Ethel Cain - homecoming (demo) [lyrics]

[@frankensteins_robot]

perhaps the saddest thing about the movie is knowing the night could’ve gone “perfectly” and it would still be a horror movie. what about after the prom? what does carrie have to head towards? not a relationship with this “prince charming” or even organic acceptance from her classmates. she would’ve likely ended up back in her mothers clutches eventually. carrie may have developed a sense of will but lack of real-world connection with others would’ve left her lonely and vulnerable against going back to the only place she knows where and how to survive. great sound, beautiful, like everything ethel cain touches

[@lydiagraves5073]

beautifully said

[@aurapiera5333]

i love this

[@davidjohnson4874]

Too bad Charles Xavier didn't find Carrie First 😢

[@randychavez1979]

Carrie realizing this is what actually prompts the massacre in the book

[@atombomb9819]

not to mention she's going home to her mother who's planning on killing her for being a witch anyways so :(

[@gabbyweis7348]

they're all gonna laugh at me on repeat.... so genius. you either get it or you dont

[@GentaroYumeno]

I don't get the meaning of the song. I usually do, but can you please tell me? :)

[@Charliiie415]

@@GentaroYumeno​​⁠​​⁠the song and video are inspired by the 1976 horror film “Carrie”. Ethel initially sings about her and Willoughby’s chaotic and passionate love they share. “Can I tell you a secret? I’m desperate for you” Ethel is Deeply in love. She later talks about them being buried next to each other after they’re love inevitably kills them. She then says “ brought a knife to the gun fight, but they shoot blanks and I’m feeling crazy tonight” in the film Carrie is the victim of a very cruel joke. They pour pigs blood on her after she’s crowned prom queen but even before then when she arrives at prom with her date, everyone is staring at her because he was a part of the prank. Hayden has said before that Ethel Cain is trans so the lyric about everyone staring and feeling like there’s no air in the room probably have to do with Ethel being anxious about everyone staring at her at the homecoming dance because she’s visibly trans. Making her feel like she’s the butt end of an inside joke that everyone els is in on. “THEY’RE ALL GOING TO LAUGH AT ME” is inspired by a line from the movie where Carrie’s mother warns her that everyone’s going to laugh at her at the dance. “They’re all going to laugh at you” he mother told her before she left the dance, and she was right. Carrie ends up killing everyone in the dance with her telepathic powers and burns it to the ground, locking everyone inside for good measure.

[@GentaroYumeno]

@@Charliiie415 Oh... so putting Carrie as the background wasn't a coincidence..

[@Charliiie415]

@@GentaroYumeno no lol, it was intentional

[@Pixienightmaregirl]

@@Charliiie415this is a genuine question/query/point. I love your interpretation. However to counter it, Hayden has said that anything before PD that she hasn’t officially released isn’t canon to the Ethel Cain lore around PD. More just Hayden finding her sound. But again, once she said that her EP’s etc are more a reflection of her (Hayden’s) own life experiences, not Ethel’s directly (lore canon wise); but can be associated with Ethel more so as an extension of Hayden not anchored into the EC/PD storytelling. I’d argue this is around Carrie and how Hayden relates to it through her own life experience, rather than EC/PD lore. At least until she releases it as an extension of EC/PD lore as she will with some of her old demos etc for the B-sides. ⛪️♥️

[@jorgeyuki1501]

This track sounds like a song that you could actually hear and dance at a Homecoming. It's pretty sad and painfull, specially when the "I am secretly still scared that you'll see underneath and you'll leave me here" hits.

[@jorgeyuki1501]

"My loves is your love and your problem too."

[@davidjohnson4874]

I usually hate repeativness but the end of this song hits every inch of my soul. "They're all gunna laugh at me" 😢 my heart shatters 9 times every time!

[@jonathanxavier2026]

The first time she says it, there's a realisation. And every time after that is a resignation to that end. And she sings it with such sadness, like a plea.

[@FishStank]

Repetition is such a powerful literary device that she uses really well! We’ve just lost that as an art unfortunately because of pop songs that kind of drone on and on without a purpose imo

[@joshuaclark769]

i felt that; my body just sinks

[@Hnnhjkjm]

It’s so addictive. Hauntingly beautiful. Don’t even know how many times i watched it now

[@mariepoppins444]

this is my favorite song ever. theres just something about it that makes me repeat it over and over again for hours and somehow it gets better each time. its such a relatable song in a way and its just so so good its so me i love it.

