defensive nowadays over silly things and can feel myself getting angry, but don't have the explosive outbursts anymore....Well at least not in a while. But I definitely relate in terms of explosive anger, I was made fun of a lot in school because I'm short (5'2" to be precise), and I think a lot of it for me came from insecurity. I still struggle with interpersonal relationships, but it took me until only a few years ago, roughly now, to start opening up to people in earnest and kind of shed my own insecurity/self consciousness. It still isn't there all the time, or heck maybe most of the time. I think a lot of this stuff hangs with us our whole lives, but you get better at dealing with it. As long as you know it's a problem, you'll always get better.

[@khroomlet8821]

I was diagnosed with OCD recently (in my late 20s) and a lot of what you've described here resonates deeply.

[@BrainlessGirl123]

I am glad that you made this video, Ephemeral. It's somehow comforting to know that a person who you admire suffers from the same impulsive temper.

[@PhoenixBlaze1776]

I have explosive anger mostly because of my extremely abusive meth addicted mother. I regulated myself by adopting extreme discipline and accountability of myself, going to the gym and practicing jujitsu are just 2 of the tools i use for keeping myself under control

[@deadpixxll]

No gi?

[@dashsmash2665]

Good on you man!

[@logo3992]

​@elinope4745 I don't know if you have signed up yet or not, but a lot of the people there are middle aged or a little younger maybe. I guess it depends on the gym, but you probably won't have to worry about it being all young men and women.

[@soulmare333]

I genuinely feel like you are me in like 20 or so years... not meant to be rude, but everything you say or talk about I've been through. I went through. I want that wisdom and worldliness that you have, and im working towards it. The way you speak, the way you learn from yourself. All of it. I need to become that. We even have the exact same interests. I'm sure I'm not alone on this but, dude, you are a goddamn blessing on this site to help people like me not feel singled out in this world. (Also, your lore building is next level)

[@armandotorres1001]

Thanks for opening up and talking about it. I know what you are going through because I have an explosive temper at times too. I’ve learned to stay calm, focus on slowing down my breathing, and thinking about what I am going to say before I say it. Over time it gets easier

[@itsglada383]

I know its a few days late. You probably won't ever see this, but i just want to say; thank you for these story time like videos, and every video you've ever done. They really do help a lot of us, and shows us we're not alone. Hope you have an amazing day!

[@Koda.1312]

I've dealt with explosive anger ever since I could remember. It's ruined so many friendships and opportunities for me along the way. I thought I would always be stuck being like this but after about ten years or so of seeing therapist after therapist and working with myself I think I've finally got myself to a level where I could almost consider myself "normal". I still have my episodes but I've got those down to once a year at most, and I've learned to catch and retrain myself when it happens. I'm also lucky nowadays that I'm surrounded by people who understand and are able to accept my apologies thereafter. It's still a bit exhausting to deal with as a person who otherwise is very afraid of hurting others. Hopefully I can progress a bit more as time stretches on.

[@AlienDuckie]

Thank you so much for making this video, it means an immense amount to those of us who struggle with the same issues. It's so important that we don't take it out on those we love, on the wrong people, and instead find a better outlet for that anger. Cause the anger isn't going away, it will happen, and that's ok, but only if it can be vented healthily. Thank you Paul, I'll be working to improve myself, just like you. We might have had some incidents already in 2023 but we've got the whole rest of the year to be better!

[@RAGNAR-3-3]

I had a public freak out at a movie theatre last year where I severely bruised myself, I could only see red but subconsciously I guess I knew that I didn’t want to hurt anyone/anything else but myself. That’s when I first learned about having seriously repressed anger issues. Thank you for sharing your own experience with anger, as I feel this brings likeminded people together and helps us to not feel so alone in our own rage.

[@trevor7572]

i wanna say that i have very recently started loosing control of my anger and im not sure why but its bad and this video has been consoling the anger out of me lots of love man im super glad to be a subscriber to this channel ❤

[@a_thief]

It takes some massive courage to be able to be aware and explain these things. I’ve struggled with this as a kid and sometimes I’ve gotten so angry my nose started to bleed lol. But hey, all that matters in the end is that you’re making an effort to improve.

