ESHRAL - SLEEPLESS (Audio) | @eshral.otb

Eshral - Sleepless (Audio) - Track 6 from the album "Predetermined"
Produced and mixed by Eshral (@prodbyeshral)
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Cover art by Rani Race (@ranileea) and Eshral (@eshral.otb)
Lyrics:
My mind's sleepless, I gotta face the facts I'm better at the deep stuff,
Yeah I'm coping but I've been rough I've seen nuff shit that made me not wanna live but now I gotta live it up,
Fill up my cup, now I'm thinking bout the stuff, that's in the back of my head but it's protected by this front,
Then I look at either side of me and see my ride or dies with me, this loving bond's thicker than our blood.
Now I'm sitting in the shed king zoobie in my right hand and talent in my left,
That's one of many ways I've learnt how to deal with my stress, now I'm grieving regrets, feel it in my chest,
Forgive forget, this world's the opposite instead, we all make mistakes but how many of us make amends,
I'm living bless, same time I'm living stressed, like a devil in heaven do I deserve what's coming next.
I wish I could understand all the shit that I never planned, when my head is stuck in the ground wanna fly a paper plane and never land,
Netherlands now I'm sitting up in the dam bunning up on the dankest grams, tryna wash away all the blood that's on my hands,
And the stains on my heart, this is only the start, one day I'll be as big and maybe even colder than mars,
Me I'm playing my part, got more drive than cars, but now I'm rusty cuz I know that is an overused bar.
Now and then I kick back and listen to my story, I'm always finding fun in simple things you'll never bore me,
I do it right when I'm making these bars up in my inventory, just split the word in two and you'll see I deserve my glory,
And that went over your heads, but it's okay cuz one day I'll have a genius page explaining all this for me,
And I'm still tryna wash away all the stains, up in my brain, that's why I'm telling you all of my stories.
That's why I'm speaking on my imperfections, never been impressed by people flexing that they've been arrested,
And when the haters think I'll be infected I just redirect it, into bars I'm gonna teach em lessons,
And to the youth and to the kids who are in need of blessings, just know that life ain't all about the things that keep you stressing,
It's more about the memories that keep you breathing, when the happiness is leaving, looking back they help to keep you stepping.
Remember 2020 winter school was shut I didn't like it, wasn't shopping next to Curry's but was left to our devices,
I'm never going jail but I know that freedom's priceless, cuz I was in that bottom bunk trapped inside a nightare,
And when I woke up the voices wouldn't stop their crying, and when I woke up yeah I could still see the fire,
The vision was so violent it was fucking terrifying, and to this day I wonder how I made it out that cycle.
But when the voices left were they really dead, and when I'm rapping to you now is it me or them,
It kinda feels like they're living in my head, and they ain't gotta make a sound cuz they're using me instead,
Fucking hell, all noise, all the pressure, I can access it whenever, I know that shit can motivate me if I keep my head up,
But I'm struggling and fed up, of stressing bout getting bread up, yeah I'm struggling and fed up, I been needing me a leg up.
To higher positions where I can spit and they'll listen, I'm fulfilling my vision, and where my number's are chilling,
Put my pain in a rhythm and rap it all with precision, I know you're feeling the kid and I wouldn't blink or you'll miss it,
Never blink in my dreams that's when I'm wide awake, I'm tryna turn them to reality and change up my ways,
Never blink in my dreams that's when I'm wide awake, my mind's sleepless this music is my only escape.