[@LILBOOBAT]

Same, I was wondering if it was just me 💔

[@Harukipuff]

@@LILBOOBAT Yes! I've been listening to this song pretty much daily since I last heard it earlier last year and it never, ever gets old. One of Hayden's best, if not my favorite of hers (tied very closely with Waco). Unreal sound, no other song has this kind of staying power for me

[@znekkk]

real

[@ignxtev]

imagine Carrie themed music video with Ethel as Carrie?😱

[@moodybassist]

I'm making a video like that

[@moodybassist]

Been in the works for a while

[@avedic]

@@moodybassist that is amazing! cannot wait. :)

[@420filmgirlz]

I Made one to ptolomaea!

[@Hung4Jesus]

@@420filmgirlz YOU SLAY!!!! Watched every video and liked them all!!!

[@winkydinkytoodlesnoot8141]

my life won’t be complete until she releases this

[@ynnahhh12]

unfortunately it won’t happen it doesn’t fit into the ethel cain lore. this was a side project she did and it won’t ever be officially dropped since “ethel cain” is a story and a very curated art piece

[@fohaus7786]

Agreed

[@enzomion5068]

could fit with ethel's mother story though 😢 ​@@ynnahhh12

[@oomiemak]

@@ynnahhh12not necessarily, her new album is a completely separate project from the ethel cain storyline

[@gerayub9808]

​​@@oomiemak its not ethel cain mother history?

[@mirrorball326]

2:31 this part + “but i’m secretly still scared that you’ll see underneath and you’ll leave me here” changed my brain chemistry

[@blueetomorrowszs]

When this kind of fire starts, it’s very hard to put out. The tender boughs of innocence burn first, and the wind rises, and then all goodness is in jeopardy.

[@davidross2452]

ethel needs to watch twin peaks ffs

[@growing.flowers]

Whats that from

[@davidross2452]

@@growing.flowers twin peaks fire walk w me!

[@cannibalbunny]

Man that movie made me cry so much

[@mereisnotonfire]

chills… literal chills…

[@angelinao3916]

Idk why but “we both get too close til we fuckin explode” always gets to me

[@SamuelFnderio]

2:03 the harmonies still haunts me beautifully to this day

[@iciukas]

Sissy spacek is divine, what an angel my god. Definitely belongs to Ethel Cain universe

[@joshibirdy14]

This is an extremely intimate song; both emotionally and sensually. I love Ethel so much and YOU for making this a certified ~ vibe ~

[@tylerfergu98]

this has been on repeat for days. its the only thing i can listen to. i wake up with it in my head. its my favorite ethel song

[@sainttheresetaylor2054]

me too ❤

[@arno2777]

The synth on homecoming queen just hits hard

[@robin-dx2zd]

i wish she released this on spotify

[@augustine-zn9ej]

i literally uploaded soundcloud just for this song

[@Wiglytuff26]

been listening to this on repeat for a month this edit is really good.

[@taylorflopera]

This song being removed from SoundCloud was the start of my downfall. deadass.

[@Wardato]

I’ve literally listened to this thirty times today. Thank you mother

[@jana3873]

This is genius imagery and imagination thank you to whoever edited this video to this song

[@Joshua_Kyle]

You’re welcome 🙃

[@mrcat1043]

claiming this sound for the next album

[@dawgpuppydawg]

lmao

[@Walkemdowntakeemtopoundtown]

Damn

[@nobodycares5057]

“my love is my love its big love for u. Til its ur love and its ur love and its ur problem too”the way she sings is so hauntingly beautiful. i wish this song was on spotify

[@michemicalromance]

the lyrics and the movie match so perfectlyy

[@klarion2636]

She made the song based on the movie “Carrie” which the clips in this video are from

[@michemicalromance]

@@klarion2636 ahh that makes sense

[@rar3br33d6]

Just found out about this artist & fell in love. The voice, style, vibe - Just on another level 💙

[@Skairayx]

“Everyone’s watching us, and I can’t breathe. They’re all gonna laugh at me.” ☹️

[@ridethedragon836]

I hate the way this song makes me feel, but I love it

[@evergreenevan]

this video is beautiful and perfect w this song its like ethel made it herself

[@pariahthistledowne3934]

Thank ya...ONLY Sissy Spacek Nailed Carrie. You are something truly GREAT, Kid....keep it up! Anyone able should watch the Film "'G'Night Mother"...another Sissy Classic...in a more Artsy, Stage-Adaptation type Film. YOU WILL NOT regret it. Love and Light to all yaz Yungstas!