[@Hectorlph]

Sobriety is an underappreciated lifestyle. I once read an intriguing comment online: "An alcoholic is praised for being sober for a month, yet people make fun of me for being sober my whole life". I'm lucky enough that I'm sensitive to tastes to the degree that most alcohol is literally impossible to swallow. It is literal poison--it just has a high dosage required. You have some good insight on anger. Thanks for sharing your thoughts. Your balance hypothesis lines up a lot with my understanding of it too. The drive to make people laugh or get reactions is related to anger because both are heightened impulsive emotions. I like your policy for the ideal first date, haha. You have a lot of wisdom about honesty and openness. My hope is to have that level of maturity when the times comes. CBT is worth looking into if you have the resources. I tried medications (they worked, but side effects too severe), diet changes, and exercise... and it only slightly improved my ability to cope with life. After 3 months of CBT, a switch flicked in my brain and I started to see positive changes that shocked me. Can't say it works the same for everyone, but wow... the mind is surprisingly flexible under the correct guidance.

[@aleco678]

Alcohol has ruined my young life . :/ lucky I have support still so I’m trying my best everyday to do better

[@DrRepper]

CBT blew me away. I'd never done anything like it before but a 5 month stint after some pretty serious mental health problems was genuinely life-changing. Like you, there was a point where it just clicked.

[@boi5375]

@@DrRepper whats cbt

[@Hectorlph]

@@boi5375 Cognitive Behavior Therapy. It's a process where you expose your mind to certain stimuli in order to train your brain to get better used to specific situations. For me specifically, I am being trained to relax my mind when I have intrusive thoughts. The goal and exposure method for CBT depends on the person's issues though.

[@slimy484]

having a short but quiet temper for someone like me (not very similar to IED) It can be tough to build up emotions without letting it out when something inconvenient happens, but i have a problem with that expression, so it all just piles up until i snap. Snapping is bad. As you described, it can be very destructive and noodle up your brain, and that prevents your brain from making the right decision! thanks uncle ER ; this talk gave me some comfort, so I'm glad you shared this with us.

[@NvAnon]

Been really like watching these before bed gives my brain something to focus on but at the same time it’s not something that i have to pay 100% of attention to

[@ariabritton9669]

fun fact: "controlling your anger" isn't about suppressing it, it's about directing it, channeling it. like with guns, you need to aim before you pull your trigger, lest you hurt someone/something you love. you need to calculate when and where to take the shot. bottling your rage isn't the answer, but focusing it to a point then unleashing it there can make you a powerful person, both physically and mentally.

[@potatolord7284]

I've found ways to work around explosive outbursts but I do relate personally to the issues you've faced. The main thing I do is try to be more and more direct aswell as refrain from swearing as much as I can manage while upset. By being loud but saying what I need to calm down as directly/quickly as I can, may that be leaving the room or getting some water or help even. I don't blame you for getting mad at the times you do, emotions are a nightmare. it's essentially the brain not really telling us much and just flooding us with chemicals that make our thoughts spin. Happy to hear you've made progress, it's good to be proud of progress but it's best not to think that whenever you explode with anger it's getting sent back to square one, in my eyes the longer the times inbetween the negative reactions the better you're doing. Have a good one.

[@Safie_bee]

I have been watching for a very very long time and tbh it surprised me with how calm and collective you are but we're all here to support you ❤🙏

[@solidskullz5736]

This one I relate to, as a kid I would sometimes get angry to the point of violence. I’ve mellowed out over the years, but there are some things that still make me really mad

[@Subject_91]

@@maddyboombaddybaddy6532 personally I don’t necessarily care about others religion, none of my concern, but when it gets brought up, typically it doesn’t have good outcomes most of the time, just in general though

[@DrRepper]

​​@@maddyboombaddybaddy6532 ah man... one of my worse explosive anger episodes came literally about a week after I split up with my first wife. I was drunk with a friend at his flat and another guy there told me my marriage failed because it hadn't happened in a church so wasn't 'sanctified by the Lord'. The evening didn't end well. The cops were called...

[@ryan_yasin]

Dont stop this series for the love of chuthulu! Im dead ass serious about my love for these heart to heart conversations u have with your audience. I love it and im sure a lot of others love it too! And yes , bad temper is something i struggle with too but i think ive mastered the art of controlling it and letting it loose when im at the gym , on the punching bag 😂. The walls here in my country are made from dolid cement so i cant just punch and break through a wall , i wish i could , id in reality end up breaking my hand if i did that , but hey , wont say the thought of punching a concrete wall and breaking my bones hasnt crossed my mind before, as a therapy of easing my anger i mean😂. Anyways , keep it up uncle E , luv it!

[@hansonchen5261]

1 hour video of ER calmly asking you to hold the flashlight still

[@ThyEJ]

Ephemeral I need more of this

[@Glowstikc]

I was diagnosed with both IE.D and ADHD late last year and since then I've looked back and it has made so many situations I've been in make more sense. It's not easy to manage but sometimes when you get in these places and you remember it's not you acting this way because your an asshole, sometimes you just struggle to control this demon. You just have to snap at yourself sometimes.

[@NexusGamingRadical]

I just had a outburst yesterday because my soon to be wife wouldn't drop an arguement and I end up shouting at her for it. I hate these outbursts, its not who I want to be. But seeing you talk so calmly about it and yourself has helped me atleast today put it aside and appoligies. Thanks you Paul.

[@DigitalVanquish]

Wasn't expecting an actual talk, as I've only ever watched your typical, whispering ASMR videos (always bizarre to first hear ASMR creators talk). But this was encouraging to hear - in the best sense - as a young adult.

[@oscar-cm4rc]

I'm 21 and also have an explosive temper. I used to flip out like every 3 weeks I swear. I think for a lot of people, we just don't have any viable avenues for expressing our rage, so it comes out when we don't want it because we don't know how to truly embody our anger and express it in a healthy way. I find that by trying to be calm and "under control" all the time, its actually just counter intuitive, because the anger never actually comes out that way. I try to remember that anger is just a natural emotion that needs to be expressed and it is nothing to be ashamed of. It can be expressed in healthier ways than punching holes in the drywall and scaring our loved ones, which I have done several times. For me, stuff like boxing or just going to rage rooms (places that a specifically made for you to break shit) are really helpful and create more relief than just trying to calm down all the time. Since then I've felt much less pent-up and a lot more embodied. Going to therapy has helped me realize all this as well. I hope this comment wasn't too much to read but I love the videos and I really appreciate these more personal ones!

[@softia42]

47:30 Corvus when angry was enough as a reenactment 😂😂😂

[@FirstXIasmr]

I'm a 21-year-old guy, I don't think I have an explosive temper but I sometimes struggle with getting angry and this can lead me to do/say things I regret, I don't want to get to a point where I can't check myself, I've been learning to keep myself in line but it's so hard because my emotions can boil over. Great video though👍🏿

[@dashsmash2665]

Same man i always tend to cry a lot tho even tho im not sad just angry

[@FirstXIasmr]

@@dashsmash2665 yeah i feel that, i haven't fully mastered it yet but the best thing you can do is stay present and dont let emotions boil over

[@hyarin123]

Respect for coming to speak on this. I feel you, I hear you for real.

[@Swagtrap_CZ]

For some unexplainable reason these videos feel like some sort of last will from past but also Future at the same time

[@warsmith.fireheart2435]

To craft ones self into further enlightenment, one must sink to ones deepest depravity, to destroy is to build. To lose one's self to the rage however is to lose the battle with sanity

[@memelova1863]

OMG I also have intermittent explosion disorder! It's great to hear someone talk about it and discuss it. In my experience it's often overlooked.

[@Lizzifer7]

Thank you for sharing something so personal. I never experienced true anger and consuming anxiety until my mother died after a short and horrific slaying from cancer (I had also not long given birth to my daughter so two major life changee) Grief and pain manifesting as anxiety and rage. Bruxism and Pain are everyday experiences now.

[@Amandcr]

ADHD comes with impulsiveness which may look like losing your temper, especially when frustrated

[@NateCraven318]

I can relate, Uncle E. I was a VERY violent and easy-to-anger child. I have most definitely learned restraint over the years, but I know just how dangerous I can be if I find myself in a physical altercation, and that's why I try to actively avoid them like the Bubonic Plague. For example, back when I was 12 years old, I almost killed a 14-year-old kid by repeatedly smashing his head into the sidewalk with his own bicycle for trying to run over a stray cat that I'd been feeding for the past month. I completely got away with it, too. Other than being pulled off of him and being told to not do it again. Which I'm happy they did, because when I look back on it, I realize that I probably would have ended up killing him if they didn't pull me off of him.

[@skyper8934]

Based, that's not explosive rage, that should be the norm towards scum like them

[@NateCraven318]

@@skyper8934 To a certain extent. Depends on how bad what they did was. And as far as the kid in question, I have no idea where he is now or what he's up to, but his face was probably never the same after that encounter.