[@juliocesarquispevargas6887]

Gente tan mala y egoísta rompieron los sueños e ilusiones de carrie hermosa canción me hizo llorar y mas aun recordar aquella película me identifico mucho con ella ella tenía una madre muy religiosa igual yo ella sufría de bullying en la prepa yo también oh dios mío tanta gente cruel no se ponen a pensar que hay personas diferentes y sencibles que merecen un trato digno no seamos crueles con angeles q vinieron a esta tierra con una misión.

[@THAT_CRY_B4BY]

I literally cant go a day without listening to this song

[@neveroncamera]

the lyrics just hit so close to home she’s singing about something I’ve felt so deeply

[@Lily_x00x_]

half of this views is just me, i have to come back here atleast once a day religiously

[@softslug]

This song and this edit together are perfect, makes me transcend thank you!!!!😜

[@shelzblack488]

The video really fits....absolutely beautiful Ethel ❤️

[@chiriquikis.-.1678]

balled my eyes out to this song, hayden youve done it again

[@green3y3dgirl]

I broke my own heart to this song fr

[@taylor0395]

This makes me so emotional and feel so sorry for Carrie, beautiful song and you've done an incredible job creating this video. Thank you for it ❤

[@fohaus7786]

This is perfect. Carrie White didn’t deserve this and this is so Ethel Cain Core. I didn’t know I needed this. Thank you 🙏🏽😞

[@joejs7659]

This is one of the greatest songs i’ve heard. So expressionistic.

[@Russell-x6k]

It’s on Spotify btw, although not officially by Ethel herself.

[@felixf.8400]

How can i find it?

[@devinmurphy-stanley6542]

great editing and great vid thank you for this

[@ikeeptheangel]

every few weeks i come back to this video and it still tears me apart

[@mark45xxx83]

Great song but I'll admit Carrie always made me sad because anyway you cut it there was never going to be a happy ending for her because she truly had no one. And what's really Hart breaking is even with all our modern day technology like the internet there are still so many men and women that feel so utterly alone.

[@LonelyKombos]

Just found out about this artist, this is absolutely beautiful

[@goodgirlheaven]

i always come back to this song when i’m having an episode and realize i’ll never be happy

[@sainttheresetaylor2054]

you can and will be happy babe ❤ i am wishing that for you

[@avani5907]

Will she ever release this? It’s my first time listening to this song since I refrain from listening to unreleased work. My God, this song is good.

[@camfuentes986]

Her unreleased demos honestly go harder than a lot of her releases, id avoid refraining

[@idc__art]

Someone said it might be on the b-sides???

[@achoo5891]

no she said she made this for fun about carrie

[@broadcastneo5289]

@@achoo5891For fun turned really serious

[@aidenmarchky8532]

@@achoo5891SHES NOT RELEASING THIS ARE U FVCKING SERIOUS

[@isaiah____]

fire in my eyes i just stand here and bleed crying in your arms baby can we just leave everyone's watching us and i cant breathe theyre all gonna laugh at me

[@LivvyGreen22]

this is art. it will go down in history, I am sure of it. the dissonance of the instrumental paired with her angelic vocals at the end - it was perfect.

[@bellavanhorn6859]

I think she just removed the song off of SoundCloud I’m gonna cry myself to sleep

[@taylora4353]

She did 😭😭😭😭 went to listen this morning and saw

[@FishStank]

How did she write my high school experience 🥰 (I know this is about Carrie obviously but I was mercilessly bullied for being gay lmao)

[@Gabriel_Menendez]

I hope you are doing better now

[@paulwyle]

this song is so beautiful

[@marlamorrison97]

bro got taken out by a bucket 😭

[@arekkuson]

love the editing

[@brujaconchq]

Please be on Preacher's wife or an ep

[@undolove]

Since it’s a demo I assume it will be on the b sides

[@user-be6ld6jk6k]

You’re a genius.

[@Christfollower06]

she best release soon i swear to god this shit is so amazing!!!!!! Also i love the vid and i have to watch that movie now

[@koikun]

such a fucking beautiful voice and a gorgeous song..

[@substha-r6q]

Been here for a week

[@oomf_irl]

same💔

[@eveism]

I'VE BEEN HERE FOR WEEKS I'VE BEEN HWRE FOR YEARS I'VE BEEN HERE TOO LONGG 😟😩😩😩

[@Roseshavethorns]

@@eveismand I forgot what stop means

[@lesamisdeluisa4773]

Magnifique!!!

[@tayler6281]

THIS IS AMAZING OMG

[@visualsno]

I love you so much! I'm so proud of you for overcoming everything. I hope you never forget how loved you are.

[@mxgnxlxx]

I'm haunted by this song in the best way which is why I keep returning.

[@LILBOOBAT]

This song saved my life 💔

[@bloodbunny6366]

Stolen gardenia, makeshift lapel It's bad behavior but I’ll never tell if you don’t And you won’t Your breath on my neck through my homecoming dress I'm more patient now then I ever have been Placated by a cold flask on your hip And we’re dancing Can I tell you a secret? I’m desperate for you [Chorus] My love is my love, it’s big love for you ’Til it’s your love, then it’s your love And it’s your problem too Here, just inches away from you Four left feet in a room Always all over you You know and I know it’s just how it goes We both get too close ’til we fucking explode And I hope they bury me right next to you [Verse 2] Brought a knife to the gunfight But they shoot blanks and I’m feeling crazy tonight But I’m secretly still scared That you’ll see underneath and you’ll leave me here I’ll cry till my hair all falls out Is it just me or is this room way too loud? Don’t look now but everyone’s staring at us weird And is it just me, or is there no air in here? [Chorus] My love is my love and bleeds like a wound You pretend not to notice something I like about you Young and sweet, only seventeen I’m the real pig blood soaked fucking homecoming queen Fire in my eyes, I just stand here and bleed Crying in your arms, baby, can’t we just leave? Everyone’s watching us and I can’t breathe They’re all gonna laugh at me [Interlude] They’re all gonna laugh at me They’re all gonna laugh at me They’re all gonna laugh at me They’re all gonna laugh at me They’re all gonna laugh at me They’re all gonna laugh at me They’re all gonna laugh at me They’re all gonna laugh

[@lucylillian495]

this is a perfect edit

[@kyvonbelli8305]

2:03 so beautiful

[@kurt_exe3606]

I haven’t heard this one?? Was it leaked/released recently?

[@theeboyyjt]

i always come back to this video

[@dollppelganger]

perfection, both the video and the song

[@Harlan-kj8id]

Carrie’s religious and family trauma echo Ethel’s Preacher’s Daughter… of course the ending is different 😅

[@ryanmelontube]

This is her saddest song ever wow

[@LuigiRosaCarvalho]

Listen to Head In The Wall, that’s the most depressing song I’ve ever heard in my life it’s so good

[@zakyadam2621]

to me, this is like Gibson girl but better

[@DannyMan3616]

amazingggg

[@rar3lotus]

Phenomenal

[@ashleygray4769]

Best song everrrrr❤🙌🖤💜

[@anitacigarette]

Ethel's music is heavenly & heartbreaking. Yet another song I relate so deeply to that I just cry.

[@benkoren7980]

I was hoping someone would edit this

[@elsafinstad]

Amazing edit perfect song

[@brandonmartinez591]

Sissy spacek is so Ethel Cain coded

[@jordanmalveaux1584]

I’ve never loved a song more than I love this one

[@friendboyee]

THEE BEST SONG EVER

[@SomeoneBlue-c2x]

This is PERFECT!!!! Is this available on Spotify?

[@junlucas69]

unfortunately no it's not but you can always download this and import it. ❤

[@SomeoneBlue-c2x]

@@junlucas69 omg my future husband

[@michaelpout9701]

Your everything in my meenless life i don't have anything else to look forward to I'll never get tired of listening to you or looking at you id be the lucky one to take you to the prom ❤

[@ac.l1467]

hermoso

[@AmandaDavila920]

I NEED THIS ON SPOTIFY! I can't find it💔

[@randychavez1979]

It's unreleased

[@LunaM-zb4vo]

this is fuckimg beautiful

[@DaphneSublime]

"my love is my love and bleeds like a wound"

[@growing.flowers]

My love is my love is big love for you

[@aminenfr]

i love this

[@overdosf]

they're all gonna laugh at me.

[@glengarner4566]

Hayden, I don't expect anything from this comment. But I hope you understand that you are a vital source of artistic energy in 2025. That's really gay to say, isn't it? But... you are honestly so insanely talented, and I'm beyond grateful for sharing this fucking planet with you. There has literally never been anyone with the range you're offering. And I just pray that the earth gives us a few more years to hear what you are creating. You honest-to-god mean a lot to me. I wish I had the resources to pay you for the importance you've given my otherwise absent life.

[@growing.flowers]

Made me watch Carrie ❤

[@liambo3140]

they're all gonna laugh at me

[@growing.flowers]

I fucking love carrie

[@kand1grllxx]

SOMEONE PUT THIS ON SPOTIFY

[@bronwynwilson3111]

Is song this available for purchase anywhere?

[@_parzivalbishop8298]

i’ll be awake every night thinking of carrie white

[@shushles]

she made this song for me btw

[@karlasofia3742]

yo