[@pizzam4nn]

Patience is one of the hardest things to hold onto, but when one does, it is alike to a quiet storm. Anger is normal, but not dealing with it in a healthy way, well life will teach you those lessons. I'm glad that you talked about this Mr. Rift, it all affects us differently but how we choose to react and handle it is a big thing.

[@Tree-House69]

I've been on/off dealing with the "rage mode" Era of my ptsd, it was pent up for a good chunk of my life, so sometimes I'm way angrier than I'd expect because all that trauma has caused such deep-seated and raw emotions that I wasn't able to address before.

[@waynehardy4862]

I'm excited to learn the depths of my mind as you have. I ain't seen nothin' yet!

[@Khr-xl3vi]

I have suffered a similar ordeal, for over half my life I lived with not being able to control strong emotions but eventually managed to control it all by myself, which really says something about how you can be your own best help.

[@Jack-TheGhostOfBidensPast]

Sounds SUPER familiar to me; should definitely see an ADHD specialist. Impulsiveness is basically the core thing, and related to emotional regulation, but talking through stuff with a professional seems like it would be really eye opening.

[@Below20Below]

I'm enjoying seeing you explore Intermittent Explosive Disorder actually. I've been diagnosed with it since I've been 15 and It's so nice to see it discussed in a fashion that isn't prejudiced like television and movies often make it out to be. I guess I'm saying thank you for the representation even if you don't have it. It's being discussed in such a respectful and understanding manner.

[@artangelfae]

thank you very much for uploading this, i have never understood people with explosive anger and it makes your mission to relax people and ease others anxiety very profound. sending good energy

[@imreallysottus]

Your voice is incredible, wow!

[@joelhutchison5214]

Just got new AirPods after mine broke about 5 months ago. Listening to your asmr again is great thanks for posting!

[@ambervitacco7059]

Imagining this peaceful man punching holes in the wall feels like a fever dream. Doesn’t seem possible.

[@galeparker1067]

I agree Amber..... ✌️

[@slatt1082]

Love the insight my friend, thank you

[@cyn7696]

Yet again rift your content is exceeding my expectations

[@joshcameron3902]

The anger isn’t the problem. It’s where people channel that energy

[@konig4626]

Ying Yang my friend. Every coin has two sides and if you think you can prepare for the other side to show up, the coin will land on the edge. That's how I see Life :D

[@nymphe8665]

As a child i sometimes got horrible tantrums that would last a long time, i felt so bad about it afterwards. Now i know it was triggered and that it happened because of the abuse and neglect i suffered because of my parents. When i was angry my parents would hit me and ignore me which would make it even worse. I slammed doors, put a hole in the bathroom door, etc but it's nothing compared to what my parents did to me

[@bishop659]

This really isn’t relating to what you were saying, but I do want to tell a little story. Recently I’ve been having mental problems and going a bit insane. I don’t have any therapist or anything. I usually watch KZbin to pass time but I wasn’t finding anything to watch. I tried to watch something and then immediately went off the video. I went on this video and your voice made me feel so much better. I’ve been listening to your ASMR to go to sleep for around a year now and I support your patreon. You have such a calming voice. If you believe I’m making the story up or am just doing this for attention, by my guest and think that. I just wanted to thank you for the work you do. It being from rp ASMR to these stories, you do a damn well job

[@CRClem]

From one human being to other, my condolences for what you are going through. Going crazy is long road with not enough adjectives to describe how it feels. I see you, and I feel you.

[@mygills3050]

“Good now. I hope you are doing absolutely positively unequivocally splen- *fucking* -tastic day.” -E, the boxing video.

[@BigStinker_14]

The only reason I know how to patch up a wall. I always told myself it’s better to hit something inanimate and just damage myself than something that will feel and remember it.

[@stofosaurus]

When I was a kid and me and my dad would have a fight I used to punch holes through walls. Better than pushing him I guess... I did that too but not as often as punching the walls. He should consider himself lucky.

[@georg2010cz]

I was an avid follower back in the days, acutally checked back now after some years, to some of my favourite ASMR ists - the first video I actually click on the most relaxing channel I ever knew is: "Cursed with explosive temper" 😂

[@thegnome87]

Damn this one is relatable. I might not be the best at controlling my emotions but at least I'm pretty good at patching drywall

[@kennywayne4495]

Thanks for your honesty brother.

[@granitestorm8206]

ER, the only man who can talk and whisper and still sound relaxing either way

[@bluai]

if u like it its called soft spoken lol, many others can do it but er does it very well

[@luciferthenekomaid7986]

I found out his name is paul

[@rickytoktok138]

​@@luciferthenekomaid7986 Welcome to the channel

[@N51totallynotprivatemilitary]

@@d4rkl3g3nds9 why?

[@PuppyOrion]

My dad had the same kind of explosive anger and last year I realized I had it as well. I was having a conversation with my boyfriend at the time, I can't for the life of me remember what it was about, but I just remember being overwhelmed with the urge to lash out and punch him in the face. Thankfully, I didn't do it, I managed to deescalate the situation calmly, but we did end up breaking up and have been living separately for almost a year now. I've never told anyone about this, because I'm not a violent person usually, and under normal circumstances there's no reason for me to get to that place.

[@lonelyteapot858]

What's with the hair?! Like seriously. Every time I see him it's either bald, short hair and no beard or gandalf. He's a magic

[@taznixx1126]

​@@thehermit8618 what's cycles

[@christopherbalmer350]

I was exactly the same way and I feel like I'm watching a future version of myself speaking truth. Love ur content ephemeral rift. Long time viewer.

[@DrRepper]

My temper is and always has been what professionals refer to as 'an absolute dick'. I just blow up, smash stuff/occasionally people, then immediately feel bad about it because it's totally out of proportion with whatever set me off. Hitting my head is a guaranteed trigger. Any sort of perceived aggression/disrespect/'alpha male' chest-puffing/deliberate ridicule sent in my direction makes me explode. My road rage is ridiculous. If I drink I'm a liability. It's irresistible at the time and ALWAYS momentarily exhilarating then immediately remorse-inducing. At 42 I'm still a very, very long way from fixing it. CBT for depression has helped. I've always been impulsive and a thrill-seeker, and I'm on a diagnosis pathway for ADHD too. I dunno. I fully identify with what you're saying anyway.

[@Necrom6]

It's weird thinking about Paul as anything but a calm guy, because of the scripted and relaxed format of an asmr video

[@TigerWoodsLibido]

I wish ER would make a brief cameo in a group ASMR collab. He’s such an important figure in it since the beginning.

[@jdprettynails]

Thank you for thinking of us future people!

[@gonnerkat8753]

sometimes i play shooter games, fps, like destiny 2. i'm mostly fine so long as i stick to strictly player vs environment type scenarios... but recently i played some pvp and man o man did that get me mad. i got so angry i had to get up and find the nearest cardboard box to beat until flattened. the one i chose was a bit too sturdy though. one of those special laminated boxes. i ended up finding that my knuckles were bleeding after i was finished punching (just two, not all of them). then the onset of regret. gotta love that cycle...

[@rsleeze5203]

I got it 2 Uncle E I can totally relate, I try not to let it define me as a person yk and I look for the points and the signs for when I’m gonna really snap so I can prevent it from happening in the first place:) cheers n keep ur head up

[@moto3463]

I can relate to this very much. I am a very kind and goofy person on the surface but underneath I am extremely tempered and can get explosive anger and impatience in almost every situation. I used to punch myself in the head at 10 years old randomly for no reason..but with age I’ve managed to control it through self healing and being away from negative people have helped.

[@-Kailinn-]

I've made about 5 holes in walls/doors, 1 hole in a drawer, 1 broken drawer door, and damaged a thick wooden door by repeatedly hitting it. The positive side is my knuckles feel no pain. I'd say most of them occurred and were brought about by a feeling of a lack of control in my life, dysfunction at home, and just like in Anger Management I just don't like to confront people about things I feel should be obvious when they show a total lack of self awareness, a disregard for others, and a lack of respect. I like peace and solitude, I don't like to stand out, I'm not confrontational. I have had anxiety and depression for a lot of my life, and I was quite introverted. I'm still all of those things but to a lesser degree, and I manage them all better.

[@Sup3rAJ2]

I am also someone who suffers a lot from an infamously short fuse, which definitely doesn't get the recognition it should as a serious problem. So I respect taking the time to talk about it. I personally manage to keep my own anger somewhat in check by just abusing a singular household item, a big navy blue plastic cup that has survived many outbursts. It did have a brother that met the buisiness end of a campfire, which as it turns out is not very good for plastic. The remaining one can still hold a beverage though so that's good.

[@3rii_855]

i think my dad also hads IED or whatever the name is i dont remember but this video was both very calming and very insightful into what i could do to help him, thanks as always rifty!!!

[@georgeheilman885]

Listening to this while working from home and trying not to fly off the handle. Seems fitting.

[@samw]

i so needed this.

[@uselessusername879]

A classmate ripped a solid metal gym door completely off once, he also caused a metal basketball hoop and backboard raised by an old winch to fall a whole 30 feet down

[@MendicantBias124]

Mane I be flippin fug out bruh thanks for the chill Vibe

[@c.f.7408]

This was too relatable

[@christiantanner9728]

I'm honestly baffled just listening to how much I relate to you. I got bullied as a kid and that made me an aggressive individual. I got in a decent amount of fights in middle-school but what i relate to the most is the trouble Making I'm a godamn Pyro maniac and I love getting in trouble and running. I actually just did yesterday after breaking into a junkyard $2000 fine i had to jump a barbed wire fence to leave. they ain't cuff me yet 🗣‼️

[@lukeshearwood1357]

Just found this video by chance. Thanks a lot! I just I wish I found this before punching a hole in my wall.

[@mattball420]

I think being calm 98% of the time is atleast partially why lol its gotta come out some time, alot of ppl come of as rude but theyre venting as they go, when you dont, it just builds up. It hurts the mind just as much as holding in a p¡ss, imagine you get to the point of physically being incapable of holding it, telling yourself "i know i shouldnt p¡ss my pants on the city bus" isnt going to save you lol we just tend to ignore it because it isnt a physical pain, if the brain had pain receptors we'd be in for a rude awakening 🤯

[@nicholasmurner7523]

My buddy got so mad one time he punched the floor and broke his knuckle

[@ultragreenishere3249]

Thank you, I don't feel so alone now :)

[@tylerbaer1829]

Thid is something i deal with too! Otherwise i fit in and am a totally normal person, but when very subtle things happen i have such a temper and i have been trying to fix it.

[@toddlarue2992]

EF: gets personal and deep into his feelings Me: 😴 💤

[@ohnohere2b43]

Thank you for being honest

[@Karma-ji6ud]

I'm not sure of the hows, whys, and whats, or what exactly you may be experiencing when it comes to your anger, but if it's anything like what I'm imagining as an "explosive" anger, I'd say having an anger that's wild in the moment but doesn't last long, is far better than letting it consume you and keep you angry and bitter for days. My family on my dad's side has experienced anger issues for generations and unfortunately I'm the same. However my anger is something I had managed to grasp early on, and now I actively try to avoid letting it consume me. Unfortunately in recent times I've started falling back into old habits, however I still will not let my anger keep it's tight grip on me. Unlike those before me, I don't actively direct my anger towards hurting those I love. I may throw shade here and there, but I do not see taking it out on whoever is nearby as a valid way of dealing with it. When I'm angry I leave to do something else.

[@erwwinexists]

Some pepole are like landmines, you step on the wrong nerve and they just fcking explode.

[@pikabamboo4175]

A yes i am cursed thank you, thank you god for this charming trait.

[@idealpilled]

you are, like, the last guy i'd ever expect to have a short temper, and i mean that as a compliment i have kind of a short fuse myself, don't worry about it have a good day or night, and just remember that everyone makes mistakes and to not put yourself down for them

[@Manogor2000]

This reminds me a lot of myself, thank you for sharing

[@DeadlyScoots]

My house was robbed last year and I was so upset I kicked a hole into the drywall, honestly surprised me how easy it was and if I kicked a little more to the left I woulda hit a beam and not broke through, and this was just a week before we moved out. I had little time to buy supplies and learn how to fix it in my own, it was almost therapeutic seeing my progress as I finished. In the moment it happened though it was crazy how fast I went from high anger to instant regret, but for some reason it still felt a little good to get that out of me.

[@davidpinegar6143]

You hit the nail on the head bro !

[@allenlink8032]

Stop what you are doing and leave when the hand shakes. Learned that early and saved me so much trouble. Being aware of one's anger is power. Yer such an interesting feller. Keep that shit up.

[@thelordoftheweebs9501]

I've broken a lot in my days. Fortunately, not my hands or knuckles.